So here’s a convo I had recently that stood out from the rest:
Them: Hey, have you ever been on tv?
Me: Yup. A couple episodes of a tv show, some commercials, stuff like that.
Them: Were you on Grey’s Anatomy?
Me: *snorts* No. Definitely not. I was on a lower budget medical show.
Them: Which one?
Me: Untold Stories of the ER.
Them: Do you remember the story line?
Me: Sure. (I then proceed to recap one of the episodes I was on)
Them: (all excited) I knew it! I was watching tv last night and I knew that was you! You were a main character! When did you film that? How much money did you earn? What was it like? Are you sure it wasn’t Grey’s Anatomy?
I had to laugh, I’m pretty sure I’d remember being on Grey’s Anatomy, pretty sure my bank account would remember it also lol
It’s weird timing though. I’ve been working on convincing myself I need to grow up, be more responsible, get this whole being an adult thing sorted, and part of that means pulling back from acting. Not because I want to, the only time I ever feel like I am actually doing something well is when I am acting, it is when I feel most myself, it however does not pay the bills and at some point making sure I can pay rent, and buy groceries, and ya know, function within society and not be a drain on it starts to outweigh doing something I love but don’t get paid for, at least not enough to survive on.
It’s a sucky thing when that decision has to be made, but I’m not the first person to have to make it and I won’t be the last.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not giving it up entirely, I’m just taking the money that I would be putting in to more acting workshops and classes and a new demo reel and investing them in school for a bit. Non acting school I mean. Classes to build up my resume, classes to give me a chance at advancement or potentially a new career path. Ya know, grown up classes.
So let’s cheers to being an adult shall we? Maybe it won’t suck as much as I think it will! *crosses fingers*
Good on you too see that.