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Driven To Eat

13 Jan

I am not a huge alcohol drinker. I’m not that person who has a glass of wine every evening, or who when out for dinner automatically orders a highball and I’m definitely not that person who when stressed/irritated makes the comment “I need a drink!”

I completely understand the urge to reach for something to take the edge off though. What do I reach for?

Chocolate! πŸ˜€

Yes, that’s right, when I am done dealing with a super stressful/annoying situation I think (though rarely say) “I need chocolate!” and heaven help me if there is any nearby *rolls eyes*

I used to reach for fast food, so I suppose reaching for chocolate is a bit of an improvement?…ok fine, I know it’s not but let me have my illusion k? πŸ˜‰

Today I had to deal with this one resident who tests my patience like nobody else on the planet. She tests everybody’s patience so don’t go judging me and thinking I’m the only one who has an issue here lol She’s a nice lady, just…shrug, high maintenance? Something that should take less than 5 minutes to sort easily takes 30 minutes cause of how she does things. If it is quiet then it’s fine but today I had line ups at the desk, every phone line ringing and she was being super high maintenance, as in suuuuuuper high maintenance! As in omg I want to hit my head against a wall to get out of this situation because that would be less painful!

After I was done helping her I actually sat at my desk, head in my hands, exhausted from the ordeal. I also actively had the thought “I need chocolate. Desperately need chocolate.” Fortunately, or unfortunately (depending how you want to look at it) we had some lovely Purdy’s chocolates at work and oh boy did I snack! Three! I ate three amazingly delish chocolates, they are two layers of chocolate with a layer of mint in between, it was my first time having them and I can easily say they are ranking up there as a new fave. Mmm!

Mmm! Chocolate and mint, one of the best combos ev-ah!

Mmm! Chocolate and mint, one of the best combos ev-ah!

I know it isn’t good to have food as a release valve when stressed, just like it isn’t good to use food as a reward or a way to celebrate something or provide comfort for something going badly…and yet! lol

I don’t use food for any of those reasons as much as I used to, or at least I don’t think I do, but I can definitely remember a number of times when I used food for those reasons. I remember after a photo shoot a couple years ago, it ended around 9pm and I hadn’t eaten since breakfast so I was starving, as a way to celebrate an awesome shoot I bought pizza and dessert breadsticks on the way home from Panago. I justified the meal because (1) I hadn’t eaten in a freakish long time and (2) celebrating a great shoot. Ridiculous right? I’ve had other similar situations and it’s, sigh, it’s just a dumb way to use food. I try to get my thinking to change to “food is fuel” but it’s hard. So many people socialize around food, or celebrate around food, or mourn around food, food is used in so many situations that I guess it’s a natural progression to food becoming a source of comfort, a stress reliever, a way to celebrate.

Just because it is a natural progression doesn’t mean it isn’t stupid though. πŸ˜›

Speaking of stupid…I was supposed to go to the gym today after work. It was to be my first time back since being sick and then the hip injury. I had my whole workout plan figured out, was actually pretty psyched to be going back and what happened? I ended up napping when I got home, then taking forever to properly wake up, then taking forever to figure out what to make for dinner and making it and eating it, then I got wrapped up in watching the new episode of Law & Order SVU and then it became now and it is too late to go. Crap. I know it’s my fault I didn’t go, I should have gone right after work, or forced myself to get up from that nap, or something but I didn’t and now I have yet one more day under my belt of not hitting up the gym…and what makes it worse is that one more day under my belt involves three Purdy’s chocolates! *groan*

Oh Yawn

2 Feb

Soooooo tired *yawn* I had the worst sleep last night, went to bed late and kept waking up all through the night, ugh. I hate when that happens. 😦  I was out at the movies last night with a friend, we saw Blue Valentine, have you seen it? It rocks and I totally recommend it – I paid the price for going out last night by having a killer tired day but hey, you can’t stop having a social life just so you can get a good nights sleep…right?

Usually when I am uber tired I crave carbs – quick energy ya know! But not today, weird but nice. I didn’t have any trouble sticking to my points today and I wasn’t craving any not allowed foods. Maybe part of it was cause all I wanted to do was have a nap, my body wasn’t wanting fuel it was wanting sleep lol. πŸ˜€

So you’d think I’d come home and have a nap right? Nope! Not my style. As much as I may want to nap I don’t – naps just make me feel draggy and more tired afterwards. I am hoping by staying awake and being active (not exercise active but doing stuff active) I will sleep better tonight – I’m crossing my fingers about this. πŸ˜›

My activity this evening? Baking! Yah! I made banana chocolate chip cake – I never know if I should call it cake or bread, I bake it in loaf pans and it gets sliced like bread…and some people warm up their slice and put margarine on it…all that screams bread to me but the original recipe is my mother’s and she put it in a cake dish and it was cut in to small squares and was definitely a cake…so uh, hmm…I still don’t know, shrug. It doesn’t really matter I s’pose, all that matters is that it is a well loved recipe I like making and people love eating the results. πŸ™‚ The best part of baking for me is seeing people enjoy what I make – well that and the actual process of creating the baked goods…it’s just so much fun!

I forgot my food tracker at work, oops, let’s see if I can remember what I ate today:

1 pckg Instant Quaker Oatmeal = 3 points

1 orange = 1 point

1 cup Fire Roasted Sweet Pepper & Tomato soup = 2 points

1 piece bread = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

raw carrots = 0 points

1 Bodywise Bagel = 2 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

light miracle whip, mustard = 0 points

1 scrambled egg =Β 2 points

1 slice deli turkey = 0 points

mixed cooked veggies = 0 points

1 banana bran muffin = 2 points

1/2 cup peppermint candy ice cream = 4 points

Total points eaten is 21. πŸ˜€

Yes, you read the last food item in the list correct, I ate ice cream! hehehehe. Oh and you know what? It was gooooood! I saw it in the grocery store, it was uber cheap and a limited time flavour, what can I say – advertisers know how to snag me. lol. I figured if I am careful with it I can enjoy it without screwing up my diet and today I did ok. πŸ™‚ Sure, 4 points for something that is a snack and not beneficial nutrient wise is kinda stupid but sometimes a girl just needs a treat. lol. Oh, fyi, the ice cream was strawberry with candy cane crushed up in to it, wow! Who came up with that? Cause that idea was fricken brilliant! πŸ˜€