Archive | February, 2012

A New Beginning

24 Feb

Just Do It!

 

I am leaving Weight Watchers…yes, you read that correctly. Although, since I never officially joined, just did the program on my own I guess I’m not “officially” leaving them since well, how can you leave something you were never really a part of?

I learned a lot from Weight Watchers and I will take those lessons with me. I learned about proper portion sizes, and how to eat food groups, I learned how to actually read a nutritional label (I used to glance at them as if I knew what I was doing but didn’t actually read them lol). I think overall I learned common sense, something some people say can’t be learned lol, because, really, in the end Weight Watchers is common sense. They give you the tools and you use them or you don’t and the results you get are reflective of the work you put in to the program.

The only problem with that last sentence is the results you get aren’t always reflective of the work you put in to the program, and that’s where my love affair with Weight Watchers started to go wrong. For the longest time if I ate my points and did my exercising I lost weight every week, maybe not a lot but I’d lose something and so life was good. But I have been stuck on a plateau since last summer, yup, you read that right, last freakin summer! and my irritation with Weight Watchers and myself was reaching a level I didn’t think possible. Yes, since moving to the new apartment I hadn’t been tracking or paying all that close attention to what I was eating or portion sizes but that is partly because for the previous 6 months even though I had been doing all that nothing had been changing, I was stuck at the same weight for so long that I just gave up. Lame huh?

I probably would have stayed on this cycle of meaning to start tracking again but not doing it and going to the gym about 3 times a week but totally counter acting any work I did in the gym by eating a donut or something else ridiculously bad for me except I had a talk with my agent last week. I had emailed her because I am not getting any auditions and I wanted to ask her if she’d be willing to put me in as a wild card for some auditions to help get me seen more. I am aware there aren’t a lot of casting calls for 5’8″ redheads lol so I was thinking if she put me in for say, auditions meant for brunettes or something maybe somebody would decide that hey maybe a redhead would be good in this role too. Well, she called me back and in the nicest voice (she really sounds like such a sweet lady when she’s tearing your heart out) she informed me that she is putting me out there for anything in my height/age range but I need to lose weight because the girls I am going up against are all around 120lbs and I am not…Now, normally anybody with any self-esteem would not let someone tell them they are too fat and that they have to lose a specific amount of weight but an actor’s relationship with their agent is different so all I did during this convo was make agreeing noises, say “yup” a lot and basically just took it. It’s like a whipped dog, tail between it’s legs, just takes the painful crap cause there’s no other option. *rolls eyes* Suckfest huh? Cause, yes, I know I am overweight, especially for the acting world, but come on! I’m a lot smaller then I was and how the fuck am I gonna lose more weight? I’ve been stuck at this weight for so long telling me to lose so I weigh 120lbs, well, you might as well be telling me I need to lose 500lbs, I have no idea how to do it! sigh

Luckily, fates were on my side that day, later in the day I was meeting up with NC who is someone I have recently been seeing and when I told him the gist of the convo with my agent he said he could help me. Turns out that he used to be a personal trainer and he’s kept up with all the info on the topic so he actually knows what he is talking about lol. Guess that explains how he is in such amazing shape…seriously, amazing! He says if I follow the program he makes for me I could lose 20lbs in 2 months but not just lose the weight like become a smaller version of me, I’d be more toned, in shape, fit…so a healthy weight loss…which is what I need but have no idea how to accomplish on my own. Sweet huh?

So, that is why I haven’t been writing for the last little bit, I’ve been learning the new program I am going to be following and wanted to wait till I had a better understanding of it before I wrote too much about it. I don’t want to write something that ends up being incorrect and have you all think I am nutso lol. Because even though I trust that NC knows what he is talking about and is teaching me good habits etc I am also reading books on the eating style he is having me follow so I can understand the science behind what I am doing…cause, people, there really is a science behind it, it’s crazed! lol

I’ll write more about what my eating and exercise habits are going to be from now on another day, since this post is already nice an long lol but now you know what I am up to over here. 🙂

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I Am An Actor

12 Feb

  • I Am An Actor

    Ok, so this isn’t really a post since I’m not going to write a lot, lol, just thought I’d share this with all of you. 🙂
    I’ve had an awesome weekend, I was trying on clothes and discovered I have gone down a size, yah! I knew my pants were fitting looser but I thought it was cause they are all about the same age and they were stretching out a bit, turns out nope, they really are bigger on me lol. Don’t you love when that happens?
    I feel I shouldn’t celebrate it too too much since I didn’t lose the size by eating healthy and exercising, I did it through poor eating habits and sporadic exercise and really, it’s probably my body’s way of trying to cope with less vitamins and nutrients and more sugar and caffeine but hey, for today anyways I will do a happy dance and rejoice. 😀
    Tomorrow I am meeting up with a contact, we are going to write a short film and post it on youtube, mostly just for fun but if it goes viral and makes us famous we’re cool with that lol. 😉  Also, in the world of contacts, I have a friend whose best friend is involved in making 3 (count that, THREE!) films this year so he asked for my headshots and demo reel so he could give them to his friend. Oh I hope something comes of it! So many “big breaks” come from contacts that the actor has and I don’t have many of those at all (read that to mean I have none 😛 ) *crossing fingers*
    I spent this weekend shopping (mostly window shopping, but I still got to try some stuff on lol), went dancing with friends saturday night which I feel should count as exercise since we were shakin’ our tailfeathers 😉 then today (sunday) I went for brunch with KL, we caught up on all our gossip (hey, we’re girls, it’s what we do!) I love going for brunch with KL, we always have so much fun. 😀 Um, let’s see, then I came home and hung out with the cat, had a nap, which has unfortunately caused me to be not alert exactly but not as exhausted as I would like considering I want to be going to bed soon (it’s 12:13am on Monday…although, when I publish this I will alter the time to be still on Sunday so it shows up on the calendar of my posts on the day I want it to, aren’t I so sneaky? teehee)
    I didn’t do any “real” exercise this weekend, unless you count shopping, dancing and walking lol. I can’t bring myself to be upset about it though since I’m down a siiiiiize! Sorry I keep bringing that up, it’s just so exciting since I’ve been plateaued for sooooo long! Maybe, if I start eating closer to properly and exercise more frequently I’ll not only maintain this new size but go down a bit farther? Ooooh, the excitement! lol
    And look at that, looks like I wrote enough it really is a normal post after all, sigh, I’m so chatty *rolls eyes*

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Ahhhh Telus

10 Feb

My internet died, went down, crashed…whatever term you want to use it went away. It was very sad, doubly so since I don’t have cable so I felt especially cut off from the world.  😦

I don’t understand those people that willingly stop going online and watching tv and using cell phones for a week or a month or 6 months or a year as some kind of test to prove they don’t need technology. I neeeeeed technology! I crave it! I live for it! I was on facebook and twitter via my smart phone (which is not very smart considering how many technical problems the pos has, erg) every 5 minutes or so terrified I was missing something hugely important!

Oh, and no, I don’t mean hugely important like what a friends kid did or didn’t do that was oh-so-cute *rolls eyes* I can’t stand those facebook status updates, sigh, I mean like, a natural disaster, or Obama being killed (and yes, I do think he has a higher chance of getting assassinated (side note, haha! a word that says “ass” twice in the spelling of it!  😛 ) then Harper…the Prime Minister of Canada in case you were wondering who the heck I was talking about lol), or the oilsands lighting fire and all of Alberta being evacuated (I’m allowed to say that, I’m Albertan lol). So much of what I know of the world comes from the internet, it used to come from the news but as I mentioned above I don’t have cable anymore so no more 6pm news watching for me…who’d of thought I’d ever miss the news?? Crazy world! Crazy!

Happily, Telus sent over a very nice and competent man who fixed the internet connection and voila! I was back on the information super highway…right in time to be super busy for days and have almost no time to get online let alone post on wordpress, figures huh?

Today though, something way fun happened that I just gotta share! I had a photoshoot today that was sweeeeeeet! It wasn’t an acting photoshoot, it was for Dragon Boating, I (along with others) got asked to take part in the photoshoot to create the new posters and advertising images for the upcoming Dragon Boating season – how awesome is that?!?! It was all done in a studio, we had paddles but no pfd’s (personal flotation devices, fancy way of saying lifejacket…seriously, when did we stop saying lifejacket??) and we sat on these boxes so that we could pretend we were on the water paddling lol. They will photoshop the pictures so the final images will appear as if we are in boats racing. Yet one more reason I love technology! lol Cause man, if we’d had to be on the water for this shoot we’d of frozen our hands off, the water is not yet warm people!

I felt so honoured to be asked, especially once I got there and saw the other people taking part in the shoot. They are all in so much better shape then me, I don’t know how I fell in to this crowd. lol. Paddlers are those people that are tanned, and no nonsense, and the women don’t wear makeup (at least on days when they are on the water) and their hair is either really short or yanked back in a pony tail and they are fit and outdoorsy and well, a lot of things I am not. Luckily, they are also really accepting of others and happy to have people around who also enjoy the sport, even if they don’t fit the stereotypical mold of a racer. Phew! Lucky for me! lol I got to meet a two time World’s Champion, I couldn’t believe she trains out of the same place I train, wow. Lemme tell ya, I thought I was getting decent upper arm and shoulder definition, she is so muscle defined even when she doesn’t flex she’s looking way toned, but not in a guy way!  😛

For the shoot we were all sprayed with glycerin and water so we looked like we got sprayed while on the water paddling, it is sticky feeling and kinda odd but it works. However, it’s been hours since I’ve been home and I washed my face once already and I am still finding little random sticky spots on my neck and face, ick. It got in my hair too, le sigh. My bangs feel nasty but oh well, it’ll wash out when I shower.  🙂 and really, I complain, but it doesn’t really bother me, I’ve been through lots worse on photoshoots but I always have so much fun that I don’t really care. Heck, I was put in a bald cap once (which, considering how much hair I have was soooo hard for the make up girl to do) and when she took it off she peeled off some of the skin along my hairline cause she didn’t unstick the glue properly. That hurt! But even with the pain, it was totally worth it. 🙂 I must be crazy huh? lol

So, food and exercise for this past week, I was active monday, tuesday and wednesday to levels I am happy with. Monday and wednesday I hit the gym, both days I got thwarted in my wanting to use the weights (the weight room was booked for a class both days) but I did get in over an hour of cardio, some ab work and some stretching on both days. Tuesday I cleaned the apartment, which I never totally feel should qualify as exercise but I know that it does so, shrug, I’ll use it lol. Thursday I walked, and did manage to work up a bit of a sweat, but I don’t feel it was enough walking to properly qualify as exercise and then today I was photoshooting and then we so tired the rest of the day cause of being up so early and on not enough sleep I didn’t really do much. Totally my bad, I should’ve gone to the gym, or at least for a walk, but I just couldn’t make myself move.

Although, having said that, I seemed to have no trouble moving my ass to the kitchen to keep getting snacks, sigh. I didn’t clue in till way later that I was probably eating so much today because I was so tired and my body was trying to get energy, tsk tsk to me. I should have just gone for a nap or something, that would have probably taken care of the over eating problem I had today but yeah, by the time I realized it was already almost midnight. It’s not often I get way tired like that anymore so I forgot that could happen, *rolls eyes* I’ll hafta be more diligent on early morning days from now on.

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Gorged on Grapes

5 Feb

Mmm, fruit! Especially green grapes, double Mmm! lol This whole fruit has no points thing with the new Points Plus Program is gonna be grrrrrreat! (anybody else hear Tony the Tigers voice say that? lol)

I bought a huge batch of green grapes and have been nibbling on them like a crazy person all weekend, they really fill you up though and since they don’t have a points value attached I didn’t measure them out I just sat and mindlessly ate them and then all of a sudden I was getting ready to go out (this was yesterday) and I realized that ugh, I feel disgusting cause I ate way too many grapes. Oops! Guess I’m gonna hafta watch out for that, it’s a little pitfall I didn’t really think about. *rolls eyes*

I had thought this weekend would be the start of my getting-serious-with-tracking-weekend but I realized that Saturday I had plans that involved lots of alcohol and most likely an extremely bad for me meal and then Sunday I was going out for lunch with a friend to Olive Garden and the odds were good of my eating horribly so perhaps I should wait and start my serious tracking on Monday. I’m not normally a Monday Starter (as I call them, you know, those people who always say “I’m starting my diet this coming Monday” but they never do?) but it just seemed to make sense to me. Why start tracking on a day I know I’m gonna blow it points wise, it’d just be a depressing way to start back with my tracking and planning, shrug. This is how I justified it to myself anyways. lol.

Course, tomorrow I have dinner plans, but oh well, I know where I am going so I will check the menu out before I go and try my best to pre-plan what I am going to order.  🙂

For exercise over the weekend I got a bit derailed but I tried my best…kinda lol. I walked to my friend’s house on Saturday to meet up with everybody, it is about a 40 minute walk or so and part way through the walk I stopped at Safeway to pick up the pineapple juice and the coconut milk for the Pina Coladas we were making so I had some extra weight to carry which I figure, all adds up in the end lol. I did get kinda sweaty from the walk, ew! Not exactly how I wanted to start an evening of merriment but oh well, shrug. There were three of us and we were going rollerskating, I’ll give you a minute to ponder that…take your time…yes, now that you’ve scratched your head and wondered if I took a ride in a time machine back to the 80’s I will explain. There is a roller rink about an hour away via public transit (which we were taking so we could all drink) and one of my friends really really really wanted to go cause she wants to try out for roller derby but she doesn’t have experience roller skating. The idea was the three of us would go, totally suck, probably fall down a lot, but have loads of fun (the way you always end up fun when doing something dorky, like mini golf lol), KL would get to find out if she has any natural skating talent and well, KS and I would just be there for the fun aspect lol. I mean, come on, alcohol + friends + dorky activity = FUN! 😀

Turns out roller skating is way more popular then any of us though, who knew?? When we got there the line to get in was all the way to the door, as in, we were stuck standing outside the door. It eventually started to move but before we got anywhere near the counter the guy working the counter said they were almost out of skates so it was free admission for everyone, if they had your size skate and you got a pair then you could skate, otherwise you were SOL. They didn’t have my size or KS but they did have skates in the right size for KL so we encouraged her to go skate. She, after all, is the one who wants to join roller derby and thereby had a purpose being on the rink. She did great! Total natural, which is awesome. The exercise I had planned on getting at the rink did not happen but not because I was lazy or backed out or anything so I don’t feel badly about not getting my activity points that evening – not like I have any say over the rink having my size skates available. Sometimes you just gotta roll with the punches, or skate with the crowd. hahaha I’m just sooooo witty 😉 lol

Today however, totally my fail lol. I had lunch plans for 12:30p that got moved by my friend to 1p then got moved to 2:30p so originally I was going to go for lunch, hang out with her for a while, then come home, digest a bit and hit up the gym. Wellllll, by the time the plans got changed the third time I was realizing I could have gone to the gym before meeting up with her (but of course my realization came to late, sigh) and we gabbed for so long (hours an hours lol) that by the time I got home it was too late to go. They were still open when I got home (I think, for some reason I can never for sure remember the Sunday hours lol) but I was so full no way could I have gone right away and by the time I was feeling digested enough to go they were for sure closed. Epic Fail on my part.

Tomorrow however is another page in my life and I plan on going to the gym no matter what. I am setting my alarm for earlier then I normally would just to make sure I get up and go before I have to start everything else I am doing tomorrow. I want it to be the first thing I accomplish tomorrow so that it can’t get sidelined or ditched cause I run out of time later in the day.

I have a plan people, albeit, a tentative one, but I’m gonna do my best to follow it, make it more concrete, and make this program work for me! …I feel I should shout that marine shout you always hear in movies lol

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Fitocracy

1 Feb

I joined a website called Fitocracy…the site is http://www.fitocracy.com. It is supposed to make losing weight fun, like a game, you earn points, level up, compete against your friends…basically it is trying to help you trick yourself into thinking you want to eat less, eat healthy and exercise more. I figure with all this wonderous plateauing I have been doing for frickin ever and the fact that I can’t seem to get off my fat arse to get with the program (the new Weight Watchers Points Plus Program that is) maybe I can trick myself into getting back in the game…

And hey, if the tricking doesn’t work then maybe I will start exercising on a more regular basis and eating better just out of embarrassement since you can follow your friends and they can follow you and everyone can see how you are doing…or not doing in my case. lol.

A friend of mine from AB had it on his facebook wall with a link to join, I thought hey, why not, I need to try something new. Since I joined I have been sick (last week, nasty cold, couldn’t breathe or talk, sadness) and this week I have been working longer hours then normal for me (while still getting over my cold) and now, this is so embarrassing, I scraped my chin (yes, the way a child with no coordination would *rolls eyes*) and it got infected, ugh, so now my chin looks horrible! As in disgusting! As in people are staring at me and everyone I speak with eventually says (with a tone of horror) “what happened to your chin” and then they look like maybe they should back away in case it’s something contagious, like leprosy. sigh. So no way am I going to the gym when I look like this, just not happenin!

However, by not going last week due to sickness or this week due to working and (stupid) injury it makes my effort in the land of Fitocracy look like a joke.  😦 There my friends are getting to new levels, building their points up and there is my profile, with nothing happening…it’s almost embarrassing…tho not as embarrassing as the looks people are giving my chin…do you know how hard it is to get gauze to stay on a chin??? Really freakin hard!

So despite my having all the tools needed for the Weight Watchers Points Plus Program I haven’t been tracking. 😦 I was going to, took the books and tracker and calculator with me to work on monday but was so busy I never took the stuff out of my bag and by the time I got home I’d completely forgotten about it. I took everything with me again on Tuesday and same thing happened. Oh and yeah, you guessed it, same thing today. Course, today had the added bonus of my chin scrape being so dry that opening my mouth to talk, smile, eat, breathe, anything really causes the skin to pull and huuuuurt and sometimes even crack and bleed, ick right? So I am restricted to eating things that (1) don’t require me to open my mouth wide to be able to eat them and (2) are not hot or cold so if I spill on my chin I don’t yelp in pain…there aren’t as many options as you may think there are. lol

However, despite my suckyness at tracking I am still taking the books, tracker and calculator with me everywhere I go, maybe eventually I’ll put them to work, or maybe the added weight of them in my bag will help me shed some calories? 😉 lol

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