I have been back in the world for 3 days now and my biggest wish is to go back in self-isolation.
Sounds crazy doesn’t it?
The world is different, which sounds dramatic, but it is. There are way less vehicles on the road, and more joggers on the sidewalk. I think gyms might want to be careful, this experience might convince people they really don’t need a gym to stay in shape! lol
My first day out of self-isolation I headed to work. On the few times I had been out during my self-isolation I had never gone faster than a quick walk; I like walking but I really missed driving. On my route to work I passed by a Covid-19 Emergency Response area that was being put up and guarded by RCMP. Not gonna lie, it made me super anxious. I was alright until then, so ya know, a whole 10 minutes in to my drive. Seeing those tents, which look so innocuous on the video I took the next day, made me freak a little.
I’ve watched outbreak movies, I know what those white tents mean!
I know that just because my self-isolation was ending things were not better, heck, we haven’t reached the peak of horrible yet, but it felt that my being allowed out again meant things must be ok. I know that’s stupid, it’s just how it felt. Seeing what they were prepping for really brought it home to me that things are not ok. Which intellectually I had known but now felt deep down.
Which has done nothing for my anxiety levels the last three days. I’m not normally a super anxious human, and am fairly decent in the emergency situations I have been a responder to, but this, nuh-uh, I’m not enjoying how this is making me feel.
My first shift back was an evening shift which means I got fed dinner. Now remember, I get spoiled at work by the food, and that first dinner back was no exception!
Crab cake with asparagus, yam fries, side salad, and pumpkin pie for dessert. Can’t go wrong with that!
In amongst the anxious moments normal things are happening also.
Like the plants I re-potted. I took them to work that first day back and they now live on my window sill. They join the African violet that was re-potted prior to my self-isolation and that a friend at work took care of for me while I couldn’t. The middle plant doesn’t look like it is doing well in this picture but it has opened it’s leaves a lot since settling in and seems ok. I don’t know how to tell if they are happy so I’m going by the premise that they aren’t dead so they can’t be that miserable.
There was a surprise on my window sill when I got back, someone is trying to grow an avocado…
She came and got it fresh water and I have added it to my list of things that need tended to when I’m at work. We don’t know if it will grow but it doesn’t hurt to have a random project on the go.
There is also the new dog that moved in while I was away that is scared of everyone and everything.
Poor little guy. I hope he settles in soon…mostly because I want to pick him up and cuddle him! lol
A friend at work had his birthday yesterday and was kinda bummed because he originally had a trip planned for it, which obviously hasn’t happened. So we got him a cute cupcake and a couple other treats to try to cheer him up.
For the most part that’s been it. There is no such thing as a social life right now, so I go to work and come home. I had a Netflix Party with a friend yesterday, we watched a movie together. It was a lot more fun than I thought it would be thanks to the chat feature on the side of the screen. Will definitely be doing that again!
I’ve had one trip in to a grocery store (for the above cupcake) and don’t want to go back. People weren’t spacing themselves very well, I was definitely closer to people than I was supposed to be, or was comfortable being, and all I could think when I got out was I want a shower. Which is exactly what I did, as soon as I got home I jumped in the shower and realized it did not take long for me to become a germaphobe.
The only fun thing I have to look forward to for the remainder of the week is that tomorrow is April Fool’s Day and a friend and I planned a bit of a trick on a third friend at work, I can’t wait to see the result!
Be safe out there everyone, wash your hands, and stay at least the length of a hockey stick away from people, or if you want to be extra careful, the length of a moose, cause that’s how we measure things in Canada! 😉
The Amazing Shrinking Woman 
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