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Bad Tartar Sauce, Bad!

13 Sep

You know you have had a condiment for too long when it expired in 2009…that wouldn’t be so bad except I didn’t read the expiry date so I measured out my tartar sauce, spread it on my fish dinner and oh man was it bad. So so bad! Luckily I tasted a little bit on my finger and realized which made me immediatly start scraping it off my fish, lol, and put ketchup on instead. I think I got enough of it off cause it’s been an hour or so and no sickly tummy yet! I think I will just stick with ketchup from now on, it is way less points and hello? Ketchup, yum! 😀

I decided I had to find something good weight/body/self-image wise from the weekend to help balance out the negativity from yesterday – here is what I got…a friend I hadn’t seen in 6 months or so is in the city visiting and we got together for coffee, I had tea. I was wearing a warm hoodie and jeans, nothing all that special, and we sat around talking for a couple hours. When we were done we walked through the mall together till we got to the door I needed to get to my car, we hugged bye and he started feeling up my upper back (get your minds out of the gutter!), he was all “holy crap, you’ve lost a bunch of weight!” – I just kinda shook it off cause I was all depressed about my weight gain on the scale that morning but looking back I should be grateful. Someone who hasn’t seen me in a while didn’t see a difference in my weight but he did notice when hugging me, and that’s kinda cool. 🙂 He wouldn’t have been able to tell from looking anyways cause of the sweater so I am not ticked he couldn’t visually see a difference. Oh, and he whistled at my butt! lol. That was more of a joke but I will take what I can get right now. lol. See, that’s what happens when you have crappy self-esteem, you take what you can get and aren’t picky about it cause you don’t expect to get anything better then that. lol. 😛

So there we go, I am still pissed about the weight gain but I found a positive for the weekend too – balancing things out, ya know?

I had three comments on my ranting post from yesterday and all of them said eating more points is a good thing and will help me lose weight. sigh. I have trouble eating my 22 points a day so I don’t know how I am s’posed to eat even more food, oh dear. The comment showing the math really helped it all make sense, how I am eating 1100 calories a day and if I exercise and earn 4 exercise points and don’t eat them that means I am actually only eating like 700 calories that day and even I know that isn’t good!  I am not eating over my points today, I just can’t do it! It’s already 9:20pm-ish and I am soooo full but tomorrow I will try really really hard to eat some of my exercise points. I think I will take a bigger lunch…that might help…if I can manage to eat it all that is. lol. I have started to eat Fibre 1 cereal which is one point higher from the other cereals I usually eat so that’s good; I will just have to keep looking for healthy foods I can eat that are a tad higher in points. This seems twisted since I have spent all this time finding low point foods to eat but hey, I’ll see what I can do!

Today I ate:

1 cup Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Prawn Salad Wrap = 3 points

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 cup raspberries = 1 point

1 piece frozen battered fish = 4 points

85 grams yam fries = 3 points

grilled veggies = 0 points

1 thinsations Oreo Cakesters pckg = 2 points

That puts me at 22 points for the day which I used to think was perfect but now I think means I am not eating enough…talk about needing to re-program what I had just finished programming. Oy!

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Are you freakin kidding me?!?!?! Arghh!!

12 Sep

I am so pissed off right now, GRRRRRR!!!!!!! I was even madder earlier but decided a post full of swears and threats from me to me would not be entertaining to read so I waited till now, when I am marginally calmer…still grrr-ing tho, grr! 😛

Why am I mad you wonder? Well, let me just spit it out…I gained weight! Gained? GAINED!!!!!!! Arrggghhhh! After not cheating all week and adding in exercise what did I do? I gained, that’s right, my plateau is at week frickin four, 4!!!! This sucks. 😦

It’s enough to make a girl wanna quit and man am I tempted but I don’t have a back up plan, it’s not like I decided if Weight Watchers fails me I will go to Jenny Craig or Herbal Magic or some other program…this is it, all I got and doesn’t that leave me screwed? sigh.

Mom thinks I should eat more, she says now that I am exercising I have to eat more of my exercise points and some of my flex points cause my body is freakin out thinking it’s not gonna get enough food now that it is more active…I am not certain I believe this. I might give it some credibility except I have been plateaued for so long, no way am I putting even more food in to me when all my body is doing is staying the same or gaining, screw that!

I am not sure what I am going to do…I can’t quit the program cause if I do I will just go back to eating how I used to which means all the pounds I did manage to lose will just jump back on to my body but following the program doesn’t seem to be doing me any good these past four weeks…four weeks! That’s ridiculous! I am never gonna get thin at this rate, sigh.

Today I ate:

1 cup Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

2 pieces toast = 2 points

2 tsp margarine = 2 points

1 tbls raspberry jam = 1 point

1 timbit = 2 points

1/2 Fiesta Salad = 2.5 points

1 corn on the cob = 1 point

1 tsp marg for the corn = 1 point

2 Hershey Oh Henry cookies = 3 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

1 pckg weight watchers Cheddar Twists = 2 points

So there we are, at my 22 points for the day not that it seems to be doing me any good. blarg. I also originally had a cup of soup with the salad and corn for dinner but it was so gross I only had like 3 spoonfuls of it and had to throw it out, ugh. It was Campbell’s Smoky Bacon Clam Chowder soup, I had never seen that flavour before and thought it sounded kinda good…man was I wrong! I really like soup and thought I would try it now in preperation for winter when thick creamy soups are a nice thing to have on a chilly evening but that is one soup that didn’t make the list. Ah well, gotta try new things to find out if you will like them or not. shrug.

Oh, and it seems all this time I was miscalculating the points for the Fiesta salad, oops! The nutritional info says the salad is 2 points for 100 grams and there are 4 servings in the bag, I thought this meant there are 400 grams in the bag at 2 points per serving, my math calculated the entire bag to 8 points and half a bag at 4 points…the math made sense to me. Well, I took a closer look at the bag and there is only like 326 grams in the bag…so 3 and a bit servings…hmm, who decided to do that? Eesh.  This means the entire bag isn’t even 6.5 points, it’s 6 and some random small number of points…uh, crap! How am I gonna calculate that? I have decided to  calculate the entire bag at 6 points and half a bag as 3 points…I figure guesstimating down is ok cause I don’t use all the toppings that come in the bag. There are two dressings provided and I only use one so that’s gotta take some points away, right?

So there we have it, I am still plateaued, no, not even plateaued since that implies I am staying the same, instead I am getting fatter…just frickin great! Some shrinking woman I am! Hopefully tomorrow I am over being so pissed off and my next post is not quite such a downer but for now, this is all I got…sigh…

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En Garde!

7 Sep

This past saturday I decided I needed to add exercise to my routine because I am plateauing and that just ain’t cool. The problem with exercising (well, one of many!) is finding something interesting and fun that keeps you at a decently active level – and above all, it must be affordable! Well…I found a great activity. 😀

Swordfighting! Yeah, you heard me. lol. 😛 Way way way back a friend of mine was part of organizing a silent auction, she got companies to donate various things for people to bid on. One of the things she got was a swordfighting package, it is 8 classes, tuesday and thursdays from 5p-6:30p and it started today. I have had this gift certificate for ages but the session starts on the first Saturday, Monday and Tuesday of every month and I always seemed to remember about the gift certificate right after all those days pass. I am brilliant like that! lol. Anyway, I somehow managed to remember this month so I signed up and started tonight after work.

this is a rapier sword 🙂

Since it’s the first class it started off pretty simple, learning the proper way to hold the rapier, how to respect the sword and blah blah blah. lol.  I make it out to be boring but it wasn’t, we learned a brief history of this particular sword and some of the basic rules. Then came the really fun part – using the sword! wahahahahaha. 😀 We lunged, thrusted (and doesn’t that just sound dirty teehee), retreated…all kinds of moves. I think I will for sure have to practice before class thursday cause there are so many specific ways to move and thrust (there’s that word again :P).

I will be learning other swords too, I guess there are specifc ways to handle all the different kinds? I think I am learning 3 different ones…but don’t quote me on that!

I wasn’t sure what kind of exercise it would be, ya know, if it’d be worth any decent calories burnt but it got me sweaty so yah! and ick! I counted it as moderate intensity since it started off a little slow then built to fairly moderate for most of the class then ended with stretches…which, fyi, have done little for me cause oh man do my muscles hurt! Not even the ones I was expecting either!

I thought for sure my arms will be hurting cause, duh, holding a sword up for a long time and I have little to no upper body strength but also my legs, butt, lower back and abs…oh, and calves. They are all feeling the burn, wowza. Who’d of thunk it? I probably should stretch some more but I don’t really feel like it right now and I know I will regret that tomorrow but oh well, can’t worry about tomorrow until it is today. 🙂

So here is what I ate today:

2 weetabix = 2 points

1 peach = 1 point

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 cup Tomato and Red Pepper soup = 2 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 piece of toast = 1 point

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 cup blackberries = 1 point

1 Eating Right hamburger patty = 4 points

85 grams Alexia Yam Fries = 3 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

2 Hershey’s Oh Henry Cookies = 3 points

So, I am sitting at 20 points and I definitly have to find something to eat to use those last two points since I earned 5 exercise points. Yah! 😀

You should have seen me making dinner, lol, I was hungry cause I didn’t get to eat till almost 8pm so I was making a mess in the kitchen trying to come up with something that would be high in points since up to that point I had only used 8 points, yeah that’s right, 8 points! I have no idea how I managed that, eesh. I was going to do pasta cause what’s higher in points in my kitchen then that right now but I knew I needed some protein since all I had had up to that point was a tiny bit in the cheese I had a lunch, lame! (and wow, I just used the word “point” a lot!) So burger it was…it’s not really the same without the bun but hey, these are the sacrifices that get made along the way. lol 😛 The yam fries were really good though even if I did burn them a tad. Oops!

Hopefully going to these swordfighting classes will help start me on a active path…I’ll hafta wait and see I guess. I was going to exercise every two days but for the duration of the classes I will exercise every tues and thurs (duh) and 2 more times somewhere in the week…seems fair don’t ya think? I mean, I don’t want to over do it when I am just starting so none of this everyday crap but 4 times a week seems a fair sacrifice. I would do only 3 times a week since I always hear that as a minimum amount to exercise every week but who wants to do just the minimun? Not me! What’s the point in that?

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Self Punishment aka Exercise

6 Sep

Sooooo, yesterday I weighed in and gained 0.2 pounds, ugh, when I got up today I decided to re-weigh myself (I know, it goes against my rule about only weighing in once a week but I was curious as to what the scale would say) so the scale showed I had lost. hmmm. Which result to take? I decided to take todays number, cause, well, duh, it’s lower. lol. That puts me at a total weight loss of 9.8 pounds…still haven’t reached that 10 pound mark but at least I am closer…I want to be able to say I lost 10 pounds dammit!!

I decided instead of waiting one more week to see how my next weigh in is and therefore having 4 weeks of proof I have plateaud I am taking action now! Why wait another week when I can do something now? My course of action is exercise…I am already watching what I eat so I can’t really adjust that, means the only other thing I know that I can change is my activity level. sigh. I like my activity level! I like being lazy and spending most of my time sitting with a book or watching tv or being on my computer…some people just prefer being sedentary. Active people don’t seem to get this. They think that because I am sitting on my couch I am unhappy or unmotivated or depressed or something – they don’t get that I like being this way, this is how I am! Sadly though, in my quest to become skinny I am going to have to change and become a more active person. I won’t ever become that person who wants and enjoys getting up early to go running before work or that person who gets some sick pleasure out of pumping weights but I think I can manage to become a person who finds time in her schedule to fit in exercise and sticks with it. After all, if I can manage to change my eating habits maybe I can manage to change my activity level?

What I want to know is who came up with exercising anyways? Who thought people should plunk themselves on to cardio machines thereby sweating their way over long distances but not ever going anywhere? Who thought hiking a path that is just going to get you back to where you started was a good thing? Have you noticed how exercise seems all about completing a circle of some kind? An eternal loop that tricks you in to thinking you are going somewhere or doing something when really all you are doing is running in the same spot? We are all hamsters in a wheel…depressing.

My form of self-punishment today was a 3.8 km hike; this would be the hike I mentioned in yesterdays post. It is a hiking trail that is labelled medium to strenuous and goes around a golf course. There are multiple paths in to it so you can start anywhere – this is good because that means there are also multiple exits so if you really want to escape the human version of the hamster wheel you can, course, you’re still gonna be stuck outside and away from home so getting off the wheel doesn’t get you anywhere but on a sidewalk by a busy street so strangers driving by can look at you and wonder what the hell you’re doing but hey, least your off that beaten path!

The first half of the hike was fine, I pushed myself so I was really earning my exercise points but hey that’s the point, right? The second half…well to be honest I was wishing for death. My chest and throat hurt from breathing so hard, I had side cramps that were not only on my sides but my front as well so my entire abdomenal area hurt and at one point I felt like throwing up my breakfast. Pleasant, no? God I hate exercising. By the time I got home I was sweaty (ew!) tired and ready for a nap but instead of napping I became my own drill sergeant and did some streches in the hopes I don’t tighten up overnight and wake up tomorrow barely able to walk. Have I mentioned I hate exercising?

The only plus side to this whole exercise thing is you earn points, the same way your food is worth points in weight watchers so is your exercise. I earned 8 exercise points, wOOt! You have options with these points. You can eat them or not eat them, up to you. I figured I would not eat them cause then I would lose weight faster but mom (who actually goes to the weight watcher meetings) says the people there tell you to eat the exercise points because if you don’t you are not taking in enough calories for your activity level that day. Hmmm. I don’t know, I am not sure I totally agree with that. So I am compromising, I am eating some of my exercise points but nowhere near all, heck, not even half of them…today I ate 2.5 of them. 🙂

Today I ate:

3/4 cup blueberry special k = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

2 pcs toast =2 points

1 tsp marg = 1 point

1/2 tbls raspberry jam = 0.5 point

2/6 Delissio Grilled Chicken, tomato and spinach pizza = 10 points

1 medium slush = 2 points

37 grams Maltesers = 4 points

1 thinsations choc covered pretzels = 2 points

A grand total of 24.5 points with 8 exercise points earned. 😀 Not so bad for a Sunday.

I feel I should explain about the pizza, I bought it last week cause it was on sale and I thought 1/6th of the pizza for 5 points wasn’t such a bad thing…I should not food shop when I am hungry, it ruins my reasonability. lol. The only days I will be able to eat this pizza is on weekends cause that’s the only way I will be able to find a way to fit in the points. I cut the pizza in half and put half back in the freezer. The other half I baked, duh. The pizza is roughly a square and I needed to divide it in to sixths. Does that make sense? So with the half I had I cut it in to three pieces and at two of them, hence my 2/6 of a pizza serving. 🙂 Hey, it makes sense to me. 😛 I gave the third cooked piece to my roomie thereby saving me the dilemna of eating the cold piece tomorrow for breakfast cause hey, who doesn’t love cold pizza? The other half I will eat maybe next weekend so I can get it out of the fridge before it freezer burns, we shall see! It was pretty good. I bit in to my first piece too quickly and burned the roof of my mouth but that’s my problem, not the pizzas. I would not say it is the same as delivery (you know, that’s the slogan for delissio, “not delivery, it’s delissio”) but it was decent for a frozen pizza.

All in all, eating pizza and chocolate all in one day seemed to make the pain of exercising not worth it but a bit more bareable. But don’t get thinking I like it! 😛 lol

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TV Coma

4 Sep

I love long weekends, who doesn’t? I usually try to do something at least mildly productive during them since I have three wonderful days off work instead of just two but so far I have done nothing but mimic a sloth – I must say, my sloth abilities are deserving of top marks. 😛

Today I slept in, ate, then sat on the couch and proceeded to watch whatever was on…I caught some tv show episodes and also watched a couple movies I hadn’t gotten around to seeing yet. But now, approximately 8 hours after turning the tv on I am realizing my brain has stopped functioning and is in a partial coma…hmmm…

I have been so lazy today that it took me until after 11pm to turn on my laptop – because it just seemed like to much work! Too much work? It has been sitting within arms reach of me all day…but it was going to take too much effort to reach over, flip open the lid and press that power button…I can’t remember a time I have been so lazy (unless I am sick but that doesn’t count! lol). I figure before I go crawling off to bed to continue with my all day sleep fest I should do something mildly purposeful  – hence my post. 🙂

I had weigh in day today, I’d say I don’t want to talk about it but duh! this blog is all about the weight I am trying to lose so it seems only fair to keep you in the loop. This week was an epic fail, sigh. I want to lie and say I maintained but I didn’t…I gained 0.2 pounds…:( I am hanging my head in shame and sitting in a corner due to this failure. double sigh. Well, ok, I should be sitting in a corner with my head hanging but instead I lay on my couch all day attempting to fry brain cells in the hopes of forgetting what a screw up I am with my weight loss.

I can’t believe it! I really can’t, what the hell is going on??? I know I had that fish n chips last weekend but I was only one point over for the day that day and this week I worked really hard at hitting my points exactly, I had a couple days where there were snags but not so many I thought it’d screw up weigh in day. I hate weigh in day. Grr.

I have decided that I have hit some kind of stupid plateau, I know according to weight watcher rules I can’t say that till I have had 4 sucky weeks in a row but why the heck would I wait another week, for another crappy weigh in result to do something about this problem? I am going to have to do something I really really really don’t want to do…I am going to have to…exercise. Noooooooooooo!!! I don’t wanna! (now picture me stomping my foot, crossing my arms and getting a pouty face) I used to have nothing against exercise, I went everyday after work and weekends too, I did classes, cardio, weights, all kinds of different things but that was a lifetime ago, that girl was a different girl and I don’t know if I can be her again. The girl I am now, she doesn’t know how to do all that active stuff anymore, and the things she does remember she doesn’t want to do because she doesn’t want anyone seeing all her fat jiggle. That’s right, you heard me (well, read me) I don’t exercise cause I don’t want other people to see how much my fat moves around. FYI, when I say people I mean guys.

Not like I think guys are looking at me when I exercise, or if they are it’s with alarm that someone so red in the face is around them and may collapse at any moment – that prob needs a minor explanation, lol, my face goes alarmingly red with very minor exertion, it goes red enough I have had perfect strangers come up and ask if I am ok because I look like I am about to keel over or something.  It was funnier when I was in shape (all those years ago), now, combine the red face with the heaving breath and the fat body and people really do think I am gonna keel over and that’s just not cool.

I tried out a couple different gyms on trial runs hmmm, last year maybe? I can’t afford any of them so even if I found one I wanted to join it wouldn’t matter but none of them were gyms I liked. Most were unisex so I had to deal with all these hot guys around and that just made me uncomfie – the really in shape women made me equally as uncomfie cause I kept thinking they were silently judging me or something. Oh, and yes, I am aware probably way fewer people pay attention to me then I think but hey, I live in my world and in that world a lot of people look at me daily and it stresses me out. 😛 There was one gym that was all ladies but it’s not all that great and costs way too much considering the equipment and classes available.

Now however I am going to hafta do something active because I am sick of the disaster I have had on the scale three weeks running. There is a medium/strenuous hiking trail near my place, it’s 3.8km long so I guess I should start walking that. sigh. There is another hiking path I found by accident months ago that I guess I will try to re-find so I don’t always have to do the same path. Other then that I am not sure what to do. I don’t like exercising at home cause it means I am in the living room and I don’t like the idea of my roomie seeing me exercising (she’s in shape so I’m back to the thinking a thin girl will be judging me). There is a hot yoga place near me I thought I’d try but it’s stupid expensive – why do exercise places have to cost so damn much?!?!?! You’d think the gov would regulate stuff like that since they want all of us to stop being so out of shape and such a drain on the health system, eesh.

If anyone has any suggestions for exercises that don’t involve a gym I am so up for hearing about them! For now though I am going to have to get active in whatever way I can manage. This means that the rest of my lazy long weekend has to not be lazy, least not all the time. Sad. I am going to attempt to hike that trail tomorrow (weather permitting) and maybe sometime over the weekend I will walk to the train station to see how long it would take, there is one near my place and one far from my place. If I take runners to work in the morning I could walk to the station near my place and after work get off at the one far from my place and walk home, enforced exercise. I wonder though, is it better to do that or better to drive home like always and then go for the hike – the hike has more up and down hills and I wouldn’t have to stop for red lights etc…it’s something to think on anyways.

Here is what I ate today (keep in mind I was lazy and unhappy cause of the stupid scale):

1 toasted sandwich

    – 1 scrambled egg = 2 points

    – 2 pieces toast = 2 points

    – 2 pieces turkey bacon = 2 points

    – 1 cheese slice = 1 point

    – tomato slices and ketchup = 0 points

1 cup pineapple = 1 point

18 pieces Maltesers = 4 points

1 whole wheat tortilla = 2 points

1/2 tblsp light peanut butter = 1 point

1/2 tblsp nutella = 1 point

1 package Jolly Time Kettle Corn = 1 point

fruit smoothie = ? points

So, the points that can be added up are 19 points but I don’t know what the smoothie is. I took some frozen mixed berries and put them in the magic bullet with milk to make a smoothie. I measured half a cup of milk and a cup of berries but it was too thick so I added some more milk and that made it too runny so I added a bit more berries and finally it was ok but with all the adding of little amounts of milk and berries I ended up not knowing exactly how much I used. It should have been a 2 point shake but it went over that, how much it went over however, I am not sure. And, to top all that, it wasn’t even worth it! lol. My roomie drinks them all the time so I figured I’d do it and all it tasted like was milky fruit, not as gross as it sounds but really bland. I asked her about it and turns out she uses vanilla flavoured soy milk so hers tastes better, and she adds a bit of sugar. Ah well, it was an attempt and even though it didn’t work it got me some more fruit which is always good.  

I am not looking forward to tomorrow and my having to exercise, ugh, this is gonna suck but if it shows results on the scale next week I guess that’ll make it worth it…now to find my small iPod so I can have it all charged an ready…crap, I have no idea where I left that thing…

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