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Weight Watchers Wednesday: Humidity

27 Jul

I hate humidity. Not just a little, vague hatred. I. Hate. Humidity.

humidity

I didn’t used to hate it, it was just a thing that happened in summer, no biggy right? Well, ha! Turns out humidity can totally mess with a weigh-in, grr!

I actually managed to get to the Wednesday meeting this week, vs the Thursday meeting I’ve been hitting up for the past couple weeks. When I was at home I stepped on my own scale, mostly out of curiosity. I was feeling ok considering I’d been in Harrison most of the weekend racing and eating. I was fully expecting to be up on the scale but not by too much so why not learn the bad news sooner rather than later, right?

So my scale said I’d gone down 1.5lbs, yay! My scale and the WW scale don’t match, mine always shows me about a pound or so lighter than the official scale but I figure that difference is due to (1) it being a different scale and they all seem to be a little off from each other, like clocks and (2) I’m wearing clothes when on the official scale but at home I am usually, hmm, how to put this delicately? In a state of undress. 😉 I’ve gotten used to the two scales not matching, I figure as long as they both go up or down by the same amount then it’s all good.

When I had my official weigh-in I was only down 0.8lbs.

What the hell is that??

Not cool WW scale. Not. Cool.

The leader said it was probably due to the humidity. Hence my new hatred for humidity lol

The room the meeting is in is freakishly hot, and humid, as is most of the city (to varying degrees). The only space with no humidity that I have discovered is my apartment and that is because it is still super chilly in here. I live in a basement suite and have no control over the heat, my place is cold year round. In fact it only juuuuust got warm enough in here that I have stopped wearing my flannel pj bottoms and am just wearing a nightshirt…well, also bed socks but that is cause my feet get cold, *pout*.

So yeah, apparently in my apartment, the land that humidity has forgotten, I had lost 1.5lbs. Out there in the real world that translates in to a loss of 0.8lbs.

At the meeting the topic was All Things Summer. Basically, how do you deal with summer, do you love or hate it, find it easier or more challenging to follow the program, stuff like that. I don’t know if I find it easier or harder to follow the program in summer because I started in summer, shrug, guess I’ll find out once it is winter lol

This week was also about being in the moment, really savouring various things that have to do with summer. Some examples were taking a moment to really appreciate and enjoy that piece of summer fruit you are about to bite in to. Or finding time, even if it is only 5 minutes to close your eyes, breathe deep, clear you mind and focus on your breath and body. Apparently it can do wonders…

There wasn’t anything really insightful or amazing said at the meeting, or at least nothing impressive enough that I wrote notes lol There is a recipe in the weekly booklet they hand out that I want to try, a Pasta Salad with Tomato and Basil. The picture looks delish and it seems easy enough. I thought I had all the ingredients for it but alas, I do not, so it’ll have to wait a week before I have everything I need to give it a go. I’ll let you know how it turns out. 🙂

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The Smell of Stupid

2 Oct

You might not think that ‘stupid’ can have a smell, let me assure you, it can.

I was cooking dinner this evening and two things happened. The first is this semi-yummy meal…

Mmm, pasta, shrimp and veggies.

Mmm, pasta, shrimp and veggies.

It is Catelli Healthy Harvest pasta, no name mixed veggies, 9 frozen pre-cooked shrimp all mixed up with Classico Alfredo & Sun dried Tomato pasta sauce. I rate it a semi-yummy because I prefer a higher sauce-to-pasta ratio so to me it was a bit bland. I cooked 85 grams (1 cup) of pasta because the box said that is a serving, ummm, yeah, way too much! Next time I will half the amount I cook and that should be plenty, bonus is that I can keep the same amount of sauce (1/4 cup) and that should be a much better sauce-to-pasta ratio for me. 🙂

But really, the meal is not the most important thing that occurred during the cooking of dinner. This also happened…

How lovely, melted plastic!

How lovely, melted plastic!

Something you should know about my kitchen, I have almost no counter space. I don’t mean I have a normal sized counter and it is covered with stuff, I mean to the left of the sink I have a space wide enough to have two cups side-by-side (so, tiny space!) and to the right of the sink I have just enough space to hold a dish drainer…is that what it’s called? I mean the thing you put your just washed dishes in to so they can air dry. And that is it. That is all my counter space.

This means a lot of food prep happens on top of the stove because there is nowhere else to do it.

Soooo, this evening I have water in a pot coming to a boil on one front element, on a back element I have a pan heating up to eventually cook the shrimp in and on the other front element I have my kitchen scale, which I am using to measure out my veggies. The veggies are kept frozen so I kept having to pause in the pouring of them in to the bowl that is on top of the scale so I can hit the bag against the edge of the sink in an effort to break them apart.

Then…the smell starts. It doesn’t smell good. I couldn’t figure out what it was, none of my food should smell like that, but I don’t have any candles burning, nor is anything else in the apartment creating a smell, so what the heck is it?

Even though I don’t like the smell I can’t figure out what it is so I keep doing what I am doing, figuring whatever is causing the smell will stop eventually, or make itself known.

I take a look at the pan on the back burner and realize it isn’t warming up, which makes me take a look at the stove knobs which made me realize holy shit I’d turned on the front element and was cooking my kitchen scale! Ack!

I immediately pulled the scale off the burner and strings of melted plastic spread from the bottom of the scale to the element, like melted cheese on a pizza, but smellier.

Sigh.

I put the scale upside down on the edge of the sink, I couldn’t think of any better place it should be put to cool down lol and stared at it in horror. Horror! This oh-so-awesome scale was a gift from my brother yeeeeears ago! I’ve been using this scale at least 7 years…holy crap I feel old now…but that’s besides the point! This scale is awesome, and I cooked it! Who does that?!?! 😦

Not gonna lie, I started to get upset not only because I was stupid and cooked the scale but because now I was going to have to try to find money to buy a new scale asap so I can keep on with weighing out my food, sigh. Then I remembered I have a back-up scale, yay! Couple years or so ago my mom got given a scale from a friend and she passed it on to me, it is a Weight Watchers scale that can calculate the points of a food while it is on the scale, cool huh? I didn’t use it because I wasn’t following Weight Watchers at the time and if I did need to weigh something, well, I already had a scale, shrug. Me being me though I kept the WW scale, in the box, in perfect condition, in a rubbermaid container where it would be safe.

Point to me for keeping the scale! 🙂

I pulled the WW scale out of storage after I finished dinner and was so close to being relieved when I realized it didn’t have a battery and it takes a 9V battery, not exactly something I just randomly have lying around. I know, I’m so weird right? 😉 lol

But fear not! When I went to put my dishes in the sink I tested the scale. It had cooled off so I flipped it over and tried turning it on and holy crap it works! Wowza! 😀 I cooked the scale so much I can see clear through to it’s innards but that sucker still works! Talk about quality made! lol

Now all I have to do is figure out how to get the melted plastic that has become one with the burner off the burner…and ideas?

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30-ish

13 Jun

Alrighty so today was THE day, the day I was stepping on…dun-dun-dunnn…the scale! (insert scream here!)

It was NOT a pleasant experience at all! 😦

Everything started off ok, I got the new battery in, chose a flat non-carpeted spot to place it (as per the sticker on the bottom), stood on it once to get it calibrated (still following what the sticker said). According to the sticker you step on, wait till it flashes a number, ignore the number, step off, wait till the screen goes blank then step back on because only after all that is the scale actually able to properly weigh you.

I gotta say, after all that, the number that showed up on that stupid silly little digital screen made me so upset I couldn’t decide if I should hit something, cry, pout, break the scale, crawl back in to bed and hide or immediately sell my car so I could find a doctor and get liposuction.

Of course I did none of those things,  I hopped in the shower with that horrible horrible number repeating itself in my head and gazed blindly at the wall of the shower wondering what the hell happened. How had I let that happen?? Talk about epic fail.

I had thought I’d gained 10-15 pounds from the last time I weighed myself, which, in case you are wondering was hmm, two years or so ago? I stopped weighing myself when I started building more muscle and the scale number stopped giving me proper feedback on my progress. Um yeah, no, according to the scale I have gone up 30 pounds. THIRTY POUNDS!!!

fat cat 2

I just don’t get it, I mean yeah I have gone up a pant size, but usually a pant size is 10 pounds, and my top half hasn’t changed size in years, where are these thirty pounds? Where?!?!

Why didn’t any of my friends give me a heads up I was headed back in to porker land? Aren’t friends supposed to tell you things like this? 😦

pig

I’m so mad about that number!

A friend of mine, who is also a co-worker, was at work today and I spoke to her, I was in such a funk and I needed to vent to someone. Turns out she doesn’t even own a scale so as soon as I said I stepped on one she was asking me why I would do that lol Only the supremely fit wonder why the rest of us rely so much on the scale *rolls eyes* She is a personal trainer and couldn’t believe the number the scale gave me. She also said that:

(1) the scale can’t tell the difference between fat and muscle and since we’ve known each other (about a year) I’ve put on muscle

(2) unless it is one of the scales that tells you your body fat percentage, muscle and water retention the number doesn’t mean anything

(3) if I’m wearing the same, or close to the same clothing size as before then the change in number can’t all be fat gain

(4) never pay attention to a scale

During our convo another co-worker walked in and heard what we were talking about, she said she gained 40 pounds in a year so my weight gain is a totally possible thing to which my friend asked about her clothing sizes and she admitted she went up 4 clothing sizes in that one year…so she most likely gained fat (I’m not being mean, she is the one who said that!) where as I apparently gained some combo of fat and muscle…I just don’t get it, sigh. I mean, I get it in theory, but that doesn’t help me with how I’m feeling right now.

It especially doesn’t help that I have an audition tomorrow and have to be in a swimsuit. 😦

So I don’t know what to do…I was freaking out when still at home and getting ready for work and decided that things need to change asap. I made my healthy breakfast (dropped an egg on the floor while doing it, ugh, messy!), made a healthy dinner to take to work (which I accidentally left on the counter when I left for work so I had to throw it out when I got home, talk about a day for wasting food, sigh), decided I am no longer eating food from work unless it is legit healthy or I stupidly leave my healthy food at home *rolls eyes* and I took workout gear with me so when I was done at 9pm I changed at work and went for a run in the area I work. I find by the time I get home at 9:30pm it is too dark to run but if I run at 9pm it is still decently light outside hence the running where I work.

I was paranoid about how I looked when I left the house but while at work I went to the washroom and thought I looked good in the mirror…am I trying to subconsciously delude myself about how bad the situation has gotten? Are my eyes tricking me? Maybe the mirror is faulty?

When I was finished at work and changed in to my workout gear I could see all my problem spots but I was still confused about the change in number, no way I would have been able to wear the t-shirt I was wearing the last time I weighed this amount, it is too slim fitting, and I only bought these work out pants when I was a lower weight then I am now (about 15 pounds lighter than I am now) but they still fit and more importantly they still look good.

So what gives?

I’ve decided to let that number spur me in to motion, be my reason for moving more, eating better, being fitter. I hate that number and even though I have no idea how much of it is fat and how much of it is muscle, I don’t care, I still hate it and I want it to get smaller. I will make it smaller!

More workouts at the gym, more evening runs after work, more proper meals, more focus, more dedication, more pushing myself.

More!

never quit again

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The Battery Debacle

12 Jun

Alrighty so this past weekend I was supposed to buy a new battery for my stupid scale and then on Tuesday I was going to, *gulp* weigh myself for the first time in years…Years! I was not looking forward to this…

There was a slight delay, than a glitch, and well, it didn’t happen, oops?

I forgot to get the old battery out of the scale Sunday night so I could take it with me to work Monday and buy the battery Monday after work. Perhaps my subconscious at work? 😉 I figured oh well, so I’ll buy the battery Tuesday and weigh myself Wednesday, a delay of one day won’t kill me.

One day, ha! 😛

Tuesday I was out and about, helping a friend with some stuff, we did a quick stop at Superstore and I meandered over to the battery section only to find I wasn’t exactly sure which battery I needed. sigh. I still hadn’t taken the battery out of the scale but I remembered what it looked like from the last time I changed the battery and figured how hard could it be to find that same battery? Turns out I had a 50/5o chance of getting it right and I got it wrong. *rolls eyes* The battery is a round flat disc, but there were two batteries like that…who knew?

Look how similar they are!!

Look how similar they are!!

Wednesday I completely forgot about it, was busy hiking and in general just enjoying my day but I remembered Wednesday night and was determined to weigh myself Thursday morning. I put the new battery on my night side table where I couldn’t miss seeing it when I got up and went to sleep with the sure knowledge I would swap the battery out in the morning and somehow find the courage to step on the scale.

Um, well, nope, it took about 15 minutes or so just to get the cover open so I could get the old battery out and that is when I discovered I bought the wrong replacement battery. They look sooooo similar! I almost opened the package to give the one I bought a try anyways but decided against it, I figured better to go buy the proper one and return this one so I can get my money back. Hey, I’m cheap, don’t judge! 😉 lol

No way was I not going to eat before going out to do my errands and when I weigh myself I follow some simple but unalterable rules:

(1) use the toilet first

(2) ingest nothing beforehand

(3) be naked

(4) hop on the scale before hopping into the shower

(5) put my contacts in, they weigh less than my glasses

Which meant no weigh-in for me today, gee, I’m so upset about that…said no one ever! lol

I managed to finally buy the correct battery today, only took me three freakin days! So tomorrow, barring any kind of weird unforeseeable freak occurrence that will prevent me from getting on the scale (please-oh-please let something happen! *crosses fingers* 😉 ) I will be putting that brand new battery in to my evil evil scale and stepping back in to the world of weekly weigh-ins. I have no words to describe how I feel about this but this picture may help give you an idea…

fearI actually prefer weighing in on Tuesdays, or even Wednesdays, but if I don’t get my feet on that scale sooner rather than later I may never do it so Friday morning it is! I may switch to a Tuesday or Wednesday weigh-in next week though, we’ll see just how horrible Fridays weigh-in is and see if I can convince myself to get back on to the scale before the next Friday rolls around lol

 

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My Petrified Rock Dessert

2 Jul

I was given a recipe from my mom to make Chocolate Cake in a Mug, it’s a one serving dessert for that day you really want cake. Sounds great right? It’s a stupid easy recipe and if you’re a baker you most likely have all the ingredients on hand so the other day I decided to give it a try.

Well, let’s just say it was better in theory then in reality. lol. I killed the poor cake, killed it to the point that my spoon couldn’t even make a dent and it became the closest possible thing to petrified rock that could be ever found in a kitchen. *rolls eyes* You’re supposed to microwave for 5 minutes, well, for my microwave that is obviously toooooooo long!

I can’t think of the last time I messed up on a baking project, I just don’t screw up when baking (yes, I’m aware that sounds conceited lol) but this simple little recipe kicked my butt. I put it down to the microwave, I think it would’ve been fine if I’d microwaved it for way less time but once I saw the result I decided I wasn’t up to trying to make it again quite so soon so the Chocolate Cake in a Mug has been shelved for now.

Oh! And you should have seen my mug! I had to soak it in boiling hot water for hours, and then soak it all over again with fresh hot water, then scrub it like crazy, I really thought I’d managed to make the mug unusable which would’ve been disasterous cause the mug was one of my cute Eeyore mugs from England. Can’t ruin those!

Today was supposed to be weigh in day, I haven’t had a weigh in day in almost a month! I know! I’ve already given myself the lecture! lol. I weighed myself before going to AB, but not while in AB cause every scale weighs different so I figured I’d just wait till I got back here but then weekend after weekend I haven’t weighed in for various reasons. Eeek! So even though I am terrified to step on the scale I realized I really have to get on the damn thing today and find out how I’m doing…I am fairly certain I have gained, I’ve felt heavier in my tummy area for a little while now, ugh.

So, I psych myself up, step on the scale and…nothing. Nothing! The stupid battery died! Can you believe it?!?! And of course it doesn’t use a normal battery, took forever but I finally managed to pry the area where the battery lives open and it uses some round flat silver looking battery, yeah, I soooooo don’t have one of those in my place. *rolls eyes* I’m super uber strict budget girl right now and couldn’t justify driving to the store just to buy a battery, a specialty battery that is probably stupidly expensive, sigh, so no weigh in this weekend…I have a job interview Monday and a consultation on Wednesday about my Demo Reel so hopefully this week something positive will happen and I’ll start earning money again, then I will buy the battery and find out where I am weigh in wise…hopefully I’ve not messed up too badly, I don’t think I have cause my clothes still fit (meaning the newish ones I have are too large but still wearable and my older clothes are all ridiculously huge on me lol).

One day I will be at my goal weight and all my clothes will fit properly…I really can’t imagine how that will be but when it happens I’ll let ya know! 😀

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What Happened There??

4 Jun

Oh my, the scale was not my friend today, sigh. 😦 I wasn’t sure how I felt going in to my weigh in, normally I have a feeling for if I gained or lost but this week, shrug, nuthin. I knew that I had eaten well and used almost none of my flex points so that is great, I also knew that my plan to exercise 3 times during the week didn’t work out and I’d only exercised twice so not so great. I was hoping (obviously) to go down but wouldn’t of been too surprised if I stayed the same. Actually, that’s a lie, I would have been very surprised to stay the same cause I followed the eating rules this past week so even if my exercising was less often then I wanted theoretically I still should have lost something.

Apparently my thinking is flawed cause I went up by 1.2 pounds. Yup, up. Sucky or what??

I’m not sure what I did wrong…I went over my food journal to see if I screwed up somewhere and as far as I am concerned I did just fine. Sure I used some flex points on Thursday, and yeah ok I ate dinner at a friend’s house on Wednesday so am unable to calculate my points for that meal but I made sure before I went to eat lightly throughout the day so I’d have more points then normal left for dinner. Since dinner that night was a small piece of chicken and an eyeballed (by me) portion of pasta with a tomato based sauce, oh and salad, I didn’t think I did that badly…maybe it was worse then I thought? And sure I ate all my exercise points on Tuesday but hey, that’s allowed! sigh, and fine, I went out for dinner on Friday after Dragon Boating so I most likely ate all my exercise points then too…ok fine! So my week wasn’t as great as I like to think it was – damn tracking my food and exercise, sigh, makes it harder to lie to myself lol. 😛

I had planned a pure lazy day for today, it is Saturday after all, lol, but once I saw the scale that went out the window and I immediately got dressed for a hike. The scale scared me in to exercising! *rolls eyes*

You know those women that go exercising and they look perfect? Their hair is styled, their makeup is perfect, their clothes are properly fitted and nice looking and even though they are exercising they don’t seem to be sweating and they don’t go red in the face? Yeah…that’s so not me! When I went hiking I was wearing black too large for me exercise pants, a tshirt that was under a long sleeved high necked exercise jacket with my hair yanked back in a messy ponytail, no makeup, sunglasses, ear buds in place and my exposed skin (which is only my face, ears, part of my neck and my fingers from the middle knuckle down) coated in sunscreen. Not fashionable at all! lol.

I am more concerned with preventing sun exposure then with what I look like, lol, which normally doesn’t matter cause the hiking trail doesn’t usually have a lot of people on it when I am on it but it was a beautiful sunny Saturday afternoon so the whole city seemed to be using the trail today. lol. I really pushed myself and by the end my poor legs were hurting, which seems kinda poetic cause they now match the pain in my lower back and arms from Dragon Boating yesterday. Ah the pain of getting in shape! 😛

Today I ate:

1/2 bagel = 2.5 points

1/2 tbls whipped peanut butter = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

29 grams Special K = 2 points

1/2 C 1% milk = 1 point

2 C Campbell’s Rustic Spiced Lentil and Veg Soup = 4 points

2 dinner buns = 2 points

1 tsp margarine = 1 point

1 cheese slice = 1 point

1 slice deli turkey, 1 tsp light miracle whip, 1 tsp mustard = 0 points

1 C mixed blueberries and raspberries = 1 point

1 nectarine = 1 point

1 small slush = 1 point

Total Points Eaten = 18 points

Exercise Points = 6 points

So I still have 2 of my normal daily points left and I earned 6 exercise points so I can eat some of them if I so choose. Which I will probably choose cause I am fairly hungry…I have been waiting all day to eat my serving of Junior Mints, they are like my all time fave candy!, yum! and I can have 40 grams of them (approx 16 pieces) for 3 points which normally doesn’t seem like a good deal but I exercised so I have the points space – and this is why I didn’t lose last week! Me and my wonky logic! lol

Ah well, if my logic lets me eat Junior Mints without feeling guilty, I’ll keep it. 🙂

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A Perfect 10!

19 Sep

I was scared to step on the scale today – so scared I put it off by an hour. I finally decided to just suck it up, step on the stupid thing and get that part of my day over and done with. All I hoped for was to be the same as last week cause as much as that would suck at least I wouldn’t have gained anymore…I just don’t think I could have dealt with gaining again. Lo and behold the number went down! wOOt! 😀

When I did the math it turns out I have lost exactly ten pounds! Yah! I finally got to the ten pounds lost mark! It only took me how frickin long? Well, ok, that isn’t the point and I will try not to dwell, lol.

Now I have a new fear, what if I screw this up and next week I gain again…there is no margin here, no safety net, I am at exactly ten pounds lost so all it takes is one screw up to lose that accomplishment and be back to having lost under ten pounds and that would suck the big one!

Because it’s the weekend and I slept in I got to eat higher pointed foods cause I had to use my points up in less time then normal, I always love and hate that. lol. It means I get to eat something I normally wouldn’t be able to – like pizza – but it also means that I snack on junk and struggle to eat balanced food groups. Stupid food groups. I think chocolate and ice cream should be food groups! 😛

My other fear is about how many points to eat. This past week I used some flex points and ate I think almost all of my exercise points – that is a lot of food and I struggled with it. I struggled with eating over my points because I was so used to thinking I was only allowed 22 points – the extra food was hard to deal with. Also, now that I know I am eating some flex points I found it harder to resist tempting foods, sounds wacky huh? When I was strict and only ate my 22 points of food everyday I (for the most part) didn’t have too hard a time resisting the bad for me stuff that popped up. If someone brought cupcakes in to work I would look then walk away, no biggy, but now I look and wonder…that wondering is gonna be a problem. Too may foods have opened up to me as potentials and really, all they will turn out to be is potential screw ups, potential pounds on my ass, potential eating binges…nothing good in that kind of potential and now I am surrounded by it. sigh.

I guess I have to learn how to be flexibly strict, lol, I don’t think that is even a real term…but it is now cause I have used it!

Today I ate:

1 piece of Delissio pizza = 5 points

1 banana = 2 points

2 Hershey’s Oh Henry cookies = 3 points

1 bag Fiesta Salad = 6.5 points

2 pieces of bread = 2 points

1 tbls Nutella = 2 points

1 apple = 1 point

1 thinsations Oreo cakesters = 2 points

Puts me at a total of 22.5 points used today. I am still a bit hungry but not gonna eat anything cause it’s late and the only food I can find is higher in points then what I am willing to eat. See? That’s another problem…now that I eat some of my flex points I am all “who cares I am at my points for the day, I feel peckish, eat something”…it’s like an evil voice in my head taunting me with the one thing I really want more of (food) but can’t have.  Grr to the evil voice!

For now though that evil voice can go drown if a vat of McDonald’s cooking oil cause I lost ten whole pounds and the voice can’t take that away from me!

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TV Coma

4 Sep

I love long weekends, who doesn’t? I usually try to do something at least mildly productive during them since I have three wonderful days off work instead of just two but so far I have done nothing but mimic a sloth – I must say, my sloth abilities are deserving of top marks. 😛

Today I slept in, ate, then sat on the couch and proceeded to watch whatever was on…I caught some tv show episodes and also watched a couple movies I hadn’t gotten around to seeing yet. But now, approximately 8 hours after turning the tv on I am realizing my brain has stopped functioning and is in a partial coma…hmmm…

I have been so lazy today that it took me until after 11pm to turn on my laptop – because it just seemed like to much work! Too much work? It has been sitting within arms reach of me all day…but it was going to take too much effort to reach over, flip open the lid and press that power button…I can’t remember a time I have been so lazy (unless I am sick but that doesn’t count! lol). I figure before I go crawling off to bed to continue with my all day sleep fest I should do something mildly purposeful  – hence my post. 🙂

I had weigh in day today, I’d say I don’t want to talk about it but duh! this blog is all about the weight I am trying to lose so it seems only fair to keep you in the loop. This week was an epic fail, sigh. I want to lie and say I maintained but I didn’t…I gained 0.2 pounds…:( I am hanging my head in shame and sitting in a corner due to this failure. double sigh. Well, ok, I should be sitting in a corner with my head hanging but instead I lay on my couch all day attempting to fry brain cells in the hopes of forgetting what a screw up I am with my weight loss.

I can’t believe it! I really can’t, what the hell is going on??? I know I had that fish n chips last weekend but I was only one point over for the day that day and this week I worked really hard at hitting my points exactly, I had a couple days where there were snags but not so many I thought it’d screw up weigh in day. I hate weigh in day. Grr.

I have decided that I have hit some kind of stupid plateau, I know according to weight watcher rules I can’t say that till I have had 4 sucky weeks in a row but why the heck would I wait another week, for another crappy weigh in result to do something about this problem? I am going to have to do something I really really really don’t want to do…I am going to have to…exercise. Noooooooooooo!!! I don’t wanna! (now picture me stomping my foot, crossing my arms and getting a pouty face) I used to have nothing against exercise, I went everyday after work and weekends too, I did classes, cardio, weights, all kinds of different things but that was a lifetime ago, that girl was a different girl and I don’t know if I can be her again. The girl I am now, she doesn’t know how to do all that active stuff anymore, and the things she does remember she doesn’t want to do because she doesn’t want anyone seeing all her fat jiggle. That’s right, you heard me (well, read me) I don’t exercise cause I don’t want other people to see how much my fat moves around. FYI, when I say people I mean guys.

Not like I think guys are looking at me when I exercise, or if they are it’s with alarm that someone so red in the face is around them and may collapse at any moment – that prob needs a minor explanation, lol, my face goes alarmingly red with very minor exertion, it goes red enough I have had perfect strangers come up and ask if I am ok because I look like I am about to keel over or something.  It was funnier when I was in shape (all those years ago), now, combine the red face with the heaving breath and the fat body and people really do think I am gonna keel over and that’s just not cool.

I tried out a couple different gyms on trial runs hmmm, last year maybe? I can’t afford any of them so even if I found one I wanted to join it wouldn’t matter but none of them were gyms I liked. Most were unisex so I had to deal with all these hot guys around and that just made me uncomfie – the really in shape women made me equally as uncomfie cause I kept thinking they were silently judging me or something. Oh, and yes, I am aware probably way fewer people pay attention to me then I think but hey, I live in my world and in that world a lot of people look at me daily and it stresses me out. 😛 There was one gym that was all ladies but it’s not all that great and costs way too much considering the equipment and classes available.

Now however I am going to hafta do something active because I am sick of the disaster I have had on the scale three weeks running. There is a medium/strenuous hiking trail near my place, it’s 3.8km long so I guess I should start walking that. sigh. There is another hiking path I found by accident months ago that I guess I will try to re-find so I don’t always have to do the same path. Other then that I am not sure what to do. I don’t like exercising at home cause it means I am in the living room and I don’t like the idea of my roomie seeing me exercising (she’s in shape so I’m back to the thinking a thin girl will be judging me). There is a hot yoga place near me I thought I’d try but it’s stupid expensive – why do exercise places have to cost so damn much?!?!?! You’d think the gov would regulate stuff like that since they want all of us to stop being so out of shape and such a drain on the health system, eesh.

If anyone has any suggestions for exercises that don’t involve a gym I am so up for hearing about them! For now though I am going to have to get active in whatever way I can manage. This means that the rest of my lazy long weekend has to not be lazy, least not all the time. Sad. I am going to attempt to hike that trail tomorrow (weather permitting) and maybe sometime over the weekend I will walk to the train station to see how long it would take, there is one near my place and one far from my place. If I take runners to work in the morning I could walk to the station near my place and after work get off at the one far from my place and walk home, enforced exercise. I wonder though, is it better to do that or better to drive home like always and then go for the hike – the hike has more up and down hills and I wouldn’t have to stop for red lights etc…it’s something to think on anyways.

Here is what I ate today (keep in mind I was lazy and unhappy cause of the stupid scale):

1 toasted sandwich

    – 1 scrambled egg = 2 points

    – 2 pieces toast = 2 points

    – 2 pieces turkey bacon = 2 points

    – 1 cheese slice = 1 point

    – tomato slices and ketchup = 0 points

1 cup pineapple = 1 point

18 pieces Maltesers = 4 points

1 whole wheat tortilla = 2 points

1/2 tblsp light peanut butter = 1 point

1/2 tblsp nutella = 1 point

1 package Jolly Time Kettle Corn = 1 point

fruit smoothie = ? points

So, the points that can be added up are 19 points but I don’t know what the smoothie is. I took some frozen mixed berries and put them in the magic bullet with milk to make a smoothie. I measured half a cup of milk and a cup of berries but it was too thick so I added some more milk and that made it too runny so I added a bit more berries and finally it was ok but with all the adding of little amounts of milk and berries I ended up not knowing exactly how much I used. It should have been a 2 point shake but it went over that, how much it went over however, I am not sure. And, to top all that, it wasn’t even worth it! lol. My roomie drinks them all the time so I figured I’d do it and all it tasted like was milky fruit, not as gross as it sounds but really bland. I asked her about it and turns out she uses vanilla flavoured soy milk so hers tastes better, and she adds a bit of sugar. Ah well, it was an attempt and even though it didn’t work it got me some more fruit which is always good.  

I am not looking forward to tomorrow and my having to exercise, ugh, this is gonna suck but if it shows results on the scale next week I guess that’ll make it worth it…now to find my small iPod so I can have it all charged an ready…crap, I have no idea where I left that thing…

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Step Away From the Moose!

27 Aug

wOOt! wOOt! there was cake at work and guess who didn’t have any? Me! Oh yah! I am back! lol.

It was birthday day at work – once a month at work cakes are brought in to cover the bdays of everyone for that month in all departments…sometimes that is a lot of people! Since we are a growing company and there are now a lot more of us (in all departments) there was more then just cake this month. There was a big thing of chocolate moose, tirimasu and a cake that had a base of chocolate chip cookie and then frosting and then fruit on top. Interesting…to look at that is!

I went with friends who were going to eat the treats so I could chat an hang out with them but all I got from the kitchen was a cup of tea. I was tempted by the chocolate moose but I managed to stare at it longingly and not actually eat it. I was tempted to ask for a tiny tiny taste of someone elses moose but decided that’d just be putting me back in the same boat I was in after having a couple bites of that cake last weekend so I followed the look-no-touch rule. I feel so good about myself that I didn’t cheat! 😀

I ran out of food to take to work so mid afternoon I was hungry but had nothing to eat.  I could’ve gotten some toast from the kitchen but didn’t want to use points that way so I made myself wait till I got home then had a double serving of baked beans. lol. It was funny, I got in the door and didn’t even have my shoes off before I was turning on a burner and opening a can of beans. It was good though – I hadn’t had baked beans in a while so altho they were not a new taste it was one I hadn’t gotten to taste in a couple weeks…lol. I eat a lot of the same stuff so occaisionally I get a bit bored with my food choices but hey, I’d rather be a bit bored then getting fatter!

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am fluctuating between excited and concerned. Last wednesday I really wanted to step on the scale, weird huh? I never want to step on that stupid thing, grr to the scale! But for some reason on wednesday I felt like if I stepped on it I’d have a smaller number then last weigh in day and I really wanted to test this theory…but I didn’t. If the number hadn’t gone down I’d be depressed and if it had gone down then I wouldn’t be as suprised saturday and I enjoy the thrill I get on saturdays when I step on the scale and the number has gone down. 😀  So that is the excited part, I want to see a smaller number…if I lose enough I will be at my ten pounds lost mark and man do I want to hit that mark! The concerned part is because I don’t think I look any different and I don’t feel (anymore) like I have lost any weight this week, I am scared the number is going to be the same…just like last weigh in day. Eek! I always dreaded the week the number didn’t go down, then it really happened and it was a pretty bad feeling, now I am super dreading having that happen again. 😦 There is nothing I can do at this point so I shouldn’t stress over it…people on the Biggest Loser always stay the same weight or gain on the weeks they have been stressed cause stress can totally screw up your weight loss attempts but I can’t stop thinking about it. shrug. What can I say, this weight loss thing is overwhelmingly in my head.

Today I ate:

3/4 cup Blueberry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 cup grapes =1 point

1 cup Lentil and Veggie Soup = 1 point

1 light babybell = 1 point

carrots = 0 points

1 kiwi = 1 point

1 cup Heinz Maple Baked Beans = 4 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

1 whole wheat wrap = 2 points

1/2 tbsp light peanut butter = 1 point

1/2 tbsp nutella = 1 point

2 Hershey’s Oh Henry cookies = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

Hit the 22 point mark again today, yah! 😀 This week has been good for hitting my points perfectly, and I am glad for it cause I want to lose weight this week instead of maintain. I have been good everyday this week for drinking lots of fluids – I have anywhere from 2 to 4 cups of tea per day at work as well as 2 to 3 glasses of water, then I come home and have at least 1 cup of tea and 2 glasses of water. That means everyday this week I have had my 8 glasses of fluid or more that is recommended by the “experts”, since those “experts” also say that drinking 8 glasses of fluid per day (or more) will help you lose weight I am hoping drinking all this fluid will give me a good result on the scale tomorrow. See how everything comes back to that stupid scale? lol

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I’m goin down!

7 Aug

I’m goin down down down down down – wOOt!

Thought I’d rip off the lyrics to a song by Freddie King to help me celebrate my weight loss. lol. The song has been performed by many different artists and Freddie’s isn’t actually the version I have in my head but oh well, guess it’s right to give kudos to Freddie since it’s his song first. lol. 😀

So all that freaking out was for nothing, yah! I had managed to convince myself earlier today, right before I stepped on the scale, that I’d be happy if the number was somewhere around where it was last time I weighed myself, the same would be fine – a bit depressing but what I deserved considering what I ate while on vacation. Well, when I saw the number I would have given a shriek but I wasn’t sure if my roomie was still asleep or not and if she was I didn’t want to wake her. Not only did I go down by 3.8 pounds (omg, I can’t believe I just wrote that!!!!!) but the weight loss put me down in to a whole new weight bracket. By that I mean the second number in my weight has changed! Oh yeah baby, that’s right! The second number changed this time!!! 😀 😀 😀 I haven’t been in this number bracket for years and when I was in it is was only for the time it took to keep going up in weight until I ended up as heavy as I was when this whole thing started. Now, maybe I shouldn’t be too excited, I am only in this new weight bracket by 0.4 lb but I don’t care, I am in it and I will fight to stay in it…until I get down in to the next bracket that is! lol.

Not only am I thinner but the amount of points I get to eat per day has gone down by one; now I get to eat 22. The reason this changed is because part of the calculations for figuring out your daily points uses the first two digits of your weight – that second number of mine changed so now I am down a point. 😛 I feel perfectly happy with this change; I am not concerned about losing the food per day associated with that point because a lot of days I have trouble eating my whole 23 points – maybe having 22 will be easier to manage? Just wait, I’ll probably be bitching in a couple of days about how hungry I am cause I am at 22 points now, lol.

You may or may not be wondering why it’s been so long since I had a weigh in day on here…I am going to pretend you are wondering and explain. lol. My first weigh in day on vacation was the day after my road trip, I used my mom’s scale and it had me go up by a couple pounds which devestated me. 😦 My mom pointed out though that every scale is a little different (very true), the time of day I was weighing myself was different from normal (time of day totally affects your weight) and that the previous day I was abnormally inactive because of spending so many hours in the car (didn’t burn as many calories just from normal daily movement cause of well, not moving, lol). I decided to try to ignore the scale and re-weigh myself later that day. When I re-weighed myself I lost almost a pound from my earlier weigh in that day so I figured, shrug, don’t freak out about it, wait for next week and see what the scale says then. I got a little impatient and weighed myself the next day and I’d gone down a pound and a bit from the day before so I seemed to be on the right track. The next saturday though I couldn’t bring myself to step on the scale, I had eaten so much bad food and most of the activities I had been involved in were not all that active so I just pretended the scale was not there. lol. Well, couldn’t do that pretending today could I? I had to step on and face the music, and the music was good! On average I lost 1.9 lbs per week which is right about what I was losing before (the weeks before vacation I kept going down by 1.8 lbs per week). Awesomeness! 😀

Let’s see what I ate today:

1 Sandwich

    – 2 pieces of toast = 2 points

    – 1 scrambled egg = 2 points

    – 2 pieces of turkey bacon = 2 points

    – 1 Kraft cheese slice = 1 point

    – mixed peppers (in the egg) = 0 points

1 chocolate Timbit = 1 point

1 pckg Mr. Noodle Chicken flavour = 8 points

2 Maple cookies = 4 points

1 Coffee Crisp Single = 2 points

Total points used 22. Right where I am supposed to be. 😀 Admittedly, I wasn’t eating very healthy food but hey, it’s saturday, my whole eating schedule got off kilter. lol. The Mr. Noodles surprised me. They were something I still had in my cupboard from before weight watchers started and I had been ignoring them because I thought they’d be as high in points as Ichiban (that’s 12 for the package!) but when I saw how many points I had left and that it was getting late I decided to check the nutritional info and found out they are 8 instead. 8 is too high for something normaly, especialy something with no nutritional benefit and too small to completely fill me but for today it was perfecto. lol.

So all in all a great start to being back on track after vacation, I didn’t lose as much (well any really) ground as I thought I would and I bought healthy groceries today so this week should be all kinds of good. 🙂 Go weigh in day go!

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