20 Aug

You wouldn’t believe how long it has taken me to write this post, eesh. I started last night and kept rambling about a totally different topic then what I was trying to write about. So I decided to write on a new topic and that ended up in confused ramblings too. lol. Apparently last night I really needed to ramble. 😛 It was getting so late I decided to save the draft I had going and hit the sack – figured it wouldn’t hurt to leave it till tonight. shrug.

So here I am, I completely erased the draft and am starting over…I will attempt to not ramble. lol.

Since all my attempts at introspection ended up in utter nonsense I will keep this focused and non-deep. This week has sucked – points wise that is. Saturday and Sunday I didn’t eat all my points, actually, I didn’t eat them all on Monday either…Tuesday was fine, ate all my points so yah! lol. However, Wednesday was way under…sigh. Thursday was spot on and today I am only 0.5 under so that’s ok. The Weight Watcher rules clearly state to Eat All Your Points!!!! If you don’t eat them all it means you are undereating for the day and that can screw up your metabolism and make you not only not lose weight but gain it. Crap. Now, if I undereat one day a week that doesn’t bother me, it is usually because I wasn’t feeling well or plans messed up my eating schedule and really, one day a week isn’t that big a deal. shrug. But 5 days of not eating all my points?!?! That is excessive. I didn’t feel hungry on those days; didn’t feel deprived or wanting for anything but that isn’t a good indicator of what my body needs. I am well aware (now) that your body isn’t always as smart as you think it is; your body might be saying it is hungry but you have ingested enough calories for the day, it could also seem to be telling you that you aren’t hungry but you haven’t eaten nearly enough. How the body can be so wrong I don’t know, but all the so called experts say it can be and who am I to disagree?

Malibu, the person at work who started Weight Watchers last Friday…she has only been on the program for a week and she lost 4 pounds! How the fuck did that happen?? It took me over 2 weeks to manage that…grr. I asked her what she did, if she exercised etc and she said she just has an easy time to lose 15 pounds or so but after that she plateaus and can’t seem to shift anymore weight. She shrugged off those 4 pounds like it was no big deal, like losing it was a breeze. I am so jealous, sigh. To top it off she came to me when the bday cake we had at work was tempting her and I convinced her to not cheat…I wish I hadn’t succeeded in helping her not cheat, maybe then next week she wouldn’t lose as much. lol.

Oh, had the best salad today from the Salad Loop…nasty dressing though. ick. I thought I’d try a dressing I have never had so I took some Blue Cheese dressing. You put the dressing in a little container which is great cause I keep the dressing in the little container instead of pouring it on my salad and then dip my forkful of salad in to the dressing, this way I use way less. 😀 When I was putting the dressing in to the little container I saw it was way oily, hmm, I was tempted to put it back but there were too many people around watching so, shrug, I kept it. I ate some of my salad with the dressing but couldn’t bring myself to like the flavour of it, I ended up eating more then half the salad with out the dressing – it’s a good thing I had great toppings on the salad so it wasn’t boring! lol. For hours after I ate all I could taste was that stupid dressing – ugh – I think next time I will stick with the Light Ranch. 🙂

I am worried about my weigh in tomorrow – I seem to write that every week but what can I say, every week it is true. shrug. This past week I underate way too often, had 2 horrible fat days and today I just feel heavy. Oh, and I am demoralized by Malibu losing so much weight in one week. I was really hoping that this weeks weigh in would put me at a total weight loss of 10 lbs or more but I don’t think that is gonna happen. Blarg. I know I should be happy with what I have lost so far (even though today I feel as big as ever) but it is hard to maintain the happy feelings from a good weigh in throughout the week…by the night before weigh in I have almost always lost the giddy happy feeling and am just worried about what the scale will say. I hate that scale.

Let’s see what I ate today:

3/4 cup Blueberry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 1/2cup strawberries = 1 point

Salad from Salad Loop = 6 points

    – 1 hard boiled egg, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, mixed veggies, artificial crab, chickpeas, sunflower seeds, grated cheddar cheese, dressing

1 cup cherries = 1 point

1 medium slush = 2 points

1 peanut butter and raspberry jam sandwich = 5 points

    – 2 pcs bread, 1 tbls light peanut butter, 1 tbls raspberry jam

1/2 cup mashed yam = 1.5 points

1 Skinny Cow Ice Cream Sandwich = 2 points

My total for the day is 21.5 points. I am ok with being the 0.5 points under, I don’t have anything that is worth only a half point and I am not going to go over my points in an attempt to hit my points…although, I have more then all my flex points still available to me. lol. Ah well, it’s too late to fix what I messed up with this past week and it’s for sure too late tonight to eat anything else. Wish me luck on the scale tomorrow!


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