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Sick Girl = Boring Life

11 Feb

I haven’t been writing in a while but only because I haven’t been doing anything interesting lol I highly doubt anybody wants to read about how I was sitting on my arse, reading and watching tv while feeling like crap as I waited for my immune system to kick in and kill the bug that had invaded my body. Right? Right. ๐Ÿ™‚

Luckily my cough is aaaaalmost gone and I feel like I can honestly describe myself as being more on the health side of the scale vs the sick side, so yay for that! lol

Unfortunately, when I am sick I completely lose my appetite and eat such a small amount of food that when I start to get healthy I struggle to get back in the groove of eating more normally. I don’t want to eat more food but I’m being more active, not necessarily with exercising but just with normal life stuff like going to work, running errands, meeting up with friends etc so if I don’t start increasing my food I get exhausted from my normal everyday things. The end result of that is me napping on my living room chair lol ๐Ÿ˜›

My first week after being sick I tend to focus on making sure I eat more than once a day and that I eat balanced meals, not just little snacks. I was doing fairly well with that, because I hadn’t indulged in any sort of sweets etc I wasn’t craving any of them, always nice to not be actively wishing I could eat a doughnut lol Buuuut Sunday was a bit of a disaster that left my poor tummy feeling off all the way until Monday evening, not cool!

We had a brunch at work on Sunday and instead of taking my own lunch I opted to eat the brunch food. I took a little bit of all sorts of foods and I’m sorry to say I caved and nabbed two pancakes and 1/4 of a waffle, sigh, such a weakness for those foods! *rolls eyes* I also ate a poached egg, some tomatoes with seasoning, a shrimp salad, some diced potatoes with fried onions, ummm…for the main course that’s about it. Then I took not one but two desserts! An absolutely lovely lemon meringue tart and a creme brule with blueberries and strawberries on top, Mmm!

I felt fine while eating but about twenty minutes after finishing my lunch my tummy felt, well, not sick, just not impressed. I think it was just too much too soon, for sure with those desserts anyways! Ooops…

So I’ve been trying to backpedal since Sunday and focus on choosing healthier foods and making sure I eat proper portion sizes. I am sorry to say, I haven’t been doing very well, sigh. I was out and about yesterday and had limited food choices for dinner, I ended up eating Taco Time which while tasty, and something I haven’t eaten in a freakishly long time did nothing for my weight loss plan lol Then today I ate some maple flavoured baked beans and toast (which I have no guilt about) but that’s all I’ve eaten, and it’s almost 10pm. Can you say below my calories for the day? Eesh.

I’m hoping tomorrow, instead of going over due to fast food or being under due to not eating I can somehow hit the middle ground and eat a normal amount while getting a bit of exercise in there. Theoretically it is a do-able thing, in reality though…who knows! lol

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Never Ending Books

7 Nov

I am a reader – I blame this on my parents. I also blame my freakishly good manners, my willingness to try pretty much any new food and activity and my love of tea on them but those are beside the point. lol. ๐Ÿ˜‰

I grew up in a household where it was common to hear the sentence “go and play” or even the almost unheard of today “go outside and play”…yup, that is right, I was not raised by the tv or by video games or by computers, I was raised by my parents and the automatic assumption I had a brain and imagination and could therefore entertain myself for hours on end. It was a good system. ๐Ÿ™‚ย  I have so many fun memories of me playing with other kids, me playing with my toys by myself, just of me playing and really, isn’t that what childhood is supposed to be about?

Not all of my childhood was playing, obviously, I mean I did have to go to school, and do chores and be a brat lol. But something else my parents did for me that I’m not sure is being done for children quite as often anymore is instill in me a love for reading. I got books as presents, my parents would read to me all the time, we went to the library often, heck, in the summers I joined the kids reading club where you were challenged to read certain amounts of books from different genres and you earned stamps in a little booklet to show when you reached certain checkpoints in the challenge. That love of reading has intensified the older I get and I realized when unpacking and setting up my bookshelves that I am a book hog. Yup, that’s right,ย I own a freakish amount of books considering the amount of space I have to store them.

I am a firm believer in re-reading a book, after all, if a book is good than it is good enough to be re-read and with some books the more you read them the more you get from them. Like Memoirs of a Geisha (which I read before it was made popular via the movie thank you very much ๐Ÿ˜‰ ) I swear, everytime I re-read that book I notice some new detail, I enjoy even more the poetry that is used to create the story, it’s a beautifully written book and so many images are invoked in my brain while I read it. I can see so clearly in my head visions that match what I am reading (there goes that imagination again) that it’s like watching a movie of the book without all the missing parts and added scenes you get in actual movie adaptations.

This wonderous love of reading, the enjoyment I get from a story…this I blame on my parents…and if you follow my logic here that means I can also blame them for the freakish amount of books I now own and the fact that everytime I finish unpacking a box with books in it and finally figure out a way to fit them on my bookshelf and am so happy I am done with that section of my new apartment set-up I manage to find yet another box full of books! You wouldn’t believe the amount of times I’ve opened up a box over the past couple days and sworn in a manner befitting a sailor (or perhaps pirate?) because I’ve found even more books!

I can’t be mad at the books though, at those wonderful pages filled with all those interesting characters that provide me with some mixture of entertainment, education, suspense, horror, joy, wonder and more. So, instead, I will blame the parents…and perhaps my inability to not buy what I am always sure will be a good book! ๐Ÿ˜‰

On the Weight Watcher’s front I have essentially stopped tracking. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Not on purpose, exactly, more out of sheer frustration. My kitchen is still not set up, sigh, my roomie finally moved her stuff in this past Saturday but then left immediately so we did no set up. She came back today but only worked on her room. She says she is coming back tomorrow but we shall see…In case you’re wondering why I don’t just set it up myself it’s cause she assured me she has just as much kitchen stuff as I do so we have to go through both of our kitchen inventories to see what we should use of whose and what should be packed away and put in storage cause there isn’t room in the kitchen. There is no point is me setting up the kitchen with all my stuff just to have to take it all out of the cupboards again, shrug.

As a result, this means my kitchen scale is still packed so I can’t weigh my food (driving me nuuuuuts!), most of my measuring items (spoons, jugs etc) are also packed, I have a couple out cause I found them randomly stuffed in the box with my plates when I unpacked those but not a full set so sometimes I can measure sometimes I can’t…and the counters are so cluttered that I feel as if I can barely move in there.

Oh, and the stove still doesn’t work so I can’t evenย cook properly lol. I’m existing off of frozen dinners, grilled cheese sandwiches and crackers mostly…oh! and cereal! Yum huh?

One other reason I am not tracking is because I am fairly certain I am undereating everyday, sigh, not on purpose just by happenstance. shrug. When I tally in my head at the end of the day what I ate it’s usually rather pathetic, breakfast is generally two pieces of weetabix with unmeasured milk (the horrors!), my next meal will be a frozen dinner (healthy ones tho, so those steamer things or lean cuisine), and if I get hungry later on a grilled cheese sandwich or some yogurt – so somewhere around 14 points or so per day when I am supposed to be eating 20…plus the physical exertion of moving furniture, setting up furniture, unpacking etc.

I don’t know how this will affect my weight loss, it might falsly bring my weight down because I have less food in my system or it might make it bounce higher causeย my body might be freaking out and holding on to it’s fat thinking it’s being starved…I doubt the starved thing cause when I feel hungry I eat so I’m not ignoring my body’s signals to get food, I’m just not eating as healthily as I did before the move…hopefully my body understands and forgives me for this – sooner rather than later! lol ๐Ÿ˜‰

Belated Post

6 Dec

Ok, so I didn’t write on the weekend, it’s not that I didn’t want to it’s that I was busy and just couldn’t find the time. Now sure, you are probably saying “what? you couldn’t find ten minutes to sit down, grab your laptop and start typing? ha!” and well sure, I did find a bit of time here and there to sit but when I did that it was causeย I was exhausted and the last thing I wanted to do was try to come up with something entertaining to write. ๐Ÿ˜›

So, let’s recap…starting with the most important part of any weekend…

WEIGH IN DAY:

This was saturday, earlier in the day then normal but that’s cause I hadda get up and get going. I was concerned that weighing in early would hamper my results but oh well. I was hoping for anything above a loss of 0.2 pounds…yes you read that right. If I could manage to lose 0.2 pounds I would hit the 20 pounds lost mark so oh how I was crossing fingers. lol.

I stepped on the dreaded scale, saw the number and just froze…didn’t believe it at all! The whole time I was showering and getting ready for the day I was in a daze cause that just couldn’t be right…could it? Oh hell yeah it was! I lost…ready? I lost 2.6 Pounds!!! In one week! This brought me to a total weight loss of…21.6 Pounds!!! wOOt! Yah! Happy dance anybody? Not only did I hit the 20 pounds lost mark I went past it byย a whole 1.6 pounds, awesomeness! ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€

Happy Dance!

This weigh in totally set the mood for the weekend, a mood of “hells yea! I can do it!” lol.

The rest of saturday was spent Christmas shopping and getting supplies for my holiday baking that was also happening over the weekend; a day of happy news then shopping? Can’t beat that!

Sunday was spent baking, I did some of the prep work the evening before and ended up with two yule log cakes, gingerbread cookies and meringues. I was also supposed to have peppermint bark but something went horribly wrong when the chocolate was melting and it had to be thrown out, ugh. What a waste of money. Sucky. But everything else turned out great! I had never made gingerbread before so I was worried but the recipe I found was great and everybody loved them. I was told many times they look just like the cookies you find in bakeries – apparently I rock at decorating cookies? lol. Who knew!

Up until this year I thought everyone knew what a yule log cake was, the only reason I made two this year was cause one of the girls overheard me talking about this cake to someone and had no idea what I was talking about…say wha?! How do you not know what a yule log cake is? *confused face* but I have encountered more and more people who don’t know, sigh, so here is what it is: a thin chocolate cake that when it is baked you put on a clean towel dusted with cocoa then you roll it up, it stays rolled until completely cool, then, you unroll it and spread the filling on what will be the inside of the cake (this filling was whipped cream and chocolate chips), then you roll it back up and put chocolate frosting on the outside. The frosting is a bit thicker then normal so when you spread it on it gets a textured look, like a yule log. There, now you can’t say you don’t know what it is! lol. huh, I should’ve taken a picture to show you, ah well, next year! ๐Ÿ˜›

there we go, I googled an image of one that looks similar to my version. Yule Log Cake - Yum!

So one cake went to my landlord and his family, along with some of the cookies and meringues, and the other cake and most of the cookies and meringues went to work with me today for the office – I say ‘most’ cause I left some behind of the cookies and meringue for the roomie. It’d be mean to do all that baking and not give her some – the whole place smelled like gingerbread and chocolate cake, even when I woke up this morning! lol.

Uh yeah, so that was my sunday, baking. ๐Ÿ˜€

Today was just a normal day at work, nothing really special there, we had a new instructor for my Zumba class tho. I hate new people, I mean really hate them! Once I get used to an instructor or teacher or whatever I really struggle to deal when the person is replaced…even if it is just for one class like this evenings Zumba. I don’t know why it is, I’m just odd like that. So, this replacement, she was pretty good. She does more exercise moves then dance moves and I don’t know that it was harder but because it was totally different moves it worked me out in a different way which is definitely good. I am sooooo gonna feel that exercise tomorrow! lol. Which is how it should be, right? ๐Ÿ™‚

When I got home and made dinner, well, I’d swear that was the best dinner ever – which is another way I judge how well a workout went. I know! Weird! But listen…if I don’t work all that hard then I don’t enjoy my dinner as much, it’s like…well, if I work hard I am more deserving of a really good meal and I have worked up an appetite so things just taste better anyways. shrug. Hey, it works for me! So, my burger tonight, YUM! ๐Ÿ˜€ lol

Today I ate:

50 grams shreddies = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 6″ Turkey Sub from Subway = 5 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 hamburger patty = 4 points

1 weight watchers hamburger bun = 2 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

baby spinach leaves, ketchup, mustard = 0 points

cooked veggies = 0 points

1 piece bread = 1 point

1/2 tbls Nutella = 1 point

1/2 tbls light peanut butter = 1 point

So that puts me at 22 points eaten, I have to eat 2 more points so that I have eaten my exercise points. I actually had grabbed a bag of Thinsations Yogurt Covered Pretzels but I am really not feeling them. shrug. I don’t want anything else to eat,ย  ugh, I am full! But…I am s’posed to eat my exercise points. sigh. I wouldn’t care all that much about being under by just 2 points but yesterday I kinda made a boo boo, lol, I only ate 14 points the whole day. *cringes* I didn’t mean to undereat by that much, honest! I was just so wrapped up in baking I lost track of the time and when I cook or bake I tend to have no appetite, shrug, so by the time I was done everything and having a little rest it was late and I was tired and I wasn’t even thinking of food, and well, that’s how I managed to eat only 14 points. heh.

I will find something little to snack on just so I can say I used the points up…for real! ๐Ÿ™‚

Tomorrow I doubt I will be posting, our work Christmas party is tomorrow (yeah, I know, on a tuesday, how exciting, NOT!) but anyways, the party is tomorrow and there is no time to go home before it so we’ll all be going after work to the restaurant together then who knows what time I’ll be getting home. shrug. Last year I wasn’t home till way late so we’ll see how this year goes! ๐Ÿ˜€

Re-Write

20 Aug

You wouldn’t believe how long it has taken me to write this post, eesh. I started last night and kept rambling about a totally different topic then what I was trying to write about. So I decided to write on a new topic and that ended up in confused ramblings too. lol. Apparently last night I really needed to ramble. ๐Ÿ˜› It was getting so late I decided to save the draft I had going and hit the sack – figured it wouldn’t hurt to leave it till tonight. shrug.

So here I am, I completely erased the draft and am starting over…I will attempt to not ramble. lol.

Since all my attempts at introspection ended up in utter nonsense I will keep this focused and non-deep. This week has sucked – points wise that is. Saturday and Sunday I didn’t eat all my points, actually, I didn’t eat them all on Monday either…Tuesday was fine, ate all my points so yah! lol. However, Wednesday was way under…sigh. Thursday was spot on and today I am only 0.5 under so that’s ok. The Weight Watcher rules clearly state to Eat All Your Points!!!! If you don’t eat them all it means you are undereating for the day and that can screw up your metabolism and make you not only not lose weight but gain it. Crap. Now, if I undereat one day a week that doesn’t bother me, it is usually because I wasn’t feeling well or plans messed up my eating schedule and really, one day a week isn’t that big a deal. shrug. But 5 days of not eating all my points?!?! That is excessive. I didn’t feel hungry on those days; didn’t feel deprived or wanting for anything but that isn’t a good indicator of what my body needs. I am well aware (now) that your body isn’t always as smart as you think it is; your body might be saying it is hungry but you have ingested enough calories for the day, it could also seem to be telling you that you aren’t hungry but you haven’t eaten nearly enough. How the body can be so wrong I don’t know, but all the so called experts say it can be and who am I to disagree?

Malibu, the person at work who started Weight Watchers last Friday…she has only been on the program for a week and she lost 4 pounds! How the fuck did that happen?? It took me over 2 weeks to manage that…grr. I asked her what she did, if she exercised etc and she said she just has an easy time to lose 15 pounds or so but after that she plateaus and can’t seem to shift anymore weight. She shrugged off those 4 pounds like it was no big deal, like losing it was a breeze. I am so jealous, sigh. To top it off she came to me when the bday cake we had at work was tempting her and I convinced her to not cheat…I wish I hadn’t succeeded in helping her not cheat, maybe then next week she wouldn’t lose as much. lol.

Oh, had the best salad today from the Salad Loop…nasty dressing though. ick. I thought I’d try a dressing I have never had so I took some Blue Cheese dressing. You put the dressing in a little container which is great cause I keep the dressing in the little container instead of pouring it on my salad and then dip my forkful of salad in to the dressing, this way I use way less. ๐Ÿ˜€ When I was putting the dressing in to the little container I saw it was way oily, hmm, I was tempted to put it back but there were too many people around watching so, shrug, I kept it. I ate some of my salad with the dressing but couldn’t bring myself to like the flavour of it, I ended up eating more then half the salad with out the dressing – it’s a good thing I had great toppings on the salad so it wasn’t boring! lol. For hours after I ate all I could taste was that stupid dressing – ugh – I think next time I will stick with the Light Ranch. ๐Ÿ™‚

I am worried about my weigh in tomorrow –ย I seem to write that every week but what can I say, every week it is true. shrug. This past week I underate way too often, had 2 horrible fat days and today I just feel heavy. Oh, and I am demoralized by Malibu losing so much weight in one week. I was really hoping that this weeks weigh in would put me at a total weight loss of 10 lbs or more but I don’t think that is gonna happen. Blarg. I know I should be happy with what I have lost so far (even though today I feel as big as ever) but it is hard to maintain the happy feelings from a good weigh in throughout the week…by the night before weigh in I have almost always lost the giddy happy feeling and am just worried about what the scale will say. I hate that scale.

Let’s see what I ate today:

3/4 cup Blueberry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 1/2cup strawberries = 1 point

Salad from Salad Loop = 6 points

ย ย ย  – 1 hard boiled egg, 1/4 cup cottage cheese, mixed veggies, artificial crab, chickpeas, sunflower seeds, grated cheddar cheese, dressing

1 cup cherries = 1 point

1 medium slush = 2 points

1 peanut butter and raspberry jam sandwich = 5 points

ย ย ย  – 2 pcs bread, 1 tbls light peanut butter, 1 tbls raspberry jam

1/2 cup mashed yam = 1.5 points

1 Skinny Cow Ice Cream Sandwich = 2 points

My total for the day is 21.5 points. I am ok with being the 0.5 points under, I don’t have anything that is worth only a half point and I am not going to go over my points in an attempt to hit my points…although, I have more then all my flex points still available to me. lol. Ah well, it’s too late to fix what I messed up with this past week and it’s for sure too late tonight to eat anything else. Wish me luck on the scale tomorrow!

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