Archive | July, 2010

Mmm…Restaurants! :)

28 Jul

Yesterday and today have been “restaurant days”; in two days I have eaten in 3 restaurants and visited 2 coffee shops! Every single bite was delicious and worth it but not all that healthy…shocker! lol

Let’s see, yesterday, I ate at Red Lobster, yum! It was Shrimp Lovers Tuesday and I am sooooo a shrimp lover. 😛 I picked three dishes, I don’t know why I did that…you can pick just two but I chose three. shrug. Even before I was trying to lose weight and just ate whatever I always ordered the three and couldn’t finish so this time I really couldn’t finish! I got the Shrimp Linguine Alfredo; it’s my absolute fave dish at RL. Sadly though a half serving is 14 points…yup, you read that right, 14 points! When you get it as part of the trio the quantity is less then a half portion but I am not sure how much less so I am not exactly sure how many points it was. Don’t forget the other two items though…the Fried Shrimp and the Garlic Shrimp. The Garlic Shrimp were perfect; the Fried Shrimp were alright. Oh, it also came with a baked potato that I of course got sour cream for, a garden salad with ranch dressing on the side (it would have been light dressing but they don’t have light dressing there) and the cheese buns. Everyone who goes to RL knows the best part is those free dinner buns they give you at the beginning, they are to die for! They are so warm and delicious, they tear apart easily, are soft inside and a bit crunchy outside, there is cheese baked in to them…mouth heaven right there!

So after eating enough food to fill a lady pregnant with twins I went to a movie where I did not eat or drink anything cause really, where would it fit? lol. After the movie though N and I wanted to keep hanging out so we went to Tim Horton’s and were there just in time to get tea before they closed…I figure tea aids in digestion though so that’s ok. lol

Today was lunch at Joey’s with J; it is tradition, we go there everytime I visit. I fluctuate on what I get there so you’d think I’d order something kinda healthy, ha! I got the Sliders which are 3 baby burgers and a side order of yam fries which I am proud to say I didn’t eat all of. 🙂 As soon as the order was taken and the waiter gone a table near us that had 4 women got served and they all ordered huge salads and I immediately felt guilty and was tempted to call the waiter back to change my order but the waiter was nowhere to be found and I would have felt like a fool doing that anyways so shrug, it didn’t happen.

Dinner was at the Cheesecake Cafe with MJ and K; that is also becoming a tradition when I visit. 🙂 I was still full from lunch so I got soup, safe right? Nope! I got the broccoli and cheese soup in a bread bowl, a frickin bread bowl! Just stick a needle in my arm full of carbs and let it go! *rolls eyes* It was yummy though and not such a huge serving I felt like I over indulged…and I only ate a small part of the bowl…Then over to Starbucks where I got a tea. I am glad I like tea so much, no calories, tasty, helps the tummy – all kinds of good reasons to drink the stuff!

So those were my two days of restaurants and coffee shops; not good by any means but I s’pose they could’ve been a lot worse! …right?

On a good note I got a response finally from Peter’s Drive In, remember I mentioned I emailed them ages ago looking for nutritional information for the milkshakes there? Well…they sent it! Along with the nutritional information for the entire menu. Sweeeet! It is too late tonight to do anything about it but I will finally be able to figure out the points for that milkshake and see just how bad it was!


Attempting…and failing…

27 Jul

Holy crap! It has been days since I have been able to get online, I feel like I am going through withdrawl. eeek! I am staying at my parents place and they have internet but they don’t know their password so I can’t get my laptop online and while I may know a lot about computers my knowledge stops at hacking…I may remedy that! lol. So it is late at night and I am finally able to get on to their computer, phew!

I am not going to cover all the food I have eaten since I have been offline because nobody wants to read that many food lists, lol, but I will give you the ups and down. 🙂

The second day of the roadtrip almost started out with such promise. 😛 I went to the restaurant attached to the hotel I stayed at and ordered the one healthy breakfast item they had, can you believe that?? One item!! It was eggs with fruit salad on the side…I think there was toast too. Not the greatest meal but ya gotta work with what ya got. lol. The waitress comes back to my table after I place my order and informs me (very nicely) that they have no fruit…no fruit?!?! The supplier didn’t bring them any…so no fruit. huh. That’s a new one, and wtf am I s’posed to do now? I took a quick look through the menu again while the waitress hovered over my shoulder making me feel very pressured and picked such an amazingly unhealthy dish I surprised even myself. 😛 It was eggs benedict but without the ham, instead it was an english muffin topped with sliced tomato, bacon, poached egg and of course the hollondaise sauce. Yum!! I haven’t had something that rich for breakfast in longer then I can remember. It also came with hash browns (home made diced hash browns) and I ate some but was too full to have more then a couple bites of them. I really savoured every bite of that breakfast, it tasted sooooooo good. again…Yum! lol

Most of the rest of that day I was really good; I ate my veggies I had packed for a snack and somehow wasn’t hungry for anything larger so I didn’t bother with my salad. I did however stop at Peter’s Drive In for my milkshake and onion rings, I can’t believe what happened ! It was horrible! Not the milkshake or rings-they were perfect, but my stomach, sigh, I only drank about half (at most) of the shake (oreo flavour btw) and had about 7 of the rings and was full to the point of feeling sick…I wasn’t even out of friggin cow town yet before I had to stop! (yes I was eating and driving at the same time, it’s AB, they let you do that! lol) I was actually mad at myself, here I had been waiting for this milkshake and I couldn’t even enjoy the entire thing? Know what I ended up doing for the last 3 hours of the road trip? Drinking…water! Water! Horrendous! I left the milkshake alone and drank water…what’s the world coming to? ugh.

The only plus side to not being able to drink the whole shake or eat the rings is that I saved points which is good considering my breakfast. *rolls eyes*

My next day started off not too badly, I had Weetabix for breakfast topped with some fruit…back on track right? And when I needed a snack later I ate fruit, so good choice again…and then I went out for dinner with a friend. I tried deluding myself the salad I was ordering was healthy but let’s get real, it so wasn’t! I ordered the Top Sirloin Steak Salad with Goat Cheese (the description is: seared medium-rare top sirloin steak, mixed greens, roma tomatoes and quebec goat cheese, tossed in a spicy tomato vinaigrette with a hint of tomato clam cocktail and served with banana bread) It was really tasty! I didn’t eat the banana bread (it wasn’t very good, dry, shrug) but I ate almost every bite of the salad. Mouth heaven. There was very little goat cheese and about 6 thin slices of steak, I should have got the dressing on the side but totally forgot so I think the dressing took away from the healthiness of the greens and veggies in the greens. sigh.

If you can believe it the next day was even worse! How they keep escalating I am not sure but they do. lol. I went to a friend’s kid’s birthday party; it was a bbq and to be honest I thought we’d just be eating veggies, chips, snack type items but nope, full out bbq. I had a hot dog (I can’t believe how long it’s been since I ate one of those!), some homemade potato salad and some homemade beans (they had pork n beans, bacon, brown sugar, ketchup and onions in it – put it all in a crock pot and let it do it’s thing). The beans were really excellent. 🙂 The entire time was great but I kept thinking wow, this is so not healthy…oh and then there was the big slab of cake we all had, oy! Then, just to make the day even better I had a family dinner (which admittedly wasn’t as unhealthy), there was brocolli pie with cheese on top, baby potatoes, salad, veggies, a tiny bit of roast chicken and strawberries for dessert. Luckily my mom is also on weight watchers so she made a healthy dinner. 🙂 Go mom go! lol

Today I decided I have to get back on track, I can practically feel myself getting fatter, ugh, and my tummy is not happy with such a drastic shift from healthy stuff to not so healthy stuff, it’s been having some pain and general discomfort today, not fun!

I started the day with, you guessed it! Weetabix. lol. It’s the healthiest cereal here, and some fruit then when I was out I hit up Extreme Pita, I love this place. 😀 I got the Maple Dijon Chicken (it has grilled chicken, blend of greens, red grapes, grape tomatoes and maple dijon dressing all in a pita) I got the small and it was only 4 points, it tasted like it should have been way more points it was that good. 😀 I also just had to hit up this sushi place in the mall that does this roll called the Alberta roll, it has beef in the middle which is very un-sushi like but it’s so good and only at this one place. I got two as a treat. I then felt so bad cause I felt like I had eaten a ton that I didn’t eat again until quite late when I drank a can of Guinness (only 4 points!) and some chips my uncle brought us from England when he came to visit, my mom portioned them out so they were another 4 points but I had the points to spare. I ended up under my points today and don’t feel bad about it in the least considering the last 3 days. lol

I would like to say I am going to eat healthier from now on but tomorrow I am eating dinner at Red Lobster (my fave place!) and the day after I have dinner plans at the Cheesecake Cafe, and the coming weekend is going to be food hell but that I will explain in a different post since this one is becoming a novel. lol.

Suffice to say I fell of the wagon and hard the beginning of this trip…hopefully I can find a way to salvage my diet cause I sure don’t want to gain my weight back. It took a lot of work and weeks to lose the weight so far, how much would it suck to gain it all back on one vacation?

Road Trippin

22 Jul

I am not at home; I am 4 hours or so away from home and on my way to getting even farther from the comfort of my perfect bed and my food routine. Now, this makes it sound like I am a home-body who doesn’t like going anywhere…Not True! I looooove travelling, I will go almost anywhere with very little notice (if I can afford it) and have a blast the entire time. With road trips I usually enjoy the travelling part of the vacation more then whatever I do at the destination, shrug, don’t know why – it’s just always been like that.

There is nothing like seeing the mountains and clouds touch at dusk; watching as the clouds shift colours from white to blue, with purple and pinks thrown in just for fun. It’s like mother nature is colouring and seeing what ‘look’ she likes best…and when she can’t decide she lets the sun finish going down and we get the beauty of the stars to keep us company. I am a prairie girl at heart and can’t wait until I get through the mountains tomorrow and get to see my endless flat plains, fields upon fields growing corn, hay, various crops with all those cows and horses thrown in to the mix. On the prairies it’s as if the ground and sky never meet, the horizon is so far away. I feel as free as I ever can feel when in my suv driving down a highway; I feel like I can go anywhere, be anyone, my mind wanders and I think of all kinds of things. When driving alone on a trip I have my most introspective moments; I learn things about myself I would never think to find out…the things aren’t always good but I don’t care, the act of learning is what I enjoy.

I started writing about the road trip to bring up my routine; lol, sorta strayed there, sorry! 🙂 On days I work my eating is structured; I take snacks and lunch in with me so I know exactly what I am going to be eating, this may seem boring but it is working for me right now. I eat at almost the same time each day – this includes my snacks and meals. Breakfast is at 8:30am,my first snack is between 10:30am and 11:00am, lunch is at 1pm, and my afternoon snack is around 3pm. Then when I get home I eat dinner-dinner has a greater chance of fluctuating times but that is ok. It’s easy to stick to a diet (alright, healthy eating plan) when you do the same thing every 5 out of 7 days.

Today however things changed! I started my road trip! wOOt! 😀 Most of my day was normal, I didn’t start out on the road till after a full day at work so I had all my normal daytime routines with food. Dinner was a little trickier, well, not trickier, I planned ahead of time what I was going to eat so I had something easy to prepare but not high in points, what was trickier was finding time to eat it! lol. I ended up eating my salmon steak and brown rice while standing in the kitchen in between various last minute packing. The salmon steak was one I had before, the dill flavour again, the rice was different though, it is from Minute Rice and is this cup thing. You take the lid off the cup, stick it in the microwave for 1 minute and presto! Rice! I bought the brown rice (of course) and one cup is 4 points…high but doable. I thought this evening was the perfect time to try it out. It is alright, not great or anything. The rice felt a little undercooked and it was freakin hot! Even though I poured it out of the cup and spread it around to help it cool down it took quite a while before I could actually eat it. Course, trying to rush eating and finishing getting ready didn’t help matters. I might buy it again; it’s a handy thing to have around to use as a side dish when you don’t want to bother with yams.

After getting the suv all packed up off I went with a huge bottle of water to tide me over. I figured since I only had 4 hours in the first leg of the trip I didn’t need any snacks nearby, the water would be enough. It was too! 🙂

Tomorrow though, hmmm, what to do about tomorrow…the routine will be shot to hell! Heck, the routine is gonna be booted so far out the window it will rebound out of hell and end up somewhere in space. eesh. I should be fine with breakfast; there is a handy little restaurant attached to the hotel so I will attempt to get something healthy there but after that…sigh. I always eat when on road trips, one of my favourite parts of being on a road trip was loading up on all different kinds of junk food and munching away while driving at fast speeds and listening to loud music – it’s a perfect combo! Tomorrow will not have the junk food aspect though and I fear that. I bought some 100 Calorie goodies so I can have some chocolate or something if I really need it but those just aren’t the same. sigh.

My plan (cause heaven forbid I not have a plan!) is to eat the veggies and fruit I packed and when I want lunch I brought a nice big salad that…oh crap! I was gonna say I brought a tupperware bowl to put the salad in to (it is one of those salad kits so everything is in a bag) and I just realized I left the bowl on my counter at home…now what am I supposed to do with the salad?? Eat it from the bag?? Maybe the restaurant will let me have a take out container…

Well, ok, the plan if I can get a container is when I get hungry pull over at one of the many beautiful spots along the way and sit outside by a lake or little waterfall and enjoy my salad. I am not going to wolf it down, I will eat it like a normal person…as if I was at home and had time to indulge. That way I will realize I am full and I will enjoy the process…I am hoping the enjoying of eating will help me get over the fact that I won’t be getting back in the car and chowing down on Starburst. lol.

I do have an indulgence planned though and man is it a big one! I am going to Peter’s Drive In when I hit Calgary and getting a milkshake! They only have like the absolute best milkshakes ever created and I am gonna get one! Yum! 😀 The thought of that milkshake has gotten me through some rough points these past couple weeks. When someone at work was eating something completely unhealthy but that I really wanted I kept reminding myself that I have a Peter’s milkshake in my future and it made it that much easier to resist the temptation of the moment. My mouth is going to be in heaven! That milkshake however, is one of the main reasons I will be eating salad and veggies and fruit while driving instead of starburt, malteesers and chips. I can’t get any nutritional information on them! There is nothing on the website and when I emailed them asking for the nutritional information I heard nothing back, rude. 😦 I figure it means they are just that bad, lol. I don’t care though, I am getting one no matter what! 😀

Here is what I ate today:

1 whole wheat bagel = 3 points

1 tbsp light cream cheese = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 6″ Subway sub = 5 points

cheese on sub = 1 point

salmon steak = 3 points

Minute Rice cup = 4 points

2 Triangles Light Laughing Cow cheese = 1 point

1 cup pineapple = 1 point

That puts me at 20 points and I am still a little bit hungry; I will either eat 1 cup of fruit and only use up 1 more point or I will eat 1 of the 100 calorie packages and use 2 points. Neither option will have me actually use all my points but I am tired and want to sleep and while hungry I am not that hungry!

Quick side note, I didn’t have a chance to post yesterday so here is what I ate July 21/10:

3/4 cup honey nut cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 cup honey garlic noodles = 3 points

salad = 0 points

1 cup butternut squash soup = 2 points

1 cup blackberries = 1 point

1 cup blue berries = 1 point

1 medium iced capp from Tim Horton’s = 3 points

1 timbit =1 point

1 peanut butter and jam sandwich = 5 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 point

I used all 23 of my points yesterday. Yah! 😀

Work Luau? Aw crap…

21 Jul


Sooooooo, work today, oh dear. The building I work in had a tenant appreciation day so they had a Hawaiian themed lunch party. I wasn’t going to go because I didn’t know what kind of food would be there but I had the absolute most boring salad in the planet for lunch and thought maybe I’d find some chicken or something that I could put on my salad. Ha! That so wasn’t gonna happen…well, it mostly didn’t happen. lol.

The main dish was pulled pork on a bun with your choice of bbq sauce or a honey something or other sauce. They had a vegetarian version which was a nasty boring looking veggie patties on the same buns with a cucumber dressing. Both were served with coleslaw and there was drinks and ice cream. I got the veggie pattie on the bun with some of the cucumber dressing, a tiny bit of the coleslaw and I couldn’t resist – I got a small bit of the pork with some bbq sauce on the pork on the side. Oh man, that pork and sauce was sooooooo good! I had a bite of the coleslaw cause I wanted to see what is was like – that makes it sound like I haven’t had coleslaw before, lol, it had cranberries in it and looked yummy so I thought a bite couldn’t hurt. I crumbled the veggie pattie and put it on my salad which meant I didn’t top the salad with the croutons or dressing I packed to go with it. Least when I added something I also took two somethings away, that’s good compromise right? Well, maybe not good but ok…:P

I was weak and ate half the bun, sigh, I know I shouldn’t have but I love bread – it is one of my biggest weaknesses and I totally caved. blarg! Aaaaand, to make matter worse, I had…an ice cream cone…I know! I know! I am hanging my head in shame still! I shouldn’t have done it, I don’t know why I did it, I wasn’t craving it, yeah it looked good but I have resisted other things that look good but for some reason I got it. It was like a pod person had control over my body…I went to the tent with the ice cream with my friends, stood in line, got my cone and ate it all without really thinking about it – I just went with the flow, wtf??? I think that is how I ate before, I just took food and didn’t think about the consequences. Not good! I may not have thought about the consequences when I ate that ice cream but I sure suffered for it later. 😛 After the lunch I felt fine, not full but not hungry – that weird feeling I am getting used to associating with having eaten enough but not too much; once I ate the ice cream my stomach bumped me up to the feeling of slightly icky, too full and a bit sick. sigh. I don’t normally have that reaction to ice cream so it’s not like an allergy or anything, it was my stomach letting me know I was an idiot and should have thought the eating of that cone through a little more. lol. Another consequence of that ice cream was it left me with a whopping 3.5 points for dinner! Can you believe that?? Luckily (I can’t believe I think this is lucky!) I was still feeling icky when I got home from work so I didn’t want anything to eat until later in the evening and even then I didn’t want a lot so I had some soup and popcorn.

I seem to be slowly falling off the wagon lately, first my screw ups on the weekend now this, I don’t understand what happened…I had been doing so well! I was strict with myself but didn’t feel deprived and I know me, if I am not strict I won’t follow through…I don’t think I have changed my thinking on anything lately – I still want to lose the weight, I still have all the same goals but something must be going on cause I am losing my follow through to reach my goals. sigh. Maybe it’s cause of the failed weigh in on the weekend and knowing that this saturdays weigh in will probably be wonky too cause I will have just finished my road trip and I am worried I will cheat while driving. That’s not completely accurate, I know I am going to be cheating because I am planning to stop at this amazingly great drive in on my way through Calgary called Peter’s Drive In they have the most amazing milk shakes on the planet and I only get one a year if I am lucky so I told myself  ‘screw the points, for one day you can have something absolutely horrible because of the kind of exception it is’ but now I am worrying about it…it’s gonna be a lot of points, how am I going to work this? Do I just not eat the rest of the day? I don’t think that will work…do I only eat veggies the rest of the day since they have no points? Do I eat normal and healthy and have the shake on top of that? I don’t know what to do!!! What’s the best course of action for this problem? None of the healthy eating books I am reading cover this dilemma, sigh. I guess I shouldn’t worry about it now, the problem won’t pop up until friday but still, sigh…

Here is my food from yesterday (since I forgot to post yesterday, oops!)

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 nectarine = 1 point

1 salad from Salad Loop

    – chick peas = 1 point

    – sunflower seeds = 1 point

    – 1 hard boiled egg = 2 points

    – veggies = 0 points

    – light ranch = 1 point

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Light cheese = 1 point

1 grilled cheese sandwich = 4 points

1/2 cup Sidekicks Honey Garlic Noodles = 3 points

1 cup strawberries = 1 point

1 cup blueberries = 1 point

1 oreo cakester = 2 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

That is my 23 points for the day. 🙂 Least I got yesterday right! The Sidekick noodles were ok, not the best flavour but lower in points then the flavours I usually eat so that’s ok. The salad was absolutely delicious! Way expensive, sigh, I really like Salad Loop – it’s a good change from Subway but it can cost a lot if you’re not careful. I may buy sunflower seeds, they were a nice addition to the salad.

And my food for today…brace for it!

1 bagel = 4 points

1 teaspoon of margarine = 1 point

1/2 hamburger bun = 2 points

1 veggie burger pattie = 2 points

small amount of pulled pork = 1.5 points

bbq sauce = 1 point

1 cup strawberries = 1 point

2 triangles Light Laughing Cow cheese = 1 point

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

1 ice cream cone = 1 point

1 small scoop mango ice cream = 3 points

1 cup butternut squash soup = 2 points

1 package Jolly Time Kettle Corn = 1 point

That is 23 points, I am glad I was able to find a low point dinner so I didn’t go over. I had almost resigned myself to going over my points because I couldn’t not eat something for dinner then I realized the soup would be good and low in points so yah!

I have to do better though! Tomorrow is back to being strict! strict! strict! I watched Jillian Michael’s new show, the one where she lives with a family for a week to help them get healthier…I love her, she’s so awesome! Scary but awesome. lol. I want to meet her and have her help me get in shape and yet I am scared of her and wouldn’t want her yelling in my face. Her whole approach is break you down physically so you break emotionally and find the reason why you let yourself get big…I am not big (heh!) on digging that deep in to my psyche, I may never get back out again! 😛 Watching her do that to others though is quite entertaining and gives me ideas and tips, also, it helps firm up my resolve a little. I know I will never look like her but I can try to get to her level of determination and get my ass in shape! If she can make other tubs-o-lard get in shape then I can damn well get myself there! I hope…

Sun Shopping and Sand (part 2)

20 Jul

Alrighty, so now we are on to Sunday, not nearly as fun of a day just packed full of stuff to do. I prefer my sundays to be quiet and just chill at home but that was not how this sunday went!

Went for a hair appointment at 12:30pm, I think I have found a new hairdresser – she totally rocked! Then did a bunch of boring manual labour chores, ugh. lol.

For those of you that follow my posts on a regular basis you know that saturday should have been my weigh in day. Remember how last week when I weighed myself early in the day I was up by 0.2 lbs but when I weighed myself closer to the same time I weighed myself the previous week I was down the 1.8 lbs – well something similar happened like that this week. sigh. I weighed myself early saturday morning and was up 0.2 lbs, sadness. I tried again sunday morning cause I wasn’t up quite as early and I was down that 0.2 lbs – so back where I was the previous week. shrug. Better then gaining! I was going to get my hair done then come back home and weigh myself cause I figured I could wait that long without eating and that would put me close to the same weigh in time as last week. On the way home I convinced myself I should go do my errands first and all of a sudden it is 3pm I am feeling faint and slightly nauseaous cause I’ve been moving heavy stuff on an empty stomach. Oops! My cure for that was…brace for it…Subway! lol. That sadly never changes. *rolls eyes* So the re-weighing never happened cause by the time I got home it was around 6pm and I’d eaten, sigh. That means for this week I plateaued – man I hate that word! – but again, it’s better then gaining.

Mmm! If only I stopped with this...

I did a stupid thing though, since I hadn’t eaten anything but the sub that whole day I decided I could treat myself to a medium Tim Horton’s Iced Cap (3 points if you get it made with milk instead of cream) and while there I thought hey, one timbit can’t hurt, that’s only 1 point. I swear that’s what I ordered but once away from the store I go to eat my timbit and it’s a frickin donut!!! I totally ate it. lol. I really debated over it though and the only reason I ate it was because I’d only had the sub at that point and figured I had to use a lot of points somewhere might as well be with a yummy chocolate glazed donut. Man, it was so good! Mmm! Sadly, the donut was 6 points so that won’t be happening again! Then around 8pm a friend called and I hooked up with her, she hadn’t eaten so we went to Brown’s Social House where I ordered what I thought seemed a healthy meal but it tasted way too good to be healthy. Sad. Then half a beer while on the beach and bam! All of a sudden I am way over my points for the day! Oh dear. I had planned on not using any flex points because I know I will be using some on friday but guess I screwed that up.  sigh.

I know that points don’t move from one day to another so using under my points on saturday and going over on sunday doesn’t help to even things out but somehow it makes me feel better about the whole thing. lol. 😛

Weight Watchers has what is called Activity Points; I don’t talk about them because I am not active so I never have to calculate them. However, for sunday I was quite active and even though it was active in the sense I was lugging a bunch of heavy stuff around instead of going to a gym I feel that should count because (1) I was sweating and if I am gonna sweat it damn well better count as exercise and (2) some of my muscles hurt the next day so obviously I did something. I figure I earned about 3 or 4 activity points which doesn’t cancel out that horrible for me yet oh so tasty donut but it does help make it not so bad! lol

On Sunday I ate:

1 6″ turkey sub = 5 points

cheese on the sub = 1 point

1 medium Iced Cap = 3 points

1 chocolate glazed donut = 6 points

Halibut with roasted corn, almond rice and salad

    – halibut steak = 5 points

     – rice = 4 points

     – almond milk used to cook rice = 2 points

     – salad = 4 points

For the day I used 33 points!! OMG!! Horrible!!! Stupid donut. And stupid fish dinner! I thought the halibut was going to be a healthy choice but really, the dinner was quite high in points. Mind, the points for dinner are approximates because the restaurant doesn’t have nutritional information which sucks but what are ya gonna do?

Oh and guess what I got in the mail today? A gift card for Tim Horton’s, lol, oh my…that could buy a lotta donuts! 😛

Sun Shopping and Sand (part 1)

20 Jul

Ah, what a weekend! I haven’t posted since Friday because of how busy I have been and oh man how my eating habits suffered! Oops.

Let’s go back to the beginning shall we?


Outlet shopping with KL; we went to Tulalip, WA which if the border isn’t crazy is about 3 hours or so away from us…however, everyone and their dog was crossing at the same time as us so we sat, and sat, and sat in the roasting sun while slowly inching forward. We eventually got to cross (did you know you can cross the Canada/US border with an expired passport?!) and were on our way. Being on our way involved almost hitting a deer (I was quite traumatized by this) otherwise it was a nice drive. That mall is like the mecca of all outlet malls, lol. KL had never been there before and fell in loooooove with it, we hope to go back to do Christmas shopping. 😀

Now, while malls may be great for shopping we all know that finding something healthy to eat in them is quite the challenge, and if you do find something good for you managing to order the healthy food and  not head for the  line up for the Chinese food is hard cause it smells oh so yummy. lol. I prepped for this and took fruit and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with me. I bought a salad from Subway (worst Subway experience to date, btw) and ate that with my sandwich and fruit. Something else I tried was eating a large protein filled breakfast, I thought it might give me energy and keep me full longer. I think it would have worked better if we didn’t get stuck at the border for sooooo long but oh well, I tried. 🙂

Now, something bad that happened was I didn’t use all my points cause I was s’posed to go out after we got back home so I was saving some points for that but we got back so late I was exhausted and the plans fell through and no way was I eating at almost midnight when all I wanted to do was snooze.  I ended up using 18 points – it could have been worse I suppose. I was crazy dehydrated which I haven’t been in quite a while…the body did not like that!

Here’s how the convo went with the Subway lady:

Me: I’d like the Veggie Lovers Salad

Her: What kind of bread do you want?

Me: No, I want the salad.

Her: The what?

Me: (I point to the salad section of the menu) I want the salad.

Her: Salad? Oh…(looks confused then finally gets a bowl for the salad) You want chicken?

Me: No, I want the veggie delight salad.

Her: (puts bowl away) What kind of bread do you want?

This went on for some time, oy! Lol.

On Saturday I ate:

1 scrambled egg = 2 points

½ cup baked beans = 2 points

2 pieces toast = 2 points

2 triangles of Laughing Cow cheese = 1 point

1 nectarine = 1 point

1 slush = 2 points

1 Peanut butter and jam sandwich = 5 points

1 cup grapes = 1 point

½ chocolate chip cookie = 2 points

1 veggie delight salad = 0 points

So I used 18 points for the day. I should have eaten way more fruit, or at least drank way more water cause man was I dehydrated after all the time in the sun. I am happy with my ability to detour around the Chinese food and get the salad; my food may not have tasted as good but least my salad wasn’t making me any fatter! hehe

K, this ended up long, I will write Sunday in a seperate post!

Pizza! Pizza! Come ‘n Smell It!

17 Jul

Today we had a Lunch and Learn at work; basically it’s a long meeting/training session that takes place over lunch time so they feed us. I don’t mind them usually; generally the food is pizza or something similarly easy and yummy and who doesn’t like pizza? Well, you can see where this is leading I’m sure…I can’t eat pizza! Well, ok, I can but it’s soooooo many points why would I want to?

Mmm...looks so yummy but I didn't touch it!

The pizza was from The Flying Wedge , they are pretty decent, the best part about them is that they have a lot of different flavours so if you’re feeling like eating something a little different on your pizza good chance you’ll find it there. The delivery guy was all “it’s the healthiest pizza you can find, all natural ingredients – real cheese!” well ha! Maybe it does have the closest to healthy ingredients on a pizza you can get but that doesn’t make it good for you. The Veggie Wedgie is 5 points per slice…you’d think a slice of vegetarian pizza wouldn’t be so bad but apparently it is. Sure a meal is usually around 5 or 6 points but one slice of pizza does not a meal make…I don’t know anybody who eats only 1 slice and 10 points for 2 slices seems ridiculous.

Luckily, I knew in advance that we were having the lunch and learn and that we were being fed pizza so I brought my own lunch (well, that I do everyday) but I brought a more indulgent seeming lunch so that I wouldn’t feel deprived while watching everyone else eat pizza. It’s a pasta bowl from M&M Meat Shops; it was Italian Sausage and Penne – 5 points for the bowl which is so large it’s a complete meal. It tasted like it should be more then 5 points (mmm, the sausage was really good!) so I felt like I was getting a treat but instead of all the points I would have eaten if I’d had 2 slices of pizza I ate only 5 points and was full afterwards. Yah! A little pre-planning saved my points! 😀

Today I ate:

3/4 cup Almond Special K = 2 points

1 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Italian Sausage and Penne Bowl = 5 points

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 Fiesta Salad = 8 points

1 Raspberry Fruit Bar = 2 points

That is 22 points; I still have 1 point left so I am going to eat one of my Weight Watchers chocolates when I make a cup of tea. Perfecto! 🙂

I thought I wouldn’t feel overly hungry today since I felt that way yesterday and normally that “I’m so hungry I wanna stuff my face” feeling lasts only 1 day but a couple times today I felt really hungry and just wanted to eat! Now, I have more then enough food with me when I am at work but today I felt like my food stores wouldn’t be enough – they were, well, they had to be cause it’s not like I could magically produce food from thin air lol. In actuality, I must have had enough food because I had an errand after work that took quite a while so I had dinner late and I wasn’t feeling starved when I finally got to eat. But those hungry patches during the day at work were hard; I was so tempted to go to the little convenience store in the lobby area of my work building and buy something, anything! and lemme tell you there is nothing healthy in that little store! lol.

Tomorrow should be interesting, I am going to be out all day with KL, we are going outlet shopping in the states so we’ll just have to see what I end up eating. eek. I am a little worried because finding healthy food in a mall is almost impossible but hopefully I will be able to find something…

Battle of the Hunger Pangs

16 Jul

Ooooooh the hunger pangs; I feel  like my stomach is slowly (and painfully!) eating itself because it is deprived. lol. I don’t feel deprived with my diet normally; I eat a lot of fruit and veggies and I am getting better at eating protein but for some reason today I was hungry. I wanted to snack earlier then usual after meals and I wanted to eat larger meals then what I measured out.

If I had a hungry day like this before I started my weight loss regime I would have went out for lunch when at work and bought something large and not healthy and then come home and made a package of Sidekicks pasta and then eaten the entire package! Oh, and I would have partaken of all the available junk food at work too. I would have felt horrible at the end of the day and would have belittled myself; my head would have been filled with thoughts about how I deserve how I look because look at what I eat! It would have been a very low self esteem day; what’s scary is I wouldn’t have realized how wrong that behaviour was. Not even just the over eating and making poor food choice behaviour but the way I would have treated myself, the thoughts I would have had towards myself, the self loathing and disgust, the way I would have let my self esteem plummet all because of what I put in my mouth. The way I was silently giving up.

This weight loss is a war and in a war there are a lot of small battles; what’s that saying “they may have won this battle but I am going to win the war” – well, I am going to win this battle and win the war! This particular battle is my hungry day; I know that tomorrow will be better, that I won’t be hungry all the time and following my eating plan will be easier but getting through the rest of today is going to be hard. I still have some points left so that’s good; I will have to figure out the best choice for what to eat as an evening snack – it will have to be filling and fit in to my remaining 5 points, totally do-able! I also have to find a way to get my mind off my hunger!

So far today I have eaten:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 cup Maple Flavoured baked beans = 2 points

2 cut up baby potatoes = 0.5 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

1 cup blueberries = 1 point

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 hamburger patty = 4 points

3 baby potatoes = 0.5 points

carrots = 0 points

1 Kraft cheese slice = 1 point

2 cups kettle corn = 3 points

So, my math up above was incorrect, I used 19 points so far so I have 4 points left. I had forgotten to add in my cheese slice, oops! That actually makes me happier, I am going to have a frozen fruit bar from M&M Meat Shop and two pieces of fruit, that’s 4 points and lots of food so hopefully it will keep my tummy happy for the rest of the night. All I need is to get through tonight, I know tomorrow will be better, easier, this is just a testing day – something to see if I have the willpower to stick with my plan and I’ll be damned if I am gonna crack and not make it!

Mirrors are Eeeevil!

15 Jul

Sometimes I feel like I live my life moving from one mirror to another. I get up and immediatly look at myself in the bathroom mirror…it’s never a pretty sight. lol. Bed head, rumpled pjs, squinty eyes…and of course the disturbing size that is me. I spend a decent amount of time every morning looking at myself from all angles and critiquing…bigger? smaller? any toning happening? Turn to the side, suck in, push out…how much weight do I need to lose until I can look good when sucking in? How is my arm flab? Hmm…could be better. I finally push it to the back of my mind and get on with my getting ready routine. Once I am dressed for work a shorter less odd version of this happens. lol. Get in front of the mirror, turn to the side, how’s my ass? anything too tight? anything snagging on something it shouldn’t snag on? how do I look when I suck in? With that charming wonderfulness done I get on with my day. 🙂

I get in the car and at some point check myself out in the rearview mirror – I can delude myself some mornings and say I am only looking cause my eye has a twitch and I think something may be in it but really, I need to have one last check at my makeup and hair. 😛 Once at work I am mirror free for a while…until I have to go to the washroom, then I have to confront The Mirror From Hell. It is evil I swear! I may have a morning at home where I think I look alright, not so bad, decent even…I get to work, take one look in that mirror and all those thoughts are shredded, that mirror makes me look short, frumpy, overly round in all the wrong places, my clothes don’t fit right when I look in that mirror…it’s all bad! I don’t get it. I don’t like it, and it always makes me feel badly about myself…yes my self esteem is very much wrapped up in how I look, deal with it. lol.

There is  one mirror that I like, it is at Aveda on Robson St., they only show you from torso up so no having to see my tummy or ass when shopping, phew, lol, but you get a good clear look at your face…since they are trying to sell you face and hair stuff makes sense you can see yourself. I was there yesterday and couldn’t stop looking at myself in the mirror, my face looked…brace for it…thin…thin! Can you believe it?! I moved my hair around, tried out different angles, no matter what I did my face look awesome. Almost pretty. It left me with a happy little glow the whole rest of the evening because I kept thinking “when people look at me, they see that thin face I saw in the mirror”. This glow lasted until I went to the washroom after the movie, saw myself in that mirror and I just looked like my normal self…for a while tho it was great. 🙂

I know we shouldn’t base all our self-worth on how we look; and despite what I just wrote I actually don’t, I can manage to push away my thoughts about how I look and function just fine but a mirror can have a huge impact on how I feel about myself. It’s not like you can avoid mirrors, sure in your own place you could but once out in public there are so many ways to see your reflection. I check myself out on the Skytrain in the windows to make sure my hair is ok, I look at store window reflections to make sure my clothes look alright and to gauge how I look in my outfit, heck, I use the reflection I can see in the face of my iPod touch to see if my makeup is still smudge free and I go absolutley nowhere without a little pocket sized mirror…just in case. Was it always like this? Were people always so vain? And is it really vanity? I think of vanity as someone who is obsessed with their looks because they think they look so hot, I am obsessed but because I think I look not good most of the time and want to make sure I haven’t somehow gotten worse looking since that last mirror check. Healthy? No way! Gonna stop anytime soon? Probably not. shrug.

Since losing my 3.6 pounds (in 2 weeks – insert happy dance here!) I sometimes think I look different; I know in actuality I don’t look different, I think it is more my mental perception of how I look. Because I know I have lost weight and am eating healthy and working towards a greater weight loss I am starting to feel better about myself, I have more confidence in how I look and how I move through my little corner of the world because I know that sure I don’t look great now but I am going to look great soon-ish. Gradually, those mirrors will show me something more pleasing, an image I actually want to see but will that really make a difference in how I see myself? Or will I lose weight and still only see the flaws? Still be desperate to change certain things because I think that is all people see when they look at me?

These aren’t questions that can be answered right now; I won’t have answers for them until I have lost more weight and actually do look different. For all I know I will lose 20 pounds, be so happy with how I look at that stage and say “screw it” to continuing trying to lose more weight and just maintain. Or I could lose 45 pounds and still be miserable because I still haven’t learned how to be happy and self-confident in way that is not directly related to how I look. I hope I end up in the middle of those two – lose the 45 pounds and be self-confident and happy with how I look. I am a perfectionist though and can totally see myself as that person who lost a bunch of weight, got all toned and still only sees what needs to be tweaked. But alas, I won’t know for a while so I think I should stop worrying about it…I also think I need to look in Aveda mirrors more and the one at work less! 😀

Today I ate:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special k = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 cup baked beans = 2 points

1 piece of toast = 1 point

1 cup blueberries =1 point

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 cup mashed yams = 3 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

1 Salmon Steak herb and garlic = 3 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

2 Maple Cookies = 4 points

That puts me at 22 points, I know, I know, my total is s’posed to be 23 and this is what, day three of not reaching my total? eek. It is almost 10pm tho and I don’t want to eat anymore. I meant to have fruit with my cookies n milk to use up that last point and got so caught up in typing this I didn’t go get it, oops. You’d think I’d know better by now! lol.

My lunch was smaller then I intended; I forgot my Laughing Cow cheese at home this morning so all I took was the beans and fruit. It wasn’t so bad, I got peckish in the afternoon but ate the grapes and was alright and I made dinner right when I got home so that prevented any starved sensations. lol. The dinner was really yummy, this is a different flavour of salmon steak from last time and I think I like this one better. 🙂 This salmon was also from M&M Meat Shops; so cheap, yummy and quick to cook! There are a lot more flavours to try so I will keep you posted; I will definitly tell you if any of them are gross! 🙂

A Subway Kind of Day…

14 Jul

I went out after work, saw the movie The Girl Who Played With Fire – wow! and yah to having a social life! I am still not all that adept at working weight watchers in to social activities; I feel like there are very few places I can safely eat. Safely, what a weird word to use with food but that’s how I think of food now…safe and un-safe. Everyday I have to pass the un-safe places and hope my willpower doesn’t crumble; so far it’s held up! 🙂

But going out is such a dilemna now, do I eat beforehand and just watch my friends eat, do I indulge a little and say ‘oh well, used some flex points’ or what? I have tried eating beforehand and just hanging with my friends while they eat – wouldn’t recommend it by the way, it is way not fun! I haven’t yet decided to say screw it and eat whatever…I hope I don’t do that! What I did today was a compromise I guess. I went to Subway…again. groan. Not that I have anything against Subway but they were never my first choice for somewhere to go when I wanted to buy food. Now, they are my only choice, how sad. I thought I would go to Quizno’s, they are yummy, and I figured a sub place so healthy too right? Wrong! Check out their nutritional info online, horrible! Even the small veggie sub is bad, ugh.

I double checked the subway nutritional info and found out I miscalculated last time, the 6″ 9 grain wheat turkey sub is 5 points, not 6 which means I had room to put some cheese on it. 😀 It was good, a cheeseburger it is not but I can eat it and not feel guilty and more importantly not use my flex points.

So here I am at almost 11 at night cooking baked beans so I can wait for them to cool, portion them out and take some to work tomorrow for lunch. Why you ask? Because I have had salad 2 days in a row for lunch and baked beans are a safe food. One day soon my cupboards will be filled with only safe foods and then when I want to cheat I won’t even be able to because there will be nothing to cheat with; now that’ll be a post with rants in it! lol.

What did I eat today:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Asian Supreme salad = 4 points

1 hard boiled egg = 2 points

1 Activia Blueberry yogurt = 2 points

1 6″ turkey sub on 9 grain wheat bread = 5 points

     – cheese, light mayo, mustard – 1 point

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 cup blueberries = 1 point

1/2 7-11 slush = 1 point

That totals me at…22 points…crap, I didn’t eat them all? Hmm, I would have if I had finished my slush…let’s just say I finished them all, it can be our secret k? lol.

Oh, on top of always struggling with food while out I am also that person who at a moments notice can whip out of her bag fruit and water. At the movie theatre tonight, I ate my sub beforehand and then when K and I were sitting down I realized I was still peckish so I pulled out the grapes then decided more fruit couldn’t hurt and I knew I had the points for them so I pulled out my blueberries. They were both enjoyable but I think K thinks I am a little cooky…well, cookier then usual. lol. If I had known people did that (pulled out healthy food in movie theatres) in the past I would have definitly been the person making fun of those people, now I am that person. Oh how the tables have turned. What I found interesting was that I didn’t miss the popcorn – although I did think maybe next time I will pop some of my own and take it with me (ha! I am that person too!) but I was content with my fruit and didn’t feel all bloated or icky after the movie was over cause I just downed a huge pop and popcorn.

I don’t want to be that person who starts talking about how “like, I feel soooooo much better now that I eat all healthy an all and I think everyone should eat like me now, cause, like, you’ll feel better too! giggle” (that should be said in a valley girl kinda voice lol) but I do feel…not better, that’s not right, but not worse…I find my tummy is less upset, mostly cause I don’t over fill it anymore, lol, but hey, whatever works!

I was s’posed to research food groups today but didn’t cause of going out after work but I did learn something new food wise! It is better to eat your veggies with some protein (it doesn’t have to be meat) because your stomach will take longer to digest the whole kit n caboodle so you’ll stay fuller longer. An example, if you eat a salad, even if it is topped with lots of veggies you will digest it fast because of what the salad and veggies are made of but! if you put some tuna (aka cat food, ugh) on the salad, or some chicken, heck a hard boiled egg, when it’s all jumbled in your tummy the protein takes longer to digest and by default so will your salad thereby keeping you fuller longer. So yah to protein!

From what little I do know about food groups, I managed to get them all in my food plan today, *happy dance*. I had protein, grains, veggies, salad, carbs…and of course my endless water and tea. I think today was a pretty good day. 😀

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