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Archive | September, 2010

I Need a New Activity!

30 Sep

Today was my last sword fighting class, sadness. Last week I was kinda looking forward to the end of the classes, not that I wasn’t still enjoying myself but I was ready for a change, well today when it was all over I was a little sad. I guess I got used to going there twice a week and learning how to skewer people. lol. It was a decent workout, more toning the upper body then cardio but that’s ok, who doesn’t want some toning? Anyways, it is over and I need to find something to replace it with.

I was looking at a class called Yogilates (a combo of pilates and yoga), but it’s only once a week and the only time I would be able to go is early saturday morning – uh, No! Sooo…what else to do? It has to be fun, burn calories, happen twice a week (maybe three), be in the evenings, not be expensive and not last too long (cause I get bored). Anybody have any suggestions?

So far I have thought of bikrams yoga, pole dancing (that was a suggestion from a friend) and um, well that’s it. I don’t want to go to a gym cause it’s just the same thing over and over and I’ll be way bored. There is a bikrams place near me but it’s over $100 a month and I can’t afford that. I haven’t researched the pole dancing yet…who knows what’ll pop up on my google screen when I type that search in! lol. Maybe there is a walking club out of  The Running Room that is near me…but weather is about to turn cold and rainy for winter so do I really want to go walking in that??

Hopefully I will come up with something soon, I don’t want to go too long with out some form of exercise activity. Well, ok, that is a lie, I would rather not exercise at all but since I have to I might as well find something sooner rather then later. Otherwise I will get out of the rhythm of doing anything exercise-y and it’ll be that much harder to start again.

Today I ate:

29 grams honey nut cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 plum = 1 point

1 salad = 0 points

1 tbls Three Cheese Ranch dressing = 1 point

1 Smart Ones Creamy Rigatoni with Chicken and Broccoli = 5 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

2 triangles laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 sweet chili and citrus salmon steak = 3 points

grilled veggies and corn = 0 points

1 piece bread = 1 point

1 tbls Nutella = 2 points

1 tbls light Peanut Butter = 2 points

Exercise Points earned = 3 points

So, I ate 24 points today, that is 22 daily points and 2 out of my 3 exercise points. I didn’t mean to leave a point behind (never leave a point behind! lol) I just miscalculated and thought my snack would use up the last of my points. Oops! By the time I had my snack and realized I left a point behind it was too late at night to eat anything else and really, there isn’t anything I want. shrug.

I am a tad concerned for tomorrow, I have no yogurt, no cottage cheese, almost no fruit, no salad…I haven’t made any soup or yams so I have no leftovers…this could cause a slight food emergency when I am at work…should leave me with a bunch of points at the end of the day though so I s’pose I could just deal with eating a smaller amount then normal during the day then eat a nice big indulgent dinner…we’ll see. I am gonna raid my cupboards and see if I can find something to make now that is uber fast and I will take that.

If anyone has any suggestions for an activity that meets all the requirements I listed above pretty please with a cherry on top share the knowledge, otherwise I may end up learning how to pole dance and who knows where that could lead! Cause ya know, a fat girl in baggy clothes working the pole is oh-so-sexy. 😛 hahaha

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Epic Salad Fail

29 Sep

I was lazy last night and paid the consequences today, sigh. I got caught up in tv and laziness last night and didn’t make adequate food for today at work, not good! I thought it would be alright but when I was getting my lunch and snacks out of the fridge this morning I was all “ah crap, where’s all the food??” I am used to having breakfast, snack, lunch and then if I feel like it another snack – all at work – that’s a lot of food, and generally a lot of tupperware containers! lol.

I had my breakfast with me, it’s only cereal and fruit after all, but for lunch I had a sandwich (tuna), my laughing cow cheese and a yogurt…what’s with that? It just didn’t seem like enough. shrug. I guess I got used to taking small amounts of lots of things (like cottage cheese, yams, side salad and soup) so the amount of food didn’t look like very much. In reality it was enough and geez, complaining about “only” having a sandwich, yogurt and two triangles of cheese makes me sound like a pig. Oink! Oink! I bought a Mediteranean Salad to go with my sandwich, it was mixed greens, black olives, baby tomato and feta and it was disgusting! Oh so disgusting! Hence the Epic Salad Fail. It was the mixed greens that made it gross, weird huh? I don’t know what was up with them but they were nasty. ugh.

To compensate for my no salad at lunch I ate some raw mixed veggies in the afternoon for a snack; least I still got my veggies for the day…well, some of them. lol.

Also today I got a treat…a cookie by George! Mmm Mmm Mmm those cookies are like ecstasy, pure bliss in my mouth. I decided since I am trying to eat some of my flex points now and on normal days I have trouble doing that I might as well use some of my flex points to fit in one of those cookies. I grabbed a chocolate chip (the only one I have been able to calculate the points for so far) and wrapped it up to bring home. I didn’t want to scarf it down and barely notice how good it tastes and that’s what would happen if Iate it at work. This way, I sat all comfy cozy on my couch and ate that cookie nice an slow so I savoured every bite. Yum!

Mindless eating is something I have been working on stopping. We all know we aren’t s’posed to eat in our cars, or in front of the tv or when reading and I usually did all of those on a regular basis. lol.  So now I don’t eat in my car or when reading, I do still eat in front of the tv tho. 😛 I do my best to eat at a moderate speed and think about every bite. I am not always able to manage it but I try. Sometimes, like yesterday at dinner time, I am so hungry I can’t help myself, I eat really fast…I regretted that yesterday cause I still felt hungry even though I knew I wasn’t. sigh. I know to wait about 20 mins after eating to see if I am really hungry or if my stomach just hasn’t gotten the message to my brain yet that I am full but man, yesterday was hard.

Today I ate:

29 grams Honey Nut Cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup skim milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 apple = 1 point

1 tuna sandwich = 4 points

1 Activia Yogurt = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

raw mixed veggies = 0 points

1 Fiesta Salad = 6 points

1 pckg Jolly Time Popcorn = 1 point

1 chocolate chip cookie = 5 points

Total points eaten today = 25. So that’s my 22 daily points and 3 flex points. I still feel uncomfie using my flex points but I decided to look at it this way – today is a ‘hungry day’ I have wanted to stuff my face all day, if I wasn’t on weight watchers I would have eaten way more then 25 points worth of food and not even realized so sure, I ate 3 flex points but it could be a lot worse! lol.

Jillian you so funneeeee

28 Sep

LMAO

That image to the right is s’posed to represent how much I was laughing in the first half of The Biggest Loser tonight…course that would only represent me truthfully if I was skinny, had milk coming out of my nose, was a cartoon and was a bit of a valley girl but you get the idea! lol.

Jillian and Bob kill me, if they ever met me in person they’d probably kill me for real (in a gym people…not body bag kill! eesh) but listening to the things they say, *giggle* makes me laugh out loud…which only leaves me feeling mildly crazy since I am the only one here and it seems to me laughing when there is no one around is a step towards crazy-ville but that is a whole other topic. 😛

I swear, it’s like some of those contestants have never seen the show or something! Who actually says to Bob “are we done soon?” ooooohhhh buddy, you’re opening yourself up to a world of hurt when you say something like that!

The only gripe I have with TBL doesn’t have to do with the show exactly but more with the differences between men and women. It’s not that guys suck…it’s that their higher metabolisms and ability to lose weight faster then gals sucks. One guy lost in two weeks the amount I want to lose by the end of December…in TWO WEEKS! Lucky fat bastard. I make myself feel better about this by reminding myself I am not as big as that guy is…course, by now he’s probably 2% body fat and ripped…lucky ripped bastard. lol.

Today I ate:

29 grams Honey Nut Cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup skim milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1/2 cup Red Lentil and Veg Soup = 1.5 points

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

1/4 cup mashed yam = 0.75 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

2 pieces toast = 2 points

1 tuna sandwich (same as yesterday) = 4 points

1 Prawn Salad Wrap = 3 points

2 cups peaches = 2 points

1 pckg Quaker Crunch’ers = 2 points

Exercise Points earned = 3

I ate a total of 25 points which is all my daily points (22) and my 3 exercise points – perfect! 😀

Lemme explain the peaches, it is so not peach season anymore (sadness) but I found Canned Peaches and they are packed in…Water! Water? Yup, good ol water which means…no extra points! wOOt! Normally they are in syrup or fruit juice both of which add points to your fruit but water? Dude, that’s awesome! A little hard to measure the peaches out but I managed. I only bought 2 cans just in case they weren’t good but I will for sure buy more. They aren’t as good as a fresh peach (shocking, I know. lol) but they are good and it’s fruit which is a healthy fibre rich, natural sugar all kinds of nutrient filled food.  Oh it’s Del Monte brand if you wanna try to find them near you. 😀

According to the propoganda, oops! meant to say Customer Information on the Del Monte website (teehee) the fruit packed in water is “60% less sugar and 50% less calories then fruit packed in syrup”. It comes in cans and individual serving cups, there is the fruit cocktail, pears and peaches. If you want to check out the site it is: http://www.cangrofoods.ca

Tattoo Touch Up and Tuna

27 Sep

I had two scary experiences today: (1) getting my tatt touched up and (2) trying to eat tuna again. I was equally scared of both. lol 😛

It may seem silly to be nervous about getting the tatt touched up, I mean, hello? it’s not like I didn’t know what to expect, right? Well, that was sorta the problem…I knew what to expect and was not looking forward to it, ugh. I so do not enjoy the experience of that needle going in and out super fast *shudder* – makes you wonder why I got the tatt in the first place! lol. I almost didn’t get the touch up…I’d already put it off for about a month or so, but it’s like how beauty is pain, if you get a tatt ya gotta man up and get the touch ups, right? Damn responsibility and follow through, sigh.

Then a bigger fear…dun dun dun…tuna! I attempted eating it a while ago, look for my post about eating cat food lol, and promptly gave up on it but friends at work convinced me to try again. The kind I tried last time was pre-flavoured and the sandwich was oh so nasty, double ugh, a huge part of it was texture (the texture of tuna is just horrible!) but the taste was also nasty. This time I bought non-flavoured normal tuna and mixed it with some light miracle whip, finely chopped onion and, um, hmm…yeah, that was it. lol. Stuck it on bread with some sliced cucumber and a cheese slice and voila! Tuna sandwich. 🙂 It wasn’t half bad…kinda. I still feel like I ate cat food for dinner but I think that is a mental thing cause it tasted alright and the texture wasn’t as bad this time. So yah! I found a way to eat tuna, a food that is stupid good for you and way low in points. I am not at the point where I could just flake some on to a salad but that’s ok, I am taking baby steps here. 😀

Today I ate:

29 grams Honey Nut Cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 nectarine = 1 point

1/2 cup mashed yam = 1.5 points

1/2 cup BBQ Chipotle baked beans = 2 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Activia Yogurt = 2 points

1 cup Red Lentil and Veg Soup = 3 points

Tuna Sandwich

    – 2 pieces bread = 2 points

    – 1 cheese slice = 1 point

    – tuna mix (tuna, onion and light miracle whip) = 1 point

1 weight watchers pckg Pretzel Thins = 2 points

Total points used 22.5, yah! Used a uber small amount of flex points (0.5 a flex point to be precise) and am comfortably full. 🙂

Figuring out the points for the tuna mix was weird, each can is 120 grams drained, a serving is 55 grams so almost half. The nutirional info is for 55 grams so it’s 1 point per 55 grams. I used 2 tbls light miracle whip which is 1 point. Oh, and on my sandwich I used 1/4 of the mix. Soooooo…1/4 of the miracle whip is 0.25 of a point and 1/4 of the tuna is 0.50 a point which equals 0.75 of a point sooooo I rounded up to 1 point per 1/4 of the total tuna mix. Make sense? I told you it was weird! 😛 I probably should have used one more flex point just to make sure I ate enough for the day but I feel alright so I’m not gonna push it.

My lesson for today? Vanity is painful and scary but so what? shrug. Face it and in the end you may be surprised…the needle may not hurt too badly this time and the food may not taste as gross as you thought…you’re not gonna know until you try! Oh, and no matter how much it hurts, it’s not gonna kill ya so suck it up princess and think about how you’ll be happy with the results! 😀

Sometimes I just don’t know…

26 Sep

Do you ever have trouble knowing why you want to eat? That sounds weird but I am sure some of you out there know what I am talking about. I was out for pretty much all of today (well, all of the day that I was awake for, lol), while out I enjoyed a very yummy late lunch that used up almost all my points (totally worth it!) but when I got home and was finally sitting and chillin I wanted a snack and a cup of tea. That doesn’t seem so bad, right? I mean sure I had already used my points for the day but I could use some flex points if I wanted…but did I want to? And if I did want to why did I want to? I couldn’t be hungry, could I? After eating such a large late lunch…

So the wondering began, I went back and forth for about an hour on if I wanted a snack because I was hungry or for some other reason…and if I wasn’t hungry why was I wanting a snack? hmmm…lots of options for the answer to that question.

I think part of the answer is habit, usually when I come home it’s meal time so it’s almost ingrained in me that when I come home I get to eat. Is that normal? Who knows. lol. But today when I got home it was not a meal time, it was late evening, I was still full from lunch, shrug, theoretically I should have been fine with not eating the rest of the day. And yet I wanted to snack on something with my evening cup of tea.

I finally decided to use 2 points on a snack and am now a little over-full, sigh, guess I wasn’t all that hungry after all. Oops. lol.

I have been getting bugged by KB to get a measuring tape and use that as well as the scale to keep track of my weight loss. She said maybe some of the weeks I didn’t see a change on the scale I might have built muscle instead (ha!) so measuring might be more accurate. It’s worth a try. From what I have seen on weight loss shows you shouldn’t measure yourself weekly the way you weigh yourself cause the changes will be small on a weekly basis and could make you discouraged sooooooo I will measure myself on a monthly basis, let me be more specific, once every four weeks…that’s not quite monthly. I am gonna do some research to find the best parts to measure…I mean obviously there is the waist, hips and bust but I think I will also measure my thighs and arms (biceps) so I can keep track of every change. Obsessive? Maybe. lol.

I’m going to measure myself for the first time next saturday – correlate it with when I weigh myself – hopefully I don’t manage to lose the measuring tape before then! lol. Oh, and fyi, if you wanna buy one mine was only $2 at wal-mart. 🙂

Today I ate:

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

Brown’s Social House

1 veggie burger = 16 points

1 side salad = 4 points

1 Quaker Granola Crunch’ers = 2 points

That is a total of 24 points. Sure, if I had resisted the Quaker snack I would be right on target with my points but I don’t feel bad about using the 2 flex points, those little Quaker crunch things are yummy and a nice little evening snack. 🙂 Oh, another fyi, you can buy them at wal-mart for…you guessed it! $2! Gotta love wal-mart…mind you, I hate wal-mart too but meh, love/hate relationships are some of the best kinds. lol.  And that is totally a topic for another post! 😛

This is not happening again?!?! Really? sigh…

25 Sep

Ok, that title implies I am more mad then I really am. lol. Today was weigh in day and I stayed the same as last week, sigh. Upsetting? Yes. Understandable? Yes. It’s that understandable part that is stopping me from being upset. shrug.

I was sick this past week, didn’t eat all my points two of the days, barely managed them the next day…it’s a given I was not gonna lose weight this week. Altho, I sorta hoped I’d lose more then normal cause of being sick, ya know? But I think I would have had to be sicker for longer for that to happen…like those times when you have a stomach flu and spend a good 5 days not even thinking of food cause that makes you have to run to the bathroom. ew, right? But hey, we’ve all been there, so whatever. Anyways, I wasn’t that sick so I didn’t get that kind of weight loss.

I have had my regular lazy saturday and am debating on how to spend the rest of it…movie? tv? book? chillin with friends? oh so many options and so little time! lol.  I should have forced myself to be productive today and gone for a walk or hike or something…I had intended to but shrug, it just didn’t happen. Now I am kinda glad I didn’t cause I was sitting watching tv and bam! all of a sudden exhausted and having trouble keeping my eyes open, what’s with that? So I made s’thing to eat in the hopes it’s just my body needing some fuel but maybe it’s not and maybe my body needs a couple more days of chillaxing before it’s at top level.  That’s all good, ya gotta give your body some pampering at times to help it work at full throttle. 🙂

So far today I have eaten:

1/2 cup Sidekicks Three Cheese pasta = 4 points

1/6 Delissio Pizza = 5 points

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

5 baby potatoes with onion = 1 point

1 hamburger patty = 4 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

Puts me at 17 points, it’s all good tho cause there is lots of evening left to have a snack in. 🙂 I have weight watchers tortillas that are only 1 point per tortilla instead of the 2 points for the tortillas I have had up till now so maybe I will fill one with nutella and some peanut butter and eat that…not sure tho, when there is lots of time left in the evening and lots of points left I kinda get overwhelmed cause there are so many options for what to have. lol. Crazy huh?

I mean, I live in a country that has so many options for pretty much anything you can think of you’d think I’d be used to having lots of options and making a decision but I am finding it more difficult now because I know that if I eat that tortilla wrap with nutella and peanut butter then I can’t have anything else for the rest of the night and what if I get hungry? or crave something? or just feel like a nibble? Is it just me that has this problem or do other people worry about this? I never thought about it before, if I wanted that wrap I’d have it and if later I wanted something else I’d have that…I had all those options and I over-chose from them, now knowing where the line is for how much I can have, well…sometimes it can feel a bit pressured. *rolls eyes* I know, I know, weird. But hey, I never claimed to be normal! lol. 😛

Double Tap

24 Sep

teehee, double tap has absolutely nothing to do with my post I just really wanted to type it. It’s from the movie Zombieland which I just finished watching and enjoyed. It was funny; not crazy funny, not laugh out loud funny, but funny.Ya know?

I am about to re-watch  The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, seen that? I saw it in theatre and was floored by how amazingly great it was. I don’t understand why LA feels the need to remake the movie in english, what? Is all of north america so fricken lazy that they can’t read sub-titles?? This has become a pet peeve of mine, recently, as recent as oh, say, this past summer when I saw the movie in theatre. lol. I never really thought about it before but man, this movie rocks and should be allowed to stand on its own but for some reason they are gonna re-make it and since no other country has as much money to put in to a movie as the states it’s gonna get over shadowed, it’s just wrong. Luckily they have already finished filming the third in the trilogy so hopefully I will get to see the third in theatre before it gets shelfed in north america for the english speaking version.

And boy, that’s a lot of rambling about something that has nothing to do with my weight loss path…or does it? teehee. It is connected in that I love movies, could spend my entire day immersed in them and this I am sure has affected how I see the world, how I see people…how I see myself. I have crappy self esteem and a completely negative personal body image. I hate seeing myself in a mirror, in pictures…anywhere. I prefer going through my day not seeing what I look like – then I can imagine I look the way I feel I should look, the way my inner self looks. I think we all have inner selves but maybe you don’t, maybe it’s just me and I am a little bit weirder then I realized. lol. Don’t you have an image you think you project to the world in your head and every now and then you see yourself in a mirror and realize you are way off base? That the self-confident able to handle anything look you think you have actually looks like an overweight frumpy boring person?

Now, deep deep down I know I don’t look like a self-confident able to handle anything person, but I like to think I do and when I can’t see what I look like I can imagine I do…make sense? It’s all about tricking myself and I gotta say, I have gotten fairly good at it over the years. 😛 I am not one of those people who blames my body image issues on media, I don’t think it is the fault of movies or tv or magazines or books…sure most of the women I see and read are thin and beautiful in their own way but hey, I am working on the thin part and then, well, I won’t be beautiful but I will be quirky looking, thin and quirky…that’s a perfectly acceptable look, especially in the entertainment industry which I am hoping to break in to soon. Ya gotta work with what ya got, and ya gotta be honest about it…which means I have to be honest with  myself with what I will be cast as and a 5’8″ red haired blue eyed lady isn’t easy to cast, durn my red hair. sigh. I s’pose I could say “why wasn’t I born blonde?” but if I had my choice of any hair colour it’d be jet black and that’d be just as hard to cast as the red so ah well, I shall work with what I have. 😀 hmmm, all that sounds like a whiny babble and I s’pose it is but it doesn’t bother me all that much, not really. Sometimes I think about it, usually when it’s the day before weigh in day and I am inwardly freaking out about having to step on that stupid scale, but most days I can push it aside. 🙂 

I should stop looking at myself in the mirror in the bathroom, lol, sounds stupid I know but twice a day everyday I do a body scan, I turn, look at myself at different angles, try to see where the fat is coming off, and when I look in the evening I am poofier then in the mornings cause it’s end of day and this means I get all “it’s not working, I swear I am just as big as when I started…” blah blah blah. Seriously mirrors are bad bad things…maybe if the world got rid of mirrors none of us would have body image issues cause we would never really know what we look like…or maybe I should just not look in one right before I post cause man this did turn in to a ramble…oops…

Here’s what I ate today:

29 grams Honey Nut Cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup skim milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Lean Cuisine Honey Mustard Chicken = 5 points

1 english muffin = 3 points

1 battered frozen fish fillet = 4 points

1/2 cup mashed yam = 1.5 points

cooked mixed veg = 0 points

3 tbls Veggie Caviar = 1 point

20 Breton Minis = 2 points

This is a total of 22.5 points which would be perfect except that I am really hungry…hmm, don’t know what happened there. I should be fine, I ate spaced out meals like I am s’posed to but here it is 10:30pm and I feel like I could eat a meal…sigh. I know I have flex points and I am gonna hafta use some I just can’t figure out what to eat…I still have it set in my head to never ever use them so trying to figure out what to use them on is hard…what is really worth my flex points? The bigger question is how many of them do I want to use? Seriously, feel like I could eat a meal here but I don’t want to use that many this late in the day…must find a snack! Off to the kitchen I go…I’ll type ya after weigh in tomorrow…man, I shouldn’t think of that, now I want chocolate. lol. 😛

EDIT:

so for my snack I had 1/2 cup cottage cheese and an apple, that put me at 25.5 points for the day which is not so bad considering. 🙂

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