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Release The Anger

25 Jul

Stress and anger not only help our bodies hold on to what weight they have they also help our bodies to gain weight – how mean is that?? My solution to this is to release the stress and anger from my body – I know, easier said then done right? lol

My life right now is fairly anger free and stress free, I mean, there is always some sort of stress (about having money to pay bills or thinking about my upcoming agent hunt etc) but that’s life right? There is always something to worry about but I think how you deal with the stress and anger is how to keep it from affecting your weight loss. Normally I deal with stress by not dealing with it, lol, I’m good at avoidance and if that doesn’t work I go driving late at night, might seem weird but that always helps me sort things out in my head. With anger I have to do something, usually what I want to do is punch a wall (or some other object, shrug), I want violence when I am angry. Now, since I don’t want a police record for vandalism or violence I instead go hiking or do some other kind of physical activity to help release the anger, it really does help!

However, I have a confused anger that has been building in me since Saturday and I don’t know how to get rid of it. It is leaving me lethargic and not wanting the violence or action I normally crave when I am angry. What I want is to hide away but I can’t do that, I do have a life ya know 😉

Here is why I am confused and angry all at once: last week I kicked my own ass like you wouldn’t believe! I hiked multiple times, I went to boxerfit twice, I dragon boated, I ate properly, yes I ate some exercise points but not all and because I exercised so much I didn’t have to use my flex points – so great right? I did everything I am supposed to! I ate right, I exercised like crazy, I followed all the rules…guess what happened on the scale on saturday (and sunday! – I did a second weigh in hoping I imagined what I saw on the display on saturday) I gained 3 pounds!!!! GAINED!!!!! The  string of swear words I want to type here is crazy long but in an effort to not offend anyone I will refrain from writing them…instead I will say them out loud…

How the fuck did I gain 3 pounds? I mean, if I cheated on my food throughout the week or didn’t exercise or some combo of the two well sure, then it’d make sense I gained but not when I follow the rules! I shudder to think what would have happened if I had cheated, how much more I would have gained, ugh.

I know people always say muscle weighs more then fat, which is a bald faced lie. Does one pound of bricks weigh more then one pound of feathers? No! They both weigh one pound! It’s just that one pound of muscle takes up less space then one pound of fat so you can have more muscle fitting in the same sized space as a smaller amount of fat.

Anyways, my friend KL told me today (after I bitched about gaining 3 pounds) that I have most likely built muscle and that’s why I went up on the scale – to this I replied: BullShit!!! I don’t have muscle, I am a weak bodied individual who has a lot of excess fat on her body. My body shouldn’t be building muscle yet, it should be shedding fat. My squishy parts are no less squishy, my not as squishy parts are no more toned then before so where exactly is this supposed muscle forming?

So that is why I am angry, cause of the three pounds gained right before my filming day (literally right before! I film tomorrow!) and I am confused cause I followed all the rules for weight loss and they sooooooo didn’t work!

I don’t know what to do now, do I keep pushing my exercise like the past week? I know I need to keep up with the healthy eating but I feel like I should be doing something else, something different since apparently what I have been doing is not working. sigh. I have been stuck at this plateau for months and now instead of staying the same I am going up – just frickin great. arg.

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5 Responses to “Release The Anger”

  1. 52weeks52pounds July 26, 2011 at 5:52 am #

    Sounds like you know the answer but don’t want to accept it.

    1lb is 1lb, the point they really mean is one point of fat takes up more volume than muscle, so if you are 3 lbs up but your clothes fit better you swapped fat for muscle.

    As to being a weak bodied woman – that makes it even more likely it is muscle build – since the initial muscle is what builds fastest. Body builders gain muscle from workout to workout at the beginning, then it takes week to week and olympic builders take months to add a little muscle.

    If you really upped your exercise you will see initial jumps – don’t stop. You will go up for a few weeks but if your clothes are getting looser you are getting healthier. If you stop, you will go down but your initial loss will just be re-losing the muscle. But muscle burns more energy over time and ups your base metabolism.

  2. 52weeks52pounds July 26, 2011 at 5:52 am #

    Sounds like you know the answer but don’t want to accept it.

    1lb is 1lb, the point they really mean is one point of fat takes up more volume than muscle, so if you are 3 lbs up but your clothes fit better you swapped fat for muscle.

    As to being a weak bodied woman – that makes it even more likely it is muscle build – since the initial muscle is what builds fastest. Body builders gain muscle from workout to workout at the beginning, then it takes week to week and olympic builders take months to add a little muscle.

    If you really upped your exercise you will see initial jumps – don’t stop. You will go up for a few weeks but if your clothes are getting looser you are getting healthier. If you stop, you will go down but your initial loss will just be re-losing the muscle. But muscle burns more energy over time and ups your base metabolism.

    • shrinkingwmn July 28, 2011 at 7:31 pm #

      I don’t know that it’s not wanting to accept so much as not believing lol. all the research I have been doing about muscle gain stresses how slow of a process it is and how no one can gain any kind of noticeable muscle gain within one week no matter how much they work at it so I don’t see how I could have managed it…

      So, if I keep going up for a bit while building this so called muscle will my weight on the scale eventually start going down again as more fat gets burned away? Man I hope my base metabolism goes up soon, it’s been evilly low for so long it’d be nice if it went up lol.

      thanks for the comments! 🙂

      • 52weeks52pounds July 29, 2011 at 5:00 am #

        true in general – but not for beginners. Trainers will always tell you to expect to increase weight the first few weeks at gym due to the low base unfit people come in from. And if I read your blog correctly, you recently kicked off again to a very high level from low activity?

        If you still see weight gain/no loss after a few weeks then revisit your exercise/diet. I will say tho that this post
        https://shrinkingwmn.wordpress.com/2011/07/20/how-to-tell/
        I find a little disturbing. I’m fat now, but I’ve been through the cycle and was pretty buff at some points in my life – a lot of those things are warning signs that you are overdoing it and could hurt yourself if done over and over.

      • shrinkingwmn August 9, 2011 at 9:08 pm #

        hmm, I haven’t read much about gaining muscle when you’re a beginner or amping up your workouts, everything I read seemed to assume you were already buff and warning you to not expect any big gains…I guess it could make sense for more drastic changes at the beginning…I’ll look in to it. 🙂
        I bumped up from say a medium activity level to high that week…then I got sick the week after so there went that *rolls eyes* lol.
        No worries about me repeating that work out day you found disturbing, I’m too lazy for that lol, I injured myself years ago when I was actually slim and in shape so despite how much that work out killed me I know not to cross the line into injury – I have no desire to have to relearn how to walk (again!)

        Thanks for all your comments. 🙂

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