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Insanity: Day 4

18 Jul

Soooooo, I’m getting worse lol Not on purpose! πŸ˜›

I was up early-ish to meet a friend for breakfast, we went to a diner type place and I actually wanted some form of meat…I never want to eat meat! lol It’s not that I don’t like meat, I do, I just, shrug, I dunno, don’t make it a priority I guess?

The only problem with wanting meat at breakfast time is pretty much everywhere only serves pork products for breakfast, what’s with that?? I asked, and this place didn’t have any turkey (or any other animal) alternatives so there went my fantasy of eating some form of meat. I ended up ordering french toast, yeah I know right? Way to dive right off the deep end with the meal plan! lol *rolls eyes* It was super yummy (duh!) but a lot smaller then I expected and it left me feeling hungry, there were three pieces of bread (small pieces but whatever), I’ve never still been hungry after eating a diner/restaurant breakfast of french toast (or pancakes), I don’t know if I was still hungry because of the craving some form of meat thing or because the bread was smaller than what I am used to or what…

After breakfast I was meeting up with my lil sister, we did a quick errand (I bought a blender! yah! an on sale blender! super yah!) then hung out at a Tim Horton’s cause that is what she wanted to do. I went from bad to worse with my food for the day, I got an Iced Cap (made with milk, not cream) and…a donut *hangs head in shame* We stayed there for hours hanging out and catching up (she’s been on vacation so we haven’t seen each other in weeks). Right when we were leaving I decided to buy a chicken wrap thingy because I knew by the time I got home I would only have enough time to grab my dragon boat gear and rush to practice and I figured it was better to eat something that finally had some meat in it then power through practice on a donut lol

It was a great practice, we race this coming weekend so we worked on some race pieces and had some endurance training. πŸ™‚

After practice I rushed home cause I have a hundred an one things to do, a big thing I had to do was prep/cook food for tomorrow…oh yeah, and exercise!

You didn’t think I forgot to do my Insanity workout today did ya? Silly! πŸ˜›

Today was Cardio Recovery Day. I actually kinda liked it. πŸ™‚ Twisted huh? It was mostly stretching, yoga style. Think deep stretching, think kinda painful stretching lol There were a couple where I actually couldn’t hold the stretch for the full time cause my muscles were all “nuh-uh you crazed nutball!” lol Some of the stretches you had to really focus on your balance, I learned quickly to face away from the tv because if I am looking at the movement on the tv while trying to hold my balance on one foot I lose my balance super fast! lol πŸ˜› Also, some of the exercises you are basically folded in half so you can’t see the tv but then he says to move in some way and I don’t understand his explanation so I had to get out of the position to see what he was doing, it was annoying because then I missed out on some of the reps watching what he was doing then getting back in to position so I could try. This has been happening with every work out so far so I figure the more I get used to the program the fewer times this will happen, I hope!

I can normally do this stretch no problem...but not while watching the tv!

I can normally do this stretch no problem…but not while watching the tv!

The only food I ate today that is part of the meal plan was the Protein Pizza Muffin, it is basically one whole grain english muffin topped with 1/4 Cup tomato sauce, 1/4 Cup mozza cheese and 2 oz grilled chicken. I was supposed to eat it with a side of broccoli but I don’t have any and frankly, it is late and I didn’t want anymore food, shrug. I had a little under the 2 oz of chicken because I cooked my second to last chicken breast thinking it would be enough for my meal tonight and one of the meals I prepped for tomorrow but when I was part way through weighing out the diced pieces for the Pizza Muffin I realized it wouldn’t be big enough for both meals to have the correct amount. I figured, split it as close to even as I could eyeball and get a little under 2 oz chicken in each of the two meals. Better that than one meal getting the full amount and one getting nowhere near, right?

I figured out that it is waaaay easier if all (or most) of my food for the day is prepped and or cooked the day prior. If I had food already prepped for today then I would have been able to grab something that was part of the meal plan when I ran home to get my dragon boat gear instead of buying a turkey wrap thing that I had no control over the contents of. With that in mind, I have made 2 of my five meals for tomorrow, and have items for two others (meals I will be eating at home) beside each other and ready to be used. Tomorrow is going to be a super busy rushed day so hopefully this prep work pays off! *crosses fingers* πŸ™‚

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I’ve Gone Insane!

15 Jul

I have officially started the Insanity Program…it is the end of Day 1 and I have already made mistakes lol πŸ˜›

I already knew when starting the program the hardest part for me would be the food, sigh. According to the eating plan you have to eat five times a day, FIVE!! The meals are to be spaced out throughout the day and don’t forget the snaaaacks, oy!

The plus side to the eating plan is I am allowed to eat carbs, not crazy amounts of them, but they are there, and that I looooove!

The book gives you specific meals to make and they are labelled for Meal 1, Meal 2…through to Meal 5. I spent so much time figuring out my meals for the first week it was ridonkulous! You can’t just randomly pick what you want, you have to pick meals that create a diverse menu (they don’t want you eating the same things day after day, otherwise you will miss out on various nutrients as well as get bored) and you have to pick meals that add up to the amount of calories you are supposed to be eating daily.

I figured I’d probably need 1200 calories or so, that seems to be the standard amount for a woman my age but you have to do this math formula called The Harris Benedict Equation, then multiply it by the level of exercise you will be doing then subtract 500 from the results if you want to lose weight (which, duh, of course I do lol). The Harris Benedict Equation determines how many calories you need to maintain your current weight without exercise…ah math, knew it’d become useful at some point in my life lol πŸ˜‰

The end result was I am apparently supposed to eat, get ready for this…1927 calories per day! PER DAY!! That CAN NOT be right! That is ridiculous! Right??

Admittedly, I don’t know my exact weight, the battery in my scale died and I haven’t replaced it yet, but I know what I weighed last time I stood on a scale and even though I gained a bit of weight I still fit in all my clothes so I can’t of gained that much weight…that’s my logic anyways lol. I calculated my numbers with a weight ten pounds higher then my last confirmed weight just to play it safe, and calculated my activity level as very active since (1) that is what the Insanity Program recommends and (2) I’m also going to be attending my dragon boat practices and racing so some days I’ll be doing double the exercise…to me that sounds like “very active”…

I still don’t believe the numbers though, I will be rechecking them tomorrow…

For today however, I used them as my guideline for what to eat, and I still messed up lol

Here is what I was supposed to eat:

Meal 1

1 C Kashi Go Lean Cereal

1 tbsp Flax Seed

2/3 C skim milk

1/2 banana, sliced

Meal 2

Vanilla Berry Protein Shake

1 C Almond Milk

1 scoop protein powder

1 C frozen berries

1 tsp vanilla extract

1/2 banana

ice to thicken

Meal 3

1 6″ whole grain tortilla

3oz grilled chicken breast

tomato, sliced, for toppings

lettuce, for toppings

Red bell peppers, sliced

Celery sticks

1 tbsp light ranch dressing

Meal 4

2 slices whole grain bread

1 tbsp light peanut butter

1 tbsp all fruit preserves OR 1/2 sliced banana

1/2 C 1% cottage cheese

Meal 5

4oz lean ground turkey

2 tbsp salsa

2 tbsp red onion, chopped

1 whole grain hamburger OR english muffin

green beans, steamed

1 slice reduced fat cheese

Snack

1/2 C oatmeal, cooked with water

top with 1tbsp slivered almonds or chopped walnuts

Now, I swear I tried, I really really tried to follow this plan! I did fairly good up to a point…I ate Meal 1, and Meal 2. Meal 3 I ate the wrap but had no room for the pepper slices or celery so I saved them for later. Meal 4 I ate, and also had the sliced pepper and celery sticks.

So far so good, right?

I got super busy after work, and made the mistake of sitting down, lol, from there I was doomed, doooooomed! I totally ended up napping, oops! When I woke up I took a bit of time to actually properly wake up lol did the Fitness test and made dinner buuuut it was way too late to be making a turkey burger from scratch so I swapped out for a different meal labelled for Meal 5 that is roughly the same amount of calories, I ended up eating…

Meal 5 – Dinner Omelet

1 whole egg

2 egg whites

1/4 C feta cheese

1 C baby spinach

1 slice of whole wheat bread or whole grain english muffin

a fresh pear

I modified it though…I forgot to buy spinach so I used lettuce, oh, and nowhere near 1 Cup of it, I had cherries instead of a pear, Β I added dill to the eggs for flavour, and I made the eggs scrambled instead of an omelet. I layered the lettuce, cheese and egg on the open english muffin and chowed down. It was yum. I figure the spirit of the dish was still intact. πŸ™‚

I also modified the protein shake that was for Meal 2. I put yogurt in it, I always put yogurt in mine for thickening and since I had yogurt in the fridge I used it because I don’t want it to go to waste. Also, I added my vege powder, and instead of using mixed berries I used a fruit combo of peaches, pineapple, strawberries and mango. Again, it was the fruit combo I had been using lately, it was already in my freezer, and I wasn’t not going to use it and have it go to waste. shrug.

Oh, and uh, I totally didn’t eat the snack…if I hadn’t had that nap I might have been able to fit that in but no way it is happening now! It’s way to late for more food, and I’m not hungry. Those calculations have got to be off…

The Fit Test I mentioned above is the exercise for Day 1 and it is exactly what it sounds like. You do a series of exercises, for a minute each, as fast as you can while maintaining the correct form. There is a tracking sheet so you can write down your results then in two weeks I’ll be doing it again, and then again in another two weeks, and then again another two weeks from then and then again on the last day. The Fit Test was harder than I expected, I sorta thought I’d breeze through it…some exercises I did, others I didn’t do as well as I’d thought I would. But oh well, just means I have room for improvement!

So that is my Day 1 of Insanity. I didn’t manage the food quite as well as I was supposed to and I didn’t do as well on the Fit Test as I thought I would. But that’s ok, it’ll just be a learning curve for me lol πŸ˜›

This is the exercise calendar for Insanity, my next 60 days all planned out...eek!

This is the exercise calendar for Insanity, my next 60 days all planned out…eek!

 

Here is what the tracking sheet for your Fitness Tests looks like.

Here is what the tracking sheet for your Fitness Tests looks like.

 

The Week’s Highlights

15 Jun

I have had so many things over the past week or so I have wanted to blog about but noooooo time to blog and now they are all old news in the past topics and I’m a little sad I never got around to telling you about them. sigh. The weirdness of having a blog! lol

Lemme see if I can give you a quick recap:

(1) my left knee has started popping in and out of joint at random times, lovely huh? Turns out all those squats I did during my squat challenge were bad for my knees (I suppose the knee pain I was feeling towards the end of the challenge could be considered an indication of that buuuuut I’m not gonna go there… πŸ˜‰ ) I went to see a doctor to request a consult with a knee specialist but of course he didn’t refer me (why are there even specialists out there when nobody can ever get referred to them?? *rolls eyes*) Anyways! He gave me some specific knee exercises to do, said the reason it is having so much trouble right now is the squats had negative consequences and to wear a knee brace when exercising for the next little while. I very much hate knee braces as they are sooooo uncomfie and not at all attractive but oh well! lol

(2) I went hiking last week and thought I was going to die from the knee pain lol I went with TF and except for the pain part we had a great time! Even with my being a bit slower than normal due to the pain we managed a perfect 30 minutes to get to the top so we made excellent time, yah! πŸ™‚

(3) I competed in our second Dragon Boat Festival of the season last weekend. Normally in this festival you race Saturday and Sunday but this year it got changed so my team did all our races on the Saturday…Saturday morning to be precise. I had already booked off both the Saturday and Sunday from work so I ended up with an entire Sunday to myself, sweet! For the races, we did really great in our second race, the other races we didn’t do quite as well but we didn’t suck either! I don’t recall the times right now but we increased our third race time by an entire second…I might be off on that so don’t quote me or anything lol πŸ˜› We have a larger festival coming up in a week so we are busy prepping for that. It’s gonna be awesome! πŸ˜€

(4) That weird and random Sunday off got turned in to a patio brunch and errand day. I was amused (and kinda pissed) when I realized at the end of Sunday I managed to not get sunburned at all on the Saturday while racing but managed to get sunburned Sunday while eating brunch. Oh the special-ness of being a redhead lol The burn faded decently fast but still! While eating brunch? Doesn’t seem quite fair if ya ask me πŸ˜‰ lol

(5) I had a friend visit from out of town for my days off this past week (that would be Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday) I still went to dragon boat practice on the Tuesday and Thursday evening but everything else got changed for those three days. We did some tourist stuff, saw some sights, went zip lining in Whistler BC (which, fyi, I totally recommend as it was beautiful and fun! http://www.ziptrek.com this is the company’s website, if you are going to Whistler or surrounding areas I say give it a go!). We also ate a lot of food, and I mean A LOT!! It was tasty, but oh wow! We had Thai, Japanese, Vietnamese, Western, Street Truck food, Tim Horton’s…I can’t remember the last time I ate so often/much but I’m ok with it, surprisingly (I’ll explain why in another post).

(6) Tonight was a big party at work to celebrate our First Anniversary. Dinner was lobster and steak (with a bunch of other stuff), dessert was creme brulee, all I can say is Mmm! Mmm! Mmm! Freakin delish! πŸ˜€ I took a protein shake to work but didn’t touch it lol Good thing it’ll keep until tomorrow! πŸ˜› It was my first steak experience and while it was good, after I got my food I got called away to do some actual work, sigh, so when I ate it the steak was cold…still tasty! but cold…I feel the temp of the meat is an important factor so I think I’m just gonna have to force myself to try it again sometime to properly judge it and see what I think, oh what a hard life I lead πŸ˜‰ teehee

Well there ya go, the highlights, not as many as I thought, I’m fairly certain I am missing stuff but it is late and my brain has stopped functioning so for now, that is all you are getting lol πŸ˜‰

A New Kitchen Toy

9 May

I bought a microwave. It’s still in the box, sitting on my kitchen floor waiting to trip me tomorrow morning, hmm, maybe I should move it to the side or something…

It’s not some super fancy microwave, it’s not even a brand I recognized lol but it was on sale, and is small, and is black, so there ya go. πŸ™‚

what mine looks like

what mine looks like

I wasn’t intending to buy one, personally, I’d rather a new blender but my dear mom insisted I buy one, her dime, because I have been without one for quite a while lol.

My old microwave died an electrical smelly death randomly one day so I took it to the recycling place, where past their prime electronics go to pass on to their next incarnation. I almost felt guilty as it was a present from my brother, a reeeeeeally nice microwave, and so pretty! Stainless steel with black accents, sigh. Oh, and it was big, as in bigger then anything I would ever need lol but I live in North America so isn’t bigger supposed to be better? πŸ˜‰ I had it for over 5 years though and it moved with me many times over those 5 years so I guess it did it’s job.

But yeah, so, old microwave died, and oddly enough I didn’t jump in my suv and go right to the store to buy a new one. I figured, sometime a long time ago people survived without microwaves right? So, theoretically, I could do that…I could survive without one…This would (1) save me the money of buying a new one, (2) give me one less thing to pack the next time I move and (3) force me to cook more using the actual stove. These are all good things!

Well ha-bloody-ha!

(1) I still ended up buying foods usually heated/cooked in a microwave but instead of stocking up on Lean Cuisine when it is on sale I was buying those pre-packaged at the deli meals at Safeway and Superstore, so even though I saved money on not buying a new microwave, my food bill went up a bit I am sure.

(2) I still own a lot of shit so seriously, packing one more thing is not gonna make that big of a difference lol.

(3) I ended up eating even less if you can believe it! If I didn’t feel like cooking something in the oven or on the stove top well, there was no other way to cook it, so I either ordered in take out or didn’t eat…and of those two options I usually chose the not eating. So by not having the microwave, I actually ended up eating less food because my laziness is just that impressive! *rolls eyes*

It was number 3 that got to my mom I think. She didn’t like the idea of me not eating soooooo she insisted on my buying a microwave. And! She knows me so well! When I said ok I would search to find one on sale she went and did the searching for me and then told me where I could find one for sale…I guess she figured out my “research” could conceivably take a long time cause well, I’d keep forgetting to do it. *looks guiltily at the ground*

I actually got the one smaller then the one she told me about, same brand, mostly the same features, but like I said, smaller and therefor cheaper. I would have automatically got the one she told me about but the friend I went shopping with noticed the smaller one and pointed out the smaller one would most likely be big enough for me. He was right, so smaller I went! With the money I saved I bought a food splatter thingy to put inside of the microwave, I feel so grown up now lol πŸ˜‰

I don’t envision my eating habits changing a whole lot super quickly but I’m sure before I realize it I’ll be using the microwave more and more…if only so I can eat popcorn! Mmm popcorn… πŸ˜›

So Far Not So Good

30 Jan

Ok, so I wrote in my last post about how I bought actual real food from the grocery store and my goal for the week is to eat in more then I eat out and to actually cook meals not just eat peanut butter out of the jar and to have an actual breakfast, lunch and dinner daily that involved food groups and were well balanced in every sense of the word…wellllll, I may not be doing so good with that, oops!

In my defence, it’s only partially my fault…oh who am I kidding, it’s all my fault lol. πŸ˜›

Yesterday I slept in so didn’t eat anything before I ran to physio, after physio I got a hot chocolate and an apple danish from the coffee shop near my physio because I was starrrrrving! then I did errands (all pertaining to my cat) and got my butt off to work. Exciting huh? Since I didn’t have time to eat breakfast I sure as heck didn’t have time to make something to take with me and eat at work so I ate a slight variation on what was made in the kitchen that evening. I ended up having two crab cakes (I said I only wanted one but I have noticed that chefs seem to all have this crazy urge to over feed you, sigh) and a nice big salad, yum!

Then today I woke up sick, ugh, not crazy flu sick but definitely sick so I ended up staying home in an effort to baby my body back to health, here’s hoping it works! *crosses fingers* Oddly enough, I ended up eating three meals today! Three! In one day!!! It’s like the world has tipped on it’s axis or something! For breakfast I had a piece of chicken, mixed grilled veggies (there were zuchinni, red pepper and onion) and sliced yam, it was all quite yummy! Lunch was a bowl of shreddies cereal with a cut up banana on top and dinner was a grilled cheese sandwich with a tuscan tomato and basil bisque soup. I love that soup! I buy it at Safeway in the deli section, Mmm! Normally when I am sick I don’t eat, I just have no appetite and even less energy and I basically just don’t wanna lol but for some reason today I decided screw it, even if I am sick and I don’t feel like being in the kitchen I have to eat and why not do my best to eat proper meals and not just snack on some carrots.

So sure, the grilled cheese sandwich doesn’t fit in to the new rules I gave myself about what makes up a meal but hey, at least I ate and didn’t starve myself right? I feel like I should get points for that even though in reality I know I won’t lol

I am thinking though some slight changes to my rules might be needed…originally I decided I had to have three meals a day, breakfast could be small (I’m not a big breakfast person) so maybe some fruit and yogurt, simple ya know? Then lunch and dinner both had to have a protein and some veggies. I had to make the food more often then I bought a meal and, um, I think those were pretty much all my rules. Buuuuut, on days I work I can eat at work and generally the meals are healthy and with minor variations fit in to my rules for having a protein and a veggie so I’m thinking on work days if I eat the food from work it shouldn’t count against my rule for cooking my own food more then eating out cause, well, it’s made from fresher ingredients then anything I make, there will be a protein and a veggie serving and it’s only costing me $2…this is my thought on the matter, I’m still pondering it though so I may yet change my mind, we shall see!

As for today, I was inside all day sick which means nothing of interest happened so I have no funny stories to regale you with. The cat seems quite happy I spent time at home today, I was pretty much pinned to the living room chair all day by his body being sprawled across my lap while he slept, it’s good to know I have a purpose in this life *rolls eyes* lol

Here’s my inspiration for the day:

Sacrifice is giving up something good for something better!

So put down the cookie and go for a run, throw out the bag of chips and buy some fresh veggies, remember that what seems like a sacrifice today will one day be a habit you don’t even think about. You’ll stop hitting up the fast food joints and automatically make your own healthy dinner, you’ll stop reaching for the chocolate when you’re sad and automatically lace up your runners. You’ll reach your goals, and have the healthy body you want, and you’ll wonder why you put up such a fuss about giving up those mass produced cookies. What feels like a sacrifice today is actually you making the choice to do what is right and healthy for your body, you are putting you first, and that’s where you should always be! Β πŸ™‚

I’ve Been Corrupted!

8 Apr

I feel like a computer program that has some bad code, or a box of crayons that’s missing a couple colours or even a Big Mac without the special sauce – something is not right!

If asked to describe myself I am naturally lazy and my stomach and digestive system can handle eating anything…seriously, anything! You know those people who are all “everytime I eat McDonald’s an hour after I eat I have to go running to the bathroom, or, I have the worst stomach ache, or, I feel so sick/bloated/gross etc” – you know what people I am talking about, the ones that eat something we all know isn’t good for you and their bodies make them feel like crap cause of what they ate but they still eat it? Right, ok, so, I’m not that person, never have been. McDonald’s? Bring it on! Taco Bell/Taco Time? No worries there! Any kind of chocolate/candy/sweet? Gimme more! It never makes me feel gross/sick/in desperate need of a bathroom and I never have any troubles digesting.

Well…apparently something has changed in my innards and I am not impressed. Grr to my changing innards! πŸ˜‰ I went to a lovely Easter dinner last night at a friend’s family’s place. My friend’s Aunt made a tonne of totally delish food, Mmm! Now, my plan was to eat mostly protein (of whatever variety was made) and have itty bitty amounts of whatever sides happened to be there…I was gonna stick to my eating plan darnit! I would have stuck with that plan except the only protein was a cooked ham *gag* I don’t eat pork in most of it’s varieties and a cooked ham is most definitely one of the ways I won’t touch it, blech. So there went my eating protein for dinner plan lol. I ate only the sides and ended up eating these potatoes that were sliced then baked in the oven with some kind of cream sauce and lots of cheese (holy crap soooo good!), super soft butter buns that were heated up so you could put more butter on them (bread! I got to eat bread! *happy dance*), a spinach salad that was super yum and some mixed veggies. Soooo, my dinner was carbs, carbs, oh and more carbs covered by a home made vinagarette dressing lol. Then of course there was dessert. πŸ˜› I made a Strawberry Rhubarb Crumble and the other dessert was a Kraft recipe that had philly cream cheese, cool whip, graham crackers and coconut, all layered and put in the fridge to set, holy crap it was tasty!

Anyways, my point about the food, I ate a lot of carbs in that meal, then had a bunch of sugar in the dessert, and don’t forget all the random chocolate that was floating around since it was an Easter dinner lol. Normally a meal like that wouldn’t have given me any problems, I’d eat, digest, it’d be all good. Well, um, it was not all good today…*pout* today I feel heavy, and gross, and like my stomach has a rock in it or something…I keep craving some unknown substance that will flush out the sugar and carbs I ate (even though I don’t actually believe in flushes). So I spent my day drinking water and tea and going back to my high protein high healthy fat eating plan. I think, after such a long time without eating high amounts of carbs and sugar my body is struggling to handle the amounts I put in it yesterday…Corruption!Β 

The second corruption I noticed the other day. You know those people who are all “I get so energized from going to the gym/working out, afterwards I feel like I can do just about anything blah blah blah” Those people! Argh! Those people annoy the fuck outta me! lol I go to the gym, I come home, I have a protein shake and a shower and I want a nap, an 8 hour nap! I’m not energized, I’m exhausted! Working out takes what little energy my body has and uses it all and then I am somehow expected to get through the rest of the day? How do people do that?!?!

Well, after the gym the other day (where I had a greeeat workout) I made my protein shake, drank it (duh) and was heading for the shower when I realized I was kinda dancing/bouncing…what the…?? Nothing too extreme or anything but definitely more then my normal walk…and I had a realization…I was…energized…Energized! How did that happen?? As soon as I realized it I came to a complete stop and tried to figure out exactly what and why I was feeling like that. What was I thinking about? Was I just really happy about whatever was floating through my brain and that had me dancing? (hey, don’t judge, that happens lol) Was I listening to music? Nope. Was I having a nervous system spasm and it wasn’t really dancing but some kind of muscle freakout? Didn’t appear to be…So, what was causing this energy and dancing? I’m still not completely sure what it was but I worry it was, *shuffles feet* feeling good about my workout and that feeling good combined with some sort of freak energy burst that came about also due to the workout…I think *clears throat* I became that person who got energized from working out…I’m not sure how I feel about this one…except…Corruption!

My very being has been corrupted by extended healthy eating habits and extended (and often) exercise habits to change my lazy-able-to-digest-any-kind-of-crap-I-put-in-to-it-body into a…into a what? I’m still not sure…into a body that likes to exercise? Prefers to have healthy food put in to it?

I’m gonna admit, it’s freakin me out a bit…you can’t spend a bunch of years as one way and then not freak out a bit when you realize you’re changing and becoming something else…what will I become? What colour crayons were taken out of the box that is me? Will I miss those colours? What if I need them back? Will I still be me? I mean, a Big Mac isn’t a Big Mac without the special sauce right? So whatever it is that is changing in me, will I still be me even though something is missing/changed?

Guess I’ll find out…

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