I felt like I needed the blinders today!
All I wanted to do today was eat, and nothing healthy, all I wanted was junk food. I had to go out on an errand during work hours to get a bus pass and every food item I saw in the little store was calling my name. I swear! In a low creepy sing song voice it called to me – ‘you want me, you know you want me, I won’t hurt you, you know you’ll love me, I’m so tasty, Mmm’ Cookies, chocolate bars, snack bags, harsh.
As if that wasn’t bad enough it was cake day at work. It’s weird, the last two cake days (they happen at the end of every month) I have had no probem resisting the cake, sure they look good but I knew a piece wouldn’t be worth it and shrugged it off. Lemme tell ya, this month was NOT like that! I kept staring at the stupid cakes, they were in the lunch room so couldn’t really avoid them, and to make it worse two of the people I was eating lunch with ate cake right in front of me and kept offering me some. *groan* Here’s some of the things said to me today “don’t you want a piece? it’s really good, you should get a piece. we could share one, how ’bout the cookie n cream cheesecake? omg, the strawberry shortcake is so light!’ Double harsh!
There were three kinds: the above mentioned cookies n cream cheesecake, strawberry shortcake and double chocolate ganache. It’s like the trifecta of food tempation!
These cakes popping up on a day where all I want to do is eat and I don’t have much food with me cause I ran out of groceries before the end of the week is not good – did I do something bad and now karma is getting even? I dunno, *shakes head sadly* but something was definitly working against me today.
Get this, the only way I managed to not grab a piece of cake was cause I have gotten this rep at work as being the one person who is able to resist all bad food, people there talk about how I have such amazing willpower, blarg. Talk about painting myself in to a frickin corner. 😛 I couldn’t eat even a bite of any of those cakes at work cause people would see me cheating and when it was suggested I bring some of it home I said no. sigh. Somehow my willpower kicked in that way at least, lol, I kept thinking how it’d be easy to bring a piece (or three!) home and indulge this evening and no one would ever know I did it but I just couldn’t do it. I kept thinking how all that sugar and fat would still be in me when I went to weigh in tomorrow and that just wouldn’t do. *rolls eyes*
So I managed to resist the evil tempations today by (1) not wanting to ruin my rep at work – man, I’m so vain lol and (2) not wanting to cry on the scale tomorrow. Maybe not the best tools to use to not cheat but hey, I use what I have!
Today I ate:
29 grams honey nut cheerios = 2 points
1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point
1 banana = 2 points
1 apple = 1 point
1 tuna sandwich = 4 points
2 triangles light laughing cow = 1 point
mixed raw veggies = 0 points
1 cup red pepper black bean soup = 2 points
85 grams whole wheat spagetti = 5 points
1/2 cup Primo Thick & Zesty Romano Cheese & Basil Sauce = 1 point
2 tbsp Kraft Parmesan cheese = 1 point
1 thinsations Oreo cakesters = 2 points
I used all of my 22 points. 🙂 I know I could have had some flex points, and I was really tempted cause I was wanting to eat more food, buuuuut I decided not to because of how much I wanted to. Does that make sense? Probably not…it’s like this. If I really want something that has the potential to be bad (food, alcohol, expensive shoes…) I say No! because if I give in even once when I really want something then the next time will be even harder to say no. Hopefully that makes sense cause I can’t think of any other way to explain. lol.
So now I am off to bed where hopefully I will not dream of scales and measuring tapes – after all, I have to face the scary reality of them tomorrow…*shudder*
The Amazing Shrinking Woman 
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