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Paid To Act!

15 Sep

Today was a momentus occaision for me, Momentous! For the first time ever I got paid to act! Paid! To ACT!! wOOt! 😀 *happy dance*butt wiggle*

I am an actress, that is my official career title, but all the acting jobs I have had till now have been student projects or volunteer opportunities. Now, there is nothing wrong with those, everyone has to start somewhere and those opportunities all gave me valuable lessons but they don’t pay the bills. lol. Technically, neither does this one as I only earned $70, lol, but again, gotta start somewhere! 😀

I would love to be able to tell you watch a specific tv show on a specific date or watch a certain movie and there I will be but this video you most likely will never see…no, it wasn’t porn! Get your minds out of the gutters! lol. 😛 It was a Corporate Video, so, only people involved with that company will see it although apparently it might be put on youtube…I’m not sure if that is right though cause it doesn’t make sense to put it on there…

So $70 for 3 hours of work, well done I feel but better yet I have a video credit that I can put on my resume that is a “real” acting job. Student and unpaid projects don’t garner as much respect with agents, they kinda think meh when they see those, paid jobs however, totally different reaction – much better reaction! 😀

A part that feeds my ego even more is that I got this job all on my own, I don’t have an agent, none have signed me yet, so neener neener neener to all you agents who looked at me and said no cause ha! I am marketable and I can get work without you and a different agent will see that and realize I am a good bet and they will get all the commission from my bookings in the future. 😛

Ok, that was my little gloat, I’m back to being nice again. 🙂

On the note of my weight loss, I have been undereating for a couple weeks now cause of issues with the medication I am on. I’m not trying to not eat all my points it’s just that everything I eat and drink makes my stomach hurt so it kinda puts me off eating. shrug. I am trying though. I’m usually eating higher pointed but smaller amounts of food in the hopes that will make it all work out.  🙂

I have been managing to get my work outs in though, no worries about that! I’m still doing the dragon boating and the boxing. 🙂 The dragon boating season ends at the end of October and I’m not sure what I am going to do then…there is an Outrigger Team I could join, they train through to mid to end of January and there is a race involved, it’s $89 for 16 training sessions which is a really good deal but…I’m kind of a weather wimp and don’t know that I could deal with being out on the water during the winter…it’s nasty enough dragon boating in the evening if it happens to be raining but Outrigger Boating in actual winter time? in the evenings? …I dunno…seems…unpleasant…

I think it’d be a better idea to try to find something to do that is an indoor pursuit…I could try to find another Zumba class, that was fun…I think I’ll check out the Community League’s fall schedule and see what they have. Community Leagues are so great, you can try all sorts of new activities for cheaper then if you went through a gym or studio. 🙂

This past week has pretty much rocked! I had 2 auditions, got paid to act, got the passport application in, got paid to act, got a smile and a wink from a hottie McHottie fireman *drool*, got paid to act, met up with some friends I haven’t seen in a while for lunch…did I mention I got paid to act? 😉

Oh and on Sunday I have a photo shoot lined up, so I already have something to look forward to for next week, yah! 😀

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Well, I Was On A Roll…

28 Jul

Last week I kicked my own ass making sure I exercised lots and ate super great – it was a physically demanding week but I knew the exercise was a good thing. If you read my last post (or maybe it was the post before that…hmm…)I gained 3 pounds on the scale causing me to freak out.

I decided over the weekend that I’d push myself again this week and see if the scale became a better friend lol. Monday started off fine, I Dragon Boated like normal and ate nice n healthy. 🙂 Tuesday I filmed my demo reel (yah!) and had such a great time with it – I’ll write more about it farther down – but, towards the end of filming my throat started to really hurt and I realized I had a headache, well, whatev, I figured it’d go away and getting the scenes filmed was more important then my headache or sore throat. Yeah…well…by the time I got home my headache was feeling like it was going to be a migraine and my throat hurt so badly I could barely talk, erg. Not good.

I ended up going to bed at like 8pm (freakishly early for me!) with a fever, headache, sore throat, body aches and more. It was highly unpleasant, duh right? lol. I woke up around 10:30am wed and luckily my fever had broken and my body didn’t ache as much, an Advil helped with the headache but the sore throat remained. Sucky. I decided I was still too ill to go exercise, I was supposed to go to boxerfit that evening, but like the day before with my standard hike, I just wasn’t physically up to it and I hate when people go out and spread their sick germs so I try very hard to make sure I don’t do that. I tend to have high hopes about how quickly I will get better from things so I was all “oh for sure I’ll be fine for boxerfit on thursday” – sometimes I am so, well, dense. 😛

Today, Thursday, what a day! Oh man. Stress levels like you wouldn’t believe! Today is the day the email was set to go out to the top 44 agents in the city (hence my filming the demo reel), I had been warned that most agents, if they like the look of you, will contact you within 48hrs of seeing your demo reel and headshots because they want to snag you before someone else does so I was told to stay near my phone. Well, never have my cell and I been more connected lol. I wouldn’t even go to the next room without it just-in-case! 😛 Not like I was expecting a phone call the minute after the email went out but after a couple hours I started to get worried, by the end of business hours I was freaking out! Freaking!!! Did nobody like me? Did I suck? Did I have to start thinking of an alternate career path? How am I supposed to go back to AB next week and face people and explain no agents wanted me? Could I really just die of embarrassment? I checked my online portfolio and saw on the tracker that nobody had viewed my portfolio yet which was almost worse then lots of people seeing it and nobody contacting me…why weren’t people looking at it?

So, me being me, I emailed the tech guy who is in charge of editing the film and sending the emails and asked if he could please-oh-please check to make sure the email went out…his response was to apologize, he went to confirm the email went out and it didn’t, it was on some auto generated send thing and it didn’t auto generate send…stupid technology. Course, since I didn’t email him till end of business day there was no point in him sending it out today anymore and since this weekend is a long weekend there is no point in him sending it tomorrow cause most of the agents will most likely be enjoying an extra long long weekend and will have also taken the friday off sooooooooo it’s not getting sent out till next week.

Here I was stressing all day about the lack of phone calls, the only thing keeping me sane was my deep involvement in the fifth Harry Potter book (which, fyi, I just finished and am now starting on the sixth) and the stress was totally uncalled for cause no phone calls were ever gonna come. sigh. Good thing I don’t wrinkle or get white hair easily! 😛

Back to the exercising though, here it is thursday night and I have only exercised once, and that was way back on monday when I dragon boated. Crap. There goes my plan of kicking my own ass exercise wise again. hmm. I had so been hoping to get on track with that because once I get to AB I know any chances for exercising will rapidly disappear – happens everytime!

Hopefully I will feel well enough to exercise tomorrow and saturday, and well, since I know the email won’t be going out till next wednesday guess I won’t be feeling any stress about that till then…now if only I could get my appetite back all would be good…

 

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I Am A Coke Bottle

18 Jul

I am a coke bottle.

Yup, you read that right. However, do you understand what I mean by it? Probably not…but no worries cause I wouldn’t know what it meant if someone said that to me and I hadn’t been to film school, lol.

Ok, anyone who is in the entertainment industry is a product, products are there to be sold. I should amend that, some of the people in the entertainment industry are there to do the buying and selling of the products (the actors, musicians, writers etc). When one of my teachers told my class to think of ourselves like Coke Bottles and it was up to us and our agents to “sell” us to casting directors and others within the industry it made me really think about what I was getting myself in to. It didn’t disuade me from continuing on my journey towards being a paid actor though cause really, that is all I want to do so if that is how the industry perceives actors, well, that’s fine with me. 🙂

There are lots of things to think about when you start thinking of yourself as a product and not a person – there are things I can’t do to myself without some serious thinking because the changes I make to myself will affect agents wanting me and affect what auditions I can be sent out for. shrug. Soooooo what does this mean? It means that even though I really really really want to get my nose pierced with a little silver hoop and get my upper left ear pierced with a bar that connects two different sections of my ear lobe I will do neither, cause I have a face that can be quite commercial/girl next door if I tone down my makeup but that will be lost if I am covered in piercings.

Also, because my hair has to match what I look like in my headshots once my pictures were taken I became fully committed to keeping this haircut cause I can’t afford new headshots. That is ok though cause I like my haircut…or I did.

I had my first encounter with changing my appearance in a way I didn’t want to but that was suggested (in a very firm, I can’t actually say no to the suggestion kind of way) when I had my first meeting with IQ, the acting coach who is going to film my demo reel. Now you might be thinking, why change your appearance because one person said to, simple, she is crazy good at what she does and not making the change she suggested (in that very firm tone) would be the same as being told by a lawyer “don’t talk!” but you go blathering away when the detective questions you – why would you not take the advice of someone who knows more then you and is only trying to help you?

So, my hair has been changed. I spoke to IQ about my concern about changing my hair since I can’t afford new headshots and she said I won’t need new headshots, at least not for agent hunting, because they will have the demo reel to watch and will see me there with the new look but the new look isn’t soooo drastically different from what they will see in the headshots. It made more sense when she said it to me lol.

I changed my hair in the way IQ suggested…and I don’t like it! ugh. I was fairly certain I wouldn’t, what she wanted done is so not my style but others think it looks good so I’m thinking maybe it looks good but my own prejudice against this particular hairstyle is making me more critical of it then normal. Oh, I should probably say what got done huh? I now have sidesweeping bangs…sigh. I hate bangs!

The reason IQ wanted me to get them is because she wanted to “soften my look”, especially around the eyes. I (according to her) have a dominant forehead and large eyes, uh, duh! lol. This I already knew, shrug. So she wanted the sidesweeping bangs to soften my eye area and make my forhead less dominant. sigh. I would have been more comfie if she asked me to chop all my hair off, or get a piercing, or pretty much anything else but noooooo, she had to ask me to get bangs. *rolls eyes*

They totally change the shape of my face in a way I don’t like, my face looks fatter now! Fatter! I spend all this time losing weight and am working to lose the rest of it and what happens?? I get a stupid hair cut that makes my face look fatter, so Not cool! This whole softening (aka fattening) the look of my face had better work!

Since the haircut on Saturday I have been hiding out in my apartment but I had dragon boating tonight so what could I do but go out in public? I figured I might as well just get everything over with so I hiked this afternoon, came home, showered, ate, then went dragon boating. So now lots of people have seen me with these bangs – since I wasn’t pointed at or openly laughed at I can only assume I don’t look as ridiculous as I think I do, *rolls eyes* no real guarantee about that tho 😛

My first time having to change my look because someone else said so, I went through with it, and am even dealing with the change in a slowly decreasingly bitter way lol, looks like I am ok with being a product! 😀

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Oh Dessert Breadsticks, How You Taunt Me

6 Jul

Alright, so guess what yesterday was? It was I-am-pmsing-and-want-to-eat-everything-in-sight day. lol. Seriously, everything! Oh, and whatever I smelled I wanted too! *rolls eyes*

I was meeting up with a friend downtown and I swore to myself before I went that I would not cave, I would not eat a jappa jog, I would not have chocolate, I would.NOT.cave! Get this…I actually managed to not cave – a-frickin-mazing! 😀 I let myself have a small frozen yogurt (worth 2 points) but that was a planned indulgence so I don’t feel bad about that.

However, sigh, on my way home all I could think about was pastry – most specifically the desert breadsticks from Panago, they were all I could think of, all I wanted, I felt like I was gonna go crazy if I didn’t get some so I caved and called Panago, well, no way was I gonna pay extra for delivery so I said I would pick up the order and I was told pick up ends at 10pm and it was 10:15pm so I could only get them via delivery. I took it as a sign the universe didn’t want me spending money, money I can’t really afford to spend anyways so I went home. You’d think that’d solve everything but it so didn’t…I ended up eating 8 Junior Mints (tho they had melted so some of them were just the chocolate shell no minty stuff inside lol), 1 serving of Maltesers, 4 cookies oh, and 2 pieces of toast (the heels of the loaf though and I always feel those should count as slightly less points since they are smaller…altho my bread is only 1 point for 2 slices anyways so I can’t really complain lol), the toast had margarine, raspberry jam and cheese slices on it…weird, I know! I ate all of that cause I couldn’t get the breadsticks so nothing I ate soothed the craving, sigh, annoying.

After a great low points day, and really, I’ve been doing well for a lot of days in a row now, I totally threw it away and ate who knows how many points – but ya know what? It happens. I’m a girl. Deal. 😉 Thankfully it doesn’t happen every month, how bad would that be? Ack! I’d say it’s only like every 3 months or so that my hormones go crazed like that so that’s ok, I can handle that. 🙂

I gotta say though, I still want those dessert breadsticks, *rolls eyes*…maybe I should learn to make my own, hmm, that’s a thought…

Today I ate:

1 pear = 1 point

1 peach = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich = 2 points

85 grams whole wheat spaghetti pasta = 5 points

1/4 C 4 Cheese alfredo sauce = 2 points

mixed cooked veggies = 0 points

Total points eaten = 13

I have lots left yet for the day and not sure how I am going to use them…I’m thinking something that has to do with cheese…apparently that is what I am craving today lol.

On a non food related note, I had a great meeting with the acting coach who is going to film my demo reel, we went over scenes, picked out three, did some reads, she gave me some ideas/coaching, we went over wardrobe for the scenes, stuff like that, it was so so so awesome! Now all I have to do is memorize my three scenes and contact her when I am ready for filming, eeeeeeek! I am so psyched! 😀

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I Linked Up

6 Jun

How many of you have a LinkedIn account? The first time I got an invite (ages an ages ago) I ignored it thinking it was just the newest replacement for facebook and since I had enough trouble finding time to get on facebook what did I need another version of that for? lol. Since that first invite I received many more invites and I eventually decided to check it out – it’s like facebook, but not really. It’s like the business version: a PC instead of a Mac, a Blackberry instead of an iPhone, a Jeep instead of a Volvo…you getting my drift here? 😛

It’s a place to build an account about yourself and hopefully link up with others in your profession – find contacts, find job opportunities, find people you used to work with or go to school with – a lot of my acting buddies were building their LinkedIn accounts so I figured I’d better do the same, can’t be left in the dust an all that.

Well, I started my profile and then did nothing with it, I didn’t make the complete profile because of a variety of reasons but then last night I decided to go on and remedy that. shrug. I even went so far as to put the link to this blog on my LinkedIn account – this may not seem like a big deal but only very select people have been told about my blog, friends I am sure will be supportive and not make fun or comment to me all the time about what I write about. Oh, and I told my mom. 🙂

I feel like I have opened a window into who I am by putting the link to this blog on my LinkedIn account – it’s doubtful anyone who checks out my profile on LinkedIn will bother with checking out this blog but it’s possible, right? So now I must ponder, do I bow to the self-imposed pressure I am sure to start feeling to make each post quirky, fun, entertaining and always positive so if a perspective agent comes a-looking I am seen in the best light or do I continue to post about what I want in whatever mood I want and continue using this blog as a way to hold myself accountable in terms of my weight loss?

I vote for the second option! 😀

I got a call from the placement agency this morning and I have a phone job interview tomorrow at noon for that office job, sigh. I had almost come to terms with the idea I wasn’t going to take the interview, I know I don’t want to work in an office so why bother with the interview? and yet, I need a job if I want to keep paying for acting classes and dragon boating and all the other fun things I do…Why oh why couldn’t the interview have taken longer to set up? Like, maybe 3 weeks or so…ya know, after I (hopefully) have an agent, sigh. I feel like I am being pushed and I hate that!

Today I ate:

29 g Special K = 2 points

1/4 C 1% milk = 0.5 points

1/2 tbls whipped peanut butter = 1 point

1/2 bagel = 2.5 points

1 banana = 1 point

1 pizza crust = 5 points

30 g shredded cheese = 2 points

10 slices turkey pepperoni = 1 point

mushrooms = 0 points

5 baby potatoes = 1 point

1 tsp marg = 1 point

1 Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich = 2 points

40 g Junior Mints = 3 point

Total Points Eaten = 23

Exercise Points Earned = 7

So I have eaten 3 of my exercise points and all of my daily points – not so bad.  🙂 I have a nectarine all washed and sitting beside me which I have every intention of eating so that means I will have eaten 4 of my exercise points but that’s ok, that still leaves 3 of then un-eaten.

I had planned to exercise twice today, disgusting right? lol. I went for my hike earlier today and was supposed to go to boxerfit this evening but the errands I had to run took longer then expected so it was too late once I got home to be able to get to the class in time. Well, technically, the errands didn’t take longer then expected, the driving in between locations for the errands took longer then expected – helluva lot of traffic on the roads today! Don’t these people work? lol. I’m amazed how many people are not at work during the regular business hours of a monday…I’m curious about every single one of them, are they unemployed? independantly wealthy? taking a “sick day”? tourists? what?? how do all these people not have to be at work?

I won’t be able to go to boxerfit tomorrow cause I will be in acting class and oh man am I happy about that! I’ve been waiting all week to go back! 😀 I’m more then ok with not going to boxerfit if I can go work on my acting, lol. I will still hike tomorrow, and do my free weights and ab stuff so not like I will be totally slacking on my fitness.  🙂 and you know what, the time I saved by not going to boxerfit tonight I am putting towards working on my audition scene for tomorrow so really, maybe not making it to class tonight is for the best. 🙂

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Yah for Today!

31 May

Today was a fairly great day. 😀

I stayed up last night until 2am for absolutely no good reason. lol. I am naturally a night owl, if I don’t have to get up at an ungodly hour of the morning to go to work I end up staying up super late cause, well, it’s what my natural sleep cycle prefers. shrug. I stay up late, I sleep in late, it works for me. 🙂 Some people see sleeping in late as a waste of a good chunk of the day but I don’t – I think it’s un-natural to be up early in the morning, ugh. lol.

But anyways, I stayed up late then slept in until noon, aahhhhh, such a nice time! If you think about it, it’s not being lazy, I’m not getting anymore sleep during the night then someone who goes to bed earlier and wakes up earlier, I just like getting my sleep later in the night/day then others. lol. So, after waking up at noon I rolled over and dozed for another hour cause, well, I could. shrug. By 1pm I managed to get my butt outta bed, had a quick wash, ate a decently healthy breakfast, digested for a little bit then went hiking. It was my regular 3.8km hike so nothing out of the ordinary but it was a little weird going for a hike at 2 in the afternoon on a Tuesday…it’s amazing how many people are out walking at that time…I mean, don’t these people have jobs? lol. 😛

After the hike I came home and did some free weights, some ab work, some stretching – all the normal stuff. Earned myself 6 exercise points – wOOt! 😀

I had to spend a chunk of time on hold after that waiting to talk to someone who works for the government about my EI claim – it took for-frickin-ever but I eventually got a person (who was super friendly and knowledgable) and she helped me with my questions, she even went kinda over board and explained a whole bunch more stuff to me…things I had actually already read on the website but, shrug, she’s probably used to people who don’t fully read the site and ask all kinds of questions lol. I’m ok with the extra info, I think it’s better to be told the stuff you already know and possibly learn something you hadn’t already read then not be told anything and later find out you’re missing a vital piece of info. Just my take on it tho…

Then I did some acting research online, I needed to find some sides to take to my audition class tonight and then – the best part – I had my audition class! 😀 I haven’t had any kind of acting class in ages cause they are really expensive and I was always so busy with work I couldn’t go. I was signed up for this class (it’s actually a set of 4 classes) for a couple weeks now cause luckily they don’t start until 7pm, it seemed perfect because it would give me tonnes of time after work to get home, eat and get to the class – now I have even more time to get there lol.

The class went so amazingly super great! I obviously need to expand on my descriptive words lol. I got wicked good feedback, looks like even though I have been away from classes for a loooong time I haven’t lost my touch, sweeeeeeet! 😀 It’s a small class, 6 students and 1 person auditing so we all got a lot of one on one time with RH (the teacher), he is a great teacher, a really positive, supportive, friendly, non stress inducing guy. Auditioning is a way stressful thing, it’s harder then being on set and actually filming and some auditioning teachers make even the class stressful but RH makes it fun. And how great is it learning new things, perfecting your technique, re-enforcing what you already know all while having fun? 🙂 Man I love acting. 😀

Because of exercising and having earned exercise points I was way below my points for the day by the time class was over (class ended at 10pm) so when I got home I was starved. lol. I made what would normally be a meal – a bagel sandwich, yum! – and then followed it up with dessert. Double yum!

Today I ate:

29 grams Special K = 2 points

1/2 c 1% milk = 1 point

2 pcs toast = 1 point

1 tbls whipped peanut butter = 2 points

1 Activia yogurt cup = 2 points

1 banana = 1 point

2 serv hash browns = 2 points

1 scrambled egg = 2 points

1 turkey burger patty = 3 points

1 bagel = 5 points

2 slices deli turkey = 0 points

1 tbls light cream cheese = 1 point

baby spinach, tomato = 0 points

1 thinsations Oreo cakesters = 2 points

1 Skinny Cow Choc Fudge Brownie ice cream = 2 points

Total points eaten = 20 daily points, 6 exercise points

Exercise points earned = 6

Perfect! 😀

Now I know, I should of had some fruit for my evening snack after my bagel sandwich instead of the oreo cakesters and the ice cream, and I almost did…but, well, in the end I didn’t lol. Not sure why, I wasn’t craving chocolate or anything sweet like some other days, shrug, I just grabbed the processed sweet stuff instead of the fruit. lol.

So now it’s 1:15am and I am tired, the exercising and the energy output acting takes have taken a bit of a toll on me and I want to go to bed but I’m tired enough I am typing slower then normal and I feel like I am never gonna get there. lol. *yawn* I have to get up a bit earlier tomorrow then today cause I have to bake a pie to take to a dinner I got invited to tomorrow evening – the pie needs to cool for 2 hours min before serving so I need to make it earlier rather then later in the day. It’s a weight watchers recipe so I will post it under my recipes tab tomorrow so you can try it, it’s really tasty and I think only 4 points per slice so not bad at all! 🙂

Oh! Sorry, one more thing! The teacher, RH, was my teacher back in the day but I haven’t seen him since 2008, well, he took one look at me and was all “you look different, really different, what did you do?”, I could practically see the wheels turning in his head, lol, so I told him I lost 32 pounds and he was so amazed/excited/happy for me, lol, it was sweet having someone who hasn’t seen me in a long time notice asap something changed – sure he didn’t peg it as weight loss but that’s ok, I’m just happy he noticed a change at all. lol.

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I Caved

30 May

I caved, but not food wise, so no worries! 🙂 Remember yesterday when I said how I lost my next food tracker, well, not lost but “put away somewhere safe” and was unable to locate? Yeah, still unable to locate it and it was driving me nuts – not the lost part but the not being able to write down what I had eaten and having to tally numbers in my head part. I don’t trust my brain to be able to keep accurate track of what I eat and how many points the food is worth so while not having a specific book to keep track of my food in may seem like a stupid little thing it was actually causing me a bit of stress and worry about screwing up not only today but throughout the week.

Sooooo, I caved, and when I was out today I bought some new little notebooks. They came in a set of 4, are a variety of colours and are made of bamboo…yeah, bamboo, which I believe makes them more eco-friendly but I can’t swear to that. I suppose I could google it but, shrug, I’m not that bothered about it lol. I always try to pick notebooks that are fun colours or patterns on the front because who are we kidding? Writing foods that we have eaten and what the points for those foods are is not the most fun thing in the world, and frankly, the pages of the book can be slightly depressing when over-eating happens and weight maintains or goes up, so at least the front is always entertaining in some way. 😛

My day was not just buying little notebooks, how boring would that be?! I had a job interview this afternoon which I totally rocked but now I have a dilemna about that. sigh.

The interview was for a placement agency, I figured they’d like me, and it’d take them a couple weeks or so to find me a job so that’d give me lots of time to work on my acting stuff but they loved me and have a brand new job placement that they think I’d be perfect for and are going to talk to the contact at the company tomorrow afternoon about me and my apparent greatness. *rolls eyes* I mean yeah, that’s awesome right? Who gets such a great result from their first interview when they start job hunting? Nobody! You’re not supposed to get such a good result until at least the third interview you go on, it’s like an unwritten rule but I guess these people don’t know about that rule lol.

I am not ungrateful for this result, don’t think that, I understand that good paying jobs are hard to find and it’s great that this agency thinks so highly of me but…I’m not meant to live my working life in an office, the idea of it is so depressing…no offence to those of you in offices.

I am meant to act – this is the only thing about myself I know with absolute certainty. I don’t believe that whole “everyone has one thing they are great at and are meant to do” because if you believe that and then look at society, well, think of all those millions of people who are not doing the thing they are apparently meant to do. Or are people meant to be spending their lives working in offices? sitting in cubicles? being micro managed by people who got upper management jobs by being excellent ass kissers? always working in retail? picking up garbage? what about all those peope who accidentally end up in a career path and stick with it because it pays well enough and they don’t think they’ll get something better? how is that finding the thing you are meant to do?

Now, I am not trying to offend any people who do any of those jobs I mentioned above, I know lots of people who work in offices etc and are perfectly happy with their jobs/careers but that’s just not for me, I am not happy with my life if a good portion of it is spent working at a job that is not acting. Sounds over dramatic huh? shrug. I don’t think with most aspects of life I am over dramatic, and in this instance I don’t feel like I am being over dramatic, just truthful to who I am. But to others it probably sounds over dramatic, ah well. lol.

But yeah, so back to the acting, that is what I am meant to do – it is just unfortunate that many (take that to mean all) agents first look at your body size/shape and then look at your face and then look at your talent. *shakes head* I understand why, but I still think it is a screwy system where your talent and ability to act is the last thing looked at. I have managed to lose enough weight that I can finally go agent hunting again (I had an agent but she went mia and really, she wasn’t good anyways so no big loss but I need a new one now, sigh) but in order to agent hunt you need a list of things already taken care of.  One of those things in a Demo Reel, this is a 6 minute video of 2 seperate scenes, each scene is approx 3 minutes where you can showcase your acting ability. This lets the agent see how you look on camera, how well you act, it helps them to see what kind of auditions they might send you out for. While your headshot will get you in the door the demo reel is what will keep them from booting you back out again – you need a kick ass totally up to date amazing demo reel.

These things don’t come cheap and they need a lot of prep time, the time to work on my demo reel was sorely lacking while I was working full time so I have managed to get excited about being unemployed because it would give me a couple of weeks to get my scenes sorted, work on them, get them filmed and have my demo reel. Then I was going to use the rest of my out-of-work time to do the actual agent hunting part and go to what I am hoping will be a plentifull amount of agent interviews. lol.

But now I had this great interview and I am worried the agency will contact me sooner then what I want telling me they got me a job – a fairly great job if you’re not me and wanting to earn your living acting…

For all my craziness I have a strong streak of practicality (I blame it on being a Capricorn and my parents raising me to be responsible lol) So, if they contact me with a job I don’t know that I will be able to say no because I know that I need a steady income to pay my bills etc but if I take another full time job so soon how will I ever get my demo reel done and be able to get a new agent???

Do you see the dilemna? Do I hope for the job or do I hope for not getting the job? I want the job so I have money coming in, I don’t want the job because I want the time I need to focus on my acting. Ack!

I think at this point the only thing I can do is not think about it…I will wait and see what happens and while waiting to see what happens I will work hard to memorize lines and work on my character and book my time slot to film the demo reel and I’ll cross my fingers that nothing gets in the way of my acting…

Sorry this post had next to nothing about weight loss, a quick fyi, I ate my 20 points and only my 20 points today, yah, didn’t exercise even a tiny bit, oops, lol, didn’t eat anything new or exciting so don’t feel jipped I’m not putting a food list today, I’ll get back to my normal formatting tomorrow. 🙂

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