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Steppin On My Pants, oh yah!

23 Aug

I have limited clothes, not only because of my size but also because of my wallet…altho, mostly because of my size. lol. I used to loooove clothes shopping – I used to be a perfect size 10 which I know to some people seems big (all you size zeros out there! ) but I was fairly content. It meant I could wear anything and look good and well, who doesn’t like that? Since getting fat that joy has left my life…it left a long time ago and I still mourn it. sigh.

I hate clothes shopping! I hate how I look in every item I put on my body; my aim everytime I go in to a store is to find something that hides just how big I am – camaflogue. That is not fun. In fact it is rather depressing. 😦 As a result I don’t go shopping very often…I use my wallet as an excuse for not owning more clothes but even if I came in to a bunch of money tomorrow I wouldn’t go out and buy clothes…what would be the point? I’d still look like me. 😛

Almost a year ago I needed to buy some work pants, I went to RW&Co to buy a couple pairs of good quality pants and fluctuated throughout that time of being able to wear them comfortably and not. When I bought them they fit perfectly…bad idea. I got bigger and had to stop wearing them, so I had these expensive work pants and couldn’t wear them – juuuust great! lol. So I went and bought cheaper work pants elsewhere and wore those. Every now and then I would try on one of the pairs of pants and kinda test them…most mornings they failed to even leave my bedroom, lol. Some days I would wear them to work and by the end of the day be uncomfie cause they were too snug, blarg, so back in to my closet they would go. The other week I tried them on and they not only fit, they were a bit loose. Loose around the waist, hips and butt! How great is that?!?! I wore them today and as I was walking to work (from the skytrain so not a long walk) the pants started getting lower and lower on my waist until they were more around my hips. I was wearing a coat so it wasn’t obvious on my body what was happening so I figured just keep walking and fix it when you get in to the office, hehe, well, I ended up walking on my pants! Yeah, you hear me…I was stepping on my pants with my heels cause of how loose they were…they inched down so far I could step on them…awesome! 😀 😀 😀 Course, it didn’t look all that attractive and I spent the rest of the day constantly pulling my pants up, lol, but I don’t care, in fact, everytime I had to adjust them I got a little grin and had an inner giggle cause it made me so happy. 😀

They are fitting so loose they are almost un-wearable. Not quite mind you – since I really can’t afford to replace them and I decided when this whole thing started that I wasn’t gonna buy clothes for every size I become – too expensive! Instead, when clothes become completely un-wearable then I will replace them…the pants aren’t there yet but they are definitly on the way. 😛 wOOt! I am going to try on the other pair I bought at that same time and see how they fit now – they were always a little snugger so I never tried them on, I don’t think they have been off the hanger since, hmm, before last Christmas…holy crap that’s a long time to have clothes that don’t get worn!

Today was such an awesome clothes day. 😀

The food I ate today is:

3/4 cup Blueberry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

85 grams whole wheat pasta = 5 points

1/4 cup alfredo sun dried tomato sauce = 2 points

2 triangles Light Laughing Cow Cheese = 1 point

1 cup cherries = 1 point

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 Dill and Herb salmon steak =3 points

grilled veggies = 0 points

1 serving root veggie chips = 3 points

I am at a total of 21 points for the day – only 1 point left. The higher point lunch really helped with using up all my points for the day.  I am gonna see if I can manage to make higher point lunches all this week and discover if it helps with eating all my points and losing weight. I’ll let ya know!

p.s. Oh…I am gonna eat that last point, probably a serving of fruit or a little weight watcher candy…if I can find any, I am running dangerously low and can’t find them in stores anywhere, ack!

A Grown Up Dinner

2 Jul

I had a crappy end to my work day yesterday and got home later then normal. Now, yes I am an emotional eater but no I am not – weird how you can be both isn’t it? Sometimes when I have a crappy day I eat, other times when I have a crappy day I don’t eat. I am not sure why sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t -I just know I do both. lol.

By the time I left work yesterday I was starving (cause of the time) and all I wanted to do was EAT!! I had to force myself to not dive in to the cupboards at home and make some KD or something even worse, oy! I had however realized something like this might happen and I would need something quick, easy and healthy to make so that’s what I pulled out. 🙂

I had bought a Salmon Steak in Dill Sauce that can be put in the oven or the microwave (the microwave only takes 6 mins) and there you go, healthy chunk of protein. I paired it with some mashed sweet potatoes and mixed veggies.  I realized after I had it on the plate that I had made a dinner my mother would make – a real grown up dinner! I actually called to tell her cause it was such an amazing thing. lol.  This is not going to herald a permanent change in my eating habits mind you; I will for the most part continue to eat the way I have been but the dinner was yummy enough that I may just duplicate it sometime…not too soon though! lol

Yesterday I ate:

3/4 cup Special K Almond = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 serving whole wheat pasta = 2.5 points

1/4 cup Knorr alfredo sauce = 2 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

2 triangles Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1 cup cherries = 1 point

1 cup mashed yams = 3 points

1 Salmon Steak = 3 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

2 maple cookies = 4 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

This totals 22.5 points – I didn’t realize until today that I forgot to add in to my daily points the 1 tsp of margarine I used in the mashed yams so really I used 23.5 which is a pisser cause I didn’t want to use any flex points but there you have it.

On a plus note it was Cake Day at work, once a month at work cakes are brought in to celebrate whoever had a bday that month. There was a Dairy Queen ice cream cake and a 4 layer strawberry shortcake; they both looked amazing! I checked the nutritional info for DQ ice cream cakes before going to the lunch room to see if I could eat a slice, or at least a portion of a slice. Well! Those cakes are so ridiculously bad for you! It’s just ice cream for heavens sake! If it is an 8″ round ice cream cake 1/8 of the cake is 12 points, if it’s a 10″ cake 1/10 of the cake is 15 points! Absolutely NOT!!! I still went to the lunch room for the socializing part of cake day but I didn’t eat any of the cake. The weird part is I didn’t really want any and I didn’t feel deprived that I wasn’t eating any, shrug, I was pleasantly full from lunch and at the end of my lunch had some fruit so I had some natural sugar in me – guess my body didn’t want the bad-for-me sugar that was in the cake. Crazeeeee!

Now, for today, Happy Canada Day btw…

I slept in ridiculously late, so late I won’t even put the time on here because it was that late and when I finally got up I was starved. I find whenever I miss a meal now I feel more starved then I used to; I think this means my stomach is now used to eating on a regular basis and when it misses a meal it notices more. It’s kinda annoying but oh well.

So my food today, I wanted something huge to eat when I got up but I totally went overboard. Ugh. I had some cereal and milk while I was boiling then pan frying some baby potatoes. Once the potatoes were getting close to ready I made some eggs and with that paired some cheese and toast…can you believe that!?!?! I realized afterwards it was some werid kind of binge, the likes of which I used to do but thought I had stopped. The only difference is I felt worse at the end instead of better like I used to.  It left me feeling gross and not wanting to do anything as a result. Then, when the day was mostly over and I was home again I realized I had to eat something else since I had a tonne of points left but my overeating before made me not want anything. sigh. I think I will have to force myself to eat properly on days off cause when I don’t it just messes me up.

My food today:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

5 baby potatoes = 1 point

2 pcs toast = 2 points

2 eggs scrambled = 4 points

30 grams marble cheese = 3 points

1 pepperoni pizza pop = 6 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

1 nectarine = 1 point

1 cup cherries = 1 point

This is exactly 23 points used. I did the same mistake as yesterday though, I forgot to add in the small things used when making the food. I had 2 tsp margarine on the toast so thats 2 points, and I didn’t add that in so when I was looking at how many points I had left to use I chose the pizza pop because of how high in points it was and figured I’d top that off with two pieces of fruit since I hadn’t had any yet today. If I hadn’t eaten the fruit I would have been even on my points for the day, as it is I am two over, I think though that it’s ok to be two over today because if I hadn’t had the fruit my food eaten would have had nothing fresh.

That means that so far this week I am, what, 3 points in to my flex points? Annoying but dealable.

On  a side note I totally wanted to try on my pants that are my test for it I have lost weight but made myself not do it cause that is a once a week only thing – I tend to get obsessive when trying to lose weight so I made a rule I can only weigh myself and try on those pants once a week (on saturdays), otherwise I’d be checking the numbers and trying those damn pants on multiple times a day and thats just demoralizing. lol

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