Today was my final day of self-isolation, I made it!
For the most part I didn’t mind having to self-isolate, I lean towards introverted and often wish I could stay in my apartment for days on end with zero contact with the outside world.
The constraints of self-isolation came from (1) watching news footage showing the world becoming sicker by the day, (2) not having the choice to go out or not, I’m fine with staying in all day everyday if it is my choice, take that choice away and I get cranky, (3) stress about wages, and friend’s wages, the economy in general, and (4) worry about my parents and my Uncle, who are in the age range that makes Covid19 especially dangerous.
I started my self-isolation about a week or so before most of my friend’s were told to self-isolate, so that first week was especially odd because my texts with friends had them out living their life and me inside feeling like I’m contributing nothing to the world. The second week most of them were self-isolating also, which oddly made me feel a bit better, like we are all in this weird chaotic situation together.
Tomorrow I go back to work, in the outside world, and I’m not looking forward to it all that much. Not only has 2 weeks of staying in my pajamas until noon, cat cuddles throughout the day, afternoon naps, and making my own schedule spoiled me, it has also ruined my sleep schedule which means tomorrow is pretty much going to suck.
9:45am I work via Zoom at my part-time job, that part is fine. Heck, I did that last Sunday, from the waist up I was business casual, from the waist down I was pajamas and slippers, and I had a lovely mug of tea with me. That experience right there makes me want to work from home full-time, if anyone knows of a way I can do that hit me up! However, after that is done I have to make all of me business casual and head on over to White Rock for my full-time job, I work a 1pm-9pm shift.
This means I will be working from 9:45am to 9pm, granted with a break to drive an hour to get to work, with zero cat cuddles, or naps, or YouTube breaks. It’s practically inhumane! Why did humans ever let themselves get roped in to working outside of the home for such long hours, away from their pets, and their pajamas? It is a flawed system my friends, flawed.
It is the system we are in though, and tomorrow I slide back in to it.
Some things I noticed while in self-isolation, the days that mirrored a somewhat normal day from the Before Time, are the days I felt most normal. For instance, yesterday was a fairly normal Friday for me since it is my usual day off, I did the things I normally do on Fridays (laundry etc.). Same with today, I cleaned the apartment, did my budgeting (every two weeks like clockwork!), did some work stuff for my part-time job to be prepped for tomorrow. Also, that first week, when I was still allowed outside for walks, I had a routine that I settled in to nicely, and that routine helped me feel like things were somewhat normal, just a new normal, dare I say, a somewhat better normal? Seriously, how can I work from home for real?
The days I let any type of routine or schedule lapse are the days I got nothing done, felt cut off from the world, and also felt the most bleak about the situation in general. A good way to counter that is to do something that lets you feel in control, at least that helped me. It can be something that actually does need to be done, like working on your budgeting, or something that you now have the time to do, that deep clean of the kitchen cupboards. Whatever it is, a task helps keep your brain occupied while you are performing it and helps you feel like your little corner of the world isn’t going completely nuts because you’ve got a handle on some little part of it.
To all of you who are still self-isolating, rock on! You are performing an essential service to your community, by staying inside you are making sure those people that have to go outside are safer. To all of you still working outside your homes, be safe, maintain distance between others the best you are able, and wash your hands every chance you get. For me, I’m going back to my seniors, to help them through the rest of this pandemic, I’ll be with my work team doing our best to keep Covid19 out of our building…and really missing my mid-day cat cuddles.