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Weight Watchers Wednesday…Sorta…

20 Jul

I didn’t write last week, not because I stopped doing the whole Weight Watcher thing but because I had my weekly meeting on Thursday and planned to write up my post after the meeting but I was sooooo sick I couldn’t do it. Ugh. It sucked. I couldn’t even look at the written word, let alone type it!

But this week I am doing better! Yay!

However, I am missing my Wednesday meeting again! because of life plans and will be going Thursday. It’s not that I don’t like the Thursday meeting, it is fine, but I hate missing the Wednesday meeting, again, not because of anything specific to do with the meeting just because I like going Wednesdays. In the app I have Wednesdays as my weigh-in day so that is the day my weekly points roll over and is technically the beginning of my new food week and I guess I prefer having my official weigh-in happen on the day it is supposed to happen on. shrug. I know I could switch the weigh-in day on my app to Thursday, since I appear to be hitting up the Thursday meeting quite often but I don’t wanna *foot stomp* so there! 😉 lol

Last week we talked about trying something new and our leader gave us the challenge of trying a new food this week. So far, I have epically failed that challenge *rolls eyes*. Once I got my appetite back I was really only wanting to eat bland, simple, foods and I figured following my stomach’s lead over the meeting leader’s lead was the wisest choice.

My weigh-in results from last week had me losing 1.2 pounds, bringing me to a total loss of 6.2 pounds. I can’t wait till my weight loss numbers get bigger and sound more impressive. People keep asking me how much I have lost and when I say 6.2 pounds they look so disappointed, it’s annoying! Then they start wondering, out loud!, why I’m not losing faster, or is the program really worth it, blah blah blah. I always want to respond with a comment along the lines of “get off my freakin back I’m doing the best I can!” but instead I just give a little smile, say something positive about the program, point out I haven’t been going all that long, and walk away sorta wondering if I am sucking at this whole weight loss thing since the whole entire world seems to think I should be losing faster. sigh.

But ya know what? It is healthier to lose the weight no more than 2 pounds per week, and I know from past experience my body does not like to lose weight so any weight loss is a minor victory in my world. I’ve just got to remember that people suck, and often say things they may not realize can have a negative effect on the person they are speaking to.

Ultimately, I decide how I feel about myself and my weight loss journey, and so far, I feel good about the journey. I am re-learning proper food portions, meeting great people, enjoying using the app, and am seeing results. Really, what more could I ask for?

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The Battery Debacle

12 Jun

Alrighty so this past weekend I was supposed to buy a new battery for my stupid scale and then on Tuesday I was going to, *gulp* weigh myself for the first time in years…Years! I was not looking forward to this…

There was a slight delay, than a glitch, and well, it didn’t happen, oops?

I forgot to get the old battery out of the scale Sunday night so I could take it with me to work Monday and buy the battery Monday after work. Perhaps my subconscious at work? 😉 I figured oh well, so I’ll buy the battery Tuesday and weigh myself Wednesday, a delay of one day won’t kill me.

One day, ha! 😛

Tuesday I was out and about, helping a friend with some stuff, we did a quick stop at Superstore and I meandered over to the battery section only to find I wasn’t exactly sure which battery I needed. sigh. I still hadn’t taken the battery out of the scale but I remembered what it looked like from the last time I changed the battery and figured how hard could it be to find that same battery? Turns out I had a 50/5o chance of getting it right and I got it wrong. *rolls eyes* The battery is a round flat disc, but there were two batteries like that…who knew?

Look how similar they are!!

Look how similar they are!!

Wednesday I completely forgot about it, was busy hiking and in general just enjoying my day but I remembered Wednesday night and was determined to weigh myself Thursday morning. I put the new battery on my night side table where I couldn’t miss seeing it when I got up and went to sleep with the sure knowledge I would swap the battery out in the morning and somehow find the courage to step on the scale.

Um, well, nope, it took about 15 minutes or so just to get the cover open so I could get the old battery out and that is when I discovered I bought the wrong replacement battery. They look sooooo similar! I almost opened the package to give the one I bought a try anyways but decided against it, I figured better to go buy the proper one and return this one so I can get my money back. Hey, I’m cheap, don’t judge! 😉 lol

No way was I not going to eat before going out to do my errands and when I weigh myself I follow some simple but unalterable rules:

(1) use the toilet first

(2) ingest nothing beforehand

(3) be naked

(4) hop on the scale before hopping into the shower

(5) put my contacts in, they weigh less than my glasses

Which meant no weigh-in for me today, gee, I’m so upset about that…said no one ever! lol

I managed to finally buy the correct battery today, only took me three freakin days! So tomorrow, barring any kind of weird unforeseeable freak occurrence that will prevent me from getting on the scale (please-oh-please let something happen! *crosses fingers* 😉 ) I will be putting that brand new battery in to my evil evil scale and stepping back in to the world of weekly weigh-ins. I have no words to describe how I feel about this but this picture may help give you an idea…

fearI actually prefer weighing in on Tuesdays, or even Wednesdays, but if I don’t get my feet on that scale sooner rather than later I may never do it so Friday morning it is! I may switch to a Tuesday or Wednesday weigh-in next week though, we’ll see just how horrible Fridays weigh-in is and see if I can convince myself to get back on to the scale before the next Friday rolls around lol

 

My Petrified Rock Dessert

2 Jul

I was given a recipe from my mom to make Chocolate Cake in a Mug, it’s a one serving dessert for that day you really want cake. Sounds great right? It’s a stupid easy recipe and if you’re a baker you most likely have all the ingredients on hand so the other day I decided to give it a try.

Well, let’s just say it was better in theory then in reality. lol. I killed the poor cake, killed it to the point that my spoon couldn’t even make a dent and it became the closest possible thing to petrified rock that could be ever found in a kitchen. *rolls eyes* You’re supposed to microwave for 5 minutes, well, for my microwave that is obviously toooooooo long!

I can’t think of the last time I messed up on a baking project, I just don’t screw up when baking (yes, I’m aware that sounds conceited lol) but this simple little recipe kicked my butt. I put it down to the microwave, I think it would’ve been fine if I’d microwaved it for way less time but once I saw the result I decided I wasn’t up to trying to make it again quite so soon so the Chocolate Cake in a Mug has been shelved for now.

Oh! And you should have seen my mug! I had to soak it in boiling hot water for hours, and then soak it all over again with fresh hot water, then scrub it like crazy, I really thought I’d managed to make the mug unusable which would’ve been disasterous cause the mug was one of my cute Eeyore mugs from England. Can’t ruin those!

Today was supposed to be weigh in day, I haven’t had a weigh in day in almost a month! I know! I’ve already given myself the lecture! lol. I weighed myself before going to AB, but not while in AB cause every scale weighs different so I figured I’d just wait till I got back here but then weekend after weekend I haven’t weighed in for various reasons. Eeek! So even though I am terrified to step on the scale I realized I really have to get on the damn thing today and find out how I’m doing…I am fairly certain I have gained, I’ve felt heavier in my tummy area for a little while now, ugh.

So, I psych myself up, step on the scale and…nothing. Nothing! The stupid battery died! Can you believe it?!?! And of course it doesn’t use a normal battery, took forever but I finally managed to pry the area where the battery lives open and it uses some round flat silver looking battery, yeah, I soooooo don’t have one of those in my place. *rolls eyes* I’m super uber strict budget girl right now and couldn’t justify driving to the store just to buy a battery, a specialty battery that is probably stupidly expensive, sigh, so no weigh in this weekend…I have a job interview Monday and a consultation on Wednesday about my Demo Reel so hopefully this week something positive will happen and I’ll start earning money again, then I will buy the battery and find out where I am weigh in wise…hopefully I’ve not messed up too badly, I don’t think I have cause my clothes still fit (meaning the newish ones I have are too large but still wearable and my older clothes are all ridiculously huge on me lol).

One day I will be at my goal weight and all my clothes will fit properly…I really can’t imagine how that will be but when it happens I’ll let ya know! 😀

We Are All Expendable

15 May

Never forget that you are expendable – easily replaced in many ways, hell, sometimes not even replaced just made obsolete. A sucky truth but a truth nontheless.

Normally I am much more upbeat on this blog (I think…) but the end of last week was highly stressed and this is the first I am getting to type since then so I’m channelling all that stress and negativity. sigh.

First part of my stress was my oldest nephew had surgery, he is 10 and not nearly old enough to have to be dealing with surgery in my opinion…course his first experience with surgery was when he was 7 months old so I guess he’s an old pro by now. He made it through just perfect so no worries there but for all of wednesday, well most of wednesday, I was freaking out in my head about what stage he was at, if he was ok, why hadn’t somebody called me with an update…all that kind of stuff. lol. I finally got the news he was out and in recovery and would be staying in overnight but mostly for observation not cause there were complications so yah!

Thursday, ah yes Thursday, still a tad stressed about the nephew, I was waiting to hear that he’d been discharged and how he handled the night – turns out he didn’t sleep well during the night, he had an upset tummy and sore throat, and for some reason the doc didn’t do rounds early enough or something so he didn’t get discharged, weird, but who knows what goes through doctor’s minds? *rolls eyes* I figured him staying overnight could only be good for his progress so hearing he wasn’t getting out for another night actually put me a bit at ease, lol, random huh?

But! That was not the end of the stress. I got a conference call from my boss in Toronto, due to budget cuts (stupid freakin economy and bad real estate market! arg!) my contract is not being renewed and guess who is out of a job as of May 27th?!?! Yup! Me! Grrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Lemme tell ya, that call (which came through in the morning) did not set me up for a good rest of the day, I barely did any work the rest of the day cause ya know what, why the fuck should I? You’re gonna cut me cause you can’t manage to budget your department properly? Fine, I can’t stop that, but I can slow my work speed down sooooo much during my last two weeks that I get my own slight revenge. Let’s see how well your boss likes your productivity reports when I STOP working at peak efficiancy! RAWR!

phew, that rant felt good. teehee.

I only told my close friends at work about the deadline since I didn’t want to have to deal with the whole office knowing I was leaving in two weeks and me having to put a good face on for that length of time. I spent the rest of my work day writing up lists about why being laid off is a good thing, why I am ok with this, and how I will not panic because I am smart, capable, easily employable and will find a new job in no time at all…despite the economy and unemployment rates…

I really thought I was doing ok and handling the situation well, I went to a movie with KL that evening like planned and was all positive about it when telling her what happened…well…then things changed…

I gave her a ride home after the movie and after I dropped her off I stopped at a 7-11 and got 2 tocquitos, yum!, and a small slush – it actually wasn’t a splurge-eat-my-way-to-feeling-better-snack it was a I-didn’t-eat-dinner-and-was-so-hungry-I-was-about-to-be-sick-snack. lol. I believe tho that was the beginning of my downfall…I woke up friday when my alarm went off, didn’t feel like getting up and decided why should I get up? They obviously don’t care about me so why should I care about them? I called in sick.

Friday was spent sleeping, then eating a surprisingly healthy lunch, then dragon boating, then eating an uber unhealthy dinner…let’s see, I ate 3 ferrero rocher, 2 turkey wraps, a yogurt, 1/2 a box of Kraft Dinner, dessert breadsticks from Panago…oh, and a root beer. Yeah, calorie binge or what? or as KL would say “I ate my feelings”. huh, I just realized that read like all that was my dinner, that was what I ate all day. Can you imagine if I ate that all for dinner? I’d of burst! lol.

I made saturday a brilliant friggin day by stepping on the stupid scale, I gained over a pound – sorry, I don’t have my weight tracker beside me and for some reason (gee, I so wonder why? *rolls eyes*) I didn’t memorize the amount I gained. sigh. I know it was under 2lbs but over 1lb. Normally I’d wonder why my binge caused such a large weight gain when the rest of the week I was good points wise but stress will kill your weight loss – the more stress you feel the more your body not only doesn’t let you burn calories it holds onto them and actually makes you gain weight – pretty evil huh?

So now I am stressed about being unemployed as of the 27th of this month and I am stressed about gaining weight…vicious. sigh.

I managed to eat only my points saturday but went over today, the first 2 points I went over today were by accident, the second 2 points I went over by were because I neeeeeded chocolate and am still in enough of a funk I couldn’t bring myself to say no to, well, to myself. lol. I am hoping by tomorrow I will be farther out of my funk and better able to make smart choices about what I am eating…least I am starting to care about the choices I make so I figure that’s a start…

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