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Random Nibblings

9 Dec

Oh the random nibblings that occur in a day. lol. I haven’t nibbled in a loooong time but today, well, I cracked. shrug. Let’s see, how did my food day go?

I had breakfast and then attempted to eat my morning snack but my banana was way bruised and I am biased against bruised bananas – I just can’t deal with those. ugh. So no snack. Then there was lunch, which while it did fill me was not filling, ya know what I mean? It technically did everything it was s’posed to do but it wasn’t enjoyable at all. sad face. Then right before leaving for the day junk food was brought in, and not any junk food but the really good christmas junk food that comes out this time of year. Ack!

There were chocolate mints, oh yum! Soooo, yeah, totally had one. sigh. Then on the way home I ate like 5 meringues. *rolls eyes* I was bringing them home along with the various tupperware containers I had brought in to work monday with all the baking I did. There were 5 left over, they totally didn’t make it back to my house. lol. And then! (yeah, there’s more…) I ate a small spoonfull of left over chocolate frosting (from the cakes I made) – which I then decided wasn’t worth it cause I have totally made better so I am gonna throw it out. lol. If it hadn’t been for those fuck ups my points for the day would be totally fine, I believe one under but I figure with all that nibbling I am closer to 2 over? Maybe 3…I’m really not sure…

So yeah, the nibbles, one little nibble here and there doesn’t seem like such a bad thing but when you add them up at the end of the day they totally turn in to points that can screw up your food day. My lesson of the day? Beware the urge to nibble!

Today I ate (minus the nibbles)

50 grams Shreddies = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

2 bites of banana = 0 points

1/2 cup Maple Baked Beans = 2 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

raw carrots = 0 points

1 Salmon steak in Dill sauce = 3 points

1/2 cup brown rice = 3 points

1 tbls creole dijon sauce = 1 point

mixed grilled veggies = 0 points

2 pieces toast = 2 points

2 tsp marg = 2 points

Total points eaten is 21. Ok, so my mental math was off and without the nibbling I hit my 21 points exactly. Soooooo, with the nibbling I hit what 24? or so…crap.

I really shouldn’t be using any flex points since I ate so much on tuesday at the party but somehow I couldn’t stop myself from nibbling. Hopefully that won’t happen again. *crosses fingers*

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Work Christmas Party – Check!

8 Dec

Last night was my works christmas party – kinda lame that it was on a tuesday but hey, least we got one. Sure, you might think that all companies always have a christmas party but this year my company tried to cheap out and get away with having an informal drinks and appetizers at a crappy pub type place. Uh, No! Everyone in the office said no to that invitation, lol, so finally the company sucked up the cost and got a party but cause they left it so late instead of getting a private room at a nice restaurant (like last year) we just had two large tables in the normal part of a restaurant…it was…crowded, and noisy, and not as enjoyable cause it was hard to talk to anybody who wasn’t sitting right beside you, but hey, like I already said – least we got something! 🙂

We went to this fancy restaurant in an expensive part of town – so a part of the city I don’t go to often cause I can’t afford anything there lol.

I decided way in advance that I would not count points yesterday, I know that you can go out to eat and enjoy yourself without blowing your points but the menu choices we had were quite limited and really – I would never be able to afford to eat there on my own so I figured I’d pick whatever I wanted from the menu and screw the points. lol. I gotta say, however many points I ate last night – totally worth it! 😀

My appetizer was the iceberg salad – it had a roasted garlic miso dressing, grilled cubes of chicken, bacon and scallions – it was tasty but too salty. I have always been sensitive to salt, I seem to taste it really easily and that has gotten more extreme since I have started eating healthier, shrug. So yeah, way salty salad. Weird huh? I gave part of my salad to my friend LL cause her appetizer was this weird not very good tuna thing and she didn’t like it so I shared mine.

The entree, wow, it was a Spicy Prawn and Scallop Risotto dried red chili, three types of broccoli – holy crap it was gooooood! 😀 I had no idea what to expect, didn’t know what risotto was but it turned out it was like a rice dish, with a sauce and the prawns and scallops were mixed in with it, then it was put over the broccoli and topped with green onions. I ate it nice and slow so I could savour every single bite cause it was that good! Guess what happened though? I savoured it too well I think, ate too slowly, because by the time I got half way through the dish I was full! lol. Crazy. I mean, fancy restaurants serve stupid small portions so no way would I have ever imagined I’d get full from the salad and entree but yeah, by half way through that risotto I was d.o.n.e. 😛 I ate a couple more bites cause I couldn’t stand the idea of not finishing the dish – the dish that would be so expensive I’d never be able to afford it on my own and it’s not like I could take the left overs home, lol. But nah, couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t get through it. Sad.

Dessert – I firmly believe we all have a seperate compartment in our stomachs for dessert, lol, I had the almond cheesecake with a cashew crust and I ate every single crumb! Oh, and it was topped with raspberry, Mmm! Mmm! Mmm! It was this nice little single serving sized cheesecake, beautiful! 😀

All in all, the food rocked. I could have done without the salad, or at least less salt in the salad but that’s the only thing I would change.

Now for drinks, I had a carona at work (the end of work!) and ordered a Shirley Temple at the restaurant, lol, yeah I know, it’s a kids drink but I didn’t want anymore alcohol and didn’t yet feel like drinking water, so Shirley Temple! 😛 It was tasty – and almost as much of a treat as an alcoholic drink since I haven’t had juice since this whole weight watchers thing started. I didn’t finish it though. I nursed it through the dinner and when we all got up after the food was done and were mingling the waiter took it, sad face 😦 ah well, I got to drink most of it and juice is wasted calories anyways, yummy calories tho! lol.

So all in all it was a great food evening – not great points wise but great taste wise. 🙂 I am not even going to try to figure out how bad the points were, I just don’t care. haha And that is an awesome feeling – knowing that I can have a meal that is a total treat and high in points but not derail my weight loss journey, score! 😀 😛

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Belated Post

6 Dec

Ok, so I didn’t write on the weekend, it’s not that I didn’t want to it’s that I was busy and just couldn’t find the time. Now sure, you are probably saying “what? you couldn’t find ten minutes to sit down, grab your laptop and start typing? ha!” and well sure, I did find a bit of time here and there to sit but when I did that it was cause I was exhausted and the last thing I wanted to do was try to come up with something entertaining to write. 😛

So, let’s recap…starting with the most important part of any weekend…

WEIGH IN DAY:

This was saturday, earlier in the day then normal but that’s cause I hadda get up and get going. I was concerned that weighing in early would hamper my results but oh well. I was hoping for anything above a loss of 0.2 pounds…yes you read that right. If I could manage to lose 0.2 pounds I would hit the 20 pounds lost mark so oh how I was crossing fingers. lol.

I stepped on the dreaded scale, saw the number and just froze…didn’t believe it at all! The whole time I was showering and getting ready for the day I was in a daze cause that just couldn’t be right…could it? Oh hell yeah it was! I lost…ready? I lost 2.6 Pounds!!! In one week! This brought me to a total weight loss of…21.6 Pounds!!! wOOt! Yah! Happy dance anybody? Not only did I hit the 20 pounds lost mark I went past it by a whole 1.6 pounds, awesomeness! 😀 😀 😀

Happy Dance!

This weigh in totally set the mood for the weekend, a mood of “hells yea! I can do it!” lol.

The rest of saturday was spent Christmas shopping and getting supplies for my holiday baking that was also happening over the weekend; a day of happy news then shopping? Can’t beat that!

Sunday was spent baking, I did some of the prep work the evening before and ended up with two yule log cakes, gingerbread cookies and meringues. I was also supposed to have peppermint bark but something went horribly wrong when the chocolate was melting and it had to be thrown out, ugh. What a waste of money. Sucky. But everything else turned out great! I had never made gingerbread before so I was worried but the recipe I found was great and everybody loved them. I was told many times they look just like the cookies you find in bakeries – apparently I rock at decorating cookies? lol. Who knew!

Up until this year I thought everyone knew what a yule log cake was, the only reason I made two this year was cause one of the girls overheard me talking about this cake to someone and had no idea what I was talking about…say wha?! How do you not know what a yule log cake is? *confused face* but I have encountered more and more people who don’t know, sigh, so here is what it is: a thin chocolate cake that when it is baked you put on a clean towel dusted with cocoa then you roll it up, it stays rolled until completely cool, then, you unroll it and spread the filling on what will be the inside of the cake (this filling was whipped cream and chocolate chips), then you roll it back up and put chocolate frosting on the outside. The frosting is a bit thicker then normal so when you spread it on it gets a textured look, like a yule log. There, now you can’t say you don’t know what it is! lol. huh, I should’ve taken a picture to show you, ah well, next year! 😛

there we go, I googled an image of one that looks similar to my version. Yule Log Cake - Yum!

So one cake went to my landlord and his family, along with some of the cookies and meringues, and the other cake and most of the cookies and meringues went to work with me today for the office – I say ‘most’ cause I left some behind of the cookies and meringue for the roomie. It’d be mean to do all that baking and not give her some – the whole place smelled like gingerbread and chocolate cake, even when I woke up this morning! lol.

Uh yeah, so that was my sunday, baking. 😀

Today was just a normal day at work, nothing really special there, we had a new instructor for my Zumba class tho. I hate new people, I mean really hate them! Once I get used to an instructor or teacher or whatever I really struggle to deal when the person is replaced…even if it is just for one class like this evenings Zumba. I don’t know why it is, I’m just odd like that. So, this replacement, she was pretty good. She does more exercise moves then dance moves and I don’t know that it was harder but because it was totally different moves it worked me out in a different way which is definitely good. I am sooooo gonna feel that exercise tomorrow! lol. Which is how it should be, right? 🙂

When I got home and made dinner, well, I’d swear that was the best dinner ever – which is another way I judge how well a workout went. I know! Weird! But listen…if I don’t work all that hard then I don’t enjoy my dinner as much, it’s like…well, if I work hard I am more deserving of a really good meal and I have worked up an appetite so things just taste better anyways. shrug. Hey, it works for me! So, my burger tonight, YUM! 😀 lol

Today I ate:

50 grams shreddies = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 6″ Turkey Sub from Subway = 5 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 hamburger patty = 4 points

1 weight watchers hamburger bun = 2 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

baby spinach leaves, ketchup, mustard = 0 points

cooked veggies = 0 points

1 piece bread = 1 point

1/2 tbls Nutella = 1 point

1/2 tbls light peanut butter = 1 point

So that puts me at 22 points eaten, I have to eat 2 more points so that I have eaten my exercise points. I actually had grabbed a bag of Thinsations Yogurt Covered Pretzels but I am really not feeling them. shrug. I don’t want anything else to eat,  ugh, I am full! But…I am s’posed to eat my exercise points. sigh. I wouldn’t care all that much about being under by just 2 points but yesterday I kinda made a boo boo, lol, I only ate 14 points the whole day. *cringes* I didn’t mean to undereat by that much, honest! I was just so wrapped up in baking I lost track of the time and when I cook or bake I tend to have no appetite, shrug, so by the time I was done everything and having a little rest it was late and I was tired and I wasn’t even thinking of food, and well, that’s how I managed to eat only 14 points. heh.

I will find something little to snack on just so I can say I used the points up…for real! 🙂

Tomorrow I doubt I will be posting, our work Christmas party is tomorrow (yeah, I know, on a tuesday, how exciting, NOT!) but anyways, the party is tomorrow and there is no time to go home before it so we’ll all be going after work to the restaurant together then who knows what time I’ll be getting home. shrug. Last year I wasn’t home till way late so we’ll see how this year goes! 😀

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Late Lunch = Unhappy Tummy

3 Dec

Now, it’s not like I sit there with a clock and time out every morsel I am going to eat. I know that I am supposed to eat small meals every 3 hours or so but really, who can do that? Not people who have to work that’s who! lol.

At work I tend to eat brekkie around 8:30am, have a mid morning snack of fruit around 11am then lunch at 1pm and finally dinner at home. It works. 🙂 Today however, that did not happen. I got my breakfast on time but wasn’t really feeling my mid morning snack of a banana – which is all good cause while I normally eat a morning snack it’s not a big deal if I don’t. I really should have eaten the banana. I didn’t get lunch till 3pm, 3 pm!! I thought I was gonna die I was so hungry! What, in all my brilliance did I do when I finally got my lunch? I practically inhaled it. Ugh.

We all know by now that eating fast is bad, sigh. You tend to over eat if you eat too quickly and eating fast causes digestion issues. By the time I was done eating I was already feeling a bit uncomfie in my tummy, about ten minutes after I was at a tummy ache level, ugh. Nobody likes a tummy ache! It kinda sucks when you know what caused it and it’s your own fault, lol, cause really, who ya gonna blame?

I thought it would pass relatively quick but it didn’t, I was left feeling achey and uncomfie the rest of the day. By the time I got home, around 6pm or so it seemed to have past and I was quite hungry. This struck me as odd, I thought I wouldn’t be hungry until later since I ate lunch later, but meh, if my tummy is hungry at it’s normal dinner time that’s cool with me. So I ate and what happened? As soon as I had food in me the uncomfie sensation was back, wtf?! I of course indulged in my cure-all, which means I had a cup of tea lol, it didn’t help, sadness. 😦

I don’t know why my tummy is so achey today, I blame it on the late lunch and eating it way too quickly, shrug, so it’s my own fault – which I think makes it suck more. lol. I have one more point of food today and I s’pose I could eat a one point werther’s chocolate but my tummy is so unhappy I really don’t want to put anything in it, shrug. Guess today will be a 1 point under day. 🙂

Oh, so tomorrow is weigh in day…nervous! I really want to do well since if I do well that will mean I have hit the 20lbs lost mark, so think good thoughts for me! 😀 😀 😀

I was watching a weight loss show the other day and the lady trying to lose weight started at, hmmm, crap, I can’t remember the starting weight but by the end she had lost like 17lbs (in 6 weeks! bitch. 😛 ) and I was kinda cranky that it only took her 6 weeks to lose 17lbs and it took me waaaaaaay longer to lose that much. So, when she was at her lower weight she is of course crazed happy and exclaiming about it and I realized, that yeah, she lost 17lbs but I actually weigh less then her, how weird is that?! I never weigh less then anybody is seems but on weight loss tv shows lately I will think “oh, I weigh around what that person weighs” but then I stop and think about it and realize I don’t…I weigh less…wow. It’s such an amazing feeling. I know I still have a long way to go to get to my goal but seeing that I weigh less then a bunch of people who are on tv to lose weight, well, wow.

Oh, btw, the tv shows I was watching are Bulging Brides and The Last 10 Pounds Bootcamp…if you haven’t seen them, watch ’em! They are good! They are hosted by Tommy Europe and Nadine Somebody-Or-Other. He is the trainer, she is the food person. Together they whip people (mostly women) in to shape. 🙂

The Bulging Brides get 6 weeks, the Last Ten Pounds people get 4 weeks…they get amazing results…well, as long as the person does what they are told! lol. It’s never an extreme plan either, it’s watching your calories and exercise and each show Tommy tailors the exercise regime for that person. I like watching it cause I get ideas of different exercises I can do and what benefit they will have for me. 🙂  Well, that and it’s fun to watch someone else suffer, lol. 😛

Today I ate:

50 grams shreddies = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk =1 point

1 Italian Sausage and Penne Bowl = 5 points

1 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

mixed raw vegg = 0 points

1 cup Maple Baked Beans = 4 points

2 pieces toast = 2 points

1 tbls light peanut butter = 2 points

Total points eaten = 20.

So, yah? I am gonna count it as a win, lol, since I was worried I’d go over my points today cause of messing up my eating schedule. I think being 1 point under is way better then being over – some people might argue against that, and yes, I know why going over isn’t the end of the world, what with flex points an all. But the night before weigh in, what can I say, I prefer to be under eating by 1 point then going over, so sue me. 😛

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Another Meal of Cat Food, yuch!

2 Dec

So, remember waaaaaaay back when I posted about my first experience eating tuna? I hated it and compared it to eating cat food – not that I have eaten cat food (ew!) but the smell and texture were so cat-food-like that I swear it’s the exact same thing! Well, at some point in my grocery shopping I was an idiot and bought canned flaked turkey meat…I don’t know what made me think this was a good idea?? Oy!

I was stuck for dinner ideas this evening so I figured “open the canned turkey, how bad can it be?” the answer to that is WAY BAD!! Horrific! Who eats this crap? *rolls eyes*

can you say "epic fail"?

I drained it, mixed it with some light miracle whip, stuck in on a weight watchers hamburger bun with a cheese slice, some baby spinach and mustard…all of those ingredients but the turkey mix was good. Blech. I suppose it might have been better if I had some onion or something to put in the mix but I didn’t and really, all that would have done was slightly disguise the icky flavour that is canned turkey. 😛

It was a very gross dinner that was non-enjoyable, sigh. Since I have to be so careful with what I eat and how much I try to make sure the food I eat is something I really enjoy. Obviously not rich-calorie-dense-all-my-fave-foods level of enjoy but things I am happy to be tasting and eating. The lists I write down showing what I eat generally look really boring, and repetitive and probably a lot of you wonder what the hell I am doing eating such un-entertaining foods so often…and no wonder I get so excited about subway when I eat baked beans all the time (which actually, I haven’t eaten in a while but was planning to take tomorrow for lunch, lol) but for me, I find that eating the same thing often works best for me, I know what the points are going to be, I know how filled I am going to feel and for how long…it is predictable – which, yes, can be boring, but for right now on this journey seems to be just what I need.

 Well, that and I am kinda poor so it’s not like I can buy ingredients I don’t normally have to make one dish that I may or may not like. shrug.

I try to eat something new every week…it’s not always a completely-new-to-me food item but maybe a lower calorie version of something, or a new way of cooking something…just something! It not only gives me something different to eat and attempt to cook but it gives me something to write about. lol. Sometimes it’s a new frozen dinner flavour, or a light hot dog or mini breton crackers…it can be anything! 🙂

The new thing I ate today was a new flavour of Lean Cuisine, it was Mango Currey Chicken, one of the Lean Cuisine Spa meals. It was…ok. I mean, there was nothing wrong with it exactly but there was cauliflower in it and I really don’t like that vegetable…altho, you couldn’t taste it cause of the currey flavour, lol, but also, there were raisins in it. Ack! I don’t eat raisins! Ever! I can’t stand the little buggers! They are worse then the canned turkey…which I just realized is a new food to me so hey, two new foods in one post…neither one of them getting a positive review…oooh, bad food week! haha. Anyways, raisins, in the currey. sigh. I picked the raisins out and managed to eat the cauliflower which may not sound all that impressive but trust me, it is. 😀 Thing is, it’s crazed busy at work so I ate at my desk today instead of taking an official lunch break but the office rule is you can’t eat anything smelly at your desk. Uh, hello, currey is smelly…way smelly! So I had to scarf it down in the kitchen and then go back to my desk and eat the rest of my lunch there (raw veggies, yogurt and cheese). Not the ideal lunch situation but hey, it could always be worse!

My lesson today? Always read the ingredients list cause you never know what is hidden in your food! Today it was cauliflower and raisins, who knows what it could be tomorrow! dun dun dun…teehee

Today I ate:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 timbit = 2 points

1 Lean Cuisine = 5 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 weight watchers hamburger bun = 2 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

1/6 of the can flaked turkey mixed with 1 tbls light miracle whip = 1 point

baby spinach, mustard = 0 points

20 mini breton = 2 points

Total points eaten 21! 😀 Yah!

Now I know, I kinda snuck that timbit in there but they were brought in to work and oh man I love timbits. lol. I usually (if I’ve been good) get one on the weekends but I go through the drive thru (I know! so lazy) so I can’t (1) be tempted to buy more cause I can see all the choices and (2) once I have eaten it I am away from the Tim Horton’s and can’t buy a second…see, a method to my seemingly lazy decision! 😛 These ones however were just sitting there, near my desk and after I had my one I sooooo wanted a second! I didn’t take one (obviously!) but I sure wanted it. On the weekends when I get one, I am always content with the 1 and never want a second so I think it was cause they were close at hand, that’s why I wanted a second. That’s so not cool. Does that mean when the really tempting stuff is around I am always going to be fighting to not cave in? I somehow thought it would be easier by now…I wonder where I got that dumb idea from? lol.

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I Hated Today, Grr!

1 Dec

Today was such a crappy day at work, ugh, it felt like it was never going to end and it was one disaster after another. Argh! I can’t really go in to deets about what was goin on cause (1) it’s a specialized industry and unless you are in it you won’t understand the terminology and (2) I more then likely signed some kind of document saying I can’t gab. *rolls eyes*

By the end of day, hell, not even the end of day, about 2 hours in to it I was dreaming about throwing my boss out the window (we’re 24 flights up!) or banging my head against a wall so many times I could have the next day off work. 😛 Neither of which I have done…yet! lol. This week is just a crap fest and today was one more pile to add to it.

Lunch was catered today, I had forgotten that so I took a Lean Cuisine, oops. Normally I would have said no to the catered food and just eaten my lunch but I was cranky and decided to eat the free food. It wasn’t too bad – which is part of why I figured it’d be ok, not like it was pizza or anything! There were fresh made sandwiches, pasta salad, gourmet green salad (I swear that’s what they called it! lol), cheese n cracker platter and a selection of cookies brownies and tarts. I had half a sandwich (egg with raw veg, grilled veg, pesto sauce on a grainy bread), 4 penne noodles (yup, I counted) there was some kind of crumbly cheese in the pasta salad and a tomato based um, not sauce but flavouring I guess you’d call it. I also had some cheese, some garlic crackers, some raw veggies and a bite of what turned out to be a very dry not all that flavourfull brownie. So, it sounds like a lot but you have to take in to account the portions I ate. I didn’t think I ate too much but when I was estimating the points after I got home, uh yeah, I was over my points for the day by 1 point. Oops. I may have counted wrong but I always prefer to count high then low so, shrug, I am over. Luckily I didn’t feel hungry so I figured the higher pointed lunch filled me up…I think tho that is flawed cause it is now almost 9pm and I am hungry. sigh.

It’s too late in the day to eat a meal, and I don’t want to have some mindless snack, shrug, so I figure I’ll do the unthinkable and go to bed way early. I know, bed by 10pm – weirdness! But this way I will be unconscious and not aware I am hungry, lol. I really don’t want to go even farther in to my flex points like I know I probably should be doing in this situation and frankly, I am to tired and cranky to really care. *rolls eyes* Ya know, I thought this week was going to go so much smoother cause it started off so well! Ah well, maybe it’ll start getting better from here…cross your fingers for me! 😀

Today I ate:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

Catered Lunch

    – 1/2 sandwich = 3 points (?)

       ( – grainy bread, 1/2 hard boiled egg, veggies, pesto sauce)

    – 4 penne noodles = 1 point

    – 6 garlic crackers = 2 points

    – 4 pieces of cheese = 8 points

    – 1 small bite brownie = 0 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 medium slush = 2 points

Total points eaten = 22.

Keeping in mind today is all about estimating numbers so I could be counting too high or too low, shrug, no real way to know. I know I shouldn’t of had the slush but I had to stop to buy skytrain tickets on the way home and again, in a cranky mood, I figured screw it. shrug.

It’s not a good mind set to let myself get in. I used to over eat when stressed or way upset, I think a lot of people do, and while I didn’t do that this time I also didn’t control myself as much as I normally do. I have decided to look at it as progress though. I mean, there once was a time I would have stopped at McD’s or gone and gotten a donut or come home and made Kraft Dinner or…well, you get the idea, but this time, I didn’t. Sure, I drank the slush but that’s 2 points compared to the 15 points and higher I could have eaten…so, that’s progress right? Just nod and smile so I can pretend you agree with me, k? K. 😀

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Inflated Tummy and Tent-Like Clothes

30 Nov

So, when I am at home you’d never know I lost weight. I wear all the same lounging-around-the-apartment clothes as before which were oversized way back then. I like baggy clothes when I am chillin at home and sleeping, I don’t feel self-conscious because I figure sure it looks like I am wearing a tent-like item but at least you can’t for sure see my rolls. lol. I just am not comfortable in form fitting (aka tight) clothes. Also, I feel like oversized comfy clothes are warmer then form fitting comfy clothes…I don’t know why, since I’m pretty sure this thinking is wrong, but whatev, it’s in my head and I see no reason to change that thinking pattern. 😛

The thing is, sometimes I will catch a glance of just my face in a small mirror and think, huh, my face might have slimmed down a bit. I am not sure it did, I mean come on it’s my face, not like I can exercise it, but maybe my cheekbones are a bit more prominent? But then I go to the washroom and see myself in front of a larger mirror and there is this possibly slimmed down face on top of a body wearing a tent that has no shape. It’s weird, and always make me think I haven’t really changed at all and my whole face slimming theory is crap.

It’s not demoralizing exactly, cause I know the clothes are oversized, but it can mess with my head a bit. Since a big part of weight loss has to do with your head and where it’s at, this messing with it can cause some issues. I think because I am aware of the screwy-ness of my thinking I am safe from it reeking havoc with my eating plan but sometimes it would be nice to catch a glimpse of myself in front of a mirror and not think “oh there I am in my tent” lol. My way around this is every night I indulge in a weird routine. *rolls eyes* After I have washed up I tug my shirt up a bit and turn to the side so I can see my tummy in the mirror, then I turn to look at the front view and the back view…just to see how the budha belly, back fat and side rolls are looking…uh, btw, it’s not looking all that great. 😛 Most of my weight is coming off my ass and upper thighs, weird, I know! shrug.

This is perhaps the worst time of day to do something like this, lol, after all, it’s been an entire day of eating and sitting and whatever-ing so I am…what’s a nice way to put this…inflated. 😛 I think this little routine has a higher chance of messing with my head then wearing the tent-like clothes and yet, not stopping. *rolls eyes*

So what did I eat today…

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 bowl weight watchers soup = 0 points

1 weight watchers english muffin = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 point

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 cup Fire Roasted Red Pepper and Tomato soup = 2 points

1 open faced sandwich

    – 1 weight watchers hamburger bun toasted = 2 points

    – 2 cheese slices = 2 points

    – 4 slices deli turkey = 1 point

    – baby spinach and mustard = 0 points

3 Lifestyle shortbread cookies = 3 points

1 Werther’s chocolate candy = 1 point

Total points eaten 21, yah! 🙂

I ate a bit earlier then normal, well, ok, that’s not accurate, dinner was around my normal time but my evening snack was early which means I got hungry again and have no more points. Durn. So, for the last 2 hours or so my tummy has been having low level grumbling and  I refuse to even look at the kitchen let alone go in it for fear I will break down and eat something. Sucky-ness. I wonder if my tummy will look less inflated cause I am hungry…hmm, something to check for in my night time routine! hehe.

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A Better Week So Far

29 Nov

This week is already starting off better then last week, Yah! 😀 😀

It’s Monday so I had Zumba class after work, I didn’t get to go last week cause of being sick so it was really great getting to go this week. 🙂 There were new moves and new music this week and the ab section was all standing up exercises this time, normally the ab section is done on the floor, change is good! It makes it fun to go cause you know it’s not gonna be the same moves an music every week and it keeps your body from losing the benefits of the exercise, screw you muscle memory! ha! 😉

Also, I have eaten well for 3 days straight, no flex points for moi! I did eat my exercise points tho, but that’s ok. 🙂

So, today I ate:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 small banana = 1 point

1 green apple = 1 point

1 bowl weight watchers veggie soup = 0 points

1 weight watchers english muffin = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Activia Yogurt = 2 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 Cup Fire Roasted Sweet Pepper and Tomato soup = 2 points

1 open faced sandwich = 5 points

    – 1 weight watchers hamburger bun toasted (2)

    – 4 slices deli turkey slices (1)

    – 2 cheese slices (2)

    – baby spinach leaves, mustard (0)

1 piece bread = 2 points

1 tsp margarine = 1 point

1 tbls light peanut butter = 2 points

4 Lifestyles shortbread cookies = 4 points

Exercise Points Earned = 3 points

Total points eaten = 24, but that’s all good cause that’s 21 daily points and 3 exercise points. Perfecto! 😀

I totally copied my dinner today from a friend’s lunch at work that she had last week. lol. It’s an open faced sandwich with cheese, turkey slices, some baby spinach leaves on top and a bit of mustard – practically a work of art! It is soooo good. 🙂 I had it yesterday too. I have never been one to embrace open faced sandwiches, I don’t know why really, I just prefer my sandwiches closed, shrug, but since turkey is so low points wise and the spinach leaves are zero it made sense to do the sandwich open. I should’ve taken a picture it was that good! lol

Oh, so, I kinda cheated on sunday – not food wise! But scale wise. lol. I cheat with the scale so often it’s almost ridiculous. *rolls eyes* My rule is I weigh myself on saturdays, no sooner no later, but quite often I weigh myself on sunday as well cause I don’t like what I saw on saturday and I want to see if the next day is better. lol. Sometimes it works, sometimes not so much. shrug. Well, here’s what happened this past weekend. Saturday I weighed in and was the exact same as the previous week, sucky but my own fault, sigh, well, on sunday I was down 0.8 pounds, yah! That means that as of sunday I am 0.2 pounds away from hitting the 20 pounds lost mark, wOOt! However, I decided to not count the 0.8 pounds loss the scale showed sunday cause this way, next saturday when I weigh in my results will be that much more exciting! Right? Well, as long as the weight keeps going down it’ll be that much more exciting, lol. Since I seem to have found my willpower again I think I will be ok and have a good weigh in this coming saturday but who knows what will happen? Ooooh, the suspense of the unknown future! haha.

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Fat Day? HA! Try Fat Week!

27 Nov

You know those days where you just feel fat…not for any reason (or at least not always for a reason) you just sometimes wake up and feel fat. 😛 Those days suck but you know if you get through it the next day will be better…well, not this time. sigh. This whole week I have felt fat, fat and getting fatter. It’s not been fun!

My clothes are all still fitting big so it’s not that, it’s that I kept screwing up my eating and was sick last monday so I didn’t go to Zumba. sigh. I didn’t think missing one exercise class would be such a big deal but it really affected me…in a bad bad bad kinda way.

I had two really bad eating days, one where I used ten flex points and one where I can’t even calculate how many points I ate cause I can’t get nutritional info for the restaurant but my approximation of points was frickin scary. Then I had days where I went over by a little, so like a point or two, which normally I am ok with cause in total for the week I’ll end up using like 7 flex points and I am good with that…but I was so in a different level of flex points usage this week…and it has made me feel icky.

So, what does that mean? It means this whole week I have felt fat. I don’t care for this feeling and want it to go away. *stomps foot* I used to always feel fat, I barely noticed the sensation because I felt it all the time but once the weight starting to (sloooowly!) come off I started to feel…well, not fat but big I guess…yeah, that seems right, I downgraded myself to big. lol I don’t like being back at feeling fat. 😦 It has made me want to just say “fuck it” and dig in to something high calorie, stop at McD’s for dinner, go to a restaurant and get dessert, gorge on pasta…something! I didn’t do any of those things, which is good, but I am not sure what stopped me, which is not good. It wasn’t will power, it wasn’t knowing I have a goal and working towards it, it wasn’t anything…I just somehow wasn’t able to do any of those things this past week…not for lack of wanting to tho!

I had hoped my weigh in this week would re-enforce the weight loss plan…after all, from last weeks weigh in I only needed to lose 1 pound to hit a total weight loss of 20 pounds…so, get ready for it, this week I lost…*drum roll*…0 pounds! That’s right, you did read that correctly, I lost nothing. 😦 I didn’t gain…and I remind myself of that everytime I think of how I didn’t lose, but…I didn’t lose!!!!  😦 I know I don’t deserve to lose this week, after those two really bad food days, no exercise, and multiple days where I used a couple flex points here and there I should be couting my lucky stars I didn’t gain but I am selfish and wanted to lose more weight, sigh. And to make it worse I had multiple days where at the end of the day I still felt hungry, not “peckish I am bored and want to nibble” hungry but “my stomach is growling I could eat a meal” hungry. Why??? That just can’t be right!

I have no answers to my yelled-out-to-the-universe question except for this…my body was used to eating it’s points and that was it, sure I used some flex points but not a lot and not on a regular basis so my tummy knew what to expect portion wise and it got used to it. This past week I had two days where I ate the way I used to, huge meals, high in calories, way more then what my tummy/body needs and now that my system has had a reminder of what it used to get it is feeling cheated out of all that fatty, high calorie, yummy tasting food. After all, foods I now consider total-exception-treats are what I used to eat all the time…it’s no wonder my body wants to go back, my old eating habits may not have been healthy but they sure were tasty! lol It’s like I teased my body and now it is getting payback, sigh, and we all know payback is a bitch!

Today I ate:

1 cup cooked oatmeal = 2 points

3 tbls maple syrup = 2 points

3 tsp brown sugar = 1 point

2 pieces toast = 2 points

2 tsp margarine = 2 points

1 tbls raspberry jam = 1 point

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

I Uncle Ben’s Sweet n Sour quick meal = 7 points

Total eaten is 19 points. Oops.

I didn’t mean to eat under my points, I was at a nannying job (which is why I ate the microwavable Uncle Ben’s dinner thing – easy to take and make!) and I forgot to take my thinsations snack so after I ate my dinner I was kinda screwed. There were snacks there but everything I could find was really high in points, something I wouldn’t like, or something I didn’t feel comfie eating (it’s hard picking from someone elses kitchen what to eat, shrug) I did nibble on some raw carrots, but those don’t cost any points…and I did dip two of the carrots in a dill dip but no way was that enough dip to use up 2 points, lol, my solution to this is I am gonna grab s’thing little to eat once I am done typing this up. I normally try not to eat this late but my tummy is rumbling and hey, I have two points left, damn straight I am gonna use em! 😀

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Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

25 Nov

Snoooooow Day! My first contact with a person today was when SB from work called to see if I was going to work, I believe her question went something like “what are we gonna do with all this snow?” – at that point I was running a tad late and was just about to leave my place but had yet to look out a window so I didn’t know what she was talking about. lol. Well, I peeked out my living room curtains and yelped, then said something along the lines of “ah fuck, I don’t wanna go out in that…” Ultimately, both of us ended up at work cause “snow days” are only for kids, grr to kids! lol.

brr, snow.

However, while at work we (“we” being the entire office) kept staring out the wall of windows in shock because of how fast and thick the snow was falling…and a bunch of us kept hoping that the snow would get sooooo bad we’d get to leave early. 🙂 I mean really, the snow was not gonna be that bad that we could easily justify leaving work early, but I have been told that is my outlook on it because I grew up somewhere that gets way worse winter weather then here. lol.

The snow kept up all day, at times it was mixed with freezing rain – joy – 😛 at least in order for it to snow it has to warm up, it was ranging between 0 to -4C all day, not bad at all! For all you Americans that’s 32 – 24.8F 🙂 We were told towards the end of the day we could go home early but by that point I didn’t see any reason to so I stayed my normal shift. shrug.

I find the weather is making me want to eat hot more filling foods – I have a salad in the fridge that I was gonna have for dinner tonight but I just couldn’t do it, I ended up having a wrap filled with cooked veggies and scrambled egg. What I really wanted was a burger on a bun, or a big plate of pasta, or toast – yeah, I know, odd maybe, but I am a bread lover and I’d have killed today for toast with either peanut butter or some jam on it. *big dramatic sigh* lol. If I thought toast would have filled me enough as a dinner I so would have gone with that!

Something else I noticed this week, my lunches are bigger then normal. Ok, tuesday makes sense cause I ate out but the other days? shrug. Something went wrong there. Because of my higher pointed lunches I am going over my points for the day or hitting it right on the mark and while hitting my points exactly is a good thing it’s not so good when you are still hungry! Really not good…uber not good…makes for a cranky hungry redhead…foooooooooooooooood! 😉 heh

I blame it on the weather, it makes me want toast or other heated carbs so I have been eating an english muffin at lunch with my lunches and that is making my lunches way higher in points then normal for me. sigh. I have thawed out the remaining veggie soup and will have that tomorrow for lunch so yah! 0 points for the soup I will eat which means I can eat an english muffin with no worries about being able to eat dinner too. 😀 This is important because after my day job tomorrow I have a nannying job and will have enough time to grab a sub from Subway if I am lucky…if the snow hadn’t plopped down on us I wouldn’t be too worried about my timing tomorrow with grabbing a sub and getting to nannying but people in this city are horrible at driving in snow and go sooooooo slow so I will need way longer to get to the job then normal. *rolls eyes*

This week, food wise, has just been bad. Bad, bad, bad, bad, bad. ugh. I feel like I have gained weight and it’s not a happy feeling. It’s partially tempered by wearing a pair of work pants this week that the last time I wore (couple weeks ago) were not snug but were fitting just nice around the waist…the legs/butt area were looser then strictly fashionable but the waist still fit so, shrug, I wore em. Yesterday I grabbed them from my closet when getting dressed in the moring and found that they are now too large, I can hold the waist out an inch or so and they are so loose everywhere else they have now joined a bunch of other clothes in the “can never be worn again” pile. Yah! 😀 But still, I feel like the success that made those pants too large happened prior to this week and that this week I screwed up so much I am gonna gain weight, it’s so depressing. Feeling this way makes me want to eat even more, I am at times an emotional eater and feeling for days and days depressed about how many flex points I have used and that I have screwed up royally makes me want to eat! *rolls eyes* the amount of times this week I almost ate cake or cookies or chocolate or whatever, there have been many temptations and I have almost eaten all of them! Horrible! I had gotten to a point where the temptations didn’t even cross my radar and what happens? I totally dip and now am seeing the temptations everywhere and want them! Argh!

Here is what I ate today:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 Lean Cuisine Honey Mustard Chicken = 5 points

1 weight watchers english muffin = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow = 1 point

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

Wrap

    – 1 weight watchers wrap = 1 point

    – 1 scrambled egg = 2 points

    – 15 grams light shredded cheese = 1 point

    – 1 tbls creole dijon sauce = 1 point

cooked mix vegg = 0 points

1 pckg Jolly Time popcorn = 1 point

Total points eaten is 21. 😀 Least I didn’t go over – feels like a frickin miracle! lol. I still have two more days before weigh in so two more days of feeling like I totally screwed up but not knowing for sure by how much…sucky. 😦

I won’t be posting tomorrow cause of nannying after working all day – sadness, but I’ll be here saturday afternoon to let you know the results of weigh in!

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