Aloha
Sooooooo, work today, oh dear. The building I work in had a tenant appreciation day so they had a Hawaiian themed lunch party. I wasn’t going to go because I didn’t know what kind of food would be there but I had the absolute most boring salad in the planet for lunch and thought maybe I’d find some chicken or something that I could put on my salad. Ha! That so wasn’t gonna happen…well, it mostly didn’t happen. lol.
The main dish was pulled pork on a bun with your choice of bbq sauce or a honey something or other sauce. They had a vegetarian version which was a nasty boring looking veggie patties on the same buns with a cucumber dressing. Both were served with coleslaw and there was drinks and ice cream. I got the veggie pattie on the bun with some of the cucumber dressing, a tiny bit of the coleslaw and I couldn’t resist – I got a small bit of the pork with some bbq sauce on the pork on the side. Oh man, that pork and sauce was sooooooo good! I had a bite of the coleslaw cause I wanted to see what is was like – that makes it sound like I haven’t had coleslaw before, lol, it had cranberries in it and looked yummy so I thought a bite couldn’t hurt. I crumbled the veggie pattie and put it on my salad which meant I didn’t top the salad with the croutons or dressing I packed to go with it. Least when I added something I also took two somethings away, that’s good compromise right? Well, maybe not good but ok…:P
I was weak and ate half the bun, sigh, I know I shouldn’t have but I love bread – it is one of my biggest weaknesses and I totally caved. blarg! Aaaaand, to make matter worse, I had…an ice cream cone…I know! I know! I am hanging my head in shame still! I shouldn’t have done it, I don’t know why I did it, I wasn’t craving it, yeah it looked good but I have resisted other things that look good but for some reason I got it. It was like a pod person had control over my body…I went to the tent with the ice cream with my friends, stood in line, got my cone and ate it all without really thinking about it – I just went with the flow, wtf??? I think that is how I ate before, I just took food and didn’t think about the consequences. Not good! I may not have thought about the consequences when I ate that ice cream but I sure suffered for it later. 😛 After the lunch I felt fine, not full but not hungry – that weird feeling I am getting used to associating with having eaten enough but not too much; once I ate the ice cream my stomach bumped me up to the feeling of slightly icky, too full and a bit sick. sigh. I don’t normally have that reaction to ice cream so it’s not like an allergy or anything, it was my stomach letting me know I was an idiot and should have thought the eating of that cone through a little more. lol. Another consequence of that ice cream was it left me with a whopping 3.5 points for dinner! Can you believe that?? Luckily (I can’t believe I think this is lucky!) I was still feeling icky when I got home from work so I didn’t want anything to eat until later in the evening and even then I didn’t want a lot so I had some soup and popcorn.
I seem to be slowly falling off the wagon lately, first my screw ups on the weekend now this, I don’t understand what happened…I had been doing so well! I was strict with myself but didn’t feel deprived and I know me, if I am not strict I won’t follow through…I don’t think I have changed my thinking on anything lately – I still want to lose the weight, I still have all the same goals but something must be going on cause I am losing my follow through to reach my goals. sigh. Maybe it’s cause of the failed weigh in on the weekend and knowing that this saturdays weigh in will probably be wonky too cause I will have just finished my road trip and I am worried I will cheat while driving. That’s not completely accurate, I know I am going to be cheating because I am planning to stop at this amazingly great drive in on my way through Calgary called Peter’s Drive In http://www.petersdrivein.com/ they have the most amazing milk shakes on the planet and I only get one a year if I am lucky so I told myself ‘screw the points, for one day you can have something absolutely horrible because of the kind of exception it is’ but now I am worrying about it…it’s gonna be a lot of points, how am I going to work this? Do I just not eat the rest of the day? I don’t think that will work…do I only eat veggies the rest of the day since they have no points? Do I eat normal and healthy and have the shake on top of that? I don’t know what to do!!! What’s the best course of action for this problem? None of the healthy eating books I am reading cover this dilemma, sigh. I guess I shouldn’t worry about it now, the problem won’t pop up until friday but still, sigh…
Here is my food from yesterday (since I forgot to post yesterday, oops!)
3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points
1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point
1 nectarine = 1 point
1 salad from Salad Loop
– chick peas = 1 point
– sunflower seeds = 1 point
– 1 hard boiled egg = 2 points
– veggies = 0 points
– light ranch = 1 point
2 triangles of Laughing Cow Light cheese = 1 point
1 grilled cheese sandwich = 4 points
1/2 cup Sidekicks Honey Garlic Noodles = 3 points
1 cup strawberries = 1 point
1 cup blueberries = 1 point
1 oreo cakester = 2 points
1 cup 1% milk = 2 points
That is my 23 points for the day. 🙂 Least I got yesterday right! The Sidekick noodles were ok, not the best flavour but lower in points then the flavours I usually eat so that’s ok. The salad was absolutely delicious! Way expensive, sigh, I really like Salad Loop – it’s a good change from Subway but it can cost a lot if you’re not careful. I may buy sunflower seeds, they were a nice addition to the salad.
And my food for today…brace for it!
1 bagel = 4 points
1 teaspoon of margarine = 1 point
1/2 hamburger bun = 2 points
1 veggie burger pattie = 2 points
small amount of pulled pork = 1.5 points
bbq sauce = 1 point
1 cup strawberries = 1 point
2 triangles Light Laughing Cow cheese = 1 point
1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points
1 ice cream cone = 1 point
1 small scoop mango ice cream = 3 points
1 cup butternut squash soup = 2 points
1 package Jolly Time Kettle Corn = 1 point
That is 23 points, I am glad I was able to find a low point dinner so I didn’t go over. I had almost resigned myself to going over my points because I couldn’t not eat something for dinner then I realized the soup would be good and low in points so yah!
I have to do better though! Tomorrow is back to being strict! strict! strict! I watched Jillian Michael’s new show, the one where she lives with a family for a week to help them get healthier…I love her, she’s so awesome! Scary but awesome. lol. I want to meet her and have her help me get in shape and yet I am scared of her and wouldn’t want her yelling in my face. Her whole approach is break you down physically so you break emotionally and find the reason why you let yourself get big…I am not big (heh!) on digging that deep in to my psyche, I may never get back out again! 😛 Watching her do that to others though is quite entertaining and gives me ideas and tips, also, it helps firm up my resolve a little. I know I will never look like her but I can try to get to her level of determination and get my ass in shape! If she can make other tubs-o-lard get in shape then I can damn well get myself there! I hope…
The Amazing Shrinking Woman 