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Archive | June, 2010

Eating a cookie is a chore?? That’s so wrong!

30 Jun

I am having trouble using all my Weight Watchers points, who’d of thunk it? lol.

Before I was on Weight Watchers I would eat dinner (most days anyways) and after my huge dinner I would have a cup of tea and about a half hour or so after that a dessert of some kind. Not anything extravagant just some cookies or a package of Pocky maybe…whatever I happened to have around that was a little sweet. It was a little treat I really enjoyed. Well, the past couple days I have dinner, I have my tea, and then I am done…I don’t want anything else. No desire for a little sweet something, no hunger pangs making me want anything…nuthin! I still eat something – I mean, I kinda hafta since I have points left but I don’t really want anything. shrug. Weird. 😛

Last night I got busy with other things and didn’t remember till right before I was going to bed I still had 5 points left…5 Points!! That’s a lot, I can justify not eating 1 point…maybe 2 but not 5! I had to actually force myself to eat my cookies and drink my milk, ugh. If I could have gotten away with eating something a lot lighter I would have but everything lighter (ex. fruit) is too low in points and I’d have to eat way more of it to use up those stupid 5 points. Lame.

I can’t believe I actually had to force myself to eat a cookie…who does that?! Cookies are enjoyable, yummy, full of flavour and just bad enough for you that you automatically want more…and I had to practically choke them down. So so so wrong. *shakes head*

Today I ate a higher in points lunch cause I was going out after work and wasn’t sure when I would get to eat dinner; also, being all proactive an all I ate a yogurt right before I left work and cut up an apple to take with me so if I needed something to snack on while out I had food all ready for eating and wouldn’t be tempted to buy something at the food court. This whole planning ahead thing kinda rocks, not saying I will do it all the time but this time it paid off! The yogurt held me over till I was on my way home and I ate the apple while driving home thereby not stopping at any of the numerous fast food places I passed. Also, when I got home I didn’t dive in to the kitchen and make whatever the first thing I saw was and snack away on things the whole time the food was cooking. I was controlled enough to calculate my remaining points for the day and figure out the best dinner to have that would use my points. Creepy! 😛

I also found the best 1 point weight watchers snacks; they are from Safeway and come in bags with I am not sure how many pieces in it. They are little 1 point, 1 or 2 bite (depending on the size of your mouth, lol) chocolates etc. Basically really miniature chocolate bars. Todays was Coconut covered in Milk Chocolate, like a Bounty Bar…I fully savoured it, lol, made it last 4 whole bites and it was goooood! You can find a site about them at www.russellstover.com , I haven’t really checked out the site all that much but a quick glance shows they have way more variety then I had realized. I will have to keep an eye out for more.

one point per piece

So here is what I ate today:

3/4 cup Almond Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

3/4 of a cup Brown Sugar and Bacon Baked Beans = 4.5 points

1 piece of toast = 2 points

1 cup cherries = 1 point

1 Activia Yogurt = 2 points

1 apple = 1 point

1/2 serving whole wheat pasta = 2.5 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

1/4 cup alfredo sauce = 2 points

2 triangles Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1 peach = 1 point

1 Whitman’s Weight Watchers Chocolate = 1 point

Used all 23 points and ate them early enough I don’t feel full and icky before going to bed. Yah! 🙂 Oh, and in keeping with the proactive thing I made a second batch of dinner and have it in the fridge ready for tomorrows lunch. Awesome! Hmmm, it’s a little sad I get so excited about that…lol

I have also decided to not list my drinks in my food list unless they cost me points; there isn’t really a point to listing my tea and water when they don’t count for anything. Doesn’t mean I am not drinking though!

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Danger Will Robinson Danger!!!!

29 Jun

OMG, I broke one of the biggest rules of all dieters, I went to the grocery store when I was…hungry!!! Ack! I know better then to do that but I had to go after work and I was sooooo hungry – that’s my fault, I didn’t eat enough during the day. *rolls eyes*

I went to a Save On Foods, they always have various things that are on sale out near the front of the store so you pass by these items on your way to carts (on the right) or baskets (on the left), well, I saw the tables with sale items and thought I’d take a look, as I walked towards one of the tables I realized what was on it, PIE!! Crap!! I must have amused anyone who was looking at me because as soon as I realized what I was seeing (the evil bad for me perfectly baked to a golden brown crust pies, sigh) I turned a sharp 90 degrees and aimed for the baskets instead…all the while muttering under my breath “pie, crap, don’t look at it!” Cause you know, if you don’t look at it it can’t suck you in…lol

Instead I went in to the produce section and bought fruit and salad, yah me! lol. I also got other stuff from the non-produce section, one of the best things I discovered today was a Weight Watchers approved popcorn – who knew?!

Only 1 Point!

The packaging is amusing, it warns you that the package will take less time in the microwave then traditional popcorn packages to pop…welll duh! The packages are less then half the size of a “normal” popcorn package, of course it will take less time! I got 2 flavours, traditional butter and Kettle Corn, I am a sucker for Kettle Corn, Mmmmmm. I ate a package of the Kettle Corn this evening, it’s good, not so much the regular Kettle Corn flavour but I think that’s a flaw of all microwave popcorns, I have yet to try one that claims to be Kettle Corn that actually tastes like Kettle Corn. For this one I say good effort and since you’re yummy and low in points I will forgive you for not tasting exactly like the flavour your supposed to. Yes, I talk to some of my food, it’s ok, I am still as sane as you thought I was at the beginning of this post. 😛

You can go to the company website at www.jollytime.com and get coupons – well, you might be able to get coupons, they wouldn’t print for me but oh well. They also have a thing on there that you can get a free reusable shopping bag or find boxes with free bowling coupons on it. shrug. Not my thing but it’s all good.

After that store I hit up a M&M Meat Shop, www.mmmeatshops.com, my mom suggested them. They have these fish steaks with sauce that are not overly expensive and you can buy single servings so you’re not stuck buying a huge box and eating fish steaks for two weeks straight. lol. I got the one with dill sauce but there was a whole list of sauces you could choose from. 🙂

I have gone down in points allowed per day; not promising for my hunger pangs! eesh. When I started this program I was scared to weigh myself so I guessed my weight based on what it was last time I weighed myself. lol. I know! Not the best way to go about things. 🙂 That put me in the 180s, well, I weighed myself this past saturday (I have chosen saturdays as my weigh in day) and I am in the 170s which means I go down a point, now I only get 23 a day…I am hoping that 1 point will (a) make a big difference in my weight loss per week and (b) not make such a huge impact in my daily life that I feel like I am starving. That seems like a fine line to balance but here’s hoping!

My food today:

1 bagel = 4 points

1 tbsp Philly Light CreamCheese = 1

tea = o points

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 cup Campbell’s butternut squash soup = 1 point

salad = 0 points

1 tbsp salad dressing = 1

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt cup = 2 points

1/2 cup Heinz Brown Sugar and Bacon Baked Beans = 3 points

1 piece Safeway bread toast = 2 points

1 pouch Jolly Time Kettle Corn = 1 point

This puts me at a daily total of 18.

I know I should use the rest of my points on something healthy like fruit but it will take a lot of fruit to use up 5 points and it’s too late in the evening for that so instead I will finish off my day with cookies and milk, yum! 🙂

The Brown Sugar and Bacon flavour Baked Beans are not as good as the Maple Flavoured Baked Beans (also Heinz) and this flavour is higher in points so I don’t think I will get them again. I was pleasantly surprised when I learned how low in points baked beans are; they are so filling and low in points they make the perfect dinner (putting them on top of a piece of toast of course, lol). Oh, and I forgot to list my water, I am drinking it, not as much today as I was managing by the end of last week, I think my lack of water drinking over the weekend impaired my ability to drink as much as I had been last week. I will spend this week working back up to my multiple glasses of water a day and try not to screw it up next weekend.

Hmm, increase water while losing a point per day of food…it’s gonna be an interesting week!

Real Quick Update…

28 Jun

Ok, this is gonna be quick update since I wrote so much last time. 🙂

My food today was:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

c cup grapes = 1 point

tea = 0 points

1/2 veggie burger = 8 points

mixed veggies = o points

1 cup Campbell’s Butternut Squash soup = 2 points

2 pcs Safeway sandwich bread = 3 points

2 tsp margarine = 2 points

1 pckg strawberry Pocky = 5 points

Total points used = 24…right on target! wOOt! 🙂

I am also currently sipping on a baby can of Coke Zero, I am not sure that I like this one so much. I used to love Diet Coke but went off it and haven’t found a pop to replace it with yet – which really, is probably a good thing since it’s so bad for me but every now and then I try a sip of one kind or another just to see if I like it. shrug, nothin yet. How weird is it I think I will pour the pop out and get a glass of water? Just not normal I tell ya! lol

Psychology say what???

28 Jun

So I am learning that there is a psychological component to this losing weight thing. Today has been really hard and not because I am hungry but because I want to eat; the eating wouldn’t be serving any purpose except to let me indulge in my food cravings so I am trying really hard to not cave but oh I want to!

I drove my roomie to the ferry, originally she was getting an early morning ferry so I immediately thought “sweet! after I drop her off I will pick up McDonald’s breakfast”. See, I love McD’s and almost never get the breakfast cause weekdays even though I am up early I am not going to detour to a McD’s on my way to work and on weekends I sleep in too late. shrug. Not a huge deal, it just makes it more of a treat when I get it. 🙂 So I have it set in my head that certain activities create the opportunity for McD’s breakfast and I jump at those chances; these opportunities are road trips, early morning errands – things like that. When I got home last night R informed me that she was going to take a slightly later ferry, no biggy, it was actually better for me cause it meant I would have more time to sleep but when I was driving I realized this meant I wouldn’t get my McD’s breakfast cause it would be over by the time I could get to a location. This should have been a relief cause it meant I wouldn’t have to fight my natural urge to turn in to the drive thru but I started thinking I’d trade in the Breakfast Bagel for a cheeseburger and fries, *rolls eyes*, that’s even worse! In the end I didn’t go, I drove home and thought that would be the end of it…it wasn’t. The weather today is rainy, kinda grey, the perfect weather to sit on the couch with a book, a cup of tea or even better hot chocolate and food to snack on. Since I knew the fast food was not gonna happen I started thinking of what I had at home that I could eat and what I instinctively wanted was a big bowl of pasta in a creamy thick sauce. Yum! I realized I was craving all kinds of things that I can’t have in portions that are horrible, what’s up with that?? I had been doing so well!

I think I figured it out though, watch my simple detective skills at work! lol. When the weather is rainy and grey I always sit curled up nice and cozy with a hot drink and a snack and dinner would be a nice big bowl of pasta – and not healthy pasta, pasta like those Lipton Sidekicks packages, they are so yummy but so bad for you! Oh, and fyi, not like I was eating a small portion of the package so not only was I eating something unhealthy I was eating it in a huge portion. I got so used to doing that I now associate rainy grey weather with pasta. lol. How dumb is that? Linking a weather pattern to a food, *rolls eyes*. It is looking like I associate a lot of things I do with certain foods and certain quantities of those foods. This is obviously something I am going to have to break. I already knew I loved the act of eating, I have never been able to stick with a program that has you downing shakes instead of meals, shrug, I just like to eat too much for that. I didn’t realize tho that my love of eating had transferred itself so strongly to different activities, that is just plain weird.

I am going to have to look out for these situations to make sure I don’t cheat because of an activity. I keep racking my brain for other things I do that have food linked to them, so far the only thing I have come up with is going to a movie, I love getting the popcorn, some maltesers and a pop…it’s the perfect combo in my opinion. I was going to go to a movie today just to prove I could go and not eat those things but I think that’d be pushing things too quickly, it’s hard enough sitting here and not eating the pasta I so badly want.

Something else I will have to work on is my eating during the weekends, I started off ok yesterday (that was saturday) – I had my cereal and fruit for breakfast and was content. Thing is, I didn’t eat that until around noon , I went to a friends house and while there got hungry so I had a bit of yogurt but I wasn’t snack hungry I was hungry hungry. We went for dinner to this great place called Brown’s Social House, the site address is www.brownssocialhouse.com and let me tell you, picking food from that menu was hard! They have a great selection of things, I could have had salad, sushi, a burger, fish (all Ocean Wise fish btw), pad thai…anything! I really really really wanted the Hickory Burger, it’s got bacon, beef patty, bbq sauce and all the rest of a normal burgers toppings. It sounded awesome. I settled instead for the Spa Veggie Burger, it is not a fake meat patty but a patty made from mushroom and grains (if I remember correctly what the waitress said), it wasn’t as good as a meat burger but it was darn good. Great flavours, good texture…almost all the things you want in a burger. lol. I got them to cut it in half in the kitchen and wrap half to go before bringing me my food so I couldn’t eat the whole thing in one sitting. Since my points for this meal are going to be estimates I figured it was best to try to cut them where I could. 🙂 With my burger I got yam fries, now an entire yam is only 3 points so you’d think something made from yam wouldn’t be so bad for you but when you think about the process the yam goes thru to become a fry, well, they probably aren’t very good for you. I am going to have to google nutrional info for them since yam fries are not listed in my weight watchers food book. Maybe they are so bad for you they don’t even put them in the book? Oh, thats a scary thought! Ack! To top it off K ordered the Wicked Mushroom appetizer and let me have some, I am fairly certain any health benefit you could get from a mushroom was taken away by the sauce they were drenched in. lol. And we ordered (to split) the Three’s Company dessert, it has samplers of all three of their dessert items. The waitress did mention all the desserts are made in house so that should cut down on how bad they are because there are probably no preservatives in the dishes…not like those frozen pies etc you can buy. The three samples were of a chocolate pecan pie (heavenly!) a banana and chocolate sponge cake (holy crap good!) and key lime pie (it was alright). Combined from all three of the samplers I think I had what would amount to a full piece of a dessert so thats how I counted my points for that, it was totally worth it though, yum! 🙂 After that I was so full I didn’t eat the rest of the day and I know I didn’t get as much water in me as usual. I was so full I didn’t want anything, not even water, I did sip at a glass of it but couldn’t manage to really drink the stuff.

Today (sunday) I started off similarly, cereal and fruit for breakfast (that was around 11am), then when I got home from my errands I wanted to eat even though I shouldn’t have been hungry yet. I refused to let myself eat and had a really hard time figuring out when I was actually hungry. Seems my body associates hanging out at home with gorge fest and that’s all I have wanted to do since I got back here. sigh. I had the other half of that veggie burger, not like I am going to waste food, and a big serving of mixed veggies in the hopes of quieting the tummy. lol. I didn’t get full from the meal but I am learning the sensations I associate with being full are actually how I feel when I have over eaten, I don’t think I really know what it feels like to be full but not stuffed…I am learning though! So now it’s evening and I am hungry…again…I am gonna hafta eat and I know I have points left I just don’t know how many cause I haven’t tallied up my points from today yet. Hopefully I have enough left for something really filling.

Here is what I ate Saturday:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 nectarine = 1 point

tea = o points

1 yogurt = 1 point

1/2 veggie burger

-patty = 2 points

-bun = 3 points

-slice jack cheese = 3 points

yam fries = 7 points (I knew the points for these was gonna suck!)

dessert sampler = 6 points

So that is 26 points and I am only allowed 24…crap!

It could be worse I s’pose. Since I am allowed 35 flex points a week and I haven’t used any all week I guess using two is ok, I had hoped to not use any but it’s too late now. I will just have to be more careful this coming week…and on that note I am going to go find something to eat for dinner that won’t mess up my points for today!

Fiesta Friday!

26 Jun

Hola mi amigo!

Today was Fiesta Friday at work, it was supposed to be a team building thing *rolls eyes* but really it was an excuse to eat a lot of food, drink at work and goof off on a sunny friday. Normally I would have been thrilled for this but it seems a cruel world that during my first week trying to lose weight throws at me bday cake, mexican food, alcohol and invites for after work today for more mexican food and margaritas. It is totally patio season! Today was all sunny and warm, slight breeze but not enough to get your hair in your food and I could envision myself sitting out there with a nice big drink and some nachos. I felt that I would not have had enough willpower as of yet to resist ordering something horrendously bad for me at the restaurant so I didn’t go, sad for tonight but a small sacrifice to be made for my happiness in the future.  This whole looking at the big picture thing can kinda suck. 😛

I was concerned about what I would be eating today since I wouldn’t be able to acurately calculate my points but I don’t think I did too badly. shrug. I didn’t eat as much fruit as I have been used to and I found that I was unconsciously drinking more water. I don’t know if I was drinking more water because I wasn’t eating the fruit and my body wanted the hydration or if I am just a bit more used to drinking water now. I guess it doesn’t really matter why I was drinking more it’s just good that I was. AC, a friend at work, she brought in dessert for today (well, one of the desserts) and she is so awesome, she knows I am trying really hard on weight watchers so she brought in a Mexican Fruit Salad, it had cut up fruit (duh) and she used the actual juice from fruit instead of juice juice and there was a bit of rum in it and chili powder. I would never of thought to put chili powder in a fruit salad but it was really good. 🙂 I totally owe her because the other desserts were brownies, expensive boxes of chocolates and the candy in the pinata – none of which I could touch.

I took a nice big salad with me to work thinking that I would eat that with my taco thereby making me full and not tempted to go back for a second taco. Well, lunch ended up starting later then planned and I was going on an errand with S so we both scarfed down our tacos and bolted. By the time we got back I didn’t want the salad so I figured I’d bring it home and have it with my dinner or eat it tomorrow…great plan but it is still sitting in the fridge at work cause I totally forgot about it. sigh. Hopefully it’ll still be ok on monday! Mid afternoon I was getting peckish so I grabbed my cut up pineapple and nibbled on it, I had 1 cup of pineapple but only ate half at most so I brought that home too. Seems to be the day for bringing food home with me. lol.

So here is what I ate today:

1 light whole wheat bagel = 3 points

1 tbsp peanut butter = 2

tea = 0

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 taco = 6 points

-taco topped with ground beef, guacamole, sour cream, lettuce, tomatos, shreeded cheese

grilled veggies = 0

fruit salad = 0.5 points

1/2 cup pineapple = 0.5 points

whole wheat pasta = 5 points

1/4 cup Knorr’s Alfredo sauce = 2 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

That puts me at 20 points, 4 left over!

Not enough left over points for cookies and milk but that’s ok, I had that last night. 🙂 I will finish off my points with some fruit which is apparently becoming my “go to” food. lol. Who’d of ever thought that would happen? I may keep a couple points un-used just in case my calculations for the day are off and I used more then I realized. It’s so hard to guess what the points used are when you can’t measure. I made sure to be really sparing with the peanut butter, guac, sour cream and cheese but when those things are all combined who knows what number they add up to? I think this whole worrying about points thing will get old really fast, or I will become strangely obsessed and be one of those annoying people that talks about their food and points all the time…I realized yesterday I am talking about food and points way too much at work to my friends so I am trying to shut my yap about it. Just cause I am getting all absorbed in this doesn’t mean they want to hear about it. lol. I must remember that!

Zzzzzzzzz

25 Jun

I don’t know about you but by Thursday I am usually ready to crash. Like most people I don’t get a proper nights sleep on weeknights; if I can get to sleep I usually end up in bed late and then I have to get up early for work – aaaah, the wonders of our society. Wouldn’t it be great if you could just go to bed when you want and get up when you want and show up at work at a good time for you without the very high probability you’ll be fired? But since this will never happen I guess I will continue to work within the confines of the rules.  🙂

Not all healthy eating plans talk about sleep, some programs just assume you know how much sleep to get or maybe they just don’t think of it as a topic that should be brought up. shrug. Who knows. All I know is there are conflicting rules about sleep, just like with water. As with the water rule stating 6 to 8 glasses a day there are many reports that say you need 6 to 8 hours of sleep…it’s like a conspiracy, lol, what’s with these numbers? Who says we all need 6 to 8 hours anyways? Who are the elusive “they” we always quote? I know that if left to my own devices I can sleep way longer then 8 hours and be quite happy about it. 🙂 Sleep is easily one of my favourite activities, I think it ties in to my laziness. lol.

So, if I can sleep for 10 hours every night and feel good but feel sleep deprived on 8 hours wouldn’t the 6 to 8 hour rule be wrong for me? I don’t know, and since I am not a sleep doctor I don’t have an answer and am not going to go do a bunch of research to find the answer. I do know that by thursday evenings I am ready to drop and always end up going to bed earlier then normal happily savouring the experience of being cozy in my bed.

I know that not getting enough sleep can hamper your weight loss attempts; our bodies produce the hormone Leptin while we sleep. Leptin is the hormone that tells us when are full – it signals the brain to release hormones that suppress hunger. If you don’t get enough sleep other ways you can get Liptin in to your body is by eating fatty fish like salmon, mackerel or sardines – it’s ironic isn’t it that to help keep your weight down you eat fatty fish? lol. Did you also know that sleeping too much can hamper your weight loss attempts? This I didn’t know, I only started hearing it recently. Apparently sleeping too much messes up your hormones and you retain weight, what’s with that? Sleep too little don’t lose weight, sleep too much don’t lose weight. It seems we are all walking a fine line between too little and too much and I doubt most people are able to find that middle. So maybe that 6 to 8 hours is a good guide, like the water, a strong recommendation that you have to tweak to suit your body and lifestyle. I am learning that no matter what plan you are on to try to lose weight it will have to be tweaked to suit your body and your needs. Not everyone needs 8 glasses of water and not everyone will need 8 hours of sleep – some will work better on more, some on less, it’s all a matter of trying things out till you find what makes your body work it’s best.

Now, on to a little confession, I totally forgot to eat the rest of my points last night! Ack! So, I cheated, kinda, but in the reverse way I thought I would. lol. Who’d of thought the first time I cheat in this plan it’s by not eating enough?? I meant to eat my remaining 6 points, I even knew what I was going to eat! Two Maple Leaf cookies and 1 cup of 1% milk, I was so going to enjoy it and what happened? It went out of my mind and by the time I remembered it was 10:30pm and I was so not wanting food at that point. Meh, not much I can do about it now. For those of you who don’t know, weight watcher points are not transferable, if you don’t eat all your points on wednesday you can’t roll them over to thursday and eat extra that day, it’s not like your airtime minutes for your cell. If you don’t use them they are lost to you forever! Ok, little too dramatic there. lol.

Today I made sure I used all my points, before I got on the comp I got my milk and my two cookies and had them ready and waiting. It was nice, who doesn’t like the last thing they eat for the day to be a little treat? Mmm Mmm Mmm. 🙂

I didn’t cheat today, used all my points and am not full but not hungry which is a novel experience that I am still getting used to. After dinner last night I realized that I wasn’t hungry but neither did I have that overly full slightly icky feeling I normally have after eating. My portions were way out of control! I didn’t realize how out of control until I started measuring everything, omg, no wonder I got so big! When did I start thinking an entire pot of pasta with a creamy sauce was a dinner portion?? *rolls eyes* No more! I had some hungry times during the day but that was mostly because I was so busy at work I didn’t get my mid morning snack so my stomach was cranky, lol, it seems to be getting used to a schedule and varying it makes it pout…can stomachs pout? Hmm, maybe it’s more of a ‘rebel’, yeah, the growling unhappy noises is more like a rebellion then a pout, pouting is quieter. So, except for the minor rebellion where it started yelling at me the day went well. I was pretty hungry when I got home cause I worked OT so my dinner was late too…I’m sure my stomach thinks I am soooo mean, lol, what I ate was a weird mix of things cause I was getting rid of left overs. Little bit of this, little bit of that, whatever I could scrounge up to make a meal.

You may have noticed I eat things that most people probably wouldn’t think of eating when trying to lose weight, for instance the pasta. Well, weight watchers is supposed to let you eat anything you want as long as you fit it into your points. I could try to make it sound like I am really testing that out by eating non diet type foods but in reality I refuse to not eat the food I already have in the house from before I decided to do weight watchers. I am not getting rid of it or letting it just sit there taking up space and eventually going past it’s expiry date all to appease my desire to get thin and hot. shrug. So for now, I am eating weird combos of things and as my cupboards get cleared out I will bring in to the house healthier options…course, I will always have Kraft Dinner in the house, I would never give that up completely, just couldn’t do it. What I did do though was buy the microwavable kind cause then I just make one bowlful at a time instead of an entire box cause you know if I make that whole box I am gonna have a binge and eat most of it in one sitting…I know, disgusting, but I am sure you have some weird food thing that to others sounds disgusting. 😛 It’s weird though that everytime I did that I felt horrible afterwards, in every way, I felt bad physically – my stomach felt disgusting and hurt, I felt bad mentally – I’d totally beat myself up about it, I’d feel bad energy wise – my poor body would be putting so much work in to digesting I could do pretty much nothing but sit there…and yet, despite all these negative feelings I would have after binging on KD I still did it!! I’d convince myself that “this time I will just eat one bowl” and it never happened, even as I said that to myself I knew I was gonna eat way more. It’s like some weird self-punishment or something. shrug. Ah well, can’t do that now cause no way would all those points fit in to my day! lol.

My food today was:

3/4 cups Honey Nut Cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

tea = o points

1 banana = 2 points

1 salad = 0 points

1 hard boiled egg = 2 points

1 tbsp salad dressing = 1 point

2 triangles of cheese = 1 point

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 nectarine = 1 point

1/4 cup Maple flavoured baked beans = 1

1/4  cup+ 1/8 cup brocolli cheese pasta = 3

2 pieces of toast = 3 points

2 tsps margarine = 2 points

2 Maple cookies = 4 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

There are some notes to be made about some of the foods from today. The salad was from a place called The Salad Loop, here is the website for them http://www.saladloop.com They are this great place where you go around buffet style and pick whatever you want in your salad and the cost is based on weight. For a little over $6 I got lots of lettuce (some leaves didn’t look totally fresh but it didn’t kill me so whatev), some green and red peppers, corn, a hard boiled egg, mushrooms, a cherry tomato, cabbage and a small amount of salad dressing. Sure, I could have spent the same amount of money and gotten a burger fries and a drink but this is the sacrifice that must now be made, the same if not more money for food that doesn’t look nearly as yummy or filling. It wasn’t a bad tasting salad though, I wish I hadn’t missed the peas, those would have been nice to put on, and I didn’t notice the meat selections till too late either but now that I know how to better navigate the tables I am sure I will do better next time I go.

The triangles of cheese, yum! Those are The Laughing Cow brand of cheese, light of course.

yummy and so low in points!

I already had some just cause I love them and when I checked the points value I found out I can eat 2 wedges for only 1 point! Amazing! I used to only ever eat one wedge at a time because I thought it tasted so good it must be uber bad for me but now I know better. I have never had the regular, I just automatically bought the light and I think it rocks, it is also cheaper then the regular, I don’t know why but everytime I buy it it costs less, and not like it’s on sale, thats just the regular pricing. shrug. It’s fine with me! I would totally recommend them. 🙂 They helped make my salad not feel so insubstantial. I didn’t put it on the salad, they don’t cut very easily, but ate it on the side. I have also (at home) tried to cut it in to little pieces, I usually get blobs but then I put the blobs in to a hot bowl of soup, usually a spicy kind of soup, it’s a good combo cause it doesn’t really melt, it just becomes softer and it helps make the spicy not so spicy.

Tomorrow is Fiesta Friday at work, tacos here I come!!…with a nice big salad on the side…;)

Temptation Already? Oh dear…

24 Jun

Alrighty, so it is day three and despite the piece of bday cake placed before me at work I did not cheat! wOOt! 😀 One of the girls at work had her bday, duh, and so one of the other girls brought this huge wonderful looking cake. Home made, coconut dusted, buttercream icing, Mmm! She uses Splenda tho instead of sugar and when I learned Splenda has arsenic in it well, it made me not want to eat it. Not that I ate it before so it’s not like a big sacrifice or hardship to not include it in my food choices. And old roomie, she is henceforth dubbed R, used it and I am sorry but anything that fizzles and has some crazy way noticeable chemical reaction when you put it in your tea is just weird. *shudder*

I digress, so there was this cake, and even tho it was a splenda cake and not a sugar cake I normally would have eaten my piece and wished I could’ve had more, I mean hello? It’s cake! I kept myself very far away from the cake for a good chunk of the day in the hopes if I couldn’t see it I wouldn’t lust after it. I also had a part of my brain trying to find a way I could justify eating a slice; if there is one thing I can do it is find a way to make something that in unhealthy sound healthy. Here is an example; chocolate is good for you because it comes from a bean and beans are good for us. See? Easy! 🙂 What’s scary is I can easily make myself believe stuff like that, oy! So impressionable and easy to trick am I!

I digressed again, oops. So the cake, I avoided the cake thinking that was the easiest way to not cheat and then what happened? X (another girl at work) cut the cake into enough pieces for everyone and brought a piece to my desk, I was busy on the phone and didn’t notice so when I turned around there it was! It’s like it was stalking me! I wondered if it crawled it’s way over to me knowing I was the one person who didn’t want it – similar to how a cat sits on the lap of the one person in the room who doesn’t like cats – but someone mentioned X brought it so my paranoia went away. Once back on sane ground I put my slice of cake to the far reaches of my desk and then blocked my view of it with various tall items. For most of the rest of the day I was ok, didn’t even think about it…ok, that is a lie, I could smell the icing and kept thinking how I was hungry and one little slice wouldn’t kill me…that’s where this blog came in and saved me, phew, I didn’t want to have to explain/justify aka. make an excuse for why I ate it, I can’t believe the blog actually helped prevent me from eating a slice of cake. Go blog go! 🙂

I know on weight watchers you get what are called flex points, for anyone who doesn’t know those are extra points that are allotted to you on a weekly basis instead of daily so that you can fit those little treats into your eating plan. You don’t have to use them but you can if you need/want to. My mom uses hers every evening to fit in her night time glass of wine. I am trying my best to not use them, I think I will get faster results if I don’t indulge in those little extras which is one reason I didn’t want the cake. Another reason is that at work this coming Friday we are having “Fiesta Friday”  – I kid you not. It is s’posed to help with team building or something like that. *rolls eyes* We all have to bring in various ingredients (we picked from a list) and on Friday we will have a Mexican Lunch complete with a pinata…I wonder if they will actually allow us some kind of weapon to hit the pinata with, don’t know that I’d allow our group to vent our irritation with work matters like that! I can just see it now, candy flying everywhere while we all fight over the stick so we can beat up on something…mental health day anybody? So, because of Friday and my knowledge of the fact I am going to be surrounded by all kinds of wonderful foods (and alcohol!) I want to save my flex points to use them that day – if I do use them at all.

I checked in my weight watchers book and a fast food taco is 3 points, not bad actually. I figure since all our toppings are fresh and we are each making our own taco I will load mine with lots of veg and a smaller portion of meat and way small portion of sour cream etc. and it may not even be 3 points. I am still going to count it as 3 just in case tho. I also plan to take a salad with me and have that with my taco so I only eat the one. This should also leave room for a small sliver of whatever kind of dessert will be there, it is a suprise what it is so who knows how many points that’ll be!

Hmm, this post was supposed to be about water –  I didn’t realize I’d blab so long about the cake etc. Mmm cake…*shakes head* ok, enough of that!

Water…we all drink it, probably when we don’t even think we are drinking it since it’s in pretty much everything. We all know it is important to drink a certain amount of it although that amount seems to shift from 6 glasses to 8 glasses (per day) to whatever feels right, to a glass every 2 hours to drinking water whenever you feel hungry because you are more then likely dehydrated. So many different rules! It’s just water! I used to drink almost exclusively Diet Coke, tea, chai latte…um, I think that is pretty much it. There is water in all of those but they don’t really count as a glass of water each, too bad really. I have stopped drinking pop…well, on a daily basis, I still have some if I go to a movie, and I also stopped Chai Lattes (I got mine from Starbucks) because they are ridiculously high in points, 6 points for a grande!!! Thats practically a meal! I shall never give up tea, I was raised on the stuff, I will go to my grave crading a cup of it against my cold body. Since tea doesn’t have calories and I only put the tiniest amount of milk in it I figure this is ok. I realized though that if I get rid of my pop and my latte, where does that leave me? Only tea? Sure I love the stuff but there are limits…so water came in to my life. I was not happy to have it enter my life, it is boring, flat, tasteless, a big yawn really. I looked at it like medicine, I had to take it cause it’s good for me and will make me better…wait, that isn’t right, I wasn’t sick, there in was a problem. It’s easy to suffer through medicine when you know it’s only something you have to swallow for a week or two but this water thing is now for life? Oh geez, the thought is enough to make me want to quit and dive in to a swimming pool of diet coke with chai lattes spaced all around the edge so I can grab one easily. But ok, gotta suck it up, just make the change and maybe it won’t be so bad…right? Well, kinda. I used to chug a glass of water right before bed every night not realizing unti I was drinking it how thirsty I was – I am fairly certain that screams of “dehydrated!”, the past two nights I have about 1/3 of the glass and am perfectly fine. Throughout my day at work I set little goals, one glass of water every two hours. The first day I didn’t make it, lol, I think I got one glass within my first 4 hours at work and half a glass over the rest of the day, pretty pathetic really. And no, once I get home I don’t drink water so any hope of reaching my 6-8 glasses per day rests at the work place. Yesterday wasn’t as hard and today I drank about 4 glasses, practically a record! I know it isn’t my 6-8 but maybe drinking that much water is something that has to be worked up to, a gradual thing. I mean, if I chugged 8 glasses of water today I’d probably feel like I was floating, be peeing every 20 minutes and feel bloated. This way, by the time I get to 8 glasses of water I will be used to drinking larger quantities of the stuff and my body will be happy for the top up instead of feeling abused. That logic sound good to anybody else?

Also, we shouldn’t forget all the water our bodies absorb from our food. Our intestines are wonderful icky things, they suck everything possible out of everything we let pass through them – including water. If you noticed how much fruit I am eating now, and veggies, all those contain a large amount of water so not only am I drinking the stuff I am eating it too! It’s a good way to trick yourself into getting more  water throughout the day, just eat it. 🙂

Here is my food list for the day:

3/4 cup Honey Nut Cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

tea = 0 points

1 cup green grapes = 1 point

1 nectarine = 1 point

1 orange = 1 point

1/2 cup broccoli and cheese pasta = 4 points

1 salad = o points

1 tbls salad dressing = 1 point

1 cup Maple Baked Beans = 4 points

1 piece Safeway sandwich bread = 2 points

tea = 0 points

Total used today = 19 <— you might think this is good, being under your points, but in weight watchers is isn’t good, the points are an indication of how much fat, calories and fibre you are getting and being lower then your allotted points means your not eating enough and your body may go in to starvation mode. sigh. I still have 6 points and am not hungry (miracle!) and it’s late and I don’t feel like eating so I will eat something small but high in points like a cookie or two and 1/2 cup of 1% milk to use up those points quickly.

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