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aaaand the self esteem plummets

17 Mar

Guys suck, throw rocks at ’em. Some days that quote is just perfect.

It’s been a crappy week – work stuff, acting stuff, pmsing like crazy – I’m surprised I haven’t beaten someone…or eaten an entire tub of nutella (which let me tell ya, still a possibility!)

Today is St. Patrick’s Day (duh!) so a day of fun and green. 😀

Every year McDonald’s for this one day only makes a Shamrock Shake – a mint green milkshake! YUM! I decided that since the milkshake is only made one day out of the year it would be ok for me to get one (size small of course) so some friends at work and I went at lunch time. So no biggy right? One small milkshake isn’t gonna kill me or anything but when I was standing at a friend’s desk waiting for her to get her coat on one of the guys heard where we were going, looked right at me and in front of the entire frickin office said nice n loud “you’re getting a milkshake? aren’t you supposed to be on a diet?”. That might seem like not so bad of a question but it was the tone he said it in…totally made me feel like I am 1000 lbs and shouldn’t ever even think about getting a milkshake let alone actually drinking it. 😦  And to make it worse the entire office went silent and stared at him then at me with looks on their faces like “wtf??”

My first instinct was to go over and punch him, which would’ve gotten me fired, sigh, so instead I walked off in the other direction. I ended up kicking a wall and thank goodness my boot protected my foot!

If it hadn’t been for my friends telling me to ignore him and to still go to McD’s I so would have just gone and sat down and eaten my soup. I hate that something stupid someone said could make me feel so down about my weight. The whole rest of the day I just kept thinking all kinds of negative things about my weight. grr. No one should have that kind of power over someone else and yet…obviously heartless stupid comments do have a strong impact on me, as evidenced by today.

So it’s yet one more crappy day – this week blows. I can’t wait for it to be over, although, I am terrified for weigh in day. eek. This week I have eaten pizza, dessert breadsticks and a milkshake…not good! Too many cheats in one week. I’ve gotta tighten up the reins and be more careful or I’ll lose ground – and that would suck even more then mean comments from stupid guys at work!

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2 Responses to “aaaand the self esteem plummets”

  1. VeeEmm March 17, 2011 at 6:37 pm #

    What a jerk that guy is! You should have brought the shake back to the office and poured it over him – though that maybe have got you fired – so I guess kicking the wall was better. Anyway, you’re not on a diet, you are eating healthy, so dump some fake puppy poop on his chair when he isn’t looking, and see if he recognizes himself!

    • shrinkingwmn March 18, 2011 at 8:43 pm #

      lmao! 🙂 I have to remind myself it’s not a diet it’s a lifestyle change/healthy living kinda thing but that can be hard. And even if I am doing well I know I am still overweight and it sucks to have someone say something that reminds me that is how other people see me. Ah well, that day is over and I am not going to let the jerkwad’s comment affect me any longer. The wekeend is here so I can pretend for 2 whole days he doesn’t exist, yah! 🙂

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