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Oh No You Didn’t!

18 Mar

Oh yes, yes I did! bwahahahahaha! 😛

Happy late St. Paddy’s Day everyone. 😀

What did you do over the weekend to celebrate? Did you drink green beer? Wear something dorky on your head? Pretend you are more Irish than you actually are?

I was working, as I am every weekend, so I didn’t go out and get drunk on green beer but I did wear a green dorky shamrock thing on my head. I meant to get a picture but it was such a busy work day the thought flew right out of my head. Ah well, there are enough dorky pictures of me in the world, another one isn’t really needed lol

How I celebrate St. Patrick’s Day is much more low key, and much more high calorie 😛 I went to McDonald’s and got a Shamrock Shake and oh man was it goooooood!

Oh McD's how I miss you!

Oh McD’s how I miss you!

Look how green and minty and yummy!

Look how green and minty and yummy!

 

Oh and look, I found a pic from last year where I was wearing the same dorky green thing on my head…

I never look good in selfies lol

I never look good in selfies lol

So there ya have it, proof that I went and got fast food that wasn’t Subway, and here I am saying that will not be happening again until next St. Patrick’s Day…it’s gonna be a loooooong year! lol

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aaaand the self esteem plummets

17 Mar

Guys suck, throw rocks at ’em. Some days that quote is just perfect.

It’s been a crappy week – work stuff, acting stuff, pmsing like crazy – I’m surprised I haven’t beaten someone…or eaten an entire tub of nutella (which let me tell ya, still a possibility!)

Today is St. Patrick’s Day (duh!) so a day of fun and green. 😀

Every year McDonald’s for this one day only makes a Shamrock Shake – a mint green milkshake! YUM! I decided that since the milkshake is only made one day out of the year it would be ok for me to get one (size small of course) so some friends at work and I went at lunch time. So no biggy right? One small milkshake isn’t gonna kill me or anything but when I was standing at a friend’s desk waiting for her to get her coat on one of the guys heard where we were going, looked right at me and in front of the entire frickin office said nice n loud “you’re getting a milkshake? aren’t you supposed to be on a diet?”. That might seem like not so bad of a question but it was the tone he said it in…totally made me feel like I am 1000 lbs and shouldn’t ever even think about getting a milkshake let alone actually drinking it. 😦  And to make it worse the entire office went silent and stared at him then at me with looks on their faces like “wtf??”

My first instinct was to go over and punch him, which would’ve gotten me fired, sigh, so instead I walked off in the other direction. I ended up kicking a wall and thank goodness my boot protected my foot!

If it hadn’t been for my friends telling me to ignore him and to still go to McD’s I so would have just gone and sat down and eaten my soup. I hate that something stupid someone said could make me feel so down about my weight. The whole rest of the day I just kept thinking all kinds of negative things about my weight. grr. No one should have that kind of power over someone else and yet…obviously heartless stupid comments do have a strong impact on me, as evidenced by today.

So it’s yet one more crappy day – this week blows. I can’t wait for it to be over, although, I am terrified for weigh in day. eek. This week I have eaten pizza, dessert breadsticks and a milkshake…not good! Too many cheats in one week. I’ve gotta tighten up the reins and be more careful or I’ll lose ground – and that would suck even more then mean comments from stupid guys at work!

Epic!

20 Nov

Yesterday was an Epic day – in all ways! 😀 😀

It started off with breakfast with KL at the Crepe Cafe, a restaurant that does not provide any nutritional information, grr to that! lol. Restaurants not providing nutritional information has become quite a pet peeve of mine, sigh. So I went online today and googled nutritional information for some of the items in my breakfast so I could at least get an approximation of what I ate. I had eggs benedict with hash browns, yum! And yes I know, point wise it was a bit of a nightmare. lol. The eggs and english muffin I was able to calculate but the hollandaise sauce and back bacon I had to look up. Gotta love the internet!

On www.caloriegallery.com I found that for 1.37 ml of hollandaise sauce the points are 6. Now, I have no real concept of what 1.37 ml is…is that a serving? Half a serving? I dunno…so I am couting 6 points for the sauce. Although, the sauce is not classic hollandaise sauce, I know this cause of how it tasted and the texture. It seemed more whipped, lighter, thinner…and to be honest, didn’t taste all that great. It wasn’t not good tasting it just wasn’t the right flavour for the sauce, ya know? It burns my ass a bit that I wasted points on something that doesn’t taste all that good but oh well, it’s done with now. shrug. If I remember I will look at a package of the sauce at the grocery store tomorrow and check out the nutritional info, see if that varies from the website, also, I’ll have a better understanding of the measurement of the serving on the packaging so that should help me to understand better. 🙂

The hash browns, sigh, I ended up using the nutritional information from a restaurant called Perkins Restaurant…I have never heard of them but I am going to assume that most restaurants make their hash browns in a similar manner and serve similar portions…cross your fingers I am right! lol. Nutritional calculator put the hash browns at 2 points per serving, so it could be worse. Oh, and the back bacon, for 3 slices it is 1 point (that is Maple Leaf brand btw), there were 2 slices on each benny but I didn’t eat it all so I figure I maybe ate in total 3 pieces of the bacon but prob not. Either way, it’s only 1 point so that’s fine.

In total, that breakfast cost me 16 points which is absolutely ridiculous! It was a special day though so I am gonna just let it go and forget about it. 🙂

The reason it was a special day? Harry Potter came out!!!! 😀 😀 😀 That was why KL and I met up for breakfast, we went to the 11:15 am showing of Harry Potter and thought we’d eat first. That movie, epic! I won’t say anything specific about it cause I don’t want to spoil it for anyone but let me just say – you should see it! There you go, I will leave you alone now. lol

After the movie KL and I went shopping, her bday was this past wednesday and friday night was gonna be her party so we had to find her something to wear! She already had an outfit but wanted to see if she could find something better. shrug. Makes sense to me. 🙂 I already had an outfit picked out too but she somehow ended up convincing me to buy this dress we came accross and made me promise to wear it to the bar. Now, here’s the thing, I don’t wear dresses, not my thing. I mean, if I absolutely have to I can wear a dress but I don’t. lol. Dressing up for me is wearing nice pants and a well, a nice top. lol. Pair it with some jewellry and voila I am done. I wasn’t allowed to get away with that this time. The dress is kinda simple, it has an empire waist (which is good cause it helps hide my tummy and the full width of my hips!) and it shows off my breasts quite nicely. teehee. Hey, if you got it flaunt it! It has no sleeves so I worried I’d freeze but ah well, sacrifices must be made for fashion. *rolls eyes*. I have been engaged in an epic search for a pair of rockin boots, still looking btw, sigh, if I had found a pair I would have worn them with the dress but instead I wore black tights and black flats. I was pleasantly surprised how good I looked, the 18 lbs lost was totally noticeable in that outfit…and in how I felt in that outift. 😀

Oh, so back to the epic day, after the shopping we each went home, groomed, I scarfed down a salad and some toast, then out to party town I went. I hadn’t decided how much I was gonna drink…it’s a hard decision to make. I was factoring in calories, parking, public transit, temperature, possible hangover, all kinds of things but the deciding factor that actually made my decision for me? I left my place and walked in to a snow storm…well, storm is an exageration but it was snowing and boom! decision made! No way in hell would I be taking public transit, at night, in the cold windy snow falling weather to get to the bar and then repeating that but later at night when it is going to be even colder to get home…not in that outfit! Nuh-uh! So, I drove downtown, got a wicked great parking spot, had one or two drinks right at the very beginning of the night to toast my friend’s bday and then chugged water the rest of the night and danced the night away. I love dancing. 🙂 It’s a good thing that’s how it went down too cause by the end of the night KL was sick, everyone was so amazing plastered, and they all missed the last seabus back to the north shore so they’d of had to spend a fortune to get a cab so I did the dd thing and gave em all a ride home. Didn’t get home till about 3:30am which meant I slept in even later then normal today but I figure that’s better then all of them having to find a way home when they were that drunk. shrug.

All in all, yesterday, like I have said, was Epic. A totally awesome day from beginning to end!

Today…not so awesome. I slept so late that when I woke up I felt sick…weird, huh? If I didn’t know how much I actually drank I’d think I was hungover but I can’t be, sigh, so I am not sure exactly what is wrong. shrug. I have a headache, am tired, felt so incredibly sick to my stomach earlier, ugh, not pleasant. I guess such an Epic day should be followed by a crappy day – the universe has to balance itself out right? lol. I finally managed to be able to eat and for the day am sitting at 16 points total, I am not gonna be able to get any higher cause (1) it’s 11:30pm and when this is done I am gonna go to bed and (2) tummy is still anti food and just couldn’t handle more. Oh, and for all it’s unhappiness I kept wanting to get McDonald’s today, lol, I think cause when I am hung over I would eat either kraft dinner or McDonald’s, I don’t have any KD in the house and McD’s is really close so my brain kept wandering to McD’s, lol, but I decided no cause I don’t feel well and I wouldn’t enjoy it as much as I would if I was eating it when I felt fine and well, I didn’t want to go driving in the snow just for a big mac lol. So then my brain clicked over at one point to timbits from Tim Horton’s, sigh, and yum. lol. I was contemplating going to Timmy’s and getting 5 timbits cause that would use the rest of my points for the day and I could just sit and vegg while gorging on them but that went out the window cause I didn’t know when they closed and couldn’t find store hours online, if I got all the way there and they were closed I’d have a fit! lol, also, it seemed a stupid way to eat my points and it was just too much effort for my poor headachy body. shrug. So I made some tea and had a weight watcher wrap with some light peanut butter and nutella in it, yum! It fixed my craving for sweet and was easier and cheaper to do. Yah!

I am sure tomorrow will be a more normal day, no recovering or partying or anything, which I think I am looking forward to. But, one more thing before I go…

WEIGH IN DAY!! I wasn’t gonna weigh myself today, what with the crazy day of yesterday but I decided to give it a go and this past week I lost…1 pound! Yah! That means I am at 19 pounds total! 😀 😀 😀 I think 1 pound is great since the whole week I felt off and diconnected to my food choices. I can’t wait to be able to say I lost 20 pounds, hopefully that will be next saturday!

Can tonight just not end…please?

6 Aug

Tomorrow is weigh in day; the first real one since vacation happened. I don’t want it to happen…I am…scared. sigh. Scared of a stupid scale, it seems so pathetic and yet, here I am, scared of the little digital monster! I don’t want to see that the number has gone up, I have this recurring image of the number on the scale being larger then when this whole journey started. Oh my.

oh the fear this is me!

I haven’t cheated since I have been back – so 2 days of perfection! I had two days of travel where I was not great but not perfect – 1 day under 1 day I am not sure about (cuz of those oh so yummy hash browns, Mmm). Then there were my last 3 vacation days – 1 of which had McD’s, and 2 of which had food festivals and fast food from a fair ground. See why I am scared??

I will keep this short cause no one wants to read about my neurosis, lol, so – today I ate:

3/4 cup Almond Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 cup Carrot and Corriander with Lemon soup = 2 points

1/2 cup Sidekicks Broccoli and Cheese Rice = 3 points

mixed peppers, carrots, snap peas = 0 points

1.5 cup strawberries = 1 point

1 grilled cheese sandwich

    – 2 pieces of bread = 2 points

    – 2 Kraft cheese slices = 2 points

    – 2 slices turkey bacon = 2 points

    – 1 tblsp Light Miracle Whip = 1 point

1 cup Carrot and Corriander with Lemon soup = 2 points

This means so far I have eaten 20 points, so I still get a 3 point snack! 😀 I have no idea what I am gonna snack on but rest assured I will find something! lol.

Wish me luck for tomorrow!

Oh the horrors of dieting while on vacation!

3 Aug

Alrighty, well, I have really screwed up, sigh. It’s like I just gave up completely at some point because the food options were getting worse and worse and I just couldn’t seem to control anything! I don’t mean I couldn’t control if I put the food in my mouth or not, I mean I couldn’t control where I was going to be eating and when…which lead to a lot of “oh dear” moments. lol. The absolute most horrible-est part is…I stopped carrying around my notebook I keep track of all my food in!!! I am not even sure where it is, gasp, gulp, ack!

I will dig the notebook out and start keeping track again but I am quite upset with myself that I went so far off course; not gonna meet my goals if I fall so harshly off the wagon just cause vacation pops up! grr to me. 😦

Let’s work backwards from today since I think that will be easier, and well, today wasn’t so bad actually. lol.

Tuesday Aug 3rd

1 breakfast wrap

    – 1 wrap = 2 points

    – 1 scrambled egg = 2 points

    – 1 tbsp spinach cream cheese = 1 point

    – uber small bit of marble cheese = 0.5 point

2 egg salad sandwiches = 5 points

    – I can’t say for sure what was in them (quantities anyways) cause my mom made them but she also does weight watchers and she said she calculated them at 5 points for both so let’s just believe her shall we?

carrots and green peas = 0 points

1 med iced capp from Tim Horton’s (milk not cream) = 3 points

5 timbits (I know! I know!) = 5 points

1 orange = 1 point

1 weight watchers snack = 2 points

That is a total of 21.5 points for the day; it is going to stay at that total cause it’s late and I am sitting in my hotel room thinking about going to sleep. Oh yeah, so I am on my way back home after my vacation…I forgot to mention that. lol.

Yesterday, what did I eat yesterday? Oh god! I remember! K, brace yourself…I had McDonald’s. Go ahead, you can holler “you did what?!?!” at me…I will hang my head in shame while you vent. sigh. I started off not too badly, I got a Booster Juice (tried a new flavour and was not so impressed, ah well, that’s what happens when you try something new) but then I was out with J and J and one of the J’s is preggers and was craving McDonald’s so we ended up going through the drive in and I caved. double sigh. I got a Quarter Pounder with Cheese, fries and coke. I ate the burger and fries and OMG it was so freakin good! but only sipped at the pop, I haven’t had anything to drink except water and tea (and while on vacation booster juice) and I didn’t want to stop that. I guess I should think of that as a nice little victory. lol. I wasn’t going to eat dinner since I ate McD’s but my mom had this tofu and brown rice bowl, I think the brand name was Amy’s? It was fairly good. I am going to look for it at the grocery store when I get home; it was only 5 points and a really good meal size. 🙂

The two days before that, Saturday and Sunday, were spent at two different outdoor festivals, Heritage Days and Capital Ex (formerly Klondike Days). Heritage Days is the best! It’s 3 days of food from all different countries. Yum! There are booths set up all over a huge park, you buy tickets and then the different dishes are worth different amounts of tickets. The food at each booth is s’posed to be authentic food from that country. It works great each year. 😀 Capital Ex was better when it was Klondike Days but oh well, things change I guess. shrug. It is tradition for me to eat a foot long corn dog at Capital Ex and I didn’t break tradition this year. lol. I knew I had already eaten an uncountable amount of points while at Heritage Days that day but whatever! I only get one corn dog a year and I wasn’t going to miss out! I also ended up eating about 10 mini donuts and a crepe with nutella and strawberries in it. By that point I was missing fruit and veggies so much the strawberries were my fave part! lol

When looking at the big picture I seem to have had a low point over the weekend, I am getting better (at least today was better) and the farther back I go the less worse I was. lol.

July 30th I had booster juice again, that time I had the drink and a panini (bbq chicken! yum!) and I helped H move. I figured all the moving burned enough calories that I didn’t have to feel guily about eating dinner out with M. lol. We ate at a restaurant near her work that was good – I wish I could remember the name, I think it’s High Level Diner but the name doesn’t match the restaurant…Anyways, I had shredded lettuce with refried beans, a corn tortilla, lots veggies on top (mostly tomatoe), some shredded cheese, sour cream, guacamole, um…there might have been more but that’s all I remember. lol. It was good, I wouldn’t get it again but not cause it wasn’t tasty. 😛

July 29th I went to Drumheller with my oldest nephew R cause he’s totally in to dinosaurs and wanted to go. He knows a sucker when he meets one and he is well aware that all he has to do is ask and I will probably say yes to what he wants. lol. Not a good practice but hey, I only see him twice a year! We did a 1km hike through the badlands during the high heat of summer…talk about burning calories! lol. I started off with my normal breakfast, weetabix and fruit, but at the museum had a bacon cheeseburger and some fries, during the drive I also ate 2 cups of grapes. It was an odd combo of healthy and not healthy. shrug. I think I also had a guiness that evening but I am really not sure anymore…the farther back the days the harder it is to remember…oh the suckiness of being old! teehee

And there we go, all caught up! Phew! I will be on the road for part of tomorrow but should be home in time to do some grocery shopping for Healthy food and back on track I will get! 😀

Psychology say what???

28 Jun

So I am learning that there is a psychological component to this losing weight thing. Today has been really hard and not because I am hungry but because I want to eat; the eating wouldn’t be serving any purpose except to let me indulge in my food cravings so I am trying really hard to not cave but oh I want to!

I drove my roomie to the ferry, originally she was getting an early morning ferry so I immediately thought “sweet! after I drop her off I will pick up McDonald’s breakfast”. See, I love McD’s and almost never get the breakfast cause weekdays even though I am up early I am not going to detour to a McD’s on my way to work and on weekends I sleep in too late. shrug. Not a huge deal, it just makes it more of a treat when I get it. 🙂 So I have it set in my head that certain activities create the opportunity for McD’s breakfast and I jump at those chances; these opportunities are road trips, early morning errands – things like that. When I got home last night R informed me that she was going to take a slightly later ferry, no biggy, it was actually better for me cause it meant I would have more time to sleep but when I was driving I realized this meant I wouldn’t get my McD’s breakfast cause it would be over by the time I could get to a location. This should have been a relief cause it meant I wouldn’t have to fight my natural urge to turn in to the drive thru but I started thinking I’d trade in the Breakfast Bagel for a cheeseburger and fries, *rolls eyes*, that’s even worse! In the end I didn’t go, I drove home and thought that would be the end of it…it wasn’t. The weather today is rainy, kinda grey, the perfect weather to sit on the couch with a book, a cup of tea or even better hot chocolate and food to snack on. Since I knew the fast food was not gonna happen I started thinking of what I had at home that I could eat and what I instinctively wanted was a big bowl of pasta in a creamy thick sauce. Yum! I realized I was craving all kinds of things that I can’t have in portions that are horrible, what’s up with that?? I had been doing so well!

I think I figured it out though, watch my simple detective skills at work! lol. When the weather is rainy and grey I always sit curled up nice and cozy with a hot drink and a snack and dinner would be a nice big bowl of pasta – and not healthy pasta, pasta like those Lipton Sidekicks packages, they are so yummy but so bad for you! Oh, and fyi, not like I was eating a small portion of the package so not only was I eating something unhealthy I was eating it in a huge portion. I got so used to doing that I now associate rainy grey weather with pasta. lol. How dumb is that? Linking a weather pattern to a food, *rolls eyes*. It is looking like I associate a lot of things I do with certain foods and certain quantities of those foods. This is obviously something I am going to have to break. I already knew I loved the act of eating, I have never been able to stick with a program that has you downing shakes instead of meals, shrug, I just like to eat too much for that. I didn’t realize tho that my love of eating had transferred itself so strongly to different activities, that is just plain weird.

I am going to have to look out for these situations to make sure I don’t cheat because of an activity. I keep racking my brain for other things I do that have food linked to them, so far the only thing I have come up with is going to a movie, I love getting the popcorn, some maltesers and a pop…it’s the perfect combo in my opinion. I was going to go to a movie today just to prove I could go and not eat those things but I think that’d be pushing things too quickly, it’s hard enough sitting here and not eating the pasta I so badly want.

Something else I will have to work on is my eating during the weekends, I started off ok yesterday (that was saturday) – I had my cereal and fruit for breakfast and was content. Thing is, I didn’t eat that until around noon , I went to a friends house and while there got hungry so I had a bit of yogurt but I wasn’t snack hungry I was hungry hungry. We went for dinner to this great place called Brown’s Social House, the site address is www.brownssocialhouse.com and let me tell you, picking food from that menu was hard! They have a great selection of things, I could have had salad, sushi, a burger, fish (all Ocean Wise fish btw), pad thai…anything! I really really really wanted the Hickory Burger, it’s got bacon, beef patty, bbq sauce and all the rest of a normal burgers toppings. It sounded awesome. I settled instead for the Spa Veggie Burger, it is not a fake meat patty but a patty made from mushroom and grains (if I remember correctly what the waitress said), it wasn’t as good as a meat burger but it was darn good. Great flavours, good texture…almost all the things you want in a burger. lol. I got them to cut it in half in the kitchen and wrap half to go before bringing me my food so I couldn’t eat the whole thing in one sitting. Since my points for this meal are going to be estimates I figured it was best to try to cut them where I could. 🙂 With my burger I got yam fries, now an entire yam is only 3 points so you’d think something made from yam wouldn’t be so bad for you but when you think about the process the yam goes thru to become a fry, well, they probably aren’t very good for you. I am going to have to google nutrional info for them since yam fries are not listed in my weight watchers food book. Maybe they are so bad for you they don’t even put them in the book? Oh, thats a scary thought! Ack! To top it off K ordered the Wicked Mushroom appetizer and let me have some, I am fairly certain any health benefit you could get from a mushroom was taken away by the sauce they were drenched in. lol. And we ordered (to split) the Three’s Company dessert, it has samplers of all three of their dessert items. The waitress did mention all the desserts are made in house so that should cut down on how bad they are because there are probably no preservatives in the dishes…not like those frozen pies etc you can buy. The three samples were of a chocolate pecan pie (heavenly!) a banana and chocolate sponge cake (holy crap good!) and key lime pie (it was alright). Combined from all three of the samplers I think I had what would amount to a full piece of a dessert so thats how I counted my points for that, it was totally worth it though, yum! 🙂 After that I was so full I didn’t eat the rest of the day and I know I didn’t get as much water in me as usual. I was so full I didn’t want anything, not even water, I did sip at a glass of it but couldn’t manage to really drink the stuff.

Today (sunday) I started off similarly, cereal and fruit for breakfast (that was around 11am), then when I got home from my errands I wanted to eat even though I shouldn’t have been hungry yet. I refused to let myself eat and had a really hard time figuring out when I was actually hungry. Seems my body associates hanging out at home with gorge fest and that’s all I have wanted to do since I got back here. sigh. I had the other half of that veggie burger, not like I am going to waste food, and a big serving of mixed veggies in the hopes of quieting the tummy. lol. I didn’t get full from the meal but I am learning the sensations I associate with being full are actually how I feel when I have over eaten, I don’t think I really know what it feels like to be full but not stuffed…I am learning though! So now it’s evening and I am hungry…again…I am gonna hafta eat and I know I have points left I just don’t know how many cause I haven’t tallied up my points from today yet. Hopefully I have enough left for something really filling.

Here is what I ate Saturday:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 nectarine = 1 point

tea = o points

1 yogurt = 1 point

1/2 veggie burger

-patty = 2 points

-bun = 3 points

-slice jack cheese = 3 points

yam fries = 7 points (I knew the points for these was gonna suck!)

dessert sampler = 6 points

So that is 26 points and I am only allowed 24…crap!

It could be worse I s’pose. Since I am allowed 35 flex points a week and I haven’t used any all week I guess using two is ok, I had hoped to not use any but it’s too late now. I will just have to be more careful this coming week…and on that note I am going to go find something to eat for dinner that won’t mess up my points for today!

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