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Weird Vibes

16 May

So word got out at work about my being laid off – talk about awkward! Nobody said anything directly to me, they just kept looking at me with pity and almost saying something then stopping themselves – annoying! That was worse then people coming up to me and saying stuff. sigh.

The only one who did anything was AB who commiserated with me for a bit then emailed me two links to some really great job listing boards – now that’s way better then a weird smile! 😀 I’ve scoped the boards out and already found about 5 jobs to apply for, yah! None of them are a dream job or anything but they are all jobs I should have the qualifications for and might at least have a chance to get…

I was starving all day today! All Day!! I knew it wasn’t real hunger, it was psychological, but that doesn’t make it any less hard to deal with. I had properly spaced out meals and snacks and they were all normal sizes and healthy which helped me to not cave and eat more then I should but oh geez was it hard! I kept wanting to go get a bagel, or a bowl of cereal, or go buy a scone – something…anything! I knew in my head it was stress hunger, not real hunger but I sure wish I could have convinced my stomach of that. Luckily I had some mini cucumbers with me so I ate those for an afternoon snack but if I hadn’t had those I think for sure I’d of caved. *shakes head* Hell, it’s almost 9:15pm right now and I am starving all over again even though I have eaten all my points and had a crazy huge dinner. I hate stress hunger. sigh.

Today I ate:

1 raspberry turnover cookie = 2 points

1 Hearty Medley’s = 2 points

1 apple = 1 point

1 Campbell’s Spicy fiesta black bean and veggie soup = 4 points

1/2 bagel = 1.5 points

2 mini cucumbers = 0 points

1 cup brown rice = 4 points

mixed cooked veggies = 0 points

1 light hot dog wiener = 1 point

cashews = 1 point

2 raspberry turnover cookies = 4 points

Total points eaten = 20.5

Ok, so I went over by 0.5, so shoot me. 😛 lol. The kitchen at work ran out of bread so my only option, literally Only option, was half a bagel. Maybe I shouldn’t of had any bread but how could I not put some form of bread with my soup – it’s just un-natural to eat only soup. lol. That and I really wanted some carbs. 😛

You may be wondering what is with the raspberry turnover cookies – they are such amazingly good cookies, Mmm! I bought them at walmart cause they were only $2 for a package and I was weak. shrug. They are 2 points each though so I have to be careful when I eat them and how many I eat at a time. Sooooo, one this morning before I left the house, and then cause I had stir fry for dinner and it’s so low in points I got to have 2 this evening for my night time snack. They were delish, and I don’t regret eating them but I am feeling so hungry that I wish I’d had something more filling for my last 4 points…altho, really, anything I would have eaten would have been about the same level of filling so I’d still be hungry…which sucks.

I wonder if working on my resume, thereby increasing my chances of getting a job, will decrease my stress and help my stomach to not feel hungry all the time? I think I will test this theory and go work on my resume…not fun, but productive and I guess that’s good…

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