I was supposed to go out for lunch today…I was supposed to go out for lunch yesterday too and while I did go yesterday I went to the Salad Loop instead of the planned Vietnamese restaurant because a vicious little voice in my head started harping at me about points, and tracking, and cheating and how I have eaten poorly for 2 weekends in a row and don’t deserve a treat-lunch. *rolls eyes* Stupid evil voice – but I’m also kinda grateful for it since it saved me who knows how many points.
Total digression there, sorry! Ok, so lunch today, I was supposed to go to this new street vendor that has Halal Free Range meat and vegetarian gravy. I am not concerned with vegetarian, free range or Halal criteria but others in my office are and the discovery of this cart was a happy thing for them. I was going to go, I told them yesterday I would, but today I just couldn’t do it. The menu is limited, there is Philly Cheese Steak (with beef or chicken), something else smothered in cheese or a rice box that has chicken, rice and something else I can’t remember – lol, pretty bad memory happenin tonight but I figure it’s cause I didn’t actually go to the cart, shrug.
There were no easy to calculate points food items on that menu and the only thing remotely healthy looking was the rice box but I remember when I read what was in it I realized looks are deceiving and it wouldn’t actually be good for me…so instead of caving…I resisted! Yes, that’s right, all applause welcome, *takes a bow* I actually called up my willpower and resisted! *happy dance*
I lost faith in my willpower a while ago – it’s not that my willpower is failing me it’s that I am failing my willpower – I have been indulging in lots of things I shouldn’t have been and instead of listening to the voice in my head that says “don’t eat that moron!” I convinced myself it was ok “just this one time!” and smoosh! there goes my willpower smashed under the heel of my boot.
Poor willpower. 😦
I am working on rebuilding my ear canals so they hear my willpower voice and today was a nice change – me obeying the willpower instead of ignoring it. 🙂
Oh! This evening I listened to it again! It’s amazing – twice in one day! 😀 I was still really hungry after dinner and I was going to eat my Mr Big chocolate bar…yeah I know, I shouldn’t have bought it but I did so no point in regretting it…eating the chocolate bar would have put me 1 point over and I was all “it’s only 1 point, who cares about 1 stupid point?” then that voice started nattering. It pointed out that I went over by 1 point yesterday, there are healthier snacks that will not put me over by a point, I have done nothing remotely close to exercise today so haven’t earned any kind of treat…and well, it went on but it started getting rude and I am not comfie repeating what it said in polite company. 😉 lol
Instead of the chocolate bar, which I have now had to hide so I don’t grab it and chow down, oy, I had a bowl of Special K and 2 pieces of BodyWise bread toast with 1/2 tbls light peanut butter spread on top. Huh, I just realized I was like one of those Special K ads…weird. 😛
So 2 wins for willpower, 2 epic losses for…um…for food? That’s not right…and it wasn’t cravings…um, 2 epic losses for bad food choices! Yeah, I like that. 🙂
Today I ate:
1 Hearty Medley’s = 2 points
1 Mediterranean Vegg and Pasta soup = 4 points
1 pear = 1 point
2 crumpets with honey = 2 points
1 turkey burger patty = 3 points
2 pieces bodywise bread = 1 point
1 cheese slice = 1 point
29 grams Special K Vanilla Almond = 2 points
1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point
2 pieces toast = 1 point
1/2 tbls light peanut butter = 1 point
Total points eaten = 19
Go me go – I didn’t go over, in fact, I am 1 under, wOOt! I am undecided on my last little nibbly snack…will it be a 1 point weight watchers mini chocolate thing, a weight watchers little choc bar from England or a 2 point Activia yogurt. I know the yogurt would put me over by 1 point, but yogurt is healthier then the other options…sooooo, nutrition or chocolate? 2 points or 1 point? *shakes head* Quite the decision to be made…I think I will sit and ponder and see what the voice of my willpower has to say about it 😉
The Amazing Shrinking Woman 