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All In One Meal

19 Sep

So I did a bad bad thing; I ate almost all my points in one meal. Oops! lol. It wasn’t even some kind of splurge thing where I decided to save my points so I could eat something really good it was just the day getting away from me and all of a sudden it is dinner time and I haven’t eaten anything.

When I went out to do a bunch of errands I planned on eating right after errand number two – that was Costco. Coscto is like a dream and a nightmare all at once – surrounded by so many things (you should have seen all the Christmas suff!) and yet, who needs to buy 3 jumbo sized boxes of Ziploc bags? Not me, I don’t even have space for them in my kitchen and yet they ended up in my cart, lol. I took them out of the cart before I got to the check out but something about that place, *shakes head*, I always feel like I want to buy so much more then what I really need. The high point of every costco trip is the hot dog…yup, you read that right! I always always always go to the eatery section and buy a hot dog and pop, I mean come on, it’s like $2 and the hot dogs there are sooooooo good! I don’t drink pop anymore but I figured I could still get the hot dog cause I only go there maybe once every 6 months or so and I hadn’t eaten anything yet today. Well, sadness, the eatery section is under construction so no hot dog for me. 😦 The bigger problem with the eatery being closed is that I had a bunch more stuff to do and no chance to get something to eat. sigh.

Luckily I had a little Weight Watchers Pretzel snack bag thing in my purse and a bottle of water with me so that held me over till I got home. The weird thing is that I kept thinking I should be hungry, I mean come on, it was like 6pm before I got home and ate but I didn’t feel hungry at all. I even managed to go grocery shopping and stick only to my list cause I just didn’t care about food. It’s so odd. When I got home I had my whole dinner figured out and I thought by then I’d be practically diving in to it but nope, I think I could have gone without eating at all and I’d of been fine…not healthy, but fine. shrug. If I wasn’t on weight watchers that’s what I would have done – not eat anything I mean. It’s not that big a deal, I used to not eat for an entire day or two I want to say all the time but that’s an exageration, but often. Now it’s ingrained in me I have to eat, even if I am not hungry, so I made myself a high point dinner and ate that and voila! I hit my points exactly. 🙂 Yah! lol

I don’t want to screw up since I had such a good weigh in yesterday…gotta keep on track! It’ll be easier during the week, as much as I am not looking forward to work least I know for the next five days I will be on a more structured eating timeline and that is always helpful.

Today I ate:

1 weight watchers Pretzel Thins = 2 points

2 timbits = 4 points

85 grams Alexia Yam Fries = 3 points

1 Chicken breast (stuffed with broccoli and cheese) = 7 points

1 cup kraft dinner = 6 points

Total points eaten is 22. I also had a corn on the cob and 1 tsp margarine with my dinner but the corn tasted funny. I am not sure how long it is meant to last in the fridge, it’s the last corn on the cob that I bought last weekend (there were four in a pack) and I have been eating them over the course of the week. I only took about two bites of it and decided to not push my luck so I am not counting points from it, shrug, too bad cause I really like it but it so didn’t taste like how it was supposed to! 😛 Speaking of how long food lasts anyone have any ideas about chick peas? I opened the can at some point during the last week…maybe last weekend…I really can’t remember, but I haven’t been eating a lot of them so I still have a bunch in my fridge and I am wondering how long I can keep eating them before they go bad…I hate how quickly so many foods go bad, sigh. I can never seem to eat things quickly enough.

I am still riding the high from having officially reached ten pounds lost so I wore a sweater/wrap thing I own that I haven’t worn in a while. I haven’t worn it for a while cause (1) it’s been summer, duh! and (2) when I bought it it fit nice, then I gained even more weight and it stopped hiding my bulges and started making me look like a big blob. sigh. I thought I’d give it a try today, see how I felt in it and how it looked. It wasn’t bad, it could be better but I was happy with it. It skimmed over me the way it is supposed to which was nice. 🙂 Makes me wonder what else in my closet I can wear now that I had gotten too fat for…guess I’ll just have to treat myself to an evening of trying on my own clothes and seeing how they fit…but not tonight cause the season premiere of Law and Order SVU is on in a half hour and I am gonna be glued to my tv for the duration. 😀


A Perfect 10!

19 Sep

I was scared to step on the scale today – so scared I put it off by an hour. I finally decided to just suck it up, step on the stupid thing and get that part of my day over and done with. All I hoped for was to be the same as last week cause as much as that would suck at least I wouldn’t have gained anymore…I just don’t think I could have dealt with gaining again. Lo and behold the number went down! wOOt! 😀

When I did the math it turns out I have lost exactly ten pounds! Yah! I finally got to the ten pounds lost mark! It only took me how frickin long? Well, ok, that isn’t the point and I will try not to dwell, lol.

Now I have a new fear, what if I screw this up and next week I gain again…there is no margin here, no safety net, I am at exactly ten pounds lost so all it takes is one screw up to lose that accomplishment and be back to having lost under ten pounds and that would suck the big one!

Because it’s the weekend and I slept in I got to eat higher pointed foods cause I had to use my points up in less time then normal, I always love and hate that. lol. It means I get to eat something I normally wouldn’t be able to – like pizza – but it also means that I snack on junk and struggle to eat balanced food groups. Stupid food groups. I think chocolate and ice cream should be food groups! 😛

My other fear is about how many points to eat. This past week I used some flex points and ate I think almost all of my exercise points – that is a lot of food and I struggled with it. I struggled with eating over my points because I was so used to thinking I was only allowed 22 points – the extra food was hard to deal with. Also, now that I know I am eating some flex points I found it harder to resist tempting foods, sounds wacky huh? When I was strict and only ate my 22 points of food everyday I (for the most part) didn’t have too hard a time resisting the bad for me stuff that popped up. If someone brought cupcakes in to work I would look then walk away, no biggy, but now I look and wonder…that wondering is gonna be a problem. Too may foods have opened up to me as potentials and really, all they will turn out to be is potential screw ups, potential pounds on my ass, potential eating binges…nothing good in that kind of potential and now I am surrounded by it. sigh.

I guess I have to learn how to be flexibly strict, lol, I don’t think that is even a real term…but it is now cause I have used it!

Today I ate:

1 piece of Delissio pizza = 5 points

1 banana = 2 points

2 Hershey’s Oh Henry cookies = 3 points

1 bag Fiesta Salad = 6.5 points

2 pieces of bread = 2 points

1 tbls Nutella = 2 points

1 apple = 1 point

1 thinsations Oreo cakesters = 2 points

Puts me at a total of 22.5 points used today. I am still a bit hungry but not gonna eat anything cause it’s late and the only food I can find is higher in points then what I am willing to eat. See? That’s another problem…now that I eat some of my flex points I am all “who cares I am at my points for the day, I feel peckish, eat something”…it’s like an evil voice in my head taunting me with the one thing I really want more of (food) but can’t have.  Grr to the evil voice!

For now though that evil voice can go drown if a vat of McDonald’s cooking oil cause I lost ten whole pounds and the voice can’t take that away from me!

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