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I Resisted! wOOt!

4 May

I was supposed to go out for lunch today…I was supposed to go out for lunch yesterday too and while I did go yesterday I went to the Salad Loop instead of the planned Vietnamese restaurant because a vicious little voice in my head started harping at me about points, and tracking, and cheating and how I have eaten poorly for 2 weekends in a row and don’t deserve a treat-lunch. *rolls eyes* Stupid evil voice – but I’m also kinda grateful for it since it saved me who knows how many points.

Total digression there, sorry! Ok, so lunch today, I was supposed to go to this new street vendor that has Halal Free Range meat and vegetarian gravy. I am not concerned with vegetarian, free range or Halal criteria but others in my office are and the discovery of this cart was a happy thing for them. I was going to go, I told them yesterday I would, but today I just couldn’t do it. The menu is limited, there is Philly Cheese Steak (with beef or chicken), something else smothered in cheese or a rice box that has chicken, rice and something else I can’t remember – lol, pretty bad memory happenin tonight but I figure it’s cause I didn’t actually go to the cart, shrug.

There were no easy to calculate points food items on that menu and the only thing remotely healthy looking was the rice box but I remember when I read what was in it I realized looks are deceiving and it wouldn’t actually be good for me…so instead of caving…I resisted! Yes, that’s right, all applause welcome, *takes a bow* I actually called up my willpower and resisted! *happy dance*

I lost faith in my willpower a while ago – it’s not that my willpower is failing me it’s that I am failing my willpower – I have been indulging in lots of things I shouldn’t have been and instead of listening to the voice in my head that says “don’t eat that moron!” I convinced myself it was ok “just this one time!” and smoosh! there goes my willpower smashed under the heel of my boot.

Poor willpower.  😦

I am working on rebuilding my ear canals so they hear my willpower voice and today was a nice change – me obeying the willpower instead of ignoring it. πŸ™‚

Oh! This evening I listened to it again! It’s amazing – twice in one day! πŸ˜€ I was still really hungry after dinner and I was going to eat my Mr Big chocolate bar…yeah I know, I shouldn’t have bought it but I did so no point in regretting it…eating the chocolate bar would have put me 1 point over and I was all “it’s only 1 point, who cares about 1 stupid point?” then that voice started nattering. It pointed out that I went over by 1 point yesterday, there are healthier snacks that will not put me over by a point, I have done nothing remotely close to exercise today so haven’t earned any kind of treat…and well, it went on but it started getting rude and I am not comfie repeating what it said in polite company. πŸ˜‰ lol

Instead of the chocolate bar, which I have now had to hide so I don’t grab it and chow down, oy, I had a bowl of Special K and 2 pieces of BodyWise bread toast with 1/2 tbls light peanut butter spread on top. Huh, I just realized I was like one of those Special K ads…weird. πŸ˜›

So 2 wins for willpower, 2 epic losses for…um…for food? That’s not right…and it wasn’t cravings…um, 2 epic losses for bad food choices! Yeah, I like that. πŸ™‚

Today I ate:

1 Hearty Medley’s = 2 points

1 Mediterranean Vegg and Pasta soup = 4 points

1 pear = 1 point

2 crumpets with honey = 2 points

1 turkey burger patty = 3 points

2 pieces bodywise bread = 1 point

1 cheese slice = 1 point

29 grams Special K Vanilla Almond = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

2 pieces toast = 1 point

1/2 tbls light peanut butter = 1 point

Total points eaten = 19

Go me go – I didn’t go over, in fact, I am 1 under, wOOt! I am undecided on my last little nibbly snack…will it be a 1 point weight watchers mini chocolate thing, a weight watchers little choc bar from England or a 2 point Activia yogurt. I know the yogurt would put me over by 1 point, but yogurt is healthier then the other options…sooooo, nutrition or chocolate? 2 points or 1 point? *shakes head* Quite the decision to be made…I think I will sit and ponder and see what the voice of my willpower has to say about it πŸ˜‰

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2 Responses to “I Resisted! wOOt!”

  1. Dacia May 5, 2011 at 4:51 am #

    Great job yesterday! Go willpower! I also struggle with eating at carts or chef owned restaurants, where you cannot find nutritional data for and you have to guess at what ingredients are in there, and that is my only real complaint about WW because when I do go out it is usually someplace of the beaten path. Anywho, thanks for sharing your story and inspiring me to make better choices!

    • shrinkingwmn May 5, 2011 at 6:43 pm #

      Yeah, going to places that aren’t chain restaurants can make it hard on the points calculation but those places usually have the best food! lol. I’m so glad that I actually listened to my willpower voice instead of ignoring it – makes me feel a lot better about myself when I know I won out over the bad-for-me-foods. πŸ™‚ I’m glad you liked my post – it’s always nice to know people are actually reading them. lol

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