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Week 2 Done!

25 Nov

Yesterday was the end of Week 2 of my Lose a Pant Size By Dec 22/13 challenge! To read day-to-day deets about the challenge click Here!Β I had a rocky start to the beginning of week 2, what with the whole pizza fiasco on the Monday but I worked hard to not mess up the rest of the days and even with snacking at the fundraiser and eating a steak dinner last night I ended up under my calories for the week. Yay!! πŸ™‚

I know I shouldn’t be under calories for the week but since I started the week by doubling my calories for that day I am glad I managed to reverse that damage. Of course, I have 3 pieces of pizza individually wrapped and in the freezer that I have no idea what to do with but that’s a problem for another day…Granted, almost was a problem today buuuuuut I’m so determined to not have red on my bar graph for this week that I managed to not cave lol.

Looks like if my willpower starts to fail me I can rely on my not wanting to confess to you I screwed up and that’ll keep me in line! Let me tell ya, that is all that is keeping me in line right now as I reeeeally want to eat something! I know vaguely what I want to eat but at this point I’d jump face first into any number of different foods lol Classy huh? πŸ˜›

This eating plan is strict, and leaves me feeling not hungry but not full, I’m in some weird middle ground. I mean obviously leading up to meal time I feel hungry but after eating a meal I feel…I dunno, not full or satisfied but not hungry anymore…maybe this is how I am supposed to feel? Always wanting a little bit more but not eating that little bit more cause that’ll take me over the line to having eaten too much?

It sucks. But sacrifices right? Right!

Small sacrifices today to reach the goals of tomorrow! wOOt!

I’m glad I’ve got my eating under control (for today at least) since I kinda slept through my Zumba class, oops! In my defence I was running on 3 hours sleep. When I got home from work I thought it was a good idea to take a short nap and go to the slightly later Zumba class. I didn’t intend to sleep for so long! By the time I woke up all the classes were over, oh dear. Stupid 2 hour nap, sigh.

The nap did feel good though πŸ™‚


The Aftermath

13 Nov

It is amazing how being sick can throw everything off kilter, and I mean everything!Β 

"No More Sick Days Allowed!" says me to me

“No More Sick Days Allowed!” says me to me

This past Monday was my first day feeling healthy, yay! πŸ˜€ I only had one coughing fit, I got to the end of my work day and still had most of my voice and energy, it was all kinds of good. This means that my days off are being used to get back on track food wise, exercise wise, errands wise, acting wise…you get the idea lol.

I have to go agent hunting, sooooo stressful! There is a lot that has to be done prior to submitting your info to agents when going agent hunting. You need new headshots, you need to get those headshots printed, you need to revamp your demo reel and resume. Submissions are all done electronically now so you have to take care of that. Β For some people this might not be a big deal but for me it takes a while because it all costs money, sigh. And not small amounts of money, nope, decent chunks of the stuff, something I don’t have randomly lying around. I got my headshots done a bit ago but haven’t been able to afford to print them. I’m finally able to do that so I’ll be placing the order soon (as in tomorrow when the shop is open). I started the process of revamping my online account so I can electronically submit to agents, I’ll be working more on it after I finish typing this post. I decided I can’t afford to redo my demo reel so I am going to continue using the one I have, luckily I still look the same (for the most part) and I am also working on memorizing a monologue to perform if the agents want to see something a bit newer. Luckily I’ve been working on some independent projects and can provide links to them, or at least to one of them (its on YouTube) and I juuuuust might be able to get a copy of something else I have been working on if I’m lucky! *crosses fingers* So that’s all good, I’m working on getting my submissions out there and while I wish I was moving a bit faster with it I am doing the best I can. πŸ™‚

Food wise, well, hmm, a lot of food went bad while I was sick, oops! What can I say, when I am sick my appetite nose dives, shrug. I did a clean sweep of my fridge this evening and oh wow, soooooo much stuff had to be thrown out (well, technically, it was composted, but still!) I have been talking to a friend at work who is a personal trainer, asking for her help with getting in better shape. The way I work is easy, I need rules, I need someone to give me a list of rules, better yet an eating plan, a very specific eating plan, and I need for them to say “follow this, don’t deviate, deviating is cheating and you won’t lose weight if you cheat, just follow it even though it sucks and I guarantee it will work” or something along those lines lol. I had a friend who isn’t a trainer but who is in really good shape and he did something along those lines a long time ago, I think it was almost 2 years ago, wow, I can’t believe I’ve known him that long, crazy! Anyways! lol When I followed the eating plan he gave me it was hard, it was restrictive, it was not conducive to having any kind of social life but it worked. Something that works is what I want, I want that more then a huge wide variety of food, I want that more then a social life that revolves around eating, I want that more than anything (well, what I want most over anything ever is for my acting career to take off but that’s a slightly different topic…although still related…)Β I told her this and her response, after asking me a lot of questions and learning my eating habits as they are now, was to go Paleo. Ugh. I will do a whole separate post on what I think about Paleo but rest assured, it is not going to be a sunshiny review, I have not “drunk the Paleo kool-aid” so to speak lol. I started re-reading about Paleo, (I researched it last year), so I could refresh myself on the rules and basically skipped to the back of the book to read the recipes lol After reading the recipes I realized that this wasn’t gonna happen, not because the recipes seemed particularly hard or complex but because I just don’t want to cook that much, shrug. My fix for this whole needing-to-cook issue was to revert back to the eating plan my friend gave me two years ago. What he put me on was Paleo but Paleo gone hard core, as in oh.my.god. crazy hard core! Once I get back in to the routine of my hard core Paleo I will once a week try one of the Paleo recipes. This way, my food won’t be quite as boring, but I’ll be easing in to the whole cooking-in-a-whole-new-way-with-all-kinds-of-different-ingredients-thing while still following a strict but good eating plan. To accommodate my return to this hard core Paleo eating plan I went grocery shopping today, with a list! An actual list! lol It actually felt pretty good, going in there with a plan, getting just what I needed, Β knowing that what I was buying was going to be used in a healthy way. I haven’t had that in a while, it was nice getting that back. πŸ™‚

With my exercising, I went to a boxing class with a friend last night. I love boxing! I’ve always loved it but it is so pricey, sigh. It was a one off, I wasn’t actually intending to join the club lol but don’t look at me like that, the friend I went with was intending to join, and did join so we didn’t waste the trainers time. πŸ˜› I maaaay have slightly over done it though, kind of a pushed a bit too hard too soon kind of thing, oops! This morning my voice was not quite all there and the throat was back to hurting and today I’ve been way low on energy, more so than normal. Because of that I didn’t go to the gym today like I intended but will for sure exercise tomorrow. Maybe it’s better to start back with the exercising by going every second day, don’t push the body too too far until for sure it is 100%? At least this is what I am telling myself lol

So the aftermath of my cold is slowly being dealt with, errands caught up with, eating plan back on track, exercising starting back up again, agent hunting preparation underway. That cold put me behind for 2 whole weeks but I’m back in the game now and will make up that lost time quick quick quick! Brace yourself for the awesomeness that I am going to be bringing, it will be epic! πŸ˜‰

The Wagon

25 Jul
me waving goodbye to the Insanity wagon, sigh.

me waving goodbye to the Insanity wagon, sigh.

Imagine a wagon that represents the Insanity Program. Now imagine a 5’8″ redhead falling off that wagon, rolling on the dusty road, landing in the ditch, then crawling out of that ditch only to see the wagon never stopped and is too far away to catch so she does the only possible thing, she waves goodbye, sighs a bit, and comes to the realization she has woefully fallen off the Insanity Wagon, and fallen hard!

That is me, sigh.


Have no fear though! I am jumping right back on…on Monday. πŸ™‚

Now, I hate when people say “I’m starting a new diet on Monday” or “I’m going to start exercising on Monday” or anything else along those lines. Why wait till Monday?? What makes Monday so special? If anything, start Friday, people hate Mondays, they are tired and cranky and just want the day to end on Mondays, how is that a good day to be starting anything let alone a new diet and/or exercise plan? *rolls eyes* Start on a day you are happy, a day you enjoy, a day you aren’t counting the minutes down until you can go home and do nothing.


Since last weekend when I was out of town racing I have been an epic fail at following the Insanity Program, food wise and exercise wise. I’m ticked at myself over this, royally ticked! Grr to me!

I knew I wouldn’t be able to follow the eating or exercise Β plan on the Saturday and at least part of the Sunday but I thought once I was home Sunday I’d do the exercise session I’d missed on the Saturday and jump right back in to the eating plan…that soooooo didn’t happen! I was super tired and just couldn’t bring myself to exercise, that was already compounding the issue that not only had I missed the exercise dvd on Saturday I also didn’t have time to exercise on the Friday so that was two days in a row missed, ack! Plus, on the Sunday I was too tired to care about cooking or making sure I was eating the right amount of calories per meal or even the right amount of calories per day. I did eat meals from the Insanity Program meal plan once home on the Sunday but that’s about all I can say that I did slightly ok.

Then Monday I forgot to take my food to work with me so I had cereal for breakfast (my high protein cereal so that’s alright) but I had no mid morning snack. For lunch I ate food from work (salad with chicken on top, super yum!) then had stuff to do after work so I didn’t get home till after dinner time which means my timing for meals was way off that day! I somehow got my arse in gear and did an exercise session but I was lost as to which one to do…the one I should have done on the Friday? Or perhaps the one I should have done on the Saturday? Or should I just do the one I was supposed to be doing that day? I didn’t feel it was right to do the session that was originally planned for the Monday since i’d missed two, it seemed like cheating somehow but I didn’t want to be constantly three days behind for my exercise sessions…I ended up doing the one I should have done on the Friday, figuring I’d do Friday’s and Saturday’s exercises then on Tuesday I’d do Monday and Tuesday’s exercises and voila! I’d catch up! Lemme tell ya, that was a flawed plan. Epic-ally flawed. After the cardio workout I was all nuh-uh! I’m tired. It’s late. I wanna go to bed. I’ll catch up the next day. Catching up Tuesday made more sense, I’d be able to do one workout in the morning, one in the evening, spread em out a bit, sounds solid, right?

Tuesday did not go as planned. lol. I had a hair appointment that started a half hour late then took way longer than normal. Then I ate but didn’t have time to cook so I had Subway, then I went and did errands that couldn’t be put off, then while out got invited to a movie that evening so right from my errands I went and met with friends and before I knew it I wasn’t getting home till late. I didn’t follow the eating plan that day, or the exercise plan, while it was a fun day it was not a “good day” if you know what I mean. *rolls eyes*

From there it just kept getting worse, and now it is Thursday, I haven’t done an Insanity workout since Monday and I’ve been totally going back to my old ways of eating (that is, I’ve been skipping meals and not eating the combo of protein, healthy fat and carbs that I am supposed to be eating). I’ve been trying (for the most part) to choose things to eat that are close to what I should be eating but I’ve been nowhere near as strict as I should have been.

So I’ve decided enough is enough. Every day that I don’t do the Insanity Workout or follow the Insanity Eating Plan I feel like a big fat failure. It gets me down and I hate that. Should I have done a better job of getting back on track? Yes, without a doubt. Did I? No, obviously. But I am human and as a human that means I am allowed (and pretty much expected) to screw up, it’s just what we do! Don’t believe me? Check out the damage to the ozone layer! πŸ˜›

Instead of feeling like a failure, feeling like I suck at this, like I can’t do the Insanity Program I have decided to get more upbeat and come up with a plan of action. πŸ™‚

I am starting back, as best as I am able, with the eating plan tomorrow. It won’t be perfect cause I haven’t gone grocery shopping but I will do my best and for the next three days that is all I am asking of myself. I will do my normal workout stuff, so gym, running, things like that, for the next three days and allow myself to feel good about just in general being active. On Monday I will start back at the beginning of the Insanity Workouts, that’s right, back at Day 1. I won’t redo the fit test since I don’t feel it will have different results but otherwise, it will be like I just started the program. I will also get my butt into gear, go grocery shopping, go back to my food schedule so I know what I am eating and when and I will no longer be “doing my best” with room to not get it right, instead I will be “following the plan”.

Sure, there are still going to be days where something goes a little wonky, but that’s life right? For the most part though I feel I should be able to get right back in to the Insanity Plan without too big of a hitch in my stride, and get back on that freakin wagon I shall!…on Monday lol πŸ˜‰

p.s. fyi the reason I am waiting till Monday to start the plan again is because Insanity has you working out 6 days a week and I want my rest day to be Sunday. If you do the math that means I have to start on Monday…

Rest Time Is Over!

4 Jun

Last Wednesday I managed to hurt my foot, this meant I now had a sore left knee and a very sore right foot. Least my injuries were on opposite sites of the body, so I wasn’t unbalanced! lol

I gave myself a bit of a resting period after I finished my 30 Day Challenges so my knee could recover, and also so my foot could recover from the heavy stuff that fell on it *rolls eyes at myself*

Today was the official end of the resting period! πŸ˜€

I didn’t really think about it when I was getting my gym gear together last night, at most I thought, get the bag packed now so I have no excuse to not take my gym stuff to work and if you feel like going to the gym after work then you can go. See, I have this defect, it is called laziness, I have another defect called “my cat is in charge” so if I go home after work with the idea I will change and head out to the gym, well, it never happens because (1) I end up sitting down and then I am comfy and no way in hell are you dragging my lazy ass out of my comfy living room chair after a day at work and (2) the cat gives me sad eyes because he’s been alone all day and I feel bad so I end up cuddling him then he is comfy and sleeping on my lap and in my world you don’t disturb a sleeping cat. The cat has me well trained lol. πŸ˜›

If I have any intention at all of exercising after work I can NOT go home! Sad but true.

I have been known to take my gym gear then say “screw it, I’m too tired” at the end of the day and just go home but generally that is when I am running on 3 hours or less of sleep so I don’t feel so bad when that happens lol

Today however, when I was at work, I made a decision. Not an exercising decision, a food decision. See, at work, whoever does the morning shift (sundays and mondays that is yours truly) does the baking for the breakfast that gets laid out buffet style. It is little muffins, pastries, croissants. They are killer. They are all empty carbs, full of refined sugar, no redeeming nutritional value to any of them, but they taste so freakin good! lol The croissants are my weak point. They are small croissants so you don’t feel as guilty eating them, but just cause they are small doesn’t mean they aren’t wicked bad for you right? Right!

Normally I nibble. That’s right, I nibble! So sue me! If I accidentally decapitate a muffin when taking it out of the tray I eat it so it doesn’t get thrown out and wasted (like how I can justify it? lol), when I’m plating the croissants I “accidentally” put one on a plate for me…then, if there are croissants left over at the end of breakfast I more often than not swipe one, or two…so in case you aren’t doing the math, that is a potential 3 mini croissants in one morning! That is on top of the toast I make myself…which great, right? even more freakin useless carbs, *groan* Not a good way to start the day!

Today, for some reason I decided to not eat any of the breakfast baking. I still had the toast cause it was either eat toast or have no breakfast at all and I figured the toast was better then starvation lol but the pastries? the mini muffins? the mini croissants? Nope, I’m good thanks. πŸ™‚

Oddly enough, what I kept leaning on when I was tempted to grab something was that I had completed the 30 Day Challenges. Those sucked at time but I finished them, didn’t cheat, didn’t skimp out on anything, I got all the way through and if I could handle all those squats and all that ab work for 30 days surely I could manage one day of not eating the bakery items?

I found myself walking towards them a couple times out of habit but when I realized where I was aimed I turned and went somewhere else, luckily there is a lot to do at work so I could always find something to distract me.

And guess what? I made it through the day without touching a single item from that breakfast display and when the day was over I felt a little bit stronger for that. Not so much for holding out but for making the healthier choice. For putting my goal of eating healthy and getting in shape ahead of the instant satisfaction of something tasty. By not caving in with the breakfast goodies it made it that much easier to choose to go to the gym after work. I was tired, kinda didn’t want to go, was coming up with all kinds of reasons to skip it but lo and behold I ended up at they gym and well hey, once you’re there you can’t turn around and leave, you’d just look stupid if you did that lol πŸ˜›

The gym however almost killed me. lol. Not the working out part, although I did push myself on the cardio, but the gym itself was an oven, the air conditioning is broken so as soon as you step in to the gym you are hit with a blast of heat that doesn’t let up the entire time you are there. Oy! You could easily have started to sweat just from being in there, wouldn’t even have to do anything to work up the sweat!

Well whatever right? I got changed and headed to the treadmill. I had such a (surprisingly) good run just a bit before I hurt my foot I was feeling super optimistic about todays run and almost decided to set it for 45 minutes. The only reason I didn’t was I was parked in a one hour only zone and wanted time after my run to stretch out soooooo 30 minutes it was! I am so grateful I set it for only 30 minutes! I was running at a decent pace (for me), but by the last ten minutes I was doing that deep, slightly louder breathing and it just kept getting louder the longer I ran. Also grateful no one was on the treadmill near me lol Part of my brain was saying “stop! for the love of all that is holy just stop! you don’t have to tell anyone, it’ll be ok, you can’t take anymore!” but this little voice in my head was whispering “you can do this, you have done this and more in the past, you ate well today, you have the fuel in you, just keep going, prove to yourself you can finish, don’t quit” the “don’t quit” voice was no where near as loud as the desperate wheezing pleading voice that wanted me to stop but I clung to it, repeated over and over “I can do this!” in my head and what do you know, I did it! I ran for 30 minutes, on a random hill program, at a speed of 5, level 4, with inclines ranging from 0-5 and not once did I stop. *puffs up with a bit of pride* I know I used to do way better before, was on a higher level, doing intervals, running at a base speed that was faster then the speed I did today, with higher inclines but instead of dwelling on how I did so much more and did it so much better last summer when I was more consistent with my running training I am going to be happy at what I accomplished today. Getting back to the shape I was in last summer doesn’t mean starting at the levels I left off at last summer, it means starting a little lower down and earning my way back to where I was.

I went and stretched then headed to the locker room where I shocked myself silly when I looked in the mirror! lol Imagine a sunburn, the worst face sunburn you have ever seen, the pinkest, the reddest, the brightest, now times that by 100 (cause I am a redhead and super pale and burn worse than other people) and that was my face! I kid you not! I was soooooooooo red! lol It was quite embarrassing actually, I made sure to keep my head down while I was walking out of the gym and to my suv. I go quite red when doing cardio anyways, but the combo of the cardio, plus the over heated gym, plus the treadmill was radiating heat (not even kidding! when I stopped I realized blasts of heat were coming from the lower part of the machine and hitting me full body) I guess my poor skin just couldn’t take it and it turned me in to a tomato! A highly unattractive tomato! lol I am so not attractive when I work out and going red really doesn’t make it any better, *sigh* No wonder when I was done running I was a bit unbalanced if I was that over heated!

Ah well, who cares if I get a red face right? Just means I worked hard, I earned that red face dammit! Well, partially earned it and partially got cooked in a room with no air conditioning lol πŸ˜›

tomato running on a treadmill, aka me at the gym today

tomato running on a treadmill, aka me at the gym today

Willpower vs. Rules

3 Jun

I don’t have willpower. There I said it, my big secret is out. I used to have it, or did I? I think what I had was a list of rules I followed and mistook that for willpower. They are eerily close and yet so not the same thing.

Willpower is when you can just say no when somebody offers you something you really really really want but shouldn’t have. Willpower is also when you can say “ok, I’ll just have one” and actually mean it. So, for example, someone puts a platter of your favourite dessert in front of you (say, lemon tarts), a person with willpower can go “no thanks, I’m ok” and mean it! They could also say “yeah sure, thanks, I’ll have one” and mean that too! They don’t go sneaking around and snagging a second, then a third, then a fourth, eating them guiltily when no one is watching. They can set a limit and stick with it.

Someone with rules has a set list of rules in their head in regards to food that they follow come hell or high water. This person, when offered the lemon tarts might say “no thanks, I can’t” then snag one (or some) when there is no one around to catch them. Or they might respond with “sure, screw the diet today!”, take two to start with and end up eating who knows how many by the end. Or! They might say “no” and end up eating something else later when they won’t get caught to make up for the missed treat. The other option of course, for the person with the rules is to say “nope, can’t thanks” and actually stick with it.

This is where the confusion between the two begins because outsiders mistake the saying “no” and sticking with it as willpower when really it was just the person sticking to their self-imposed rules.

Why do I think the saying no and sticking with it is different in those two cases? Because the person with willpower could say yes and eat just one whereas the person who is following rules can’t stop at one – they can’t say “yes” without going overboard with what they eat, they don’t have the willpower to stop. Only the rules keep them in line and if the rules are thrown out the window chaos ensues.

Maybe I am the only one who sees the difference?

The reason I see the difference is because while I was following Weight Watchers I got a lot of comments from people about my willpower, how it was so great, so strong, yadda yadda yadda. At the time I didn’t think about it, I think I usually responded with comments about how anybody can do it if I can type of thing because deep down I felt uncomfie with the term. I didn’t know why I felt uncomfortable, I just did.

Lately though I think I partially figured it out…

I didn’t have willpower when I followed Weight Watchers, I had rules, rules they made up and I followed. As much as I hate following rules I chose to follow those ones, and having made that decision I followed them to the best I was able. Sure I had slip ups, mistakes with calculating my points, unexpected events that had me using flex points I wasn’t intending on using, days I forgot my lunch at home when I went to work so I had to buy something, things like that but I’d say that is fairly normal, and things like that didn’t happen all that often, shrug.

When I plateaued with Weight Watchers I didn’t know where to go, I was lost. For all that they had taught me portion control and I now had an idea of what the layout of my plate should be (half veggies, 1/4 protein, 1/4 carb if wanted) I still had no clue what I was doing. The rules had stopped working for me and I couldn’t survive without them, they were my beacon and it got turned off and I was left in the dark, on a dingy, slowly drifting farther and farther from shore. That plateau was the beginning of a screwy chunk of time for me food wise.

I stopped eating as much vegg and fruit as I used to, I didn’t make sure to get protein everyday. I started going all over the board with no rhyme or reason. Last summer a friend put me on a new track, a super strict track, a track with not many rules but the rules that were there were hard core. Everyone was surprised and impressed when I not only started following the plan but succeeding at it. Cutting out so many things seemed impractical but in my head I figured follow the plan until I get the final results I want then slowly incorporate some of the restricted foods back in to my eating plan as treats. I can do anything if I know it won’t be forever.

The super strict plan did work, I never got quite as small or as toned as I wanted but I got stronger, and there were changes, and I liked the changes.

Then life happened lol.

A severe restructuring of my schedule (I got a job!) messed with the super strict plan I was on, I started breaking from the eating plan more and more, and missing more and more gym days until I couldn’t say I followed any plan except an eat-whatever-I-choose-and-don’t-regularly-exercise-plan. During all this I was dragon boating, getting in to a relationship, moving, breaking up, and dealing with all the other random shit life throws at ya. *shakes fist at life* πŸ˜‰

I kept trying to get back on that super strict plan but it just isn’t livable, doable, manageable for a long period of time if you have my job/life/schedule. Or at least I never found a way to make it doable. And voila! My rules were gone. I had nothing in my head saying “don’t eat the dessert”, nothing stopping me from eating carbs (holy hell had I missed carbs!), nothing preventing me from ordering pizza multiple times in a month! I’m so disgusted with myself when I think of how off course I got…although, I suppose “off course” is the wrong term, I wasn’t on a course/eating plan anymore, I was left alone, drifting in that stupid dingy again with even less clue of how to get back. Because now I had failed twice over. Failed at Weight Watchers. Failed at the super strict plan my friend introduced me to.


But now I am trying a new way of thinking. I didn’t fail, not at Weight Watchers, I lost 35 freakin pounds on that plan! Sure, I plateaued and they couldn’t help me anymore but losing 35 pounds is not a failure! I find I have to keep reminding myself of that…I also have to keep reminding myself that I have kept that weight off, even with all my problems since then those 35 pounds stayed away, that’s not a failure, right? (although to be honest, I haven’t weighed myself in a loooooong time and I think I may have gained a couple pounds but all my clothes still fit and look good so it can’t be that much of a weight gain) And sure, I fell off the wagon with the super strict plan, but it was never meant to be a long long term plan, and sure, I’ve never been able to get myself back on it, but some healthy things I learned from it stuck with me. Like cutting out the carbs, and increasing my protein, and eating as little processed food as possible…things like that.

What I need to find is a balance, an eating plan I can stick with, that is healthy, that has reasonable rules. But! I need it to be flexible enough that when someone offers me a lemon tart I can start building up my willpower and say “no” because I don’t want it, and actually stick with the “no” and not be saying “no” because of rules I am following. I have to learn to create my own boundaries around what to eat and what not to eat, I need to learn to make my own rules and use those rules like training wheels while I build up my willpower. Does that even make sense? Probably not…

Regardless of if it makes sense to you, I have started coming up with an eating plan that is balanced, healthy, and manageable with my schedule. I can’t afford to go grocery shopping till Friday so I won’t be implementing the plan until I have bought groceries buuuuut I can modify what I already have to follow as close as I can the eating plan I am coming up with. Creating my own rules to help me build up my willpower.

With a plan in place this just might be doable! Yah! πŸ™‚

A Couple Weeks A Couple Pounds…Almost…

8 Mar

So I’ve been on the new eating and exercise plan for a couple weeks now (like my title suggests lol) and I’ve lost 1.8 pounds, which doesn’t sound all that impressive but since the goal is 1 pound a week I’m almost right on target, so yah? My current dilemma is that NC said he could help me lose 20 pounds in 2 months but if I am only losing 1 pound a week well…even I know that math doesn’t add up! Anybody out there have some wicked awesome math skills that make that work? Maybe a snazzy calculator that fudges results a little bit? Something? Anything?…no, I didn’t think so lol

I’m not really too upset about the 1 pound a week thing, I mean yes I would rather be losing more per week cause I am totally a need-to-see-results kinda girl but hey, I have been plateaued for freakin ever and in only two weeks the plateau has stopped, technically really, the plateau stopped being a plateau after the first week since I lost 1.2 pounds the first week, so yah for no more plateau! πŸ™‚

Here’s how a typical food day goes:

Upon first rising have a protein shake and half a piece of fruit (say half an apple or pear or whatever)

Approximately an hour later have breakfast, some sort of protein (I have 2 slices of turkey bacon), an egg (did you know you destroy all the good nutritional benefits of an egg if you cook the yolk? so now I eat them sunny side up with a runny yolk, yum!) and the other half of that piece of fruit you cut up earlier…I also have a glass of water but that’s not technically part of the eating plan, it’s just cause I like to stay hydrated lol

Here is where I go exercise…

After getting home from the gym I have a protein shake but this one is yummy cause it has one scoop of protein powder, half a banana, half cup of frozen fruit (I alternate between just blueberries or having mixed berries), half cup non flavoured sweetened yogurt from Activia, one cup almond milk (don’t even get me started on how much I miss milk from a cow, milking an almond is just so wrong! lol) , and one teaspoon of something called NutraSea +D (it’s to get me some much needed healthy fats, my omega 3)

An hour or two later I have dinner, some form of protein (say a half a chicken breast or a fish fillet) and some veggies (usually 2/3C mixed frozen veggies but it can be other veg, it’s all dependent on preference)

Then a couple hours after that, or whenever I start to feel hungry, I have a salad, mixed greens that I add cucumber and half a cut up pepper to, if I had half the chicken breast for dinner I put the remaining half on my salad, if I had fish for dinner then I’ll have half a cup of cottage cheese or a serving of marble cheese with the salad, just something to get a bit of protein and make it a bit more filling.

Then right before bed, literally it’s the last thing I do before going and washing up is have a couple spoonfuls of either some yogurt or some cottage cheese, just something little like that to help keep your body from freaking out about being starved to death while you are sleeping lol.

Sounds like a lot huh? And it is…and yet it isn’t lol. I have a goal of almost 1500 calories a day for my food intake, this compensates for my daily exercise and with all the math done will result in my losing a pound a week and not starving while doing it. Also, I need all that protein and well, food in general, to keep my body fueled up and able to deal with the exercise without it deciding to use my muscles as fuel thereby taking away my ability to get in shape in a healthy way. My problem is that not once have I been able to reach my caloric goal, not once!! How insane is that? Even on days I splurge and get a hot chocolate or eat some sushi or have a piece of chocolate (hey, I’m a girl, I have chocolate needs that can’t be denied lol) I still don’t manage to reach my calorie goal of almost 1500.

Any other day I would be able to honestly write that I am not feeling hungry, or deprived or anything negative and that I don’t really think I need all those calories despite what NC and all the books I am reading say buuuuut well, today I am freakin starved! lol I don’t know what it is! I ate all my food like I am supposed to, even my night time salad which normally I kinda skip cause it’s just too much food but here it is a little after midnight and I could so go for a meal right now, sigh. I am not going to have a meal cause well, hello, it’s a little after midnight, it’s a weird time to be eating and I have to try to get some sleep soon since I have to be up in the morning but that doesn’t mean I don’t want something to eat lol. Despite my hunger pains tonight let me reassure you I am not starving myself, I am not denying myself food in an effort to get thin, it’s driving NC a little nuts I think that I am not eating more but I’m not gonna force myself to eat when I am not hungry, that just doesn’t make any sense to me, does it make sense to you?

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