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Another Meal of Cat Food, yuch!

2 Dec

So, remember waaaaaaay back when I posted about my first experience eating tuna? I hated it and compared it to eating cat food – not that I have eaten cat food (ew!) but the smell and texture were so cat-food-like that I swear it’s the exact same thing! Well, at some point in my grocery shopping I was an idiot and bought canned flaked turkey meat…I don’t know what made me think this was a good idea?? Oy!

I was stuck for dinner ideas this evening so I figured “open the canned turkey, how bad can it be?” the answer to that is WAY BAD!! Horrific! Who eats this crap? *rolls eyes*

can you say "epic fail"?

I drained it, mixed it with some light miracle whip, stuck in on a weight watchers hamburger bun with a cheese slice, some baby spinach and mustard…all of those ingredients but the turkey mix was good. Blech. I suppose it might have been better if I had some onion or something to put in the mix but I didn’t and really, all that would have done was slightly disguise the icky flavour that is canned turkey. 😛

It was a very gross dinner that was non-enjoyable, sigh. Since I have to be so careful with what I eat and how much I try to make sure the food I eat is something I really enjoy. Obviously not rich-calorie-dense-all-my-fave-foods level of enjoy but things I am happy to be tasting and eating. The lists I write down showing what I eat generally look really boring, and repetitive and probably a lot of you wonder what the hell I am doing eating such un-entertaining foods so often…and no wonder I get so excited about subway when I eat baked beans all the time (which actually, I haven’t eaten in a while but was planning to take tomorrow for lunch, lol) but for me, I find that eating the same thing often works best for me, I know what the points are going to be, I know how filled I am going to feel and for how long…it is predictable – which, yes, can be boring, but for right now on this journey seems to be just what I need.

 Well, that and I am kinda poor so it’s not like I can buy ingredients I don’t normally have to make one dish that I may or may not like. shrug.

I try to eat something new every week…it’s not always a completely-new-to-me food item but maybe a lower calorie version of something, or a new way of cooking something…just something! It not only gives me something different to eat and attempt to cook but it gives me something to write about. lol. Sometimes it’s a new frozen dinner flavour, or a light hot dog or mini breton crackers…it can be anything! 🙂

The new thing I ate today was a new flavour of Lean Cuisine, it was Mango Currey Chicken, one of the Lean Cuisine Spa meals. It was…ok. I mean, there was nothing wrong with it exactly but there was cauliflower in it and I really don’t like that vegetable…altho, you couldn’t taste it cause of the currey flavour, lol, but also, there were raisins in it. Ack! I don’t eat raisins! Ever! I can’t stand the little buggers! They are worse then the canned turkey…which I just realized is a new food to me so hey, two new foods in one post…neither one of them getting a positive review…oooh, bad food week! haha. Anyways, raisins, in the currey. sigh. I picked the raisins out and managed to eat the cauliflower which may not sound all that impressive but trust me, it is. 😀 Thing is, it’s crazed busy at work so I ate at my desk today instead of taking an official lunch break but the office rule is you can’t eat anything smelly at your desk. Uh, hello, currey is smelly…way smelly! So I had to scarf it down in the kitchen and then go back to my desk and eat the rest of my lunch there (raw veggies, yogurt and cheese). Not the ideal lunch situation but hey, it could always be worse!

My lesson today? Always read the ingredients list cause you never know what is hidden in your food! Today it was cauliflower and raisins, who knows what it could be tomorrow! dun dun dun…teehee

Today I ate:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 timbit = 2 points

1 Lean Cuisine = 5 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 weight watchers hamburger bun = 2 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

1/6 of the can flaked turkey mixed with 1 tbls light miracle whip = 1 point

baby spinach, mustard = 0 points

20 mini breton = 2 points

Total points eaten 21! 😀 Yah!

Now I know, I kinda snuck that timbit in there but they were brought in to work and oh man I love timbits. lol. I usually (if I’ve been good) get one on the weekends but I go through the drive thru (I know! so lazy) so I can’t (1) be tempted to buy more cause I can see all the choices and (2) once I have eaten it I am away from the Tim Horton’s and can’t buy a second…see, a method to my seemingly lazy decision! 😛 These ones however were just sitting there, near my desk and after I had my one I sooooo wanted a second! I didn’t take one (obviously!) but I sure wanted it. On the weekends when I get one, I am always content with the 1 and never want a second so I think it was cause they were close at hand, that’s why I wanted a second. That’s so not cool. Does that mean when the really tempting stuff is around I am always going to be fighting to not cave in? I somehow thought it would be easier by now…I wonder where I got that dumb idea from? lol.

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I Hated Today, Grr!

1 Dec

Today was such a crappy day at work, ugh, it felt like it was never going to end and it was one disaster after another. Argh! I can’t really go in to deets about what was goin on cause (1) it’s a specialized industry and unless you are in it you won’t understand the terminology and (2) I more then likely signed some kind of document saying I can’t gab. *rolls eyes*

By the end of day, hell, not even the end of day, about 2 hours in to it I was dreaming about throwing my boss out the window (we’re 24 flights up!) or banging my head against a wall so many times I could have the next day off work. 😛 Neither of which I have done…yet! lol. This week is just a crap fest and today was one more pile to add to it.

Lunch was catered today, I had forgotten that so I took a Lean Cuisine, oops. Normally I would have said no to the catered food and just eaten my lunch but I was cranky and decided to eat the free food. It wasn’t too bad – which is part of why I figured it’d be ok, not like it was pizza or anything! There were fresh made sandwiches, pasta salad, gourmet green salad (I swear that’s what they called it! lol), cheese n cracker platter and a selection of cookies brownies and tarts. I had half a sandwich (egg with raw veg, grilled veg, pesto sauce on a grainy bread), 4 penne noodles (yup, I counted) there was some kind of crumbly cheese in the pasta salad and a tomato based um, not sauce but flavouring I guess you’d call it. I also had some cheese, some garlic crackers, some raw veggies and a bite of what turned out to be a very dry not all that flavourfull brownie. So, it sounds like a lot but you have to take in to account the portions I ate. I didn’t think I ate too much but when I was estimating the points after I got home, uh yeah, I was over my points for the day by 1 point. Oops. I may have counted wrong but I always prefer to count high then low so, shrug, I am over. Luckily I didn’t feel hungry so I figured the higher pointed lunch filled me up…I think tho that is flawed cause it is now almost 9pm and I am hungry. sigh.

It’s too late in the day to eat a meal, and I don’t want to have some mindless snack, shrug, so I figure I’ll do the unthinkable and go to bed way early. I know, bed by 10pm – weirdness! But this way I will be unconscious and not aware I am hungry, lol. I really don’t want to go even farther in to my flex points like I know I probably should be doing in this situation and frankly, I am to tired and cranky to really care. *rolls eyes* Ya know, I thought this week was going to go so much smoother cause it started off so well! Ah well, maybe it’ll start getting better from here…cross your fingers for me! 😀

Today I ate:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

Catered Lunch

    – 1/2 sandwich = 3 points (?)

       ( – grainy bread, 1/2 hard boiled egg, veggies, pesto sauce)

    – 4 penne noodles = 1 point

    – 6 garlic crackers = 2 points

    – 4 pieces of cheese = 8 points

    – 1 small bite brownie = 0 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 medium slush = 2 points

Total points eaten = 22.

Keeping in mind today is all about estimating numbers so I could be counting too high or too low, shrug, no real way to know. I know I shouldn’t of had the slush but I had to stop to buy skytrain tickets on the way home and again, in a cranky mood, I figured screw it. shrug.

It’s not a good mind set to let myself get in. I used to over eat when stressed or way upset, I think a lot of people do, and while I didn’t do that this time I also didn’t control myself as much as I normally do. I have decided to look at it as progress though. I mean, there once was a time I would have stopped at McD’s or gone and gotten a donut or come home and made Kraft Dinner or…well, you get the idea, but this time, I didn’t. Sure, I drank the slush but that’s 2 points compared to the 15 points and higher I could have eaten…so, that’s progress right? Just nod and smile so I can pretend you agree with me, k? K. 😀

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Inflated Tummy and Tent-Like Clothes

30 Nov

So, when I am at home you’d never know I lost weight. I wear all the same lounging-around-the-apartment clothes as before which were oversized way back then. I like baggy clothes when I am chillin at home and sleeping, I don’t feel self-conscious because I figure sure it looks like I am wearing a tent-like item but at least you can’t for sure see my rolls. lol. I just am not comfortable in form fitting (aka tight) clothes. Also, I feel like oversized comfy clothes are warmer then form fitting comfy clothes…I don’t know why, since I’m pretty sure this thinking is wrong, but whatev, it’s in my head and I see no reason to change that thinking pattern. 😛

The thing is, sometimes I will catch a glance of just my face in a small mirror and think, huh, my face might have slimmed down a bit. I am not sure it did, I mean come on it’s my face, not like I can exercise it, but maybe my cheekbones are a bit more prominent? But then I go to the washroom and see myself in front of a larger mirror and there is this possibly slimmed down face on top of a body wearing a tent that has no shape. It’s weird, and always make me think I haven’t really changed at all and my whole face slimming theory is crap.

It’s not demoralizing exactly, cause I know the clothes are oversized, but it can mess with my head a bit. Since a big part of weight loss has to do with your head and where it’s at, this messing with it can cause some issues. I think because I am aware of the screwy-ness of my thinking I am safe from it reeking havoc with my eating plan but sometimes it would be nice to catch a glimpse of myself in front of a mirror and not think “oh there I am in my tent” lol. My way around this is every night I indulge in a weird routine. *rolls eyes* After I have washed up I tug my shirt up a bit and turn to the side so I can see my tummy in the mirror, then I turn to look at the front view and the back view…just to see how the budha belly, back fat and side rolls are looking…uh, btw, it’s not looking all that great. 😛 Most of my weight is coming off my ass and upper thighs, weird, I know! shrug.

This is perhaps the worst time of day to do something like this, lol, after all, it’s been an entire day of eating and sitting and whatever-ing so I am…what’s a nice way to put this…inflated. 😛 I think this little routine has a higher chance of messing with my head then wearing the tent-like clothes and yet, not stopping. *rolls eyes*

So what did I eat today…

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 bowl weight watchers soup = 0 points

1 weight watchers english muffin = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 point

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 cup Fire Roasted Red Pepper and Tomato soup = 2 points

1 open faced sandwich

    – 1 weight watchers hamburger bun toasted = 2 points

    – 2 cheese slices = 2 points

    – 4 slices deli turkey = 1 point

    – baby spinach and mustard = 0 points

3 Lifestyle shortbread cookies = 3 points

1 Werther’s chocolate candy = 1 point

Total points eaten 21, yah! 🙂

I ate a bit earlier then normal, well, ok, that’s not accurate, dinner was around my normal time but my evening snack was early which means I got hungry again and have no more points. Durn. So, for the last 2 hours or so my tummy has been having low level grumbling and  I refuse to even look at the kitchen let alone go in it for fear I will break down and eat something. Sucky-ness. I wonder if my tummy will look less inflated cause I am hungry…hmm, something to check for in my night time routine! hehe.

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A Better Week So Far

29 Nov

This week is already starting off better then last week, Yah! 😀 😀

It’s Monday so I had Zumba class after work, I didn’t get to go last week cause of being sick so it was really great getting to go this week. 🙂 There were new moves and new music this week and the ab section was all standing up exercises this time, normally the ab section is done on the floor, change is good! It makes it fun to go cause you know it’s not gonna be the same moves an music every week and it keeps your body from losing the benefits of the exercise, screw you muscle memory! ha! 😉

Also, I have eaten well for 3 days straight, no flex points for moi! I did eat my exercise points tho, but that’s ok. 🙂

So, today I ate:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 small banana = 1 point

1 green apple = 1 point

1 bowl weight watchers veggie soup = 0 points

1 weight watchers english muffin = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Activia Yogurt = 2 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 Cup Fire Roasted Sweet Pepper and Tomato soup = 2 points

1 open faced sandwich = 5 points

    – 1 weight watchers hamburger bun toasted (2)

    – 4 slices deli turkey slices (1)

    – 2 cheese slices (2)

    – baby spinach leaves, mustard (0)

1 piece bread = 2 points

1 tsp margarine = 1 point

1 tbls light peanut butter = 2 points

4 Lifestyles shortbread cookies = 4 points

Exercise Points Earned = 3 points

Total points eaten = 24, but that’s all good cause that’s 21 daily points and 3 exercise points. Perfecto! 😀

I totally copied my dinner today from a friend’s lunch at work that she had last week. lol. It’s an open faced sandwich with cheese, turkey slices, some baby spinach leaves on top and a bit of mustard – practically a work of art! It is soooo good. 🙂 I had it yesterday too. I have never been one to embrace open faced sandwiches, I don’t know why really, I just prefer my sandwiches closed, shrug, but since turkey is so low points wise and the spinach leaves are zero it made sense to do the sandwich open. I should’ve taken a picture it was that good! lol

Oh, so, I kinda cheated on sunday – not food wise! But scale wise. lol. I cheat with the scale so often it’s almost ridiculous. *rolls eyes* My rule is I weigh myself on saturdays, no sooner no later, but quite often I weigh myself on sunday as well cause I don’t like what I saw on saturday and I want to see if the next day is better. lol. Sometimes it works, sometimes not so much. shrug. Well, here’s what happened this past weekend. Saturday I weighed in and was the exact same as the previous week, sucky but my own fault, sigh, well, on sunday I was down 0.8 pounds, yah! That means that as of sunday I am 0.2 pounds away from hitting the 20 pounds lost mark, wOOt! However, I decided to not count the 0.8 pounds loss the scale showed sunday cause this way, next saturday when I weigh in my results will be that much more exciting! Right? Well, as long as the weight keeps going down it’ll be that much more exciting, lol. Since I seem to have found my willpower again I think I will be ok and have a good weigh in this coming saturday but who knows what will happen? Ooooh, the suspense of the unknown future! haha.

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Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

25 Nov

Snoooooow Day! My first contact with a person today was when SB from work called to see if I was going to work, I believe her question went something like “what are we gonna do with all this snow?” – at that point I was running a tad late and was just about to leave my place but had yet to look out a window so I didn’t know what she was talking about. lol. Well, I peeked out my living room curtains and yelped, then said something along the lines of “ah fuck, I don’t wanna go out in that…” Ultimately, both of us ended up at work cause “snow days” are only for kids, grr to kids! lol.

brr, snow.

However, while at work we (“we” being the entire office) kept staring out the wall of windows in shock because of how fast and thick the snow was falling…and a bunch of us kept hoping that the snow would get sooooo bad we’d get to leave early. 🙂 I mean really, the snow was not gonna be that bad that we could easily justify leaving work early, but I have been told that is my outlook on it because I grew up somewhere that gets way worse winter weather then here. lol.

The snow kept up all day, at times it was mixed with freezing rain – joy – 😛 at least in order for it to snow it has to warm up, it was ranging between 0 to -4C all day, not bad at all! For all you Americans that’s 32 – 24.8F 🙂 We were told towards the end of the day we could go home early but by that point I didn’t see any reason to so I stayed my normal shift. shrug.

I find the weather is making me want to eat hot more filling foods – I have a salad in the fridge that I was gonna have for dinner tonight but I just couldn’t do it, I ended up having a wrap filled with cooked veggies and scrambled egg. What I really wanted was a burger on a bun, or a big plate of pasta, or toast – yeah, I know, odd maybe, but I am a bread lover and I’d have killed today for toast with either peanut butter or some jam on it. *big dramatic sigh* lol. If I thought toast would have filled me enough as a dinner I so would have gone with that!

Something else I noticed this week, my lunches are bigger then normal. Ok, tuesday makes sense cause I ate out but the other days? shrug. Something went wrong there. Because of my higher pointed lunches I am going over my points for the day or hitting it right on the mark and while hitting my points exactly is a good thing it’s not so good when you are still hungry! Really not good…uber not good…makes for a cranky hungry redhead…foooooooooooooooood! 😉 heh

I blame it on the weather, it makes me want toast or other heated carbs so I have been eating an english muffin at lunch with my lunches and that is making my lunches way higher in points then normal for me. sigh. I have thawed out the remaining veggie soup and will have that tomorrow for lunch so yah! 0 points for the soup I will eat which means I can eat an english muffin with no worries about being able to eat dinner too. 😀 This is important because after my day job tomorrow I have a nannying job and will have enough time to grab a sub from Subway if I am lucky…if the snow hadn’t plopped down on us I wouldn’t be too worried about my timing tomorrow with grabbing a sub and getting to nannying but people in this city are horrible at driving in snow and go sooooooo slow so I will need way longer to get to the job then normal. *rolls eyes*

This week, food wise, has just been bad. Bad, bad, bad, bad, bad. ugh. I feel like I have gained weight and it’s not a happy feeling. It’s partially tempered by wearing a pair of work pants this week that the last time I wore (couple weeks ago) were not snug but were fitting just nice around the waist…the legs/butt area were looser then strictly fashionable but the waist still fit so, shrug, I wore em. Yesterday I grabbed them from my closet when getting dressed in the moring and found that they are now too large, I can hold the waist out an inch or so and they are so loose everywhere else they have now joined a bunch of other clothes in the “can never be worn again” pile. Yah! 😀 But still, I feel like the success that made those pants too large happened prior to this week and that this week I screwed up so much I am gonna gain weight, it’s so depressing. Feeling this way makes me want to eat even more, I am at times an emotional eater and feeling for days and days depressed about how many flex points I have used and that I have screwed up royally makes me want to eat! *rolls eyes* the amount of times this week I almost ate cake or cookies or chocolate or whatever, there have been many temptations and I have almost eaten all of them! Horrible! I had gotten to a point where the temptations didn’t even cross my radar and what happens? I totally dip and now am seeing the temptations everywhere and want them! Argh!

Here is what I ate today:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 Lean Cuisine Honey Mustard Chicken = 5 points

1 weight watchers english muffin = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow = 1 point

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

Wrap

    – 1 weight watchers wrap = 1 point

    – 1 scrambled egg = 2 points

    – 15 grams light shredded cheese = 1 point

    – 1 tbls creole dijon sauce = 1 point

cooked mix vegg = 0 points

1 pckg Jolly Time popcorn = 1 point

Total points eaten is 21. 😀 Least I didn’t go over – feels like a frickin miracle! lol. I still have two more days before weigh in so two more days of feeling like I totally screwed up but not knowing for sure by how much…sucky. 😦

I won’t be posting tomorrow cause of nannying after working all day – sadness, but I’ll be here saturday afternoon to let you know the results of weigh in!

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Stupid Germs, blarg!

23 Nov

Last Friday I was chillin with KL and she had a sore throat, not a big deal right? But then we spent a bunch of time outside freezing our arses off, then I was dressed all skimpy that evening in the even colder weather and by Saturday what did I have? Yup, a sore throat. grr. I tried to convince myself that I wasn’t getting sick, my throat just hurt cause of having to talk louder in the bar…makes sense to me! Course, it didn’t explain my throat still hurting Sunday but oh well…that’s just a technicality. lol.

Monday I felt awful (jingle*Yesterday was plain awful!~ you can say that again!~ Yesterday was plain awful, but that’s. not now. that’s then!*jingle) – little bit of Annie anyone? – so, back to the topic at hand, Monday I felt like crap. Sore throat, fever, chills, runny and stuffed nose, achey joints, nausea…so basic ickiness. I didn’t even go to Zumba after work I felt that sick! That pisses me off for many reasons, the first is I spent money on those classes – it’s about ten bucks a class and by not going I wasted ten bucks, grr, also, it is the only exercise I get each week so this could very likely negatively affect my weigh in on Saturday, double grr. Today of course I don’t feel as bad, if the class had been Tuesday night instead I totally would have been able to go, triple grr anybody? Oh, and yup, you read that right, I don’t feel anywhere near as bad today, I had a headache for a while and my appetite is nowhere near as high as normal but I figure the smallness of appetite helps make up for the lack of exercise I got (am getting) this week. Cause let’s be honest, I am not gonna do anything during the remaining week that will make up for the lack of Zumba class…that’s why paid classes are the best bet for me – I gotta go, I’ve made a commitment. Leave it up to me and what do I do? I sit…and chill on the comp or watch tv or read a book…shrug, it’s how I roll. lol.

Today was lunch with AC and peeps from work, it was really great. The first time there has been a work-food function and I have taken part in it since starting weight watchers…man, the food was goooooood! We went for Japanese and there were these awesome lunch specials, all under $8 and all kinds of combos, you could basically have anything. I got beef teriyaki with Philadelphia rolls, it comes with a bowl of rice and a bowl of miso soup and a couple veggies (literallly a couple, I had one small piece of broccoli and a carrot stick, lol) there was also a salad but it was drowned in dressing so I left it alone. lol

Today I ate:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 bowl sticky rice = 4 points – per 1 cup

1 bowl miso soup = 2 points – per 1 cup

1 serving beef teriyaki = 7 points?

8 philadelphia rolls = 7 points?

2 cups vine ripened tomato soup = 2 points

2 pieces toast = 2 points

2 tsp margarine = 2 points

I am scared to add up that total…sigh…ok, here goes…aw fuck, I ate 31 points today…just shoot me now, eesh. ugh. This weeks weigh in is gonna suck balls. argh. 😦

Some of those numbers are approximates so it could even be worse…this is why I don’t eat out at the work functions! Talk about learning a lesson! sigh.

With the Philadelphia rolls according to the book 2 large rolls are 3 points, my rolls weren’t large, I am not sure if they’d be described as small or medium but I know they aren’t large. shrug. So I figure 3 rolls equal 3 points, one of the rolls was uber small cause it was the end piece so I don’t feel that one should count as 1 point hence my 7 points for 8 rolls.

The beef teryaki, sigh, I thought I would never eat this again cause when I was reading the weight watchers dining out companion one day I noticed how bad that particular dish was so it immediately went on my “never again list”, and yes, I really do have a list like that! But when I was out today I thought what the heck, treat yourself! Moron that I am, eesh. 2 slices, or 4 ounces is 7 points – can you believe that?!?! What I want to know though is what constitutes a slice? I had a small pile of beef on my plate and I’d say maybe one piece of it could be called a slice, the rest was just small randomly sized pieces…uh, no for sure “slices” there. So maybe try to gauge the 4 ounces you may be thinking…well, as much as I weigh all my food at home I don’t carry a scale around with me, lol, and I don’t know what 4 ounces of cooked meat looks like, shrug. I decided to count 7 points for the beef cause sure, I might have eaten more but I really don’t know, shrug…

The soup and rice were easy to look up so I didn’t have to guess about that at least. lol.

I wasn’t going to eat dinner, I thought I’d skip it to save myself some points but my place is so frickin cold all I could think about was getting something warm in me. I decided to eat some Campbell’s V8 Vine Ripened Tomato soup, it is 1 point for 1 cup which is pretty awesome. I don’t know if I would recommend it though, I mean yeah, the points per serving is great but it was a bit bland, and chunky, and there were a couple spoonfuls that had something crunchy in…weird. Personally I prefer smooth tomato soup for starters…and what’s with the crunchy bits? I couldn’t figure out what that was…I should probaby regret the soup, or at least the toast since they put my points for the day up in to the frickin 30’s but I needed something warm, and a bit bland actually cause my stomach is still kinda off. I love toast. Mmm. I should have just had the toast…course I only think of that now! Ah well, least I got a couple veggie servings from the soup. 🙂

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Dieters Hell

21 Nov

I found a whole new hell-on-earth, one I never even thought of and therefore was quite unprepared for…

The grocery store during the holiday season *shudder* I never want to go back and yet, it is a place everyone must visit usually once a week.

Why is it a hellish place to be? Simple. Christmas goodies. Oh you know what I mean, all those chocolates, cookies, tins of various sweet treats that all come out this time of year. It’s a dieters hell, even a weight watcher dieters hell cause sure, the program is based on the principle you can eat anything you want you just have to portion it out but really? Do you really think you can buy that box of danish cookies, the tin of seashell chocolates, the cadbury’s chocolate fingers, the ferrero rocher, the Almond Roc, the chocolate orange and all those other things that are now sitting temptingly at the end of every aisle in the grocery store and not blow your diet? Hell no!

They totally took me by surprise, I turned a corner in the grocery store and boom! The empty space that used to be for traffic flow was filled with displays and all those displays were some kind of chocolate or cookie…or cookie chocolate! heh I walked very quickly through that section but I must admit I cast quite a few longing gazes at a lot of those treats. sigh. Oh, and yeah, they were all on sale too! Torture!

So what’s a dieter to do during this loooooooong season? Eat before you shop! lol. Sounds weird but it works. I had just been  out for a late lunch with friends so I was disturbingly full and had no interest in any food, I bought the things on my list and that was it but I know if I had been even a tiny bit hungry it would have been hard to resist picking up something from one of those displays. So my plan for the next, hmm, 7 weeks, is to not step foot in a grocery store unless I am not hungry. Hopefully this works…oh, and the 7 weeks? I figure all the stuff that doesn’t sell will go on sale in the new year so I am enacting this plan through to the second week or so of January. Cross your fingers for me!

Today I ate:

1 Activia = 2 points

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

1 chocolate glazed timbit = 2 points

White Spot

    – Southwest Bigger Burger (6oz 100% Canadian beef burger with jalapeno jack cheese, marinated onions, chipotle mayo, lettuce and tomato), oh and to make it worse it comes with a spoonful of coleslaw and a serving of fries – I swapped out the normal fries for sweet potato fries (what can I say, I am weak when it comes to sweet potato fries!)

So, I have no idea the points of that burger, coleslaw and fries, sigh. The restaurant’s website doesn’t have nutritional information which by this point we all know is a bad thing. lol. According to weight watchers 1 fast food burger is 6 points, or if you look at the beef the least healthy beef option in the book (85% lean/15% fat) for 3 oz is 5 points, I know my burger was 6oz so my meat alone may have been 10 points (depending how lean the beef was), the bun was probably 2-4 points (let’s go with 4 just in case) and then there are the toppings, sigh, the onions, tomato and lettuce are zero (small mercies) but the cheese, oh the cheese, that was probably 3 (it was 1 slice but no way in hell that was light cheese like what I buy for at home lol) and the sauce (the mayo), there was about 2 tbls of mayo on that and I highly doubt it was light so there is another 2 points…let’s tally this shall we?

Beef = 10, Bun = 4, Cheese = 3, Mayo = 2, That’s 19 right there, but don’t forget the grease used to cook it all (what, you thought I forgot? lol), so it’s actually higher, then there are the yam fries and the coleslaw. 1/2 cup of coleslaw is 4 points, there was only a spoonful of coleslaw so maybe 2 points worth? The yam fries, well, the ones I make at home are 3 points a serving and the restaurant was a way way way bigger serving then what I get at home, so easy 12 points of fries if not more.

I didn’t eat all the burger, but I did eat most of it, and I eventually ate all the fries, lol, I brought about half of them home and ended up snacking on them later in the evening, double sigh.

I don’t know what got in to me! I went in to that restaurant fully intending to order a salad but it’s so frickin cold out that the idea of a salad was just laughable, I wanted something warm! But did I pick a healthy warm dish? Nope. I followed my friends choices and got a burger. Dummy! Argh!

I will have to be very very careful this week, I never start a week having used so many flex points, it’s a little scary. I am going out for lunch Tuesday with peeps from work, it’s been planned for a while and I can’t get out of it (to be honest I don’t want to either, lol) we are going for Japanese so I have no idea what I will order. Also, it’s a restaurant I have never been to so I don’t know what to expect from the menu…hopefully there are some healthy choices. But other then that lunch I absolutely must stick to my points cause I don’t wanna go over my flex points, not when I am this-close to reaching 20 lbs lost. I wonder if sub-consciously I am self-sabatoging my diet so I don’t reach the 20 lb mark…hmm, something to ponder this week…

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Epic!

20 Nov

Yesterday was an Epic day – in all ways! 😀 😀

It started off with breakfast with KL at the Crepe Cafe, a restaurant that does not provide any nutritional information, grr to that! lol. Restaurants not providing nutritional information has become quite a pet peeve of mine, sigh. So I went online today and googled nutritional information for some of the items in my breakfast so I could at least get an approximation of what I ate. I had eggs benedict with hash browns, yum! And yes I know, point wise it was a bit of a nightmare. lol. The eggs and english muffin I was able to calculate but the hollandaise sauce and back bacon I had to look up. Gotta love the internet!

On www.caloriegallery.com I found that for 1.37 ml of hollandaise sauce the points are 6. Now, I have no real concept of what 1.37 ml is…is that a serving? Half a serving? I dunno…so I am couting 6 points for the sauce. Although, the sauce is not classic hollandaise sauce, I know this cause of how it tasted and the texture. It seemed more whipped, lighter, thinner…and to be honest, didn’t taste all that great. It wasn’t not good tasting it just wasn’t the right flavour for the sauce, ya know? It burns my ass a bit that I wasted points on something that doesn’t taste all that good but oh well, it’s done with now. shrug. If I remember I will look at a package of the sauce at the grocery store tomorrow and check out the nutritional info, see if that varies from the website, also, I’ll have a better understanding of the measurement of the serving on the packaging so that should help me to understand better. 🙂

The hash browns, sigh, I ended up using the nutritional information from a restaurant called Perkins Restaurant…I have never heard of them but I am going to assume that most restaurants make their hash browns in a similar manner and serve similar portions…cross your fingers I am right! lol. Nutritional calculator put the hash browns at 2 points per serving, so it could be worse. Oh, and the back bacon, for 3 slices it is 1 point (that is Maple Leaf brand btw), there were 2 slices on each benny but I didn’t eat it all so I figure I maybe ate in total 3 pieces of the bacon but prob not. Either way, it’s only 1 point so that’s fine.

In total, that breakfast cost me 16 points which is absolutely ridiculous! It was a special day though so I am gonna just let it go and forget about it. 🙂

The reason it was a special day? Harry Potter came out!!!! 😀 😀 😀 That was why KL and I met up for breakfast, we went to the 11:15 am showing of Harry Potter and thought we’d eat first. That movie, epic! I won’t say anything specific about it cause I don’t want to spoil it for anyone but let me just say – you should see it! There you go, I will leave you alone now. lol

After the movie KL and I went shopping, her bday was this past wednesday and friday night was gonna be her party so we had to find her something to wear! She already had an outfit but wanted to see if she could find something better. shrug. Makes sense to me. 🙂 I already had an outfit picked out too but she somehow ended up convincing me to buy this dress we came accross and made me promise to wear it to the bar. Now, here’s the thing, I don’t wear dresses, not my thing. I mean, if I absolutely have to I can wear a dress but I don’t. lol. Dressing up for me is wearing nice pants and a well, a nice top. lol. Pair it with some jewellry and voila I am done. I wasn’t allowed to get away with that this time. The dress is kinda simple, it has an empire waist (which is good cause it helps hide my tummy and the full width of my hips!) and it shows off my breasts quite nicely. teehee. Hey, if you got it flaunt it! It has no sleeves so I worried I’d freeze but ah well, sacrifices must be made for fashion. *rolls eyes*. I have been engaged in an epic search for a pair of rockin boots, still looking btw, sigh, if I had found a pair I would have worn them with the dress but instead I wore black tights and black flats. I was pleasantly surprised how good I looked, the 18 lbs lost was totally noticeable in that outfit…and in how I felt in that outift. 😀

Oh, so back to the epic day, after the shopping we each went home, groomed, I scarfed down a salad and some toast, then out to party town I went. I hadn’t decided how much I was gonna drink…it’s a hard decision to make. I was factoring in calories, parking, public transit, temperature, possible hangover, all kinds of things but the deciding factor that actually made my decision for me? I left my place and walked in to a snow storm…well, storm is an exageration but it was snowing and boom! decision made! No way in hell would I be taking public transit, at night, in the cold windy snow falling weather to get to the bar and then repeating that but later at night when it is going to be even colder to get home…not in that outfit! Nuh-uh! So, I drove downtown, got a wicked great parking spot, had one or two drinks right at the very beginning of the night to toast my friend’s bday and then chugged water the rest of the night and danced the night away. I love dancing. 🙂 It’s a good thing that’s how it went down too cause by the end of the night KL was sick, everyone was so amazing plastered, and they all missed the last seabus back to the north shore so they’d of had to spend a fortune to get a cab so I did the dd thing and gave em all a ride home. Didn’t get home till about 3:30am which meant I slept in even later then normal today but I figure that’s better then all of them having to find a way home when they were that drunk. shrug.

All in all, yesterday, like I have said, was Epic. A totally awesome day from beginning to end!

Today…not so awesome. I slept so late that when I woke up I felt sick…weird, huh? If I didn’t know how much I actually drank I’d think I was hungover but I can’t be, sigh, so I am not sure exactly what is wrong. shrug. I have a headache, am tired, felt so incredibly sick to my stomach earlier, ugh, not pleasant. I guess such an Epic day should be followed by a crappy day – the universe has to balance itself out right? lol. I finally managed to be able to eat and for the day am sitting at 16 points total, I am not gonna be able to get any higher cause (1) it’s 11:30pm and when this is done I am gonna go to bed and (2) tummy is still anti food and just couldn’t handle more. Oh, and for all it’s unhappiness I kept wanting to get McDonald’s today, lol, I think cause when I am hung over I would eat either kraft dinner or McDonald’s, I don’t have any KD in the house and McD’s is really close so my brain kept wandering to McD’s, lol, but I decided no cause I don’t feel well and I wouldn’t enjoy it as much as I would if I was eating it when I felt fine and well, I didn’t want to go driving in the snow just for a big mac lol. So then my brain clicked over at one point to timbits from Tim Horton’s, sigh, and yum. lol. I was contemplating going to Timmy’s and getting 5 timbits cause that would use the rest of my points for the day and I could just sit and vegg while gorging on them but that went out the window cause I didn’t know when they closed and couldn’t find store hours online, if I got all the way there and they were closed I’d have a fit! lol, also, it seemed a stupid way to eat my points and it was just too much effort for my poor headachy body. shrug. So I made some tea and had a weight watcher wrap with some light peanut butter and nutella in it, yum! It fixed my craving for sweet and was easier and cheaper to do. Yah!

I am sure tomorrow will be a more normal day, no recovering or partying or anything, which I think I am looking forward to. But, one more thing before I go…

WEIGH IN DAY!! I wasn’t gonna weigh myself today, what with the crazy day of yesterday but I decided to give it a go and this past week I lost…1 pound! Yah! That means I am at 19 pounds total! 😀 😀 😀 I think 1 pound is great since the whole week I felt off and diconnected to my food choices. I can’t wait to be able to say I lost 20 pounds, hopefully that will be next saturday!

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I’m Baaaaaack! Finally!

18 Nov

Holy crap, never have I been so internet deprived – I thought I was gonna cry some evenings I was so at a loss without my modem. Why oh why did the modem have to die?!?! Torture! Complete and total torture! But I survived, the torture is over and I am happily sitting on my couch writing up a blog post while wearing sweats and drinking a cup of tea…oh, my tv is on too and I am doing laundry. See? This is why I need internet at home, not only am I blogging I am doing lots of other stuff – ah the life of multi taskers, what’s a little scary (when you think about it and generally I try not to think about it) is I consider this a relaxing evening but I am doing at minimum 4 things while thinking about all the other things I also have to do…*rolls eyes*…do people ever actually just sit and do nothing? Or sit and do one thing? Like say…just watch tv? Or just read a book? Who knows! Doesn’t really matter cause this blog is not about the lack of relaxing time we have nowadays, it is about weight loss and my progress…sooooooo – let’s recap the past week an a bit! 😀

I discovered French Toast – did I write about that last time? I dunno…and no, I don’t mean I didn’t know what french toast was I just didn’t realize I could fit it in to my eating plan, it’s something I can only eat on the weekends cause (1) it takes too much effort and (2) yes I can fit it in points wise but not on a normal work day cause for the toast and toppings it’s like 10 points – totally yummy and worth the points tho! 😀

I found this yummy Creole Dijon sauce – it’s meant for chicken but I so far I have used it on a hamburger, with chicken, in home made fajitas, on brown rice, in a grilled cheese sandwich…on all kinds of things. 1 tablespoon is 1 point and so far 1 tblsp has been plenty for everything I have put it on. It’s a bit spicy but not too much, really, it’s kinda perfect. 🙂

Last weekend I made vegetarian chili – the recipe is from Yves http://www.yvesveggie.com/ 

same texture as ground beef - but no dealing with the dead cow, lol.

It uses a Meatless Ground Round (picture to the right) that is quite good. I won’t say it is tasty cause it takes on the taste of whatver spices you cook with so it doesn’t have it’s own taste it steals the taste of what’s around it. The thief! lol. I will repeat what I have said in the past, no, I am not a vegetarian, I just don’t like cooking with meat cause I don’t like handling raw meat so I use this…sometimes. I never would have tried it but when I was living with RA I learned about vegetarian eating – I actually researched vegetarian dishes before we moved in together so I’d have suggestions we could both eat. Aren’t I just so nice? lol.

So, the chili, the best thing about chili is you can do whatever the hell you want with it. Don’t feel like cutting up a fresh carrot? Don’t put it in! Have some frozen veggies? Throw em in! You get the idea. 🙂 I looooove corn in stews an stuff so I put corn in mine, with some mixed frozen veg, I also put in an onion and some canned diced tomatoes. For me it’s the perfect combo of veggies. 😛 I think the only thing I don’t really like about the recipe is that it uses tomato paste to thicken it up…I don’t use tomato paste for any other recipe, ever, so whenever I make the chili I have to buy the tomato paste and then I try to figure out what to do with the rest of it, I inevitably fail in thinking of something and throw it out, sigh. It’s not like the paste is expensive but still, it’s a waste.
The chili has been my lunch everyday this week, it makes six servings, and is 5 points per serving. So, kinda high but it’s so filling you don’t need to pair it with a lot of other things. My first day eating it I paired it with an english muffin, my bad, I used a lot of points for that meal! Smaller dinner to compensate of course, lol.
Last weekend my weigh in day rocked! I lost over a pound 😀 😀 and that brought me to a total weight loss of…get ready for it…18 pounds! wOOt! Isn’t that crazeee? It seems like such a high number, it’s a little mind boggling. I keep looking at myself in mirrors and trying to see the difference in what I look like. I can see it and yet, sometimes I can’t, odd huh? Today I could totally see it with the way my shirt fit, my waist is tucking in a bit more at the sides, probably not all that impressive to others but because I know what it looked like before it pleases me a lot – everytime I went to the bathroom at work I ended up checking myself out in the mirrors, lol. Who knew it was possible for me to become even more vain? 😛
Monday – I had Zumba class and it was way fun but I hurt my back, I am not sure what I did but by Tuesday morning the pain was so bad I couldn’t go to work…mostly cause I could barely move. ugh. I spent the day providing support to my back and keeping heat on it. The heat seemed to help but what I didn’t realize was it was too high and I ended burning my back, great huh? So Wednesday at work I hurt cause of the back pain and I hurt cause of the burn…it was a wonderous day, really. *rolls eyes* I had a nanny job after work so it was a loooong day. I ended up taking the kids swimming so I was sitting in a pool area for a bit over an hour, pool areas are always kept nice n warm and the indirect heat from the room seemed to really help, weird huh?
Thursday (today) – my back wasn’t so bad at the beginning of the day but by the afternoon it was really hurting. Sitting for so long at my desk seems to make it worse so every now and then I’d get up and walk around, it didn’t help a lot but it helped a little. shrug. I’ll take what I can get. lol.
I really wish I hadn’t had to take Tuesday off cause I already booked off this Friday so that’ll be two days this week I don’t get paid, shit. 😦 The reason I took the day off? HARRY POTTER!!! Oh yah baby, I am a HP fan! 😀 😛 My friend KL and I wanted to go to a midnight viewing tonight but couldn’t get tickets, this will be the first time since they started the midnight showings I won’t see a HP movie at 12:01…sadness. I had the Friday booked off cause I knew I’d be useless at work after watching the midnight movie and since KL and I both already had the Friday off we decided to go to a day time showing of the movie on the Friday. So tomorrow at 11:15am I will be sitting in a theatre with KL watching HP – awesome! 😀
Oh, back to the weight loss, my weight has gone down low enough so I am now at 21 points per day. 😀 Seems great right? And it kinda is but this week has been pretty bad points wise, sigh, I keep thinking if I was still at 22 points per day I wouldn’t be using so many flex points, lol, but hey, being at 21 points rocks cause it means I am down another weight category. *happy dance*
So there we go, that caught you up to where I am now. Tomorrow will be a bit of a oops fest points wise cause there is the breakfast planned before HP then that night I am out at a bar with KL and others partying up for her bday, I won’t be drinking a lot cause (1) calories and (2) I take the skytrain back to where I leave my car when I am on my way home so I can’t be drunk or I won’t be able to drive the last leg of my trip home, sigh. I may put off weighing in until Sunday…I’ll see how I feel when I finally get up on Saturday. teehee.

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Soooooooo Close!

31 Oct

We all know there are a variety of things out there that can hamper our weight loss journeys. Whether it is stress, temptations, weak will power, holidays…whatever, there are a lot of things that can get in our way. Some things we can control, like not over eating during the holidays, some things we can’t control as much, like having to deal with a sudden and stressful situation. That is what I had happen last week, I found out tuesday night that lay offs were happening at work and since then I had major stress. Stress I would get laid off, stress because one of my good friends got laid off, basically I had stress. lol.

I am not good at dealing with stress. Sure, with certain types of stressful situations I am fine but uber stressful? Nope, not my thing. In general, I have a very stress free existence. I don’t mean that I don’t have things in my life that cause stress, I just mean I don’t allow those things to stress me out. I just dismiss things, what’s that expressions…as a duck sheds water…that is how I am with stress. shrug. It rolls off my back – it’s a good way of being, I think, but it also means that when something out of my control pops up that is uber stressful my body freaks. sigh.

The freaking of this past week caused my body to have stomach pain, headaches, bad sleep and a host of other physical symptoms. Through all this I was most worried that the stress would cause me to not lose weight – as of last weekends weigh in day I was 0.8 pounds away from reaching 15 pounds lost and I really wanted to reach that 15 pounds! I wanted to reach it cause, hello? 15 pounds is awesome! and also cause it meant I had reached my first goal and would be allowed to purchase a full length mirror and go through my closet trying on all my clothes to see what fit and what was too large and basically having a fun clothes day. I have been slowly finding clothes in my closet that I can fit in to that 15 pounds ago I was too fat for, I am way excited to find even more of them but decided to make an event of it – hence the waiting till I reached 15 pounds lost. 🙂

Well, I was sorta right and sorta wrong about the stress causing me weigh in day problems. See, weigh in day is every Saturday at 2pm, this became the day and time cause (1) I wanted it on a weekend and (2) the first couple weeks I slept in way late and that was the time I was finally up and about so I have kept it that way ever since. The problem with having weigh in time so late in the day is that if I have anything to do on the saturday that causes me to get up earlier it screws up my weigh in. Anyone who weighs in weekly knows that stepping on that scale around the same time each week is vital.

So friday night I was out with a friend and we ended up eating dinner later then normal, that might have been ok except I also had to get up earlier then normal on the saturday cause I have a nannying job and no way would I get there in time if I wasn’t already up, dressed and fed by 2pm. When I stepped on that scale saturday I was nervous and felt I had every right to be, especially when the number popped up and I had gained 0.2 pounds, yup, you read that right, I gained. sigh. I wasn’t upset about it, which is kinda surprising, but I knew there was a good chance the scale would be mean that morning because of (1) all the stress, (2) later dinner friday and (3) early weigh in time saturday…it was a recipe for a bad number. lol.

I decided to not let it get to me, after all, what could I do about it? Sure, I was now a full freakin pound away from 15 pounds lost instead of 0.8 but sigh, you just gotta let these things go. However, I did decide to re-weigh myself on the sunday, just to see if the number changed…mostly cause I was curious if I had gained the 0.2 pounds because of the dinner, the early weigh in or the stress. I figured if it was the stress the number would still be about the same but if it was a combo of the other two factors maybe the number would be different. Well, woohoo! The number was different! *happy dance* I had lost 1 pound so now I am only 0.2 pounds away from that 15 pounds lost! I almost cheated and went and bought the mirror, I thought that I am soooo close and for sure I will lose that 0.2 this week so why not get it this weekend and have it all ready for use next weekend when going through the clothes in my closet? Right? Well, I decided not to. Cause I haven’t reached the 15 pounds so if I bought the mirror I would be cheating myself out of the celebration of buying it cause I had reached a goal. Does that make sense? Also, if I bought the mirror before I reached the 15 pounds then what happens with my next goal? K, sure, I haven’t actually set a second goal yet, lol, but say I set a goal so that when I lose 30 pounds I get to buy, I dunno, really rockin boots, well, if I pre-buy this goal then for the next goal it will be even easier to say “meh, I am only 5 pounds away from reaching the 30 pound mark, for sure I will reach it so I’ll go buy the boots now” – then not only am I cheating myself out of my prize again! I am cheating at an even earlier time…which you may say I won’t do but I probably would. By buying early now I am practically giving my future self permission to cheat. *rolls eyes* that may sound stupid but it’s how I work. Ya gotta set precedent ya know? …all those law classes at work I guess. lol.

So here I am, 0.2 pounds away from my 15 pounds lost mark and feeling uber happy about that. Even with all that stress last week I stuck to my points and did what I was supposed to and I guess it worked. Sure, I didn’t lose a lot but considering everything that was going on last week, I am happy I lost anything at all. Oh, and combine all that stress with me not exercising…not even once! Oy! Bad move me. lol. I am hopefully starting up a new exercise class tomorrow so I’ll let you know how that goes.

Today I ate:

3 pieces french toast = 7 points

3 tbls maple syrup = 2 points

3 tsp brown sugar = 1 point

2 pieces turkey bacon = 2 points

2 cups kettle corn = 1 1/4 point

1 Mr Noodle chicken flavour = 8 points

1 Quaker Crunch’ers = 2 points

That puts me at 23 1/4 points eaten for the day. Crap. I forgot to write down the turkey bacon in my tracking book and only now remembered it, so that messed up my points for today. I hate forgetting to put things down in my tracker cause that means when I am looking at getting a snack or something I think I have more points to play with then I do, grr.

I think I normally forget to write things down on the weekend cause I am more lax about things, ya know? I am not being controlled by the schedule at work or anything which makes it easier to just slack. Ah well, 1 1/4 points over isn’t gonna kill me, and ya know what? That french toast was sooooo worth it! Mmm! It’s the first time I have ever made french toast, I had to figure out what to do by memory and I am pleasantly surprised I figured it out. So yummy! 😀

Hopefully tomorrow the new work out class works out cause that’ll mean I have one guaranteed physical activity a week for I think it’s 6 weeks, then I can combine with that my 11 visit drop in pass for the local community centre, I can use the pass for the exercise room so I will try to pick one day a week I will for sure go and voila! back to two exercise days a week. 😀 Wish me luck!

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