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Weigh In Day!!

4 Jul

OMG OMG OMG I LOST WEIGHT!!!!!! wOOt!!! 😀 😀 😀

I s’pose I shouldn’t be quite so excited about it since it was only a small-ish amount but I don’t care, it’s my first documented weight loss so I am gonna continue to do my happy boogie dance. lol.

I lost…ready for it?…1.8 pounds! That’s only 0.2 pounds under 2 pounds and my goal is to lose 2 pounds a week so I almost made it! Maybe I shouldn’t be so glad about it since I didn’t make my 2 pound goal for the week but I think I did pretty well so glad I shall be. 🙂

Now what did I do this momentous day, did I celebrate by drinking only water? Going for a hike? Eating super healthy because of being inspired? Well…no. I started the day off pretty well, a nice big healthy salad but then the day snowballed (food wise) and now I have eaten more points in this one day then in any day since this whole adventure started. Not good! I thought if my weighing in showed a weight loss I’d be even more inspired and do even better but it appears to have a slightly opposite affect. I didn’t feel that “oh, I lost weight so it’s ok to eat now” it was more “I only had a salad today and I have been doing so well it’s ok if I use some extra points” Not the best way to be thinking!

On a good note I felt great about myself all day; even though logically I know I don’t look any different I felt better about how I look and as a result felt better it my clothes and didn’t feel like some overweight ugly blob that everyone was looking at and judging. I know this won’t last probably longer then today; such a small amount of weight loss will not create a permanent change in my perception of my body but for today it was great. I think, in the coming weeks if it gets harder and I am really tempted to cheat I will try really hard to remember this feeling and realize that when I have lost 10 pounds the feeling will be even bigger and maybe slightly more permanent. Cause, a 10 pound loss would have more of an impact on what I look like, right? Goes to figure that the feeling of not looking like a horrible bump on a log might be a tad more permanent when I will actually look different, right?

Oh, on a (slight) side note, the pants that are my other gauge of weight loss did not fit better – not that I could notice anyways. shrug. Guess the weight came off some other section of my body. At this point I don’t really care where it came off, I am just glad it came off! lol.

Most of my food points today are guesses because the roomie and I went to the Night Market – the Night Market is like an outdoor fair with some games, one pathetic ride and a lot of booths selling food and random oddities (mostly over priced jewellery). It was alright, nothing so amazingly great that I just have to go back but it was fun as a one off. However, due to the food options and the face that in places like that I am always tempted to spend money I don’t have I probably won’t go back.

Ok, so here is what I ate (brace yourself!)

1 Fresh Express Salad Salsa Supreme = 8 points

2 pieces of toast = 2 points

2 tsp marg = 2 points

1/2 medium slush = 1 point

1 cup cherries = 1 point

potato on a stick (yes, you read that right lol) = 6 points

1 steamed bbq pork bun = 4 points

1 duck wrap = 5 points

1 bubble tea = 7 points (can you believe that?!?!)

So, that puts me at…I can’t believe I am admitting this, 36 points! I am actually ashamed. It’s easy to over eat and not feel ashamed about it when you aren’t tracking what you are eating; you can convince yourself you didn’t eat all that much or that what you ate wasn’t all that bad but seeing it written down like this, oh man, not good!  I guess that will be the inspiration I need to keep at it; that combined with the scale number going down down down.

potato on a stick…mine was drizzled with ketchop, tasted like a big french fry!

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Blackberries, Tattoos and Weight Loss

3 Jul

So it has been a busy couple days; yesterday I went shopping and came away with a Blackberry Bold and today after work I went shopping and came away with an inner wrist tattoo…ah the things we do to ourselves. When did we stop spending all our money on shoes? lol. The reason I am telling you this is because to look at my posts I am obsessed with Weight Watchers, you’d think my life revolved around it…sadly, it kinda does.

I was out tonight with a friend, KL, and we wanted to grab a bite to eat before going to a movie. KL wanted to hit up this nice looking sushi place and I had to go to Subway…that’s right, I said had. I pre-calculated my points so I knew what I would be tallying up if I ate the already chosen sub whereas if I went for sushi I’d be guessing and I know I would have eaten over my points. sigh. I sat with KL while she ate and it looked and smelled sooooo good but not one little bite went past my lips. While I am marginally happy about my apparently increasing willpower when it comes to food I am sad that I couldn’t partake in the sushi feast.

You are supposed to be able to eat anything you want on Weight Watchers but that’s a bit of  a lie, I couldn’t have eaten what I wanted at that sushi restaurant not without using a ridiculous amount of flex points. I  have gradually been cutting out of my life foods that don’t fall in to the points realm, Almond Roca (3 pieces = 6 points) – in my opinion not worth it so I have cut them out. I will miss them but I’d rather be skinny then eat Almond Roca. But sushi??? I have given up so many foods already and it looks like the list is just going to keep getting longer.

So now it is almost midnight, I am freakin tired and am I sleeping? Nope I am doing laundry and worrying about tomorrow because tomorrow is….dun dun dun…Weigh In Day *insert scary music here* Will I lose weight? Will I gain weight? Will I stay the same? Will the pants fit any differently, and if so a good or a bad different? I want to know but I am scared to find out; what if I have been doing all this work (and it is work!) and nothing has come of it? I know I have to be patient, I keep trying to remind myself of that, maybe this first week weigh in I won’t lose anything, maybe it will take longer to get results but I am a result oriented person and I need to see results to keep me motivated. Will I be able to keep going if the scale doesn’t show I have lost weight? I guess there is nothing to do about it until tomorrow when I weigh myself and see what my reaction is to whatever that damn digital screen tells me.

So here’s my food for the day:

1 bagel = 3 points

1 tbsp light cream cheese = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Shrimp and Scallop Pasta Bowl from M&M Meath Shops = 6 points

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1/2 small Blenz Fruitchillo with yogurt = 4 points

6″ Subway Turkey sub on 9 grain whole wheat = 6 points

extra stuff on sub (cheese, light may, mustard) = 4 points

1 package popcorn = 1 point

That puts me at a total of…28

Aw shit, how’d that happen? Admittedly some of the points are estimated so maybe I didn’t do as badly as I calculated but maybe I did worse? And the day before weigh in day! Argh! The sub is 6 points, that’s taking the nutritional info from the Subway site but their info doesn’t include the light mayo, mustard and cheese I got put on so I had to guestimate how many extra points that is. And the Blenz drink, well, the Blenz website is not as helpful as I would like for nutritional info, sigh. All their calculations are based on the medium sized drink…I had a small and only drank half of that! I have no idea how many points that is so I took the 9 points the medium drink is and pared it back a bit. shrug. It’s the best I can do.

I also broke a cardinal rule, oh dear, never ever eat anything salty the last couple days before weigh in day cause you’ll retain water…and what did I do? I ate popcorn while sitting here typing, dammit! I needed a snack though and it seemed perfect, wasn’t till I was eating it I realized the mistake I was making. *rolls eyes* Maybe today I was trying to sabotage myself so that if I fail tomorrow on the scale I have built in excuses (oh, I probably did lose weight but I am retaining water from the popcorn so the scale doesn’t reflect it) Someone needs to smack me tomorrow if I write something like that down…that sounds like a joke but I mean it! I have a horrible habit of self sabotaging myself and to that I say No More!!!

Now, I am off to tend to the tattoo, hopefully the next time I type I will be a couple pounds lighter! 🙂

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Danger Will Robinson Danger!!!!

29 Jun

OMG, I broke one of the biggest rules of all dieters, I went to the grocery store when I was…hungry!!! Ack! I know better then to do that but I had to go after work and I was sooooo hungry – that’s my fault, I didn’t eat enough during the day. *rolls eyes*

I went to a Save On Foods, they always have various things that are on sale out near the front of the store so you pass by these items on your way to carts (on the right) or baskets (on the left), well, I saw the tables with sale items and thought I’d take a look, as I walked towards one of the tables I realized what was on it, PIE!! Crap!! I must have amused anyone who was looking at me because as soon as I realized what I was seeing (the evil bad for me perfectly baked to a golden brown crust pies, sigh) I turned a sharp 90 degrees and aimed for the baskets instead…all the while muttering under my breath “pie, crap, don’t look at it!” Cause you know, if you don’t look at it it can’t suck you in…lol

Instead I went in to the produce section and bought fruit and salad, yah me! lol. I also got other stuff from the non-produce section, one of the best things I discovered today was a Weight Watchers approved popcorn – who knew?!

Only 1 Point!

The packaging is amusing, it warns you that the package will take less time in the microwave then traditional popcorn packages to pop…welll duh! The packages are less then half the size of a “normal” popcorn package, of course it will take less time! I got 2 flavours, traditional butter and Kettle Corn, I am a sucker for Kettle Corn, Mmmmmm. I ate a package of the Kettle Corn this evening, it’s good, not so much the regular Kettle Corn flavour but I think that’s a flaw of all microwave popcorns, I have yet to try one that claims to be Kettle Corn that actually tastes like Kettle Corn. For this one I say good effort and since you’re yummy and low in points I will forgive you for not tasting exactly like the flavour your supposed to. Yes, I talk to some of my food, it’s ok, I am still as sane as you thought I was at the beginning of this post. 😛

You can go to the company website at www.jollytime.com and get coupons – well, you might be able to get coupons, they wouldn’t print for me but oh well. They also have a thing on there that you can get a free reusable shopping bag or find boxes with free bowling coupons on it. shrug. Not my thing but it’s all good.

After that store I hit up a M&M Meat Shop, www.mmmeatshops.com, my mom suggested them. They have these fish steaks with sauce that are not overly expensive and you can buy single servings so you’re not stuck buying a huge box and eating fish steaks for two weeks straight. lol. I got the one with dill sauce but there was a whole list of sauces you could choose from. 🙂

I have gone down in points allowed per day; not promising for my hunger pangs! eesh. When I started this program I was scared to weigh myself so I guessed my weight based on what it was last time I weighed myself. lol. I know! Not the best way to go about things. 🙂 That put me in the 180s, well, I weighed myself this past saturday (I have chosen saturdays as my weigh in day) and I am in the 170s which means I go down a point, now I only get 23 a day…I am hoping that 1 point will (a) make a big difference in my weight loss per week and (b) not make such a huge impact in my daily life that I feel like I am starving. That seems like a fine line to balance but here’s hoping!

My food today:

1 bagel = 4 points

1 tbsp Philly Light CreamCheese = 1

tea = o points

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 cup Campbell’s butternut squash soup = 1 point

salad = 0 points

1 tbsp salad dressing = 1

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt cup = 2 points

1/2 cup Heinz Brown Sugar and Bacon Baked Beans = 3 points

1 piece Safeway bread toast = 2 points

1 pouch Jolly Time Kettle Corn = 1 point

This puts me at a daily total of 18.

I know I should use the rest of my points on something healthy like fruit but it will take a lot of fruit to use up 5 points and it’s too late in the evening for that so instead I will finish off my day with cookies and milk, yum! 🙂

The Brown Sugar and Bacon flavour Baked Beans are not as good as the Maple Flavoured Baked Beans (also Heinz) and this flavour is higher in points so I don’t think I will get them again. I was pleasantly surprised when I learned how low in points baked beans are; they are so filling and low in points they make the perfect dinner (putting them on top of a piece of toast of course, lol). Oh, and I forgot to list my water, I am drinking it, not as much today as I was managing by the end of last week, I think my lack of water drinking over the weekend impaired my ability to drink as much as I had been last week. I will spend this week working back up to my multiple glasses of water a day and try not to screw it up next weekend.

Hmm, increase water while losing a point per day of food…it’s gonna be an interesting week!

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Psychology say what???

28 Jun

So I am learning that there is a psychological component to this losing weight thing. Today has been really hard and not because I am hungry but because I want to eat; the eating wouldn’t be serving any purpose except to let me indulge in my food cravings so I am trying really hard to not cave but oh I want to!

I drove my roomie to the ferry, originally she was getting an early morning ferry so I immediately thought “sweet! after I drop her off I will pick up McDonald’s breakfast”. See, I love McD’s and almost never get the breakfast cause weekdays even though I am up early I am not going to detour to a McD’s on my way to work and on weekends I sleep in too late. shrug. Not a huge deal, it just makes it more of a treat when I get it. 🙂 So I have it set in my head that certain activities create the opportunity for McD’s breakfast and I jump at those chances; these opportunities are road trips, early morning errands – things like that. When I got home last night R informed me that she was going to take a slightly later ferry, no biggy, it was actually better for me cause it meant I would have more time to sleep but when I was driving I realized this meant I wouldn’t get my McD’s breakfast cause it would be over by the time I could get to a location. This should have been a relief cause it meant I wouldn’t have to fight my natural urge to turn in to the drive thru but I started thinking I’d trade in the Breakfast Bagel for a cheeseburger and fries, *rolls eyes*, that’s even worse! In the end I didn’t go, I drove home and thought that would be the end of it…it wasn’t. The weather today is rainy, kinda grey, the perfect weather to sit on the couch with a book, a cup of tea or even better hot chocolate and food to snack on. Since I knew the fast food was not gonna happen I started thinking of what I had at home that I could eat and what I instinctively wanted was a big bowl of pasta in a creamy thick sauce. Yum! I realized I was craving all kinds of things that I can’t have in portions that are horrible, what’s up with that?? I had been doing so well!

I think I figured it out though, watch my simple detective skills at work! lol. When the weather is rainy and grey I always sit curled up nice and cozy with a hot drink and a snack and dinner would be a nice big bowl of pasta – and not healthy pasta, pasta like those Lipton Sidekicks packages, they are so yummy but so bad for you! Oh, and fyi, not like I was eating a small portion of the package so not only was I eating something unhealthy I was eating it in a huge portion. I got so used to doing that I now associate rainy grey weather with pasta. lol. How dumb is that? Linking a weather pattern to a food, *rolls eyes*. It is looking like I associate a lot of things I do with certain foods and certain quantities of those foods. This is obviously something I am going to have to break. I already knew I loved the act of eating, I have never been able to stick with a program that has you downing shakes instead of meals, shrug, I just like to eat too much for that. I didn’t realize tho that my love of eating had transferred itself so strongly to different activities, that is just plain weird.

I am going to have to look out for these situations to make sure I don’t cheat because of an activity. I keep racking my brain for other things I do that have food linked to them, so far the only thing I have come up with is going to a movie, I love getting the popcorn, some maltesers and a pop…it’s the perfect combo in my opinion. I was going to go to a movie today just to prove I could go and not eat those things but I think that’d be pushing things too quickly, it’s hard enough sitting here and not eating the pasta I so badly want.

Something else I will have to work on is my eating during the weekends, I started off ok yesterday (that was saturday) – I had my cereal and fruit for breakfast and was content. Thing is, I didn’t eat that until around noon , I went to a friends house and while there got hungry so I had a bit of yogurt but I wasn’t snack hungry I was hungry hungry. We went for dinner to this great place called Brown’s Social House, the site address is www.brownssocialhouse.com and let me tell you, picking food from that menu was hard! They have a great selection of things, I could have had salad, sushi, a burger, fish (all Ocean Wise fish btw), pad thai…anything! I really really really wanted the Hickory Burger, it’s got bacon, beef patty, bbq sauce and all the rest of a normal burgers toppings. It sounded awesome. I settled instead for the Spa Veggie Burger, it is not a fake meat patty but a patty made from mushroom and grains (if I remember correctly what the waitress said), it wasn’t as good as a meat burger but it was darn good. Great flavours, good texture…almost all the things you want in a burger. lol. I got them to cut it in half in the kitchen and wrap half to go before bringing me my food so I couldn’t eat the whole thing in one sitting. Since my points for this meal are going to be estimates I figured it was best to try to cut them where I could. 🙂 With my burger I got yam fries, now an entire yam is only 3 points so you’d think something made from yam wouldn’t be so bad for you but when you think about the process the yam goes thru to become a fry, well, they probably aren’t very good for you. I am going to have to google nutrional info for them since yam fries are not listed in my weight watchers food book. Maybe they are so bad for you they don’t even put them in the book? Oh, thats a scary thought! Ack! To top it off K ordered the Wicked Mushroom appetizer and let me have some, I am fairly certain any health benefit you could get from a mushroom was taken away by the sauce they were drenched in. lol. And we ordered (to split) the Three’s Company dessert, it has samplers of all three of their dessert items. The waitress did mention all the desserts are made in house so that should cut down on how bad they are because there are probably no preservatives in the dishes…not like those frozen pies etc you can buy. The three samples were of a chocolate pecan pie (heavenly!) a banana and chocolate sponge cake (holy crap good!) and key lime pie (it was alright). Combined from all three of the samplers I think I had what would amount to a full piece of a dessert so thats how I counted my points for that, it was totally worth it though, yum! 🙂 After that I was so full I didn’t eat the rest of the day and I know I didn’t get as much water in me as usual. I was so full I didn’t want anything, not even water, I did sip at a glass of it but couldn’t manage to really drink the stuff.

Today (sunday) I started off similarly, cereal and fruit for breakfast (that was around 11am), then when I got home from my errands I wanted to eat even though I shouldn’t have been hungry yet. I refused to let myself eat and had a really hard time figuring out when I was actually hungry. Seems my body associates hanging out at home with gorge fest and that’s all I have wanted to do since I got back here. sigh. I had the other half of that veggie burger, not like I am going to waste food, and a big serving of mixed veggies in the hopes of quieting the tummy. lol. I didn’t get full from the meal but I am learning the sensations I associate with being full are actually how I feel when I have over eaten, I don’t think I really know what it feels like to be full but not stuffed…I am learning though! So now it’s evening and I am hungry…again…I am gonna hafta eat and I know I have points left I just don’t know how many cause I haven’t tallied up my points from today yet. Hopefully I have enough left for something really filling.

Here is what I ate Saturday:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 nectarine = 1 point

tea = o points

1 yogurt = 1 point

1/2 veggie burger

-patty = 2 points

-bun = 3 points

-slice jack cheese = 3 points

yam fries = 7 points (I knew the points for these was gonna suck!)

dessert sampler = 6 points

So that is 26 points and I am only allowed 24…crap!

It could be worse I s’pose. Since I am allowed 35 flex points a week and I haven’t used any all week I guess using two is ok, I had hoped to not use any but it’s too late now. I will just have to be more careful this coming week…and on that note I am going to go find something to eat for dinner that won’t mess up my points for today!

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