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I’ve Been Corrupted!

8 Apr

I feel like a computer program that has some bad code, or a box of crayons that’s missing a couple colours or even a Big Mac without the special sauce – something is not right!

If asked to describe myself I am naturally lazy and my stomach and digestive system can handle eating anything…seriously, anything! You know those people who are all “everytime I eat McDonald’s an hour after I eat I have to go running to the bathroom, or, I have the worst stomach ache, or, I feel so sick/bloated/gross etc” – you know what people I am talking about, the ones that eat something we all know isn’t good for you and their bodies make them feel like crap cause of what they ate but they still eat it? Right, ok, so, I’m not that person, never have been. McDonald’s? Bring it on! Taco Bell/Taco Time? No worries there! Any kind of chocolate/candy/sweet? Gimme more! It never makes me feel gross/sick/in desperate need of a bathroom and I never have any troubles digesting.

Well…apparently something has changed in my innards and I am not impressed. Grr to my changing innards! 😉 I went to a lovely Easter dinner last night at a friend’s family’s place. My friend’s Aunt made a tonne of totally delish food, Mmm! Now, my plan was to eat mostly protein (of whatever variety was made) and have itty bitty amounts of whatever sides happened to be there…I was gonna stick to my eating plan darnit! I would have stuck with that plan except the only protein was a cooked ham *gag* I don’t eat pork in most of it’s varieties and a cooked ham is most definitely one of the ways I won’t touch it, blech. So there went my eating protein for dinner plan lol. I ate only the sides and ended up eating these potatoes that were sliced then baked in the oven with some kind of cream sauce and lots of cheese (holy crap soooo good!), super soft butter buns that were heated up so you could put more butter on them (bread! I got to eat bread! *happy dance*), a spinach salad that was super yum and some mixed veggies. Soooo, my dinner was carbs, carbs, oh and more carbs covered by a home made vinagarette dressing lol. Then of course there was dessert. 😛 I made a Strawberry Rhubarb Crumble and the other dessert was a Kraft recipe that had philly cream cheese, cool whip, graham crackers and coconut, all layered and put in the fridge to set, holy crap it was tasty!

Anyways, my point about the food, I ate a lot of carbs in that meal, then had a bunch of sugar in the dessert, and don’t forget all the random chocolate that was floating around since it was an Easter dinner lol. Normally a meal like that wouldn’t have given me any problems, I’d eat, digest, it’d be all good. Well, um, it was not all good today…*pout* today I feel heavy, and gross, and like my stomach has a rock in it or something…I keep craving some unknown substance that will flush out the sugar and carbs I ate (even though I don’t actually believe in flushes). So I spent my day drinking water and tea and going back to my high protein high healthy fat eating plan. I think, after such a long time without eating high amounts of carbs and sugar my body is struggling to handle the amounts I put in it yesterday…Corruption! 

The second corruption I noticed the other day. You know those people who are all “I get so energized from going to the gym/working out, afterwards I feel like I can do just about anything blah blah blah” Those people! Argh! Those people annoy the fuck outta me! lol I go to the gym, I come home, I have a protein shake and a shower and I want a nap, an 8 hour nap! I’m not energized, I’m exhausted! Working out takes what little energy my body has and uses it all and then I am somehow expected to get through the rest of the day? How do people do that?!?!

Well, after the gym the other day (where I had a greeeat workout) I made my protein shake, drank it (duh) and was heading for the shower when I realized I was kinda dancing/bouncing…what the…?? Nothing too extreme or anything but definitely more then my normal walk…and I had a realization…I was…energized…Energized! How did that happen?? As soon as I realized it I came to a complete stop and tried to figure out exactly what and why I was feeling like that. What was I thinking about? Was I just really happy about whatever was floating through my brain and that had me dancing? (hey, don’t judge, that happens lol) Was I listening to music? Nope. Was I having a nervous system spasm and it wasn’t really dancing but some kind of muscle freakout? Didn’t appear to be…So, what was causing this energy and dancing? I’m still not completely sure what it was but I worry it was, *shuffles feet* feeling good about my workout and that feeling good combined with some sort of freak energy burst that came about also due to the workout…I think *clears throat* I became that person who got energized from working out…I’m not sure how I feel about this one…except…Corruption!

My very being has been corrupted by extended healthy eating habits and extended (and often) exercise habits to change my lazy-able-to-digest-any-kind-of-crap-I-put-in-to-it-body into a…into a what? I’m still not sure…into a body that likes to exercise? Prefers to have healthy food put in to it?

I’m gonna admit, it’s freakin me out a bit…you can’t spend a bunch of years as one way and then not freak out a bit when you realize you’re changing and becoming something else…what will I become? What colour crayons were taken out of the box that is me? Will I miss those colours? What if I need them back? Will I still be me? I mean, a Big Mac isn’t a Big Mac without the special sauce right? So whatever it is that is changing in me, will I still be me even though something is missing/changed?

Guess I’ll find out…

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A Couple Weeks A Couple Pounds…Almost…

8 Mar

So I’ve been on the new eating and exercise plan for a couple weeks now (like my title suggests lol) and I’ve lost 1.8 pounds, which doesn’t sound all that impressive but since the goal is 1 pound a week I’m almost right on target, so yah? My current dilemma is that NC said he could help me lose 20 pounds in 2 months but if I am only losing 1 pound a week well…even I know that math doesn’t add up! Anybody out there have some wicked awesome math skills that make that work? Maybe a snazzy calculator that fudges results a little bit? Something? Anything?…no, I didn’t think so lol

I’m not really too upset about the 1 pound a week thing, I mean yes I would rather be losing more per week cause I am totally a need-to-see-results kinda girl but hey, I have been plateaued for freakin ever and in only two weeks the plateau has stopped, technically really, the plateau stopped being a plateau after the first week since I lost 1.2 pounds the first week, so yah for no more plateau! 🙂

Here’s how a typical food day goes:

Upon first rising have a protein shake and half a piece of fruit (say half an apple or pear or whatever)

Approximately an hour later have breakfast, some sort of protein (I have 2 slices of turkey bacon), an egg (did you know you destroy all the good nutritional benefits of an egg if you cook the yolk? so now I eat them sunny side up with a runny yolk, yum!) and the other half of that piece of fruit you cut up earlier…I also have a glass of water but that’s not technically part of the eating plan, it’s just cause I like to stay hydrated lol

Here is where I go exercise…

After getting home from the gym I have a protein shake but this one is yummy cause it has one scoop of protein powder, half a banana, half cup of frozen fruit (I alternate between just blueberries or having mixed berries), half cup non flavoured sweetened yogurt from Activia, one cup almond milk (don’t even get me started on how much I miss milk from a cow, milking an almond is just so wrong! lol) , and one teaspoon of something called NutraSea +D (it’s to get me some much needed healthy fats, my omega 3)

An hour or two later I have dinner, some form of protein (say a half a chicken breast or a fish fillet) and some veggies (usually 2/3C mixed frozen veggies but it can be other veg, it’s all dependent on preference)

Then a couple hours after that, or whenever I start to feel hungry, I have a salad, mixed greens that I add cucumber and half a cut up pepper to, if I had half the chicken breast for dinner I put the remaining half on my salad, if I had fish for dinner then I’ll have half a cup of cottage cheese or a serving of marble cheese with the salad, just something to get a bit of protein and make it a bit more filling.

Then right before bed, literally it’s the last thing I do before going and washing up is have a couple spoonfuls of either some yogurt or some cottage cheese, just something little like that to help keep your body from freaking out about being starved to death while you are sleeping lol.

Sounds like a lot huh? And it is…and yet it isn’t lol. I have a goal of almost 1500 calories a day for my food intake, this compensates for my daily exercise and with all the math done will result in my losing a pound a week and not starving while doing it. Also, I need all that protein and well, food in general, to keep my body fueled up and able to deal with the exercise without it deciding to use my muscles as fuel thereby taking away my ability to get in shape in a healthy way. My problem is that not once have I been able to reach my caloric goal, not once!! How insane is that? Even on days I splurge and get a hot chocolate or eat some sushi or have a piece of chocolate (hey, I’m a girl, I have chocolate needs that can’t be denied lol) I still don’t manage to reach my calorie goal of almost 1500.

Any other day I would be able to honestly write that I am not feeling hungry, or deprived or anything negative and that I don’t really think I need all those calories despite what NC and all the books I am reading say buuuuut well, today I am freakin starved! lol I don’t know what it is! I ate all my food like I am supposed to, even my night time salad which normally I kinda skip cause it’s just too much food but here it is a little after midnight and I could so go for a meal right now, sigh. I am not going to have a meal cause well, hello, it’s a little after midnight, it’s a weird time to be eating and I have to try to get some sleep soon since I have to be up in the morning but that doesn’t mean I don’t want something to eat lol. Despite my hunger pains tonight let me reassure you I am not starving myself, I am not denying myself food in an effort to get thin, it’s driving NC a little nuts I think that I am not eating more but I’m not gonna force myself to eat when I am not hungry, that just doesn’t make any sense to me, does it make sense to you?

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A New Beginning

24 Feb

Just Do It!

 

I am leaving Weight Watchers…yes, you read that correctly. Although, since I never officially joined, just did the program on my own I guess I’m not “officially” leaving them since well, how can you leave something you were never really a part of?

I learned a lot from Weight Watchers and I will take those lessons with me. I learned about proper portion sizes, and how to eat food groups, I learned how to actually read a nutritional label (I used to glance at them as if I knew what I was doing but didn’t actually read them lol). I think overall I learned common sense, something some people say can’t be learned lol, because, really, in the end Weight Watchers is common sense. They give you the tools and you use them or you don’t and the results you get are reflective of the work you put in to the program.

The only problem with that last sentence is the results you get aren’t always reflective of the work you put in to the program, and that’s where my love affair with Weight Watchers started to go wrong. For the longest time if I ate my points and did my exercising I lost weight every week, maybe not a lot but I’d lose something and so life was good. But I have been stuck on a plateau since last summer, yup, you read that right, last freakin summer! and my irritation with Weight Watchers and myself was reaching a level I didn’t think possible. Yes, since moving to the new apartment I hadn’t been tracking or paying all that close attention to what I was eating or portion sizes but that is partly because for the previous 6 months even though I had been doing all that nothing had been changing, I was stuck at the same weight for so long that I just gave up. Lame huh?

I probably would have stayed on this cycle of meaning to start tracking again but not doing it and going to the gym about 3 times a week but totally counter acting any work I did in the gym by eating a donut or something else ridiculously bad for me except I had a talk with my agent last week. I had emailed her because I am not getting any auditions and I wanted to ask her if she’d be willing to put me in as a wild card for some auditions to help get me seen more. I am aware there aren’t a lot of casting calls for 5’8″ redheads lol so I was thinking if she put me in for say, auditions meant for brunettes or something maybe somebody would decide that hey maybe a redhead would be good in this role too. Well, she called me back and in the nicest voice (she really sounds like such a sweet lady when she’s tearing your heart out) she informed me that she is putting me out there for anything in my height/age range but I need to lose weight because the girls I am going up against are all around 120lbs and I am not…Now, normally anybody with any self-esteem would not let someone tell them they are too fat and that they have to lose a specific amount of weight but an actor’s relationship with their agent is different so all I did during this convo was make agreeing noises, say “yup” a lot and basically just took it. It’s like a whipped dog, tail between it’s legs, just takes the painful crap cause there’s no other option. *rolls eyes* Suckfest huh? Cause, yes, I know I am overweight, especially for the acting world, but come on! I’m a lot smaller then I was and how the fuck am I gonna lose more weight? I’ve been stuck at this weight for so long telling me to lose so I weigh 120lbs, well, you might as well be telling me I need to lose 500lbs, I have no idea how to do it! sigh

Luckily, fates were on my side that day, later in the day I was meeting up with NC who is someone I have recently been seeing and when I told him the gist of the convo with my agent he said he could help me. Turns out that he used to be a personal trainer and he’s kept up with all the info on the topic so he actually knows what he is talking about lol. Guess that explains how he is in such amazing shape…seriously, amazing! He says if I follow the program he makes for me I could lose 20lbs in 2 months but not just lose the weight like become a smaller version of me, I’d be more toned, in shape, fit…so a healthy weight loss…which is what I need but have no idea how to accomplish on my own. Sweet huh?

So, that is why I haven’t been writing for the last little bit, I’ve been learning the new program I am going to be following and wanted to wait till I had a better understanding of it before I wrote too much about it. I don’t want to write something that ends up being incorrect and have you all think I am nutso lol. Because even though I trust that NC knows what he is talking about and is teaching me good habits etc I am also reading books on the eating style he is having me follow so I can understand the science behind what I am doing…cause, people, there really is a science behind it, it’s crazed! lol

I’ll write more about what my eating and exercise habits are going to be from now on another day, since this post is already nice an long lol but now you know what I am up to over here. 🙂

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I Am An Actor

12 Feb

  • I Am An Actor

    Ok, so this isn’t really a post since I’m not going to write a lot, lol, just thought I’d share this with all of you. 🙂
    I’ve had an awesome weekend, I was trying on clothes and discovered I have gone down a size, yah! I knew my pants were fitting looser but I thought it was cause they are all about the same age and they were stretching out a bit, turns out nope, they really are bigger on me lol. Don’t you love when that happens?
    I feel I shouldn’t celebrate it too too much since I didn’t lose the size by eating healthy and exercising, I did it through poor eating habits and sporadic exercise and really, it’s probably my body’s way of trying to cope with less vitamins and nutrients and more sugar and caffeine but hey, for today anyways I will do a happy dance and rejoice. 😀
    Tomorrow I am meeting up with a contact, we are going to write a short film and post it on youtube, mostly just for fun but if it goes viral and makes us famous we’re cool with that lol. 😉  Also, in the world of contacts, I have a friend whose best friend is involved in making 3 (count that, THREE!) films this year so he asked for my headshots and demo reel so he could give them to his friend. Oh I hope something comes of it! So many “big breaks” come from contacts that the actor has and I don’t have many of those at all (read that to mean I have none 😛 ) *crossing fingers*
    I spent this weekend shopping (mostly window shopping, but I still got to try some stuff on lol), went dancing with friends saturday night which I feel should count as exercise since we were shakin’ our tailfeathers 😉 then today (sunday) I went for brunch with KL, we caught up on all our gossip (hey, we’re girls, it’s what we do!) I love going for brunch with KL, we always have so much fun. 😀 Um, let’s see, then I came home and hung out with the cat, had a nap, which has unfortunately caused me to be not alert exactly but not as exhausted as I would like considering I want to be going to bed soon (it’s 12:13am on Monday…although, when I publish this I will alter the time to be still on Sunday so it shows up on the calendar of my posts on the day I want it to, aren’t I so sneaky? teehee)
    I didn’t do any “real” exercise this weekend, unless you count shopping, dancing and walking lol. I can’t bring myself to be upset about it though since I’m down a siiiiiize! Sorry I keep bringing that up, it’s just so exciting since I’ve been plateaued for sooooo long! Maybe, if I start eating closer to properly and exercise more frequently I’ll not only maintain this new size but go down a bit farther? Ooooh, the excitement! lol
    And look at that, looks like I wrote enough it really is a normal post after all, sigh, I’m so chatty *rolls eyes*

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Ahhhh Telus

10 Feb

My internet died, went down, crashed…whatever term you want to use it went away. It was very sad, doubly so since I don’t have cable so I felt especially cut off from the world.  😦

I don’t understand those people that willingly stop going online and watching tv and using cell phones for a week or a month or 6 months or a year as some kind of test to prove they don’t need technology. I neeeeeed technology! I crave it! I live for it! I was on facebook and twitter via my smart phone (which is not very smart considering how many technical problems the pos has, erg) every 5 minutes or so terrified I was missing something hugely important!

Oh, and no, I don’t mean hugely important like what a friends kid did or didn’t do that was oh-so-cute *rolls eyes* I can’t stand those facebook status updates, sigh, I mean like, a natural disaster, or Obama being killed (and yes, I do think he has a higher chance of getting assassinated (side note, haha! a word that says “ass” twice in the spelling of it!  😛 ) then Harper…the Prime Minister of Canada in case you were wondering who the heck I was talking about lol), or the oilsands lighting fire and all of Alberta being evacuated (I’m allowed to say that, I’m Albertan lol). So much of what I know of the world comes from the internet, it used to come from the news but as I mentioned above I don’t have cable anymore so no more 6pm news watching for me…who’d of thought I’d ever miss the news?? Crazy world! Crazy!

Happily, Telus sent over a very nice and competent man who fixed the internet connection and voila! I was back on the information super highway…right in time to be super busy for days and have almost no time to get online let alone post on wordpress, figures huh?

Today though, something way fun happened that I just gotta share! I had a photoshoot today that was sweeeeeeet! It wasn’t an acting photoshoot, it was for Dragon Boating, I (along with others) got asked to take part in the photoshoot to create the new posters and advertising images for the upcoming Dragon Boating season – how awesome is that?!?! It was all done in a studio, we had paddles but no pfd’s (personal flotation devices, fancy way of saying lifejacket…seriously, when did we stop saying lifejacket??) and we sat on these boxes so that we could pretend we were on the water paddling lol. They will photoshop the pictures so the final images will appear as if we are in boats racing. Yet one more reason I love technology! lol Cause man, if we’d had to be on the water for this shoot we’d of frozen our hands off, the water is not yet warm people!

I felt so honoured to be asked, especially once I got there and saw the other people taking part in the shoot. They are all in so much better shape then me, I don’t know how I fell in to this crowd. lol. Paddlers are those people that are tanned, and no nonsense, and the women don’t wear makeup (at least on days when they are on the water) and their hair is either really short or yanked back in a pony tail and they are fit and outdoorsy and well, a lot of things I am not. Luckily, they are also really accepting of others and happy to have people around who also enjoy the sport, even if they don’t fit the stereotypical mold of a racer. Phew! Lucky for me! lol I got to meet a two time World’s Champion, I couldn’t believe she trains out of the same place I train, wow. Lemme tell ya, I thought I was getting decent upper arm and shoulder definition, she is so muscle defined even when she doesn’t flex she’s looking way toned, but not in a guy way!  😛

For the shoot we were all sprayed with glycerin and water so we looked like we got sprayed while on the water paddling, it is sticky feeling and kinda odd but it works. However, it’s been hours since I’ve been home and I washed my face once already and I am still finding little random sticky spots on my neck and face, ick. It got in my hair too, le sigh. My bangs feel nasty but oh well, it’ll wash out when I shower.  🙂 and really, I complain, but it doesn’t really bother me, I’ve been through lots worse on photoshoots but I always have so much fun that I don’t really care. Heck, I was put in a bald cap once (which, considering how much hair I have was soooo hard for the make up girl to do) and when she took it off she peeled off some of the skin along my hairline cause she didn’t unstick the glue properly. That hurt! But even with the pain, it was totally worth it. 🙂 I must be crazy huh? lol

So, food and exercise for this past week, I was active monday, tuesday and wednesday to levels I am happy with. Monday and wednesday I hit the gym, both days I got thwarted in my wanting to use the weights (the weight room was booked for a class both days) but I did get in over an hour of cardio, some ab work and some stretching on both days. Tuesday I cleaned the apartment, which I never totally feel should qualify as exercise but I know that it does so, shrug, I’ll use it lol. Thursday I walked, and did manage to work up a bit of a sweat, but I don’t feel it was enough walking to properly qualify as exercise and then today I was photoshooting and then we so tired the rest of the day cause of being up so early and on not enough sleep I didn’t really do much. Totally my bad, I should’ve gone to the gym, or at least for a walk, but I just couldn’t make myself move.

Although, having said that, I seemed to have no trouble moving my ass to the kitchen to keep getting snacks, sigh. I didn’t clue in till way later that I was probably eating so much today because I was so tired and my body was trying to get energy, tsk tsk to me. I should have just gone for a nap or something, that would have probably taken care of the over eating problem I had today but yeah, by the time I realized it was already almost midnight. It’s not often I get way tired like that anymore so I forgot that could happen, *rolls eyes* I’ll hafta be more diligent on early morning days from now on.

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Fitocracy

1 Feb

I joined a website called Fitocracy…the site is http://www.fitocracy.com. It is supposed to make losing weight fun, like a game, you earn points, level up, compete against your friends…basically it is trying to help you trick yourself into thinking you want to eat less, eat healthy and exercise more. I figure with all this wonderous plateauing I have been doing for frickin ever and the fact that I can’t seem to get off my fat arse to get with the program (the new Weight Watchers Points Plus Program that is) maybe I can trick myself into getting back in the game…

And hey, if the tricking doesn’t work then maybe I will start exercising on a more regular basis and eating better just out of embarrassement since you can follow your friends and they can follow you and everyone can see how you are doing…or not doing in my case. lol.

A friend of mine from AB had it on his facebook wall with a link to join, I thought hey, why not, I need to try something new. Since I joined I have been sick (last week, nasty cold, couldn’t breathe or talk, sadness) and this week I have been working longer hours then normal for me (while still getting over my cold) and now, this is so embarrassing, I scraped my chin (yes, the way a child with no coordination would *rolls eyes*) and it got infected, ugh, so now my chin looks horrible! As in disgusting! As in people are staring at me and everyone I speak with eventually says (with a tone of horror) “what happened to your chin” and then they look like maybe they should back away in case it’s something contagious, like leprosy. sigh. So no way am I going to the gym when I look like this, just not happenin!

However, by not going last week due to sickness or this week due to working and (stupid) injury it makes my effort in the land of Fitocracy look like a joke.  😦 There my friends are getting to new levels, building their points up and there is my profile, with nothing happening…it’s almost embarrassing…tho not as embarrassing as the looks people are giving my chin…do you know how hard it is to get gauze to stay on a chin??? Really freakin hard!

So despite my having all the tools needed for the Weight Watchers Points Plus Program I haven’t been tracking. 😦 I was going to, took the books and tracker and calculator with me to work on monday but was so busy I never took the stuff out of my bag and by the time I got home I’d completely forgotten about it. I took everything with me again on Tuesday and same thing happened. Oh and yeah, you guessed it, same thing today. Course, today had the added bonus of my chin scrape being so dry that opening my mouth to talk, smile, eat, breathe, anything really causes the skin to pull and huuuuurt and sometimes even crack and bleed, ick right? So I am restricted to eating things that (1) don’t require me to open my mouth wide to be able to eat them and (2) are not hot or cold so if I spill on my chin I don’t yelp in pain…there aren’t as many options as you may think there are. lol

However, despite my suckyness at tracking I am still taking the books, tracker and calculator with me everywhere I go, maybe eventually I’ll put them to work, or maybe the added weight of them in my bag will help me shed some calories? 😉 lol

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Been Gone A While

23 Jan

So I’ve been gone a while, I hadn’t even realized how long until the other day when I logged in and saw when I last posted and I immediately thought “aw crap, I’ve been gone way longer then I thought”. I did want to post that day, I had a topic and a vague idea in my head about what I was going to write but the entire site was blacked out in protest, seriously? I finally get my ass back on to wordpress and it’s all blacked out?? What are the odds? *rolls eyes*

Any normal person would have just said ah well and logged on the next day, written their post then, but I am not normal in any way and somehow that just didn’t happen…I think cause I was busy with, ya know, life…or something resembling it anyways…

Here’s a little catch up on things:

I got back from Alberta safe and sound, got back to my apartment to find my roomie’s cat was crazy sick (some kind of cat cold) and she hadn’t even noticed (the poor thing was having sneezing fits lasting 10 sneezes or longer at a time, and his poor darker coloured then normal really wet nose, sigh). I ended up hanging at the house for a couple days right after getting home nursing the poor cat back to health (may I remind you, it’s not even MY cat!!) but I can’t let him suffer alone just because his owner doesn’t pay attention or want to take him to a vet, sigh.

The guy I was seeing and I broke up so I spent some days wallowing in self-pity, depression, despair, sadness – doing all the things girls do at a time like this (I watched Dirty Dancing and got drunk and ate pie). What made it even better was my roomie was dumped two days before my break up so there were two of us going through this together…the amount of chocolate and pizza that has been in this apartment since those days is amazing. Then I decided to give myself a good kick in the ass cause what kind of girl am I? The whiny crying stupid kind? Hell No! I had a really good couple of days where I hit the gym, stopped listening to depressing music, starting wearing makeup again (it’s amazing how pathetic I got…) and then I ended up going for dinner with a friend who spent the entire time yapping about her new boyfriend and how happy she is and how great he is and how wonderful being in a relationship is and blah blah fucken blah…I couldn’t wait to get away. So that dumped me back down in to a pit of despair. I know! I’m rolling eyes at myself right now, I am well aware how pathetic I was (am?).

During this I pulled myself together and met with a guy who went to the same film school as I but a couple years prior, he is starting his own production company and we had a meeting (ie interview) to see about collaborating together, sweet! He wants to get a team of actors and crew and writers together, start filming small scenes that showcase the writing and acting skill/talent of the people involved, then show those to backers and get funding so we can film small films and enter them in to Film Festivals and then get more backing from that and film Feature Films. How awesome is that?! He really liked my demo reel and we are meeting this week to go over the first script he wants me to work on, he said at the interview he already had two characters he thought I’d be great for and he now has a third (which I will be learning more about this week), so way excited for that! There is no money involved, because it’s all entry level, all a bunch of us who are just starting and trying to find a crack in the industry wall that we can get through to get noticed but hey, at least I’m trying. 🙂 The Production Company is going to be focused on sci-fi/fantasy so I’m betting I’ll be working on some pretty crazy scripts, yah!

What else? Oh yeah, I damaged the back bumper of my suv, sadness. I was reversing on a twisty narrow road that cuts through a forest on a freakishly steep hill in the pouring rain as the sun was setting and a tree that had fallen and was partially crossing the path came in to contact (painful contact) with my rear bumper. sigh. I am fairly certain it is cosmetic damage, but by the time I was leaving the area it was too dark to check out the suv (and there is always the fear of wild animals deciding to jump out and eat you…not even joking!) so I waited till I got back and parked in the underground parking that comes with my apartment, turns out I brought part of the frickin tree home with me, all squished in to the crack that is now in my bumper. Awesome huh?

Oh and lastly, my roomie convinced me to start a Plenty of Fish account (for those of you that don’t know it’s a dating website) because she thinks the best way to get over my ex is to start dating someone else. I don’t know about this logic but am willing to give it a try I guess, shrug. Well, turns out I seem to hold a lot of appeal for random guys on dating websites as I have been getting weird emails to my account inbox since I opened the silly thing, which was oh about, 24 hours ago? *rolls eyes* I started emailing with one guy and we are tentatively making plans to meet for coffee this week but I dunno, now that the plans are being made I don’t know that I want to go through with it…I’m not really into this whole internet dating thing, I always think it’s better to meet people the old fashioned way, ya know, in person? Seems to be a dying trend though, shrug.

How does any of this relate to my weight watchers? Well, it kinda does kinda doesn’t. I haven’t been tracking but I have been measuring and portioning my foods (well, except for the “dark days” when I pretty much stopped eating completely, then the couple days after that where I lived off pizza, pie and chocolate…but we won’t go in to that lol) I have been getting to the gym about 3 times a week and the days I don’t go to the gym I make sure to walk somewhere that is a decent walking distance away, so the grocery store, the seabus terminal, purolator…basically, I look at it as there is no physical reason I can not walk to do my errands so walk them I will. It’s working out well. The walking gives me time to get outside, breath fresh air, listen to my iPod and just be by myself but not isolated in my apartment. It’s been almost therapeutic and the days I don’t walk somewhere I find a little sad. Oh, I took a kick boxing class last week, it was alright, not as good as my boxing classes were but decent.

I am reading the books to learn how to do the Points Plus Program and will be starting that soon, perhaps tomorrow? I haven’t finished reading the book yet but maybe I will finally get through it tomorrow. It’s funny, I got so used to the old program and when people would ask I’d say how it’s so easy, nuthin to it, stuff like that, I forgot how overwhelming it can be to read that first book of the program and be introduced all at once to all the crap you have to remember/know/learn, all the rules you will have to follow, just all that stuff. I am reading this book for the new program and just keep thinking I should be taking notes somewhere cause this seems like a lot to have to remember and am I going to want to flip through this book everytime I need to refresh myself about something? But oh well.  I am a (vaguely) smart individual who should be able to figure this out…and if all else fails I’ll call my mom, she’s on this plan so she’ll have answers to all my questions lol.

Oh, and if you’re wondering, yes I am still doing Weight Watchers unofficially, so no going to meetings or using the online support tools for me, I’m still poor, shrug. 😛 A whole new Weight Watcher’s adventure is about to start for me!…I really hope this new program gets me off my plateau, here’s hoping! 😀

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High Hopes

30 Dec

I started this trip with high hopes that I would actually post on a semi-consistent basis since I managed to post on my first full day here…obviously I got derailed. 😛

This post is going to be quick, and not all detail-ey (like my normal posts where I basically don’t shut up) because it is 1:40am and I have to be up at 8:15am to get washed, dressed, groomed and fed so I can go shopping. Any of you who are thinking ‘whatever it’s just a silly day of shopping’, well, first of all it’s only a morning of shopping and second, no it’s not just a silly day of shopping, you must be a boy. 😉

Shopping can be many things, it can be fun, it can be business like, it can be rushed, it can be pleasurable, it can be relaxing, it can be stressful, it can be an outting that you don’t want to end, it can be torture that feels like it will never end. Tomorrow is going to be a shopping trip with a close friend and we are hitting up all our favourite stores – so basically, I am going to one of my most favourite places in the world (WEM) and I get to hang there while shopping the Boxing Week sales with my friend JF, can’t get much better then that. 😀 The only sad part is she has kids (that’s not the sad part!) and she can only get a sitter for a couple hours so instead of a loooong drawn out shopping trip we will have to settle for a more condensed trip, but hey, we’re practically professional shoppers, we’ll make it work! lol

My eating hasn’t been all that great, I sorta try but I’m not tracking so mostly I’m fake-tracking in my head and I am well aware I am not remembering to count even half the goodies that end up in my mouth – damn Christmas goodies, how you taunt meeeee! 😉

However, everyday since Christmas Eve I have managed some sort of physical activity. This is my most active trip home since I moved away! Dec 24th and 25th I went for walks, nothing too strenuous but I felt better for having done at least some activity. Dec 26th I went to a Rec Centre where I can drop-in for only $6, I did an hour and a half of strenuous cardio and some weights (and of course stretching) and felt a-frickin-mazing for it! Dec 27th I walked an indoor track with my mom, did a couple miles on that. Dec 28th was the drop-in at the rec centre again, I was only able to do an hour of strenuous cardio that time due to time constraints but I figured an hour was better then nothing. 🙂 Dec 29th was not quite as impressive, I went ten-pin bowling lol, hey! activity is activity!

I am not tricking myself into thinking this activity is going to help me shed any pounds, it may (if I am freakishly lucky) help me to at least maintain…or stay close to what I started off with…which really, at this point, is all I can hope for lol.

I have lots that has happened so far this trip and can’t wait to blog about it but seriously people, I gotta go get some sleep so shopping tomorrow is fun and I’m not yawning through it lol.

Here’s a quick (not complete) list of things to look forward to:

– My first Weight Watcher meeting

– My switching to the new Weight Watcher program, how and why

– My eyeballs were paralyzed (not even kidding on this one)

– The 24hr stomach flu I want but can’t seem to catch

I’m sure there is more, I just can’t think of it right now…too much sugar has muddled my brain lol 😛

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I’m Being Frozen To Death

20 Dec

I may not survive the next two weeks, it’s just too cold for my poor body to deal with. As I type this I am staring mournfully at my empty tea cup, I held off drinking the tea as long as I could so I’d have the hot cup to hold but I so badly wanted the hot liquid inside me I of course caved and downed the tea. So now my tongue is a bit singed, my hands are blocks of ice and I have a delicate shivering taking over my body in what I suspect is going to be a permanent manner.

I am not a person meant for winter. I’m sorry to break this to my international readers but just because I was born and raised in Canada and am a proud Canadian this does not mean I like snow, ice, slush, cold temperatures or any of the other winter type conditions we deal with for over half the year. Brr!!! Give me tropical weather anyday!…no seriously, can somebody pay for me to go somewhere tropical so I can thaw out? 😉

The only plus side to dealing with this whole freezing to death thing is that I will die surrounded by my more hardy friends and family, ya know, those who didn’t move away and can still handle the winter weather without wanting to break down in tears. *rolls eyes*

What makes this whole thing worse is…it’s not even that frickin cold!!! Compared to where I live now it is, and it’s a different type of cold (don’t mock me, that actually matters! lol) and the longer I am away from here the less I can handle the cold. I could barely handle it when I did live here, so having even more trouble handling it, well, it sucks. 😛 But global warming is soooo in effect cause the weather that this city is having is nothing compared to what winter weather is normally like…it’s usually way worse…which is why I packed long underwear lol.

I can’t decide if this is going to be beneficial to my weight loss or not…on the one hand I am constantly shivering so that might help me to burn some extra calories. On the other hand I find I am constantly wanting to eat something, not out of hunger but out of an instinctive need to put on more body fat to help me survive the cold. Hey man, I didn’t come up with animal instincts, I am just driven by them…to a point lol. I’m drinking lots of tea in the hopes that will help me get warm, instead of snacking away like a crazed barbarian…cause ya know all those crazed barbarians totally had access to Christmas baking. 😉

On the food front, I had the yummiest dinner tonight, my mom made meatloaf and it is one of my fave dishes of hers. Yeah I know, meatloaf? I personally think meatloaf gets a lot of undeserved grief, my mom’s is great and I was so happy when I found out that is what she made for dinner. 😀 Heck, I’m already looking forward to the meatloaf sandwich I am hoping to have tomorrow for lunch. Mmm! It was a nice healthy meal, I had the meatloaf, veggies and two baby potatoes. Look at that, food groups! wOOt! lol

I have decided for this trip that while yes there are a lot of events and occaisions that I’d normally pig out at I don’t have to go crazy at every one of them. I have my birthday, then Christmas, then New Years and I gotta decide which of those events I want to splurge at and which to be more careful at. And really, even when I do splurge at one of those occaisions I can still splurge carefully thereby not derailing my weight loss…well, not completely derailing it lol, I’m aiming for maintaining while on this trip.

I think I should be able to get through the Christmas and New Years season without gaining weight, don’t you? If I make responsible choices and pay attention to what I put in my mouth that’ll go a long way to not gaining and I’m even hoping to get in some exercise while I’m at it, no guarantees on that though (due to access to facilities and my schedule, not due to laziness which admit it, some of you were thinking 😛 )

Course, by midway through this trip I may be saying “screw it, bring on the hot chocolate and cookies!” but for now I am optomistic I can keep a leash on my hand-to-cookie-to-mouth behaviour. 😀

 

 

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I Should Be Packing

19 Dec

I fly out tonight, headed back to my family and friends for the Christmas holidays and I soooo should be packing…instead I am typing this post, checking my facebook page, watching a movie and lounging on the couch lol. My poor mom would be freaking out if she was here and could see. She’s one of those organized people who starts sorting the stuff that is going to be packed days and days and days in advance and would have been all but done with the packing yesterday. Whereas I only got my suitcase out of the closet a couple hours ago…sometimes the apple not only falls far away from the tree it also rolls quite a distance lol 😀

I always figure it’ll all work out in the end so why freak out about it? shrug.

I had intended to go to the gym today, I haven’t been in an uber long time and I am feeling soft and flabby as a result but I was up stupid early after only getting about 4 hours of sleep to do an errand and when I got home to change for the gym I “accidentally” ended up back in bed lol. I was soooo tired I figured a little nap couldn’t hurt, right? Well, wrong. I woke up with the nastiest headache, ugh, so I’ve been doing stuff around the apartment but at a slower pace then normal cause I have this overwhelming urge to rip my head off. Stupid head. 😦

I got to try a new food today tho, yah for new food! I have no idea what the nutritional info is as it was bought for me and is a freshly made item so it doesn’t come with a list of ingredients or nutritional info, shrug.

It is called Chicken Roti. Ever had it? It’s a huuuuge wrap filled with chicken (duh), potatoes, some other veggies, and currey spices. YUM! It took forever to get it warm in the oven cause it’s massive and it just wasn’t heating through but I waited it out and it was worth it. I am not able to finish it all and I’m sad cause it’s so tasty. I had intended to cut it in half, freeze half and heat up the other half but I was told there was a currey inside and I thought that might mean it was runny and if I cut it in half to warm it up I thought it might make a huge mess. Turns out I was wrong, it’s not runny at all so I could have done that, sigh. Now I’m wondering if I can freeze it or will I risk poisoning myself via the chicken because I heated it up and then froze it and then heated it up again? I dunno…the chicken was already cooked so I think that means that’s ok but really, what do I know? lol I’ll freeze it and hope for the best! 🙂

I guess I should keep this short as I have to wrap some presents, finish the packing, shower and clean the apartment before being ready for my ride – thank goodness my flight isn’t until night time, if it had been any earlier in the day I think there’d be serious doubt as to me getting there on time lol. 😛

Oh! I’ll attempt to keep blogging on a semi-regular basis but it’s always hard when I’m in AB cause my parents don’t have wifi so to get online I have to be physically plugged in to the modem (weird right?) and the modem they have only has one jack so only one computer can be online at a time (even weirder huh?). So combine that with being pulled in twenty different directions at a time while in AB and that doesn’t leave much time for blogging, heck, I barely have time to check my email! But I’ll do my best! 🙂

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