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Fish + Microwave = Messy Microwave!

25 Feb

For some reason today I kept feeling like cheating – I kept thinking “oh, I’ll treat myself with this or that” when really, there is no reason to have a treat today…I’m fine with having a treat if it’s an occasion (ya know, a birthday or something) heck, even if it’s just cause I am going for dinner with a friend I don’t hang with as often as I would like that is fine but today? There is nothing happening today. If anything I should be more strict today cause of what I ate yesterday…dun dun dun…

Ok, it’s not as bad as my cliffhanger of a paragraph made it seem lol. I was doing really well yesterday, better then I expected considering I had Tim Horton’s donuts staring at me ALL day! It was the really good flavours too! The boston cream, cruillers, raspberry flower, caramel, maple, chocolate, sour cream glazed…man, I shoulda taken a picture lol. So, these donuts are staring at me and I somehow mustered up the willpower to not touch them, amazing! Everyone around me was eating multiple donuts (yeah, you read that right! some of the guys ate 3 each!) and I didn’t even touch a crumb – I just stared a lot. 😛

So after work I rushed home to eat, put some laundry in, change and then rush back out to meet a friend to go to a movie, during all that I kinda killed my fish…er, as in the salmon steak dinner not glub glub little goldfish turning circles in a bowl. I didn’t think I had time to put the salmon steak in the oven so I microwaved it (in my defence, the cooking instructions say this is ok!), well, the sauce started splattering everywhere (it’s teriyaki flavour) so it looked like a bloody war occurred when I opened the microwave door lol. When I ate it the edges were hard and the middle was not as soft and tender or as flavourful as it would be if I cooked it in the oven. sigh. But whatever! I ate it and left.

I took snacks with me to have during the movie, a pre popped package of Jolly Time popcorn (1 point) and a Thinsations yogurt covered pretzels package (2 points), well, somehow my good intentions went out the window and I ended up getting a small swirl frozen yogurt with crushed skor pieces sprinkled on top, yeah yeah, I know, what was I thinking?! I had healthy snacks with me so why’d I buy something? Well, first off, I didn’t actually buy it, KL owed me $3 and that was the cost of the yogurt and secondly, um, I dunno, I don’t have a second, I don’t know why I ate it. shrug. I did it on a whim *rolls eyes* Oh! To compound the error, I also ate the popcorn! lol . 😛

So today, along with the feeling of wanting to treat myself (ie cheat on my diet lol) I also kept feeling like I had screwed my points up and was way over. I don’t know why I felt like that cause I haven’t, but hey, our minds mess with us sometimes. shrug. I couldn’t find exact nutritional information for the frozen yogurt so I have emailed the company asking them for the info I need…hopefully I hear something back from them! But yeah, so this evening, I got home and had really random things for, well, I can’t even call it dinner cause it wasn’t a meal, it was random things cooked at varying times and eaten here and there…and all the while I kept thinking “well, this is all I can have cause I have eaten too much today” – when I hadn’t! Annoying!

I think part of the sensation (this evening anyways) was cause I had a huuuuuge portion of soup for lunch; it was way yummy soup, it’s Campbell’s Healthy Request Fiesta Vegetable and Black Bean Soup – it has lentils and beans (duh!) and tonnes of veggies; slightly spicy but not too much. Thing is, sometimes when I eat too many veggies in one meal it makes my tummy feel icky, not sick exactly but achy and unsettled. I don’t really know if this is normal or not but it’s the way it’s always been so whatev. lol. Anyways, when this happens I instinctively go for carbs, it’s always been this way, usually I will eat some pasta or bread or something and it helps the tummy to feel better so for “dinner” I had two crumpets with cheese and hashbrowns, then later (like hours later) I had one piece of toast with a tiny bit of honey and a stuffed potato with a tiny bit of sour cream. Not the best choices for my evening eats but oh well; it’s eaten now! lol.

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am really super hoping I lose 1.4lbs cause then I will be at 30lbs lost. I don’t actually expect to lose that much, I usually top off at losing 1lb a week which ok, kinda sucky at times but least I am losing consistently! The way I feel right now I don’t think my number on the scale tomorrow will be any smaller then it was last week but I am sure that is just cause my tummy feels kinda off; once I have slept and the bod is all rested I’m sure I will feel different…I hope! 🙂

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I’m Delusional, sigh.

17 Feb

In my Tips n Tricks page I say never ever ever eat something you can’t calculate the points for because you’ll trick yourself about just how bad that food is for you…the easiest person to lie to is yourself. I stand by this at all times but joy-of-joys I managed to lie/trick/delude myself this evening thereby providing me with a blog topic 😛 and a supreme sense of stupidity/failure. sigh.

The day started off well, I kept to my points, ate healthy – sure I felt like I was starving to death in the afternoon but I ate some carrots and dealt with it. Even with being oh so hungry when I got home I managed to cook a yummy healthy dinner – you’d think if I was gonna cheat on my points it’d be then but nope…here is a pic of what I made…

Teriyaki Salmon Steak, Wild Rice and Mixed Veggies

Ok, so not the best picture out there but hey, I am not a photographer – pictures aren’t my talent! 😛 That is my super delish low point dinner that I had tonight and after I ate I realized I had a chunk of  points left and was still quite hungry so I got a treat of light peanut butter on bread…man I love peanut butter. 😛

Here is where the delusion started, sigh, back for Christmas a friend of mine that lives in Australia sent me some candy from there that you can’t get here, one of the items was a Cherry Ripe chocolate bar – it’s coconut with cherries covered in dark chocolate, so, like a Bounty bar but with the added cherry flavour. I didn’t think I would like it cause generally I don’t like cherry flavoured things but I looooove coconut and dark chocolate so instead of grabbing a jaffa bar (which is 3 points) I decided to open the cherry chocolate bar. *rolls eyes*

Here are the lies I told myself to convince myself it would be ok to eat the chocolate bar (1) a jaffa bar is 3 points and this chocolate bar is practically the same size (it’s not, it’s almost twice as long but half as thin so I thought that made up for it) (2) I don’t have any way to calculate the points which means I’ll hafta guess anyways so why not guess tonight (3) I won’t like it so a nibble of it won’t hurt, then I’ll throw it away and finally (4) well, I didn’t really have a fourth, I just grabbed it and opened. sigh.

I had 2 points left for the day, the jaffa bar would have put me 1 point over because it is 3 points but I was willing to go over by 1 point but, sigh, that chocolate bar was 5 points, 5!!! So, that is 3 points over, 3 whole flex points used on a chocolate bar!!!

See how we lie to ourselves?!?! I managed to convince myself that chocolate bar wouldn’t be so bad for me, it woudn’t use anymore flex points then the jaffa bar, it wouldn’t make me feel like crap for essentially cheating on a diet that is supposed to not need cheating on cause you can eat anything (ha!) – I lied/tricked/deluded myself all cause I was (1) lazy and didn’t want to take that whole 30 second effort to figure out the points online (2) felt like chocolate and couldn’t bring myself to care all that much where I got it from and (3) convinced myself that I ate so well the rest of the day I deserved a treat. Argh!

I didn’t deserve a treat, I have used flex points every frickin day this week! well, almost everyday, I have used around 12 flex points this week and that is practically a record for me when there was no big meal, no special day, no reason to have a treat. The way I acted with food this week goes against how I have held myself accountable during this journey. My rules (and these are the way I choose to follow the program, they are obviously not for everybody) are to never use flex points, not unless I absolutely have to – and really, why would I absolutely have to? I shouldn’t! But things do come up, accidents in counting are made, days where you feel like you are being starved happen – so in my world, flex points are for those days. They are not so on a daily basis I can have a little treat, if I can’t eat a food within my daily points then I don’t eat it…well, until this week apparently. sigh.

Oh, and to make it worse, did I exercise this week? Nope. Sure, I was sick, but you know what, that just means that I be more careful with eating cause I had no exercise to balance it out with…but as we already know, I was not more careful, I was less careful then ever. *rolls eyes*

So beware all those trying to lose weight…don’t take the lazy way out, calculate your points if you’re on Weight Watchers, count your calories if that’s your thing, track however you track every single thing you eat cause if you eat it first and track it later you’re gonna wish your knees bent the opposite way so you could kick yourself in the ass for screwing up when you were doing decently well.

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I Need A Bubble!

14 Feb

It’s like my immune system has packed up and left the building (aka body) – not only did it move out it left bait for all the various germs out there letting them know there was an undefended body that they could roost in – stupid immune system! Stupider germs! I want my immune system back!

Let me refresh you on the health or lack there of that has been my life lately:

December 28th-ish – I got sick, I thought it was a simple flu/cold thing so I didn’t go to the doctor, I however was bed ridden for a couple days and felt like death

January 4th – first day back at work since xmas vacation, went to the doctors and found out my “simple cold” was bronchitis and I was instructed to go home and rest for the remainder of the week – that meant three days off work 😦

January 13th-ish – went back to the doctors cause my medicine was complete but my cough was still just as bad as ever and now I was wheezing and barely able to stay awake, got sent for chest x rays, diagnosed with pneumonia

January 20th-ish – went back to the doctor cause I was having such bad abdominal pain (I thought due to all the coughing) I wasn’t able to sleep and I didn’t seem to be getting better, was given an inhaler and generally patted on the head

By this point I felt like I was practically living in the doctors office so I decided screw it, my immune system will kick in and eradicate the remaining germs and I will be fine…I was wrong… 😦

Today – went to the doctor cause my cough never went away and seemed to be getting worse, I have abdominal pain everytime I eat or don’t eat (oh, and drink or don’t drink), tired all the time and a bunch of other symptoms…*rolls eyes* I have now been diagnosed with strep throat, possible mono, possible stomach bacterial infection, possible iron deficiency…I think I am forgetting something else but hey, that’s enough for now. lol 😛

So now I am on new drugs, sigh, told to stay off work for sure tomorrow and if possible wednesday as well (it won’t be possible, I am too poor to take two days off work this week) I have to stop taking my daily pantoloc for the next four days and then go get blood work done to check for the mono, stomach infection and iron deficiency, *rolls eyes again* – I feel like a walking germ, ugh.

Oh, and on top of all that, I am pms-ing (yeah, tmi I know) and I want chocolate more then anybody on the planet wants anything! I’d happily kill for chocolate right now…and not even feel guilty about it! 😉 The only problem is that everything I eat and drink causes abdominal pain so even if I decide to go over my points to eat some chocolate it’ll just make me feel  like crap and totally regret the snack…oh and I have to take the new pills on an empty stomach so the later I have a snack the later I have to stay awake until I can down a pill…I wonder if the ginger ale I am drinking counts as filling my stomach…huh, should’ve thought about that earlier. lol. 😛

So yeah, that is me and my medical story as of now. Fun huh? I have been working hard through all these symptoms to stick to my points and for the most part I have been doing ok…I find when I am sick I crave the oddest foods and the foods I crave don’t always work with what my body can handle food wise. Today, for example, I wanted bread, like at every moment of the day…that was it, bread. I had two dinner buns with my soup at dinner and really, if all I had was the dinner buns I’d have been perfectly content. lol. Oh, and of course the chocolate!

I did go over my points today by 1.5 points but I went over in a “it could have been a hell of a lot worse” kind of way…I had a 1 point weight watchers hot chocolate and an apple, I only had a  half point left at that point so really, I should have just skipped the apple and hot chocolate but I had to have something…pms, whatcha gonna do? I can’t fight my hormones as well when I am sick…I count it as a win though cause instead of eating a chocolate bar or something equally worse I had the apple and the hot chocolate…fruit is my friend…maybe that should be my mantra over the next couple days, help me keep the chocolate away from my mouth! lol 😀

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Huh, how’d I manage that?

3 Feb

I ate such bad for me foods today! They were soooooo good though that I just can’t bring myself to feel bad about it. lol. I ate…a Chinese BBQ Pork Bun, an egg custard tart and a fortune cookie! I know! Go ahead, shake a finger at me and tsk, I know I deserve it but I still don’t care! 😛

Chinese Steamed Buns - YUM!

Why did I eat all these foods? Chinese New Years! Well, ok, not exactly. I mean yes, it is the Chinese New Year, and the goodies were brought in to the office because of that but it’s not like I was out celebrating new years, I just really love Chinese food and was irresistably drawn to the pork buns – they are so frikkin good! The egg custard tart I was so close to resisting but SB who sits next to me took one and tried a tiny bite and didn’t like it (how she didn’t like it I don’t know – I think she must be crazy! lol) but so she gave the rest to me and I’m sorry but I leave no egg custard tarts behind! 😉 The fortune cookies were handed out, one for everyone in the office, and I figured by that point I might as well just eat it. lol.

Egg Custard Tarts - Double YUM!

After I ate all this food (all before lunch btw) I decided that it would all be flex points and I would just eat normal throughout the rest of the day like I hadn’t splurged…I have flex points so why not use em? I thought for sure I’d be over my points and didn’t want to stress the rest of the day about what to eat. Well, bonus time! The bbq pork bun filled me up so well that I didn’t want lunch so I skipped over lunch and that saved my ass! woohoo. I just rememberd I had a banana in the afternoon so ok, I went over by 1 point, oh gee, the horror. *rolls eyes*

Who’d of ever thought in one day I could eat three such bad for me things and only go over my points by 1??? Not me!

Here is what I ate today:

1 pckg instant quaker oatmeal = 3 points

1 bbq pork bun = 6 points

1 egg custard tart = 3 points

1 fortune cookie = 2 points

1 orange = 1 point

1 bodywise bagel = 2 points

1 scrambled egg = 2 points

1/2 tbls light miracle whip = 0 points

1/2 tbls mustard = 0 points

1 deli turkey slice = 0 points

cooked mixed veggies = 0 points

1 thinsations fudge bar = 2 points

Total points eaten = 22 😀

Where as normally I’d be a bit mad at myself for going over by 1 point this evening I am so happy cause I only went over by 1 point and it could have been a hell of a lot worse.

So Happy New Years Everyone – go eat a Chinese bbq pork bun and enjoy! 😀 😀 😀

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Random Nibblings

9 Dec

Oh the random nibblings that occur in a day. lol. I haven’t nibbled in a loooong time but today, well, I cracked. shrug. Let’s see, how did my food day go?

I had breakfast and then attempted to eat my morning snack but my banana was way bruised and I am biased against bruised bananas – I just can’t deal with those. ugh. So no snack. Then there was lunch, which while it did fill me was not filling, ya know what I mean? It technically did everything it was s’posed to do but it wasn’t enjoyable at all. sad face. Then right before leaving for the day junk food was brought in, and not any junk food but the really good christmas junk food that comes out this time of year. Ack!

There were chocolate mints, oh yum! Soooo, yeah, totally had one. sigh. Then on the way home I ate like 5 meringues. *rolls eyes* I was bringing them home along with the various tupperware containers I had brought in to work monday with all the baking I did. There were 5 left over, they totally didn’t make it back to my house. lol. And then! (yeah, there’s more…) I ate a small spoonfull of left over chocolate frosting (from the cakes I made) – which I then decided wasn’t worth it cause I have totally made better so I am gonna throw it out. lol. If it hadn’t been for those fuck ups my points for the day would be totally fine, I believe one under but I figure with all that nibbling I am closer to 2 over? Maybe 3…I’m really not sure…

So yeah, the nibbles, one little nibble here and there doesn’t seem like such a bad thing but when you add them up at the end of the day they totally turn in to points that can screw up your food day. My lesson of the day? Beware the urge to nibble!

Today I ate (minus the nibbles)

50 grams Shreddies = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

2 bites of banana = 0 points

1/2 cup Maple Baked Beans = 2 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

raw carrots = 0 points

1 Salmon steak in Dill sauce = 3 points

1/2 cup brown rice = 3 points

1 tbls creole dijon sauce = 1 point

mixed grilled veggies = 0 points

2 pieces toast = 2 points

2 tsp marg = 2 points

Total points eaten is 21. Ok, so my mental math was off and without the nibbling I hit my 21 points exactly. Soooooo, with the nibbling I hit what 24? or so…crap.

I really shouldn’t be using any flex points since I ate so much on tuesday at the party but somehow I couldn’t stop myself from nibbling. Hopefully that won’t happen again. *crosses fingers*

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I Hated Today, Grr!

1 Dec

Today was such a crappy day at work, ugh, it felt like it was never going to end and it was one disaster after another. Argh! I can’t really go in to deets about what was goin on cause (1) it’s a specialized industry and unless you are in it you won’t understand the terminology and (2) I more then likely signed some kind of document saying I can’t gab. *rolls eyes*

By the end of day, hell, not even the end of day, about 2 hours in to it I was dreaming about throwing my boss out the window (we’re 24 flights up!) or banging my head against a wall so many times I could have the next day off work. 😛 Neither of which I have done…yet! lol. This week is just a crap fest and today was one more pile to add to it.

Lunch was catered today, I had forgotten that so I took a Lean Cuisine, oops. Normally I would have said no to the catered food and just eaten my lunch but I was cranky and decided to eat the free food. It wasn’t too bad – which is part of why I figured it’d be ok, not like it was pizza or anything! There were fresh made sandwiches, pasta salad, gourmet green salad (I swear that’s what they called it! lol), cheese n cracker platter and a selection of cookies brownies and tarts. I had half a sandwich (egg with raw veg, grilled veg, pesto sauce on a grainy bread), 4 penne noodles (yup, I counted) there was some kind of crumbly cheese in the pasta salad and a tomato based um, not sauce but flavouring I guess you’d call it. I also had some cheese, some garlic crackers, some raw veggies and a bite of what turned out to be a very dry not all that flavourfull brownie. So, it sounds like a lot but you have to take in to account the portions I ate. I didn’t think I ate too much but when I was estimating the points after I got home, uh yeah, I was over my points for the day by 1 point. Oops. I may have counted wrong but I always prefer to count high then low so, shrug, I am over. Luckily I didn’t feel hungry so I figured the higher pointed lunch filled me up…I think tho that is flawed cause it is now almost 9pm and I am hungry. sigh.

It’s too late in the day to eat a meal, and I don’t want to have some mindless snack, shrug, so I figure I’ll do the unthinkable and go to bed way early. I know, bed by 10pm – weirdness! But this way I will be unconscious and not aware I am hungry, lol. I really don’t want to go even farther in to my flex points like I know I probably should be doing in this situation and frankly, I am to tired and cranky to really care. *rolls eyes* Ya know, I thought this week was going to go so much smoother cause it started off so well! Ah well, maybe it’ll start getting better from here…cross your fingers for me! 😀

Today I ate:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

Catered Lunch

    – 1/2 sandwich = 3 points (?)

       ( – grainy bread, 1/2 hard boiled egg, veggies, pesto sauce)

    – 4 penne noodles = 1 point

    – 6 garlic crackers = 2 points

    – 4 pieces of cheese = 8 points

    – 1 small bite brownie = 0 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 medium slush = 2 points

Total points eaten = 22.

Keeping in mind today is all about estimating numbers so I could be counting too high or too low, shrug, no real way to know. I know I shouldn’t of had the slush but I had to stop to buy skytrain tickets on the way home and again, in a cranky mood, I figured screw it. shrug.

It’s not a good mind set to let myself get in. I used to over eat when stressed or way upset, I think a lot of people do, and while I didn’t do that this time I also didn’t control myself as much as I normally do. I have decided to look at it as progress though. I mean, there once was a time I would have stopped at McD’s or gone and gotten a donut or come home and made Kraft Dinner or…well, you get the idea, but this time, I didn’t. Sure, I drank the slush but that’s 2 points compared to the 15 points and higher I could have eaten…so, that’s progress right? Just nod and smile so I can pretend you agree with me, k? K. 😀

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Fat Day? HA! Try Fat Week!

27 Nov

You know those days where you just feel fat…not for any reason (or at least not always for a reason) you just sometimes wake up and feel fat. 😛 Those days suck but you know if you get through it the next day will be better…well, not this time. sigh. This whole week I have felt fat, fat and getting fatter. It’s not been fun!

My clothes are all still fitting big so it’s not that, it’s that I kept screwing up my eating and was sick last monday so I didn’t go to Zumba. sigh. I didn’t think missing one exercise class would be such a big deal but it really affected me…in a bad bad bad kinda way.

I had two really bad eating days, one where I used ten flex points and one where I can’t even calculate how many points I ate cause I can’t get nutritional info for the restaurant but my approximation of points was frickin scary. Then I had days where I went over by a little, so like a point or two, which normally I am ok with cause in total for the week I’ll end up using like 7 flex points and I am good with that…but I was so in a different level of flex points usage this week…and it has made me feel icky.

So, what does that mean? It means this whole week I have felt fat. I don’t care for this feeling and want it to go away. *stomps foot* I used to always feel fat, I barely noticed the sensation because I felt it all the time but once the weight starting to (sloooowly!) come off I started to feel…well, not fat but big I guess…yeah, that seems right, I downgraded myself to big. lol I don’t like being back at feeling fat. 😦 It has made me want to just say “fuck it” and dig in to something high calorie, stop at McD’s for dinner, go to a restaurant and get dessert, gorge on pasta…something! I didn’t do any of those things, which is good, but I am not sure what stopped me, which is not good. It wasn’t will power, it wasn’t knowing I have a goal and working towards it, it wasn’t anything…I just somehow wasn’t able to do any of those things this past week…not for lack of wanting to tho!

I had hoped my weigh in this week would re-enforce the weight loss plan…after all, from last weeks weigh in I only needed to lose 1 pound to hit a total weight loss of 20 pounds…so, get ready for it, this week I lost…*drum roll*…0 pounds! That’s right, you did read that correctly, I lost nothing. 😦 I didn’t gain…and I remind myself of that everytime I think of how I didn’t lose, but…I didn’t lose!!!!  😦 I know I don’t deserve to lose this week, after those two really bad food days, no exercise, and multiple days where I used a couple flex points here and there I should be couting my lucky stars I didn’t gain but I am selfish and wanted to lose more weight, sigh. And to make it worse I had multiple days where at the end of the day I still felt hungry, not “peckish I am bored and want to nibble” hungry but “my stomach is growling I could eat a meal” hungry. Why??? That just can’t be right!

I have no answers to my yelled-out-to-the-universe question except for this…my body was used to eating it’s points and that was it, sure I used some flex points but not a lot and not on a regular basis so my tummy knew what to expect portion wise and it got used to it. This past week I had two days where I ate the way I used to, huge meals, high in calories, way more then what my tummy/body needs and now that my system has had a reminder of what it used to get it is feeling cheated out of all that fatty, high calorie, yummy tasting food. After all, foods I now consider total-exception-treats are what I used to eat all the time…it’s no wonder my body wants to go back, my old eating habits may not have been healthy but they sure were tasty! lol It’s like I teased my body and now it is getting payback, sigh, and we all know payback is a bitch!

Today I ate:

1 cup cooked oatmeal = 2 points

3 tbls maple syrup = 2 points

3 tsp brown sugar = 1 point

2 pieces toast = 2 points

2 tsp margarine = 2 points

1 tbls raspberry jam = 1 point

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

I Uncle Ben’s Sweet n Sour quick meal = 7 points

Total eaten is 19 points. Oops.

I didn’t mean to eat under my points, I was at a nannying job (which is why I ate the microwavable Uncle Ben’s dinner thing – easy to take and make!) and I forgot to take my thinsations snack so after I ate my dinner I was kinda screwed. There were snacks there but everything I could find was really high in points, something I wouldn’t like, or something I didn’t feel comfie eating (it’s hard picking from someone elses kitchen what to eat, shrug) I did nibble on some raw carrots, but those don’t cost any points…and I did dip two of the carrots in a dill dip but no way was that enough dip to use up 2 points, lol, my solution to this is I am gonna grab s’thing little to eat once I am done typing this up. I normally try not to eat this late but my tummy is rumbling and hey, I have two points left, damn straight I am gonna use em! 😀

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Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

25 Nov

Snoooooow Day! My first contact with a person today was when SB from work called to see if I was going to work, I believe her question went something like “what are we gonna do with all this snow?” – at that point I was running a tad late and was just about to leave my place but had yet to look out a window so I didn’t know what she was talking about. lol. Well, I peeked out my living room curtains and yelped, then said something along the lines of “ah fuck, I don’t wanna go out in that…” Ultimately, both of us ended up at work cause “snow days” are only for kids, grr to kids! lol.

brr, snow.

However, while at work we (“we” being the entire office) kept staring out the wall of windows in shock because of how fast and thick the snow was falling…and a bunch of us kept hoping that the snow would get sooooo bad we’d get to leave early. 🙂 I mean really, the snow was not gonna be that bad that we could easily justify leaving work early, but I have been told that is my outlook on it because I grew up somewhere that gets way worse winter weather then here. lol.

The snow kept up all day, at times it was mixed with freezing rain – joy – 😛 at least in order for it to snow it has to warm up, it was ranging between 0 to -4C all day, not bad at all! For all you Americans that’s 32 – 24.8F 🙂 We were told towards the end of the day we could go home early but by that point I didn’t see any reason to so I stayed my normal shift. shrug.

I find the weather is making me want to eat hot more filling foods – I have a salad in the fridge that I was gonna have for dinner tonight but I just couldn’t do it, I ended up having a wrap filled with cooked veggies and scrambled egg. What I really wanted was a burger on a bun, or a big plate of pasta, or toast – yeah, I know, odd maybe, but I am a bread lover and I’d have killed today for toast with either peanut butter or some jam on it. *big dramatic sigh* lol. If I thought toast would have filled me enough as a dinner I so would have gone with that!

Something else I noticed this week, my lunches are bigger then normal. Ok, tuesday makes sense cause I ate out but the other days? shrug. Something went wrong there. Because of my higher pointed lunches I am going over my points for the day or hitting it right on the mark and while hitting my points exactly is a good thing it’s not so good when you are still hungry! Really not good…uber not good…makes for a cranky hungry redhead…foooooooooooooooood! 😉 heh

I blame it on the weather, it makes me want toast or other heated carbs so I have been eating an english muffin at lunch with my lunches and that is making my lunches way higher in points then normal for me. sigh. I have thawed out the remaining veggie soup and will have that tomorrow for lunch so yah! 0 points for the soup I will eat which means I can eat an english muffin with no worries about being able to eat dinner too. 😀 This is important because after my day job tomorrow I have a nannying job and will have enough time to grab a sub from Subway if I am lucky…if the snow hadn’t plopped down on us I wouldn’t be too worried about my timing tomorrow with grabbing a sub and getting to nannying but people in this city are horrible at driving in snow and go sooooooo slow so I will need way longer to get to the job then normal. *rolls eyes*

This week, food wise, has just been bad. Bad, bad, bad, bad, bad. ugh. I feel like I have gained weight and it’s not a happy feeling. It’s partially tempered by wearing a pair of work pants this week that the last time I wore (couple weeks ago) were not snug but were fitting just nice around the waist…the legs/butt area were looser then strictly fashionable but the waist still fit so, shrug, I wore em. Yesterday I grabbed them from my closet when getting dressed in the moring and found that they are now too large, I can hold the waist out an inch or so and they are so loose everywhere else they have now joined a bunch of other clothes in the “can never be worn again” pile. Yah! 😀 But still, I feel like the success that made those pants too large happened prior to this week and that this week I screwed up so much I am gonna gain weight, it’s so depressing. Feeling this way makes me want to eat even more, I am at times an emotional eater and feeling for days and days depressed about how many flex points I have used and that I have screwed up royally makes me want to eat! *rolls eyes* the amount of times this week I almost ate cake or cookies or chocolate or whatever, there have been many temptations and I have almost eaten all of them! Horrible! I had gotten to a point where the temptations didn’t even cross my radar and what happens? I totally dip and now am seeing the temptations everywhere and want them! Argh!

Here is what I ate today:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 Lean Cuisine Honey Mustard Chicken = 5 points

1 weight watchers english muffin = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow = 1 point

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

Wrap

    – 1 weight watchers wrap = 1 point

    – 1 scrambled egg = 2 points

    – 15 grams light shredded cheese = 1 point

    – 1 tbls creole dijon sauce = 1 point

cooked mix vegg = 0 points

1 pckg Jolly Time popcorn = 1 point

Total points eaten is 21. 😀 Least I didn’t go over – feels like a frickin miracle! lol. I still have two more days before weigh in so two more days of feeling like I totally screwed up but not knowing for sure by how much…sucky. 😦

I won’t be posting tomorrow cause of nannying after working all day – sadness, but I’ll be here saturday afternoon to let you know the results of weigh in!

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Stupid Germs, blarg!

23 Nov

Last Friday I was chillin with KL and she had a sore throat, not a big deal right? But then we spent a bunch of time outside freezing our arses off, then I was dressed all skimpy that evening in the even colder weather and by Saturday what did I have? Yup, a sore throat. grr. I tried to convince myself that I wasn’t getting sick, my throat just hurt cause of having to talk louder in the bar…makes sense to me! Course, it didn’t explain my throat still hurting Sunday but oh well…that’s just a technicality. lol.

Monday I felt awful (jingle*Yesterday was plain awful!~ you can say that again!~ Yesterday was plain awful, but that’s. not now. that’s then!*jingle) – little bit of Annie anyone? – so, back to the topic at hand, Monday I felt like crap. Sore throat, fever, chills, runny and stuffed nose, achey joints, nausea…so basic ickiness. I didn’t even go to Zumba after work I felt that sick! That pisses me off for many reasons, the first is I spent money on those classes – it’s about ten bucks a class and by not going I wasted ten bucks, grr, also, it is the only exercise I get each week so this could very likely negatively affect my weigh in on Saturday, double grr. Today of course I don’t feel as bad, if the class had been Tuesday night instead I totally would have been able to go, triple grr anybody? Oh, and yup, you read that right, I don’t feel anywhere near as bad today, I had a headache for a while and my appetite is nowhere near as high as normal but I figure the smallness of appetite helps make up for the lack of exercise I got (am getting) this week. Cause let’s be honest, I am not gonna do anything during the remaining week that will make up for the lack of Zumba class…that’s why paid classes are the best bet for me – I gotta go, I’ve made a commitment. Leave it up to me and what do I do? I sit…and chill on the comp or watch tv or read a book…shrug, it’s how I roll. lol.

Today was lunch with AC and peeps from work, it was really great. The first time there has been a work-food function and I have taken part in it since starting weight watchers…man, the food was goooooood! We went for Japanese and there were these awesome lunch specials, all under $8 and all kinds of combos, you could basically have anything. I got beef teriyaki with Philadelphia rolls, it comes with a bowl of rice and a bowl of miso soup and a couple veggies (literallly a couple, I had one small piece of broccoli and a carrot stick, lol) there was also a salad but it was drowned in dressing so I left it alone. lol

Today I ate:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 bowl sticky rice = 4 points – per 1 cup

1 bowl miso soup = 2 points – per 1 cup

1 serving beef teriyaki = 7 points?

8 philadelphia rolls = 7 points?

2 cups vine ripened tomato soup = 2 points

2 pieces toast = 2 points

2 tsp margarine = 2 points

I am scared to add up that total…sigh…ok, here goes…aw fuck, I ate 31 points today…just shoot me now, eesh. ugh. This weeks weigh in is gonna suck balls. argh. 😦

Some of those numbers are approximates so it could even be worse…this is why I don’t eat out at the work functions! Talk about learning a lesson! sigh.

With the Philadelphia rolls according to the book 2 large rolls are 3 points, my rolls weren’t large, I am not sure if they’d be described as small or medium but I know they aren’t large. shrug. So I figure 3 rolls equal 3 points, one of the rolls was uber small cause it was the end piece so I don’t feel that one should count as 1 point hence my 7 points for 8 rolls.

The beef teryaki, sigh, I thought I would never eat this again cause when I was reading the weight watchers dining out companion one day I noticed how bad that particular dish was so it immediately went on my “never again list”, and yes, I really do have a list like that! But when I was out today I thought what the heck, treat yourself! Moron that I am, eesh. 2 slices, or 4 ounces is 7 points – can you believe that?!?! What I want to know though is what constitutes a slice? I had a small pile of beef on my plate and I’d say maybe one piece of it could be called a slice, the rest was just small randomly sized pieces…uh, no for sure “slices” there. So maybe try to gauge the 4 ounces you may be thinking…well, as much as I weigh all my food at home I don’t carry a scale around with me, lol, and I don’t know what 4 ounces of cooked meat looks like, shrug. I decided to count 7 points for the beef cause sure, I might have eaten more but I really don’t know, shrug…

The soup and rice were easy to look up so I didn’t have to guess about that at least. lol.

I wasn’t going to eat dinner, I thought I’d skip it to save myself some points but my place is so frickin cold all I could think about was getting something warm in me. I decided to eat some Campbell’s V8 Vine Ripened Tomato soup, it is 1 point for 1 cup which is pretty awesome. I don’t know if I would recommend it though, I mean yeah, the points per serving is great but it was a bit bland, and chunky, and there were a couple spoonfuls that had something crunchy in…weird. Personally I prefer smooth tomato soup for starters…and what’s with the crunchy bits? I couldn’t figure out what that was…I should probaby regret the soup, or at least the toast since they put my points for the day up in to the frickin 30’s but I needed something warm, and a bit bland actually cause my stomach is still kinda off. I love toast. Mmm. I should have just had the toast…course I only think of that now! Ah well, least I got a couple veggie servings from the soup. 🙂

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Dieters Hell

21 Nov

I found a whole new hell-on-earth, one I never even thought of and therefore was quite unprepared for…

The grocery store during the holiday season *shudder* I never want to go back and yet, it is a place everyone must visit usually once a week.

Why is it a hellish place to be? Simple. Christmas goodies. Oh you know what I mean, all those chocolates, cookies, tins of various sweet treats that all come out this time of year. It’s a dieters hell, even a weight watcher dieters hell cause sure, the program is based on the principle you can eat anything you want you just have to portion it out but really? Do you really think you can buy that box of danish cookies, the tin of seashell chocolates, the cadbury’s chocolate fingers, the ferrero rocher, the Almond Roc, the chocolate orange and all those other things that are now sitting temptingly at the end of every aisle in the grocery store and not blow your diet? Hell no!

They totally took me by surprise, I turned a corner in the grocery store and boom! The empty space that used to be for traffic flow was filled with displays and all those displays were some kind of chocolate or cookie…or cookie chocolate! heh I walked very quickly through that section but I must admit I cast quite a few longing gazes at a lot of those treats. sigh. Oh, and yeah, they were all on sale too! Torture!

So what’s a dieter to do during this loooooooong season? Eat before you shop! lol. Sounds weird but it works. I had just been  out for a late lunch with friends so I was disturbingly full and had no interest in any food, I bought the things on my list and that was it but I know if I had been even a tiny bit hungry it would have been hard to resist picking up something from one of those displays. So my plan for the next, hmm, 7 weeks, is to not step foot in a grocery store unless I am not hungry. Hopefully this works…oh, and the 7 weeks? I figure all the stuff that doesn’t sell will go on sale in the new year so I am enacting this plan through to the second week or so of January. Cross your fingers for me!

Today I ate:

1 Activia = 2 points

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

1 chocolate glazed timbit = 2 points

White Spot

    – Southwest Bigger Burger (6oz 100% Canadian beef burger with jalapeno jack cheese, marinated onions, chipotle mayo, lettuce and tomato), oh and to make it worse it comes with a spoonful of coleslaw and a serving of fries – I swapped out the normal fries for sweet potato fries (what can I say, I am weak when it comes to sweet potato fries!)

So, I have no idea the points of that burger, coleslaw and fries, sigh. The restaurant’s website doesn’t have nutritional information which by this point we all know is a bad thing. lol. According to weight watchers 1 fast food burger is 6 points, or if you look at the beef the least healthy beef option in the book (85% lean/15% fat) for 3 oz is 5 points, I know my burger was 6oz so my meat alone may have been 10 points (depending how lean the beef was), the bun was probably 2-4 points (let’s go with 4 just in case) and then there are the toppings, sigh, the onions, tomato and lettuce are zero (small mercies) but the cheese, oh the cheese, that was probably 3 (it was 1 slice but no way in hell that was light cheese like what I buy for at home lol) and the sauce (the mayo), there was about 2 tbls of mayo on that and I highly doubt it was light so there is another 2 points…let’s tally this shall we?

Beef = 10, Bun = 4, Cheese = 3, Mayo = 2, That’s 19 right there, but don’t forget the grease used to cook it all (what, you thought I forgot? lol), so it’s actually higher, then there are the yam fries and the coleslaw. 1/2 cup of coleslaw is 4 points, there was only a spoonful of coleslaw so maybe 2 points worth? The yam fries, well, the ones I make at home are 3 points a serving and the restaurant was a way way way bigger serving then what I get at home, so easy 12 points of fries if not more.

I didn’t eat all the burger, but I did eat most of it, and I eventually ate all the fries, lol, I brought about half of them home and ended up snacking on them later in the evening, double sigh.

I don’t know what got in to me! I went in to that restaurant fully intending to order a salad but it’s so frickin cold out that the idea of a salad was just laughable, I wanted something warm! But did I pick a healthy warm dish? Nope. I followed my friends choices and got a burger. Dummy! Argh!

I will have to be very very careful this week, I never start a week having used so many flex points, it’s a little scary. I am going out for lunch Tuesday with peeps from work, it’s been planned for a while and I can’t get out of it (to be honest I don’t want to either, lol) we are going for Japanese so I have no idea what I will order. Also, it’s a restaurant I have never been to so I don’t know what to expect from the menu…hopefully there are some healthy choices. But other then that lunch I absolutely must stick to my points cause I don’t wanna go over my flex points, not when I am this-close to reaching 20 lbs lost. I wonder if sub-consciously I am self-sabatoging my diet so I don’t reach the 20 lb mark…hmm, something to ponder this week…

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