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Oh Yawn

2 Feb

Soooooo tired *yawn* I had the worst sleep last night, went to bed late and kept waking up all through the night, ugh. I hate when that happens. 😦  I was out at the movies last night with a friend, we saw Blue Valentine, have you seen it? It rocks and I totally recommend it – I paid the price for going out last night by having a killer tired day but hey, you can’t stop having a social life just so you can get a good nights sleep…right?

Usually when I am uber tired I crave carbs – quick energy ya know! But not today, weird but nice. I didn’t have any trouble sticking to my points today and I wasn’t craving any not allowed foods. Maybe part of it was cause all I wanted to do was have a nap, my body wasn’t wanting fuel it was wanting sleep lol. 😀

So you’d think I’d come home and have a nap right? Nope! Not my style. As much as I may want to nap I don’t – naps just make me feel draggy and more tired afterwards. I am hoping by staying awake and being active (not exercise active but doing stuff active) I will sleep better tonight – I’m crossing my fingers about this. 😛

My activity this evening? Baking! Yah! I made banana chocolate chip cake – I never know if I should call it cake or bread, I bake it in loaf pans and it gets sliced like bread…and some people warm up their slice and put margarine on it…all that screams bread to me but the original recipe is my mother’s and she put it in a cake dish and it was cut in to small squares and was definitely a cake…so uh, hmm…I still don’t know, shrug. It doesn’t really matter I s’pose, all that matters is that it is a well loved recipe I like making and people love eating the results. 🙂 The best part of baking for me is seeing people enjoy what I make – well that and the actual process of creating the baked goods…it’s just so much fun!

I forgot my food tracker at work, oops, let’s see if I can remember what I ate today:

1 pckg Instant Quaker Oatmeal = 3 points

1 orange = 1 point

1 cup Fire Roasted Sweet Pepper & Tomato soup = 2 points

1 piece bread = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

raw carrots = 0 points

1 Bodywise Bagel = 2 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

light miracle whip, mustard = 0 points

1 scrambled egg = 2 points

1 slice deli turkey = 0 points

mixed cooked veggies = 0 points

1 banana bran muffin = 2 points

1/2 cup peppermint candy ice cream = 4 points

Total points eaten is 21. 😀

Yes, you read the last food item in the list correct, I ate ice cream! hehehehe. Oh and you know what? It was gooooood! I saw it in the grocery store, it was uber cheap and a limited time flavour, what can I say – advertisers know how to snag me. lol. I figured if I am careful with it I can enjoy it without screwing up my diet and today I did ok. 🙂 Sure, 4 points for something that is a snack and not beneficial nutrient wise is kinda stupid but sometimes a girl just needs a treat. lol. Oh, fyi, the ice cream was strawberry with candy cane crushed up in to it, wow! Who came up with that? Cause that idea was fricken brilliant! 😀

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3 Points Left…

31 Jan

I have 3 points left for the day and I don’t know what to eat! I know what I want, lol, shocking I know, *rolls eyes* I want peanut butter…buuuuut, if I put peanut butter on bread that’ll use my last 3 points and that means no sweet little nibbly…hmm, is the peanut butter worth that sacrifice? Probably not…but the dilemma remains…what to eat?

I had a super yummy mid day treat that was totally unexpected. IF at work brought home made dumplings (IF is Chinese and knows what she is doing when it comes to cooking!), I am not sure of all the ingredients, she told me I just can’t remember, oops! lol What I do know is they rocked! 🙂 They were steamed (good) and small (good) and full of healthy stuff (good) which is why I didn’t feel guilty eating some of them. 🙂 I googled to try to figure out the points and found huuuge variations cause it depends how they are cooked, what is in them, all kinds of stuff. I decided to take one of the lower points calculations cause all the ones I found online were from restaurants and I know these ones are healthier then any you’d get in a restaurant!

OMG! haha, sorry, I literally just realized that I have Exercise Points cause I had Zumba class tonight so I don’t have 3 points left I have 6! 😀 I wouldn’t normally interrupt myself in such a manner that not only ruins the flow of my words 😛 but gives you a glimpse of how screwy my brain can be sometimes but this was just too funny to not share! lol. I am soooo having peanut butter on bread now! wOOt!

Ok, back on track, the dumplings…uh yeah, I think I was pretty much done talking about them, they were delicious, home made, healthy-ish and a nice little treat. She said she brought them because I am always bringing baking in to work and she wanted to share with me and some others, well, lemme tell you, her cooking is way better then my baking! Well…in my opinion…lol. 😉

So today I ate:

1 Instant Quaker Oatmeal = 3 points

1 cup chicken noodle soup = 2 points

1 crumpet = 1 point

3 dumplings = 2 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 cup brown rice = 4 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

1 tbls creole dijon sauce = 1 point

2 small pieces chicken = 3 points

Total points eaten = 18. Exercise points earned = 3. Points left to eat (in case you forgot lol) = 6!

I swear, the extra food points earned from exercising totally makes the exercising worth while. 😀 And now on to the peanut butter on bread! hooya! 😀

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I’m Cravin Foooooood!

27 Jan

I am not hungry…hear that stomach? I’m not hungry! You don’t need anything else in you cause you’re full…so why oh why do I want to keep eating? All this week I just want more food…I want the food I take with me to work, I want the food that is provided free at work, I want the snacks and nibblies that are in the meetings, I just want foooood! I keep finding myself reaching for things that not only do I not need they are the absolute wrong food choices to make.

I am home, have eaten dinner and am full but I keep wanting to go in to the kitchen and get something to snack on…I have no points left and don’t need food but need seems to have nothing to do with my eating desires this week…this week it is all about what I want and that boys n girls is just not good! 

So far I have managed to not cave too much, I had a bit of cheese at a meeting yesterday but I did count it in my daily food diary – mind you it wasn’t measured out cheese and most likely wasn’t light cheese so the points were a guesstimate but I let myself get away with that cause the other food items on the platters that I wanted were the cinnamon buns…or one of the sandwiches…well, ok, there were a lot of amazingly good looking foods and I kinda wanted some of everything so I consider it a close call I got out of there after only eating cheese. lol. But see? This is what I am talking about! I got cocky about being able to resist bad for me foods and now I am having trouble resisting them, sigh.

Before Christmas I was all “whatev, I can resist all the yummy treats, it’s not a big deal” people kept commenting on my willpower and I couldn’t figure out what the big deal was cause it wasn’t hard to resist the food…then Christmas hit and I ate lots but before that could mess me up I got way sick and stopped eating (well, not completely cause then I’d be dead but I ate maybe once a day) so I lost weight from that and also, when I did eat I let myself eat whatever I wanted cause I was barely eating and needed higher calorie foods. Now, I am healthier, eating my points on a daily basis but haven’t gotten over the mindset of eating whatever I want which means I keep reaching for more food then what I need and higher pointed foods. Argh!

I have to reassess my goals I think…I keep thinking of the big final goal and that makes it too hard to focus on the day to day eating. I usually try to aim for the next 10lbs max, then, when I reach that 10lb goal I get a little treat and yah, it’s another 10lbs to add to the total weight loss number but I dunno, all I think about now is the final number I want to reach and how far away I am from it. That number is so far away that I figure I might as well eat the cheese at the meeting cause I’m so far away from my goal it won’t make a huge difference…I know that is stupid and wrong thinking but hey, it’s where I’m at right now. 

This behaviour and outlook are being influenced by my upcoming headshots for sure; don’t get me wrong, I’m looking forward to the photoshoot but I am stressing about how I am gonna look, if I’m gonna see the pics and only think “holy fuck, I’m still so fat!” I like how I look in real life and on film but I have a tendancy to look like an idiot in pictures, sigh, and I guess that’s all I keep thinking about, how fat I am gonna look and how stupid I look in pictures. *rolls eyes* In true me fashion I am sub-consciously self-sabatoging my weight loss efforts so that if my pictures look lame or I can’t get an agent with them I can blame my being fat and no one being willing to give me a chance cause of my fatness. Pathetic, sigh.

I am trying to remind myself about the photo shoot everytime I start to reach for something I shouldn’t be eating – my new short term goal is to survive until the photo shoot, just make it that far and then I can have a treat of some kind…like a cinnamon bun lol.

So my lesson today, and really for the week, is remember the little goals, the reachable ones and when you start reaching for the bad food search deep down in your psyche to find out why you can’t seem to resist the food…only once you learn what is making you eat will you be better able to defend yourself against all those food urges…now excuse me while I go and read a baking cook book and dream 😉

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That’s Not Right!

25 Jan

I made one of my salmon steaks for dinner tonight – a new flavour Applewood Smoke and Maple, as it was cooking it smelled so yummy so I was quite looking forward to it. Well, something went not right and it turned out super dry and just plain yuck. Usually it’s tender and flaky and goooood (well, the other flavours I have had are like that) but this one, nope. Before you ask, yes the oven was at the right temp and yes I had it in for the correct amount of time…I don’t know why it dried out like that… 

It was so nasty I couldn’t force it down, shrug, so in to the garbage it went, sigh, what a waste! I only had like 3 small bites of it so I am not counting points for those 3 bites, I mean come on, really?  For 3 bites? Nuh-uh. To replace the salmon I had 2 pieces of bread with light peanut butter on them, maybe not what some would consider “balanced” but hey, it tasted good. lol. 🙂

Here is my food so far today:

1 pckg Quaker instant oatmeal = 3 points

1 apple = 1 point

1 cup Red Pepper Black Bean soup = 2 points

1 crumpet = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 banana chocolate bran muffin = 2 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

2 pieces bread = 2 points

1 tbls light peanut butter = 2 points

50 grams dates = 3 points

Total points eaten so far = 18, means I get 3 more! 🙂 Thank goodness I haven’t gone over yet, phew!

I am planning on having another muffin for 2 points (hey, they are good!) and I have a Mini York Peppermint Patty which is a whopping 1 point, :P, so that’ll be my little bit of sweetness…hmm, I just realized it’s in my purse, so I’ll be having that if it hasn’t been squashed, eek! Not the patty! Oh the horrors! lol.

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Oops! I Did It Again!

24 Jan

😉 Who doesn’t like a reference to Brittney Spears prior to the shaved head-bad marriage-crotch flashing-rehab sentenced period? Well, ok, probably most people don’t cause, uh, hello? It’s Brittney Spears, *gag*, but the line from the song seemed soooooo perfect!

I miscounted points today…wait, that’s not the correct word, I didn’t keep track properly and as a consequence I went over – even over my points when you add in the exercise points! Ack! I don’t feel badly about it though cause (1) I was really hungry and dude, I needed food and (2) I feel so good from my Zumba class that really, I just don’t give a flying fart lol 😀

Zumba tonight was so great! It was my first class back since before Christmas; I should have gone the previous two mondays but was too sick, sadness, I was a tad worried how I would do tonight cause of slacking off activity wise since before Christmas and also cause I still get coughing fits (though not as bad as before!) but how sucky would it be to start hacking up a lung in the middle of the salsa? 😛 Luckily for me, no huge coughing fits, yah! Couple minor ones but nothing that made anybody look and really, what more can a person ask for? lol.

I really pushed myself tonight and I am glad – that class totally made me sweat…and my abs still hurt, oh my! If they still hurt now imagine how they will feel tomorrow?  Oh the things we do to ourselves in our quest to get skinny!

So let’s see what I ate today!

1 package instant Quaker Oatmeal = 3 points

1 Lean Cuisine Chicken a L’Orange = 4 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 orange = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 piece bread = 1 point

1 tbls light peanut butter = 2 points

1 cup mashed yam = 3 points

1 whole wheat wrap = 2 points

1/4 cup pizza sauce = 1 point

30 grams shredded light cheese = 2 points

mushroom and tomato = 0 points

6 slices pepperoni = 4 points

Total points eaten = 26 😦

Exercise points earned = 3 🙂

So, with my 21 daily points + my 3 exercise points I should have eaten 24 points of food…instead I (in all my brilliance, sigh) ate 26 points which means 2 more flex points bite the dust! This is just a bad bad bad week for flex points!

I’m glad I don’t feel guilty about eating over my points today cause frankly I can’t stand anymore days this week where I feel bad about what I ate or how much I ate or how stupid of a decision I made food wise, shrug, so for today sure I over ate but I exercised too! And sure, I messed my points up again (ala Brittney Spears and her screw ups) but I can learn (theoretically) and maybe I won’t do this again…at least not too soon! Hope springs eternal on my couch tonight! 😉

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A Loooong 24 Hours

21 Jan

I feel like I have been on a two day bender – I should clarify, a two day food bender. lol. When I look objectively at what I ate over the past two days I don’t think it really counts as a bender exactly, but it sure wasn’t normal!

Let’s look at yesterday shall we? Yesterday some of us at work got treated to a belated Christmas lunch, at a nice restaurant where we could order whatever we want, yah! I decided before I even went that I wasn’t going to count my points, I would just order whatever. Mainly the reason I decided that was cause I scoped out the menu before the day and there ain’t nuthin healthy in the joint, lol. It’s not like the food was all battered and deep fried, it’s just got sauces and crusted this and battered that and well, more sauces. 😛 I decided on the halibut sandwich, not great for me but it could’ve been a lot worse and it sounded sooooo good. When we got there though the menu was slightly different then the one you can view online, weirdness, there were more options and some of the stuff had changed…for instance, the sandwich I wanted was now crunchy salmon and didn’t sound as good…oh, and apparently it is an appetizer and uber small…huh.

There were 5 of us and before I knew it they were ordering appetizers, it could have been worse, it wasn’t we each got an appie it was we got 3 and shared them, sigh…so I had a bite of calamari, one duck taco (yes, duck!) and we got the cheese pot which is this pot of super duper yummy melted cheese and cut toast on the side to dip. Yum! I had two 1/2 slices of toast so really, 1 piece of toast dipped in the cheese. My main dish was a miso turkey burger with asian bbq sauce and skinny string fries. That burger, wow! It was juicy, and tender and had excellent flavour. Mmm the sauce! It was on a, shoot, now the name of the bun has escaped me, it’s not a normal hamburger bun, it was better! I at least had the presence of mind to have them cut the burger in half before bringing it to me so I made a deal with myself, eat half the burger and at most half the fries and the meal can be counted as a success. 🙂

Seems simple right? I did eat only half the burger, and I had even less then half the fries BUT I ended up with dessert. OMG. What was I thinking? That dessert while being the cap on a truly amazing meal was so over the top it’s ridiculous! It’s the kind of restaurant where there’s no dessert menu, there is only one thing offered per day, whatever the chef felt like making that day…well yesterday he felt like making Chocolate Ganache Lave Cakes with berry compote and a huuuge scoop of vanilla ice cream. Holy crap. I think I gained 10lbs from dessert alone! I can’t remember the last time I had a dessert like that…wowza. 😀

That dessert though, as delicious as it was, man, I thought it was gonna kill me. *rolls eyes* By the third bite I knew I should stop eating it, it was just too much food and that specifically was way too much sugar for me…how sad is that? I am consoling myself by saying it was too much sugar cause I’m still getting over being sick and barely eating…it damn well better not be cause I don’t eat sweet stuff like that anymore and have now screwed myself for ever enjoying it again! That is a scary thought! Did I stop eating it though? Ha! Nope I did not. I kept thinking how it’s gonna be a very long time before I get anything like that again and on someone elses dime, well, hard to resist! I kept eating the lava cake, sigh, one mouthful after another of chocolate cake with chocolate sauce and some berry compote with just a tad bit of ice cream…yup, that is how I ate almost every bite of that dessert, with all the stuff on the spoon mixed. YUM! I can’t even describe how amazing all those flavours mixed together tasted in my mouth…if only there was a way to get all that yummy flavour without having to swallow and take in the calories…

this is the dessert that put me over the top...YUM!

So by the last bite of dessert I was feeling sick…the kind of sick you get when you ate way way way too much and you know digestion is gonna be a bitch. 😦 I so should have stopped eating before that point cause now when I think back to that meal all I remember is how much my digestive track hurt for (and I’m not even joking here) almost a full 24 hours. Yup, it took that long for my system to be able to sort out what I put in to it and be ok. Pathetic!

I didn’t eat anything else after that gorge fest yesterday, which really, I used so many points in that meal even if I had wanted to eat something else I couldn’t have afforded it lol. When I went to bed my gut was hurting but I figured it’s ok, I’ll wake up and it’ll feel fine…uh, no. It still hurt. Not as much, but close. I was a tad worried, wondering if my odd abdomenal pains from when I was sick were returning but it turned out to be me still digesting my food. lol. I didn’t eat lunch today until hmm, 1:30pm or so and I didn’t want it any earlier then that, I forced myself to eat some breakfast and that just made things worse so I waited till all the pain/discomfort were gone before attempting lunch lol.

I feel fine now, in case you are wondering, everything is all settled. 😀 BUT! I ate for lunch the other half of the turkey burger and the rest of the fries so I feel like I shouldn’t have eaten dinner cause no way that meal was anywhere close to good for me but I couldn’t resist eating dinner. I know I should have just had a salad with no dressing but alas, I had pancakes. lol. Yeah I know, pancakes? What makes it weirder is I bought the fixings to make home made pizza but the pancakes were lower points so I figured I’d eat those instead, and I wanted some comfort food for some reason…but seriously? After a lunch like that, eating pancakes? Where has my brain gone?!?!

And that is why I feel I have been on a 2 day food bender in which 24 hours of that was spent digesting one meal…Not Good! I have weigh in tomorrow and even before all this food I felt fatter and am positive I have gained weight, now I took what might have been a small amount of weight gain and turned it into an astronomical weight gain…I wouldn’t be surprised if I went up by 5 pounds on the scale tomorrow…how depressing!

The pancakes tonight were good though…lol 😉

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Stop Already!

19 Jan

Ok, how much of this am I supposed to be able to take?! I finally have my appetite back (yah!) but in seems my tummy wants to make up for all those days I had no appetite and everything I look at I want to eat, argh. This would be easily handled if there wasn’t so much stupid junk food being brought in to the office this week – it’s killing me! Double argh!

Yesterday there was leftover baked goods and timbits in the lunch room – I don’t know why I even went in there, *rolls eyes* but I did, sigh…and it was so so so hard to not eat something off those platters! There were cheese scones for heavens sakes! Nobody should ever be asked to resist that! So I leave the lunch room and go back to the “safety” of my office area – ha bloody ha – and got there right in time to see a fellow co-worker unloading 4 containers of baked goods on to the desk next to mine – 4!!! FOUR!!! Insanity! There were apple strudel, mini cinnamon buns, mini blueberry bran muffins and worst of all…croissants!! OMG! Cheese scones and croissants?! There should be rules about bringing these things around me!

Oh, and do you think all those baked goods were gone from the office today? Nope, not even close! And guess whose desk they were closest to all day? Yup, mine. Grr. Plus, there were more meetings today which means more baked goods in the lunch room.  😦

It’s like the universe is out to get me…

I am the universe's pin cushion this week

So, somehow the baked goods and timbits and just general junk food that are circling the office and lunch room have yet to make it in to my mouth or stomach…phew! I feel like I have somehow managed to avoid some hurdles…but it’s not over yet!

Let’s see what I ate today:

1 pckg instant quaker oatmeal = 3 points

1 banana = 1 point

1 Lean Cuisine Sweet n Sour Chicken = 5 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 orange = 1 point

3 chicken strips = 4 points

mixed cooked vegg = 0 points

50 grams dates = 3 points

That is a total of 19 points – yah! 😀

I still have 1 point left and I will either eat a 1 point werther’s chocolate candy or splurge and have a 2 point thinsations package. Normally I wouldn’t even consider the splurge but I am kinda hungry…not starved though so I am gonna make a cup of tea and wait cause maybe I am just dehydrated and so I think I am hungry but I am actually thirsty…hey, it happens!

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I Threaded!

17 Jan

Have you ever heard of threading your eyebrows? You probably have, it’s just as popular as waxing and everyone has heard of that! Well, I have always gotten my eyebrows waxed at Aveda – it costs $15 + tax + tip…it can add up quickly and isn’t that a silly thing to spend so much money on, I mean…eyebrows? When I mentioned this to a friend at work she looked stunned and said I was crazy spending so much and she directed me to a place that does threading for $5 no tax. Sweet huh? So instead of going to Zumba tonight I went and got my eyebrows threaded…quite the odd sensation but my eyebrows are lookin pretty smokin. lol.

Why did I go get my eyebrows done instead of going to Zumba? On the surface it looks like my priorities got screwed and I am not focusing so much on my weight loss…this couldn’t be farther from the truth, I am still thinking about it all the time and constantly working on my eating plans to make sure I hit my points everyday but my pneumonia is lingering and no way would I last even ten minutes in the Zumba class…sad as it is my lungs just wouldn’t be able to handle it…I feel so old. 😦

So instead I went and beautified myself a little bit. It’s just as important to take care of the outside in terms of grooming as it is to take care of the inside by eating right and exercising. Cause sure, as we lose weight our innards are getting healthier and our overall body shape is looking better but we have to take care of the rest of us – make all of us look good. 🙂 This in turn will help boost self esteem and make the hard weeks where the weight loss isn’t so great easier to handle. 😀 and hey, it only cost $5 + tip!

So what did I eat today?

29 grams Honey Bunches of Oats with Pecan Bundles = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 cup carrot soup = 2 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

1 babybell = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 whole wheat wrap = 2 points

2 slices turkey = 0.5 points

1 tbls light miracle whip = 0 points

2 cheese slices = 2 points

3/4 cup baked yam = 2 points

25 grams dates = 1.5 points

1 thinsations Fudge dipped bar = 2 points

Total points eaten is exactly 20 – yah! I have had so much trouble eating my points lately, last week it seemed I either underate or overate I never hit my points and stuck there so today is a total win! 😀 I hit my points and did something to help me feel pretty, can’t beat that – especially when you’re sick! lol

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Snow Day, yah!

13 Jan

SNOW DAY!! wOOt! Who doesn’t like having a snow day? A crazy person that’s who! lol. The snow day was yesterday – I slept through most of it – which is the bestest way to spend a snow day. 😀 IMO anyways. The second best way is by curling up on the couch with the curtains open so you can see the snow but you’re comfy under a throw blanket drinking a cup of tea and reading a book. I had planned to enjoy part of the day with a book and cup of tea but what can I say…sleep won out. 😛

It’s kinda funny, a snow day here is not a snow day anywhere else in the country. I am pretty sure every other city in the country laughed at us, *rolls eyes*, but hey, we’re the wimpy part of Canada. I can say this because I am from the prairies where winter is real – it is snow up to your knees or higher and -30C or colder and even with all that you still go out and do your thing cause hey, it’s gonna be like that for weeks (probably months) – you can’t have a snow week. But here? Nope, not the same. A measly 11″ of snow screws up the whole city! teehee It’s so much fun to watch on the news but not fun to actually drive in – hence snow day! 😀

You would think that having a day where I don’t go to work would make it easier to reach my points cause, well, duh, I have the whole day to chill and eat and whatev…well, not quite. Like I said, I slept for most of it, then made something to eat that filled me for the rest of the day…oops?

I more then made up for it today though, sigh. I was doing ok points wise while at work…to be honest by mid afternoon I was kinda starving (which is something I haven’t felt since getting sick) and did I have any zero pointed snacks with me? Why no, no I didn’t. 😦  I had an errand I had to do after work so by the time I got home all I could think about was food and that’s just not good…sigh.

Oh, not only was I uber hungry  I am also pms-ing, which now that I think about it is probably why I am so hungry…huh, crap. Hormones just suck! Arg!

I ended up eating Kraft Mac n Cheese AND a Pecan Tart!! Just shoot me! I can’t believe I did that…ugh. 😦 😦 I didn’t even measure the KD!!! I have no idea how many points I ate cause at the time I didn’t care, I just needed the food I was craving…I already feel guilty about it. 😦 I have weigh in on saturday, that’s only 2 sleeps away, what was I thinking?!?!?!

Ok, I gotta calm down, it’s over and done with, the food is eaten, there is nothing I can do about it at this point (unless I wanted to puke it up but I don’t) so I’m just gonna have to suck it up and pay the piper on saturday when I step on that scale, sigh.

At least the snow day was great…

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Where’s The Wagon??

28 Dec

You know that saying about “falling off the wagon”? Well, I have not only fallen off but that damn horse I am supposed to get right back on has hitched the wagon to itself and gallopped away, bastard. Oh, and it appears it loaded my willpower on to the wagon before bulleting out of here cause I haven’t seen that guy around here for days and days and days. I shake the fist at the lot of you! *shaking fist* grr.

Don’t you just love the holiday season? A time of stores being filled to bursting with all kinds of high calorie treats, a whopping big meal on the 25th, or the 24th…or possibly not at all depending on your religion, but for me, Whopping huuuuge meal on the 25th and of course the days surrounding that day are not exactly filled with meals or snacks that are healthy. Yummy? You bet! Healthy? Not a shot in hell! lol

Let’s do a brief recap to see just how badly I fell off that wagon called weight loss…the 23rd was my bday (Yah!) so there was a big dinner, I got to pick it so it was spaghetti and turkey meatballs, garlic bread and pecan pie (I didn’t feel like the traditional chocolate cake, shrug)…I don’t really remember what I ate during the day that day and that’s just another sign of how far off the deep end I have gone cause I have stopped writing down what I have been eating…tsk tsk to me. So, one slice of that pie was 8 points…*rolls eyes* that was the beginning of the end I think…

Dec 24th is generally finger food nibbly type stuff in our house and this year was as expected. There was egg salad mix on open faced dinner buns, sausage rolls, mincemeat tarts (which I didn’t eat, ick!), various cookies, chocolates etc. I had some of the egg mix on buns, some sausage rolls, some random nibblies I can’t remember, oh my, this not remembering is more scary then knowing…who knows what I did and have somehow blocked myself from remembering?!?!

Dec 25th traditionally starts off with a cinnamon bun, YUM! I had a measured out serving of Life cereal and milk (back to my old school ways, lol.) and an orange…however, I caved and had a cinnamon bun too…I think it would have been better to just eat the cinnamon bun but at least I got some nutrients and food groups from the cereal milk and orange, right? I nibbled on raw veggies during the day so that’s not so bad but dinner…oh man, dinner, Amazing! I love my mom’s christmas dinner, her and my brother do all the work and it turns out frickin perfect every time! So there was turkey (duh!), stuffing, mashed yams, roast potatoes, carrot and parsnip, vienna sausage, fried mushrooms and of course lots of gravy and cranberry sauce…tastebud heaven! 😀 I didn’t even try to pretend I was taking a proper portion of any of that, I just took and ate! My sister kept getting on my case about how many points I am eating but I am trying to ignore her, that’s her sense of humour and altho it’s not funny to anyone but her it’s just the way she is, shrug. One day out of the year I can try to over look it, right? Right…well, maybe…lol. Dessert was Sherry Trifle, omg, so so so so goooooood! My mom makes that (I made the custard this year, so I can officially say I helped with christmas dinner, lol) and the trifle turned out perfect! I had two servings of that…I know I should be hanging my head in shame but I just can’t, it was so good and it only happens once a year…

Normally I have seconds with christmas dinner but my poor tummy is not used to eating large portions or such a mixture of foods anymore so it rebelled at even the thought of it, lol.

Hmm, you’d think after that things wouldn’t be so bad, that they’d go back to normal…well, nope. 😛

Dec 26th I drove my bro to the airport so I ate brekkie late, I had oatmeal and toast, that part was normal at least lol. Then I was out at a movie that a friend let me pick and she paid to make up for not buying me a bday present, nice huh? Well she also decided she was gonna buy me goodies to eat at the movie and I wasn’t allowed to say no so I ended up with popcorn and a root beer, not even diet cause they don’t carry that, evil! I ate way more of the popcorn then I intended but it was so yummy and I found I just kept mindlessly eating, oops, and well, root beer hello? Already established that is a weakness of mine! lol. That evening I baked banana bread and had a Guiness…now the banana bread is not for me so not eaten by me, yah! but that was 3 points worth of beer 😛

Dec 27th I had my leftover christmas dinner, leftovers are better somehow then the original meal, weird huh? So, the full meal all over again except the turkey was on a piece of toast so I could have a hot turkey sandwich…I look forward to that all year! That kept me full for a really long time. That is also the day I started getting a cough and generally not feeling well. I went for a late dinner with MJ at the Cheesecake Cafe, I ordered the BBQ beef burger, it comes with back bacon on it but I took it off (just wasn’t feelin it, ya know?) and I cut it in half cause I still wasn’t all that hungry. Well, for someone not all that hungry I managed to eat half the burger and a lot of yam fries – the yam fries and dipping sauce there are truly excellent. 🙂 The waitress was way delayed getting us our food so they comped us a dessert and even though neither of us really wanted dessert we figured we can’t pass it up if it’s free, right? So we split the Terry’s Chocolate Orange cheesecake. It was alright, I am glad we didn’t pay for it cause it tasted like plain chocolate, none of the orange flavour that is the point of the Terry’s Chocolate Orange. It was funny, we were all “we’ll take a couple bites then get it boxed up” and while talking we managed to eat all but two bites! lol. We left that remaining two bites cause it made us feel better not actually finishing it, lol.

That brings us to today, I am sicker, I actually took Benelyn last night cause I felt that crappy, eek! I hung out with my nephew today so we saw a movie, played mini golf, bought him some sweeeeet skater runners (he’s ten and I just had to do it!), he wanted some Mexi Fries from Taco Time so I got him those and he insisted I eat at least one so I did, shrug, he’s only ten! He doesn’t understand diets! Then when I got back to my parents place I had some homemade turkey soup. I wasn’t really hungry, and still am not, but I ate it cause I know I should be hungry and all I’d had up to that point was some toast and one mexi fry, shrug, I figured give my body some nutrients, right? I have dinner plans for this evening so who knows how that will go…and plans that involve a restaurant tomorrow…this is gonna kill me!

I am really starting to worry about how much weight I have put on…I don’t want to get back home and find I have gained back anymore then 2lbs, cause that’ll suck and really bring me down, but I dunno, every morning I swear I am gonna eat healthy and get back on track and something goes wrong…I really wish that horse would at least bring me back my will power…

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