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Blackberries, Tattoos and Weight Loss

3 Jul

So it has been a busy couple days; yesterday I went shopping and came away with a Blackberry Bold and today after work I went shopping and came away with an inner wrist tattoo…ah the things we do to ourselves. When did we stop spending all our money on shoes? lol. The reason I am telling you this is because to look at my posts I am obsessed with Weight Watchers, you’d think my life revolved around it…sadly, it kinda does.

I was out tonight with a friend, KL, and we wanted to grab a bite to eat before going to a movie. KL wanted to hit up this nice looking sushi place and I had to go to Subway…that’s right, I said had. I pre-calculated my points so I knew what I would be tallying up if I ate the already chosen sub whereas if I went for sushi I’d be guessing and I know I would have eaten over my points. sigh. I sat with KL while she ate and it looked and smelled sooooo good but not one little bite went past my lips. While I am marginally happy about my apparently increasing willpower when it comes to food I am sad that I couldn’t partake in the sushi feast.

You are supposed to be able to eat anything you want on Weight Watchers but that’s a bit of  a lie, I couldn’t have eaten what I wanted at that sushi restaurant not without using a ridiculous amount of flex points. I  have gradually been cutting out of my life foods that don’t fall in to the points realm, Almond Roca (3 pieces = 6 points) – in my opinion not worth it so I have cut them out. I will miss them but I’d rather be skinny then eat Almond Roca. But sushi??? I have given up so many foods already and it looks like the list is just going to keep getting longer.

So now it is almost midnight, I am freakin tired and am I sleeping? Nope I am doing laundry and worrying about tomorrow because tomorrow is….dun dun dun…Weigh In Day *insert scary music here* Will I lose weight? Will I gain weight? Will I stay the same? Will the pants fit any differently, and if so a good or a bad different? I want to know but I am scared to find out; what if I have been doing all this work (and it is work!) and nothing has come of it? I know I have to be patient, I keep trying to remind myself of that, maybe this first week weigh in I won’t lose anything, maybe it will take longer to get results but I am a result oriented person and I need to see results to keep me motivated. Will I be able to keep going if the scale doesn’t show I have lost weight? I guess there is nothing to do about it until tomorrow when I weigh myself and see what my reaction is to whatever that damn digital screen tells me.

So here’s my food for the day:

1 bagel = 3 points

1 tbsp light cream cheese = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Shrimp and Scallop Pasta Bowl from M&M Meath Shops = 6 points

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1/2 small Blenz Fruitchillo with yogurt = 4 points

6″ Subway Turkey sub on 9 grain whole wheat = 6 points

extra stuff on sub (cheese, light may, mustard) = 4 points

1 package popcorn = 1 point

That puts me at a total of…28

Aw shit, how’d that happen? Admittedly some of the points are estimated so maybe I didn’t do as badly as I calculated but maybe I did worse? And the day before weigh in day! Argh! The sub is 6 points, that’s taking the nutritional info from the Subway site but their info doesn’t include the light mayo, mustard and cheese I got put on so I had to guestimate how many extra points that is. And the Blenz drink, well, the Blenz website is not as helpful as I would like for nutritional info, sigh. All their calculations are based on the medium sized drink…I had a small and only drank half of that! I have no idea how many points that is so I took the 9 points the medium drink is and pared it back a bit. shrug. It’s the best I can do.

I also broke a cardinal rule, oh dear, never ever eat anything salty the last couple days before weigh in day cause you’ll retain water…and what did I do? I ate popcorn while sitting here typing, dammit! I needed a snack though and it seemed perfect, wasn’t till I was eating it I realized the mistake I was making. *rolls eyes* Maybe today I was trying to sabotage myself so that if I fail tomorrow on the scale I have built in excuses (oh, I probably did lose weight but I am retaining water from the popcorn so the scale doesn’t reflect it) Someone needs to smack me tomorrow if I write something like that down…that sounds like a joke but I mean it! I have a horrible habit of self sabotaging myself and to that I say No More!!!

Now, I am off to tend to the tattoo, hopefully the next time I type I will be a couple pounds lighter! 🙂

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A Grown Up Dinner

2 Jul

I had a crappy end to my work day yesterday and got home later then normal. Now, yes I am an emotional eater but no I am not – weird how you can be both isn’t it? Sometimes when I have a crappy day I eat, other times when I have a crappy day I don’t eat. I am not sure why sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t -I just know I do both. lol.

By the time I left work yesterday I was starving (cause of the time) and all I wanted to do was EAT!! I had to force myself to not dive in to the cupboards at home and make some KD or something even worse, oy! I had however realized something like this might happen and I would need something quick, easy and healthy to make so that’s what I pulled out. 🙂

I had bought a Salmon Steak in Dill Sauce that can be put in the oven or the microwave (the microwave only takes 6 mins) and there you go, healthy chunk of protein. I paired it with some mashed sweet potatoes and mixed veggies.  I realized after I had it on the plate that I had made a dinner my mother would make – a real grown up dinner! I actually called to tell her cause it was such an amazing thing. lol.  This is not going to herald a permanent change in my eating habits mind you; I will for the most part continue to eat the way I have been but the dinner was yummy enough that I may just duplicate it sometime…not too soon though! lol

Yesterday I ate:

3/4 cup Special K Almond = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 serving whole wheat pasta = 2.5 points

1/4 cup Knorr alfredo sauce = 2 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

2 triangles Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1 cup cherries = 1 point

1 cup mashed yams = 3 points

1 Salmon Steak = 3 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

2 maple cookies = 4 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

This totals 22.5 points – I didn’t realize until today that I forgot to add in to my daily points the 1 tsp of margarine I used in the mashed yams so really I used 23.5 which is a pisser cause I didn’t want to use any flex points but there you have it.

On a plus note it was Cake Day at work, once a month at work cakes are brought in to celebrate whoever had a bday that month. There was a Dairy Queen ice cream cake and a 4 layer strawberry shortcake; they both looked amazing! I checked the nutritional info for DQ ice cream cakes before going to the lunch room to see if I could eat a slice, or at least a portion of a slice. Well! Those cakes are so ridiculously bad for you! It’s just ice cream for heavens sake! If it is an 8″ round ice cream cake 1/8 of the cake is 12 points, if it’s a 10″ cake 1/10 of the cake is 15 points! Absolutely NOT!!! I still went to the lunch room for the socializing part of cake day but I didn’t eat any of the cake. The weird part is I didn’t really want any and I didn’t feel deprived that I wasn’t eating any, shrug, I was pleasantly full from lunch and at the end of my lunch had some fruit so I had some natural sugar in me – guess my body didn’t want the bad-for-me sugar that was in the cake. Crazeeeee!

Now, for today, Happy Canada Day btw…

I slept in ridiculously late, so late I won’t even put the time on here because it was that late and when I finally got up I was starved. I find whenever I miss a meal now I feel more starved then I used to; I think this means my stomach is now used to eating on a regular basis and when it misses a meal it notices more. It’s kinda annoying but oh well.

So my food today, I wanted something huge to eat when I got up but I totally went overboard. Ugh. I had some cereal and milk while I was boiling then pan frying some baby potatoes. Once the potatoes were getting close to ready I made some eggs and with that paired some cheese and toast…can you believe that!?!?! I realized afterwards it was some werid kind of binge, the likes of which I used to do but thought I had stopped. The only difference is I felt worse at the end instead of better like I used to.  It left me feeling gross and not wanting to do anything as a result. Then, when the day was mostly over and I was home again I realized I had to eat something else since I had a tonne of points left but my overeating before made me not want anything. sigh. I think I will have to force myself to eat properly on days off cause when I don’t it just messes me up.

My food today:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

5 baby potatoes = 1 point

2 pcs toast = 2 points

2 eggs scrambled = 4 points

30 grams marble cheese = 3 points

1 pepperoni pizza pop = 6 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

1 nectarine = 1 point

1 cup cherries = 1 point

This is exactly 23 points used. I did the same mistake as yesterday though, I forgot to add in the small things used when making the food. I had 2 tsp margarine on the toast so thats 2 points, and I didn’t add that in so when I was looking at how many points I had left to use I chose the pizza pop because of how high in points it was and figured I’d top that off with two pieces of fruit since I hadn’t had any yet today. If I hadn’t eaten the fruit I would have been even on my points for the day, as it is I am two over, I think though that it’s ok to be two over today because if I hadn’t had the fruit my food eaten would have had nothing fresh.

That means that so far this week I am, what, 3 points in to my flex points? Annoying but dealable.

On  a side note I totally wanted to try on my pants that are my test for it I have lost weight but made myself not do it cause that is a once a week only thing – I tend to get obsessive when trying to lose weight so I made a rule I can only weigh myself and try on those pants once a week (on saturdays), otherwise I’d be checking the numbers and trying those damn pants on multiple times a day and thats just demoralizing. lol

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