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Stupid Germs, blarg!

23 Nov

Last Friday I was chillin with KL and she had a sore throat, not a big deal right? But then we spent a bunch of time outside freezing our arses off, then I was dressed all skimpy that evening in the even colder weather and by Saturday what did I have? Yup, a sore throat. grr. I tried to convince myself that I wasn’t getting sick, my throat just hurt cause of having to talk louder in the bar…makes sense to me! Course, it didn’t explain my throat still hurting Sunday but oh well…that’s just a technicality. lol.

Monday I felt awful (jingle*Yesterday was plain awful!~ you can say that again!~ Yesterday was plain awful, but that’s. not now. that’s then!*jingle) – little bit of Annie anyone? – so, back to the topic at hand, Monday I felt like crap. Sore throat, fever, chills, runny and stuffed nose, achey joints, nausea…so basic ickiness. I didn’t even go to Zumba after work I felt that sick! That pisses me off for many reasons, the first is I spent money on those classes – it’s about ten bucks a class and by not going I wasted ten bucks, grr, also, it is the only exercise I get each week so this could very likely negatively affect my weigh in on Saturday, double grr. Today of course I don’t feel as bad, if the class had been Tuesday night instead I totally would have been able to go, triple grr anybody? Oh, and yup, you read that right, I don’t feel anywhere near as bad today, I had a headache for a while and my appetite is nowhere near as high as normal but I figure the smallness of appetite helps make up for the lack of exercise I got (am getting) this week. Cause let’s be honest, I am not gonna do anything during the remaining week that will make up for the lack of Zumba class…that’s why paid classes are the best bet for me – I gotta go, I’ve made a commitment. Leave it up to me and what do I do? I sit…and chill on the comp or watch tv or read a book…shrug, it’s how I roll. lol.

Today was lunch with AC and peeps from work, it was really great. The first time there has been a work-food function and I have taken part in it since starting weight watchers…man, the food was goooooood! We went for Japanese and there were these awesome lunch specials, all under $8 and all kinds of combos, you could basically have anything. I got beef teriyaki with Philadelphia rolls, it comes with a bowl of rice and a bowl of miso soup and a couple veggies (literallly a couple, I had one small piece of broccoli and a carrot stick, lol) there was also a salad but it was drowned in dressing so I left it alone. lol

Today I ate:

54 grams Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 bowl sticky rice = 4 points – per 1 cup

1 bowl miso soup = 2 points – per 1 cup

1 serving beef teriyaki = 7 points?

8 philadelphia rolls = 7 points?

2 cups vine ripened tomato soup = 2 points

2 pieces toast = 2 points

2 tsp margarine = 2 points

I am scared to add up that total…sigh…ok, here goes…aw fuck, I ate 31 points today…just shoot me now, eesh. ugh. This weeks weigh in is gonna suck balls. argh. 😦

Some of those numbers are approximates so it could even be worse…this is why I don’t eat out at the work functions! Talk about learning a lesson! sigh.

With the Philadelphia rolls according to the book 2 large rolls are 3 points, my rolls weren’t large, I am not sure if they’d be described as small or medium but I know they aren’t large. shrug. So I figure 3 rolls equal 3 points, one of the rolls was uber small cause it was the end piece so I don’t feel that one should count as 1 point hence my 7 points for 8 rolls.

The beef teryaki, sigh, I thought I would never eat this again cause when I was reading the weight watchers dining out companion one day I noticed how bad that particular dish was so it immediately went on my “never again list”, and yes, I really do have a list like that! But when I was out today I thought what the heck, treat yourself! Moron that I am, eesh. 2 slices, or 4 ounces is 7 points – can you believe that?!?! What I want to know though is what constitutes a slice? I had a small pile of beef on my plate and I’d say maybe one piece of it could be called a slice, the rest was just small randomly sized pieces…uh, no for sure “slices” there. So maybe try to gauge the 4 ounces you may be thinking…well, as much as I weigh all my food at home I don’t carry a scale around with me, lol, and I don’t know what 4 ounces of cooked meat looks like, shrug. I decided to count 7 points for the beef cause sure, I might have eaten more but I really don’t know, shrug…

The soup and rice were easy to look up so I didn’t have to guess about that at least. lol.

I wasn’t going to eat dinner, I thought I’d skip it to save myself some points but my place is so frickin cold all I could think about was getting something warm in me. I decided to eat some Campbell’s V8 Vine Ripened Tomato soup, it is 1 point for 1 cup which is pretty awesome. I don’t know if I would recommend it though, I mean yeah, the points per serving is great but it was a bit bland, and chunky, and there were a couple spoonfuls that had something crunchy in…weird. Personally I prefer smooth tomato soup for starters…and what’s with the crunchy bits? I couldn’t figure out what that was…I should probaby regret the soup, or at least the toast since they put my points for the day up in to the frickin 30’s but I needed something warm, and a bit bland actually cause my stomach is still kinda off. I love toast. Mmm. I should have just had the toast…course I only think of that now! Ah well, least I got a couple veggie servings from the soup. 🙂

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Dieters Hell

21 Nov

I found a whole new hell-on-earth, one I never even thought of and therefore was quite unprepared for…

The grocery store during the holiday season *shudder* I never want to go back and yet, it is a place everyone must visit usually once a week.

Why is it a hellish place to be? Simple. Christmas goodies. Oh you know what I mean, all those chocolates, cookies, tins of various sweet treats that all come out this time of year. It’s a dieters hell, even a weight watcher dieters hell cause sure, the program is based on the principle you can eat anything you want you just have to portion it out but really? Do you really think you can buy that box of danish cookies, the tin of seashell chocolates, the cadbury’s chocolate fingers, the ferrero rocher, the Almond Roc, the chocolate orange and all those other things that are now sitting temptingly at the end of every aisle in the grocery store and not blow your diet? Hell no!

They totally took me by surprise, I turned a corner in the grocery store and boom! The empty space that used to be for traffic flow was filled with displays and all those displays were some kind of chocolate or cookie…or cookie chocolate! heh I walked very quickly through that section but I must admit I cast quite a few longing gazes at a lot of those treats. sigh. Oh, and yeah, they were all on sale too! Torture!

So what’s a dieter to do during this loooooooong season? Eat before you shop! lol. Sounds weird but it works. I had just been  out for a late lunch with friends so I was disturbingly full and had no interest in any food, I bought the things on my list and that was it but I know if I had been even a tiny bit hungry it would have been hard to resist picking up something from one of those displays. So my plan for the next, hmm, 7 weeks, is to not step foot in a grocery store unless I am not hungry. Hopefully this works…oh, and the 7 weeks? I figure all the stuff that doesn’t sell will go on sale in the new year so I am enacting this plan through to the second week or so of January. Cross your fingers for me!

Today I ate:

1 Activia = 2 points

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

1 chocolate glazed timbit = 2 points

White Spot

    – Southwest Bigger Burger (6oz 100% Canadian beef burger with jalapeno jack cheese, marinated onions, chipotle mayo, lettuce and tomato), oh and to make it worse it comes with a spoonful of coleslaw and a serving of fries – I swapped out the normal fries for sweet potato fries (what can I say, I am weak when it comes to sweet potato fries!)

So, I have no idea the points of that burger, coleslaw and fries, sigh. The restaurant’s website doesn’t have nutritional information which by this point we all know is a bad thing. lol. According to weight watchers 1 fast food burger is 6 points, or if you look at the beef the least healthy beef option in the book (85% lean/15% fat) for 3 oz is 5 points, I know my burger was 6oz so my meat alone may have been 10 points (depending how lean the beef was), the bun was probably 2-4 points (let’s go with 4 just in case) and then there are the toppings, sigh, the onions, tomato and lettuce are zero (small mercies) but the cheese, oh the cheese, that was probably 3 (it was 1 slice but no way in hell that was light cheese like what I buy for at home lol) and the sauce (the mayo), there was about 2 tbls of mayo on that and I highly doubt it was light so there is another 2 points…let’s tally this shall we?

Beef = 10, Bun = 4, Cheese = 3, Mayo = 2, That’s 19 right there, but don’t forget the grease used to cook it all (what, you thought I forgot? lol), so it’s actually higher, then there are the yam fries and the coleslaw. 1/2 cup of coleslaw is 4 points, there was only a spoonful of coleslaw so maybe 2 points worth? The yam fries, well, the ones I make at home are 3 points a serving and the restaurant was a way way way bigger serving then what I get at home, so easy 12 points of fries if not more.

I didn’t eat all the burger, but I did eat most of it, and I eventually ate all the fries, lol, I brought about half of them home and ended up snacking on them later in the evening, double sigh.

I don’t know what got in to me! I went in to that restaurant fully intending to order a salad but it’s so frickin cold out that the idea of a salad was just laughable, I wanted something warm! But did I pick a healthy warm dish? Nope. I followed my friends choices and got a burger. Dummy! Argh!

I will have to be very very careful this week, I never start a week having used so many flex points, it’s a little scary. I am going out for lunch Tuesday with peeps from work, it’s been planned for a while and I can’t get out of it (to be honest I don’t want to either, lol) we are going for Japanese so I have no idea what I will order. Also, it’s a restaurant I have never been to so I don’t know what to expect from the menu…hopefully there are some healthy choices. But other then that lunch I absolutely must stick to my points cause I don’t wanna go over my flex points, not when I am this-close to reaching 20 lbs lost. I wonder if sub-consciously I am self-sabatoging my diet so I don’t reach the 20 lb mark…hmm, something to ponder this week…

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Epic!

20 Nov

Yesterday was an Epic day – in all ways! 😀 😀

It started off with breakfast with KL at the Crepe Cafe, a restaurant that does not provide any nutritional information, grr to that! lol. Restaurants not providing nutritional information has become quite a pet peeve of mine, sigh. So I went online today and googled nutritional information for some of the items in my breakfast so I could at least get an approximation of what I ate. I had eggs benedict with hash browns, yum! And yes I know, point wise it was a bit of a nightmare. lol. The eggs and english muffin I was able to calculate but the hollandaise sauce and back bacon I had to look up. Gotta love the internet!

On www.caloriegallery.com I found that for 1.37 ml of hollandaise sauce the points are 6. Now, I have no real concept of what 1.37 ml is…is that a serving? Half a serving? I dunno…so I am couting 6 points for the sauce. Although, the sauce is not classic hollandaise sauce, I know this cause of how it tasted and the texture. It seemed more whipped, lighter, thinner…and to be honest, didn’t taste all that great. It wasn’t not good tasting it just wasn’t the right flavour for the sauce, ya know? It burns my ass a bit that I wasted points on something that doesn’t taste all that good but oh well, it’s done with now. shrug. If I remember I will look at a package of the sauce at the grocery store tomorrow and check out the nutritional info, see if that varies from the website, also, I’ll have a better understanding of the measurement of the serving on the packaging so that should help me to understand better. 🙂

The hash browns, sigh, I ended up using the nutritional information from a restaurant called Perkins Restaurant…I have never heard of them but I am going to assume that most restaurants make their hash browns in a similar manner and serve similar portions…cross your fingers I am right! lol. Nutritional calculator put the hash browns at 2 points per serving, so it could be worse. Oh, and the back bacon, for 3 slices it is 1 point (that is Maple Leaf brand btw), there were 2 slices on each benny but I didn’t eat it all so I figure I maybe ate in total 3 pieces of the bacon but prob not. Either way, it’s only 1 point so that’s fine.

In total, that breakfast cost me 16 points which is absolutely ridiculous! It was a special day though so I am gonna just let it go and forget about it. 🙂

The reason it was a special day? Harry Potter came out!!!! 😀 😀 😀 That was why KL and I met up for breakfast, we went to the 11:15 am showing of Harry Potter and thought we’d eat first. That movie, epic! I won’t say anything specific about it cause I don’t want to spoil it for anyone but let me just say – you should see it! There you go, I will leave you alone now. lol

After the movie KL and I went shopping, her bday was this past wednesday and friday night was gonna be her party so we had to find her something to wear! She already had an outfit but wanted to see if she could find something better. shrug. Makes sense to me. 🙂 I already had an outfit picked out too but she somehow ended up convincing me to buy this dress we came accross and made me promise to wear it to the bar. Now, here’s the thing, I don’t wear dresses, not my thing. I mean, if I absolutely have to I can wear a dress but I don’t. lol. Dressing up for me is wearing nice pants and a well, a nice top. lol. Pair it with some jewellry and voila I am done. I wasn’t allowed to get away with that this time. The dress is kinda simple, it has an empire waist (which is good cause it helps hide my tummy and the full width of my hips!) and it shows off my breasts quite nicely. teehee. Hey, if you got it flaunt it! It has no sleeves so I worried I’d freeze but ah well, sacrifices must be made for fashion. *rolls eyes*. I have been engaged in an epic search for a pair of rockin boots, still looking btw, sigh, if I had found a pair I would have worn them with the dress but instead I wore black tights and black flats. I was pleasantly surprised how good I looked, the 18 lbs lost was totally noticeable in that outfit…and in how I felt in that outift. 😀

Oh, so back to the epic day, after the shopping we each went home, groomed, I scarfed down a salad and some toast, then out to party town I went. I hadn’t decided how much I was gonna drink…it’s a hard decision to make. I was factoring in calories, parking, public transit, temperature, possible hangover, all kinds of things but the deciding factor that actually made my decision for me? I left my place and walked in to a snow storm…well, storm is an exageration but it was snowing and boom! decision made! No way in hell would I be taking public transit, at night, in the cold windy snow falling weather to get to the bar and then repeating that but later at night when it is going to be even colder to get home…not in that outfit! Nuh-uh! So, I drove downtown, got a wicked great parking spot, had one or two drinks right at the very beginning of the night to toast my friend’s bday and then chugged water the rest of the night and danced the night away. I love dancing. 🙂 It’s a good thing that’s how it went down too cause by the end of the night KL was sick, everyone was so amazing plastered, and they all missed the last seabus back to the north shore so they’d of had to spend a fortune to get a cab so I did the dd thing and gave em all a ride home. Didn’t get home till about 3:30am which meant I slept in even later then normal today but I figure that’s better then all of them having to find a way home when they were that drunk. shrug.

All in all, yesterday, like I have said, was Epic. A totally awesome day from beginning to end!

Today…not so awesome. I slept so late that when I woke up I felt sick…weird, huh? If I didn’t know how much I actually drank I’d think I was hungover but I can’t be, sigh, so I am not sure exactly what is wrong. shrug. I have a headache, am tired, felt so incredibly sick to my stomach earlier, ugh, not pleasant. I guess such an Epic day should be followed by a crappy day – the universe has to balance itself out right? lol. I finally managed to be able to eat and for the day am sitting at 16 points total, I am not gonna be able to get any higher cause (1) it’s 11:30pm and when this is done I am gonna go to bed and (2) tummy is still anti food and just couldn’t handle more. Oh, and for all it’s unhappiness I kept wanting to get McDonald’s today, lol, I think cause when I am hung over I would eat either kraft dinner or McDonald’s, I don’t have any KD in the house and McD’s is really close so my brain kept wandering to McD’s, lol, but I decided no cause I don’t feel well and I wouldn’t enjoy it as much as I would if I was eating it when I felt fine and well, I didn’t want to go driving in the snow just for a big mac lol. So then my brain clicked over at one point to timbits from Tim Horton’s, sigh, and yum. lol. I was contemplating going to Timmy’s and getting 5 timbits cause that would use the rest of my points for the day and I could just sit and vegg while gorging on them but that went out the window cause I didn’t know when they closed and couldn’t find store hours online, if I got all the way there and they were closed I’d have a fit! lol, also, it seemed a stupid way to eat my points and it was just too much effort for my poor headachy body. shrug. So I made some tea and had a weight watcher wrap with some light peanut butter and nutella in it, yum! It fixed my craving for sweet and was easier and cheaper to do. Yah!

I am sure tomorrow will be a more normal day, no recovering or partying or anything, which I think I am looking forward to. But, one more thing before I go…

WEIGH IN DAY!! I wasn’t gonna weigh myself today, what with the crazy day of yesterday but I decided to give it a go and this past week I lost…1 pound! Yah! That means I am at 19 pounds total! 😀 😀 😀 I think 1 pound is great since the whole week I felt off and diconnected to my food choices. I can’t wait to be able to say I lost 20 pounds, hopefully that will be next saturday!

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I’m Baaaaaack! Finally!

18 Nov

Holy crap, never have I been so internet deprived – I thought I was gonna cry some evenings I was so at a loss without my modem. Why oh why did the modem have to die?!?! Torture! Complete and total torture! But I survived, the torture is over and I am happily sitting on my couch writing up a blog post while wearing sweats and drinking a cup of tea…oh, my tv is on too and I am doing laundry. See? This is why I need internet at home, not only am I blogging I am doing lots of other stuff – ah the life of multi taskers, what’s a little scary (when you think about it and generally I try not to think about it) is I consider this a relaxing evening but I am doing at minimum 4 things while thinking about all the other things I also have to do…*rolls eyes*…do people ever actually just sit and do nothing? Or sit and do one thing? Like say…just watch tv? Or just read a book? Who knows! Doesn’t really matter cause this blog is not about the lack of relaxing time we have nowadays, it is about weight loss and my progress…sooooooo – let’s recap the past week an a bit! 😀

I discovered French Toast – did I write about that last time? I dunno…and no, I don’t mean I didn’t know what french toast was I just didn’t realize I could fit it in to my eating plan, it’s something I can only eat on the weekends cause (1) it takes too much effort and (2) yes I can fit it in points wise but not on a normal work day cause for the toast and toppings it’s like 10 points – totally yummy and worth the points tho! 😀

I found this yummy Creole Dijon sauce – it’s meant for chicken but I so far I have used it on a hamburger, with chicken, in home made fajitas, on brown rice, in a grilled cheese sandwich…on all kinds of things. 1 tablespoon is 1 point and so far 1 tblsp has been plenty for everything I have put it on. It’s a bit spicy but not too much, really, it’s kinda perfect. 🙂

Last weekend I made vegetarian chili – the recipe is from Yves http://www.yvesveggie.com/ 

same texture as ground beef - but no dealing with the dead cow, lol.

It uses a Meatless Ground Round (picture to the right) that is quite good. I won’t say it is tasty cause it takes on the taste of whatver spices you cook with so it doesn’t have it’s own taste it steals the taste of what’s around it. The thief! lol. I will repeat what I have said in the past, no, I am not a vegetarian, I just don’t like cooking with meat cause I don’t like handling raw meat so I use this…sometimes. I never would have tried it but when I was living with RA I learned about vegetarian eating – I actually researched vegetarian dishes before we moved in together so I’d have suggestions we could both eat. Aren’t I just so nice? lol.

So, the chili, the best thing about chili is you can do whatever the hell you want with it. Don’t feel like cutting up a fresh carrot? Don’t put it in! Have some frozen veggies? Throw em in! You get the idea. 🙂 I looooove corn in stews an stuff so I put corn in mine, with some mixed frozen veg, I also put in an onion and some canned diced tomatoes. For me it’s the perfect combo of veggies. 😛 I think the only thing I don’t really like about the recipe is that it uses tomato paste to thicken it up…I don’t use tomato paste for any other recipe, ever, so whenever I make the chili I have to buy the tomato paste and then I try to figure out what to do with the rest of it, I inevitably fail in thinking of something and throw it out, sigh. It’s not like the paste is expensive but still, it’s a waste.
The chili has been my lunch everyday this week, it makes six servings, and is 5 points per serving. So, kinda high but it’s so filling you don’t need to pair it with a lot of other things. My first day eating it I paired it with an english muffin, my bad, I used a lot of points for that meal! Smaller dinner to compensate of course, lol.
Last weekend my weigh in day rocked! I lost over a pound 😀 😀 and that brought me to a total weight loss of…get ready for it…18 pounds! wOOt! Isn’t that crazeee? It seems like such a high number, it’s a little mind boggling. I keep looking at myself in mirrors and trying to see the difference in what I look like. I can see it and yet, sometimes I can’t, odd huh? Today I could totally see it with the way my shirt fit, my waist is tucking in a bit more at the sides, probably not all that impressive to others but because I know what it looked like before it pleases me a lot – everytime I went to the bathroom at work I ended up checking myself out in the mirrors, lol. Who knew it was possible for me to become even more vain? 😛
Monday – I had Zumba class and it was way fun but I hurt my back, I am not sure what I did but by Tuesday morning the pain was so bad I couldn’t go to work…mostly cause I could barely move. ugh. I spent the day providing support to my back and keeping heat on it. The heat seemed to help but what I didn’t realize was it was too high and I ended burning my back, great huh? So Wednesday at work I hurt cause of the back pain and I hurt cause of the burn…it was a wonderous day, really. *rolls eyes* I had a nanny job after work so it was a loooong day. I ended up taking the kids swimming so I was sitting in a pool area for a bit over an hour, pool areas are always kept nice n warm and the indirect heat from the room seemed to really help, weird huh?
Thursday (today) – my back wasn’t so bad at the beginning of the day but by the afternoon it was really hurting. Sitting for so long at my desk seems to make it worse so every now and then I’d get up and walk around, it didn’t help a lot but it helped a little. shrug. I’ll take what I can get. lol.
I really wish I hadn’t had to take Tuesday off cause I already booked off this Friday so that’ll be two days this week I don’t get paid, shit. 😦 The reason I took the day off? HARRY POTTER!!! Oh yah baby, I am a HP fan! 😀 😛 My friend KL and I wanted to go to a midnight viewing tonight but couldn’t get tickets, this will be the first time since they started the midnight showings I won’t see a HP movie at 12:01…sadness. I had the Friday booked off cause I knew I’d be useless at work after watching the midnight movie and since KL and I both already had the Friday off we decided to go to a day time showing of the movie on the Friday. So tomorrow at 11:15am I will be sitting in a theatre with KL watching HP – awesome! 😀
Oh, back to the weight loss, my weight has gone down low enough so I am now at 21 points per day. 😀 Seems great right? And it kinda is but this week has been pretty bad points wise, sigh, I keep thinking if I was still at 22 points per day I wouldn’t be using so many flex points, lol, but hey, being at 21 points rocks cause it means I am down another weight category. *happy dance*
So there we go, that caught you up to where I am now. Tomorrow will be a bit of a oops fest points wise cause there is the breakfast planned before HP then that night I am out at a bar with KL and others partying up for her bday, I won’t be drinking a lot cause (1) calories and (2) I take the skytrain back to where I leave my car when I am on my way home so I can’t be drunk or I won’t be able to drive the last leg of my trip home, sigh. I may put off weighing in until Sunday…I’ll see how I feel when I finally get up on Saturday. teehee.

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Stupid Modem, Grr!

7 Nov

Stupid frickin modem, I’d say I wish it would die but it already has…last sunday, sigh, which I why I haven’t posted since then. I didn’t quit, I didn’t decide to stop posting, I didn’t decide I had too busy a life to go online every night…I didn’t do or think any of the things you may have thought of. Instead I have been living through my own hell…a life without internet! *gasp*

I have read blog posts where people actually willingly choose to not use the internet for a week, just to see what it is like…what the hell would you want to do that for?!?! I can tell you the result of me not having internet for a week, sucky. 😦 I am way out of touch, haven’t been able to check my hotmail, facebook or blog in 7 looooooong days – oh, and important stuff? Like paying bills? Nope, can’t do that either cause hello? that’s all online now. I got a text from my phone provider to let me know my online bill is ready for viewing, well that’s nice, too bad I can’t SEE it! It get’s even worse, I know, you’re wondering how that is possible, well it has because I am that person who is sitting in a starbucks on a sunday evening with a cup of tea and my laptop typing away…I always make fun of those people, heh, my normal thought process when I see someone in a coffee shop typing away on their laptop goes something like this: “oh look, someone who thinks the world wants to see how busy and important they are that they have to be working on their laptop while taking an expensive coffee break cause they just don’t have time to relax with their drink” well, the thinking usually goes something like that…it’ll depend on how the person looks, I usually give a bit of a break to students cause I remember needing a change of environment when studying – course, even then I didn’t go to starbucks. *rolls eyes* After all that ranting indirectly about starbucks I guess I should be grateful for them cause otherwise I still wouldn’t be able to blog. *sniffle*

I missed writing my daily blog more then I thought I would. This blog has become an integral part of my weight loss and I felt a bit, well, lost without it. Every evening this past week I thought I would go sit in a starbucks with my laptop and write up what has been going on but there just isn’t time. It’s easy enough when I am at home and can sit and type while eating or in between laundry loads or something like that but finding time to go out to sit in a shop all so I can go online? I just don’t have that kind of time in the evenings…which is sad cause that means that I probably won’t be able to blog again until next weekend…or when my new modem shows up in the mail, whichever comes first.

So, hmm, how to cap up the past week…

Monday:

Zooooooomba! Ok, it’s actually spelled Zumba but I can’t say the name without stretching the sounds out, it’s more fun of a word that way, lol. What is Zumba you ask? “It is a fitness/dance class that combines Latin rhythms with cardio exercise to create an aerobic routine that is fun and easy to follow. Zumba utilizes the principles of fitness interval training and resistance training. It uses a variety of styles in its routines, including cumbia, merengue, salsa, reggaeton, mambo, rumba, flamenco and calypso.”  – case you’re wondering, I quoted that from the class description. lol. I get 6 classes for $60 and that seems fair. The class last monday was a freebie, to sorta intro the class, let you get a feel for it to see if you want to pay, it was loads of fun, the instructor, this uber tiny bouncy full of energy lady was insanely awesome. 😀 When she wanted to change directions or steps or whatever instead of saying “left!” or some other command she did that rolling tongue sound that I haven’t a hope in hell of being able to make. lol. I have never in my life met a more energetic person. At one point I started thinking well sure, she can hop and bounce around like that cause she weighs like 90 pounds, I way considerably higher then 90 pounds so there’s no chance I can do some of what she can do…I was in a bit of a down frame of mind last week so shrug, dark thoughts, anyways, I was able to do all the moves, sure I may not have been as graceful as her (nowhere near as close! lol) and I didn’t get as high in my jumps etc (compared to her it felt like my feet barely left the floor, lol) but ya know what? Who cares! I did what I could, and I will do even better tomorrow, and I had fun. 😀 Oh, and sweeeeet music!

Tuesday thru Thursday:

Nothing really exciting on those days, I stuck to my points, ate a lot of the weight watchers soup (0 points!) for lunch which meant I could have a bagel with lunch and not kill my points, yah! There was left over halloween candy at work, sigh, lots of suckers and hard candies. I checked the nutritional info and found out that these big suckers that were in the candy were 1 point each so I snagged some, hey, every girl needs a hit of sugar sometimes. 😛

Friday:

Pizza was brought in to work from management to say “Thanks” for all our hard work, ha bloody ha! The entire office is pissed at management. Grr to them! Not only did they cut our staff by three they increased our work load and annouced we aren’t getting a christmas party this year, the most they are springing for is drinks and appetizers at a crappy pub type place after work on a wednesday. Uh, hello? What the fuck is that?!?! They sent out this email saying how we had over $4 billion in profits but we can’t have a christmas party?!?! Fuckers. Grr. So, hehe, we all declined the invitation to the drinks and one of our staff took it upon herself to plan a better party, it’s dinner at a Mexican restaurant on a friday, we all have to pay for ourselves, but whatever, at least we get food and not some cheap ass appetizers.  I have a link to the restaurant and will check it out prior to that evening so I can plan ahead what I am going to eat. I haven’t eaten Mexican since going on weight watchers so I don’t really have any idea just how bad this could be for me but ah well, I’ll save my flex points that week and see how it goes. 🙂

Satuday – Weigh In Day:

Holy Crap! Holy Crap! Holy Crap! Weigh in day ROCKED!!!!! I lost 1.8 pounds which means not only did I get to my goal of 15 pounds lost I surpassed it and am sitting at 16.6 pounds lost!!!! 😀 😀 😀 I sooooo bought my full length mirror, teehee, and am going through my closet when I get home. 😀 AND! Not only that but…the second number in my weight has gone down…in other words I am down to 21 points per day instead of 22…in other words this wasn’t any ordinary weigh in day! I haven’t had the second number in my weight be this low in…well, I don’t know how long. But it is there now and I am gonna do my best to get it even lower. 😀

It was so odd, on friday evening I really wanted to weigh myself, I just knew I had lost weight and I wanted to see what the number was at but I resisted cause hello, weighing yourself after a full day of work and eating and well, life, bad idea. So I didn’t weigh myself and when I got up Saturday I was pissed cause I am a girl and I woke up bloated and with cramps and that can totally skew the weigh in. sigh. But even then, before I stepped on the scale I told myself that I don’t care what the scale says, I know without a doubt I lost weight this week and I am buying my mirror no matter what the scale says cause I am not letting being bloated take away my victory, and then the number came up and I was so stunned my mouth dropped open. I was so excited I didn’t want to get off the scale, lol, so I didn’t, I just stood there, staring at the number flabergasted. The second digit had changed?!?! I wasn’t expecting that! Then I started jumping up and down (not on the scale) and to top it off I actually shed a couple tears…this may not seem like a big deal but I am not a cryer but with this, I couldn’t help it, they just leaked out. *rolls eyes at self*

Oh! And! (I know, I can’t believe there is more lol) on the friday after work I went shopping, now I was s’posed to be shopping for my bro’s bday present but I ended up (oddly enough) in the women’s section of some stores that my brother would never shop in, lol, (we don’t share the same taste in clothes at all!) I ended up buying a couple shirts. I know! I wasn’t going to buy anything until I had lost at least 20 pounds but it had been such a crappy week I just wanted to lose myself in stores for a little bit. What I was shopping for didn’t materialize, I wanted a new bag and a pair of boots, but ended up with a new leather wrist strap with some silver studding and two shirts…wait, three shirts…eesh. I don’t really have the money to afford that but it’s done now. Anyways, back to the shirts, one of them fit great, in fact I am wearing it now, one fits a bit snug, well, for my comfort cause I don’t like things that cling but I know by the christmas party it will probably be fine and I will wear it there, but the third shirt…this is the special one, I bought it for headshots cause it’s a dark blue and will look great in pics on me (bring out the blue in my eyes and pop against my uber pale skin) but the reason it is so great? I had to get it a size smaller then normal. 😀 Now, I know it’s cause of the style, it is designed to sorta flow…look loose-ish, ya know? But even so, I had to go down a size cause the size I thought I would need, ha! Way too big! Yippee!

I know when I shop for pants it’s gonna be interesting cause I have no idea what size I really am anymore. Pants that fit 3 weeks ago are now too large, some I am making them still work for me, mostly by taking my belt in a notch and pulling them up as I walk, lol, very attractive I know, but I don’t have the money to buy new clothes and I don’t want to buy clothes I will have to replace quickly – I guess I shouldn’t assume my weight loss will continue on the schedule I have set for it, maybe I should buy pants cause I’ll be stuck at this size for a couple more months but I am trying to be optimistic (not my strong suit) and think that in a couple more months I will be even smaller.

So here I am on sunday, mentally prepping to start a new week and wishing it was weigh in day already cause I want to step on the scale and see that second digit number again! I am enamored. teehee.

I don’t know when I will get to blog again, my modem is supposed to show up in the mail within 3-5 business days, so the first possible day would be monday (they didn’t mail it out till wednesday, sigh) – hopefully it shows up then, otherwise it might not be till mid week and I’m sorry, but another week of no internet at my place? I don’t think I will survive! I rely too much on my computer for, well, everything! Bills, work, play, education, weight loss…there isn’t one aspect of my life that doesn’t somehow get played out online…I miss my internet, a lot!

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Soooooooo Close!

31 Oct

We all know there are a variety of things out there that can hamper our weight loss journeys. Whether it is stress, temptations, weak will power, holidays…whatever, there are a lot of things that can get in our way. Some things we can control, like not over eating during the holidays, some things we can’t control as much, like having to deal with a sudden and stressful situation. That is what I had happen last week, I found out tuesday night that lay offs were happening at work and since then I had major stress. Stress I would get laid off, stress because one of my good friends got laid off, basically I had stress. lol.

I am not good at dealing with stress. Sure, with certain types of stressful situations I am fine but uber stressful? Nope, not my thing. In general, I have a very stress free existence. I don’t mean that I don’t have things in my life that cause stress, I just mean I don’t allow those things to stress me out. I just dismiss things, what’s that expressions…as a duck sheds water…that is how I am with stress. shrug. It rolls off my back – it’s a good way of being, I think, but it also means that when something out of my control pops up that is uber stressful my body freaks. sigh.

The freaking of this past week caused my body to have stomach pain, headaches, bad sleep and a host of other physical symptoms. Through all this I was most worried that the stress would cause me to not lose weight – as of last weekends weigh in day I was 0.8 pounds away from reaching 15 pounds lost and I really wanted to reach that 15 pounds! I wanted to reach it cause, hello? 15 pounds is awesome! and also cause it meant I had reached my first goal and would be allowed to purchase a full length mirror and go through my closet trying on all my clothes to see what fit and what was too large and basically having a fun clothes day. I have been slowly finding clothes in my closet that I can fit in to that 15 pounds ago I was too fat for, I am way excited to find even more of them but decided to make an event of it – hence the waiting till I reached 15 pounds lost. 🙂

Well, I was sorta right and sorta wrong about the stress causing me weigh in day problems. See, weigh in day is every Saturday at 2pm, this became the day and time cause (1) I wanted it on a weekend and (2) the first couple weeks I slept in way late and that was the time I was finally up and about so I have kept it that way ever since. The problem with having weigh in time so late in the day is that if I have anything to do on the saturday that causes me to get up earlier it screws up my weigh in. Anyone who weighs in weekly knows that stepping on that scale around the same time each week is vital.

So friday night I was out with a friend and we ended up eating dinner later then normal, that might have been ok except I also had to get up earlier then normal on the saturday cause I have a nannying job and no way would I get there in time if I wasn’t already up, dressed and fed by 2pm. When I stepped on that scale saturday I was nervous and felt I had every right to be, especially when the number popped up and I had gained 0.2 pounds, yup, you read that right, I gained. sigh. I wasn’t upset about it, which is kinda surprising, but I knew there was a good chance the scale would be mean that morning because of (1) all the stress, (2) later dinner friday and (3) early weigh in time saturday…it was a recipe for a bad number. lol.

I decided to not let it get to me, after all, what could I do about it? Sure, I was now a full freakin pound away from 15 pounds lost instead of 0.8 but sigh, you just gotta let these things go. However, I did decide to re-weigh myself on the sunday, just to see if the number changed…mostly cause I was curious if I had gained the 0.2 pounds because of the dinner, the early weigh in or the stress. I figured if it was the stress the number would still be about the same but if it was a combo of the other two factors maybe the number would be different. Well, woohoo! The number was different! *happy dance* I had lost 1 pound so now I am only 0.2 pounds away from that 15 pounds lost! I almost cheated and went and bought the mirror, I thought that I am soooo close and for sure I will lose that 0.2 this week so why not get it this weekend and have it all ready for use next weekend when going through the clothes in my closet? Right? Well, I decided not to. Cause I haven’t reached the 15 pounds so if I bought the mirror I would be cheating myself out of the celebration of buying it cause I had reached a goal. Does that make sense? Also, if I bought the mirror before I reached the 15 pounds then what happens with my next goal? K, sure, I haven’t actually set a second goal yet, lol, but say I set a goal so that when I lose 30 pounds I get to buy, I dunno, really rockin boots, well, if I pre-buy this goal then for the next goal it will be even easier to say “meh, I am only 5 pounds away from reaching the 30 pound mark, for sure I will reach it so I’ll go buy the boots now” – then not only am I cheating myself out of my prize again! I am cheating at an even earlier time…which you may say I won’t do but I probably would. By buying early now I am practically giving my future self permission to cheat. *rolls eyes* that may sound stupid but it’s how I work. Ya gotta set precedent ya know? …all those law classes at work I guess. lol.

So here I am, 0.2 pounds away from my 15 pounds lost mark and feeling uber happy about that. Even with all that stress last week I stuck to my points and did what I was supposed to and I guess it worked. Sure, I didn’t lose a lot but considering everything that was going on last week, I am happy I lost anything at all. Oh, and combine all that stress with me not exercising…not even once! Oy! Bad move me. lol. I am hopefully starting up a new exercise class tomorrow so I’ll let you know how that goes.

Today I ate:

3 pieces french toast = 7 points

3 tbls maple syrup = 2 points

3 tsp brown sugar = 1 point

2 pieces turkey bacon = 2 points

2 cups kettle corn = 1 1/4 point

1 Mr Noodle chicken flavour = 8 points

1 Quaker Crunch’ers = 2 points

That puts me at 23 1/4 points eaten for the day. Crap. I forgot to write down the turkey bacon in my tracking book and only now remembered it, so that messed up my points for today. I hate forgetting to put things down in my tracker cause that means when I am looking at getting a snack or something I think I have more points to play with then I do, grr.

I think I normally forget to write things down on the weekend cause I am more lax about things, ya know? I am not being controlled by the schedule at work or anything which makes it easier to just slack. Ah well, 1 1/4 points over isn’t gonna kill me, and ya know what? That french toast was sooooo worth it! Mmm! It’s the first time I have ever made french toast, I had to figure out what to do by memory and I am pleasantly surprised I figured it out. So yummy! 😀

Hopefully tomorrow the new work out class works out cause that’ll mean I have one guaranteed physical activity a week for I think it’s 6 weeks, then I can combine with that my 11 visit drop in pass for the local community centre, I can use the pass for the exercise room so I will try to pick one day a week I will for sure go and voila! back to two exercise days a week. 😀 Wish me luck!

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Cluck Cluck?

28 Oct

I had myself a “first” today…I cooked raw chicken. *shudder* I don’t handle raw meat or fish – it’s just not my thing. When I cook dead animal it is always frozen, this means I open the package it is in carefully so that I can then flip the meat or fish out in to the cooking dish without ever touching it…it cooks and voila! becomes something I don’t mind touching if needed. 😀 lol. I don’t care how weird it is, I don’t touch raw meat!

For dinner tonight I wanted to make home made pizza and I kept thinking I’d put some grilled chicken on it but in order to do that I needed to buy chicken and all the frozen chicken comes in such large portions its ridiculous – I don’t have that much room in my freezer. Sooooooo raw non frozen chicken it was!

I had to call my mom, whom I am sure despairs at my lack of cooking skills – you wouldn’t believe how many times I call her from the grocery store with questions! lol. Anyways, I called mom and got advice on how to buy raw skinless boneless chicken breasts. The smallest package had three chicken breasts in it which was distressing cause that meant I wouldn’t be able to just open the package and tip the chicken out on to my George Foreman grill…I’d have to do something with the other two pieces. sigh.

I got the chicken home and very carefully opened the package, I didn’t want to risk any chicken juice touching me, ick, and then I stabbed a piece with a fork and dropped it on to the grill, perfecto! No touching required! The other two pieces I put in to seperate freezer ziploc bags – I used the stab with fork and don’t touch method there too – one piece went in to the freezer and one piece went in to the fridge, I think it can be in the fridge for like 3 days or so…maybe that’s 2 days, hmm, I detect another call to mom in my near future lol – anyways, I figure I’ll grill the second piece up within a day or so once I figure out what I want to do with it. I think it can be marinated…maybe I will try to figure out how to do that…

The chicken I grilled went great on the pizza, I paired it with some of the Alfredo Roasted Tomato sauce I have been eating on my penne noodles this past week…what can I say, I love the sauce but it’s only sold in large jars and I don’t like freezing it cause I forget about it and then end up throwing it out cause it got freezer burn, shrug, hence my overeating of the sauce during this past week. lol. There was also cheese (measured out of course), sliced baby tomatoes and mushrooms…this was all put on top of home made yeast free pizza dough. I can already hear the “huh? yeast free, what’s with that?” questions, roomie number 1 had a yeast allergy and all pizza bought from pizza shops have yeast, mean huh? So, I found a yeast free pizza dough recipe online and gave it a try, it’s good. Easy to make, yummy, a bit high in points but your toppings are usually low in points so it can even out. 🙂

Today I ate:

29 grams Special K Vanilla Almond = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 small banana = 1 point

1 bowl weight watchers soup = 0 points

1 english muffin = 3 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

raw veggies = 0 points

Homemade Pizza

    – 1/4 cup Alfredo Roasted Tomato Sauce = 2 points

    – 1 light babybell = 1 point

    – 30 grams Kraft double cheddar cheese = 2 point

    – 50 grams grilled chicken = 1 point

    – tomatoes and mushrooms = 0 points

    – dough = 16 points

Now, don’t freak out with those pizza points, those are calculated for the entire pizza, I only ate half which means for half the pizza I used 11 points – that’s 3 points for toppings and 8 points for the crust. I am sure there must be a lower points pizza dough but I don’t know how considering how simplistic this recipe is, it only has like 5 ingredients. Ah well, some things are just gonna cost a lot of points I guess. The half of a pizza I ate tonight for 8 points is way more filling then 2 slices of panago pizza (which would be 8 points) so that’s good I guess…same amount of points but more filling when homemade. 🙂

My total points eaten today is 21. I know I am s’posed to eat 22 points and I actually thought the pizza wouldn’t be enough and I’d end up going over with some snack later in the evening but the amount I ate was actually a bit too much and left me with a heavy stomach, ugh. I made some tea and sat with a hot water bottle on my gut for the rest of the evening in the hopes of making my innards feel better. It hasn’t worked. sigh. Normally I am a firm believer in the healing powers of tea, I don’t mean some weird herbal wonky tea, I mean nice normal Orange Pekoe tea from Tetley. I drink tea all the time anyways but I always have a cup when I don’t feel well, or am tired, or cold or need help digesting or whatever…tea cures everything! Tonight though it didn’t work, even combined with the trusty hot water bottle. sadness.

I think the pain is left over from the stress that started tuesday – that is when the pain started, it peaked wednesday morning and since then calmed a bit but for sure hasn’t gone away, sigh. My body doesn’t like stress which is why I make sure to not allow stress to exist in my world, obviously there are stressful moments and situations (I don’t think you can ever completely get away from stress, shrug) but I refuse it entry in to my life as much as possible. Lay offs at work though, well, that is definitely something out of my control and highly stressful and ever since this whole thing happened my guts have been in pain. ugh. I s’pose making something heavy like a pizza was not the wisest decision on my part but hey, whatcha gonna do? It’s already been made and half eaten. lol. I am hoping this pain goes away soon and I think I will have to be more careful with what I eat until it is all better. Man, I hate how weak my body is when it comes to stuff like this. blarg.

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Well, I’m Still Employed…

27 Oct

That’s gotta count for something, right? I mean, it’s not like this is my dream job…or even a job in the field I want to be in but it pays the bills and that is important. Sure I sometimes feel like being in the financial business industry is eating away at my soul and sucking me farther and farther away from doing work in any kind of field I could find personal happiness in…but hey, shrug, who am I to quibble about where my steady pay cheque comes from? *rolls eyes*

Work was weird today, everyone who wasn’t laid off was on edge and nervous, the people who were laid off did their best to appear ok but they were all a little forced in their cheerfulness. In a way I just want the week to be over already so all this tension is outta my life but at the same time I don’t want the week to end cause that’ll mean AC is no longer there and I’ll miss her. 😦 

My guts got all twisted up during my text convo last night when I learned about the people being laid off and didn’t ease till after a meeting I had with my manager where he assured me my job is safe. Man, my tummy hurt this morning, it was crazy. And oh man my sleep, or lack there of last night sucked, tossing and turning and when I did sleep I had weird dreams that involved work and…well, I can’t really remember what else, just that the dreams were weird and unsettling and I kept waking up from them. ugh. I don’t usually get stressed by things, I mean sure I feel some stress at times but harsh enough stress to cause pain and bad sleep? That is just unheard of!…least, in my world…maybe it’s normal and I just never knew?

All I want to do this week is lose 0.8 lbs, that shouldn’t be so hard to do but so far I have done no exercise and had a night and a day thrown off by excessive stress. This better not mess up my reaching 15 lbs lost by the weekend! Although, really, who am I threatening with that? Karma? The fates? The universe? Like any of those will be scared of what I say! ha!

On a different note I got a package in the mail today from NH, 😀 she sent me halloween goodies, which, ok yeah very nice, but uh…candy? gummies? hot chocolate mix? Crap. There was also a black glass with a silver skull and crossbones on it (I have a thing about skulls) but it broke, sigh. I actually had to call her to ask her what it was it was that broken. lol. She sends me junk food each year and it’s pretty awesome cause I don’t buy halloween candy for myself but, shrug, I can’t eat it this year. Well, I am probably gonna try the hot chocolate mix…hello! it turns red! Talk about awesome! I still have 2 points left over for the day, I am hoping that will be enough to cover a cup of hot chocolate, if it’s not I will go over in to flex points cause (1) I have been good this week and not gone over and (2) I really wanna try the mix! lol.

Today I ate:

29 grams Special K Vanilla Almond = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 small banana = 1 point

1 Activia Yogurt = 2 points

1 bowl weight watchers soup = 0 points

1 english muffin = 3 points

2 triangles laughing cow cheese = 1 point

mixed raw vegies = 0 points

1 cup strawberries = 1 point

85 grams eating right whole wheat penne = 5 points

1/4 cup Alfredo Roasted Tomato sauce = 2 points

mixed cooked veggies = 0 points

2 Lifestyles shortbread cookies = 2 points

So like I said above, that is 20 points, two left for some hot chocolate! Although, I am kinda hungry, sigh, so do I really want to use my last two points of the day on a drink when I could have something more solid? Oh the choices a person on weight watchers must make. lol.

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How To Process This…

26 Oct

I think up things to post about all throughout the day – when something interesting happens or I have a particularly inspiring idea (that second one doesn’t happen too often, lol) I think about how I can turn it in to a post and share it. When I am at work, exercising, hanging out with people, surfing online recipes, reading health/diet books – whatever, if I think it can relate here and amuse, entertain, inspire or teach I think about how to post it. I’d say about 95% of these idea never ever even make it near a post, lol, not cause I decide to not share them but because when I sit down to type I forget what I was gonna write about, hehe, great attention span huh?

Sooooo, the whole reason behind that paragraph is because earlier today something happened that really pissed me off – I mean totally and completely pissed me off so badly my post was going to be a rant about how much I hate people and wish I could live the life of a rich hermit, if I could find a way to never have to leave my  house or interact in person with others but still make enough money to live comfortable I would do it…if only I had some mad hacker skills lol.  But then something else happened when I got home that was even worse then what happened earlier…a total and complete suck-fest that I have no power to fix. sigh.

I got a text from a friend at work that after certain people had left (not me, three other people) a staff meeting was called for all those still there to let them know that three specific people have been let go due to budget cuts and their last day will be friday…say wha?!?! We are making record profits! And yeah, two of them are new and not picking up the job all that quickly but the third has been here since…well, for ages! And she does a great job, a specialized job that others are now going to have to do (read – I am going to have to do, sigh) and she is my friend! We sit beside each other, we talk during the day, she’s my main supporter with weight watchers, she makes my work day enjoyable. And as of Monday that will all be gone. 😦

It’s probably wrong and twisted that I keep thinking how I will be affected, but hey, I am self involved over here so whatever! I mean, yeah, I did think about her and how it’s gonna affect her family, I started hoping she gets something new asap and really hoping we don’t lose touch but…I am also thinking how I will be kinda lonely at work, how her absence will affect my work load and “happy factor” at work. We bitch to each other, and help each other, support each other, cover for each other…we do lot’s for and with each other and now she’ll be gone…*sniffle* And who the fuck am I gonna excitedly tell my weight loss amount to every monday?! She was sooooo encouraging during that stupid 4 week plateau, I don’t think I would have made it through without her…I don’t wanna lose her! Now I am just whining…sorry. 😦

So, that text convo (which I am still having btw lol) totally threw me off my stride. Bad news coming out of the blue like that, I wasn’t sure how to deal with it. I instinctively wanted to get something to eat, lol, stupid right? I did eat, hello the plan isn’t to starve myself lol, but I ate my points and no more. However, I did not exercise even though it is tuesday. I know! I am breaking my exercise on tuesday and thursday plan but hey, I was involved in too important of a text convo to go out hiking in the rain…which oh yeah, rain season has started for sure – it’s raining everyday and not little dribbles but full out pouring rain so even if the text convo hadn’t happened I wouldn’t have gone out for the hike. 😛

I am gonna hafta find a new activity…it was one thing to force myself to go out hiking, somehow I managed to do that, but I haven’t been able to force myself to use the exercise bike or Wii Fit, which is stupid cause the Wii Fit is way fun and I like being able to bike while watching tv. I think what it is that’s stopping me (besides laziness) is the bike and Wii are in the living room so using them means I have a good chance of having an audience cause of the roomie. Thing is, I can’t use the Wii without taking over the tv so if she wants to watch something and I am using the Wii fit it’s a dilemna and if she wants to watch tv do you really think she’s gonna wanna hear me huffing and puffing on the bike? Highly doubt she will since I wouldn’t want to hear her and roomie #2 drove me frickin nuts when she’d come back from a run and stretch out all over the living room floor…like I want to see that? ugh.  All of this means I am going to have to find something to sign up for that is twice a week or more and in my price range which is like zero to nothing, lol, and fun. Not too hard of a list right? Ha! 😛

Today I ate:

29 grams Special K Vanilla Almond = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 small banana = 1 point

1 serving weight watchers soup = 0 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 english muffin = 3 points

1 Activia = 2 points

raw mixed vegg = 0 points

1 prawn salad roll = 3 points

85 grams Eating Right whole wheat pasta = 5 points

1/4 cup Alfredo Roasted Tomato sauce = 2 points

mixed cook vegg = 0 points

2 Lifestyle Choices shortbread cookies = 2 points

Total points eaten 22.

So, I am kinda stressed cause until I hear from the boss man that I am not being cut I will be wondering, sigh. As we all know stress is a bad thing to have when trying to lose weight, it can cause your body to hold on to the weight instead of releasing it to the universe – and yes, that is how I have decided to look at it for now. lol. Plus there is the general sucky-ness of knowing my friend won’t have a job as of friday 4:30pm, sigh. Why does life have to be like this? sigh.

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Can’t stop thinkin about it

25 Oct

So, I just can’t stop thinking about the 1.4 lbs I lost last week…I know it’s not the biggest amount to lose and since it’s around the amount I have come to expect to lose every week it’s not like it’s a massive big surprise but I just can’t stop thinking about it. lol. 🙂

I guess it might be because of feeling last week like I screwed up a lot so I was half expecting to not have lost anything…or if I lost something it would have been a way small amount…which I s’pose 1.4 is a small amount but hey, it could have been a lot lower!

I think mostly I can’t stop thinking about it because I am 0.8 lbs away from getting to go through my closet and try on all my clothes and see how they fit now. I can’t believe how much I am looking forward to that! I mean, hello, they are already my clothes, it’s not like I am going shopping or anything…but it’s almost like going shopping cause I don’t know what I will find in there. teehee.  I’m oh so close to that 15 lb mark; it feels like it is in reach and oh man do I want to reach it!

Something else awesome that happened is I got a connection through a friend to a photographer who is amazing and she will give me a discount on new headshots, wOOt! Now, for all those who don’t know, headshots can cost anywhere from $500-$800 depending on the photographer and what you want/need. This photographer will give me three looks, a disc with all the pictures taken on it and apparently she is way fun in the studio. 😀 I have seen some of her work and it is amazing, I can’t wait! Oh, and all this for only $200. 😀 I have been saving money in a piggy bank and I think I have enough to cover the costs but I gotta go count it. lol. I will count it after this coming Saturday after my nannying gig, I will bring in $120 from that nannying job so that’ll give the savings quite the boost. I will still have to pay for the make up person and that will be about $100 (that’s average cost so no surprise there) but before headshots can be done there are sooooo many other costs. sigh. I hafta get my hair trimmed, I need my eyebrows waxed (not like they are nasty looking now but they have to look professional) and drum roll please…I need to buy some clothes. Ack!

I wasn’t planning on buying any clothes until at least 20 lbs lost, I wanted to have a good chunk of weight gone before spending money on clothes but I may have to change that…depends what I find in my closet at the 15 lb mark! hehehe There is so much prep work to be done, I am sooooooo excited! For one thing, headshots are a total blast to have done, it’s a day all about you and you look fabulous cause you have professionals making you look awesome and keeping you that way. Who doesn’t love that?! 😀 Plus, it’s a total boost to self confidence cause dude, a whole stack of pics showing you at the best angles with the best lighting – that can’t do anything but make you feel good about yourself. 😀 The only part that can bring it down is the clothes, if you don’t have clothes that make you feel good about how you look and that look great on you, well, it’ll make you self conscious in front of the camera and that will show. So, I will have a mission…well fitting, bold solid colours, varying necklines, short sleeves – these are the kind of tops I will be looking for. I am hoping I will find enough pants in my closet that I won’t have to buy any of those…I hate pants shopping, well, I hate clothes shopping in general since I got fat but especially pants. ugh. For now though I am just gonna focus on next weekend where hopefully I will be trying on all the stuff in my closet – then I will focus on finding some tops. 😛

Today I ate:

29 grams Special K Vanilla Almond = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point 

1 small banana = 1 point

1 serving weight watchers soup = 0 points

1 bagel = 4 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 cup strawberries = 1 point

1/2 serving Pesto Linguine = 7 points

1 Jolly Time popcorn pckg = 1 point

1 Thinsations Oreo Cakesters = 2 points

Total points eaten 22. 🙂 I want to eat more but it’s not cause I am hungry, I am having that “I want to eat just for the sake of eating” thing happen again. I think it’s cause I am tired…I have been draggy and tired all day, and cold-brr!, and I think being tired and cold is making me instinctivly want to eat more. You know, like my body is trying to up it’s internal temp and rev up it’s energy and the way it knows how to do that is by getting more fuel in to it. Silly body though, apparently it doesn’t know it has gotten enough fuel for the day…or maybe it does know and that is why I don’t actually feel hungry. lol. Either way, no more food for me today! Nuh-uh. Instead, I am going to go turn on the space heater in my room, get my lunch for tomorrow ready and go to bed early, I will probably sit up and read a while but at least I will be burrowed under covers and (hopefully!) warm. lol. 🙂

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