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Not Epic Fail…But Definite Fail

2 Jun

I don’t know who I am more annoyed at, google map, my gps or myself… I suppose I have to be most annoyed at myself since I relied on the first two but who likes to be annoyed at themself?? 😛

I was all excited to go to Boxerfit class tonight, I was dressed a good 45 minutes before I had to leave and raring to go! How sick is that? Being excited to go have your ass kicked? lol. I think mostly I was excited to earn exercise points so I could eat some sort of treat this evening but hey, least I was wanting to go…

Well, google map said it was a 21 minute drive, ok that’s fine, I left 30 minutes before class started just to be on the safe side. So there was my first mistake, trusting google maps time estimate. Then my stoooopid gps took me quite possibly the worst route to get to the gym so I got stuck in massive traffic, had to take weird loopy roads instead of more direct roads and the route it chose took 45 minutes instead of the 20 google map promised me. Second mistake, trusting the gps to take me the fastest route. The third mistake was believing both pieces of technology would get me where I needed to go in time. sigh.

Guess who missed their Boxerfit class tonight because she was 15 minutes late? Yup. Me. 😦 sadness.

See, with the classes you are given a punch card that gets, well, punched (duh!) everytime you go. The first 20 minutes or so of class are super intense cardio. I didn’t want to use one of the punches on my card when I wasn’t going to get to enjoy (enjoy??) the entire class and miss the main chunk of cardio, it didn’t make sense to me. shrug.

The classes are held at three different gyms, they rotate, and this was my first time going to this location, now I know that next time I hit up this location I have to leave even earlier just in case.

My great plan to exercise at least three times this week has now gone out the window, oops! I hiked on Tuesday and was supposed to Boxerfit today and then tomorrow is Dragon Boating – it seemed like such a perfect plan…ah well, plans change. shrug. 🙂 I might go for a hike tomorrow before Dragon Boating, I love the boating but it really only (only??) works the core and arms and I want more of a full body work out and since I will have the time I might as well hike – this is of course assuming the rain stops cause no matter how much I want to get in shape no way am I hiking in the rain – that’s soooo not my thing. lol.

Today I ate:

29 grams Special K = 2 points

1/2 c 1% milk = 1 point

1/2 bagel = 2.5 points

1/2 tbls whipped peanut butter = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 apple = 1 point

1 pear = 1 point

4 pieces sushi = 2 points ?

2 c Butternut Squash and Red Pepper Soup = 4 points

2 dinner buns = 2 points

1 tsp margarine = 1 point

1 cheese slice = 1 point

1 slice weight watchers fruit pie = 4 points

Total points eaten = 23.5

Ok, yeah, I went over, and I didn’t exercise and I know I shouldn’t go over but I’ve barely used any flex points this week and I really wanted that slice of pie! lol.

If I snack throughout the day (the healthy way) every three hours or so I never get super crazy hungry and am able to make healthy, smart food decisions. But today my timing was off so while I was driving back from my failed attempt at going to Boxerfit class I started feeling hungrier and hungrier, this city is full to overflowing with fast food joints, restaurants and shops. You wouldn’t believe how many places I drove past that had food that I so wanted to stop at cause I felt incredibly hungry and didn’t want to wait until I got home and got something cooked…when I am hungry the wait time for cooking something myself seems unbearably long and torturous. 😦

After I ate my soup and dinner buns for dinner I still felt really hungry, hence my inability to save my slice of pie until tomorrow. shrug. I think though, going over 3.5 points isn’t gonna kill me…and a bunch of the food I ate today was healthy – the fruit, the soup, um, the milk in my cereal? lol. So at least some of my points were used for worthy foods. 🙂

I’m going to go post the recipe for the weight watchers pie on my recipe pages – check it out, it’s super easy to make and way tasty. 😀

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Habits

9 May

Everybody has habits – some good and some bad; most habits get us through the day and make our lives easier in some way. For instance, every weekday morning I do the same things in the same order to make sure I get everything that needs to get done done in time for me to get to work on time. Boring? Yes. Practical? Also yes. lol.

Some habits though can be damaging – especially when it comes to weight loss! This past saturday I went out in the morning, well, early afternoon if you want to get technical lol, before I went out I ate a healthy breakfast and was comfortably full. When I got home it was not yet time to eat again, I’d only been gone a couple hours and I so wasn’t hungry! Here’s where one of my habits comes in to play, I wanted to have something to eat – even though I wasn’t hungry and even though in my brain I knew it wasn’t time to eat yet.

Why you ask?

Because, generally when I come back in to the apartment it is time to eat. I leave in the morning for work and when I get back home it is dinner time. If it’s the weekend I am usually gone for a long time and when I get back I am ready for food. So saturday, I got home and wanted to eat, not because of hunger but because of habit. Oh dear.

My habits hit again this evening, *rolls eyes* I had finished dinner and due to having to estimate some of my points today I think I am one point over, so ok, that’s fine, I am full, don’t want anything else, and one point isn’t gonna kill me but even though I wasn’t hungry I wanted some chocolate or other little dessert nibbly thing.

Why did I want it?

Cause my habit is to end my day with a little chocolate or some such thing and to not eat a little chocolate at the end of the day makes me feel deprived in some way…stupid I know, but that’s the way it is. shrug.

Because of my habit – on both occaisions – I ate something I didn’t need or have the room in my daily points for because I just felt like I was supposed to eat something…random huh?

I am working on building some good habits, mostly good activity habits since I am way lacking in those. lol. I have the dragon boating, the weather is starting to get better so hopefully I’ll start hiking again soon, plus I will be starting Boxerfit classes soon-ish. I’ll keep you updated on that as it happens! 🙂 My plan is to have more good habits then bad so when I am tempted to eat something I don’t need I have an alternate thing I can do…ya know, besides stuffing food in my face. lol.

Oh, almost forgot! My food for today:

3/4 c Special K Vanilla Almond = 2 points

1/2 c 1% milk = 1 point

Sushi = 9 points

    – Californai rolls, salmon rolls, dragon rolls

    – miso soup

1/2 Fiesta Salad = 2 points

2 crumpets = 2 points

1 tsp margarine = 1 point

skinless boneless rotisserie chicken = 4 points

1 weight watchers mint chocolate patty = 1 point

Total points eaten = 22, sigh…

Soooooo, I went over my points for the day and this is not the only day this week this has happened, and it’s only Monday! – erg. I’m gonna hafta be more careful and up my activity levels or next weigh in is gonna suck.

My mission for this coming week will be to work on breaking some bad food habits and creating good activity habits – let’s hope it works! lol. 🙂

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Is it really Sunday night already?

8 May

Where did the weekend go? I knew it was going to be busy (for the most part) but I swear Sunday night always appears out of nowhere to surprise me. It’s my least favourite time of the week, cause technically it’s still a relaxing chill-your-time-is-your-own time but you have to do boring responsible things, like get your lunch for work the next day ready to go, and finish up any last minute things you didn’t get done, and you have to at least pretend to go to bed at a reasonable time cause you hafta be up early the next day…there are oh so many reasons to hate Sunday night, sigh.

But let’s not focus on the suckyness that is Sunday night, instead let’s look back at the fun that has been had over the past couple days – way better use of time! 🙂

Friday night was my first Dragon Boat lesson – it was soooooo sweeeeeet! 😀 I went with KL and we had a kick ass great time. I was a tad worried my elbow and knees might make it not fun cause I thought they might get too strained cause of being injured but all joints and wounds held up just fine. It started at 6pm but it was suggested we get there early to fill out paperwork, get a locker, all that kind of stuff. Also, earlier that day I got an email from one of the organizers with a list of recommended clothing to wear…the last contact had just said wear something you don’t mind getting a little wet but this list was quite specific which kinda sucked cause neither KL nor I owned any of the stuff on the list. Figures right?

So KL met me at my work and we went to Sportmart to see what we could find – we each got a waterproof shell jacket and biking gloves…we both decided to skip the shell pants as we looked ridiculous in them and hello? fashion first right? 😉 lol There was a bunch of other stuff on the list but we both decided we didn’t want to go overboard with specialized clothing since we didn’t even know if we’d like the dragon boating, no use stocking up on supplies for something we might only do for 4 weeks right?

We got there early, signed in, got a locker and realized we didn’t have time to eat dinner before it started – oh well. The session is 2 hours long but since this was the first one we didn’t spend all 2 hours on the water, first we had to get suited up, get taught the paddling technique, all that kind of stuff. I feel I should mention that it was pouring rain this entire time, Pouring!! We weren’t even in the boats yet and we were soaked…well, our shoes were soaked, and our pants were wet, our upper bodies were nice and dry thanks to the shell jackets we had bought lol.

I don’t have a lot of experience with water based sports…well, sports in general really, but water based ones for sure. I am from the prairies, I like the land. 🙂 I didn’t even think about how when we got to the boat we’d be sitting on seats that had been exposed to the rain this entire time…soooo, my first sensation after getting settled in my spot was “wow, my pants have totally soaked through and now my ass is wet…and cold” Pleasant sounding huh? 😉

The rowing was lots of fun, turns out it’s more of a core exercise then arms cause yes our arms will apparently get all nice n toned but the strength to paddle comes from the twisting motion you make with your middle so if you’re rowing correctly you’ll feel it in your abs, waist, that whole area whereas if you are doing it wrong you’ll feel it in your arms. I felt it in my arms at first and realized I wasn’t twisting correctly so I focused really hard on the twist and timing and boom! my waist and abs started singing! Yah! 😀 Afterwards KL and I went to get dinner, we decided to go to The Old Spaghetti Factory since it is close and cheap and you get a hell of a lotta food – well, seems like dragon boating kicks your appetite in to full gear cause we went through 2 of the free loaves of bread, I ate my entire salad, then we split our entrees so we could each have two things lol. I ordered the Seafood Linguine Alfredo and she got the Vegetarian Lasagne; both were good but I wouldn’t order either one again. shrug. Then! after all that food we skipped the free ice cream and instead ordered a spice cake that is covered in liquid caramel and a scoop of vanilla ice cream! So much food!

Saturday I had an audition for a independent (read that as non paying) web series, the audition went really well and I had lots of fun but I’m trying not to think about it cause I don’t know when call backs are, then I had some chilling time before going to work. The shift I was covering was 8:15p sat night to 2:15am sunday morning but it ran an hour longer so I made some decent coin. 🙂 However this meant I wasn’t in bed until almost 5am so I slept a nice chunk of sunday away, called my mom for mother’s day, showered, ate nibblies, and have pretty much been glued to the couch ever since. lol. I am alternating between watching tv, reading a book and being online. Lazy? Sure. Relaxing? Yup!

A bonus from dragon boating, all day saturday my abs hurt! Yah! The kind of hurt you get when you worked a muscle group and your body really felt it ya know? The good kind of hurt! 🙂 Everytime I coughed or sneezed or laughed I also had to groan cause I caused myself pain, so awesome!

I meant to bake today to take stuff in to work tomorrow but couldn’t be bothered, and really, I should have gone grocery shopping but again, can’t be bothered. I’m lazy today and I feel after getting beaten up thursday, rowing friday, and working late saturday I deserve a lazy-do-nothing kind of day. 🙂

The only sucky part of the weekend, besides the whole it-is-now-sunday-night thing is that I only lost 0.4lbs this week. I am happy I lost, don’t get me wrong, but I would have liked to lose more. I am not really surprised though cause all week I felt as if my body was holding on to it’s weight. That may sound stupid but I am a lot better at reading my body now and I can feel when it’s losing weight during the week and all last week I felt like I was hoarding weight even though I was eating healthy and not using my flex points. I used flex points friday, and saturday come to think of it, so my weigh in today (sunday) is not only reflecting all that food but also my body’s unwillingness to lose weight this week.

I don’t know why it’s doing this but all I can do is be strict with myself this coming week and try to make it do what I want. lol. We all know how easy that is huh? 😉

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I’m a Hobbit??

2 May

I feel like Sam Wise today – you know, the fat hobbit? lol. I got so crazed hungry this evening I had 2 suppers! lol 😛 Luckily that second supper fit nicely in to my points for the day – which, upon further reflection is probably why I was so hungry…having 8 points left for the day at 8pm is bound to leave a person hungry… 😉

It’s always a little hard getting back to eating only my daily points after a couple days of over eating; I don’t know if it’s psychological or actually physical but either way, it’s hard. blarg.

I wouldn’t say my food today was all that balanced food group wise, I had protein, and veggies, and a tiny bit of fruit and of course carbs, lol, can’t forget the carbs! But I didn’t have a proper food group guide amount of any of them, hey, it happens, shrug. Also, I got no exercise today, I was hoping this was going to be the week I started doing some form of exercise everyday but the weather sucked today so no hike and I had other stuff I actually had to take care of and by the time that was done, well, too late for exercising. Maybe I’ll manage it tomorrow…don’t hold your breath tho! 😉

Today I ate:

1 Quaker Instant Oatmeal, maple brown sugar = 3 points

1 banana = 1 point

1 container Butternut Squash soup = 4 points

1 teriyaki salmon steak = 3 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

1 light babybell = 1 point

2 pcs bodywise bread = 1 point

30 grams light cheese = 2 points

1 slice turkey = 0 points

1/2 tbls light miracle whip = 0 points

87 grams Just Bunches cereal = 4 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

Total Points eaten = 20! Yah! 😀

I still feel a tad hungry but I think that’s just my brain not clueing in yet that I just finished eating and am therefore actually full – I’ll give it time to sort itself out. Really, even if it doesn’t figure it out my tummy ain’t gettin no more food! It’s almost 9:30pm so too late to be eating and I have used all my daily points and don’t want to go in to my flex points – I mean come on, it’s only Monday! I can’t start using them already! *rolls eyes* Well ok, I could, quite easily, but I am not gonna, nuh-uh, I’ll give it a couple days then eat a flex point or two, ya know, when I have actually earned it in some way…lol

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All Things British

29 Apr

I s’pose the title should be All Foods British but I like the sound of Things instead of Food better. lol.

In my own little show of celebration for the wedding of Prince William and Kate since Thursday dinner time I have eaten only “English food”, can’t go wrong with that plan since they do have some kick ass yummy food. 😀

Most of the British foods I know are quite unhealthy, *rolls eyes*, figures right? I asked my mom for some suggestions on what I could make that would be traditional and perhaps not too too bad for me – oh, fyi my mom is from England, she moved to Canada in her 20s so I wasn’t asking her just cause she’s my mom and the person to go to when I have questions about things but because she is from England and will actually have an answer. lol 😛

She had lots of suggestions, some healthier then others, but due to my limited budget, fondness for unhealthy foods and general laziness when it comes to cooking I chose some of the easier and slightly worse for me options. 🙂

Thursday night dinner was none other then a 2 piece fish and chip dinner. 😀 Oh YUM!! I sprinkled malt vinegar on top and dived right in. So So So good! I would have gotten a 1 piece dinner cause really, who needs 2?? but I had a coupon lol, so 2 pieces it was, shrug. When I was done my stomach was actually distended there was so much food in it, lol, and I kinda felt a little icky but I don’t care, the food was so good I’d do it again – although not for a long while cause I shudder to think how many points I ate…

Quick side note – starting thursday dinner time through to the end of today (friday) I am not counting points cause I felt that would make my mission to eat only British food too hard, lol, LAZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

I stayed up all night to be able to watch all the coverage for the wedding, yup, I was that whacko! I napped from about 12:30am to a bit after 2am or so then watched the royal family going to the Abbey, watched the wedding ceremony but napped through the church service, then stayed awake for the ride in the carriage, the balcony and of course the kiss! The commentator said they would be on the air live for another couple hours but I figured they wouldn’t be showing anymore of the royal family it’d just be people yapping and since I was about to fall over from being so tired I opted for bed, lol, I finally got to bed about 6am or so. Could have been worse – and ya know, I’d do it again. 🙂

When I got up around noonish today (friday) I ate 2 (yes, two, sigh) blueberry scones. One was cut open and I put some raspberry jam on it, the other I just broke off in to pieces, both got dipped in to light cool whip – yeah, I know, it’s supposed to be clotted cream but I couldn’t find any. It was good, not as good as the fish n chips but good. 🙂

Later on I had a sausage roll, I screwed up though and microwaved it to heat it up so the pastry went soft, sigh. I’d say I’d remember next time but I probably won’t be buying a sausage roll for so long that by next time I’ll have forgotten lol.

Dinner, which I had disturbingly late in the day was a home made cheese and onion pie. Now, when I ask people if they ever had one they can’t seem to figure out what it is, it’s not a quiche, it’s not a pie like a fruit pie, its a one pie is one serving closed pastry pie…so, imagine a pizza pop but with puff pastry and filled with melted cheese and sauteed onion. Good huh? The recipe I have is from the internet and it’s supposed to make 1 pie, 1! Well, I offered to make a pie for my roomie but when I opened the puff pastry box there were only 2 squares in the box and according to the recipe those 2 squares were needed to make one pie so I decided to make 2 smaller pies and put half the filling in each, if nothing else it would save calories right? ha! Even when I halved it each pie was so large 1 pie covered the entire bottom of a large sized dinner plate – can you believe that??? We both just stared at them like ‘holy fuck’. It took a looooong time to eat cause it was so big and it’s doing the same thing the fish n chips did – making my tummy large and making me feel ick. sigh. Why do I do this to myself?!?! Oh, and no, I don’t need you to answer that…

So now it’s a bit after 11pm, I’m watching Rambo (can’t go wrong with a Stallone movie!) and trying to digest my uber large dinner. While enjoying the wedding stuff and the food I wasn’t worried about the points cause I knew I wasn’t counting so I refused to let myself feel guilty, well, I don’t feel guilty but I do feel worried cause of weigh in tomorrow. I ate bad last weekend but not just for the standard 2 days of a weekend, more like 4 or 5 days, and now I have eaten really bad today and last night for dinner. Oh my.

There’s nothing that can be done about it now, and weigh in isn’t for hours n hours yet so really, I shouldn’t be worrying about it cause not like worrying will do me any good, shrug, but I always worry on friday evenings about saturdays weigh in results. I’m starting to think it’s natural…or at least kinda normal…

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No Flex Points For Me Today, phew

13 Apr

I feel like ever since the weekend I have been using flex points like crazy. I knew I’d use a lot last weekend but I didn’t think I’d continue the trend during the week but I dunno, I am way more relaxed this week about food and more inclined to say fuck-it and eat something I know I shouldn’t for no real reason…I mean, sure if I was craving, or especially hungry or exercising like crazy then hey, sure, eat some chocolate, but it’s none of those things, I am just eating. shrug.

But not today! 😀 Today, even with eating more during the day then normal and getting a late dinner I managed to somehow only eat my points for the day, yah!

Today I ate:

1 pear = 1 point

1 apple = 1 point

1/2 cup light cottage cheese = 2 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

8 pcs Philly Roll (sushi) = 5.36 points

1 vanilla Girl Guide cookie = 1.5 points

5 perogies = 5 points

mixed cooked veggies = 0 points

1 tbls light sour cream = 0 points

1 small slush = 1 point

2 pieces bodywise toast = 1 point

1/2 tbls light peanut butter = 1 point

Total points eaten = 19.86…so really, 20 points lol

Why do I have such a weird total you ask? Because I was bored and got way in to figuring out my sushi roll points. lol. For philly rolls it is 4 points for 6 pieces, my sushi had 8 pieces and you can bet your fine blog reading ass I ate them all! Yum! So, 4 points divided by 6 rolls is 0.67, 0.67 multiplied by 8 is 5.36…hence, 5.36 points for my sushi. 😀 I really hope I did that right, math isn’t really my thing…

It is now 9:16pm and I am fairly hungry, which sucks. But really, it’s my own fault, I let my tummy eat a little extra monday and tuesday and it ate way extra sat and sun so now it thinks it should be getting more food then it is supposed to get, sigh.

My stomach and my eating plan often times remind me of dog training. Every now and then you put the dog through a slightly stricter routine, this way it remembers who is “in charge” and is grateful when the more strict time is over and it gets to be a bit more relaxed about things (ex, normally the dog is allowed on the porch when you are sitting drinking a beer but for a while you make it stay in the yard – it wants to be on the porch and when you finally allow it on the porch again it recognizes that as a treat and acts accordingly). Well, my stomach is like that, I put it through stricter times so when I eat something special it recognizes it as special but sometimes I forget to stop with the special food/quantities and go overboard, making retraining harder. *rolls eyes* My own fault. Means the next couple days have the potential to suck a big hairy toe cause I’ll feel hungry a lot but by the weekend I should be back to normal and it won’t be a big deal again…now I really want the weekend to get here! lol. 🙂

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I’m Cravin Foooooood!

27 Jan

I am not hungry…hear that stomach? I’m not hungry! You don’t need anything else in you cause you’re full…so why oh why do I want to keep eating? All this week I just want more food…I want the food I take with me to work, I want the food that is provided free at work, I want the snacks and nibblies that are in the meetings, I just want foooood! I keep finding myself reaching for things that not only do I not need they are the absolute wrong food choices to make.

I am home, have eaten dinner and am full but I keep wanting to go in to the kitchen and get something to snack on…I have no points left and don’t need food but need seems to have nothing to do with my eating desires this week…this week it is all about what I want and that boys n girls is just not good! 

So far I have managed to not cave too much, I had a bit of cheese at a meeting yesterday but I did count it in my daily food diary – mind you it wasn’t measured out cheese and most likely wasn’t light cheese so the points were a guesstimate but I let myself get away with that cause the other food items on the platters that I wanted were the cinnamon buns…or one of the sandwiches…well, ok, there were a lot of amazingly good looking foods and I kinda wanted some of everything so I consider it a close call I got out of there after only eating cheese. lol. But see? This is what I am talking about! I got cocky about being able to resist bad for me foods and now I am having trouble resisting them, sigh.

Before Christmas I was all “whatev, I can resist all the yummy treats, it’s not a big deal” people kept commenting on my willpower and I couldn’t figure out what the big deal was cause it wasn’t hard to resist the food…then Christmas hit and I ate lots but before that could mess me up I got way sick and stopped eating (well, not completely cause then I’d be dead but I ate maybe once a day) so I lost weight from that and also, when I did eat I let myself eat whatever I wanted cause I was barely eating and needed higher calorie foods. Now, I am healthier, eating my points on a daily basis but haven’t gotten over the mindset of eating whatever I want which means I keep reaching for more food then what I need and higher pointed foods. Argh!

I have to reassess my goals I think…I keep thinking of the big final goal and that makes it too hard to focus on the day to day eating. I usually try to aim for the next 10lbs max, then, when I reach that 10lb goal I get a little treat and yah, it’s another 10lbs to add to the total weight loss number but I dunno, all I think about now is the final number I want to reach and how far away I am from it. That number is so far away that I figure I might as well eat the cheese at the meeting cause I’m so far away from my goal it won’t make a huge difference…I know that is stupid and wrong thinking but hey, it’s where I’m at right now. 

This behaviour and outlook are being influenced by my upcoming headshots for sure; don’t get me wrong, I’m looking forward to the photoshoot but I am stressing about how I am gonna look, if I’m gonna see the pics and only think “holy fuck, I’m still so fat!” I like how I look in real life and on film but I have a tendancy to look like an idiot in pictures, sigh, and I guess that’s all I keep thinking about, how fat I am gonna look and how stupid I look in pictures. *rolls eyes* In true me fashion I am sub-consciously self-sabatoging my weight loss efforts so that if my pictures look lame or I can’t get an agent with them I can blame my being fat and no one being willing to give me a chance cause of my fatness. Pathetic, sigh.

I am trying to remind myself about the photo shoot everytime I start to reach for something I shouldn’t be eating – my new short term goal is to survive until the photo shoot, just make it that far and then I can have a treat of some kind…like a cinnamon bun lol.

So my lesson today, and really for the week, is remember the little goals, the reachable ones and when you start reaching for the bad food search deep down in your psyche to find out why you can’t seem to resist the food…only once you learn what is making you eat will you be better able to defend yourself against all those food urges…now excuse me while I go and read a baking cook book and dream 😉

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Where’s The Wagon??

28 Dec

You know that saying about “falling off the wagon”? Well, I have not only fallen off but that damn horse I am supposed to get right back on has hitched the wagon to itself and gallopped away, bastard. Oh, and it appears it loaded my willpower on to the wagon before bulleting out of here cause I haven’t seen that guy around here for days and days and days. I shake the fist at the lot of you! *shaking fist* grr.

Don’t you just love the holiday season? A time of stores being filled to bursting with all kinds of high calorie treats, a whopping big meal on the 25th, or the 24th…or possibly not at all depending on your religion, but for me, Whopping huuuuge meal on the 25th and of course the days surrounding that day are not exactly filled with meals or snacks that are healthy. Yummy? You bet! Healthy? Not a shot in hell! lol

Let’s do a brief recap to see just how badly I fell off that wagon called weight loss…the 23rd was my bday (Yah!) so there was a big dinner, I got to pick it so it was spaghetti and turkey meatballs, garlic bread and pecan pie (I didn’t feel like the traditional chocolate cake, shrug)…I don’t really remember what I ate during the day that day and that’s just another sign of how far off the deep end I have gone cause I have stopped writing down what I have been eating…tsk tsk to me. So, one slice of that pie was 8 points…*rolls eyes* that was the beginning of the end I think…

Dec 24th is generally finger food nibbly type stuff in our house and this year was as expected. There was egg salad mix on open faced dinner buns, sausage rolls, mincemeat tarts (which I didn’t eat, ick!), various cookies, chocolates etc. I had some of the egg mix on buns, some sausage rolls, some random nibblies I can’t remember, oh my, this not remembering is more scary then knowing…who knows what I did and have somehow blocked myself from remembering?!?!

Dec 25th traditionally starts off with a cinnamon bun, YUM! I had a measured out serving of Life cereal and milk (back to my old school ways, lol.) and an orange…however, I caved and had a cinnamon bun too…I think it would have been better to just eat the cinnamon bun but at least I got some nutrients and food groups from the cereal milk and orange, right? I nibbled on raw veggies during the day so that’s not so bad but dinner…oh man, dinner, Amazing! I love my mom’s christmas dinner, her and my brother do all the work and it turns out frickin perfect every time! So there was turkey (duh!), stuffing, mashed yams, roast potatoes, carrot and parsnip, vienna sausage, fried mushrooms and of course lots of gravy and cranberry sauce…tastebud heaven! 😀 I didn’t even try to pretend I was taking a proper portion of any of that, I just took and ate! My sister kept getting on my case about how many points I am eating but I am trying to ignore her, that’s her sense of humour and altho it’s not funny to anyone but her it’s just the way she is, shrug. One day out of the year I can try to over look it, right? Right…well, maybe…lol. Dessert was Sherry Trifle, omg, so so so so goooooood! My mom makes that (I made the custard this year, so I can officially say I helped with christmas dinner, lol) and the trifle turned out perfect! I had two servings of that…I know I should be hanging my head in shame but I just can’t, it was so good and it only happens once a year…

Normally I have seconds with christmas dinner but my poor tummy is not used to eating large portions or such a mixture of foods anymore so it rebelled at even the thought of it, lol.

Hmm, you’d think after that things wouldn’t be so bad, that they’d go back to normal…well, nope. 😛

Dec 26th I drove my bro to the airport so I ate brekkie late, I had oatmeal and toast, that part was normal at least lol. Then I was out at a movie that a friend let me pick and she paid to make up for not buying me a bday present, nice huh? Well she also decided she was gonna buy me goodies to eat at the movie and I wasn’t allowed to say no so I ended up with popcorn and a root beer, not even diet cause they don’t carry that, evil! I ate way more of the popcorn then I intended but it was so yummy and I found I just kept mindlessly eating, oops, and well, root beer hello? Already established that is a weakness of mine! lol. That evening I baked banana bread and had a Guiness…now the banana bread is not for me so not eaten by me, yah! but that was 3 points worth of beer 😛

Dec 27th I had my leftover christmas dinner, leftovers are better somehow then the original meal, weird huh? So, the full meal all over again except the turkey was on a piece of toast so I could have a hot turkey sandwich…I look forward to that all year! That kept me full for a really long time. That is also the day I started getting a cough and generally not feeling well. I went for a late dinner with MJ at the Cheesecake Cafe, I ordered the BBQ beef burger, it comes with back bacon on it but I took it off (just wasn’t feelin it, ya know?) and I cut it in half cause I still wasn’t all that hungry. Well, for someone not all that hungry I managed to eat half the burger and a lot of yam fries – the yam fries and dipping sauce there are truly excellent. 🙂 The waitress was way delayed getting us our food so they comped us a dessert and even though neither of us really wanted dessert we figured we can’t pass it up if it’s free, right? So we split the Terry’s Chocolate Orange cheesecake. It was alright, I am glad we didn’t pay for it cause it tasted like plain chocolate, none of the orange flavour that is the point of the Terry’s Chocolate Orange. It was funny, we were all “we’ll take a couple bites then get it boxed up” and while talking we managed to eat all but two bites! lol. We left that remaining two bites cause it made us feel better not actually finishing it, lol.

That brings us to today, I am sicker, I actually took Benelyn last night cause I felt that crappy, eek! I hung out with my nephew today so we saw a movie, played mini golf, bought him some sweeeeet skater runners (he’s ten and I just had to do it!), he wanted some Mexi Fries from Taco Time so I got him those and he insisted I eat at least one so I did, shrug, he’s only ten! He doesn’t understand diets! Then when I got back to my parents place I had some homemade turkey soup. I wasn’t really hungry, and still am not, but I ate it cause I know I should be hungry and all I’d had up to that point was some toast and one mexi fry, shrug, I figured give my body some nutrients, right? I have dinner plans for this evening so who knows how that will go…and plans that involve a restaurant tomorrow…this is gonna kill me!

I am really starting to worry about how much weight I have put on…I don’t want to get back home and find I have gained back anymore then 2lbs, cause that’ll suck and really bring me down, but I dunno, every morning I swear I am gonna eat healthy and get back on track and something goes wrong…I really wish that horse would at least bring me back my will power…

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Let The Over-Indulging Begin!

21 Dec

It has officially started for me, ugh, the season of over indulging with our food. My poor stomach is already hurting! lol…I laugh but it really does hurt. *rolls eyes* I got a bunch of goodies in the mail from Australia and from England…ooooh, that chocolate is gonna hurt me but taste oh so good. Yum!

Today I got taken out for lunch to this great Japanese place, heaven in my mouth! I got a lunch box so there was the cold noodle salad with shrimp, chicken teriyaki, sushi rolls (two each of california rolls, tuna rolls, salmon rolls and cucumber rolls), miso soup and mixed tempura. Oh man, so good. In part it was soooo good cause the food was amazing and because it came out of the blue (I didn’t know I was going to be taken out for lunch and surprises are always fun!) and because I never eat like that so it was an uber treat. 😀

Let’s see, yesterday what did I over indulge in? Oh yeah, almond tarts, is there anything better then almond tarts? Doubtful!

I seem to be leaving all my willpower behind, sigh, all that hard won willpower out the window in the face of almond tarts and Japanese lunch boxes. 😛

I had planned to way treat myself tomorrow at the airport and eat…ready for this? Fast Food that isn’t Subway! I know! Crazeeee! However, with the way I feel right now, so not gonna happen. I am lucky and can take a half day at work so I’ll have plenty of time to get to the airport, leaving me no excuse to not get something healthy-ish to eat. I think instead of fast food at the airport I’ll have one timbit or something equally small, lol.

Ooooh! Good news tho! Last saturday when I weighed in I managed to lose the weight I had put on the week before so I am back at my 21.6 pounds lost, phew! I am so glad I got back there but seriously, with how fat I feel right now I might as well not have lost anything. Ick. I hate this feeling and I can’t figure it out. I mean, ok, I ate Japanese for lunch but I’ve eaten worse and not felt like this…and for dinner I had some toast cause let me tell ya, so not hungry after that huge lunch and the lunch totally killed me for points (I am guessing, the tempura alone killed my points really so why bother trying to tally them up for today?) but what’s with this heavy in my tummy feeling? If this is what’s gonna happen everytime I eat something fried (the tempura) or salty (soy sauce) I will so be pissed! 😛

On a totally unrelated note…why can Keanu Reeves look totally awesome in a long black jacket and all black outfit complete with shades (like in the Matrix) but if someone tried to pull off that look in real life they’d just look like a loser? Oh the oddness of life…lol

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Work Christmas Party – Check!

8 Dec

Last night was my works christmas party – kinda lame that it was on a tuesday but hey, least we got one. Sure, you might think that all companies always have a christmas party but this year my company tried to cheap out and get away with having an informal drinks and appetizers at a crappy pub type place. Uh, No! Everyone in the office said no to that invitation, lol, so finally the company sucked up the cost and got a party but cause they left it so late instead of getting a private room at a nice restaurant (like last year) we just had two large tables in the normal part of a restaurant…it was…crowded, and noisy, and not as enjoyable cause it was hard to talk to anybody who wasn’t sitting right beside you, but hey, like I already said – least we got something! 🙂

We went to this fancy restaurant in an expensive part of town – so a part of the city I don’t go to often cause I can’t afford anything there lol.

I decided way in advance that I would not count points yesterday, I know that you can go out to eat and enjoy yourself without blowing your points but the menu choices we had were quite limited and really – I would never be able to afford to eat there on my own so I figured I’d pick whatever I wanted from the menu and screw the points. lol. I gotta say, however many points I ate last night – totally worth it! 😀

My appetizer was the iceberg salad – it had a roasted garlic miso dressing, grilled cubes of chicken, bacon and scallions – it was tasty but too salty. I have always been sensitive to salt, I seem to taste it really easily and that has gotten more extreme since I have started eating healthier, shrug. So yeah, way salty salad. Weird huh? I gave part of my salad to my friend LL cause her appetizer was this weird not very good tuna thing and she didn’t like it so I shared mine.

The entree, wow, it was a Spicy Prawn and Scallop Risotto dried red chili, three types of broccoli – holy crap it was gooooood! 😀 I had no idea what to expect, didn’t know what risotto was but it turned out it was like a rice dish, with a sauce and the prawns and scallops were mixed in with it, then it was put over the broccoli and topped with green onions. I ate it nice and slow so I could savour every single bite cause it was that good! Guess what happened though? I savoured it too well I think, ate too slowly, because by the time I got half way through the dish I was full! lol. Crazy. I mean, fancy restaurants serve stupid small portions so no way would I have ever imagined I’d get full from the salad and entree but yeah, by half way through that risotto I was d.o.n.e. 😛 I ate a couple more bites cause I couldn’t stand the idea of not finishing the dish – the dish that would be so expensive I’d never be able to afford it on my own and it’s not like I could take the left overs home, lol. But nah, couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t get through it. Sad.

Dessert – I firmly believe we all have a seperate compartment in our stomachs for dessert, lol, I had the almond cheesecake with a cashew crust and I ate every single crumb! Oh, and it was topped with raspberry, Mmm! Mmm! Mmm! It was this nice little single serving sized cheesecake, beautiful! 😀

All in all, the food rocked. I could have done without the salad, or at least less salt in the salad but that’s the only thing I would change.

Now for drinks, I had a carona at work (the end of work!) and ordered a Shirley Temple at the restaurant, lol, yeah I know, it’s a kids drink but I didn’t want anymore alcohol and didn’t yet feel like drinking water, so Shirley Temple! 😛 It was tasty – and almost as much of a treat as an alcoholic drink since I haven’t had juice since this whole weight watchers thing started. I didn’t finish it though. I nursed it through the dinner and when we all got up after the food was done and were mingling the waiter took it, sad face 😦 ah well, I got to drink most of it and juice is wasted calories anyways, yummy calories tho! lol.

So all in all it was a great food evening – not great points wise but great taste wise. 🙂 I am not even going to try to figure out how bad the points were, I just don’t care. haha And that is an awesome feeling – knowing that I can have a meal that is a total treat and high in points but not derail my weight loss journey, score! 😀 😛

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