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Crazy Days!

6 Feb

Talk about being thrown for a loop! A good loop but still a loop! lol. 😀

I had an appointment Saturday at 11:30am to get new headshots – yah! So Friday after work I was going to get my eyebrows cleaned up, buy a black cami (I discovered the day before mine is now way too big, sweet!), exfoliate, shave uber carefully, pack the clothes that I was taking to the photo shoot, give myself a mani pedi, retry on the outfits I was planning to wear and basically groom the evening away so I was as beautiful as possible Saturday…well, here’s the loop! I got a text Friday morning when I was at work informing me the shoot had to be moved and how was 4pm Friday for me?

Ack! Talk about freak out! For starters, I work till 4:30pm so can’t really be in two places at once…I’m just not that talented, go figure lol. After some back and forth I got it moved to 5pm and thanks to having an awesome team leader I was allowed to leave work at 12:30pm so I could do everything that needed doing and get to the shoot on time. You should’ve seen me! I left work 12:30pm on the dot then became a crazy person rushing to the eyebrow place, rushing to the clothes store, rushing to my place to take over the bathroom, rushing to pack then rushing to the studio. So much rushing!

I actually managed to get to the studio early so I sat in my suv and tried to relax. lol. Oh, and to top it all off once I got that text about the changing day/time for the shoot I stopped eating and drinking cause hello? I am fattest at the end of day cause of food and drink, and my teeth are slightly less white at the end of the day due to the tea I drink so yeah, I was rushing, stressed and under-fueled. lol. I didn’t feel hungry the entire time though cause of how rushed/stressed I was, so yah? lol.

The photo shoot went a-frickin-mazing! Sooooo much fun and the pictures came out great! The photographer did such an amazing job and so did the makeup lady. They made me so pretty! 🙂 I am taking the top 8 pics to work tomorrow to show peeps and put the top 14 on my facebook page so I can get feedback from friends and others in the acting community as to which is the best to use when agent hunting.

After the shoot was all over and I was leaving I realized I was really hungry, shocking huh? lol. I decided to treat myself and I ordered a personal sized beef taco pizza from Panago. I know that celebrating a great photo shoot by eating pizza isn’t the smartest thing to do but, I dunno, it’s habit I guess…and man, that pizza was gooooood! lol 😛

So Saturday was a much calmer day, lol, I slept in, met up with KL, we went for sushi, she went over the pictures that I printed from the shoot and helped me narrow the list down. To give some perspective for this, there were 178 picutes in total, I printed out 31 pictures, and now it’s narrowed down to 8…it’s hard to pick when there are so many choices but when going through the entire pile you kinda wish there were even more to pick from lol. Greedy huh?

I have no idea what kind of points I ate yesterday, what with the sushi, and then random things I ate after the sushi, shrug. I didn’t even try to count! Shocking!

Oh, and I didn’t weigh myself saturday cause that pizza I ate friday didn’t get eaten till almost 8:30pm so I figured it was still in my digestive track somewhere and I wouldn’t end up with a reliable weigh in number. I weighed myself today though and wOOt! The weight I gained after I got over being sick is now gone, and I lost a little bit extra, yah! I am now at 26.8lbs total lost. 😀 😀 😀 I’m kinda surprised cause of eating the pizza friday and then the sushi etc on saturday – I was kinda expecting to be the same or higher. Really, when I look back at the food I ate this week, it was a week full of little cheats that should have added up to disaster on the scale and yet, somehow, they didn’t…

However, I am not going to continue on the track of allowing myself little cheats everyday – this past week was some freakish anomoly that I am putting down to the stress I was feeling about the upcoming photo shoot but that is done and over and I ended up with great pics so now I must get myself back on track with my food. Can’t go screwing up all royal now can I? Nope! I can’t!

Today I ate my 20 points, no flex points for me! Sure, I didn’t eat all healthy stuff exactly – I mean, it’s the weekend, I slept in so I got to treat myself to a higher pointed first meal 😛 but I did eat lots of veggies and I had a salmon steak for dinner so I got myself some healthy protein…heck, I even got some calcium in there!

So the work week starts tomorrow, ugh, and so does my week of being strict with myself – it’s not that I won’t eat any flex points this week I just won’t use as many as last week and I will not eat something stupidly unhealthy just cause it is there (for example, that oh so yummy bbq pork bun I had last week, sigh…) This week will be all about balanced protein and veggies and healthy choices for every meal! Wonder how long that’ll last? lol. 😛

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Huh, how’d I manage that?

3 Feb

I ate such bad for me foods today! They were soooooo good though that I just can’t bring myself to feel bad about it. lol. I ate…a Chinese BBQ Pork Bun, an egg custard tart and a fortune cookie! I know! Go ahead, shake a finger at me and tsk, I know I deserve it but I still don’t care! 😛

Chinese Steamed Buns - YUM!

Why did I eat all these foods? Chinese New Years! Well, ok, not exactly. I mean yes, it is the Chinese New Year, and the goodies were brought in to the office because of that but it’s not like I was out celebrating new years, I just really love Chinese food and was irresistably drawn to the pork buns – they are so frikkin good! The egg custard tart I was so close to resisting but SB who sits next to me took one and tried a tiny bite and didn’t like it (how she didn’t like it I don’t know – I think she must be crazy! lol) but so she gave the rest to me and I’m sorry but I leave no egg custard tarts behind! 😉 The fortune cookies were handed out, one for everyone in the office, and I figured by that point I might as well just eat it. lol.

Egg Custard Tarts - Double YUM!

After I ate all this food (all before lunch btw) I decided that it would all be flex points and I would just eat normal throughout the rest of the day like I hadn’t splurged…I have flex points so why not use em? I thought for sure I’d be over my points and didn’t want to stress the rest of the day about what to eat. Well, bonus time! The bbq pork bun filled me up so well that I didn’t want lunch so I skipped over lunch and that saved my ass! woohoo. I just rememberd I had a banana in the afternoon so ok, I went over by 1 point, oh gee, the horror. *rolls eyes*

Who’d of ever thought in one day I could eat three such bad for me things and only go over my points by 1??? Not me!

Here is what I ate today:

1 pckg instant quaker oatmeal = 3 points

1 bbq pork bun = 6 points

1 egg custard tart = 3 points

1 fortune cookie = 2 points

1 orange = 1 point

1 bodywise bagel = 2 points

1 scrambled egg = 2 points

1/2 tbls light miracle whip = 0 points

1/2 tbls mustard = 0 points

1 deli turkey slice = 0 points

cooked mixed veggies = 0 points

1 thinsations fudge bar = 2 points

Total points eaten = 22 😀

Where as normally I’d be a bit mad at myself for going over by 1 point this evening I am so happy cause I only went over by 1 point and it could have been a hell of a lot worse.

So Happy New Years Everyone – go eat a Chinese bbq pork bun and enjoy! 😀 😀 😀

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Oh Yawn

2 Feb

Soooooo tired *yawn* I had the worst sleep last night, went to bed late and kept waking up all through the night, ugh. I hate when that happens. 😦  I was out at the movies last night with a friend, we saw Blue Valentine, have you seen it? It rocks and I totally recommend it – I paid the price for going out last night by having a killer tired day but hey, you can’t stop having a social life just so you can get a good nights sleep…right?

Usually when I am uber tired I crave carbs – quick energy ya know! But not today, weird but nice. I didn’t have any trouble sticking to my points today and I wasn’t craving any not allowed foods. Maybe part of it was cause all I wanted to do was have a nap, my body wasn’t wanting fuel it was wanting sleep lol. 😀

So you’d think I’d come home and have a nap right? Nope! Not my style. As much as I may want to nap I don’t – naps just make me feel draggy and more tired afterwards. I am hoping by staying awake and being active (not exercise active but doing stuff active) I will sleep better tonight – I’m crossing my fingers about this. 😛

My activity this evening? Baking! Yah! I made banana chocolate chip cake – I never know if I should call it cake or bread, I bake it in loaf pans and it gets sliced like bread…and some people warm up their slice and put margarine on it…all that screams bread to me but the original recipe is my mother’s and she put it in a cake dish and it was cut in to small squares and was definitely a cake…so uh, hmm…I still don’t know, shrug. It doesn’t really matter I s’pose, all that matters is that it is a well loved recipe I like making and people love eating the results. 🙂 The best part of baking for me is seeing people enjoy what I make – well that and the actual process of creating the baked goods…it’s just so much fun!

I forgot my food tracker at work, oops, let’s see if I can remember what I ate today:

1 pckg Instant Quaker Oatmeal = 3 points

1 orange = 1 point

1 cup Fire Roasted Sweet Pepper & Tomato soup = 2 points

1 piece bread = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

raw carrots = 0 points

1 Bodywise Bagel = 2 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

light miracle whip, mustard = 0 points

1 scrambled egg = 2 points

1 slice deli turkey = 0 points

mixed cooked veggies = 0 points

1 banana bran muffin = 2 points

1/2 cup peppermint candy ice cream = 4 points

Total points eaten is 21. 😀

Yes, you read the last food item in the list correct, I ate ice cream! hehehehe. Oh and you know what? It was gooooood! I saw it in the grocery store, it was uber cheap and a limited time flavour, what can I say – advertisers know how to snag me. lol. I figured if I am careful with it I can enjoy it without screwing up my diet and today I did ok. 🙂 Sure, 4 points for something that is a snack and not beneficial nutrient wise is kinda stupid but sometimes a girl just needs a treat. lol. Oh, fyi, the ice cream was strawberry with candy cane crushed up in to it, wow! Who came up with that? Cause that idea was fricken brilliant! 😀

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3 Points Left…

31 Jan

I have 3 points left for the day and I don’t know what to eat! I know what I want, lol, shocking I know, *rolls eyes* I want peanut butter…buuuuut, if I put peanut butter on bread that’ll use my last 3 points and that means no sweet little nibbly…hmm, is the peanut butter worth that sacrifice? Probably not…but the dilemma remains…what to eat?

I had a super yummy mid day treat that was totally unexpected. IF at work brought home made dumplings (IF is Chinese and knows what she is doing when it comes to cooking!), I am not sure of all the ingredients, she told me I just can’t remember, oops! lol What I do know is they rocked! 🙂 They were steamed (good) and small (good) and full of healthy stuff (good) which is why I didn’t feel guilty eating some of them. 🙂 I googled to try to figure out the points and found huuuge variations cause it depends how they are cooked, what is in them, all kinds of stuff. I decided to take one of the lower points calculations cause all the ones I found online were from restaurants and I know these ones are healthier then any you’d get in a restaurant!

OMG! haha, sorry, I literally just realized that I have Exercise Points cause I had Zumba class tonight so I don’t have 3 points left I have 6! 😀 I wouldn’t normally interrupt myself in such a manner that not only ruins the flow of my words 😛 but gives you a glimpse of how screwy my brain can be sometimes but this was just too funny to not share! lol. I am soooo having peanut butter on bread now! wOOt!

Ok, back on track, the dumplings…uh yeah, I think I was pretty much done talking about them, they were delicious, home made, healthy-ish and a nice little treat. She said she brought them because I am always bringing baking in to work and she wanted to share with me and some others, well, lemme tell you, her cooking is way better then my baking! Well…in my opinion…lol. 😉

So today I ate:

1 Instant Quaker Oatmeal = 3 points

1 cup chicken noodle soup = 2 points

1 crumpet = 1 point

3 dumplings = 2 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 cup brown rice = 4 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

1 tbls creole dijon sauce = 1 point

2 small pieces chicken = 3 points

Total points eaten = 18. Exercise points earned = 3. Points left to eat (in case you forgot lol) = 6!

I swear, the extra food points earned from exercising totally makes the exercising worth while. 😀 And now on to the peanut butter on bread! hooya! 😀

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Hot Dogs: The Poor Man’s Chicken

29 Jan

I guess I should have said the poor woman’s chicken, being that I am female but oh well. 😛

The other night I wanted Chinese food…this is problematic cause (1) Chinese food is expensive, (2) I don’t know any good Chinese food places in this sushi obsessed city and (3) Chinese food does not easily fit in to the land of Weight Watchers. Don’t get me wrong, it can be done!…just not easily. shrug. So although I wanted Chinese food I knew it wasn’t going to happen. Then I was struck by inspiration! I had some brown rice in the fridge, I could take that, add some of the leftover grilled chicken that was also in the fridge and some veggies and make my own version of Chicken Fried Rice – voila! Granted, not the Chinese food dish I was actually wanting but hey, compromises must be made!

When I got home I pulled out the rice, the veg and the chicken and was all ready to start adding things to the frying pan when a thought occurred…how long can cooked chicken be in the fridge before it is too long? Can I even still use this chicken? Luckily the roomie was around so I asked her, hoping beyond hope she’d give a really big number…she figured on 3 days, maybe 5 max…well, huh, it had been in there at least 7 days…is that too long? *confused face* I decided to not risk it, being that food poisoning is not on my list of things to do this month 😉 and sadly threw it out…but, now what? I didn’t want just veg and rice but the only other meat or meat like substance I had on hand were breaded chicken strips and salmon steaks…neither are what I needed, then a whole new burst of inspiration!

I have hot dogs! Light hot dogs! And I love hot dogs so why not? Who says a hot dog can’t substitute for chicken? Well ok, probably a lot of people say that but who cares, they aren’t the ones eating this meal! lol. I boiled the hot dog, then added it (all cut up) to the frying pan with the rice and mixed veggies…I feel I added a sauce to it…yeah I did! I added some of my creole dijon sauce…thus taking away any chance of the dish reminding me of Chinese food but once I start cooking I get inspired by odd ideas and generally move away from my original plan. shrug.

So there we have it, not Chicken Fried Rice but Hot Dog Fried Rice (with creole dijon sauce), healthy, a light dish, tasty, filling…all the things dinner should be, and bonus, low in points! 😀 Something I will definitely make again.

Some good news to throw your way, I lost another pound! Yah! So, last week I gained 2 lbs but this week I got rid of one of those…almost back on track! 😀 I will be so happy when I lose one more pound and am back to where I feel I should be…I didn’t tell anybody I gained weight, I just sorta kept my mouth shut about my weigh in last week cause I didn’t want to confess the number on the scale went up. Yeah, sigh, I know it was cause of being sick and my body being off kilter and blah blah blah, but none of that takes away from the mild shame I felt when I saw the number had gone up. ugh. But now it is going down again, phew, and right in time! I have my photo shoot in exactly a week and if my weight had stayed the same or gone up this week I would have freaked out, now is not the time to be adding weight to the fatness that is my body, not before something as important as this photo shoot! 

But luckily, no freak out, the number went down, someone  I haven’t seen in a while told me today that I look like I have lost a lot of weight 😀 and in general it was a good day. How can it not be a good day when someone comments about you obviously having lost weight? lol 😀

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I’m Cravin Foooooood!

27 Jan

I am not hungry…hear that stomach? I’m not hungry! You don’t need anything else in you cause you’re full…so why oh why do I want to keep eating? All this week I just want more food…I want the food I take with me to work, I want the food that is provided free at work, I want the snacks and nibblies that are in the meetings, I just want foooood! I keep finding myself reaching for things that not only do I not need they are the absolute wrong food choices to make.

I am home, have eaten dinner and am full but I keep wanting to go in to the kitchen and get something to snack on…I have no points left and don’t need food but need seems to have nothing to do with my eating desires this week…this week it is all about what I want and that boys n girls is just not good! 

So far I have managed to not cave too much, I had a bit of cheese at a meeting yesterday but I did count it in my daily food diary – mind you it wasn’t measured out cheese and most likely wasn’t light cheese so the points were a guesstimate but I let myself get away with that cause the other food items on the platters that I wanted were the cinnamon buns…or one of the sandwiches…well, ok, there were a lot of amazingly good looking foods and I kinda wanted some of everything so I consider it a close call I got out of there after only eating cheese. lol. But see? This is what I am talking about! I got cocky about being able to resist bad for me foods and now I am having trouble resisting them, sigh.

Before Christmas I was all “whatev, I can resist all the yummy treats, it’s not a big deal” people kept commenting on my willpower and I couldn’t figure out what the big deal was cause it wasn’t hard to resist the food…then Christmas hit and I ate lots but before that could mess me up I got way sick and stopped eating (well, not completely cause then I’d be dead but I ate maybe once a day) so I lost weight from that and also, when I did eat I let myself eat whatever I wanted cause I was barely eating and needed higher calorie foods. Now, I am healthier, eating my points on a daily basis but haven’t gotten over the mindset of eating whatever I want which means I keep reaching for more food then what I need and higher pointed foods. Argh!

I have to reassess my goals I think…I keep thinking of the big final goal and that makes it too hard to focus on the day to day eating. I usually try to aim for the next 10lbs max, then, when I reach that 10lb goal I get a little treat and yah, it’s another 10lbs to add to the total weight loss number but I dunno, all I think about now is the final number I want to reach and how far away I am from it. That number is so far away that I figure I might as well eat the cheese at the meeting cause I’m so far away from my goal it won’t make a huge difference…I know that is stupid and wrong thinking but hey, it’s where I’m at right now. 

This behaviour and outlook are being influenced by my upcoming headshots for sure; don’t get me wrong, I’m looking forward to the photoshoot but I am stressing about how I am gonna look, if I’m gonna see the pics and only think “holy fuck, I’m still so fat!” I like how I look in real life and on film but I have a tendancy to look like an idiot in pictures, sigh, and I guess that’s all I keep thinking about, how fat I am gonna look and how stupid I look in pictures. *rolls eyes* In true me fashion I am sub-consciously self-sabatoging my weight loss efforts so that if my pictures look lame or I can’t get an agent with them I can blame my being fat and no one being willing to give me a chance cause of my fatness. Pathetic, sigh.

I am trying to remind myself about the photo shoot everytime I start to reach for something I shouldn’t be eating – my new short term goal is to survive until the photo shoot, just make it that far and then I can have a treat of some kind…like a cinnamon bun lol.

So my lesson today, and really for the week, is remember the little goals, the reachable ones and when you start reaching for the bad food search deep down in your psyche to find out why you can’t seem to resist the food…only once you learn what is making you eat will you be better able to defend yourself against all those food urges…now excuse me while I go and read a baking cook book and dream 😉

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That’s Not Right!

25 Jan

I made one of my salmon steaks for dinner tonight – a new flavour Applewood Smoke and Maple, as it was cooking it smelled so yummy so I was quite looking forward to it. Well, something went not right and it turned out super dry and just plain yuck. Usually it’s tender and flaky and goooood (well, the other flavours I have had are like that) but this one, nope. Before you ask, yes the oven was at the right temp and yes I had it in for the correct amount of time…I don’t know why it dried out like that… 

It was so nasty I couldn’t force it down, shrug, so in to the garbage it went, sigh, what a waste! I only had like 3 small bites of it so I am not counting points for those 3 bites, I mean come on, really?  For 3 bites? Nuh-uh. To replace the salmon I had 2 pieces of bread with light peanut butter on them, maybe not what some would consider “balanced” but hey, it tasted good. lol. 🙂

Here is my food so far today:

1 pckg Quaker instant oatmeal = 3 points

1 apple = 1 point

1 cup Red Pepper Black Bean soup = 2 points

1 crumpet = 1 point

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 banana chocolate bran muffin = 2 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

2 pieces bread = 2 points

1 tbls light peanut butter = 2 points

50 grams dates = 3 points

Total points eaten so far = 18, means I get 3 more! 🙂 Thank goodness I haven’t gone over yet, phew!

I am planning on having another muffin for 2 points (hey, they are good!) and I have a Mini York Peppermint Patty which is a whopping 1 point, :P, so that’ll be my little bit of sweetness…hmm, I just realized it’s in my purse, so I’ll be having that if it hasn’t been squashed, eek! Not the patty! Oh the horrors! lol.

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Oops! I Did It Again!

24 Jan

😉 Who doesn’t like a reference to Brittney Spears prior to the shaved head-bad marriage-crotch flashing-rehab sentenced period? Well, ok, probably most people don’t cause, uh, hello? It’s Brittney Spears, *gag*, but the line from the song seemed soooooo perfect!

I miscounted points today…wait, that’s not the correct word, I didn’t keep track properly and as a consequence I went over – even over my points when you add in the exercise points! Ack! I don’t feel badly about it though cause (1) I was really hungry and dude, I needed food and (2) I feel so good from my Zumba class that really, I just don’t give a flying fart lol 😀

Zumba tonight was so great! It was my first class back since before Christmas; I should have gone the previous two mondays but was too sick, sadness, I was a tad worried how I would do tonight cause of slacking off activity wise since before Christmas and also cause I still get coughing fits (though not as bad as before!) but how sucky would it be to start hacking up a lung in the middle of the salsa? 😛 Luckily for me, no huge coughing fits, yah! Couple minor ones but nothing that made anybody look and really, what more can a person ask for? lol.

I really pushed myself tonight and I am glad – that class totally made me sweat…and my abs still hurt, oh my! If they still hurt now imagine how they will feel tomorrow?  Oh the things we do to ourselves in our quest to get skinny!

So let’s see what I ate today!

1 package instant Quaker Oatmeal = 3 points

1 Lean Cuisine Chicken a L’Orange = 4 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1 orange = 1 point

1 banana = 1 point

1 piece bread = 1 point

1 tbls light peanut butter = 2 points

1 cup mashed yam = 3 points

1 whole wheat wrap = 2 points

1/4 cup pizza sauce = 1 point

30 grams shredded light cheese = 2 points

mushroom and tomato = 0 points

6 slices pepperoni = 4 points

Total points eaten = 26 😦

Exercise points earned = 3 🙂

So, with my 21 daily points + my 3 exercise points I should have eaten 24 points of food…instead I (in all my brilliance, sigh) ate 26 points which means 2 more flex points bite the dust! This is just a bad bad bad week for flex points!

I’m glad I don’t feel guilty about eating over my points today cause frankly I can’t stand anymore days this week where I feel bad about what I ate or how much I ate or how stupid of a decision I made food wise, shrug, so for today sure I over ate but I exercised too! And sure, I messed my points up again (ala Brittney Spears and her screw ups) but I can learn (theoretically) and maybe I won’t do this again…at least not too soon! Hope springs eternal on my couch tonight! 😉

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Well Shit…

23 Jan

Ok, I don’t want to write this…it’s embarassing but here goes…I gained weight, a LOT of weight, sigh. I am now back to getting 21 points a day, how sucky is that? Not only did I gain weight but I gained enough I get an extra point per day…not that I’m not happy to get the points worth of food but uh, nobody wants to go up a point! The whole point is to go down a point every month and a bit or so…but nooOOOooo, I went UP! Can you say Loser? and yes, that is with a capital L, sigh.

On the rational side of my head I know that I was supposed to gain weight because I lost a huge chunk of weight all at once due to being so sick and that isn’t healthy but come on! Almost 2 lbs worth of weight?!?! So not cool. I also know that I had a huge meal last thursday that took approx 24 hours to digest so (1) apparently my body isn’t digesting properly yet and (2) totally went over my points so even if I wasn’t having my first week of eating all my points per day I over ate so much that I wouldn’t have been surprised to gain weight but still! *stomps foot* I wanna pout this sucks so much.

And get this, on saturday which was when I stepped on the stupid scale do you think I went “ok, I went up in weight but that’s cause I am finally able to eat again so just focus and you’ll lose it again – this is gonna be fine!” ? No, I didn’t have that wonderful little convo in my head! Instead I hopped in the shower and tried to ignore the urge to cry cause I do NOT cry! And then I went and over ate…really great start to getting back on track and losing that weight I put on huh? *rolls eyes* I was hanging out with friends all day and we ended up eating at dinner time but for all of us that was our first (and in my case) the only meal of the day…because it was my only meal I convinced myself that I could order whatever cause, hey, it’s my only meal! Moron. sigh. I had a pulled-pork sandwich (omg, sooo good!), it came with yam fries and a tiny bit of coleslaw. I ate the entire thing! Didn’t save half the sandwich for a different meal, didn’t leave some of the fries on the plate…nope, none of my little tricks were followed at that meal, I ate it all! I felt guilty the whole rest of the night, sigh.

So now it is Sunday and all I want to do is eat, oh dear. I slept in and didn’t get officially up for the day until about 1pm – I’m such a slacker. lol. When I went to eat tho it was weird cause I wasn’t hungry, shrug, but I figured oh well, eat anyways cause I should be hungry and probably while I am getting food ready the hunger will kick in…well, it didn’t.

Where did my appetite go? I am not sure…wherever it went it took my willpower with it, arg. Seriously, all I wanted to do today was eat…and I did. I didn’t go over my points so that’s something but man, all day I kept finding myself in the kitchen getting something to eat – recipe for disaster that! Fruit, home made pizza, home made muffins, more fruit, toast, yogurt…it’s been like a never ending buffet! Even though I didn’t go over my points I feel bad for what I have eaten today –  there has been no flow to my food today, it’s all been choppy, not thinking about how many points I will have left for the rest of the day, not wondering how long this will keep me full for, just eating whatever I felt like at the time…so now it is 10:27pm and I am hungry but I have no points left and since I ate a frickin pulled pork sandwich yesterday and used god only knows how many flex points it’s not like I can go eat something and justify it because I have all my flex points for the week left…*rolls eyes*

I will ignore the hunger, and attempt to ignore the home made muffins I made that are cooling on my dining table (you can find the recipe on my new Recipes Page) and go to bed soon in the hopes that when I wake up tomorrow I will have my willpower back…thank goodness I have Zumba tomorrow, I desperately need to get some activity in to my life again. huh. Who ever thought I’d write that? lol. 😛

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A Loooong 24 Hours

21 Jan

I feel like I have been on a two day bender – I should clarify, a two day food bender. lol. When I look objectively at what I ate over the past two days I don’t think it really counts as a bender exactly, but it sure wasn’t normal!

Let’s look at yesterday shall we? Yesterday some of us at work got treated to a belated Christmas lunch, at a nice restaurant where we could order whatever we want, yah! I decided before I even went that I wasn’t going to count my points, I would just order whatever. Mainly the reason I decided that was cause I scoped out the menu before the day and there ain’t nuthin healthy in the joint, lol. It’s not like the food was all battered and deep fried, it’s just got sauces and crusted this and battered that and well, more sauces. 😛 I decided on the halibut sandwich, not great for me but it could’ve been a lot worse and it sounded sooooo good. When we got there though the menu was slightly different then the one you can view online, weirdness, there were more options and some of the stuff had changed…for instance, the sandwich I wanted was now crunchy salmon and didn’t sound as good…oh, and apparently it is an appetizer and uber small…huh.

There were 5 of us and before I knew it they were ordering appetizers, it could have been worse, it wasn’t we each got an appie it was we got 3 and shared them, sigh…so I had a bite of calamari, one duck taco (yes, duck!) and we got the cheese pot which is this pot of super duper yummy melted cheese and cut toast on the side to dip. Yum! I had two 1/2 slices of toast so really, 1 piece of toast dipped in the cheese. My main dish was a miso turkey burger with asian bbq sauce and skinny string fries. That burger, wow! It was juicy, and tender and had excellent flavour. Mmm the sauce! It was on a, shoot, now the name of the bun has escaped me, it’s not a normal hamburger bun, it was better! I at least had the presence of mind to have them cut the burger in half before bringing it to me so I made a deal with myself, eat half the burger and at most half the fries and the meal can be counted as a success. 🙂

Seems simple right? I did eat only half the burger, and I had even less then half the fries BUT I ended up with dessert. OMG. What was I thinking? That dessert while being the cap on a truly amazing meal was so over the top it’s ridiculous! It’s the kind of restaurant where there’s no dessert menu, there is only one thing offered per day, whatever the chef felt like making that day…well yesterday he felt like making Chocolate Ganache Lave Cakes with berry compote and a huuuge scoop of vanilla ice cream. Holy crap. I think I gained 10lbs from dessert alone! I can’t remember the last time I had a dessert like that…wowza. 😀

That dessert though, as delicious as it was, man, I thought it was gonna kill me. *rolls eyes* By the third bite I knew I should stop eating it, it was just too much food and that specifically was way too much sugar for me…how sad is that? I am consoling myself by saying it was too much sugar cause I’m still getting over being sick and barely eating…it damn well better not be cause I don’t eat sweet stuff like that anymore and have now screwed myself for ever enjoying it again! That is a scary thought! Did I stop eating it though? Ha! Nope I did not. I kept thinking how it’s gonna be a very long time before I get anything like that again and on someone elses dime, well, hard to resist! I kept eating the lava cake, sigh, one mouthful after another of chocolate cake with chocolate sauce and some berry compote with just a tad bit of ice cream…yup, that is how I ate almost every bite of that dessert, with all the stuff on the spoon mixed. YUM! I can’t even describe how amazing all those flavours mixed together tasted in my mouth…if only there was a way to get all that yummy flavour without having to swallow and take in the calories…

this is the dessert that put me over the top...YUM!

So by the last bite of dessert I was feeling sick…the kind of sick you get when you ate way way way too much and you know digestion is gonna be a bitch. 😦 I so should have stopped eating before that point cause now when I think back to that meal all I remember is how much my digestive track hurt for (and I’m not even joking here) almost a full 24 hours. Yup, it took that long for my system to be able to sort out what I put in to it and be ok. Pathetic!

I didn’t eat anything else after that gorge fest yesterday, which really, I used so many points in that meal even if I had wanted to eat something else I couldn’t have afforded it lol. When I went to bed my gut was hurting but I figured it’s ok, I’ll wake up and it’ll feel fine…uh, no. It still hurt. Not as much, but close. I was a tad worried, wondering if my odd abdomenal pains from when I was sick were returning but it turned out to be me still digesting my food. lol. I didn’t eat lunch today until hmm, 1:30pm or so and I didn’t want it any earlier then that, I forced myself to eat some breakfast and that just made things worse so I waited till all the pain/discomfort were gone before attempting lunch lol.

I feel fine now, in case you are wondering, everything is all settled. 😀 BUT! I ate for lunch the other half of the turkey burger and the rest of the fries so I feel like I shouldn’t have eaten dinner cause no way that meal was anywhere close to good for me but I couldn’t resist eating dinner. I know I should have just had a salad with no dressing but alas, I had pancakes. lol. Yeah I know, pancakes? What makes it weirder is I bought the fixings to make home made pizza but the pancakes were lower points so I figured I’d eat those instead, and I wanted some comfort food for some reason…but seriously? After a lunch like that, eating pancakes? Where has my brain gone?!?!

And that is why I feel I have been on a 2 day food bender in which 24 hours of that was spent digesting one meal…Not Good! I have weigh in tomorrow and even before all this food I felt fatter and am positive I have gained weight, now I took what might have been a small amount of weight gain and turned it into an astronomical weight gain…I wouldn’t be surprised if I went up by 5 pounds on the scale tomorrow…how depressing!

The pancakes tonight were good though…lol 😉

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