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Do Taste Buds Change?

26 Nov

Ok, I already know that they do, but still I pose the question to you, do they change? Like, for real? And if so, how much? And why? And will they go back? Is it just they get used to things, or trained, and when you change what they are exposed to they adapt therefore making what you used to eat seem unpalatable?

This is a serious concern of mine. It may seem like a stupid concern but it matters to me.

Here is the situation:

I have a sweet tooth, more like a mouth full of sweet teeth lol I like sweets. I looooove pastries! But dessert type things are my favourite, all the time, anytime of day. I will gladly give up all food for a day if it means I can eat a doughnut, or cinnamon bun, or lemon tart, or slice of pie, or or or…basically any dessert.

I have never been that person who is all “I’m scraping the frosting off my piece of cake because it is too sweet” or “I’m not buying a cinnamon bun because there is too much cream cheese icing on it” or “oh wow, isn’t this so sugary?! I can’t eat it” I have never understood when people say stuff like that. Too sugary? Too sweet?? Too much frosting???? Are you from another planet? There can never be too much! The whole reason I always want the corner piece from a cake is because there is more frosting! I pick the cinnamon bun with the most icing. I want the sugar! It’s dessert for heavens sake, it is supposed to be sweet! What is wrong with your tastebuds??

Well tonight, the most distressing thing happened with my tastebuds, I ate and drank two different things and both were gross because…they were too sweet. What?! Oh my gawd did I just say that?! I feel like I need to change my identity and move to another country because I have just written the unspeakable. *ducks head in shame*

I stopped at a Starbucks. Bad idea right there. Now, my fave drink is a chai latte but I thought I’d branch out. Why would I branch out? Because I love pumpkin. What? You mean writing that didn’t immediately fill in the blanks? Weird… πŸ˜‰ I love pumpkin, it is fall, this means pumpkin flavour stuff is still everywhere, Mmm! I have never ever ordered a pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks because, brace for this, I don’t drink coffee, in any form. Ick. I had heard though, if I want the pumpkin flavour get steamed milk with the pumpkin flavouring and I can get my pumpkin sans coffee. Brilliant! Since I got told that I haven’t been in a Starbucks so I thought why not try tonight? So that dear internet is what I ordered *looks around guiltily* crap! fine! I won’t lie to you…that isn’t all I ordered…I also got a chocolate chip cookie *gasp* I know! I know! Horrible! Bad! Stupid move! I have berated myself over it quite enough so rest assured I feel poorly about my well, poor decision, and will work hard to do better in the future. Does that sound apologetic enough? Yeah, I think so. πŸ˜‰

That steamed pumpkin drink was the most disgusting thing ever! I had it made with soy but it wasn’t the soy that was nasty. It was the pumpkin flavour, it was hideously sweet, as in, I managed 4 tiny sips and called it quits it was that undrinkable. Not only did I not love something pumpkin flavour I also thought something was too sweet! This is unheard of in my world!

This is the dreaded cookie.

This is the dreaded cookie.

The cookie was slightly better. It was a soft chocolate chip cookie that I still can’t figure out why I ordered, the words “I’ll also have a chocolate chip cookie please” just slipped out of my mouth easy-as-you-please and before I could somehow retract them without looking the fool the cookie was in a bag and in my purse. In. My. Purse. Like I had to hide the evidence I bought a cookie. Oh wait, I did. *rolls eyes* I ate it while sitting in my suv in the parkade cause apparently I am in to eating secretly in my vehicle now. Maybe if I eat in my suv the calories don’t count? πŸ˜‰ The first bite was good, not great, but not horrible. The more I ate though the more I didn’t like it. The chocolate was in too big of chunks, the sweetness level was hurting my teeth (hey, I have sensitive teeth, don’t judge!) but not only that it was almost immediately making my tummy feel not well. Didn’t stop me from eating it though…really wish it had. I know I’ll never be ordering it again because of how icky it made me feel. It was just too sweet. It left me feeling sickly, like I’d eaten a whole bag of halloween candy or something, my stomach hurt, I felt nauseous, it was just not a good experience at all.

I have never eaten something and been all, “nope, it’s too sweet” but that cookie? That cookie was too sweet. And so was the pumpkin drink.

Which brings me back to my question, can tastebuds change? And by how much?

Is this “oh ick stuff is too sweet” thing a phase? Is it only because I’ve been eating such small amounts of sugar, and for the most part what sugar I have been eating is what is naturally occurring in fruit, that my tastebuds (and my tummy) are become not as used to sugar as they once were and are therefore having trouble dealing with it? How sad would that be? *pout*

Could it be *gasp* part of growing up? That is a scary thought!

Could it be a one off and nothing to worry about?

I don’t know.

I do know my tastebuds have changed in the past. I used to hate asparagus, now it is one of my fave veggies. I used to hate all dried fruits, now I like dried cranberries (great salad topper!). I used to love then I hated then I loved again baked beans. So over the years I know my tastes have changed for various foods but never have they changed in regards to how sweet/salty/savoury I like or dislike my foods to be.

I don’t want to stop liking sweet things, like cookies and cakes and pie and pastries and just in general all the wonderous desserts out there. I think that would be sad. Might make losing weight easier though…but it’d still be sad!

Week 2 Done!

25 Nov

Yesterday was the end of Week 2 of my Lose a Pant Size By Dec 22/13 challenge! To read day-to-day deets about the challenge click Here!Β I had a rocky start to the beginning of week 2, what with the whole pizza fiasco on the Monday but I worked hard to not mess up the rest of the days and even with snacking at the fundraiser and eating a steak dinner last night I ended up under my calories for the week. Yay!! πŸ™‚

I know I shouldn’t be under calories for the week but since I started the week by doubling my calories for that day I am glad I managed to reverse that damage. Of course, I have 3 pieces of pizza individually wrapped and in the freezer that I have no idea what to do with but that’s a problem for another day…Granted, almost was a problem today buuuuuut I’m so determined to not have red on my bar graph for this week that I managed to not cave lol.

Looks like if my willpower starts to fail me I can rely on my not wanting to confess to you I screwed up and that’ll keep me in line! Let me tell ya, that is all that is keeping me in line right now as I reeeeally want to eat something! I know vaguely what I want to eat but at this point I’d jump face first into any number of different foods lol Classy huh? πŸ˜›

This eating plan is strict, and leaves me feeling not hungry but not full, I’m in some weird middle ground. I mean obviously leading up to meal time I feel hungry but after eating a meal I feel…I dunno, not full or satisfied but not hungry anymore…maybe this is how I am supposed to feel? Always wanting a little bit more but not eating that little bit more cause that’ll take me over the line to having eaten too much?

It sucks. But sacrifices right? Right!

Small sacrifices today to reach the goals of tomorrow! wOOt!

I’m glad I’ve got my eating under control (for today at least) since I kinda slept through my Zumba class, oops! In my defence I was running on 3 hours sleep. When I got home from work I thought it was a good idea to take a short nap and go to the slightly later Zumba class. I didn’t intend to sleep for so long! By the time I woke up all the classes were over, oh dear. Stupid 2 hour nap, sigh.

The nap did feel good though πŸ™‚

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Avocado and Egg and Bowling

23 Nov

Two days in a row I tried something new food wise, must be a record! lol πŸ˜›

I had the other half of the avocado from yesterday, anybody who knows avocados knows that half wouldn’t last very long, as in, not past today but I didn’t have anymore tuna so I had to find something else to try. Β I kept seeing recipes on my facebook news feed for baked avocado with egg so I googled and voila! a whole lotta recipes came up. Gotta love google!

mine looked fairly close to this

mine looked fairly close to this

Basically you cut an avocado in half, take out the pit, scoop a bit out of each side of the avocado (some sites recommend 2 tblsp of avocado get scooped, I just kinda eyeballed it), crack an egg into the hole, bake for 15-17 minutes at 425 degrees. The cooking time is also approximate, each recipe had slightly different times but all said keep an eye on it and bake until the white part is set. shrug. Seemed fairly easy.

Most of the recipes used a variety of seasoning, everything from salt and pepper to paprika, fresh chives etc. I don’t get that. Why people always feel the need to season food to taste like something else when it tastes really good as it is. Like veggies. People so often seem to drown their veggies in a sauce or seasonings and that confuses me, I like how veggies taste, I am perfectly happy to cook some veggies and eat them just like that, so they taste like how they naturally taste. Seems to be a “me” thing though, shrug. Anyways, I wondered if maybe this combo needed seasoning, maybe it wouldn’t be good without, so I put some pepper on it.

It tasted sooooo good! As long as you like eggs with runny yolks and avocado you will love this combo! πŸ˜€ I didn’t mind the pepper but to be honest I probably won’t use it if I get to make this again, I just don’t see the need, and neither do my taste buds lol

I had a side of turkey bacon with it. Being the carb lover I am a piece of toast would have gone greeeat with this meal but alas, no bread for me. sigh. It was still quite delish without it. πŸ™‚

I kinda messed up this evening though. Oh dear.

My dragon boat team was hosting a fundraiser this evening, know what this means? Food! Drinks! Temptation! I was so hoping I could come back home, log on here and boast about how I made it through the entire evening without eating but let’s get real here, this is me, and I ate. Ugh. I’m calling myself names right now so don’t feel the need to do that for me k? πŸ˜‰

I ate dinner before I went, I had a piece of tilapia on top of a salad, it was MmmMmm Good! lol I purposefully ate a nice big salad in the hopes it would get me through the evening. I almost made a protein shake to drink in the car on the way there to sorta top me up but that seemed like overkill. lol. Now I’m thinking I should have done that, hindsight is always 20/20 though, stupid hindsight, *glares*

I tracked the best I could tho! I counted everything I ate and didn’t touch sooooo much of the delish looking food, even though I really really wanted to. I totally caved with the nanaimo bars though, I have a weakness, *big epic sigh* Nanaimo bars are so good! But soooo bad for me! Almost 200 calories per piece! That’s ridiculous! Especially since it’s a small piece! If I was going to eat a square of nanaimo bar the least I could have done was eat one piece, not two but nooOOOooo not me, I had to have two *rolls eyes at self*.

I got home and added the food I ate at the fundraiser to my Lose It! app. There were a couple items that are approximated but I think fairly close, and just in case I estimated high. Luckily I bowled so I burned some calories there, yay!

I’m mad at myself for eating while at the fundraiser, I wasn’t feeling particularly hungry, it was seeing everyone else eating and enjoying the food that made me want to eat. Like I had to eat to fit in or something…which is dumb cause it is my dragon boat team, I already have a place there, no need to try to fit in. I was feeling a bit apart from everything though, I mean, it was great to see everyone, and the fundraiser seemed to go well, people had fun, but I felt like I had to force myself to be social, push myself to seem like I was having as good a time as everyone else. Normally at dragon boat functions I just have fun, no pushing needed, but not this evening…I guess I’m still dealing with what happened last weekend?

By the time I got home I really wanted to eat! Not because I am hungry, but because, well, I want to. Which is stupid. If I wasn’t tracking my food, even though I had nibblies at the fundraiser I would have without second thought dived in to some sort of food. Cookies maybe, or some toast, Mmm bread!, chocolate perhaps, or a banana pudding…I don’t know what I would have eaten but I would have eaten something. Instead I made a cup of tea, sat down and started blogging while watching a movie on my tv. Ahh multi-tasking! lol I guess I should be proud of myself for not caving and eating something else when I’m not actually hungry but right now all I feel is deprived lol But what am I depriving myself of? Over indulging on un-healthy food I don’t need that will make me fatter? Why do I feel deprived about that?! That’s messed up my friends. Messed. Up.

Salsa and Tuna, Who Knew?

22 Nov

I may have slightly, kind of, maaaaaaybe forgot to cook some form of protein for dinner before I left for work *bats eyes innocently* Which means of course no dinner while I was at work. Lemme tell ya, that sucked.

It wouldn’t have been as bad if I worked somewhere that didn’t have a fully stocked kitchen that produces gourmet meals twice a day. Oh, and don’t forget the large open container of Ferrero Rocher that was for any and all staff to nibble from. Those are one of my all time favourite chocolates in case you were wondering, so yummmmm!

Back to the food.

I didn’t even read the menu at work today cause I didn’t want to know! The more I know about what masterpieces are being made in there the more I have to fight against the lure of the food. sigh. Knowledge is not always power. πŸ˜‰

I did have to go in to the kitchen eventually, for actual work stuff, but after the kitchen staff were done and the yummy smells were no more. However, there are always, and I mean always! freshly baked cookies in that kitchen. So mean!

The most random thing kept me from grabbing a cookie…on the Lose It! app I use to track my calories and exercise there is a bar graph, if you stay at or under your allowed calories for the day the bar is green. If you go over your calories the bar goes red, as in danger! danger! you are heading to the dark side! take that food outta your mouth! (I always imagine that in a robotic voice for some reason) I really didn’t want the line for today to turn red, I also didn’t want to have to confess to you my dear readers that I messed up, again. So, no cookie for me. No Ferrero Rocher for me. No dinner cooked by the chef at work for me. Let’s just say there were a lot of food options today and none were for me. *rolls eyes* What’s scary is it is just going to keep getting worse because it’s that time of year, *sing song voice* You know what I am talking about! The time of year where it seems you can’t turn around without coming face to plate with something deeeelicious but ridiculously high in calories. Chocolate. Cookies. Cakes. Puddings. Sauces. Fudge. Candies…and sooooo much more!…not that I’m focusing on it or anything… πŸ˜‰

For my oh so late in the day dinner I tried something new. A friend told me that my taste bud savior while eating Paleo would be salsa. Now, I’m not a hater of salsa, but I also wouldn’t say I was a lover of it. It is one of those things that is there, and is good for the occasional nacho-fest but otherwise? Meh. I’m not that bothered. I trust this friend though so salsa now lives in my kitchen. I decided to open a can of tuna, mostly because I bought an avocado and this morning when I felt it up it was at the perfect-eat-me-today-or-I-will-go-bad-overnight stage. Usually I mix tuna with light mayo but my random burst of inspiration had me mix a can of tuna with 4 tbls of salsa, I then topped it with diced tomato and half an avocado. Surprisingly it was good. Oh, and I don’t mean “good but I’ll never eat it again” but actually “good, I’m gonna hafta buy another can of tuna soon”.

avocados...can't trust em!

avocados…can’t trust em!

Sidenote: when I say I ate the can of tuna what I mean is I ate most of the can of tuna but a portion of it is automatically given to the cat or I forfeit my right to exist in his presence and he will kill me overnight. Anyone with a cat understand this. πŸ˜‰

what would happen if my cat didn't get his share of tuna...

what would happen if my cat didn’t get his share of tuna…

 

Lulu Lemon Said What???

8 Nov

Oh the wonders of being online late at night when you should be sleeping, the things you find!

As if it wasn’t disgusting enough when that ugly CEO from Abercrombie & Fitch said his clothes weren’t for fat people…check out this youtube clip to see what I am talking about…

but the owner of Lulu Lemon is saying his yoga pants are only for women who have a gap between their thighs?

Check out this news clip to see the initial Lulu Lemon incident…

So ok, to give the benefit of the doubt a person could assume there was a glitch in the manufacturing of these pants that made them see through. Embarrassing for the ladies who inadvertently wore them in public but no lasting harm done right? However, the benefit of the doubt is quickly whisked away when you hear what Chip Wilson, the founder of Lulu Lemon has to say about the pants, this is an exert from an interview on http://www.bloomberg.com

Wilson:Β There has always been pilling. The thing is that women will wear seatbelts that don’t work or they’ll wear a purse that doesn’t work or, quite frankly, some women’s bodies just actually don’t work for it. And I can’t be β€”

Regan:Β They don’t work for the pants?

Wilson:Β No they don’t work for some women’s bodies.

Regan:Β So more likely that they’ll be see-though on some women’s bodies than others?

Wilson:Β No, I don’t think that way, because even our small size would fit an extra large.Β It’s really about the rubbing through the thighs, how much pressure is there, I mean, over a period of time, and how much they use it.

Regan:Β Interesting, so not every woman can wear a Lululemon pant.

Wilson:Β No, I think they can, it’s just how they use it.

Here is a link to the full interview:

Bloomberg Interview

I never knew this about Lulu Lemon and I feel a little sad to learn that a company that promotes healthy lifestyles is discriminating against people who are not the stereotypical size 4 or smaller yogi. I did some more research and learned that Lulu goes up to size 12 only (average size of a women in the US is 14) and the sizes 10 and 12 are harder to find in the stores, not as well organized/sorted and basically ignored by the staff. When staff members are interviewed they confirm the store caters to smaller sized women and for the most part tries to ignore anyone “larger”.

Lovely.

What is it with these co-founders and CEOs blatantly discriminating against an entire section of the population? Why are they allowed to get away with it?

I don’t buy Lulu Lemon pants, I did, once, I loved those pants! I bought them at one of the outlets so they weren’t quite as expensive as normal and I thought when I get to my target weight I’ll buy another pair because hell no was I buying a pair for each size I would become as I went down the scale lol that’s waaaaaay too costly. Thing is, I discovered Costco Yoga Pants, those are awesome! They are never more then $20, they last forever, don’t pill, aren’t see through, never lose their shape, don’t need to be babied as much as Lulu pants and I don’t live in fear of staining or somehow ruining them because hey, if I need to replace them it’ll only cost me $17! But I do love Lulu hoodies, in fact, if I could afford it I’d buy a new one right now because both of mine are too large (a nice problem to have but still a problem lol).

My new dilemma though, is should I buy from Lulu ever again? I don’t like the idea of supporting a company that purposefully excludes any section of the population, it is discriminatory and wrong. It seems even more twisted considering they are selling work out clothes. Uh hello, do they not consider the possibility of an over weight woman wanting to lose weight who wants to wear nice work out clothes vs an old t-shirt and sweats? By ignoring this demographic I feel the company is doing harm to themselves. The world is getting fatter, shrug, why aren’t the clothing companies recognizing this and adapting for the shape that society is becoming?

What I mostly worry about though is the lady who works up the courage to go in to Lulu Lemon for the first time, who is a bit larger, who has self esteem issues, who has decided to start a healthier lifestyle that includes working out and who decides to buy cute clothes to wear to help her feel better about herself when she hits up the gym. How will that lady feel when she can’t find something, in a store that sells work out clothes, that fits her, or that fits her and isn’t see through, or pilling, or designed to only last and look good on someone super tiny? How will her experience in a store that caters to size 10 and smaller affect her self esteem? How will the lack of sizes, the lack of choices affect her decision to go work out?

I know for myself, I get discouraged easily when it comes to my size. If I am in a store and don’t find things in my size that look good quickly I leave because I get embarrassed, I think I must be too fat for that store and walk away. Even though I fit in to Lulu Lemon clothes, and even though I love the hoodies, when I walk in to a Lulu store I automatically feel embarrassed and fat and like I don’t belong, just by the design of the store, the look of the staff, the size of the clothes, the fact that I swear every time I’m in one of those stores I am the biggest person in there and I feel like I am being stared at and judged. I know this is on my shoulders, it is my own problem, knowing that helps push me to go in to the store, to look at clothes, because I know it is my own insecurities making me feel that way. But what about that lady at the beginning of her weight loss journey, who feels all those things but also has the added problem of finding the pants she wants in a size 12?

I’m not saying companies should be patting us all on the head and trying to make us feel better about ourselves but I do think companies need to be more mindful of the varying demographics in society and stop purposefully excluding a group, any group, because that decision is most likely going to end up kicking them in their ass.

Oh Lovely Shoes!

27 Oct

Shooooooes! Gotta love em! Well, to be fair, I suppose you don’t have to, but why wouldn’t you want to? πŸ˜‰

Its amazing all the different types of shoes that are out there, they are all so specialized. It makes sense, you don’t want to wear a cute pair of flats on a hiking trail and who would want to pair hiking boots with a dress?

One thing every single pair of shoes has in common though is the shoes ability to be an evil s.o.b. that makes your feet hurt so badly you want to cry…or at least makes your feet want to cry. πŸ˜›

I wore these Friday evening as part of my halloween costume…

so evil...but so cute...but sooooo Evil!

so evil…but so cute…but sooooo Evil!

…and my feet still haven’t forgiven me lol. Now normally I would put that down to needing to break the shoes in but this is the second time I have worn them and what a coincidence it is also the second time they have killed my feet. Ouch! Don’t they look so cute and innocent? They are like that dinosaur in the first Jurassic Park movie that starts off all cute then sprays Nedry in the face…

I can’t help but still think of that dino as cute, I mean, c’mon, he killed the bad guy, and he is cute in his own way. πŸ™‚ Sorta like the shoes…only my shoes have yet to spray poison in my face then eat me, thank goodness! lol

I bought the heels when in L.A. this past August, I still miss being there! I bought them at Payless, ridiculous to go in there I suppose since I could just shop at Payless here but the exchange rate was good and so were the sales! lol The actual brand is American Eagle, I never buy AE shoes from the website or the actual AE store because I generally don’t trust shoes that are from a clothing brand but apparently when the shoe is being sold in Payless I don’t mind as much lol Oh my random logic. They were super comfy in the store, as all heels seem to be, but they quickly proved they were lying both times I wore them out. They tricked me! Sneaky brats! πŸ˜›

A second pair of new shoes I am currently in love with, and I mean in love with to the point that when I was moving them from one spot to another I hugged them…yes, I’m that girl! Oh, and no, they haven’t been worn outside yet so not like I was hugging ickyness from the out of doors ground, ugh, what kind of girl do you take me for? πŸ˜›

My new boots!

My new boots!

These lovely gems are for snowshoeing this winter, yay! Snowshoeing is going to be my outdoor winter sport, you know, once winter actually gets here (not that I am trying to rush it!) They are waterproof, have a good amount of flexibility and stability, were on sale and I like how they look. All great reasons to buy them! πŸ™‚ I haven’t had a chance to break them in yet, I am hoping they are less painful then the heels! Oh please oh please be less painful! Pleeeeeease! I have decided to use them on a hike sometime this week, see how they are when being worn and not just admired because they are so purdy. I bought them from Sportchek and they are Salomon brand, which to be honest means nothing to me, shrug. I asked a bunch of questions to the semi competent sales guy and decided on these ones…here’s hoping I picked a good pair! πŸ™‚

hmm, is it weird I like my hiking/snowshoe boots more then my cute heels? Man, where have my priorities gone?! Ack!

you like workout boots more than cute heels? you weirdo!!

you like workout boots more than cute heels? you weirdo!!

The Wagon

25 Jul
me waving goodbye to the Insanity wagon, sigh.

me waving goodbye to the Insanity wagon, sigh.

Imagine a wagon that represents the Insanity Program. Now imagine a 5’8″ redhead falling off that wagon, rolling on the dusty road, landing in the ditch, then crawling out of that ditch only to see the wagon never stopped and is too far away to catch so she does the only possible thing, she waves goodbye, sighs a bit, and comes to the realization she has woefully fallen off the Insanity Wagon, and fallen hard!

That is me, sigh.

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Have no fear though! I am jumping right back on…on Monday. πŸ™‚

Now, I hate when people say “I’m starting a new diet on Monday” or “I’m going to start exercising on Monday” or anything else along those lines. Why wait till Monday?? What makes Monday so special? If anything, start Friday, people hate Mondays, they are tired and cranky and just want the day to end on Mondays, how is that a good day to be starting anything let alone a new diet and/or exercise plan? *rolls eyes* Start on a day you are happy, a day you enjoy, a day you aren’t counting the minutes down until you can go home and do nothing.

Anyways!

Since last weekend when I was out of town racing I have been an epic fail at following the Insanity Program, food wise and exercise wise. I’m ticked at myself over this, royally ticked! Grr to me!

I knew I wouldn’t be able to follow the eating or exercise Β plan on the Saturday and at least part of the Sunday but I thought once I was home Sunday I’d do the exercise session I’d missed on the Saturday and jump right back in to the eating plan…that soooooo didn’t happen! I was super tired and just couldn’t bring myself to exercise, that was already compounding the issue that not only had I missed the exercise dvd on Saturday I also didn’t have time to exercise on the Friday so that was two days in a row missed, ack! Plus, on the Sunday I was too tired to care about cooking or making sure I was eating the right amount of calories per meal or even the right amount of calories per day. I did eat meals from the Insanity Program meal plan once home on the Sunday but that’s about all I can say that I did slightly ok.

Then Monday I forgot to take my food to work with me so I had cereal for breakfast (my high protein cereal so that’s alright) but I had no mid morning snack. For lunch I ate food from work (salad with chicken on top, super yum!) then had stuff to do after work so I didn’t get home till after dinner time which means my timing for meals was way off that day! I somehow got my arse in gear and did an exercise session but I was lost as to which one to do…the one I should have done on the Friday? Or perhaps the one I should have done on the Saturday? Or should I just do the one I was supposed to be doing that day? I didn’t feel it was right to do the session that was originally planned for the Monday since i’d missed two, it seemed like cheating somehow but I didn’t want to be constantly three days behind for my exercise sessions…I ended up doing the one I should have done on the Friday, figuring I’d do Friday’s and Saturday’s exercises then on Tuesday I’d do Monday and Tuesday’s exercises and voila! I’d catch up! Lemme tell ya, that was a flawed plan. Epic-ally flawed. After the cardio workout I was all nuh-uh! I’m tired. It’s late. I wanna go to bed. I’ll catch up the next day. Catching up Tuesday made more sense, I’d be able to do one workout in the morning, one in the evening, spread em out a bit, sounds solid, right?

Tuesday did not go as planned. lol. I had a hair appointment that started a half hour late then took way longer than normal. Then I ate but didn’t have time to cook so I had Subway, then I went and did errands that couldn’t be put off, then while out got invited to a movie that evening so right from my errands I went and met with friends and before I knew it I wasn’t getting home till late. I didn’t follow the eating plan that day, or the exercise plan, while it was a fun day it was not a “good day” if you know what I mean. *rolls eyes*

From there it just kept getting worse, and now it is Thursday, I haven’t done an Insanity workout since Monday and I’ve been totally going back to my old ways of eating (that is, I’ve been skipping meals and not eating the combo of protein, healthy fat and carbs that I am supposed to be eating). I’ve been trying (for the most part) to choose things to eat that are close to what I should be eating but I’ve been nowhere near as strict as I should have been.

So I’ve decided enough is enough. Every day that I don’t do the Insanity Workout or follow the Insanity Eating Plan I feel like a big fat failure. It gets me down and I hate that. Should I have done a better job of getting back on track? Yes, without a doubt. Did I? No, obviously. But I am human and as a human that means I am allowed (and pretty much expected) to screw up, it’s just what we do! Don’t believe me? Check out the damage to the ozone layer! πŸ˜›

Instead of feeling like a failure, feeling like I suck at this, like I can’t do the Insanity Program I have decided to get more upbeat and come up with a plan of action. πŸ™‚

I am starting back, as best as I am able, with the eating plan tomorrow. It won’t be perfect cause I haven’t gone grocery shopping but I will do my best and for the next three days that is all I am asking of myself. I will do my normal workout stuff, so gym, running, things like that, for the next three days and allow myself to feel good about just in general being active. On Monday I will start back at the beginning of the Insanity Workouts, that’s right, back at Day 1. I won’t redo the fit test since I don’t feel it will have different results but otherwise, it will be like I just started the program. I will also get my butt into gear, go grocery shopping, go back to my food schedule so I know what I am eating and when and I will no longer be “doing my best” with room to not get it right, instead I will be “following the plan”.

Sure, there are still going to be days where something goes a little wonky, but that’s life right? For the most part though I feel I should be able to get right back in to the Insanity Plan without too big of a hitch in my stride, and get back on that freakin wagon I shall!…on Monday lol πŸ˜‰

p.s. fyi the reason I am waiting till Monday to start the plan again is because Insanity has you working out 6 days a week and I want my rest day to be Sunday. If you do the math that means I have to start on Monday…

Insanity: Day 4

18 Jul

Soooooo, I’m getting worse lol Not on purpose! πŸ˜›

I was up early-ish to meet a friend for breakfast, we went to a diner type place and I actually wanted some form of meat…I never want to eat meat! lol It’s not that I don’t like meat, I do, I just, shrug, I dunno, don’t make it a priority I guess?

The only problem with wanting meat at breakfast time is pretty much everywhere only serves pork products for breakfast, what’s with that?? I asked, and this place didn’t have any turkey (or any other animal) alternatives so there went my fantasy of eating some form of meat. I ended up ordering french toast, yeah I know right? Way to dive right off the deep end with the meal plan! lol *rolls eyes* It was super yummy (duh!) but a lot smaller then I expected and it left me feeling hungry, there were three pieces of bread (small pieces but whatever), I’ve never still been hungry after eating a diner/restaurant breakfast of french toast (or pancakes), I don’t know if I was still hungry because of the craving some form of meat thing or because the bread was smaller than what I am used to or what…

After breakfast I was meeting up with my lil sister, we did a quick errand (I bought a blender! yah! an on sale blender! super yah!) then hung out at a Tim Horton’s cause that is what she wanted to do. I went from bad to worse with my food for the day, I got an Iced Cap (made with milk, not cream) and…a donut *hangs head in shame* We stayed there for hours hanging out and catching up (she’s been on vacation so we haven’t seen each other in weeks). Right when we were leaving I decided to buy a chicken wrap thingy because I knew by the time I got home I would only have enough time to grab my dragon boat gear and rush to practice and I figured it was better to eat something that finally had some meat in it then power through practice on a donut lol

It was a great practice, we race this coming weekend so we worked on some race pieces and had some endurance training. πŸ™‚

After practice I rushed home cause I have a hundred an one things to do, a big thing I had to do was prep/cook food for tomorrow…oh yeah, and exercise!

You didn’t think I forgot to do my Insanity workout today did ya? Silly! πŸ˜›

Today was Cardio Recovery Day. I actually kinda liked it. πŸ™‚ Twisted huh? It was mostly stretching, yoga style. Think deep stretching, think kinda painful stretching lol There were a couple where I actually couldn’t hold the stretch for the full time cause my muscles were all “nuh-uh you crazed nutball!” lol Some of the stretches you had to really focus on your balance, I learned quickly to face away from the tv because if I am looking at the movement on the tv while trying to hold my balance on one foot I lose my balance super fast! lol πŸ˜› Also, some of the exercises you are basically folded in half so you can’t see the tv but then he says to move in some way and I don’t understand his explanation so I had to get out of the position to see what he was doing, it was annoying because then I missed out on some of the reps watching what he was doing then getting back in to position so I could try. This has been happening with every work out so far so I figure the more I get used to the program the fewer times this will happen, I hope!

I can normally do this stretch no problem...but not while watching the tv!

I can normally do this stretch no problem…but not while watching the tv!

The only food I ate today that is part of the meal plan was the Protein Pizza Muffin, it is basically one whole grain english muffin topped with 1/4 Cup tomato sauce, 1/4 Cup mozza cheese and 2 oz grilled chicken. I was supposed to eat it with a side of broccoli but I don’t have any and frankly, it is late and I didn’t want anymore food, shrug. I had a little under the 2 oz of chicken because I cooked my second to last chicken breast thinking it would be enough for my meal tonight and one of the meals I prepped for tomorrow but when I was part way through weighing out the diced pieces for the Pizza Muffin I realized it wouldn’t be big enough for both meals to have the correct amount. I figured, split it as close to even as I could eyeball and get a little under 2 oz chicken in each of the two meals. Better that than one meal getting the full amount and one getting nowhere near, right?

I figured out that it is waaaay easier if all (or most) of my food for the day is prepped and or cooked the day prior. If I had food already prepped for today then I would have been able to grab something that was part of the meal plan when I ran home to get my dragon boat gear instead of buying a turkey wrap thing that I had no control over the contents of. With that in mind, I have made 2 of my five meals for tomorrow, and have items for two others (meals I will be eating at home) beside each other and ready to be used. Tomorrow is going to be a super busy rushed day so hopefully this prep work pays off! *crosses fingers* πŸ™‚

Insanity: Day 3

17 Jul

I swear, at the rate I am going, the whole 60 days of this challenge are going to be about how I messed up and what I changed to suit my likes lol. πŸ˜›

I slept like the dead last night, didn’t get to bed till super late and completely ignored my alarm this morning so I ended up with a whopping 10 hours of sleep, crazeeeee! I’m figuring my body needed it from a combo of sleep deprivation over the past 4 days, lots of activity but not lots of food yesterday and just general laziness lol.

Because of the sleeping in I slept through my first two meals of the day, oops! I wasn’t sure which was the best option, start with Meal 1 Β even though it was past noon or skip ahead to Meal 3…I opted to skip to Meal 3 but increase the calories of that meal to jump start my eating today, also I planned to speed up the timeline for when I had my first snack. I figured if I upped the calories a bit of each meal I might be able to slightly make up for my missing the first 2 meals.

I think I was wrong though…*rolls eyes*

So, my first meal of the day which was technically Meal 3 was:

1 cup of red lentil and veggie soup

2 slices whole wheat bread

4oz deli turkey meat

sliced tomato

minuscule amounts of mustard and light mayo

Here’s what my meal should have been!

1 Cup black bean soup

1 slice whole grain bread

4 oz turkey meat

1/4 of an avocado sliced on top of open faced sandwich

Why the changes you ask? Well! I couldn’t for the life of me find a can of black bean soup when I was shopping, I searched quite a lot so don’t think I skimped on this! I could have made black bean stew from scratch (and according to the meal book that is allowed) but that is waaaaaay too much work so I opted for buying soup but not the type specified. I chose red lentil and veggie soup because lentils are a bean…and uh, that’s about the extent of my reasoning lol I changed the sandwich from an open faced one slice of bread sandwich to a two slices of bread sandwich because 4oz of deli meat turned out to be a ridiculous amount of meat for one slice of bread. Oh, and I didn’t get to have the avocado because sadly my avocado was nowhere near ready to be used, hard as a rock! I put some sliced tomato on top instead, mostly because the sandwich would have been really dry without something replacing the avocado, shrug. It was just a tiny amount of tomato so I don’t think that is too big a deal.

It was a tasty meal, and while not exactly what the book says it should have been I think what I ate was still pretty close to what they say to eat…sorta…well, in my head it is lol πŸ˜›

I went out afterwards and was out for hours. I toyed with the idea of taking some sort of a snack but nothing in my meal plan makes a good portable snack, especially since most everything needs to be refrigerated and oddly enough I don’t have a mini fridge in my vehicle, do you? πŸ˜‰

By the time I got home I was quite hungry, and had been for a while. Seems by only day 3 of this challenge I am already wanting to eat more, weird huh?

I decided to eat before exercising mostly because I was cranky from being hungry and wasn’t willing to wait any longer for food lol. So my second meal of the day (which was supposed to be Meal 4, or possibly even Meal 5 considering the time) was Tuna Salad in a Tomato, it involved:

4oz water packed tuna

1/4 cup celery, chopped

1/4 cup red onion, chopped

1 tbsp light mayo

1 tsp mustard

1 large tomato, hollowed out

1 whole grain english muffin

This was slightly altered from what is in the book, the book wanted Dijon mustard and I used normal mustard, and I was supposed to eat an apple with the meal but forgot.

I’m not sure why but the tuna mix was stuffed in to the hollowed out tomato, I don’t understand why I sacrificed the innards of a perfectly good tomato just to stuff the tuna mix inside…I found it mildly awkward to eat and an odd thing to do lol I’d like to know what kind of crazy tomato the people who made the recipe used because nowhere near all of the tuna mix fit inside of the tomato! lol Oh, and I had slightly less than the 4oz of tuna required because I am not allowed to open a can of tuna without sharing some of it with the cat, I’m pretty sure I’d be killed in my sleep if I attempted to keep all the tuna for myself! lol I feel safeguarding my life was well worth the cost of some of the tuna. πŸ™‚

Today’s exercise dvd was Cardio Power and Resistance. So, cardio with some exercises in there to strengthen muscles. There was jumping but not as much as yesterday which is nice because it meant I didn’t hit the ceiling as much lol. I also learned a new way to work my triceps. Go in to downward dog, then bring your feet in and scrunch down so you are in a bit of a ball, have your weight on the balls of your feet and your hands (your hands are placed on the floor in front of you), while in that position do push ups. I found a youtube video of a girl showing how to do this exercise so you can watch instead of try to visualize what I just wrote lol

There were some exercises that I can’t do. I do girl push ups, hey, don’t judge! I’m a girl and my upper body is not as strong as I would like…yet! Anyways, there are these push-ups where you do 1 push-up, then in plank position move to the right, do a push-up, stay in plank position and move to the right, do a push-up, then repeat but move to the left. It’s moving left and right in plank position and each time you stop you do the push-up. Uhhhh, yeah, so not happening! lol Instead, I did girl push-ups the entire set, I figured better to do push-ups that are actually me going all the way to the floor and back up then me doing some half ass push up that doesn’t actually do anything for me, make sense? Well, it makes sense to me. πŸ˜›

The workout was really good. Any workout that is hard enough that at some point I am actually yelling a bit because of how hard I am working to push myself through is awesome in my opinion. Means I am really working! πŸ™‚

After my workout session I had a protein shake. A tragedy happened while making the shake though, my blender died. I mean dead dead dead! It was making this scary noise and starting smelling like burning electrical ickyness so I stopped it, waited a bit, then retried lol Hey, I really needed that shake to be blended! In the end I had to use a spatula and mix it all up which was fine to a point, didn’t help with the big pieces of frozen fruit though. πŸ˜› It was the lumpiest shake I have ever had, buuuuut it still tasted good. πŸ™‚ I will have to buy a blender tomorrow, sigh. Mines be slowly dying for a while now but I kept putting off replacing it, looks like I don’t have a choice anymore, I can’t go a day without a blender, I use it that often!

I’d like to count day 3 of Insanity as a success buuuuuut if I am being realistic I had yet another day with not enough calories…least I only exercised once today! So not as bad as yesterday, right? πŸ˜‰

Insanity: Day 2

16 Jul

Alrighty, so day 2 of this program and guess who messed up…again?! Yeah, me, sigh. πŸ˜›

I started the day off fairly well, I had my first two meals of the day on schedule so that’s good. πŸ™‚

I was done work at a weird time though, at 1pm, so my plan was go home, exercise, then eat Meal 3. It was either that or eat Meal 3 right when I got home then have to wait an hour or so to exercise and I knew if I did that odds were high I’d not want to exercise sooooo exercise first!

Today was my first real exercise session with this program since yesterday was the Fit Test. I thought I was doing fairly well but towards the end I sucked lol. It was a Plyometric Cardio Circuit workout, it is based on the interval system but reversed. Instead of doing lower intensity for 3 minutes then a burst of high intensity for 1 minute you do high intensity for 3 minutes then have a 30 second break, then repeat. The circuits were made up of about 4 or 5 different exercises, you do the first circuit of all 5 exercises, get a 30 second break, then repeat the circuit but even faster, get a 30 second break then repeat the circuit again going as fast as you possibly can go. You then get a quick break before moving on to the next circuit.

Lemme tell you, I was sweating more from this workout then from any home workout I have ever done!

I did have some problems in some of the circuits towards the end though. There were exercises where you are in the push-up position, you hold that plank and sorta jump/tuck in your legs, then jump them back out to full plank. Or, same position but you jump/tuck to the side, then jump back out. There were other exercises that had you in that plank position and I knew my legs and core could keep doing the leg motion part of the exercise buuuuut my arms couldn’t keep supporting me. The shoulders just weren’t strong enough and my arms starting folding. It was so annoying!

Another little issue I discovered is there was a lot of jumping in this routine and I live somewhere with super duper low ceilings. You do the math! lol I had to refrain from jumping as high as I could and not fully extend my arms above my head – even then I hit the ceiling with my hands quite a few times, oops! I’m contemplating taking a little table outside, putting the laptop on it and working out in the backyard but I dunno…I don’t care for exercising in front of people and even though it is the backyard it still seems too public for me lol

After I completed the cardio workout I made Meal 3 which was the Chicken Ranch Wrap (same as yesterday), while the chicken was cooking I made the Turkey Burger patties. I was supposed to have a turkey burger last night but it didn’t happen and for some reason I thought I was supposed to have it again this evening so I figured why not make it now while I had spare time? Totally makes sense to me…well, here is another oops! After making the patties, freezing two and sticking the other in the fridgeΒ I took a look at my meal plan for the day and uh yeah, wasn’t supposed to be eating a turkey burger today! lol I decided to keep it on my menu because well, I’d already made the patties and how long does ground lean turkey last in the fridge before it is unsafe to use? I dunno the answer to that question so I figured better safe than sorry! lol

I almost wanted a snack after eating the chicken wrap and before going to dragon boat practice, not because I was hungry but because I was worried I would get hungry…weird huh? I didn’t snack, obviously, since feeling all full and gross when paddling is soooo not my thing but I regretted it when on the boat because I was so freakin hungry! My stomach was full on growling and all I could think about was how hungry I was instead of thinking about my form. Not cool. I also had way less energy than normal and was really straining to be able to keep up. Erg.

I cooked the turkey burger when I got home and instead of having the green beans the menu book said to pair with it I had mixed veggies (because those are what I have in the freezer lol), I’m feeling a little hungry again but I am also exhausted and really need to sleep so definitely no more food for me today, the tummy will just have to wait!

So to recap, I was supposed to eat 5 meals and 1 snack today, that would have still had me under my calories for the day but not by much. Instead I ate 3 Meals and 0 snacks and the meals I ate were modified by me to utilize foods I already have. *rolls eyes* Oh, and I exercised twice! I’m thinking I’m breaking too many rules over here…

yup, that's me, I'm such a bad ass lol ;)

yup, that’s me, I’m such a bad ass lol πŸ˜‰