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A Perfect 22

8 Aug

Today is my second day at 22 points; weekends are either really hard to not mess up my points on or really easy…never just run of the mill. shrug. I think it’s cause I sleep in and just eat whenever I want not when it fits into my work schedule. When left to my own devices I go to extremes, I either eat everything in sight or nothing at all. Since following weight watchers I can’t do that; I have to eat the same amount on the weekends as I do on the weekdays…I still find it hard but losing weight is worth the effort. 🙂 I noticed today that on weekends I am still for the most part eating my food in big sessions instead of small meals throughout the day like all the experts say I am s’posed to do but hey, least I am still eating my points. lol.

I had these really amazing grilled veggies with my dinner today; I got them from M&m’s Meat Shop – the same place I got those salmon steaks from. I wanted to get them earlier in the summer when they first came out but when I noticed them it was right before I was going on vacation so there didn’t seem to be any point in getting them then. Turns out it was a good thing I didn’t get them then cause when I went in to the store yesterday they were on sale cause it’s now end of summer and they are getting new things to replace the grilled veggies. Works for me! There are a mixture of veggies in the package; you just put some on a baking tray, drizzle them with a bit of vegetable oil and stick them in a pre-heated oven for 18 mins…yum! I burned them a little but they were still good. 🙂 I like how they are frozen so I don’t have to rush eating them; I had some today and I am sure I will eat more of them this coming week but if I decide I don’t want to eat any of them for a while it doesn’t matter cause they’ll just sit in my freezer waiting for me. Yah for frozen food! lol

There are two conflicting arguments about veggies; some people say don’t buy frozen cause they lose nutritional value in the freezing process, others say eating frozen is better because they are flash frozen and the nutritional value is retained while the “fresh” veggies we buy at the grocery store have been travelling for who knows how long and everyday they are away from the day they were picked they lose nutrients. I am not a food scientist, I try to research what I hear and wonder about so I can know the facts about what I am doing and make lifestyle changes accordingly but this one I just don’t know. shrug. I keep coming up with conflicting information so I am going to leave the figuring out of this problem to the scientists and continue to eat a combination of fresh and frozen veggies. Seems like a safe bet to me! 🙂

Today I ate:

1/2 cup Heinz Maple Baked Beans = 2 points

1 fried egg = 2 points

2 pcs toast = 2 points

2 tsp margarine = 2 points

1 tblsp Kraft Raspberry Jam = 1 point

1 piece frozen battered fish = 4 points

grilled veggies = 0 points

1/2 cup Sidekicks Cheddar Broccoli rice = 3 points

1 medium slush = 2 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

1 pckg Weight Watchers Cheese Twists = 2 points

Total points used is 22. 😀

the weight watchers version of Thinsation Cheetos

The weight watchers cheese twists are the ww version of Thinsations Cheetos (which are really good!)…these are pretty good, they have a slightly off flavour that I can’t pin down but that’s alright. I guess weight watchers figured if people were gonna go crazy over all the Thinsation snacks out there they might as well get there own version and rake in more money that way. lol. Can’t really blame them. I think the next time I will probably buy the Thinsation Cheetos over the weight watcher cheese twists because (1) the cheetos have a slightly better flavour and (2) the thinsations are cheaper. Nothing against weight watchers food, shrug, but I have to look out for my bank account balance here. lol.

It will be interesting to see how I do with my 22 points when it’s a work day; this weekend was easy. The weather was rainy and blah so I stayed in for most of the 2 days just reading and watching movies, relaxing. Aaaah, so nice! Because I was so inactive and slept so much tho my appetite was less then what it is on a more active day, not like at work I am crazy active but I am awake for longer on work days and just from normal daily activities am more active. I have gotten ready some raw veggies for me to have as a snack that way if I want to eat more then what my 22 points will let me I can eat those and not use any points. Hopefully this plan works! 🙂

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I’m goin down!

7 Aug

I’m goin down down down down down – wOOt!

Thought I’d rip off the lyrics to a song by Freddie King to help me celebrate my weight loss. lol. The song has been performed by many different artists and Freddie’s isn’t actually the version I have in my head but oh well, guess it’s right to give kudos to Freddie since it’s his song first. lol. 😀

So all that freaking out was for nothing, yah! I had managed to convince myself earlier today, right before I stepped on the scale, that I’d be happy if the number was somewhere around where it was last time I weighed myself, the same would be fine – a bit depressing but what I deserved considering what I ate while on vacation. Well, when I saw the number I would have given a shriek but I wasn’t sure if my roomie was still asleep or not and if she was I didn’t want to wake her. Not only did I go down by 3.8 pounds (omg, I can’t believe I just wrote that!!!!!) but the weight loss put me down in to a whole new weight bracket. By that I mean the second number in my weight has changed! Oh yeah baby, that’s right! The second number changed this time!!! 😀 😀 😀 I haven’t been in this number bracket for years and when I was in it is was only for the time it took to keep going up in weight until I ended up as heavy as I was when this whole thing started. Now, maybe I shouldn’t be too excited, I am only in this new weight bracket by 0.4 lb but I don’t care, I am in it and I will fight to stay in it…until I get down in to the next bracket that is! lol.

Not only am I thinner but the amount of points I get to eat per day has gone down by one; now I get to eat 22. The reason this changed is because part of the calculations for figuring out your daily points uses the first two digits of your weight – that second number of mine changed so now I am down a point. 😛 I feel perfectly happy with this change; I am not concerned about losing the food per day associated with that point because a lot of days I have trouble eating my whole 23 points – maybe having 22 will be easier to manage? Just wait, I’ll probably be bitching in a couple of days about how hungry I am cause I am at 22 points now, lol.

You may or may not be wondering why it’s been so long since I had a weigh in day on here…I am going to pretend you are wondering and explain. lol. My first weigh in day on vacation was the day after my road trip, I used my mom’s scale and it had me go up by a couple pounds which devestated me. 😦 My mom pointed out though that every scale is a little different (very true), the time of day I was weighing myself was different from normal (time of day totally affects your weight) and that the previous day I was abnormally inactive because of spending so many hours in the car (didn’t burn as many calories just from normal daily movement cause of well, not moving, lol). I decided to try to ignore the scale and re-weigh myself later that day. When I re-weighed myself I lost almost a pound from my earlier weigh in that day so I figured, shrug, don’t freak out about it, wait for next week and see what the scale says then. I got a little impatient and weighed myself the next day and I’d gone down a pound and a bit from the day before so I seemed to be on the right track. The next saturday though I couldn’t bring myself to step on the scale, I had eaten so much bad food and most of the activities I had been involved in were not all that active so I just pretended the scale was not there. lol. Well, couldn’t do that pretending today could I? I had to step on and face the music, and the music was good! On average I lost 1.9 lbs per week which is right about what I was losing before (the weeks before vacation I kept going down by 1.8 lbs per week). Awesomeness! 😀

Let’s see what I ate today:

1 Sandwich

    – 2 pieces of toast = 2 points

    – 1 scrambled egg = 2 points

    – 2 pieces of turkey bacon = 2 points

    – 1 Kraft cheese slice = 1 point

    – mixed peppers (in the egg) = 0 points

1 chocolate Timbit = 1 point

1 pckg Mr. Noodle Chicken flavour = 8 points

2 Maple cookies = 4 points

1 Coffee Crisp Single = 2 points

Total points used 22. Right where I am supposed to be. 😀 Admittedly, I wasn’t eating very healthy food but hey, it’s saturday, my whole eating schedule got off kilter. lol. The Mr. Noodles surprised me. They were something I still had in my cupboard from before weight watchers started and I had been ignoring them because I thought they’d be as high in points as Ichiban (that’s 12 for the package!) but when I saw how many points I had left and that it was getting late I decided to check the nutritional info and found out they are 8 instead. 8 is too high for something normaly, especialy something with no nutritional benefit and too small to completely fill me but for today it was perfecto. lol.

So all in all a great start to being back on track after vacation, I didn’t lose as much (well any really) ground as I thought I would and I bought healthy groceries today so this week should be all kinds of good. 🙂 Go weigh in day go!

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Too. Much. Drinking.

5 Aug

I noticed over vacation I wasn’t taking in as much water (or any fluids really) as I should be. I spent all that time working up to drinking 5 or more glasses/cups of fluid a day and over vacation – poof! – back down to 2 if I am lucky.  So today, the first day back to work and my normal routine I drank a disturbingly large quantity of fluids. Let’s just say that it’s a good thing I sit so close to the washroom at work. lol. 😀

gotta pee! gotta pee! gotta pee!

At work I had 6 cups of tea (large cups) and 3 big glasses of water; once I got home I had a huge bottle of water and as a result spent a lotta time over the course of the day in the washroom. lol. By the time I was s’posed to be thinking of dinner my tummy was feeling all sloshy and I didn’t really want to eat. It wasn’t a good feeling – I felt overly acidic, ugh. I really wanted something that would soak up some of the fluid which I am sure sounds stupid but hey, it’s what I wanted so I made myself a sandwich. After my stomach had some time to realize there was something solid in it I started to feel better. 🙂

I learned last night that your daily 8 glasses of water don’t have to be water – when did that change? Now it’s 8 glasses of fluid; much easier to do! I got well over my 8 glasses of fluid since I drank 10 glasses/cups and all were over a one portion size. Yah for staying hydrated! 😀  You can also get your daily fluids from the liquid that is in foods; like your fruits and veggies. There are all kinds of ways to stay hydrated which means it should be easy to do but really, how many people actually get the amount of fluid in them they are supposed to on a daily basis?

Drinking so much fluids today brought up a concern I have never had before; can I drink too much? Will this damage my kidneys or some other organ?…cause that would suck! I remember hearing years ago about a contest to win a Wii, it was called Wee for Wii or something stupid like that. Basically, it was who can drink the most water without peeing? Whoever wins gets a free Wii. The reason I remember the contest is because a lady who was in the contest died from drinking too much water. Too much water?!?! Ack! So there is a line we need to stay on – don’t drink too much don’t drink too little.

After a little research I learned that drinking too much water is called hyponatremia and results in a dilution of sodium in the body. It is most commonly found in babies under 6 months old and athletes. I could list all the deets about water intoxication but that’d just be boring, if you want to read them just go to http://chemistry.about.com/cs/5/f/blwaterintox.htm Something I do want to point out is that it is not how much you drink but how quickly you drink it. A healthy adults kidneys can process 15 litres of water a day, so the normal person is highly unlikely to suffer from water intoxication as long as they drink the fluid over the course of the day and not all at once. So yah! No dying from drinking too much today! lol

Today I ate:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 cup Sidekicks broccoli and cheddar rice = 3 points

1 hot dog weiner = 3 points

1 granny smith apple = 1 point

2 triangles Light Laughing Cow cheese = 1 point

1 cup blueberries = 1 point

1 peanut butter sandwich

    – 2 pcs bread = 2 points

    – 1 tbsp peanut butter = 2 points

    – 1 tsp Eating Right Margarine = 1 point

1 serving of crisps = 4 points

Today I used 23 points exactly! 😀 Day 2 of hitting my points, wOOt! I should have had veggies in there at some point, normally I would have had some at dinner but since my tummy wasn’t up to that I ended up having a veg free day. I had a decent amount of fruit though…not quite as much as the food guide says I should have but hey, I can only do so much a day and I got my fluid in so let’s focus on that victory, k?

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Back on my points

4 Aug

It is a relief to me that I managed to eat my points today, no more no less. 🙂 Course, one of the things I ate I can’t find the points for so I had to guess so maybe I am off but I am going to pretend I am right cause it makes me feel like it won’t be so hard tomorrow when I am back at work having to eat on a schedule again. lol.

I headed out about 11am or so after a sorta ok breakfast. I ordered 2 eggs any style with toast and hash browns with a side of fruit. I thought the fruit would counteract the hashbrowns and toast of which I was only going to have a bite of; that didn’t really work. The fruit was a bowl of “mixed fruit” apparently mixed now means one bite sized piece of pineapple and a mixture of cantelope and honeydew melon. I happen to hate both those melons, and seriously? One bite of pineapple?!?! Oh, and it was all under ripe, ick.  So, since I didn’t have the fruit to fill me up I ate most of the toast and hash browns. sigh. I had only intended to have a bite, I swear! But I was hungry and the two eggs just weren’t gonna cut it. shrug.

It was tasty but settled as a heavy ball of lead in my tummy that made me not feel well for an hour or so of my drive. Oddly enough I found that drinking water helped ease the feeling so I drank, and drank, and drank and as a result thought my bladder was going to burst when I got stuck in crawling traffic due to construction…soooo much construction! Seriously, I was squirming so much in my seat, lol, I was tempted to pull off to the side and beg the use of the porta potty the construction guys/gals had but decided to tough it out till I got back to my place. Best pee ever! 😛

Let’s get back to normal here…today I ate:

2 eggs = 4 points

2 pcs toast = 4 points

hashbrowns = 4 points

1 raspberry fruit bar = 2 points

1/2 cup Sidekicks Cheddar and Broccoli Rice = 3 points

1 hot dog weiner = 3 points

2 triangles of Light Laughing Cow Cheese = 1 point

1 Thinsations Oreo Mini Cakesters pckg = 2 points

Total points used 23!!! wOOt! 😀 Now I am off to finish putting all my stuff away so I can go to bed…after Law and Order SVU of course. lol.

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Road Trippin

22 Jul

I am not at home; I am 4 hours or so away from home and on my way to getting even farther from the comfort of my perfect bed and my food routine. Now, this makes it sound like I am a home-body who doesn’t like going anywhere…Not True! I looooove travelling, I will go almost anywhere with very little notice (if I can afford it) and have a blast the entire time. With road trips I usually enjoy the travelling part of the vacation more then whatever I do at the destination, shrug, don’t know why – it’s just always been like that.

There is nothing like seeing the mountains and clouds touch at dusk; watching as the clouds shift colours from white to blue, with purple and pinks thrown in just for fun. It’s like mother nature is colouring and seeing what ‘look’ she likes best…and when she can’t decide she lets the sun finish going down and we get the beauty of the stars to keep us company. I am a prairie girl at heart and can’t wait until I get through the mountains tomorrow and get to see my endless flat plains, fields upon fields growing corn, hay, various crops with all those cows and horses thrown in to the mix. On the prairies it’s as if the ground and sky never meet, the horizon is so far away. I feel as free as I ever can feel when in my suv driving down a highway; I feel like I can go anywhere, be anyone, my mind wanders and I think of all kinds of things. When driving alone on a trip I have my most introspective moments; I learn things about myself I would never think to find out…the things aren’t always good but I don’t care, the act of learning is what I enjoy.

I started writing about the road trip to bring up my routine; lol, sorta strayed there, sorry! 🙂 On days I work my eating is structured; I take snacks and lunch in with me so I know exactly what I am going to be eating, this may seem boring but it is working for me right now. I eat at almost the same time each day – this includes my snacks and meals. Breakfast is at 8:30am,my first snack is between 10:30am and 11:00am, lunch is at 1pm, and my afternoon snack is around 3pm. Then when I get home I eat dinner-dinner has a greater chance of fluctuating times but that is ok. It’s easy to stick to a diet (alright, healthy eating plan) when you do the same thing every 5 out of 7 days.

Today however things changed! I started my road trip! wOOt! 😀 Most of my day was normal, I didn’t start out on the road till after a full day at work so I had all my normal daytime routines with food. Dinner was a little trickier, well, not trickier, I planned ahead of time what I was going to eat so I had something easy to prepare but not high in points, what was trickier was finding time to eat it! lol. I ended up eating my salmon steak and brown rice while standing in the kitchen in between various last minute packing. The salmon steak was one I had before, the dill flavour again, the rice was different though, it is from Minute Rice and is this cup thing. You take the lid off the cup, stick it in the microwave for 1 minute and presto! Rice! I bought the brown rice (of course) and one cup is 4 points…high but doable. I thought this evening was the perfect time to try it out. It is alright, not great or anything. The rice felt a little undercooked and it was freakin hot! Even though I poured it out of the cup and spread it around to help it cool down it took quite a while before I could actually eat it. Course, trying to rush eating and finishing getting ready didn’t help matters. I might buy it again; it’s a handy thing to have around to use as a side dish when you don’t want to bother with yams.

After getting the suv all packed up off I went with a huge bottle of water to tide me over. I figured since I only had 4 hours in the first leg of the trip I didn’t need any snacks nearby, the water would be enough. It was too! 🙂

Tomorrow though, hmmm, what to do about tomorrow…the routine will be shot to hell! Heck, the routine is gonna be booted so far out the window it will rebound out of hell and end up somewhere in space. eesh. I should be fine with breakfast; there is a handy little restaurant attached to the hotel so I will attempt to get something healthy there but after that…sigh. I always eat when on road trips, one of my favourite parts of being on a road trip was loading up on all different kinds of junk food and munching away while driving at fast speeds and listening to loud music – it’s a perfect combo! Tomorrow will not have the junk food aspect though and I fear that. I bought some 100 Calorie goodies so I can have some chocolate or something if I really need it but those just aren’t the same. sigh.

My plan (cause heaven forbid I not have a plan!) is to eat the veggies and fruit I packed and when I want lunch I brought a nice big salad that…oh crap! I was gonna say I brought a tupperware bowl to put the salad in to (it is one of those salad kits so everything is in a bag) and I just realized I left the bowl on my counter at home…now what am I supposed to do with the salad?? Eat it from the bag?? Maybe the restaurant will let me have a take out container…

Well, ok, the plan if I can get a container is when I get hungry pull over at one of the many beautiful spots along the way and sit outside by a lake or little waterfall and enjoy my salad. I am not going to wolf it down, I will eat it like a normal person…as if I was at home and had time to indulge. That way I will realize I am full and I will enjoy the process…I am hoping the enjoying of eating will help me get over the fact that I won’t be getting back in the car and chowing down on Starburst. lol.

I do have an indulgence planned though and man is it a big one! I am going to Peter’s Drive In when I hit Calgary and getting a milkshake! They only have like the absolute best milkshakes ever created and I am gonna get one! Yum! 😀 The thought of that milkshake has gotten me through some rough points these past couple weeks. When someone at work was eating something completely unhealthy but that I really wanted I kept reminding myself that I have a Peter’s milkshake in my future and it made it that much easier to resist the temptation of the moment. My mouth is going to be in heaven! That milkshake however, is one of the main reasons I will be eating salad and veggies and fruit while driving instead of starburt, malteesers and chips. I can’t get any nutritional information on them! There is nothing on the website and when I emailed them asking for the nutritional information I heard nothing back, rude. 😦 I figure it means they are just that bad, lol. I don’t care though, I am getting one no matter what! 😀

Here is what I ate today:

1 whole wheat bagel = 3 points

1 tbsp light cream cheese = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 6″ Subway sub = 5 points

cheese on sub = 1 point

salmon steak = 3 points

Minute Rice cup = 4 points

2 Triangles Light Laughing Cow cheese = 1 point

1 cup pineapple = 1 point

That puts me at 20 points and I am still a little bit hungry; I will either eat 1 cup of fruit and only use up 1 more point or I will eat 1 of the 100 calorie packages and use 2 points. Neither option will have me actually use all my points but I am tired and want to sleep and while hungry I am not that hungry!

Quick side note, I didn’t have a chance to post yesterday so here is what I ate July 21/10:

3/4 cup honey nut cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 cup honey garlic noodles = 3 points

salad = 0 points

1 cup butternut squash soup = 2 points

1 cup blackberries = 1 point

1 cup blue berries = 1 point

1 medium iced capp from Tim Horton’s = 3 points

1 timbit =1 point

1 peanut butter and jam sandwich = 5 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 point

I used all 23 of my points yesterday. Yah! 😀

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Sun Shopping and Sand (part 1)

20 Jul

Ah, what a weekend! I haven’t posted since Friday because of how busy I have been and oh man how my eating habits suffered! Oops.

Let’s go back to the beginning shall we?

Saturday!

Outlet shopping with KL; we went to Tulalip, WA which if the border isn’t crazy is about 3 hours or so away from us…however, everyone and their dog was crossing at the same time as us so we sat, and sat, and sat in the roasting sun while slowly inching forward. We eventually got to cross (did you know you can cross the Canada/US border with an expired passport?!) and were on our way. Being on our way involved almost hitting a deer (I was quite traumatized by this) otherwise it was a nice drive. That mall is like the mecca of all outlet malls, lol. KL had never been there before and fell in loooooove with it, we hope to go back to do Christmas shopping. 😀

Now, while malls may be great for shopping we all know that finding something healthy to eat in them is quite the challenge, and if you do find something good for you managing to order the healthy food and  not head for the  line up for the Chinese food is hard cause it smells oh so yummy. lol. I prepped for this and took fruit and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich with me. I bought a salad from Subway (worst Subway experience to date, btw) and ate that with my sandwich and fruit. Something else I tried was eating a large protein filled breakfast, I thought it might give me energy and keep me full longer. I think it would have worked better if we didn’t get stuck at the border for sooooo long but oh well, I tried. 🙂

Now, something bad that happened was I didn’t use all my points cause I was s’posed to go out after we got back home so I was saving some points for that but we got back so late I was exhausted and the plans fell through and no way was I eating at almost midnight when all I wanted to do was snooze.  I ended up using 18 points – it could have been worse I suppose. I was crazy dehydrated which I haven’t been in quite a while…the body did not like that!

Here’s how the convo went with the Subway lady:

Me: I’d like the Veggie Lovers Salad

Her: What kind of bread do you want?

Me: No, I want the salad.

Her: The what?

Me: (I point to the salad section of the menu) I want the salad.

Her: Salad? Oh…(looks confused then finally gets a bowl for the salad) You want chicken?

Me: No, I want the veggie delight salad.

Her: (puts bowl away) What kind of bread do you want?

This went on for some time, oy! Lol.

On Saturday I ate:

1 scrambled egg = 2 points

½ cup baked beans = 2 points

2 pieces toast = 2 points

2 triangles of Laughing Cow cheese = 1 point

1 nectarine = 1 point

1 slush = 2 points

1 Peanut butter and jam sandwich = 5 points

1 cup grapes = 1 point

½ chocolate chip cookie = 2 points

1 veggie delight salad = 0 points

So I used 18 points for the day. I should have eaten way more fruit, or at least drank way more water cause man was I dehydrated after all the time in the sun. I am happy with my ability to detour around the Chinese food and get the salad; my food may not have tasted as good but least my salad wasn’t making me any fatter! hehe

K, this ended up long, I will write Sunday in a seperate post!

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Mirrors are Eeeevil!

15 Jul

Sometimes I feel like I live my life moving from one mirror to another. I get up and immediatly look at myself in the bathroom mirror…it’s never a pretty sight. lol. Bed head, rumpled pjs, squinty eyes…and of course the disturbing size that is me. I spend a decent amount of time every morning looking at myself from all angles and critiquing…bigger? smaller? any toning happening? Turn to the side, suck in, push out…how much weight do I need to lose until I can look good when sucking in? How is my arm flab? Hmm…could be better. I finally push it to the back of my mind and get on with my getting ready routine. Once I am dressed for work a shorter less odd version of this happens. lol. Get in front of the mirror, turn to the side, how’s my ass? anything too tight? anything snagging on something it shouldn’t snag on? how do I look when I suck in? With that charming wonderfulness done I get on with my day. 🙂

I get in the car and at some point check myself out in the rearview mirror – I can delude myself some mornings and say I am only looking cause my eye has a twitch and I think something may be in it but really, I need to have one last check at my makeup and hair. 😛 Once at work I am mirror free for a while…until I have to go to the washroom, then I have to confront The Mirror From Hell. It is evil I swear! I may have a morning at home where I think I look alright, not so bad, decent even…I get to work, take one look in that mirror and all those thoughts are shredded, that mirror makes me look short, frumpy, overly round in all the wrong places, my clothes don’t fit right when I look in that mirror…it’s all bad! I don’t get it. I don’t like it, and it always makes me feel badly about myself…yes my self esteem is very much wrapped up in how I look, deal with it. lol.

There is  one mirror that I like, it is at Aveda on Robson St., they only show you from torso up so no having to see my tummy or ass when shopping, phew, lol, but you get a good clear look at your face…since they are trying to sell you face and hair stuff makes sense you can see yourself. I was there yesterday and couldn’t stop looking at myself in the mirror, my face looked…brace for it…thin…thin! Can you believe it?! I moved my hair around, tried out different angles, no matter what I did my face look awesome. Almost pretty. It left me with a happy little glow the whole rest of the evening because I kept thinking “when people look at me, they see that thin face I saw in the mirror”. This glow lasted until I went to the washroom after the movie, saw myself in that mirror and I just looked like my normal self…for a while tho it was great. 🙂

I know we shouldn’t base all our self-worth on how we look; and despite what I just wrote I actually don’t, I can manage to push away my thoughts about how I look and function just fine but a mirror can have a huge impact on how I feel about myself. It’s not like you can avoid mirrors, sure in your own place you could but once out in public there are so many ways to see your reflection. I check myself out on the Skytrain in the windows to make sure my hair is ok, I look at store window reflections to make sure my clothes look alright and to gauge how I look in my outfit, heck, I use the reflection I can see in the face of my iPod touch to see if my makeup is still smudge free and I go absolutley nowhere without a little pocket sized mirror…just in case. Was it always like this? Were people always so vain? And is it really vanity? I think of vanity as someone who is obsessed with their looks because they think they look so hot, I am obsessed but because I think I look not good most of the time and want to make sure I haven’t somehow gotten worse looking since that last mirror check. Healthy? No way! Gonna stop anytime soon? Probably not. shrug.

Since losing my 3.6 pounds (in 2 weeks – insert happy dance here!) I sometimes think I look different; I know in actuality I don’t look different, I think it is more my mental perception of how I look. Because I know I have lost weight and am eating healthy and working towards a greater weight loss I am starting to feel better about myself, I have more confidence in how I look and how I move through my little corner of the world because I know that sure I don’t look great now but I am going to look great soon-ish. Gradually, those mirrors will show me something more pleasing, an image I actually want to see but will that really make a difference in how I see myself? Or will I lose weight and still only see the flaws? Still be desperate to change certain things because I think that is all people see when they look at me?

These aren’t questions that can be answered right now; I won’t have answers for them until I have lost more weight and actually do look different. For all I know I will lose 20 pounds, be so happy with how I look at that stage and say “screw it” to continuing trying to lose more weight and just maintain. Or I could lose 45 pounds and still be miserable because I still haven’t learned how to be happy and self-confident in way that is not directly related to how I look. I hope I end up in the middle of those two – lose the 45 pounds and be self-confident and happy with how I look. I am a perfectionist though and can totally see myself as that person who lost a bunch of weight, got all toned and still only sees what needs to be tweaked. But alas, I won’t know for a while so I think I should stop worrying about it…I also think I need to look in Aveda mirrors more and the one at work less! 😀

Today I ate:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special k = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 cup baked beans = 2 points

1 piece of toast = 1 point

1 cup blueberries =1 point

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 cup mashed yams = 3 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

1 Salmon Steak herb and garlic = 3 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

2 Maple Cookies = 4 points

That puts me at 22 points, I know, I know, my total is s’posed to be 23 and this is what, day three of not reaching my total? eek. It is almost 10pm tho and I don’t want to eat anymore. I meant to have fruit with my cookies n milk to use up that last point and got so caught up in typing this I didn’t go get it, oops. You’d think I’d know better by now! lol.

My lunch was smaller then I intended; I forgot my Laughing Cow cheese at home this morning so all I took was the beans and fruit. It wasn’t so bad, I got peckish in the afternoon but ate the grapes and was alright and I made dinner right when I got home so that prevented any starved sensations. lol. The dinner was really yummy, this is a different flavour of salmon steak from last time and I think I like this one better. 🙂 This salmon was also from M&M Meat Shops; so cheap, yummy and quick to cook! There are a lot more flavours to try so I will keep you posted; I will definitly tell you if any of them are gross! 🙂

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Leaping for…Milk?

9 Jul

I got so excited after I had dinner and realized I had enough points left to have a glass of milk I actually leaped up from my seat and hustled my way over to the fridge all while doing a little happy jig. I must have looked so silly but who cares; I got a glass of milk! 😀  This may seem like a stupid thing to be excited about but I had a pasta dish for dinner and it totally made me want milk and I didn’t think I’d be able to but since my lunch was so low in points I had enough left over for milk. That’s two days in a row I got to have a glass! Ok, I will stop being so happy about it now…well, on here anyways…:P

There wasn’t any huge food tease today, no cakes or cookies…not even a cupcake, well…there were cupcakes left over from yesterday but they were far away from me and stale so they definitly weren’t tempting! I almost had a fruit crisis though, oh the horrors! I took 2 nectarines with me but they were not good so there was a serious concern I would starve by the end of day cause I didn’t have my afternoon snack. Luckily my lunch kept me filled long enough to get me home but I think I need to stock my desk with something that doesn’t go bad but is low in points in case of emergency. lol.

So far today I have eaten:

3/4 cup Honey Nut Cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 bagel = 4 points

1 bowl Weight Watchers Veggie Soup = 0 points

2 triangles Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1 apple = 1 point

1 cup Sidekicks Tomato Alfredo = 8 points

Mixed Veggies = 0 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

I have eaten 21 points today; only 2 points left! I haven’t figured out what I am going to snack on to use up the last 2 points but I will find something…I always do! 🙂

The weather is sitting around 30 degrees celcius today, which is awesome! The office is freezing cause of the air conditioning, sigh, so during the day I have no problem eating but when I get home the apartment is warm and a bit stuffy so it makes me not want to eat. I remember having this problem when I still lived with my parents; their house would get hot at the beginning of summer and stay that way the whole season – even the cats didn’t want to eat! I think this is a fairly common thing; I can’t be the only person who doesn’t want to eat when it is hot, right? I had to remind myself that just cause I am toasty and not feeling hungry that is my body tricking me and I still have to eat!

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Spots?!?!

7 Jul

Alright, I will be the first to admit my skin wasn’t great looking when I was growing up. It was fine till stupid puberty and then it went, well, not-so-fine. lol. I would have never been picked for a noxema commercial or any other clear/pretty skin ad but that’s alright cause even though I didn’t appreciate it at the time I think having to contend with spotty skin helped me learn some valuable lessons about people and how they treat you based on what you look like at the time.  So see? Something good came from it. 🙂

So here I am, at the ripe old age of…well, older and way past puberty age and what is happening? I have stupid spots again! Spots, zits, acne…whatever you want to call them…I have them!!! W.T.F.! I am not impressed. Grr!

Just last week I was thinking how my skin is looking nice and fresh and wondering if it was all the water I am drinking (and healthier food I am eating) that was the reason why. Maybe it was but it seems to have its highs and lows. I am most definitly in a low…

From what I learned today from two reliable sources; when you start drinking a lot more water and eating healthier your body starts to do it’s own flush. See? You don’t have to go buy one of those Cleansing Kits – just drink lots of water! lol. So, as you drink all this water your body starts to kick out of it’s system all the impurities and crap that have been building up inside you. Yummy huh? Why you can’t just pee it all out I don’t know but one of the ways it starts to come out of you is through your pores and apparently as it sneaks outta your pores it clogs them up and wham! Spots! It seems like some kind of cruel joke that in the act of getting healthier I am now getting uglier. sigh. I can only hope they clear up on their own and I don’t need to resort to more drastic measures! In case you’re wondering the drastic actions would be going back on Accutane, sigh, strong side effects but totally worth it, imo, I’d do it again in a blink if I needed to but I would not enjoy it. 😛

So, here is what my spotty face ate today:

3/4 cup Almost Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 cup Heinz Maple Baked Beans = 4 points

1 piece of toast = 1 point

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Cheese Light = 1 point

1 wafer Desiree = 1 point

1 cup blackberries = 1 point

Grilled cheese sandwich

– 2 pieces of bread = 2 points

– 1 tbsp light miracle whip = 1 point

– 2 Kraft cheese slices = 2 points

125 ml Campbell’s Tomato Soup = 2 points

1 package Jolly Time popcorn Butter Flavour = 1 point

This puts me at 21 points used. I will eat a little snack to use up my last two points, never fear! No point is left behind! lol

Oh, fyi, my 1 point weight watchers candy I had last night to use up my last point was a Pecan Crown, it is basically a Turtle. It was yum! A bit chewy for my taste but I am sure it will be well enjoyed by all…including me cause I still have a bunch. lol

Now, if you’ll excuse me I have to go drink another couple glasses of water to increase the speed in which my body kicks out all it’s ickiness and exfoliate…my poor skin. sigh. 😛

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Just Another Sunday…

5 Jul

Nothing hugely fun or exciting happened today; ah Sunday, the most boring day out there. lol. I tended to my tatt (the care of this thing is gonna drive me nuts!), ran some errands and basically just hung out. shrug. If you can’t be lazy and a slob on a day nothing is expected of you when else can you do it? teehee 🙂

Since I slept in so late (around noonish!!) I had a conundrum – how to eat my points without eating some huge meal that will make me feel icky? This is something that happens to me every day I don’t work; I sleep in and my whole eating plan is screwy. However, this day I figured it out! Hooya!

I still have food in my cupboards that are so high in points I have been not eating them; they just sit there taking up space. Soooo, for dinner I had Ichiban (12 frickin points per package!!!) because why not? I had the points to spare. It worked out perfectly, I used all my points (well, ok, I was 0.5 point under but that’s ok) and don’t feel over stuffed or disgusting. Yah me!

Here is what I had today:

1/2 mango = 1 point

1.5 nectarines = 1.5 points

1 peach = 1 point

2 triangles Laughing Cow Cheese Light = 1 point

1 package Ichiban = 12 points

1 peanut butter and jam sandwich

2 pieces of bread = 2 points

1 tbls Light Peanut Butter = 2 points

1 tbls Raspberry Jam = 1 point

1 Weight Watcher candy (Peanut Butter Crunch) = 1 point

Total points used today is 22.5 points. Back on track! I think yesterday was an anomaly, if I hadn’t gone to that night market I would have eaten my points and that would have been that. It’s just a matter of being careful where I go and how I act when I am there. I knew to watch out for some scenarios – like when I went to the movies and ate a snack before hand so I wouldn’t buy candy, shrug, I just didn’t think how the night market might be a temptation. To be honest, I thought the night market was going to be more like a farmer’s market so I was expecting booths with fruit, veggies and random items (I went in the hopes of finding a case for my blackberry, sadly they had none I liked). I think as long as I am careful in the future and anticipate better I will be just fine. 🙂

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