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Oh the horrors of dieting while on vacation!

3 Aug

Alrighty, well, I have really screwed up, sigh. It’s like I just gave up completely at some point because the food options were getting worse and worse and I just couldn’t seem to control anything! I don’t mean I couldn’t control if I put the food in my mouth or not, I mean I couldn’t control where I was going to be eating and when…which lead to a lot of “oh dear” moments. lol. The absolute most horrible-est part is…I stopped carrying around my notebook I keep track of all my food in!!! I am not even sure where it is, gasp, gulp, ack!

I will dig the notebook out and start keeping track again but I am quite upset with myself that I went so far off course; not gonna meet my goals if I fall so harshly off the wagon just cause vacation pops up! grr to me. 😦

Let’s work backwards from today since I think that will be easier, and well, today wasn’t so bad actually. lol.

Tuesday Aug 3rd

1 breakfast wrap

    – 1 wrap = 2 points

    – 1 scrambled egg = 2 points

    – 1 tbsp spinach cream cheese = 1 point

    – uber small bit of marble cheese = 0.5 point

2 egg salad sandwiches = 5 points

    – I can’t say for sure what was in them (quantities anyways) cause my mom made them but she also does weight watchers and she said she calculated them at 5 points for both so let’s just believe her shall we?

carrots and green peas = 0 points

1 med iced capp from Tim Horton’s (milk not cream) = 3 points

5 timbits (I know! I know!) = 5 points

1 orange = 1 point

1 weight watchers snack = 2 points

That is a total of 21.5 points for the day; it is going to stay at that total cause it’s late and I am sitting in my hotel room thinking about going to sleep. Oh yeah, so I am on my way back home after my vacation…I forgot to mention that. lol.

Yesterday, what did I eat yesterday? Oh god! I remember! K, brace yourself…I had McDonald’s. Go ahead, you can holler “you did what?!?!” at me…I will hang my head in shame while you vent. sigh. I started off not too badly, I got a Booster Juice (tried a new flavour and was not so impressed, ah well, that’s what happens when you try something new) but then I was out with J and J and one of the J’s is preggers and was craving McDonald’s so we ended up going through the drive in and I caved. double sigh. I got a Quarter Pounder with Cheese, fries and coke. I ate the burger and fries and OMG it was so freakin good! but only sipped at the pop, I haven’t had anything to drink except water and tea (and while on vacation booster juice) and I didn’t want to stop that. I guess I should think of that as a nice little victory. lol. I wasn’t going to eat dinner since I ate McD’s but my mom had this tofu and brown rice bowl, I think the brand name was Amy’s? It was fairly good. I am going to look for it at the grocery store when I get home; it was only 5 points and a really good meal size. 🙂

The two days before that, Saturday and Sunday, were spent at two different outdoor festivals, Heritage Days and Capital Ex (formerly Klondike Days). Heritage Days is the best! It’s 3 days of food from all different countries. Yum! There are booths set up all over a huge park, you buy tickets and then the different dishes are worth different amounts of tickets. The food at each booth is s’posed to be authentic food from that country. It works great each year. 😀 Capital Ex was better when it was Klondike Days but oh well, things change I guess. shrug. It is tradition for me to eat a foot long corn dog at Capital Ex and I didn’t break tradition this year. lol. I knew I had already eaten an uncountable amount of points while at Heritage Days that day but whatever! I only get one corn dog a year and I wasn’t going to miss out! I also ended up eating about 10 mini donuts and a crepe with nutella and strawberries in it. By that point I was missing fruit and veggies so much the strawberries were my fave part! lol

When looking at the big picture I seem to have had a low point over the weekend, I am getting better (at least today was better) and the farther back I go the less worse I was. lol.

July 30th I had booster juice again, that time I had the drink and a panini (bbq chicken! yum!) and I helped H move. I figured all the moving burned enough calories that I didn’t have to feel guily about eating dinner out with M. lol. We ate at a restaurant near her work that was good – I wish I could remember the name, I think it’s High Level Diner but the name doesn’t match the restaurant…Anyways, I had shredded lettuce with refried beans, a corn tortilla, lots veggies on top (mostly tomatoe), some shredded cheese, sour cream, guacamole, um…there might have been more but that’s all I remember. lol. It was good, I wouldn’t get it again but not cause it wasn’t tasty. 😛

July 29th I went to Drumheller with my oldest nephew R cause he’s totally in to dinosaurs and wanted to go. He knows a sucker when he meets one and he is well aware that all he has to do is ask and I will probably say yes to what he wants. lol. Not a good practice but hey, I only see him twice a year! We did a 1km hike through the badlands during the high heat of summer…talk about burning calories! lol. I started off with my normal breakfast, weetabix and fruit, but at the museum had a bacon cheeseburger and some fries, during the drive I also ate 2 cups of grapes. It was an odd combo of healthy and not healthy. shrug. I think I also had a guiness that evening but I am really not sure anymore…the farther back the days the harder it is to remember…oh the suckiness of being old! teehee

And there we go, all caught up! Phew! I will be on the road for part of tomorrow but should be home in time to do some grocery shopping for Healthy food and back on track I will get! 😀

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Attempting…and failing…

27 Jul

Holy crap! It has been days since I have been able to get online, I feel like I am going through withdrawl. eeek! I am staying at my parents place and they have internet but they don’t know their password so I can’t get my laptop online and while I may know a lot about computers my knowledge stops at hacking…I may remedy that! lol. So it is late at night and I am finally able to get on to their computer, phew!

I am not going to cover all the food I have eaten since I have been offline because nobody wants to read that many food lists, lol, but I will give you the ups and down. 🙂

The second day of the roadtrip almost started out with such promise. 😛 I went to the restaurant attached to the hotel I stayed at and ordered the one healthy breakfast item they had, can you believe that?? One item!! It was eggs with fruit salad on the side…I think there was toast too. Not the greatest meal but ya gotta work with what ya got. lol. The waitress comes back to my table after I place my order and informs me (very nicely) that they have no fruit…no fruit?!?! The supplier didn’t bring them any…so no fruit. huh. That’s a new one, and wtf am I s’posed to do now? I took a quick look through the menu again while the waitress hovered over my shoulder making me feel very pressured and picked such an amazingly unhealthy dish I surprised even myself. 😛 It was eggs benedict but without the ham, instead it was an english muffin topped with sliced tomato, bacon, poached egg and of course the hollondaise sauce. Yum!! I haven’t had something that rich for breakfast in longer then I can remember. It also came with hash browns (home made diced hash browns) and I ate some but was too full to have more then a couple bites of them. I really savoured every bite of that breakfast, it tasted sooooooo good. again…Yum! lol

Most of the rest of that day I was really good; I ate my veggies I had packed for a snack and somehow wasn’t hungry for anything larger so I didn’t bother with my salad. I did however stop at Peter’s Drive In for my milkshake and onion rings, I can’t believe what happened ! It was horrible! Not the milkshake or rings-they were perfect, but my stomach, sigh, I only drank about half (at most) of the shake (oreo flavour btw) and had about 7 of the rings and was full to the point of feeling sick…I wasn’t even out of friggin cow town yet before I had to stop! (yes I was eating and driving at the same time, it’s AB, they let you do that! lol) I was actually mad at myself, here I had been waiting for this milkshake and I couldn’t even enjoy the entire thing? Know what I ended up doing for the last 3 hours of the road trip? Drinking…water! Water! Horrendous! I left the milkshake alone and drank water…what’s the world coming to? ugh.

The only plus side to not being able to drink the whole shake or eat the rings is that I saved points which is good considering my breakfast. *rolls eyes*

My next day started off not too badly, I had Weetabix for breakfast topped with some fruit…back on track right? And when I needed a snack later I ate fruit, so good choice again…and then I went out for dinner with a friend. I tried deluding myself the salad I was ordering was healthy but let’s get real, it so wasn’t! I ordered the Top Sirloin Steak Salad with Goat Cheese (the description is: seared medium-rare top sirloin steak, mixed greens, roma tomatoes and quebec goat cheese, tossed in a spicy tomato vinaigrette with a hint of tomato clam cocktail and served with banana bread) It was really tasty! I didn’t eat the banana bread (it wasn’t very good, dry, shrug) but I ate almost every bite of the salad. Mouth heaven. There was very little goat cheese and about 6 thin slices of steak, I should have got the dressing on the side but totally forgot so I think the dressing took away from the healthiness of the greens and veggies in the greens. sigh.

If you can believe it the next day was even worse! How they keep escalating I am not sure but they do. lol. I went to a friend’s kid’s birthday party; it was a bbq and to be honest I thought we’d just be eating veggies, chips, snack type items but nope, full out bbq. I had a hot dog (I can’t believe how long it’s been since I ate one of those!), some homemade potato salad and some homemade beans (they had pork n beans, bacon, brown sugar, ketchup and onions in it – put it all in a crock pot and let it do it’s thing). The beans were really excellent. 🙂 The entire time was great but I kept thinking wow, this is so not healthy…oh and then there was the big slab of cake we all had, oy! Then, just to make the day even better I had a family dinner (which admittedly wasn’t as unhealthy), there was brocolli pie with cheese on top, baby potatoes, salad, veggies, a tiny bit of roast chicken and strawberries for dessert. Luckily my mom is also on weight watchers so she made a healthy dinner. 🙂 Go mom go! lol

Today I decided I have to get back on track, I can practically feel myself getting fatter, ugh, and my tummy is not happy with such a drastic shift from healthy stuff to not so healthy stuff, it’s been having some pain and general discomfort today, not fun!

I started the day with, you guessed it! Weetabix. lol. It’s the healthiest cereal here, and some fruit then when I was out I hit up Extreme Pita, I love this place. 😀 I got the Maple Dijon Chicken (it has grilled chicken, blend of greens, red grapes, grape tomatoes and maple dijon dressing all in a pita) I got the small and it was only 4 points, it tasted like it should have been way more points it was that good. 😀 I also just had to hit up this sushi place in the mall that does this roll called the Alberta roll, it has beef in the middle which is very un-sushi like but it’s so good and only at this one place. I got two as a treat. I then felt so bad cause I felt like I had eaten a ton that I didn’t eat again until quite late when I drank a can of Guinness (only 4 points!) and some chips my uncle brought us from England when he came to visit, my mom portioned them out so they were another 4 points but I had the points to spare. I ended up under my points today and don’t feel bad about it in the least considering the last 3 days. lol

I would like to say I am going to eat healthier from now on but tomorrow I am eating dinner at Red Lobster (my fave place!) and the day after I have dinner plans at the Cheesecake Cafe, and the coming weekend is going to be food hell but that I will explain in a different post since this one is becoming a novel. lol.

Suffice to say I fell of the wagon and hard the beginning of this trip…hopefully I can find a way to salvage my diet cause I sure don’t want to gain my weight back. It took a lot of work and weeks to lose the weight so far, how much would it suck to gain it all back on one vacation?

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Work Luau? Aw crap…

21 Jul

Aloha

Sooooooo, work today, oh dear. The building I work in had a tenant appreciation day so they had a Hawaiian themed lunch party. I wasn’t going to go because I didn’t know what kind of food would be there but I had the absolute most boring salad in the planet for lunch and thought maybe I’d find some chicken or something that I could put on my salad. Ha! That so wasn’t gonna happen…well, it mostly didn’t happen. lol.

The main dish was pulled pork on a bun with your choice of bbq sauce or a honey something or other sauce. They had a vegetarian version which was a nasty boring looking veggie patties on the same buns with a cucumber dressing. Both were served with coleslaw and there was drinks and ice cream. I got the veggie pattie on the bun with some of the cucumber dressing, a tiny bit of the coleslaw and I couldn’t resist – I got a small bit of the pork with some bbq sauce on the pork on the side. Oh man, that pork and sauce was sooooooo good! I had a bite of the coleslaw cause I wanted to see what is was like – that makes it sound like I haven’t had coleslaw before, lol, it had cranberries in it and looked yummy so I thought a bite couldn’t hurt. I crumbled the veggie pattie and put it on my salad which meant I didn’t top the salad with the croutons or dressing I packed to go with it. Least when I added something I also took two somethings away, that’s good compromise right? Well, maybe not good but ok…:P

I was weak and ate half the bun, sigh, I know I shouldn’t have but I love bread – it is one of my biggest weaknesses and I totally caved. blarg! Aaaaand, to make matter worse, I had…an ice cream cone…I know! I know! I am hanging my head in shame still! I shouldn’t have done it, I don’t know why I did it, I wasn’t craving it, yeah it looked good but I have resisted other things that look good but for some reason I got it. It was like a pod person had control over my body…I went to the tent with the ice cream with my friends, stood in line, got my cone and ate it all without really thinking about it – I just went with the flow, wtf??? I think that is how I ate before, I just took food and didn’t think about the consequences. Not good! I may not have thought about the consequences when I ate that ice cream but I sure suffered for it later. 😛 After the lunch I felt fine, not full but not hungry – that weird feeling I am getting used to associating with having eaten enough but not too much; once I ate the ice cream my stomach bumped me up to the feeling of slightly icky, too full and a bit sick. sigh. I don’t normally have that reaction to ice cream so it’s not like an allergy or anything, it was my stomach letting me know I was an idiot and should have thought the eating of that cone through a little more. lol. Another consequence of that ice cream was it left me with a whopping 3.5 points for dinner! Can you believe that?? Luckily (I can’t believe I think this is lucky!) I was still feeling icky when I got home from work so I didn’t want anything to eat until later in the evening and even then I didn’t want a lot so I had some soup and popcorn.

I seem to be slowly falling off the wagon lately, first my screw ups on the weekend now this, I don’t understand what happened…I had been doing so well! I was strict with myself but didn’t feel deprived and I know me, if I am not strict I won’t follow through…I don’t think I have changed my thinking on anything lately – I still want to lose the weight, I still have all the same goals but something must be going on cause I am losing my follow through to reach my goals. sigh. Maybe it’s cause of the failed weigh in on the weekend and knowing that this saturdays weigh in will probably be wonky too cause I will have just finished my road trip and I am worried I will cheat while driving. That’s not completely accurate, I know I am going to be cheating because I am planning to stop at this amazingly great drive in on my way through Calgary called Peter’s Drive In http://www.petersdrivein.com/ they have the most amazing milk shakes on the planet and I only get one a year if I am lucky so I told myself  ‘screw the points, for one day you can have something absolutely horrible because of the kind of exception it is’ but now I am worrying about it…it’s gonna be a lot of points, how am I going to work this? Do I just not eat the rest of the day? I don’t think that will work…do I only eat veggies the rest of the day since they have no points? Do I eat normal and healthy and have the shake on top of that? I don’t know what to do!!! What’s the best course of action for this problem? None of the healthy eating books I am reading cover this dilemma, sigh. I guess I shouldn’t worry about it now, the problem won’t pop up until friday but still, sigh…

Here is my food from yesterday (since I forgot to post yesterday, oops!)

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 nectarine = 1 point

1 salad from Salad Loop

    – chick peas = 1 point

    – sunflower seeds = 1 point

    – 1 hard boiled egg = 2 points

    – veggies = 0 points

    – light ranch = 1 point

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Light cheese = 1 point

1 grilled cheese sandwich = 4 points

1/2 cup Sidekicks Honey Garlic Noodles = 3 points

1 cup strawberries = 1 point

1 cup blueberries = 1 point

1 oreo cakester = 2 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

That is my 23 points for the day. 🙂 Least I got yesterday right! The Sidekick noodles were ok, not the best flavour but lower in points then the flavours I usually eat so that’s ok. The salad was absolutely delicious! Way expensive, sigh, I really like Salad Loop – it’s a good change from Subway but it can cost a lot if you’re not careful. I may buy sunflower seeds, they were a nice addition to the salad.

And my food for today…brace for it!

1 bagel = 4 points

1 teaspoon of margarine = 1 point

1/2 hamburger bun = 2 points

1 veggie burger pattie = 2 points

small amount of pulled pork = 1.5 points

bbq sauce = 1 point

1 cup strawberries = 1 point

2 triangles Light Laughing Cow cheese = 1 point

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

1 ice cream cone = 1 point

1 small scoop mango ice cream = 3 points

1 cup butternut squash soup = 2 points

1 package Jolly Time Kettle Corn = 1 point

That is 23 points, I am glad I was able to find a low point dinner so I didn’t go over. I had almost resigned myself to going over my points because I couldn’t not eat something for dinner then I realized the soup would be good and low in points so yah!

I have to do better though! Tomorrow is back to being strict! strict! strict! I watched Jillian Michael’s new show, the one where she lives with a family for a week to help them get healthier…I love her, she’s so awesome! Scary but awesome. lol. I want to meet her and have her help me get in shape and yet I am scared of her and wouldn’t want her yelling in my face. Her whole approach is break you down physically so you break emotionally and find the reason why you let yourself get big…I am not big (heh!) on digging that deep in to my psyche, I may never get back out again! 😛 Watching her do that to others though is quite entertaining and gives me ideas and tips, also, it helps firm up my resolve a little. I know I will never look like her but I can try to get to her level of determination and get my ass in shape! If she can make other tubs-o-lard get in shape then I can damn well get myself there! I hope…

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Mirrors are Eeeevil!

15 Jul

Sometimes I feel like I live my life moving from one mirror to another. I get up and immediatly look at myself in the bathroom mirror…it’s never a pretty sight. lol. Bed head, rumpled pjs, squinty eyes…and of course the disturbing size that is me. I spend a decent amount of time every morning looking at myself from all angles and critiquing…bigger? smaller? any toning happening? Turn to the side, suck in, push out…how much weight do I need to lose until I can look good when sucking in? How is my arm flab? Hmm…could be better. I finally push it to the back of my mind and get on with my getting ready routine. Once I am dressed for work a shorter less odd version of this happens. lol. Get in front of the mirror, turn to the side, how’s my ass? anything too tight? anything snagging on something it shouldn’t snag on? how do I look when I suck in? With that charming wonderfulness done I get on with my day. 🙂

I get in the car and at some point check myself out in the rearview mirror – I can delude myself some mornings and say I am only looking cause my eye has a twitch and I think something may be in it but really, I need to have one last check at my makeup and hair. 😛 Once at work I am mirror free for a while…until I have to go to the washroom, then I have to confront The Mirror From Hell. It is evil I swear! I may have a morning at home where I think I look alright, not so bad, decent even…I get to work, take one look in that mirror and all those thoughts are shredded, that mirror makes me look short, frumpy, overly round in all the wrong places, my clothes don’t fit right when I look in that mirror…it’s all bad! I don’t get it. I don’t like it, and it always makes me feel badly about myself…yes my self esteem is very much wrapped up in how I look, deal with it. lol.

There is  one mirror that I like, it is at Aveda on Robson St., they only show you from torso up so no having to see my tummy or ass when shopping, phew, lol, but you get a good clear look at your face…since they are trying to sell you face and hair stuff makes sense you can see yourself. I was there yesterday and couldn’t stop looking at myself in the mirror, my face looked…brace for it…thin…thin! Can you believe it?! I moved my hair around, tried out different angles, no matter what I did my face look awesome. Almost pretty. It left me with a happy little glow the whole rest of the evening because I kept thinking “when people look at me, they see that thin face I saw in the mirror”. This glow lasted until I went to the washroom after the movie, saw myself in that mirror and I just looked like my normal self…for a while tho it was great. 🙂

I know we shouldn’t base all our self-worth on how we look; and despite what I just wrote I actually don’t, I can manage to push away my thoughts about how I look and function just fine but a mirror can have a huge impact on how I feel about myself. It’s not like you can avoid mirrors, sure in your own place you could but once out in public there are so many ways to see your reflection. I check myself out on the Skytrain in the windows to make sure my hair is ok, I look at store window reflections to make sure my clothes look alright and to gauge how I look in my outfit, heck, I use the reflection I can see in the face of my iPod touch to see if my makeup is still smudge free and I go absolutley nowhere without a little pocket sized mirror…just in case. Was it always like this? Were people always so vain? And is it really vanity? I think of vanity as someone who is obsessed with their looks because they think they look so hot, I am obsessed but because I think I look not good most of the time and want to make sure I haven’t somehow gotten worse looking since that last mirror check. Healthy? No way! Gonna stop anytime soon? Probably not. shrug.

Since losing my 3.6 pounds (in 2 weeks – insert happy dance here!) I sometimes think I look different; I know in actuality I don’t look different, I think it is more my mental perception of how I look. Because I know I have lost weight and am eating healthy and working towards a greater weight loss I am starting to feel better about myself, I have more confidence in how I look and how I move through my little corner of the world because I know that sure I don’t look great now but I am going to look great soon-ish. Gradually, those mirrors will show me something more pleasing, an image I actually want to see but will that really make a difference in how I see myself? Or will I lose weight and still only see the flaws? Still be desperate to change certain things because I think that is all people see when they look at me?

These aren’t questions that can be answered right now; I won’t have answers for them until I have lost more weight and actually do look different. For all I know I will lose 20 pounds, be so happy with how I look at that stage and say “screw it” to continuing trying to lose more weight and just maintain. Or I could lose 45 pounds and still be miserable because I still haven’t learned how to be happy and self-confident in way that is not directly related to how I look. I hope I end up in the middle of those two – lose the 45 pounds and be self-confident and happy with how I look. I am a perfectionist though and can totally see myself as that person who lost a bunch of weight, got all toned and still only sees what needs to be tweaked. But alas, I won’t know for a while so I think I should stop worrying about it…I also think I need to look in Aveda mirrors more and the one at work less! 😀

Today I ate:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special k = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 cup baked beans = 2 points

1 piece of toast = 1 point

1 cup blueberries =1 point

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 cup mashed yams = 3 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

1 Salmon Steak herb and garlic = 3 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

2 Maple Cookies = 4 points

That puts me at 22 points, I know, I know, my total is s’posed to be 23 and this is what, day three of not reaching my total? eek. It is almost 10pm tho and I don’t want to eat anymore. I meant to have fruit with my cookies n milk to use up that last point and got so caught up in typing this I didn’t go get it, oops. You’d think I’d know better by now! lol.

My lunch was smaller then I intended; I forgot my Laughing Cow cheese at home this morning so all I took was the beans and fruit. It wasn’t so bad, I got peckish in the afternoon but ate the grapes and was alright and I made dinner right when I got home so that prevented any starved sensations. lol. The dinner was really yummy, this is a different flavour of salmon steak from last time and I think I like this one better. 🙂 This salmon was also from M&M Meat Shops; so cheap, yummy and quick to cook! There are a lot more flavours to try so I will keep you posted; I will definitly tell you if any of them are gross! 🙂

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I feel like I ate cat food…

13 Jul

Alrighty, I thought I would give tuna a try. I haven’t eaten tuna for more years then I can recall…scary that! I used to like tuna sandwiches but somewhere along the way the texture and taste become disgusting to me so they got scrapped from my food options. It seems though that everywhere I turn lately I am hearing about the health benefits of tuna; it’s got a decent amount of protein, is low in calories and fat…how can I change my food habits if I don’t try to incorporate new things into my food choices?

The tuna I ate tonight was Flaked Light Skipjack Tuna; the flavour was Tomato and Basil. Yes, that’s right, tuna isn’t just tuna anymore…it comes in flavours! I thought picking a flavour would make it easier for me. lol. The entire can of tuna is only 1 point! When I read that I really hoped I was gonna like it. 🙂 I drained it, mixed it with 1/2 tbls Light Miracle Whip, put it on bread with some pickles and mustard and there we go, tuna sandwich. I tasted a little bit out of the bowl and was not impressed but decided that after topping it with the pickles and mustard it’d probably taste better. I was wrong. The texture was disturbing, manageable but disturbing but oh dear god the flavour!! Who in the world came up with this?!? Ugh. Gack. Ick.

I ate the sandwich, I mean what was I gonna do waste it? But never again! I kept smacking my mouth after I was done the sandwich because the flavour just wouldn’t go away and the smell, well, I swear to you I fed my cats something that smelled just like that! Oh wait a minute…I used to feed my cats tuna…so yeah, it did smell like that because it was that! (minus the tomato and basil of course). It’s a little sad I didn’t like the tuna, it would have been great to use as a topping for my salads and to have in the occaisional sandwich but it’s just not gonna happen.

the only creature that should eat tuna!

Moving on from the tuna, yesterday I did not post because absolutely nothing of interest happened. Quite the boring day sunday was. Here is what I ate:

1 hard boiled egg = 2 points

1 spinach salad = 4 points

1/2  cup + 1/8 cup Sidekicks Tomato Alfredo = 6 points

5 baby potatoes = 1 point

1 package Jolly Time popcorn = 1 point

1 cup pineapple = 1 point

1 peanut butter and jam sandwich

    – 2 piece bread = 2 points

    – 1 tblsp  peanut butter = 2 points

    – 1 tblsp jam = 1 point

1 Thinsations package Peanut Butter = 2 points

1 cup grapes = 1 point

I used all 23 of my daily points. 🙂 One thing I did that surprised me was in the evening when I was finding something to eat for that last point, I automatically went for one of my weight watchers 1 point candies but I remembered the fruit so I had the grapes instead. I actually chose fruit over chocolate! Weird…but good!

So, for today, today was a crap day. I didn’t feel well and I got bad news right at the beginning of the day. All I wanted to do was come home and crawl back in to bed but since that wasn’t an option I stayed at work, ugh. I can’t think of the last time I was so grateful for the work day to be over. Only because I have such good work friends did I take a lunch break at all. I haven’t used all my points for the day and I know I am not going to. I know, I know, big rule of Weight Watchers…Always Eat All Your Points! Well tough, it’s just not happening today, I can’t do it. 😛

Here is what I did eat tho:

3/4 cup Almond Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Asian Supreme salad = 4 points

    – sesame orange dressing, sweet dried cherries, won ton strips, whole pea pods, carrots, iceberg and romaine

    – I added to the salad some mixed veggies

1 cup blueberries = 1 point

     – I didn’t eat quite the entire cup but I ate enough that I am going to count the point lol

1 cat food…er, I mean tuna sandwich

    – bread = 2 points

    – 1 can tuna = 1 point

    – 1/2 tbls Light Miracle Whip = 0 points

    – 7 sweet pickles = 1 points

    – mustard = 0 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

1 cup grapes = 1 point

2 cups kettle corn = 3 points

This puts me at 19 points for the day and that is where I am staying; starvation mode be damned.

The salad is another one of the Fresh Express salads…I am not exactly sure what makes it Asian, the dressing maybe, the pea pods? I know! The won ton chips! lol. Some stupid white person probably came up with the salad ingredients and said “let’s call it Asian, other white people will feel like they have eaten something ethnic when they buy it!” lol (I am not racist against white people I am white, I just think it’s funny this salad is called Asian Supreme when it’s not an Asian salad – at least according to my Asian friends, shrug) The best part about it was the won ton strips, they were gooood! Actually, so were the cherries, I was surprised, I am not fond of dried fruit but they were pretty good. 🙂

I drank a lot of water today; that is becoming easier and easier. Despite the not eating all my points I think I did well with getting my food groups in. I had protein, veggies, fruit, grains, dairy…um, what else is there? I think I will have to research the food groups for next time! 🙂

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Spots?!?!

7 Jul

Alright, I will be the first to admit my skin wasn’t great looking when I was growing up. It was fine till stupid puberty and then it went, well, not-so-fine. lol. I would have never been picked for a noxema commercial or any other clear/pretty skin ad but that’s alright cause even though I didn’t appreciate it at the time I think having to contend with spotty skin helped me learn some valuable lessons about people and how they treat you based on what you look like at the time.  So see? Something good came from it. 🙂

So here I am, at the ripe old age of…well, older and way past puberty age and what is happening? I have stupid spots again! Spots, zits, acne…whatever you want to call them…I have them!!! W.T.F.! I am not impressed. Grr!

Just last week I was thinking how my skin is looking nice and fresh and wondering if it was all the water I am drinking (and healthier food I am eating) that was the reason why. Maybe it was but it seems to have its highs and lows. I am most definitly in a low…

From what I learned today from two reliable sources; when you start drinking a lot more water and eating healthier your body starts to do it’s own flush. See? You don’t have to go buy one of those Cleansing Kits – just drink lots of water! lol. So, as you drink all this water your body starts to kick out of it’s system all the impurities and crap that have been building up inside you. Yummy huh? Why you can’t just pee it all out I don’t know but one of the ways it starts to come out of you is through your pores and apparently as it sneaks outta your pores it clogs them up and wham! Spots! It seems like some kind of cruel joke that in the act of getting healthier I am now getting uglier. sigh. I can only hope they clear up on their own and I don’t need to resort to more drastic measures! In case you’re wondering the drastic actions would be going back on Accutane, sigh, strong side effects but totally worth it, imo, I’d do it again in a blink if I needed to but I would not enjoy it. 😛

So, here is what my spotty face ate today:

3/4 cup Almost Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 cup Heinz Maple Baked Beans = 4 points

1 piece of toast = 1 point

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Cheese Light = 1 point

1 wafer Desiree = 1 point

1 cup blackberries = 1 point

Grilled cheese sandwich

– 2 pieces of bread = 2 points

– 1 tbsp light miracle whip = 1 point

– 2 Kraft cheese slices = 2 points

125 ml Campbell’s Tomato Soup = 2 points

1 package Jolly Time popcorn Butter Flavour = 1 point

This puts me at 21 points used. I will eat a little snack to use up my last two points, never fear! No point is left behind! lol

Oh, fyi, my 1 point weight watchers candy I had last night to use up my last point was a Pecan Crown, it is basically a Turtle. It was yum! A bit chewy for my taste but I am sure it will be well enjoyed by all…including me cause I still have a bunch. lol

Now, if you’ll excuse me I have to go drink another couple glasses of water to increase the speed in which my body kicks out all it’s ickiness and exfoliate…my poor skin. sigh. 😛

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Blackberries, Tattoos and Weight Loss

3 Jul

So it has been a busy couple days; yesterday I went shopping and came away with a Blackberry Bold and today after work I went shopping and came away with an inner wrist tattoo…ah the things we do to ourselves. When did we stop spending all our money on shoes? lol. The reason I am telling you this is because to look at my posts I am obsessed with Weight Watchers, you’d think my life revolved around it…sadly, it kinda does.

I was out tonight with a friend, KL, and we wanted to grab a bite to eat before going to a movie. KL wanted to hit up this nice looking sushi place and I had to go to Subway…that’s right, I said had. I pre-calculated my points so I knew what I would be tallying up if I ate the already chosen sub whereas if I went for sushi I’d be guessing and I know I would have eaten over my points. sigh. I sat with KL while she ate and it looked and smelled sooooo good but not one little bite went past my lips. While I am marginally happy about my apparently increasing willpower when it comes to food I am sad that I couldn’t partake in the sushi feast.

You are supposed to be able to eat anything you want on Weight Watchers but that’s a bit of  a lie, I couldn’t have eaten what I wanted at that sushi restaurant not without using a ridiculous amount of flex points. I  have gradually been cutting out of my life foods that don’t fall in to the points realm, Almond Roca (3 pieces = 6 points) – in my opinion not worth it so I have cut them out. I will miss them but I’d rather be skinny then eat Almond Roca. But sushi??? I have given up so many foods already and it looks like the list is just going to keep getting longer.

So now it is almost midnight, I am freakin tired and am I sleeping? Nope I am doing laundry and worrying about tomorrow because tomorrow is….dun dun dun…Weigh In Day *insert scary music here* Will I lose weight? Will I gain weight? Will I stay the same? Will the pants fit any differently, and if so a good or a bad different? I want to know but I am scared to find out; what if I have been doing all this work (and it is work!) and nothing has come of it? I know I have to be patient, I keep trying to remind myself of that, maybe this first week weigh in I won’t lose anything, maybe it will take longer to get results but I am a result oriented person and I need to see results to keep me motivated. Will I be able to keep going if the scale doesn’t show I have lost weight? I guess there is nothing to do about it until tomorrow when I weigh myself and see what my reaction is to whatever that damn digital screen tells me.

So here’s my food for the day:

1 bagel = 3 points

1 tbsp light cream cheese = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Shrimp and Scallop Pasta Bowl from M&M Meath Shops = 6 points

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1/2 small Blenz Fruitchillo with yogurt = 4 points

6″ Subway Turkey sub on 9 grain whole wheat = 6 points

extra stuff on sub (cheese, light may, mustard) = 4 points

1 package popcorn = 1 point

That puts me at a total of…28

Aw shit, how’d that happen? Admittedly some of the points are estimated so maybe I didn’t do as badly as I calculated but maybe I did worse? And the day before weigh in day! Argh! The sub is 6 points, that’s taking the nutritional info from the Subway site but their info doesn’t include the light mayo, mustard and cheese I got put on so I had to guestimate how many extra points that is. And the Blenz drink, well, the Blenz website is not as helpful as I would like for nutritional info, sigh. All their calculations are based on the medium sized drink…I had a small and only drank half of that! I have no idea how many points that is so I took the 9 points the medium drink is and pared it back a bit. shrug. It’s the best I can do.

I also broke a cardinal rule, oh dear, never ever eat anything salty the last couple days before weigh in day cause you’ll retain water…and what did I do? I ate popcorn while sitting here typing, dammit! I needed a snack though and it seemed perfect, wasn’t till I was eating it I realized the mistake I was making. *rolls eyes* Maybe today I was trying to sabotage myself so that if I fail tomorrow on the scale I have built in excuses (oh, I probably did lose weight but I am retaining water from the popcorn so the scale doesn’t reflect it) Someone needs to smack me tomorrow if I write something like that down…that sounds like a joke but I mean it! I have a horrible habit of self sabotaging myself and to that I say No More!!!

Now, I am off to tend to the tattoo, hopefully the next time I type I will be a couple pounds lighter! 🙂

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