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I’m Baaaaaack! Finally!

18 Nov

Holy crap, never have I been so internet deprived – I thought I was gonna cry some evenings I was so at a loss without my modem. Why oh why did the modem have to die?!?! Torture! Complete and total torture! But I survived, the torture is over and I am happily sitting on my couch writing up a blog post while wearing sweats and drinking a cup of tea…oh, my tv is on too and I am doing laundry. See? This is why I need internet at home, not only am I blogging I am doing lots of other stuff – ah the life of multi taskers, what’s a little scary (when you think about it and generally I try not to think about it) is I consider this a relaxing evening but I am doing at minimum 4 things while thinking about all the other things I also have to do…*rolls eyes*…do people ever actually just sit and do nothing? Or sit and do one thing? Like say…just watch tv? Or just read a book? Who knows! Doesn’t really matter cause this blog is not about the lack of relaxing time we have nowadays, it is about weight loss and my progress…sooooooo – let’s recap the past week an a bit! 😀

I discovered French Toast – did I write about that last time? I dunno…and no, I don’t mean I didn’t know what french toast was I just didn’t realize I could fit it in to my eating plan, it’s something I can only eat on the weekends cause (1) it takes too much effort and (2) yes I can fit it in points wise but not on a normal work day cause for the toast and toppings it’s like 10 points – totally yummy and worth the points tho! 😀

I found this yummy Creole Dijon sauce – it’s meant for chicken but I so far I have used it on a hamburger, with chicken, in home made fajitas, on brown rice, in a grilled cheese sandwich…on all kinds of things. 1 tablespoon is 1 point and so far 1 tblsp has been plenty for everything I have put it on. It’s a bit spicy but not too much, really, it’s kinda perfect. 🙂

Last weekend I made vegetarian chili – the recipe is from Yves http://www.yvesveggie.com/ 

same texture as ground beef - but no dealing with the dead cow, lol.

It uses a Meatless Ground Round (picture to the right) that is quite good. I won’t say it is tasty cause it takes on the taste of whatver spices you cook with so it doesn’t have it’s own taste it steals the taste of what’s around it. The thief! lol. I will repeat what I have said in the past, no, I am not a vegetarian, I just don’t like cooking with meat cause I don’t like handling raw meat so I use this…sometimes. I never would have tried it but when I was living with RA I learned about vegetarian eating – I actually researched vegetarian dishes before we moved in together so I’d have suggestions we could both eat. Aren’t I just so nice? lol.

So, the chili, the best thing about chili is you can do whatever the hell you want with it. Don’t feel like cutting up a fresh carrot? Don’t put it in! Have some frozen veggies? Throw em in! You get the idea. 🙂 I looooove corn in stews an stuff so I put corn in mine, with some mixed frozen veg, I also put in an onion and some canned diced tomatoes. For me it’s the perfect combo of veggies. 😛 I think the only thing I don’t really like about the recipe is that it uses tomato paste to thicken it up…I don’t use tomato paste for any other recipe, ever, so whenever I make the chili I have to buy the tomato paste and then I try to figure out what to do with the rest of it, I inevitably fail in thinking of something and throw it out, sigh. It’s not like the paste is expensive but still, it’s a waste.
The chili has been my lunch everyday this week, it makes six servings, and is 5 points per serving. So, kinda high but it’s so filling you don’t need to pair it with a lot of other things. My first day eating it I paired it with an english muffin, my bad, I used a lot of points for that meal! Smaller dinner to compensate of course, lol.
Last weekend my weigh in day rocked! I lost over a pound 😀 😀 and that brought me to a total weight loss of…get ready for it…18 pounds! wOOt! Isn’t that crazeee? It seems like such a high number, it’s a little mind boggling. I keep looking at myself in mirrors and trying to see the difference in what I look like. I can see it and yet, sometimes I can’t, odd huh? Today I could totally see it with the way my shirt fit, my waist is tucking in a bit more at the sides, probably not all that impressive to others but because I know what it looked like before it pleases me a lot – everytime I went to the bathroom at work I ended up checking myself out in the mirrors, lol. Who knew it was possible for me to become even more vain? 😛
Monday – I had Zumba class and it was way fun but I hurt my back, I am not sure what I did but by Tuesday morning the pain was so bad I couldn’t go to work…mostly cause I could barely move. ugh. I spent the day providing support to my back and keeping heat on it. The heat seemed to help but what I didn’t realize was it was too high and I ended burning my back, great huh? So Wednesday at work I hurt cause of the back pain and I hurt cause of the burn…it was a wonderous day, really. *rolls eyes* I had a nanny job after work so it was a loooong day. I ended up taking the kids swimming so I was sitting in a pool area for a bit over an hour, pool areas are always kept nice n warm and the indirect heat from the room seemed to really help, weird huh?
Thursday (today) – my back wasn’t so bad at the beginning of the day but by the afternoon it was really hurting. Sitting for so long at my desk seems to make it worse so every now and then I’d get up and walk around, it didn’t help a lot but it helped a little. shrug. I’ll take what I can get. lol.
I really wish I hadn’t had to take Tuesday off cause I already booked off this Friday so that’ll be two days this week I don’t get paid, shit. 😦 The reason I took the day off? HARRY POTTER!!! Oh yah baby, I am a HP fan! 😀 😛 My friend KL and I wanted to go to a midnight viewing tonight but couldn’t get tickets, this will be the first time since they started the midnight showings I won’t see a HP movie at 12:01…sadness. I had the Friday booked off cause I knew I’d be useless at work after watching the midnight movie and since KL and I both already had the Friday off we decided to go to a day time showing of the movie on the Friday. So tomorrow at 11:15am I will be sitting in a theatre with KL watching HP – awesome! 😀
Oh, back to the weight loss, my weight has gone down low enough so I am now at 21 points per day. 😀 Seems great right? And it kinda is but this week has been pretty bad points wise, sigh, I keep thinking if I was still at 22 points per day I wouldn’t be using so many flex points, lol, but hey, being at 21 points rocks cause it means I am down another weight category. *happy dance*
So there we go, that caught you up to where I am now. Tomorrow will be a bit of a oops fest points wise cause there is the breakfast planned before HP then that night I am out at a bar with KL and others partying up for her bday, I won’t be drinking a lot cause (1) calories and (2) I take the skytrain back to where I leave my car when I am on my way home so I can’t be drunk or I won’t be able to drive the last leg of my trip home, sigh. I may put off weighing in until Sunday…I’ll see how I feel when I finally get up on Saturday. teehee.

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Looooooong Weekend!

8 Oct

Long weekends have got to be one of the best things ever! I think the only thing better is when you are still in school and get summer vacation and have all those glorious months off. sigh. I guess it’s a little sad to get so excited about having an extra day off…and really, I picked up a nannying shift for saturday evening so I still only get two days off but whatever – I am looking forward to sleeping in for 3 days in a row! lol.

For all of you not living in Canada it is Thanksgiving. Gobble Gobble, happy turkey day an all that. lol. Thanksgiving isn’t really all that big a deal in my family, I mean what is it really? A holiday celebrating the fact that the Native Americans were nice enough to help the settlers learn about the local food? That’d be great if the settlers hadn’t turned around and then attempted to wipe the Native American’s off the planet. *rolls eyes* Seems like a farce to me. And there is my rant about that, lol.  

In my family the thanksgiving long weekend means one thing: Pizza! Yup, that’s right, pizza! 😀 My dad would always go to visit his mom (she lived in a diff province) and my mom and us kids would order in pizza. This may sound boring but we didn’t eat pizza a lot so it was quite the treat. I wasn’t going to do anything different this weekend, well except for sleeping in on monday lol, but then I decided screw it, why shouldn’t I get to eat some kind of treat this weekend? Everybody else will be.

So on Sunday I am getting a pizza! Yup, a real pizza – not one I make (which are yummy but just not the same), not a frozen one from the store but a real, fresh, bad for me pizza. lol. I already know what I am getting, it is from Panago and it’s the Beef Taco Pizza, holy frog on a stick it is goooood! The best pizza out there! I have been looking forward to this pizza for a week now, the waiting has been hard but worth it. It’ll make the pizza that much better I think. 😀

For today I ate:

29 grams honey nut cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1/2 cup diced peaches = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

1/2 cup Maple Baked Beans = 2 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1/2 cup mashed yam = 1.5 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

1 Fiesta salad = 6 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

1tsp margarine = 1 point

1 coffee crisp single = 2 points

Puts me at a grand total of 23.5 points for the day. sigh. I did it again! I don’t know what is wrong with me lately, argh. I forgot I had the piece of toast right before I ate my salad so when I was writing my dinner down to see if I had any points left I thought I had more then I really did and now I have gone over, double sigh. I hate doing that!

Oh, hmm, ok, I guess I will stop the rant I was about to start, I just took a moment to do the math and see how many flex points I used this week, it was 6 so I am ok. lol. I felt like I had used a lot more because I don’t regulate them I just use a couple here and there as I so choose. Proof right there peeps about how if you don’t keep track of what you are eating you can get a warped idea of how good or bad your food amounts and choices are. It’s so true, least for me. shrug. I would have days where I felt like I ate a lot and when I really thought about what I ate that day it’d turn out I ate hardly anything and vice versa. It’s odd isn’t it? I wonder why people (especially me) do that…

Tomorrow is weigh in day, oh, and new measurement day cause I kinda messed it up last week. lol. I wonder if going for that hike thursday will have any noticeable affect on the scale tomorrow…I know I shouldn’t expect anything since I only exercised twice and one of those times doesn’t really count, lol, but hey, a girl can hope!

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Epic Salad Fail

29 Sep

I was lazy last night and paid the consequences today, sigh. I got caught up in tv and laziness last night and didn’t make adequate food for today at work, not good! I thought it would be alright but when I was getting my lunch and snacks out of the fridge this morning I was all “ah crap, where’s all the food??” I am used to having breakfast, snack, lunch and then if I feel like it another snack – all at work – that’s a lot of food, and generally a lot of tupperware containers! lol.

I had my breakfast with me, it’s only cereal and fruit after all, but for lunch I had a sandwich (tuna), my laughing cow cheese and a yogurt…what’s with that? It just didn’t seem like enough. shrug. I guess I got used to taking small amounts of lots of things (like cottage cheese, yams, side salad and soup) so the amount of food didn’t look like very much. In reality it was enough and geez, complaining about “only” having a sandwich, yogurt and two triangles of cheese makes me sound like a pig. Oink! Oink! I bought a Mediteranean Salad to go with my sandwich, it was mixed greens, black olives, baby tomato and feta and it was disgusting! Oh so disgusting! Hence the Epic Salad Fail. It was the mixed greens that made it gross, weird huh? I don’t know what was up with them but they were nasty. ugh.

To compensate for my no salad at lunch I ate some raw mixed veggies in the afternoon for a snack; least I still got my veggies for the day…well, some of them. lol.

Also today I got a treat…a cookie by George! Mmm Mmm Mmm those cookies are like ecstasy, pure bliss in my mouth. I decided since I am trying to eat some of my flex points now and on normal days I have trouble doing that I might as well use some of my flex points to fit in one of those cookies. I grabbed a chocolate chip (the only one I have been able to calculate the points for so far) and wrapped it up to bring home. I didn’t want to scarf it down and barely notice how good it tastes and that’s what would happen if Iate it at work. This way, I sat all comfy cozy on my couch and ate that cookie nice an slow so I savoured every bite. Yum!

Mindless eating is something I have been working on stopping. We all know we aren’t s’posed to eat in our cars, or in front of the tv or when reading and I usually did all of those on a regular basis. lol.  So now I don’t eat in my car or when reading, I do still eat in front of the tv tho. 😛 I do my best to eat at a moderate speed and think about every bite. I am not always able to manage it but I try. Sometimes, like yesterday at dinner time, I am so hungry I can’t help myself, I eat really fast…I regretted that yesterday cause I still felt hungry even though I knew I wasn’t. sigh. I know to wait about 20 mins after eating to see if I am really hungry or if my stomach just hasn’t gotten the message to my brain yet that I am full but man, yesterday was hard.

Today I ate:

29 grams Honey Nut Cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup skim milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 apple = 1 point

1 tuna sandwich = 4 points

1 Activia Yogurt = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

raw mixed veggies = 0 points

1 Fiesta Salad = 6 points

1 pckg Jolly Time Popcorn = 1 point

1 chocolate chip cookie = 5 points

Total points eaten today = 25. So that’s my 22 daily points and 3 flex points. I still feel uncomfie using my flex points but I decided to look at it this way – today is a ‘hungry day’ I have wanted to stuff my face all day, if I wasn’t on weight watchers I would have eaten way more then 25 points worth of food and not even realized so sure, I ate 3 flex points but it could be a lot worse! lol.

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Sometimes I just don’t know…

26 Sep

Do you ever have trouble knowing why you want to eat? That sounds weird but I am sure some of you out there know what I am talking about. I was out for pretty much all of today (well, all of the day that I was awake for, lol), while out I enjoyed a very yummy late lunch that used up almost all my points (totally worth it!) but when I got home and was finally sitting and chillin I wanted a snack and a cup of tea. That doesn’t seem so bad, right? I mean sure I had already used my points for the day but I could use some flex points if I wanted…but did I want to? And if I did want to why did I want to? I couldn’t be hungry, could I? After eating such a large late lunch…

So the wondering began, I went back and forth for about an hour on if I wanted a snack because I was hungry or for some other reason…and if I wasn’t hungry why was I wanting a snack? hmmm…lots of options for the answer to that question.

I think part of the answer is habit, usually when I come home it’s meal time so it’s almost ingrained in me that when I come home I get to eat. Is that normal? Who knows. lol. But today when I got home it was not a meal time, it was late evening, I was still full from lunch, shrug, theoretically I should have been fine with not eating the rest of the day. And yet I wanted to snack on something with my evening cup of tea.

I finally decided to use 2 points on a snack and am now a little over-full, sigh, guess I wasn’t all that hungry after all. Oops. lol.

I have been getting bugged by KB to get a measuring tape and use that as well as the scale to keep track of my weight loss. She said maybe some of the weeks I didn’t see a change on the scale I might have built muscle instead (ha!) so measuring might be more accurate. It’s worth a try. From what I have seen on weight loss shows you shouldn’t measure yourself weekly the way you weigh yourself cause the changes will be small on a weekly basis and could make you discouraged sooooooo I will measure myself on a monthly basis, let me be more specific, once every four weeks…that’s not quite monthly. I am gonna do some research to find the best parts to measure…I mean obviously there is the waist, hips and bust but I think I will also measure my thighs and arms (biceps) so I can keep track of every change. Obsessive? Maybe. lol.

I’m going to measure myself for the first time next saturday – correlate it with when I weigh myself – hopefully I don’t manage to lose the measuring tape before then! lol. Oh, and fyi, if you wanna buy one mine was only $2 at wal-mart. 🙂

Today I ate:

1 Activia yogurt = 2 points

Brown’s Social House

1 veggie burger = 16 points

1 side salad = 4 points

1 Quaker Granola Crunch’ers = 2 points

That is a total of 24 points. Sure, if I had resisted the Quaker snack I would be right on target with my points but I don’t feel bad about using the 2 flex points, those little Quaker crunch things are yummy and a nice little evening snack. 🙂 Oh, another fyi, you can buy them at wal-mart for…you guessed it! $2! Gotta love wal-mart…mind you, I hate wal-mart too but meh, love/hate relationships are some of the best kinds. lol.  And that is totally a topic for another post! 😛

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Double Tap

24 Sep

teehee, double tap has absolutely nothing to do with my post I just really wanted to type it. It’s from the movie Zombieland which I just finished watching and enjoyed. It was funny; not crazy funny, not laugh out loud funny, but funny.Ya know?

I am about to re-watch  The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, seen that? I saw it in theatre and was floored by how amazingly great it was. I don’t understand why LA feels the need to remake the movie in english, what? Is all of north america so fricken lazy that they can’t read sub-titles?? This has become a pet peeve of mine, recently, as recent as oh, say, this past summer when I saw the movie in theatre. lol. I never really thought about it before but man, this movie rocks and should be allowed to stand on its own but for some reason they are gonna re-make it and since no other country has as much money to put in to a movie as the states it’s gonna get over shadowed, it’s just wrong. Luckily they have already finished filming the third in the trilogy so hopefully I will get to see the third in theatre before it gets shelfed in north america for the english speaking version.

And boy, that’s a lot of rambling about something that has nothing to do with my weight loss path…or does it? teehee. It is connected in that I love movies, could spend my entire day immersed in them and this I am sure has affected how I see the world, how I see people…how I see myself. I have crappy self esteem and a completely negative personal body image. I hate seeing myself in a mirror, in pictures…anywhere. I prefer going through my day not seeing what I look like – then I can imagine I look the way I feel I should look, the way my inner self looks. I think we all have inner selves but maybe you don’t, maybe it’s just me and I am a little bit weirder then I realized. lol. Don’t you have an image you think you project to the world in your head and every now and then you see yourself in a mirror and realize you are way off base? That the self-confident able to handle anything look you think you have actually looks like an overweight frumpy boring person?

Now, deep deep down I know I don’t look like a self-confident able to handle anything person, but I like to think I do and when I can’t see what I look like I can imagine I do…make sense? It’s all about tricking myself and I gotta say, I have gotten fairly good at it over the years. 😛 I am not one of those people who blames my body image issues on media, I don’t think it is the fault of movies or tv or magazines or books…sure most of the women I see and read are thin and beautiful in their own way but hey, I am working on the thin part and then, well, I won’t be beautiful but I will be quirky looking, thin and quirky…that’s a perfectly acceptable look, especially in the entertainment industry which I am hoping to break in to soon. Ya gotta work with what ya got, and ya gotta be honest about it…which means I have to be honest with  myself with what I will be cast as and a 5’8″ red haired blue eyed lady isn’t easy to cast, durn my red hair. sigh. I s’pose I could say “why wasn’t I born blonde?” but if I had my choice of any hair colour it’d be jet black and that’d be just as hard to cast as the red so ah well, I shall work with what I have. 😀 hmmm, all that sounds like a whiny babble and I s’pose it is but it doesn’t bother me all that much, not really. Sometimes I think about it, usually when it’s the day before weigh in day and I am inwardly freaking out about having to step on that stupid scale, but most days I can push it aside. 🙂 

I should stop looking at myself in the mirror in the bathroom, lol, sounds stupid I know but twice a day everyday I do a body scan, I turn, look at myself at different angles, try to see where the fat is coming off, and when I look in the evening I am poofier then in the mornings cause it’s end of day and this means I get all “it’s not working, I swear I am just as big as when I started…” blah blah blah. Seriously mirrors are bad bad things…maybe if the world got rid of mirrors none of us would have body image issues cause we would never really know what we look like…or maybe I should just not look in one right before I post cause man this did turn in to a ramble…oops…

Here’s what I ate today:

29 grams Honey Nut Cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup skim milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

mixed raw veggies = 0 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 Lean Cuisine Honey Mustard Chicken = 5 points

1 english muffin = 3 points

1 battered frozen fish fillet = 4 points

1/2 cup mashed yam = 1.5 points

cooked mixed veg = 0 points

3 tbls Veggie Caviar = 1 point

20 Breton Minis = 2 points

This is a total of 22.5 points which would be perfect except that I am really hungry…hmm, don’t know what happened there. I should be fine, I ate spaced out meals like I am s’posed to but here it is 10:30pm and I feel like I could eat a meal…sigh. I know I have flex points and I am gonna hafta use some I just can’t figure out what to eat…I still have it set in my head to never ever use them so trying to figure out what to use them on is hard…what is really worth my flex points? The bigger question is how many of them do I want to use? Seriously, feel like I could eat a meal here but I don’t want to use that many this late in the day…must find a snack! Off to the kitchen I go…I’ll type ya after weigh in tomorrow…man, I shouldn’t think of that, now I want chocolate. lol. 😛

EDIT:

so for my snack I had 1/2 cup cottage cheese and an apple, that put me at 25.5 points for the day which is not so bad considering. 🙂

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A Perfect 10!

19 Sep

I was scared to step on the scale today – so scared I put it off by an hour. I finally decided to just suck it up, step on the stupid thing and get that part of my day over and done with. All I hoped for was to be the same as last week cause as much as that would suck at least I wouldn’t have gained anymore…I just don’t think I could have dealt with gaining again. Lo and behold the number went down! wOOt! 😀

When I did the math it turns out I have lost exactly ten pounds! Yah! I finally got to the ten pounds lost mark! It only took me how frickin long? Well, ok, that isn’t the point and I will try not to dwell, lol.

Now I have a new fear, what if I screw this up and next week I gain again…there is no margin here, no safety net, I am at exactly ten pounds lost so all it takes is one screw up to lose that accomplishment and be back to having lost under ten pounds and that would suck the big one!

Because it’s the weekend and I slept in I got to eat higher pointed foods cause I had to use my points up in less time then normal, I always love and hate that. lol. It means I get to eat something I normally wouldn’t be able to – like pizza – but it also means that I snack on junk and struggle to eat balanced food groups. Stupid food groups. I think chocolate and ice cream should be food groups! 😛

My other fear is about how many points to eat. This past week I used some flex points and ate I think almost all of my exercise points – that is a lot of food and I struggled with it. I struggled with eating over my points because I was so used to thinking I was only allowed 22 points – the extra food was hard to deal with. Also, now that I know I am eating some flex points I found it harder to resist tempting foods, sounds wacky huh? When I was strict and only ate my 22 points of food everyday I (for the most part) didn’t have too hard a time resisting the bad for me stuff that popped up. If someone brought cupcakes in to work I would look then walk away, no biggy, but now I look and wonder…that wondering is gonna be a problem. Too may foods have opened up to me as potentials and really, all they will turn out to be is potential screw ups, potential pounds on my ass, potential eating binges…nothing good in that kind of potential and now I am surrounded by it. sigh.

I guess I have to learn how to be flexibly strict, lol, I don’t think that is even a real term…but it is now cause I have used it!

Today I ate:

1 piece of Delissio pizza = 5 points

1 banana = 2 points

2 Hershey’s Oh Henry cookies = 3 points

1 bag Fiesta Salad = 6.5 points

2 pieces of bread = 2 points

1 tbls Nutella = 2 points

1 apple = 1 point

1 thinsations Oreo cakesters = 2 points

Puts me at a total of 22.5 points used today. I am still a bit hungry but not gonna eat anything cause it’s late and the only food I can find is higher in points then what I am willing to eat. See? That’s another problem…now that I eat some of my flex points I am all “who cares I am at my points for the day, I feel peckish, eat something”…it’s like an evil voice in my head taunting me with the one thing I really want more of (food) but can’t have.  Grr to the evil voice!

For now though that evil voice can go drown if a vat of McDonald’s cooking oil cause I lost ten whole pounds and the voice can’t take that away from me!

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Oh. So. Tired…yawn

15 Sep

Alrighty, so I had this great post idea for today but I have been exhausted since I woke up and don’t want to write a long post…I just wanna go to bed, lol, so instead of my great idea I am gonna post an itty bitty post and then go crash. Aaaah, just the idea of sleep makes me grin. 😛 Sleeeeeeeeeeeep!

I posted ages ago about sleep and how it is uber important to get your full nights sleep every night cause if you don’t then your body holds on to its weight…since I learned that I have sorta tried to make sure I always get my sleep but some days I am just so freakin tired that I must not be getting enough. shrug. I am not sure if to compensate for not getting all my sleep I should not be eating as much, ya know, counter-act the body holding on to the weight? I have a feeling that is not the way to go, it would probably compound the entire hold on to the weight thing. sigh.

Have you noticed when you are tired you want to eat more and what you do want to eat is carbs? Ah, carbs, most things that contain carbs are my fave foods…numero uno is bread, sigh. But anyways, when tired your body craves instant energy creating foods so high sugar, high carbs, stuff like that…that is a big fat Danger Zone! Stay away! If you are tired but can’t go sleep eat some fruit – you’ll get your sugar but it’s naturally occuring sugar not processed and your body does better things with it. Or eat some protein…really, just eat something healthy. lol. Veggies wouldn’t kill ya. I did the opposite today, I drank a ton of tea and didn’t eat a lot of food until I got home when I had a nice yummy serving of pasta (carbs!) and some veggies. 🙂

I found I had less resistance to tempting foods today and I am not sure if that was because I was tired or because of knowing I am not restricted to 22 points anymore. There was food offered at work, normally I just say no and it’s not a problem but today I ate half a sandwich, a couple bites of salad, some of my food and I brought home a cookie and ate half (gave the other half to the roomie). That is a lot of food that I don’t have control over and so can’t for sure know how many points it is. Eeek! I’m worried I won’t be able to control as strictly what I eat because of knowing I am going to be eating some flex points and on certain days exercise points.

Today I ate:

1 cup Fiber 1 = 3 points

3/4 cup 1% milk = 1.5 points

1 banana = 2 points

1 serving homemade potato salad = 2 points

1/2 sandwich = 3 points

    – grain bread (2), 1 slice turkey (1), tomato and lettuce

85 grams Catelli whole wheat spaghetti = 5 points

1/4 cup Tomato Alfredo sauce = 2 points

1 corn on the cob = 1 point

1 tsp margarine = 1 point

1/2 cookie = 3 points

That puts me at a total of 23.5 points eaten. Ok, so not a lot of flex points eaten but since I am guesstimating on the points for the sandwich and cookie who knows, maybe I ate more! lol. I had a spoonful of a rice salad and some spinach from a different salad that was topped with 1 walnut (yes, you read that right, I only ate 1), 2 little crumbles of feta cheese (yup, counted that too!) and less then 1 tsp of a vinagarette dressing. I ate such small amounts of those three things that at most combined they would be worth 1 point, shrug, because of the uber small portions I didn’t add them in to my food list cause it seemed a tad ridiculous. But if I want to count them that would put me at 24.5 points so there goes one more flex point, sigh.

Oh well, I am too tired to care I ate some flex points, I am however wanting more food but I am sure that is cause my body thinks it’s gonna be up for a while and it wants to create energy, silly body. lol. Hopefully going to bed nice n early tonight means I will be all alert and energetic tomorrow cause tomorrow is an exercise day and I don’t wanna be half asleep while wielding a sword. lol.

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Food Paranoia

14 Sep

So I thought I was over (well, kinda over) my having gained on the weekend until a convo at work where I got to hear about someone else and how they have lost 15 pounds in less time then I have been on weight watchers and blah blah blah. Lemme tell ya the Grrrs were sooo back! Then KB pointed out that the chicky that said she lost all that weight seems to be lying cause she always tell a different story. Phew. That made me feel way better. Well that and her clothes still fit all the same and mine are falling off. teehee 🙂

Isn’t it funny how people decide to lose weight and they immediately start lying about it? People are so weird. There are so many different lies! Some of my fave are: (1) I am never hungry, (2) I never cheat, (3) I love the new foods I am eating, (4) it’s so easy, I should have done this sooner! and (5) I have lost X amount of weight – but the amount lost is always rounded up…why round up? I always say how much I have lost to the first decimal point. I am proud of having lost some weight and I don’t feel the need to round up the amount I have lost…shrug…do you? I mean, if I said a couple weeks ago I had lost ten pounds cause I was almost at the ten pound mark then when I really (if  I ever! sigh) lose ten pounds I won’t be able to celebrate with people cause they will think I already hit that milestone…does that make sense? Maybe that’s just me…

Today I worked really hard on eating more then my daily points; I can’t believe I just wrote that! I have spent all this time learning to eat my 22 points a day – I didn’t want to eat over 22! I have been proud of myself for being able to teach myself to eat my daily points limit but today I threw that out the window and ate my exercise points…it’s causing me some stress. I don’t believe this whole ‘eat your exercise points and you’ll lose weight’  mantra- I know the math makes sense (to others) but my thinking towards food is not logical and is ingrained deeply in to my psyche and going against it is really freakin hard. In my head the less I eat the better so eating 22 points a day is hard because lots of days I don’t want to eat that much; I finally got my head around eating the 22 points and now I have to eat more???

I don’t know how I managed it but I ate my exercise points today, sigh, I noticed though that as soon as I was in to my exercise points I wanted to totally binge. My body seemed to think that since I was eating more then 22 points I could just go on an eating frenzy and it wanted everything! Even now, when I am not hungry and should be perfectly satisfied with my food for today I want more…more, more, more, more, more! Oh, and nothing I want is remotely healthy. lol. I almost ate a chocolate candy that I have, it’s 1 point and even though I had eaten all my exercise points I almost grabbed the candy because my mentality switched from “you have 22 points, eat only those and be strong” to “meh, you’re eating over your points anyways, what’s one more measly point?” This is sooooo Not good! The points were rigid in my head as the line to not cross, now they are flexible and can be moved and I don’t like that, as much as I hate rules for my food I need rules, otherwise I will screw this up.

Today I ate:

1 cup Fiber 1 = 3 points

1 1/2 cup 1% milk = 1.5 points

1 banana = 2 points

50 grams artificial crab = 1 point

1 cup Maple Baked Beans = 4 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

2 triangles Light Laughing Cow cheese = 1 point

1 cup blackberries = 1 point

1 kiwi = 1 point

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

1 corn on the cob = 1 point

1 tsp marg for the corn = 1 point

1 hamburger patty = 4 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

1 weight watchers banana nut muffin = 3 points

Exercise points earned = 5 points

Total points eaten 27.5 points – that is 22 daily points, 5 exercise points, 0.5 flex point.

I am embarassed to write that, it seems so wrong to have eaten so much. sigh.  I don’t know if eating my exercise and flex points will get easier or if it will always be this much of a struggle, guess I’ll just have to see how it goes. The one thing I do know is if I don’t have a smaller number on that scale this weekend this whole eating the exercise and flex points thing is going to be under serious threat of ending!

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Bad Tartar Sauce, Bad!

13 Sep

You know you have had a condiment for too long when it expired in 2009…that wouldn’t be so bad except I didn’t read the expiry date so I measured out my tartar sauce, spread it on my fish dinner and oh man was it bad. So so bad! Luckily I tasted a little bit on my finger and realized which made me immediatly start scraping it off my fish, lol, and put ketchup on instead. I think I got enough of it off cause it’s been an hour or so and no sickly tummy yet! I think I will just stick with ketchup from now on, it is way less points and hello? Ketchup, yum! 😀

I decided I had to find something good weight/body/self-image wise from the weekend to help balance out the negativity from yesterday – here is what I got…a friend I hadn’t seen in 6 months or so is in the city visiting and we got together for coffee, I had tea. I was wearing a warm hoodie and jeans, nothing all that special, and we sat around talking for a couple hours. When we were done we walked through the mall together till we got to the door I needed to get to my car, we hugged bye and he started feeling up my upper back (get your minds out of the gutter!), he was all “holy crap, you’ve lost a bunch of weight!” – I just kinda shook it off cause I was all depressed about my weight gain on the scale that morning but looking back I should be grateful. Someone who hasn’t seen me in a while didn’t see a difference in my weight but he did notice when hugging me, and that’s kinda cool. 🙂 He wouldn’t have been able to tell from looking anyways cause of the sweater so I am not ticked he couldn’t visually see a difference. Oh, and he whistled at my butt! lol. That was more of a joke but I will take what I can get right now. lol. See, that’s what happens when you have crappy self-esteem, you take what you can get and aren’t picky about it cause you don’t expect to get anything better then that. lol. 😛

So there we go, I am still pissed about the weight gain but I found a positive for the weekend too – balancing things out, ya know?

I had three comments on my ranting post from yesterday and all of them said eating more points is a good thing and will help me lose weight. sigh. I have trouble eating my 22 points a day so I don’t know how I am s’posed to eat even more food, oh dear. The comment showing the math really helped it all make sense, how I am eating 1100 calories a day and if I exercise and earn 4 exercise points and don’t eat them that means I am actually only eating like 700 calories that day and even I know that isn’t good!  I am not eating over my points today, I just can’t do it! It’s already 9:20pm-ish and I am soooo full but tomorrow I will try really really hard to eat some of my exercise points. I think I will take a bigger lunch…that might help…if I can manage to eat it all that is. lol. I have started to eat Fibre 1 cereal which is one point higher from the other cereals I usually eat so that’s good; I will just have to keep looking for healthy foods I can eat that are a tad higher in points. This seems twisted since I have spent all this time finding low point foods to eat but hey, I’ll see what I can do!

Today I ate:

1 cup Fibre 1 = 3 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Prawn Salad Wrap = 3 points

1/2 cup cottage cheese = 2 points

2 triangles light laughing cow cheese = 1 point

1 cup raspberries = 1 point

1 piece frozen battered fish = 4 points

85 grams yam fries = 3 points

grilled veggies = 0 points

1 thinsations Oreo Cakesters pckg = 2 points

That puts me at 22 points for the day which I used to think was perfect but now I think means I am not eating enough…talk about needing to re-program what I had just finished programming. Oy!

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An Almost Pizza?

2 Sep

Most of today was pretty normal, got up stupid early, went to work, came home, went to the Grand Opening of my friend’s tanning salon, came home, made dinner, did laundry and am now writing a post. See? Normal. 🙂

The Grand Opening was cool, mostly cause I got to see MS again, I haven’t seen her in quite a while. We didn’t get to catch up, she was at work after all, lol, but being that she is her own boss we got to chill a bit. She’s still organizing the old client files that were kept on filing cards (seriously?!) soon they will all be in her computer. Her and her bf did a lot of work in that place before they could consider it presentable. Apparently it was disgustingly dirty – the lady who owned it before never cleaned, eeeew! So her and the bf slaved from 5pm to some ungodly time the next morning to get the place the way they want it and now they are up and running. I hope she does well with it, it seems to be making her happy for now so that’s good. 🙂

Now, on to the almost pizza! I got the idea from my mom sometime last week. I grilled a chicken breast on my george foreman grill, I love that thing!, then topped a whole wheat tortilla wrap with Alfredo Roasted Tomato Sauce (the kind I had on my pasta the other week) a light babybell that I sliced up, some tomato sliced up and then the chicken cut up in to tiny bits. Stuck it all in the oven for, well, I didn’t time it, I waited till all the cheese was melted and the edges of the tortilla looked toasted and voila! Almost pizza! It was actually pretty good. 🙂 Next time I will put more veggies on it, I would have this time but I didn’t have any raw veggies (other then the tomato) and I didn’t feel like digging out some frozen vegg. And yes, I know, I was already in the kitchen it’s not like digging the frozen vegg outta the freezer involved anything other then me turning around and opening the freezer door but that’s not the point! 😛 lol Oh, I also put a Kraft cheese slice on top after I took it outta the oven, ripped it in to pieces and placed it on, the pizza was hot enough it melted the cheese. If I had a bunch of veggies on it I wouldn’t have done that but it was looking a little…well, lacking, ya know? The entire thing was 7 points which is not bad at all. It would have been six except for that cheese slice and since next time I make it I will have more veggies on it I won’t need that cheese slice to make it look less plain.

I found a way to make my pizza and eat it too! 😛

On a slightly distressing note I think I am getting sick. I just felt off all day today and my throat started to hurt, ugh. Whatever the bug is I might be able to beat it, I am eating healthier now! lol. There is a nasty cold/bug thing going around so knowing me I will catch some form of it. Cause I was feeling so worn I was oh so tempted to buy dinner on my home from the grand opening. I was right beside a fish n chip place that is s’posed to be the best in the city (I can’t say for sure if it is since I haven’t eaten there, sigh) and man was I tempted, my feet started walking towards it but somehow I ended up going right on by. I also almost stopped at a Japanese restaurant, thought I might grab some sushi or something but didn’t want to spend the money. In the end I ended up just going home cause I was too tired to bother figuring out somewhere else I could eat. Yet one more indication I may be getting a bug…too tired to be properly tempted by food? Oh the horrors! 😛 I am glad in the end I came home and made the almost pizza, it was lower in points then anything I would have bought, it was interesting and easy to make and it gave me one more dinner dish that I can fit in to my daily eating so all in all, good way to end the day.

So, for today I ate:

2 weetabix = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk  = 1 point

1 1/2 cup strawberries = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 Fiesta Salad = 4 points

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 cup soup = 2 points

1 light babybell = 1 point

1 small slush = 1 point

50 grams chicken = 1 point

1 whole wheat tortilla wrap = 2 points

1 light babybell = 1 point

sliced tomato = 0 points

1/4 cup alfredo roated tomato sauce = 2 points

1 cheese slice = 1 point

1 weight watchers package pretzel twists = 2 points

I went over my points for the day, I ate 24 instead of 22 but I have two reasons for why. (1) I forgot I ate the banana at work so didn’t add it in and thought I had two points left for a snack after dinner, my bad! (2) I didn’t finish my strawberries or my cereal because I started not feeling well so I didn’t actually get all those points. Halfway through the day I decided I would eat a little extra this evening to make up for those lost points, nothing big just a little snack of some kind, and then I totally forgot about that. lol. So when I ate my pretzel twists this evening after dinner it wasn’t to make sure I got all my points, it was cause I thought I still had two more points to eat…doh!

I am ok with having a total of 24 today, mostly cause of not finishing all my breakfast but also I have flex points – I try my hardest not to use them – but they are there in case of a slip up or special treat or whatever so really, this shouldn’t screw me up too much. Tomorrow might but that’s cause I am going out to a bar and I haven’t figured out calories in alcohol yet, lol. But that is a problem for tomorrow!

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