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Not Enough Time

20 Dec

I need more time…for everything! lol

I need more time to get back on track with my eating plan in the hopes I will fit in those jeans. I need more time to get packed for my trip home for Christmas. I need more time to find an outfit to wear to my agency Christmas party. I need more time to emotionally prepare myself for leaving my cat at a boarding place. *sniffle* I don’t wanna leave my cat! 😦

I’m not sure if it would be better to add more hours to the day or just add a day or two in to the weekend…as if I could do either! lol 😛

I had a horrible three days this week when it comes to food. Each day I ate something super high in calories, and what’s even worse is I can’t get specific nutritional information for any of those days so my numbers are guesses, sigh, I hate inaccurate nutritional information, makes me feel like I am cheating lol So now I am freaking out about being able to fit in to the jeans that are hanging on my wall. The goal jeans. The jeans I have been aiming to be able to comfortably wear since last month when I went on this revamped eating plan. Arg!

Packing. Man oh man I suck at packing. Actually, no, that’s not true, I can pack and pack well, you’d be surprised at how much stuff I can fit in to a suitcase! lol I suck at actually getting around to packing…I have this unfortunate habit of trying to pack practically all of my clothes and shoes, realizing I can’t take them all, taking over half the stuff out of the suitcase, squishing what I deem essential in to the suitcase, expand the suitcase, realize I forgot something then try oh so hard to fit it in, give up and decide to fix it the next day but the next day is the day I am leaving so when I try to fix it I am super rushed and always end up with an overweight suitcase when I get to the airport. It’s practically tradition! lol

luckily my suitcase isn't that small! lol

luckily my suitcase isn’t that small! lol

I don’t have time to do any of that this trip so I actually *gasp* wrote a list of what to pack! A list! Eeegads, I feel so grown up…I packed my clothes and the Christmas presents and am shocked at how quickly the process went, maybe there is something to this list thing…Of course the packing isn’t done, I still have to pack my wash kit but I don’t fly out for a couple days yet and I need that stuff till then lol

I spent part of yesterday shopping for a dress to wear Saturday night to the agency Christmas party. I failed miserably. Ugh. Shopping is one of those activities that either makes me ridiculously happy or ridiculously miserable. The party is a formal affair and I don’t have an appropriate dress, crap! I didn’t have a lot of time to shop so picked one shop I usually have success at and basically put all my eggs in one basket…let’s just say I broke the eggs *rolls eyes* lol broken-eggs1Nothing they had looked right on me which was disheartening. I ended up buying two blouses and hoping one of them would match a lace skirt I already had at home. I tried them on with the skirt this evening and the one was ok, not amazing or anything but I guess it’ll hafta do. shrug.

For the first time ever I am putting my cat in to boarding and I am spazzing about it. sigh. He would be too if he knew what was coming. I had a cat sitter but that fell through and an awesome friend said she’d come over daily with her daughters and take care of my little bundle of fur but she is a super busy lady and the more I thought about it the worse I felt. She doesn’t have time for that and even though I knew she’d somehow find the time I (1) didn’t want to cause her even more stress and (2) realized that she’d at most spend an hour a day at my place which would mean he’d be spending 23 hours a day alone and that’s not cool. I put his name on waiting lists for boarding places and was told odds were way slim so I bought him a plane ticket and was all excited he’d be coming with me. Well go figure someone cancelled and he got in to a boarding place so now he is staying here and I’m sad he won’t be coming with me and worried he’ll be miserable. What if he thinks I am abandoning him? Not coming back? Don’t love him? 😦 I took him to the vet this past Tuesday and he only finally forgave me for that today…that’s three days of upsetness over one little trip. What the hell is he gonna do when he is left somewhere for a week?!

On happy notes we had snow again today, more then the last snowfall! There was enough snow I had to brush it off my suv, some people at work made a snowman and everything is gorgeous looking. 🙂

Snow Day!

Snow Day!

Gotta love a snowman!

Gotta love a snowman!

 

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German Christmas Market Part 1

11 Dec

Any outing that involves hot apple cider is a good outing. Crap! I just remembered I didn’t put that in my food tracker, gimme a sec…

Ok, added, all is well lol 😛

So back to the German Christmas Market…

Don’t go thinking I flew to Germany lol it is an annual thing that is held in the downtown core. This is my third year going and I love it. It is a simple little market but something about it makes me smile. There is a carousel (which I may have kinda forgot to take a picture of, oops!), booths filled with various foods and drinks and even more booths filled with all kinds of things to buy. Almost all the items for sale (food and non food) are imported from Germany or made here but German inspired. Well…except for the booth with the maple foods, which omg yum! I love love love maple flavoured anything! 😀 They have maple toffee that is delish! I bought it last year and fully anticipated buying it again this year but alas, it does not fit in to my eating plan (plus I have no idea how to get nutritional information for it, yeah I know I can google but not like I can weigh out the toffee so I know how much I ate, sigh).

I can’t show you, or tell you, what I bought at the market cause most of the items are Christmas presents and the people receiving them may read this blog so hush! lol One thing I bought for myself was tea, yeah I know, I’m so exciting right? But remember how I am trying to expand my tea collection?

I bought Silent Night Tea which is a “winterly selection of our finest tea blends”, there are four flavours in the box, Winter Delight which is a green tea, Stars which is a black tea, Sun Of The Spirit which is a white tea and Bright Light which is a lemon balm – whatever that means! lol The only tea that doesn’t contain caffeine is the Bright Light (the lemon balm flavour) so I am still failing at expanding my non-caffeinated tea collection – I didn’t even think to read the box or ask the guy working the booth if the tea contained caffeine, arg, I suck at shopping for non-caffeinated tea! lol Later, at a tea store I found loose leaf maple tea which seems like the best idea ever! But I didn’t buy it cause it is loose leaf and I don’t have one of those metal ball thingies to put loose leaf tea in, all my tea is in tea bags lol

My Silent Night Tea

My Silent Night Tea

I wore a ridiculous amount of layers to go to the market, I get cold super duper easy and was mildly terrified of being so cold I wouldn’t be having fun soooooo I wore a tank top, then a long sleeved shirt, then a plaid button up shirt, then a hoodie, then a jacket…count that, minus the coat that is 4 layers! FOUR! All that effort to stay warm, which fyi I so did, but my feet froze, sigh. I have the worst luck when it comes to keeping my feet warm, probably because I don’t own warm shoes lol I own boots, leather and man made but none of them are designed for warmth, they are designed for looks so they are useless at keeping my feet warm. I decided to wear a pair of Keds (sneakers) thinking maybe the canvas fabric would be better at retaining heat in the foot area and also because those particular shoes fit loosley enough I can wear thicker socks with them lol. I was horrifically wrong and my toes were in that pain/numb/frozen state for quite a while, you know, that stage where it hurts to walk because you can’t put pressure on your toes, that stage. Ugh. I’ve been mildly lusting after a pair of Uggs (or a fake pair cause really? that much money on boots? lame!) for those rare times when I need warm boots. I have an old pair that are kind of like fake Uggs but nicer lol thing is they are so old they are way unattractive and the only time I wear them is when I am going to work on my early morning days and want my feet to stay cozy while I am en route to work. Obviously once I get there I switch to cute but completely not designed for winter shoes lol. In case you haven’t figured it out I am not always practical *rolls eyes*

I am actually really tempted to go shopping tomorrow during the day and buy a pair of warm boots because I am going back to the market tomorrow night with a couple friends. The market. The outdoor market. At night. In winter. On a day we are predicted to get snow. With feet in shoes not designed for warmth. I am gonna cry like a little girl. sigh. I can almost justify them because I could wear them when I go home for Christmas, back to Alberta, the land of deep snow and cold weather. My feet may not survive lol

Oh! I finally got some software so I can black out my face in pics which means I can finally post a pic of myself when I am out doing something, yay for remembering to get the software! lol So here ya go, me with a nutcracker, finally a guy taller than me! 😉

 

The oh so handsome Nutcracker and I

The oh so handsome Nutcracker and I

Aaaaaand here is a pic of downtown from across the water, isn’t it so purdy?

the guay

My picture doesn't do the view justice

My picture doesn’t do the view justice

Part 2 of the German Market post will come tomorrow night after I have gone for the second time this year with my friends. I figure I’ll have better pics cause everything will be all lit up and pretty and my hands won’t be filled with bags because I did my shopping today lol. 🙂 …although I am gonna get another apple cider, Mmm!

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I Just Don’t Care

19 Nov

I can’t bring myself to care, about anything, it just seems too exhausting. It is like every emotion I have has been muted, or covered by a blanket, stifled in some way. I know they are there, just under the surface, wanting out, I just can’t be bothered to make an effort to try to feel them anymore.

I’m doing a pretty decent job of faking it, sorta. At work when I’m at the desk interacting with residents or guests or most of the other staff I’m able to put on a fake smile, make my voice sound cheery and do my thing. There is one staff member that for some reason I don’t feel the need to put the mask on for, it is much easier being around her, less effort needed ya know?

That’s why I haven’t been writing, just the thought of opening my laptop was too much, let alone logging on to wordpress and writing something. The only reason I managed it tonight was because I was going to watch a movie and when I logged onto the computer wordpress popped on to my screen, musta been the last place I was when I closed the laptop last time. I wasn’t going to log on, wasn’t  going to write, was just going to ignore wordpress but then I decided to read other people’s blogs and it made me realize I should probably write in mine…don’t know why, not like this is a happy, cheerful, entertaining post…generally my posts are upbeat and mildly entertaining (at least I hope they are).

I managed to follow my eating plan for the most part since the fiasco that was Friday. Saturday and Sunday were perfect. Followed my eating plan, tracked everything in my Lose It! app, I may be going through a tough time but at least I didn’t add guilt to my shoulders over messing up my eating plan. Monday however I screwed up, but since I’m still in a cloud of not caring, I can’t bring myself to feel badly about it. I’m sure I’ll feel like that eventually, but for now, no guilt over choosing bad for me food. shrug. I ate according to plan while at work but when I got home I just couldn’t get the energy to make dinner. At first I wasn’t really hungry so I figured wait a bit, when I’m hungry then I’ll want to eat and I’ll go make something but nope. By the time I was hungry I was in no mood to go messing around in the kitchen so I did what I absolutely should not have, I ordered pizza…and dessert bread sticks. Damn you Panago for having such tasty food! Mostly I wanted the dessert breadsticks, I am a carb junkie, when things go bad that’s what I aim for, not good I know but I figure it’s better then gambling or drinking, right?

dessert breadsticks from Panago, just dip em in frosting and enjoy!

dessert breadsticks from Panago, just dip em in frosting and enjoy!

I ate the breadsticks and a bit of the pizza, it was super tasty. Mmm! The low level headache I’d been having for days went away and for a little while I actually felt like I had energy. I didn’t do anything with that energy mind you, just chilled watching tv and cuddling with the cat but at least I felt a bit energetic. That quickly faded and I ended up napping on the living room chair by accident, oops. I’m putting that down to a long day at work on very little sleep.

Today (Tuesday) I met up with a friend around 5pm-ish. I slept most of the day, having gone to bed around 3am, so I had a protein shake before meeting her and then we went shopping, had dinner and watched a movie. For dinner we had sushi, I know if you order carefully sushi can be a healthy meal, but I order like a born and raised North American which means not healthy. We split some spicy agedashi tofu, then I had an avocado roll and a philly roll. The philly roll is my favourite, smoked salmon and cream cheese…so not on my eating plan! Then, just to make things worse, I had a small frozen yogurt at the theatre. *groans*

Even while sitting here typing out what I ate and knowing I should feel badly about messing up my eating plan I just…don’t. I’m not even trying to justify the food choices, shrug. I made them. I ate the food. Whatever, it’s done and there’s nothing I can do about it now. I am however trying to figure out what to do with the left over pizza in my fridge…can I freeze that so the next time I crave pizza I can just thaw out one slice? I’ll hafta google that…

So eating hasn’t gotten me out of this funk, neither has shopping. Weird huh? I bought some Christmas presents today, and some stuff for myself yesterday and the day before and while I am glad I made the purchases the usual giddy happiness I would feel over some of the stuff I bought isn’t there. I’m just all meh about it.

Tomorrow I will go to Zumba class no matter what, maybe that’ll help shake me outta this? Gotta try something since my usual ways of cheering myself up have failed.

The only positive thing I am getting from all this is since eating the pizza, and the breadsticks, and the sushi and the frozen yogurt didn’t make me feel better I might as well make the effort to eat according to my meal plan. Since the high calorie, carb laden food is doing nothing for me emotion wise or body fat % wise I might as well ignore it and eat only what I am supposed to. Least when this is all over and I am back to my normal self I won’t be looking in to the mirror at someone who let themselves go and gained a bunch of weight instead of reaching her goal of dropping a size by Dec 22. Cause even if right now I don’t care about that, I’m sure I will care about it again soon and I don’t want to be kicking myself for making my goal even harder to reach all cause I couldn’t keep it together.

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A New Kitchen Toy

9 May

I bought a microwave. It’s still in the box, sitting on my kitchen floor waiting to trip me tomorrow morning, hmm, maybe I should move it to the side or something…

It’s not some super fancy microwave, it’s not even a brand I recognized lol but it was on sale, and is small, and is black, so there ya go. 🙂

what mine looks like

what mine looks like

I wasn’t intending to buy one, personally, I’d rather a new blender but my dear mom insisted I buy one, her dime, because I have been without one for quite a while lol.

My old microwave died an electrical smelly death randomly one day so I took it to the recycling place, where past their prime electronics go to pass on to their next incarnation. I almost felt guilty as it was a present from my brother, a reeeeeeally nice microwave, and so pretty! Stainless steel with black accents, sigh. Oh, and it was big, as in bigger then anything I would ever need lol but I live in North America so isn’t bigger supposed to be better? 😉 I had it for over 5 years though and it moved with me many times over those 5 years so I guess it did it’s job.

But yeah, so, old microwave died, and oddly enough I didn’t jump in my suv and go right to the store to buy a new one. I figured, sometime a long time ago people survived without microwaves right? So, theoretically, I could do that…I could survive without one…This would (1) save me the money of buying a new one, (2) give me one less thing to pack the next time I move and (3) force me to cook more using the actual stove. These are all good things!

Well ha-bloody-ha!

(1) I still ended up buying foods usually heated/cooked in a microwave but instead of stocking up on Lean Cuisine when it is on sale I was buying those pre-packaged at the deli meals at Safeway and Superstore, so even though I saved money on not buying a new microwave, my food bill went up a bit I am sure.

(2) I still own a lot of shit so seriously, packing one more thing is not gonna make that big of a difference lol.

(3) I ended up eating even less if you can believe it! If I didn’t feel like cooking something in the oven or on the stove top well, there was no other way to cook it, so I either ordered in take out or didn’t eat…and of those two options I usually chose the not eating. So by not having the microwave, I actually ended up eating less food because my laziness is just that impressive! *rolls eyes*

It was number 3 that got to my mom I think. She didn’t like the idea of me not eating soooooo she insisted on my buying a microwave. And! She knows me so well! When I said ok I would search to find one on sale she went and did the searching for me and then told me where I could find one for sale…I guess she figured out my “research” could conceivably take a long time cause well, I’d keep forgetting to do it. *looks guiltily at the ground*

I actually got the one smaller then the one she told me about, same brand, mostly the same features, but like I said, smaller and therefor cheaper. I would have automatically got the one she told me about but the friend I went shopping with noticed the smaller one and pointed out the smaller one would most likely be big enough for me. He was right, so smaller I went! With the money I saved I bought a food splatter thingy to put inside of the microwave, I feel so grown up now lol 😉

I don’t envision my eating habits changing a whole lot super quickly but I’m sure before I realize it I’ll be using the microwave more and more…if only so I can eat popcorn! Mmm popcorn… 😛

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Wordless Wednesday – My First!

5 Dec
What I opened my eyes to, so cute!

What I opened my eyes to, so cute!

 

My oh so healthy breakfast; tea and a Clif Bar!

My oh so healthy breakfast; tea and a Clif Bar!

 

 

Shopping with a friend, man this store is dangerous lol

Shopping with a friend, man this store is dangerous lol

 

Lunch - waaaaay too much food!

Lunch – waaaaay too much food!

 

 

What I wasn't able to eat...

What I wasn’t able to eat…

 

Dinner, a yummy Tuscan Tomato and Basil Bisque and of course my diet coke.

Dinner, a yummy Tuscan Tomato and Basil Bisque and of course my diet coke.

 

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High Hopes

30 Dec

I started this trip with high hopes that I would actually post on a semi-consistent basis since I managed to post on my first full day here…obviously I got derailed. 😛

This post is going to be quick, and not all detail-ey (like my normal posts where I basically don’t shut up) because it is 1:40am and I have to be up at 8:15am to get washed, dressed, groomed and fed so I can go shopping. Any of you who are thinking ‘whatever it’s just a silly day of shopping’, well, first of all it’s only a morning of shopping and second, no it’s not just a silly day of shopping, you must be a boy. 😉

Shopping can be many things, it can be fun, it can be business like, it can be rushed, it can be pleasurable, it can be relaxing, it can be stressful, it can be an outting that you don’t want to end, it can be torture that feels like it will never end. Tomorrow is going to be a shopping trip with a close friend and we are hitting up all our favourite stores – so basically, I am going to one of my most favourite places in the world (WEM) and I get to hang there while shopping the Boxing Week sales with my friend JF, can’t get much better then that. 😀 The only sad part is she has kids (that’s not the sad part!) and she can only get a sitter for a couple hours so instead of a loooong drawn out shopping trip we will have to settle for a more condensed trip, but hey, we’re practically professional shoppers, we’ll make it work! lol

My eating hasn’t been all that great, I sorta try but I’m not tracking so mostly I’m fake-tracking in my head and I am well aware I am not remembering to count even half the goodies that end up in my mouth – damn Christmas goodies, how you taunt meeeee! 😉

However, everyday since Christmas Eve I have managed some sort of physical activity. This is my most active trip home since I moved away! Dec 24th and 25th I went for walks, nothing too strenuous but I felt better for having done at least some activity. Dec 26th I went to a Rec Centre where I can drop-in for only $6, I did an hour and a half of strenuous cardio and some weights (and of course stretching) and felt a-frickin-mazing for it! Dec 27th I walked an indoor track with my mom, did a couple miles on that. Dec 28th was the drop-in at the rec centre again, I was only able to do an hour of strenuous cardio that time due to time constraints but I figured an hour was better then nothing. 🙂 Dec 29th was not quite as impressive, I went ten-pin bowling lol, hey! activity is activity!

I am not tricking myself into thinking this activity is going to help me shed any pounds, it may (if I am freakishly lucky) help me to at least maintain…or stay close to what I started off with…which really, at this point, is all I can hope for lol.

I have lots that has happened so far this trip and can’t wait to blog about it but seriously people, I gotta go get some sleep so shopping tomorrow is fun and I’m not yawning through it lol.

Here’s a quick (not complete) list of things to look forward to:

– My first Weight Watcher meeting

– My switching to the new Weight Watcher program, how and why

– My eyeballs were paralyzed (not even kidding on this one)

– The 24hr stomach flu I want but can’t seem to catch

I’m sure there is more, I just can’t think of it right now…too much sugar has muddled my brain lol 😛

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Goodbye U.S. (part 2)

17 Oct

So sure, it’s only been minutes since I finished the last post but since it’s now past midnight it is technically the “tomorrow” I spoke about in the last sentence of the previous post so I am writing…it is my blog ya know, I’m pretty sure that means I get to make up the rules lol 😉

Let’s see, I left off with the three of us gorging ourselves at Red Lobster, yum. 😀

I took a cooler with me with a freezer pack inside to store the yogurt I was planning to buy so I put our leftovers in there and off we went to the outlet mall. I’ve been to that mall before, with KL actually, but KS hadn’t been so we wandered most of it. Banana Republic was a real wallet killer for the other two, both found multiple clothing items they wanted. I tried some stuff on for fun but none of it fit….I found this cute dress, empire waist and flowy which is usually a win for me cause that style hides a lot of my trouble areas. Well, the bodice part is fitted and made of a non-stretchy material, I couldn’t get the dress up over my hips and when I tried to put it on over my head I couldn’t get it to go past my breasts…barriers at both ends of my body! lol. 😛 Ah well, I couldn’t have afforded it anyways, and where would I wear a dress? It’s winter! *rolls eyes*

I was mostly looking for presents for people for Christmas, I found none, sigh. I was sorta hoping to find a new pair of runners for working out as mine are not very good anymore but the prices weren’t cheap enough to be worth the expense so I left them all behind…so sad, leaving shoes behind, I think there’s a Girl Rule about that and I think I broke it…oops. 😛

We didn’t stay at the mall all that long, KS spent as much as she was willing to spend in the first store so she was ready to leave right after that and KL kept looking then talking herself out of buying stuff lol. Sorry to say we didn’t help the American economy all that much…although, we did give the waitress at Red Lobster a kick ass awesome tip so at least she benefited from us being there lol.

After the mall we went to Wal-Mart for my yogurt splurge! 😀 I was so excited and so nervous – and yes, I am aware of how pathetic that is. I was all excited to finally get this yogurt I’ve been wanting to try for so long but so nervous they might not have it *cringe*

Turns out I had nothing to fear, the Yoplait yogurt section was huuuuuuge! And oh so much of it was the Yoplait Light, wOOt! 😀

Thanks to a link left as a comment on one of my posts I was able to scope out the flavours last night so I already knew what I was looking for. I found even more flavours then was on the site but it turned out that I had veered into the non-light section by accident so I was looking at flavours I wasn’t going to be buying (like Pina Colada). Luckily I realized before getting to the till so the 2 non-light ones I grabbed by accident were replaced by light yogurts.

My Tower of Yoplait Light Yogurt!

I bought ten in total, each a different flavour, and none of them flavours I could get here in a different brand of yogurt (so no mixed berries etc).

The flavours I got are: Cherry Cobbler, Boston Cream Pie, Key Lime Pie, Apple Turnover, Blueberry Pie, Red Velvet Cake, Strawberry Short Cake, Lemon Meringue, Cinnamon Roll and Lemon Cream Pie. phew, just re-reading that is fun, imagine the fun of eating them! *excited giggles*

Walking through the food section of that Wal-Mart was crazy! We didn’t even go up and down the aisles so it was just what we were seeing as we aimed towards the yogurt but wow, lots of stuff we don’t have. I am jealous you have Special K potato chips, and for cheap! I couldn’t justify buying them but don’t think I didn’t stick a box in my cart and push it around for a while in the hopes I could convince myself lol. There was junk food everywhere! The end of each aisle we passed was strictly unhealthy food…I guess all the healthy stuff is in the aisles and they put the unhealthy at the end…which could be smart cause that means you could shop the aisles and kinda pretend the ends don’t exist so you don’t buy any junk. That’s probably not how it works though huh?

Of course it doesn’t help that it’s leading up to halloween so there was lots of extra candy etc all around…we saw this huge container of cheese balls…for halloween, kinda strange. Oh, and these cookies with marshmallows attached somehow and shaped to look like spooky cats, also kinda strange. There was lots of candy and junk food I wish I’d written down the names of cause I wanted to know what it was but didn’t want to pick it up in case I didn’t have the willpower to put it back lol. One thing I couldn’t resist was this big box of Junior Mints for only $1! Only a dollar?!?! Sweeeeet! Oh, fyi, those are like my all time fave chocolate candy type thing and they are kinda expensive here so I don’t buy them all too often and when I do buy them I get the super small box. So this, a big box for only a buck, there was no thought process, there was just my hand reaching out for a box lol. Bad I know…I’ll probably regret it tomorrow…but not tonight! 😛

So yeah, Wal-Mart was like a wonderland for bad-for-me-foods but I was firm and stuck to the yogurts and er, that one box of Junior Mints *whistles an innocent tune*

After that we got some gas (oh my god so much cheaper there, even when you take in to account gallons vs litres! It was a little over $20 for half a tank in my suv, here that’d cost me about $35!) and we headed back to our side of the border.

The Canadian border guard was a lady and asked how long we were in the states, I said approx 12 hours, she asked why we went, I said to eat at Red Lobster. She gave us all this up and down look and said “you were at Red Lobster for 12 hours??” So of course I said no, after eating we hit up the outlet mall blah blah blah. We always get way more questions going back home then leaving…firearms, tobacco, drugs, duty free shopping, how much did we spend, anybody give us gifts, and on and on…I mean seriously, if I was bringing drugs or firearms back do they really think I’d say yes when they ask? *rolls eyes*

I am happy to report my yogurt stayed nice and cold (I put it in the cooler bag) so I am not concerned it will not be safe to eat and I can’t wait till I have an appetite again cause the first thing I’m gonna eat is one of those. I am going to eat them by randomly plucking one from the group instead of carefully choosing, so it’ll be a little surprise each time. 🙂 Hey, let me get my jollies where I can alright? 😛 lol

No more food binges for me though, that was plenty of damage! I know there is no saving this week but I will be careful for the rest of it anyways and hopefully my body can recover from the damage I inflicted in a couple weeks or so…I wish it luck! lol.

Oh! Sidenote, I got hit on in the yogurt section of Wal-Mart…guy offered to buy me the “real thing” when I was holding the Pina Colada yogurt…I said thanks but no…random!

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Stupid Modem, Grr!

7 Nov

Stupid frickin modem, I’d say I wish it would die but it already has…last sunday, sigh, which I why I haven’t posted since then. I didn’t quit, I didn’t decide to stop posting, I didn’t decide I had too busy a life to go online every night…I didn’t do or think any of the things you may have thought of. Instead I have been living through my own hell…a life without internet! *gasp*

I have read blog posts where people actually willingly choose to not use the internet for a week, just to see what it is like…what the hell would you want to do that for?!?! I can tell you the result of me not having internet for a week, sucky. 😦 I am way out of touch, haven’t been able to check my hotmail, facebook or blog in 7 looooooong days – oh, and important stuff? Like paying bills? Nope, can’t do that either cause hello? that’s all online now. I got a text from my phone provider to let me know my online bill is ready for viewing, well that’s nice, too bad I can’t SEE it! It get’s even worse, I know, you’re wondering how that is possible, well it has because I am that person who is sitting in a starbucks on a sunday evening with a cup of tea and my laptop typing away…I always make fun of those people, heh, my normal thought process when I see someone in a coffee shop typing away on their laptop goes something like this: “oh look, someone who thinks the world wants to see how busy and important they are that they have to be working on their laptop while taking an expensive coffee break cause they just don’t have time to relax with their drink” well, the thinking usually goes something like that…it’ll depend on how the person looks, I usually give a bit of a break to students cause I remember needing a change of environment when studying – course, even then I didn’t go to starbucks. *rolls eyes* After all that ranting indirectly about starbucks I guess I should be grateful for them cause otherwise I still wouldn’t be able to blog. *sniffle*

I missed writing my daily blog more then I thought I would. This blog has become an integral part of my weight loss and I felt a bit, well, lost without it. Every evening this past week I thought I would go sit in a starbucks with my laptop and write up what has been going on but there just isn’t time. It’s easy enough when I am at home and can sit and type while eating or in between laundry loads or something like that but finding time to go out to sit in a shop all so I can go online? I just don’t have that kind of time in the evenings…which is sad cause that means that I probably won’t be able to blog again until next weekend…or when my new modem shows up in the mail, whichever comes first.

So, hmm, how to cap up the past week…

Monday:

Zooooooomba! Ok, it’s actually spelled Zumba but I can’t say the name without stretching the sounds out, it’s more fun of a word that way, lol. What is Zumba you ask? “It is a fitness/dance class that combines Latin rhythms with cardio exercise to create an aerobic routine that is fun and easy to follow. Zumba utilizes the principles of fitness interval training and resistance training. It uses a variety of styles in its routines, including cumbia, merengue, salsa, reggaeton, mambo, rumba, flamenco and calypso.”  – case you’re wondering, I quoted that from the class description. lol. I get 6 classes for $60 and that seems fair. The class last monday was a freebie, to sorta intro the class, let you get a feel for it to see if you want to pay, it was loads of fun, the instructor, this uber tiny bouncy full of energy lady was insanely awesome. 😀 When she wanted to change directions or steps or whatever instead of saying “left!” or some other command she did that rolling tongue sound that I haven’t a hope in hell of being able to make. lol. I have never in my life met a more energetic person. At one point I started thinking well sure, she can hop and bounce around like that cause she weighs like 90 pounds, I way considerably higher then 90 pounds so there’s no chance I can do some of what she can do…I was in a bit of a down frame of mind last week so shrug, dark thoughts, anyways, I was able to do all the moves, sure I may not have been as graceful as her (nowhere near as close! lol) and I didn’t get as high in my jumps etc (compared to her it felt like my feet barely left the floor, lol) but ya know what? Who cares! I did what I could, and I will do even better tomorrow, and I had fun. 😀 Oh, and sweeeeet music!

Tuesday thru Thursday:

Nothing really exciting on those days, I stuck to my points, ate a lot of the weight watchers soup (0 points!) for lunch which meant I could have a bagel with lunch and not kill my points, yah! There was left over halloween candy at work, sigh, lots of suckers and hard candies. I checked the nutritional info and found out that these big suckers that were in the candy were 1 point each so I snagged some, hey, every girl needs a hit of sugar sometimes. 😛

Friday:

Pizza was brought in to work from management to say “Thanks” for all our hard work, ha bloody ha! The entire office is pissed at management. Grr to them! Not only did they cut our staff by three they increased our work load and annouced we aren’t getting a christmas party this year, the most they are springing for is drinks and appetizers at a crappy pub type place after work on a wednesday. Uh, hello? What the fuck is that?!?! They sent out this email saying how we had over $4 billion in profits but we can’t have a christmas party?!?! Fuckers. Grr. So, hehe, we all declined the invitation to the drinks and one of our staff took it upon herself to plan a better party, it’s dinner at a Mexican restaurant on a friday, we all have to pay for ourselves, but whatever, at least we get food and not some cheap ass appetizers.  I have a link to the restaurant and will check it out prior to that evening so I can plan ahead what I am going to eat. I haven’t eaten Mexican since going on weight watchers so I don’t really have any idea just how bad this could be for me but ah well, I’ll save my flex points that week and see how it goes. 🙂

Satuday – Weigh In Day:

Holy Crap! Holy Crap! Holy Crap! Weigh in day ROCKED!!!!! I lost 1.8 pounds which means not only did I get to my goal of 15 pounds lost I surpassed it and am sitting at 16.6 pounds lost!!!! 😀 😀 😀 I sooooo bought my full length mirror, teehee, and am going through my closet when I get home. 😀 AND! Not only that but…the second number in my weight has gone down…in other words I am down to 21 points per day instead of 22…in other words this wasn’t any ordinary weigh in day! I haven’t had the second number in my weight be this low in…well, I don’t know how long. But it is there now and I am gonna do my best to get it even lower. 😀

It was so odd, on friday evening I really wanted to weigh myself, I just knew I had lost weight and I wanted to see what the number was at but I resisted cause hello, weighing yourself after a full day of work and eating and well, life, bad idea. So I didn’t weigh myself and when I got up Saturday I was pissed cause I am a girl and I woke up bloated and with cramps and that can totally skew the weigh in. sigh. But even then, before I stepped on the scale I told myself that I don’t care what the scale says, I know without a doubt I lost weight this week and I am buying my mirror no matter what the scale says cause I am not letting being bloated take away my victory, and then the number came up and I was so stunned my mouth dropped open. I was so excited I didn’t want to get off the scale, lol, so I didn’t, I just stood there, staring at the number flabergasted. The second digit had changed?!?! I wasn’t expecting that! Then I started jumping up and down (not on the scale) and to top it off I actually shed a couple tears…this may not seem like a big deal but I am not a cryer but with this, I couldn’t help it, they just leaked out. *rolls eyes at self*

Oh! And! (I know, I can’t believe there is more lol) on the friday after work I went shopping, now I was s’posed to be shopping for my bro’s bday present but I ended up (oddly enough) in the women’s section of some stores that my brother would never shop in, lol, (we don’t share the same taste in clothes at all!) I ended up buying a couple shirts. I know! I wasn’t going to buy anything until I had lost at least 20 pounds but it had been such a crappy week I just wanted to lose myself in stores for a little bit. What I was shopping for didn’t materialize, I wanted a new bag and a pair of boots, but ended up with a new leather wrist strap with some silver studding and two shirts…wait, three shirts…eesh. I don’t really have the money to afford that but it’s done now. Anyways, back to the shirts, one of them fit great, in fact I am wearing it now, one fits a bit snug, well, for my comfort cause I don’t like things that cling but I know by the christmas party it will probably be fine and I will wear it there, but the third shirt…this is the special one, I bought it for headshots cause it’s a dark blue and will look great in pics on me (bring out the blue in my eyes and pop against my uber pale skin) but the reason it is so great? I had to get it a size smaller then normal. 😀 Now, I know it’s cause of the style, it is designed to sorta flow…look loose-ish, ya know? But even so, I had to go down a size cause the size I thought I would need, ha! Way too big! Yippee!

I know when I shop for pants it’s gonna be interesting cause I have no idea what size I really am anymore. Pants that fit 3 weeks ago are now too large, some I am making them still work for me, mostly by taking my belt in a notch and pulling them up as I walk, lol, very attractive I know, but I don’t have the money to buy new clothes and I don’t want to buy clothes I will have to replace quickly – I guess I shouldn’t assume my weight loss will continue on the schedule I have set for it, maybe I should buy pants cause I’ll be stuck at this size for a couple more months but I am trying to be optimistic (not my strong suit) and think that in a couple more months I will be even smaller.

So here I am on sunday, mentally prepping to start a new week and wishing it was weigh in day already cause I want to step on the scale and see that second digit number again! I am enamored. teehee.

I don’t know when I will get to blog again, my modem is supposed to show up in the mail within 3-5 business days, so the first possible day would be monday (they didn’t mail it out till wednesday, sigh) – hopefully it shows up then, otherwise it might not be till mid week and I’m sorry, but another week of no internet at my place? I don’t think I will survive! I rely too much on my computer for, well, everything! Bills, work, play, education, weight loss…there isn’t one aspect of my life that doesn’t somehow get played out online…I miss my internet, a lot!

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Steppin On My Pants, oh yah!

23 Aug

I have limited clothes, not only because of my size but also because of my wallet…altho, mostly because of my size. lol. I used to loooove clothes shopping – I used to be a perfect size 10 which I know to some people seems big (all you size zeros out there! ) but I was fairly content. It meant I could wear anything and look good and well, who doesn’t like that? Since getting fat that joy has left my life…it left a long time ago and I still mourn it. sigh.

I hate clothes shopping! I hate how I look in every item I put on my body; my aim everytime I go in to a store is to find something that hides just how big I am – camaflogue. That is not fun. In fact it is rather depressing. 😦 As a result I don’t go shopping very often…I use my wallet as an excuse for not owning more clothes but even if I came in to a bunch of money tomorrow I wouldn’t go out and buy clothes…what would be the point? I’d still look like me. 😛

Almost a year ago I needed to buy some work pants, I went to RW&Co to buy a couple pairs of good quality pants and fluctuated throughout that time of being able to wear them comfortably and not. When I bought them they fit perfectly…bad idea. I got bigger and had to stop wearing them, so I had these expensive work pants and couldn’t wear them – juuuust great! lol. So I went and bought cheaper work pants elsewhere and wore those. Every now and then I would try on one of the pairs of pants and kinda test them…most mornings they failed to even leave my bedroom, lol. Some days I would wear them to work and by the end of the day be uncomfie cause they were too snug, blarg, so back in to my closet they would go. The other week I tried them on and they not only fit, they were a bit loose. Loose around the waist, hips and butt! How great is that?!?! I wore them today and as I was walking to work (from the skytrain so not a long walk) the pants started getting lower and lower on my waist until they were more around my hips. I was wearing a coat so it wasn’t obvious on my body what was happening so I figured just keep walking and fix it when you get in to the office, hehe, well, I ended up walking on my pants! Yeah, you hear me…I was stepping on my pants with my heels cause of how loose they were…they inched down so far I could step on them…awesome! 😀 😀 😀 Course, it didn’t look all that attractive and I spent the rest of the day constantly pulling my pants up, lol, but I don’t care, in fact, everytime I had to adjust them I got a little grin and had an inner giggle cause it made me so happy. 😀

They are fitting so loose they are almost un-wearable. Not quite mind you – since I really can’t afford to replace them and I decided when this whole thing started that I wasn’t gonna buy clothes for every size I become – too expensive! Instead, when clothes become completely un-wearable then I will replace them…the pants aren’t there yet but they are definitly on the way. 😛 wOOt! I am going to try on the other pair I bought at that same time and see how they fit now – they were always a little snugger so I never tried them on, I don’t think they have been off the hanger since, hmm, before last Christmas…holy crap that’s a long time to have clothes that don’t get worn!

Today was such an awesome clothes day. 😀

The food I ate today is:

3/4 cup Blueberry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

85 grams whole wheat pasta = 5 points

1/4 cup alfredo sun dried tomato sauce = 2 points

2 triangles Light Laughing Cow Cheese = 1 point

1 cup cherries = 1 point

1 cup grapes = 1 point

1 Dill and Herb salmon steak =3 points

grilled veggies = 0 points

1 serving root veggie chips = 3 points

I am at a total of 21 points for the day – only 1 point left. The higher point lunch really helped with using up all my points for the day.  I am gonna see if I can manage to make higher point lunches all this week and discover if it helps with eating all my points and losing weight. I’ll let ya know!

p.s. Oh…I am gonna eat that last point, probably a serving of fruit or a little weight watcher candy…if I can find any, I am running dangerously low and can’t find them in stores anywhere, ack!

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