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My Cookies Went Soft

10 Jul

I am having trouble figuring out what to eat; it’s not the points, I have a fairly strong grasp on the point system now, how to calculate them, how to distribute them through out the day- all that stuff. My problem is figuring out what I think is worth the points.

Tonight for example, it is evening so time for a snack. I want kettle corn but my weigh in day is tomorrow so I don’t want to eat anything too salty but do you think I can find something else I want just as badly? Of course not! So I started looking around the kitchen, I have 3 whole points to eat…that could be anything! A yogurt and some grapes, a piece of toast with margarine on it even 3 cookies and a cup of tea. Even with all these choices and more I couldn’t decide what to eat; I kept thinking “what if I eat the yogurt and am still hungry afterwards? It’s not like yogurt is all that filling.” I thought variations of this for all the foods I looked at – I think it wasn’t really a matter of being hungry and wanting to make sure I wasn’t hungry after my points were over, it was  knowing that after I ate that snack I would not be allowed to eat anything else for the rest of the night and I was wanting a taste of everything.  Does that make sense? It was the knowledge that I am restricted; as soon as I know I can’t have something I want it but if I have the option of having something more times then not I won’t go for it…I can be so contrary.

Course, you wouldn’t be able to prove that by looking at me – I have obviously eaten a lot of food in my past so I haven’t said no as often as I would like to think. 😛

I eventually settled on the cookies, they are uber yummy and not all that unhealthy Peek Freans Lifestyle Selections Cranberry Citrus Oak Crunch…the important word here is “crunch”.

Peek Freans Cranberry Citrus Oat Crunch...mine didn't crunch!

 I have had these cookies before; I always get them on short flights so when I saw them on sale I though “oh yeah! on sale and I already know they taste good, can’t go wrong there!” You can eat 3 cookies for 3 points so they aren’t even all that bad for you. 🙂 I bought them before I started Weight Watchers; I’d opened them and eaten I don’t know how many then tucked them away for next time.  Now it’s not like I forgot about them (exactly), more like I got bored with them and just kept them tucked away. shrug. This happens a lot with me.

But anyways! I decided to use my last 3 points on these cookies and pair them with a cup of tea – after a whole lotta time deciding and going back and forth on what I want I get my cookies, make my tea, sit down and get settled all ready to enjoy my evening routine. I am all ready to eat those last three points and what happens…my cookie was soft. They say crunch in the title, they are normally a crunchy cookie, everytime I have eaten them on a plane they crunch, heck they are so crunchy they make crumbs when you bite in! This package used to crunch…until I left them opened and they went soft…why oh why do cookies do that? It’s so mean. I made it through 2 of the cookies and had to stop, they just aren’t good when they are soft. sigh. Normally, I totally suggest these cookies…but make sure once you open them to eat them quickly or put them in some kind of air tight container! 

I am finding this is a problem of mine lately (not the lack of crunch in the cookies, but what to use my points on), everytime I look at something to eat I wonder if I really want to use my points on that. A whole list of questions goes throught my heads, a little something like this: how long will I stay full? is there any nutritional value? will there be leftovers? will I be able to justify the points the leftovers will cost me? do I really need it? how much time is left in the day? if I eat this am I ok that I can’t eat *insert food here* later? do I really want this to be the last thing I eat today? will it satisfy me?

If I am not careful I will become a hoarder of points. I am already at some weird stage where I want to eat as few points during the day as possible so I can for sure have enough to eat a filling dinner and have a snack in the evening. Forget the fact that I have been doing fine with my point allocation and haven’t run in to problems being able to have a filling dinner; everyday I have a little panic at lunch time – do I really want to eat my lunch? What if magically the numbers change after I eat the food and then I have to have a super small dinner to compensate for eating too much during the day? Even though the points for my lunches are usually calculated  the night before and I know I am not using some ridiculous amount during the day I still have a bit of a freak out. I don’t know why, and I don’t know how to stop it I just have to learn how to manage it. I seem to be managing it alright so far; I haven’t actually started hoarding my points during the day and eating them all in the evening but the desire (and concern about it) are there.

Quick note about my lunch, I had a Mediterranean Supreme salad from Fresh Express Salad.

My Mediterranean Salad

It was my first time trying that one and it was ok; not bad but a bit bland – and that’s with me adding stuff to it! This company is pretty great, they have all different types of salads, my favourite kind is Salsa Ensalada Supreme – the website is www.freshexpress.com I haven’t really checked out the website (except to get that snazzy pic to the right lol) but at a quick glance it looks like it contains a lot of interesting info. This salad was spinach leaves, feta, croutons, dressing…um, I think that is it. I added to it; mixed veggies, baby potatoes that had been boiled and cut up and a hard boiled egg. I find if you add low point items to already existing foods (like the veggies) it makes the dish more satisfying taste wise and I stay fuller longer…the egg was 2 points but that was an indulgence on my part (I love hard boiled eggs!) and a way to sneak in some protein.  I split all the toppings it came with into two equal portions and only ate half the salad for lunch; it was perhaps one of my most boring lunches and I really wanted L’s noodle dish, man that smelled goooood!, but at least I know mine was healthier. lol.

So here is what I ate:

3/4 cup Honey Nut Cheerios =2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana =2 points

Mediterranean Salad

     – dressing, feta, croutons = 4 points

     – mixed veggies = 0  points

     – 5 baby potatoes = 1 point

     – 1 hard boiled egg = 2 points

1 cup grapes = 1 points

1 grilled cheese sandwich

     – 2 pieces bread = 2 points

     – 1 tbsp Light Miracle Whip = 1 point

     – 2 Kraft cheese slices = 2 points

125 ml Campbell’s tomato soup = 2 points

2 Peek Freans Lifestyle Selections cookies = 2 points

That puts me at a total of 22 points; I would have been at 23 if my cookies hadn’t gone soft or if  I had been able to bring myself to eat all three, as it is I ate two and now have 1 point left over…I will probably have one of my weight watchers chocolates since they are only 1 point and small enough I won’t feel icky eating something so late at night. lol.

Tomorrow is weigh in day…stress! I so wanted to try on the pants today so that if they fit I could wear them to work but the worry they wouldn’t fit any better and that I’d know a day earlier then necesarry I didn’t lose enough weight  for them prevented me from trying them on this morning. lol. But tomorrow I will find out! I think I will go drink a glass of water and pretend I don’t feel quite so big…

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Leaping for…Milk?

9 Jul

I got so excited after I had dinner and realized I had enough points left to have a glass of milk I actually leaped up from my seat and hustled my way over to the fridge all while doing a little happy jig. I must have looked so silly but who cares; I got a glass of milk! 😀  This may seem like a stupid thing to be excited about but I had a pasta dish for dinner and it totally made me want milk and I didn’t think I’d be able to but since my lunch was so low in points I had enough left over for milk. That’s two days in a row I got to have a glass! Ok, I will stop being so happy about it now…well, on here anyways…:P

There wasn’t any huge food tease today, no cakes or cookies…not even a cupcake, well…there were cupcakes left over from yesterday but they were far away from me and stale so they definitly weren’t tempting! I almost had a fruit crisis though, oh the horrors! I took 2 nectarines with me but they were not good so there was a serious concern I would starve by the end of day cause I didn’t have my afternoon snack. Luckily my lunch kept me filled long enough to get me home but I think I need to stock my desk with something that doesn’t go bad but is low in points in case of emergency. lol.

So far today I have eaten:

3/4 cup Honey Nut Cheerios = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 bagel = 4 points

1 bowl Weight Watchers Veggie Soup = 0 points

2 triangles Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1 apple = 1 point

1 cup Sidekicks Tomato Alfredo = 8 points

Mixed Veggies = 0 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

I have eaten 21 points today; only 2 points left! I haven’t figured out what I am going to snack on to use up the last 2 points but I will find something…I always do! 🙂

The weather is sitting around 30 degrees celcius today, which is awesome! The office is freezing cause of the air conditioning, sigh, so during the day I have no problem eating but when I get home the apartment is warm and a bit stuffy so it makes me not want to eat. I remember having this problem when I still lived with my parents; their house would get hot at the beginning of summer and stay that way the whole season – even the cats didn’t want to eat! I think this is a fairly common thing; I can’t be the only person who doesn’t want to eat when it is hot, right? I had to remind myself that just cause I am toasty and not feeling hungry that is my body tricking me and I still have to eat!

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Cupcakes and Ice Cream Cake…So Cruel

8 Jul

This is gonna be short cause I just finished painting my nails (purple this time!) and I don’t wanna ruin them on the keys. lol. Priorities, ya know?

Today went fairly well, all kinds of stupid drama at work – why do grown women act like they are still in high school? I just don’t get it! Ah well, today is over so no use thinking about it anymore.  Mini cupcakes were brought in as a treat for us; I couldn’t find the exact nutrtitional information for them – go figure a company that creates something oh so yummy but oh so bad for you doesn’t provide you the nutritional info *rolls eyes* – so I googled nutritional info for bakery cupcakes and found a site that was sorta useful. I don’t know how close to correct the info was but I used it as if it was accurate and it completely put me off wanting a cupcake. lol. They are so bad for you, a mini cupcake is approx 8 points!!! 8 POINTS!!! Can you believe that? See why I was put off it? lol Oh, and fyi, I called Cupcakes (anyone in the lower mainland of BC knows what company I am talking about) and the people in the store are not helpful (or all that friendly) when you call to ask for nutritional info. The website is fun though, it is: http://www.cupcakesonline.com/cupcakes.php and while I can bake a better cupcake the experience of being in the store is fun. 🙂

Oh, and a work associate brought AL an ice cream cake (not Dairy Queen) as a thank you for work she had done for him. Very nice of him, I mean who doesn’t like ice cream cake on a warm summer day? but I also had to avoid that. I didn’t even look at the cake, lol, just avoided it and told AL to not bring me a piece (she was nice enough she was cutting it up and bringing everyone a piece to their desks). AC, the girl I sit next to said she was impressed with how firm I am with my diet, I never take any of the tempting stuff at work and am always counting my points. I hadn’t realized how long I had been doing this for, this saturday will be my third week counting points. Pretty sweet huh?!

On to a little something I was reminded about because of the nice weather we have been having. It is a myth that sitting in a sauna helps you lose weight; you may lose some water weight but it will come back as soon as you eat or drink something. The reason I mention that is because I know a lot of women that think when it is hot out and you sweat just walking down the block you can eat or drink higher calorie things because “you’ll sweat it off”. Some people reading this will be wondering “what kind of fools think that”, others reading this will be thinking that “yeah that is right”. Sadly, it is wrong. Just because you are delicately sweating away under that patio umbrella does not mean you can order that third large Pina Colada and have it not count.  It counts! So if you really want that third Pina Colada you better have a low point lunch and dinner so you can make room for it…oh, and grab a taxi home! lol

So let’s see what I ate today:

3/4 cup Almond Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 2 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 bowl Weight Watchers Veggie Soup = 0 points

1 english muffin = 3 points

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1 orange = 1 point

1 cup blackberries = 1 point

1 Eating Right hamburger patty = 4 points

1 Kraft cheese slice = 1 point

1 package Easy Mac = 5 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

That sits me at 21 points. 🙂 I am going to have a cup of 1% milk when my typing is done to finish up my last two points, and voila! Another succesful day! lol.

I didn’t even forget to add in the marg I would normally put on the english muffin, the Laughing Cow cheese is spreadable so I used one triangle to spread on the muffin, creating a tasty muffin and not using up even more points. Sneaky!

That low point lunch meant I got to have a big dinner, it was yummy and I really enjoyed the kraft dinner but I broke another cardinal rule…I ate fast. Now, I didn’t eat fast because I was starved and couldn’t control myself or anything, I ate fast cause while I was eating I had two loaves of banana bread in the oven and the timer was set to go off in 4 minutes so I wanted to eat as much as I could while the food was at optimal temps. Bad move cause after I was done, even though I knew I had eaten a lot and was full I didn’t feel full. I wish it didn’t take my stomach 20 minutes to tell my brain it’s full…what’s with that time delay? Eesh! Since I knew I was full and that my brain just hadn’t clued in I had a glass of water to tide me over. It worked, I drank my umpteenth glass of water today and didn’t eat anymore food. Yah!

Look at that, typed a long post anyways and didn’t even chip a nail! Girls rock! lol

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Spots?!?!

7 Jul

Alright, I will be the first to admit my skin wasn’t great looking when I was growing up. It was fine till stupid puberty and then it went, well, not-so-fine. lol. I would have never been picked for a noxema commercial or any other clear/pretty skin ad but that’s alright cause even though I didn’t appreciate it at the time I think having to contend with spotty skin helped me learn some valuable lessons about people and how they treat you based on what you look like at the time.  So see? Something good came from it. 🙂

So here I am, at the ripe old age of…well, older and way past puberty age and what is happening? I have stupid spots again! Spots, zits, acne…whatever you want to call them…I have them!!! W.T.F.! I am not impressed. Grr!

Just last week I was thinking how my skin is looking nice and fresh and wondering if it was all the water I am drinking (and healthier food I am eating) that was the reason why. Maybe it was but it seems to have its highs and lows. I am most definitly in a low…

From what I learned today from two reliable sources; when you start drinking a lot more water and eating healthier your body starts to do it’s own flush. See? You don’t have to go buy one of those Cleansing Kits – just drink lots of water! lol. So, as you drink all this water your body starts to kick out of it’s system all the impurities and crap that have been building up inside you. Yummy huh? Why you can’t just pee it all out I don’t know but one of the ways it starts to come out of you is through your pores and apparently as it sneaks outta your pores it clogs them up and wham! Spots! It seems like some kind of cruel joke that in the act of getting healthier I am now getting uglier. sigh. I can only hope they clear up on their own and I don’t need to resort to more drastic measures! In case you’re wondering the drastic actions would be going back on Accutane, sigh, strong side effects but totally worth it, imo, I’d do it again in a blink if I needed to but I would not enjoy it. 😛

So, here is what my spotty face ate today:

3/4 cup Almost Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 cup Heinz Maple Baked Beans = 4 points

1 piece of toast = 1 point

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Cheese Light = 1 point

1 wafer Desiree = 1 point

1 cup blackberries = 1 point

Grilled cheese sandwich

– 2 pieces of bread = 2 points

– 1 tbsp light miracle whip = 1 point

– 2 Kraft cheese slices = 2 points

125 ml Campbell’s Tomato Soup = 2 points

1 package Jolly Time popcorn Butter Flavour = 1 point

This puts me at 21 points used. I will eat a little snack to use up my last two points, never fear! No point is left behind! lol

Oh, fyi, my 1 point weight watchers candy I had last night to use up my last point was a Pecan Crown, it is basically a Turtle. It was yum! A bit chewy for my taste but I am sure it will be well enjoyed by all…including me cause I still have a bunch. lol

Now, if you’ll excuse me I have to go drink another couple glasses of water to increase the speed in which my body kicks out all it’s ickiness and exfoliate…my poor skin. sigh. 😛

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Black Fingernails Against the Red of Cherries

6 Jul

I absolutely love black fingernails; on guys or girls. I don’t paint mine nearly often enough – mostly out of laziness lol. I decided to paint them last night and have enjoyed them all of today. The best thing I saw my nails do today was contrast with the red of the cherries I ate as my evening snack. No two colours go together as well as red and black and the entire time I was eating my cherries I enjoyed how my nails looked near the deep red of the fruit. 😀

I ate less fruit today then I normally do and I am feeling the lack; I have gotten so used to eating such high quantities of fruit I almost missed it. Weird considering I used to barely eat any fruit and if I did it almost always came out of a can. I kid you not! I don’t know if this was my body compensating or what but I drank a lot of water today, I felt dehydrated right from the beginning of the day and since I wasn’t getting as much fluid from fruit I was chugging back the glasses of aqua. Oh how quickly our bodies can change!

I got busy at work and didn’t eat my afternoon snack so I had a larger dinner then normal and I wonder if this might be a better way to go. I don’t mean purposefully making myself hungry – what I am talking about is that it is not even 8pm and I only have 1 point left – this means no having to force myself to eat a couple cookies and a glass of milk later this evening to use up my remaining points. Niiiiiice! I will have one of those 1 point Weight Watcher candies I have talked about before and end my food portion of the day on a small sweet note, yum!

Ok, let’s see what I ate today:

3/4 cup Almond Special K =2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 cup Heinz Maple Flavoured Baked Beans = 2 points

1 piece of toast = 1 point

1 kiwi = 1 point

1 Activia Blueberry Yogurt Cup = 2 points

1 serving whole wheat pasta = 5 points

1/4 cup Knorr alfredo sauce = 2 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

2 cups Kettle Corn = 3 points

1 cup cherries = 1 point

That totals 22 for the day and in an hour or so I will have my little candy and yah! that’s all my points for the day. 🙂

A note about that Kettle Corn I ate; that is not the Jolly Time Kettle Corn from previous entries,  it is Kettle Corn I bought at the Night Market. Real kettle corn! You gotta love google, it helps me find a lot of nutritional information. You can eat 2 cups of kettle corn for only 3 points 😀 *happy dance* This doesn’t mean I am going to eat it all the time (altho it will be popping up a lot in my food journal for the next couple days until the bag I bought is gone lol) but it is something that I really love that I have found a way to incorporate in to my diet. Hooya! I will take what small victories I can get! lol

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Just Another Sunday…

5 Jul

Nothing hugely fun or exciting happened today; ah Sunday, the most boring day out there. lol. I tended to my tatt (the care of this thing is gonna drive me nuts!), ran some errands and basically just hung out. shrug. If you can’t be lazy and a slob on a day nothing is expected of you when else can you do it? teehee 🙂

Since I slept in so late (around noonish!!) I had a conundrum – how to eat my points without eating some huge meal that will make me feel icky? This is something that happens to me every day I don’t work; I sleep in and my whole eating plan is screwy. However, this day I figured it out! Hooya!

I still have food in my cupboards that are so high in points I have been not eating them; they just sit there taking up space. Soooo, for dinner I had Ichiban (12 frickin points per package!!!) because why not? I had the points to spare. It worked out perfectly, I used all my points (well, ok, I was 0.5 point under but that’s ok) and don’t feel over stuffed or disgusting. Yah me!

Here is what I had today:

1/2 mango = 1 point

1.5 nectarines = 1.5 points

1 peach = 1 point

2 triangles Laughing Cow Cheese Light = 1 point

1 package Ichiban = 12 points

1 peanut butter and jam sandwich

2 pieces of bread = 2 points

1 tbls Light Peanut Butter = 2 points

1 tbls Raspberry Jam = 1 point

1 Weight Watcher candy (Peanut Butter Crunch) = 1 point

Total points used today is 22.5 points. Back on track! I think yesterday was an anomaly, if I hadn’t gone to that night market I would have eaten my points and that would have been that. It’s just a matter of being careful where I go and how I act when I am there. I knew to watch out for some scenarios – like when I went to the movies and ate a snack before hand so I wouldn’t buy candy, shrug, I just didn’t think how the night market might be a temptation. To be honest, I thought the night market was going to be more like a farmer’s market so I was expecting booths with fruit, veggies and random items (I went in the hopes of finding a case for my blackberry, sadly they had none I liked). I think as long as I am careful in the future and anticipate better I will be just fine. 🙂

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Weigh In Day!!

4 Jul

OMG OMG OMG I LOST WEIGHT!!!!!! wOOt!!! 😀 😀 😀

I s’pose I shouldn’t be quite so excited about it since it was only a small-ish amount but I don’t care, it’s my first documented weight loss so I am gonna continue to do my happy boogie dance. lol.

I lost…ready for it?…1.8 pounds! That’s only 0.2 pounds under 2 pounds and my goal is to lose 2 pounds a week so I almost made it! Maybe I shouldn’t be so glad about it since I didn’t make my 2 pound goal for the week but I think I did pretty well so glad I shall be. 🙂

Now what did I do this momentous day, did I celebrate by drinking only water? Going for a hike? Eating super healthy because of being inspired? Well…no. I started the day off pretty well, a nice big healthy salad but then the day snowballed (food wise) and now I have eaten more points in this one day then in any day since this whole adventure started. Not good! I thought if my weighing in showed a weight loss I’d be even more inspired and do even better but it appears to have a slightly opposite affect. I didn’t feel that “oh, I lost weight so it’s ok to eat now” it was more “I only had a salad today and I have been doing so well it’s ok if I use some extra points” Not the best way to be thinking!

On a good note I felt great about myself all day; even though logically I know I don’t look any different I felt better about how I look and as a result felt better it my clothes and didn’t feel like some overweight ugly blob that everyone was looking at and judging. I know this won’t last probably longer then today; such a small amount of weight loss will not create a permanent change in my perception of my body but for today it was great. I think, in the coming weeks if it gets harder and I am really tempted to cheat I will try really hard to remember this feeling and realize that when I have lost 10 pounds the feeling will be even bigger and maybe slightly more permanent. Cause, a 10 pound loss would have more of an impact on what I look like, right? Goes to figure that the feeling of not looking like a horrible bump on a log might be a tad more permanent when I will actually look different, right?

Oh, on a (slight) side note, the pants that are my other gauge of weight loss did not fit better – not that I could notice anyways. shrug. Guess the weight came off some other section of my body. At this point I don’t really care where it came off, I am just glad it came off! lol.

Most of my food points today are guesses because the roomie and I went to the Night Market – the Night Market is like an outdoor fair with some games, one pathetic ride and a lot of booths selling food and random oddities (mostly over priced jewellery). It was alright, nothing so amazingly great that I just have to go back but it was fun as a one off. However, due to the food options and the face that in places like that I am always tempted to spend money I don’t have I probably won’t go back.

Ok, so here is what I ate (brace yourself!)

1 Fresh Express Salad Salsa Supreme = 8 points

2 pieces of toast = 2 points

2 tsp marg = 2 points

1/2 medium slush = 1 point

1 cup cherries = 1 point

potato on a stick (yes, you read that right lol) = 6 points

1 steamed bbq pork bun = 4 points

1 duck wrap = 5 points

1 bubble tea = 7 points (can you believe that?!?!)

So, that puts me at…I can’t believe I am admitting this, 36 points! I am actually ashamed. It’s easy to over eat and not feel ashamed about it when you aren’t tracking what you are eating; you can convince yourself you didn’t eat all that much or that what you ate wasn’t all that bad but seeing it written down like this, oh man, not good!  I guess that will be the inspiration I need to keep at it; that combined with the scale number going down down down.

potato on a stick…mine was drizzled with ketchop, tasted like a big french fry!

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Blackberries, Tattoos and Weight Loss

3 Jul

So it has been a busy couple days; yesterday I went shopping and came away with a Blackberry Bold and today after work I went shopping and came away with an inner wrist tattoo…ah the things we do to ourselves. When did we stop spending all our money on shoes? lol. The reason I am telling you this is because to look at my posts I am obsessed with Weight Watchers, you’d think my life revolved around it…sadly, it kinda does.

I was out tonight with a friend, KL, and we wanted to grab a bite to eat before going to a movie. KL wanted to hit up this nice looking sushi place and I had to go to Subway…that’s right, I said had. I pre-calculated my points so I knew what I would be tallying up if I ate the already chosen sub whereas if I went for sushi I’d be guessing and I know I would have eaten over my points. sigh. I sat with KL while she ate and it looked and smelled sooooo good but not one little bite went past my lips. While I am marginally happy about my apparently increasing willpower when it comes to food I am sad that I couldn’t partake in the sushi feast.

You are supposed to be able to eat anything you want on Weight Watchers but that’s a bit of  a lie, I couldn’t have eaten what I wanted at that sushi restaurant not without using a ridiculous amount of flex points. I  have gradually been cutting out of my life foods that don’t fall in to the points realm, Almond Roca (3 pieces = 6 points) – in my opinion not worth it so I have cut them out. I will miss them but I’d rather be skinny then eat Almond Roca. But sushi??? I have given up so many foods already and it looks like the list is just going to keep getting longer.

So now it is almost midnight, I am freakin tired and am I sleeping? Nope I am doing laundry and worrying about tomorrow because tomorrow is….dun dun dun…Weigh In Day *insert scary music here* Will I lose weight? Will I gain weight? Will I stay the same? Will the pants fit any differently, and if so a good or a bad different? I want to know but I am scared to find out; what if I have been doing all this work (and it is work!) and nothing has come of it? I know I have to be patient, I keep trying to remind myself of that, maybe this first week weigh in I won’t lose anything, maybe it will take longer to get results but I am a result oriented person and I need to see results to keep me motivated. Will I be able to keep going if the scale doesn’t show I have lost weight? I guess there is nothing to do about it until tomorrow when I weigh myself and see what my reaction is to whatever that damn digital screen tells me.

So here’s my food for the day:

1 bagel = 3 points

1 tbsp light cream cheese = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1 Shrimp and Scallop Pasta Bowl from M&M Meath Shops = 6 points

2 triangles of Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1/2 small Blenz Fruitchillo with yogurt = 4 points

6″ Subway Turkey sub on 9 grain whole wheat = 6 points

extra stuff on sub (cheese, light may, mustard) = 4 points

1 package popcorn = 1 point

That puts me at a total of…28

Aw shit, how’d that happen? Admittedly some of the points are estimated so maybe I didn’t do as badly as I calculated but maybe I did worse? And the day before weigh in day! Argh! The sub is 6 points, that’s taking the nutritional info from the Subway site but their info doesn’t include the light mayo, mustard and cheese I got put on so I had to guestimate how many extra points that is. And the Blenz drink, well, the Blenz website is not as helpful as I would like for nutritional info, sigh. All their calculations are based on the medium sized drink…I had a small and only drank half of that! I have no idea how many points that is so I took the 9 points the medium drink is and pared it back a bit. shrug. It’s the best I can do.

I also broke a cardinal rule, oh dear, never ever eat anything salty the last couple days before weigh in day cause you’ll retain water…and what did I do? I ate popcorn while sitting here typing, dammit! I needed a snack though and it seemed perfect, wasn’t till I was eating it I realized the mistake I was making. *rolls eyes* Maybe today I was trying to sabotage myself so that if I fail tomorrow on the scale I have built in excuses (oh, I probably did lose weight but I am retaining water from the popcorn so the scale doesn’t reflect it) Someone needs to smack me tomorrow if I write something like that down…that sounds like a joke but I mean it! I have a horrible habit of self sabotaging myself and to that I say No More!!!

Now, I am off to tend to the tattoo, hopefully the next time I type I will be a couple pounds lighter! 🙂

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A Grown Up Dinner

2 Jul

I had a crappy end to my work day yesterday and got home later then normal. Now, yes I am an emotional eater but no I am not – weird how you can be both isn’t it? Sometimes when I have a crappy day I eat, other times when I have a crappy day I don’t eat. I am not sure why sometimes I do and sometimes I don’t -I just know I do both. lol.

By the time I left work yesterday I was starving (cause of the time) and all I wanted to do was EAT!! I had to force myself to not dive in to the cupboards at home and make some KD or something even worse, oy! I had however realized something like this might happen and I would need something quick, easy and healthy to make so that’s what I pulled out. 🙂

I had bought a Salmon Steak in Dill Sauce that can be put in the oven or the microwave (the microwave only takes 6 mins) and there you go, healthy chunk of protein. I paired it with some mashed sweet potatoes and mixed veggies.  I realized after I had it on the plate that I had made a dinner my mother would make – a real grown up dinner! I actually called to tell her cause it was such an amazing thing. lol.  This is not going to herald a permanent change in my eating habits mind you; I will for the most part continue to eat the way I have been but the dinner was yummy enough that I may just duplicate it sometime…not too soon though! lol

Yesterday I ate:

3/4 cup Special K Almond = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

1/2 serving whole wheat pasta = 2.5 points

1/4 cup Knorr alfredo sauce = 2 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

2 triangles Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1 cup cherries = 1 point

1 cup mashed yams = 3 points

1 Salmon Steak = 3 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

2 maple cookies = 4 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

This totals 22.5 points – I didn’t realize until today that I forgot to add in to my daily points the 1 tsp of margarine I used in the mashed yams so really I used 23.5 which is a pisser cause I didn’t want to use any flex points but there you have it.

On a plus note it was Cake Day at work, once a month at work cakes are brought in to celebrate whoever had a bday that month. There was a Dairy Queen ice cream cake and a 4 layer strawberry shortcake; they both looked amazing! I checked the nutritional info for DQ ice cream cakes before going to the lunch room to see if I could eat a slice, or at least a portion of a slice. Well! Those cakes are so ridiculously bad for you! It’s just ice cream for heavens sake! If it is an 8″ round ice cream cake 1/8 of the cake is 12 points, if it’s a 10″ cake 1/10 of the cake is 15 points! Absolutely NOT!!! I still went to the lunch room for the socializing part of cake day but I didn’t eat any of the cake. The weird part is I didn’t really want any and I didn’t feel deprived that I wasn’t eating any, shrug, I was pleasantly full from lunch and at the end of my lunch had some fruit so I had some natural sugar in me – guess my body didn’t want the bad-for-me sugar that was in the cake. Crazeeeee!

Now, for today, Happy Canada Day btw…

I slept in ridiculously late, so late I won’t even put the time on here because it was that late and when I finally got up I was starved. I find whenever I miss a meal now I feel more starved then I used to; I think this means my stomach is now used to eating on a regular basis and when it misses a meal it notices more. It’s kinda annoying but oh well.

So my food today, I wanted something huge to eat when I got up but I totally went overboard. Ugh. I had some cereal and milk while I was boiling then pan frying some baby potatoes. Once the potatoes were getting close to ready I made some eggs and with that paired some cheese and toast…can you believe that!?!?! I realized afterwards it was some werid kind of binge, the likes of which I used to do but thought I had stopped. The only difference is I felt worse at the end instead of better like I used to.  It left me feeling gross and not wanting to do anything as a result. Then, when the day was mostly over and I was home again I realized I had to eat something else since I had a tonne of points left but my overeating before made me not want anything. sigh. I think I will have to force myself to eat properly on days off cause when I don’t it just messes me up.

My food today:

3/4 cup Red Berry Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

5 baby potatoes = 1 point

2 pcs toast = 2 points

2 eggs scrambled = 4 points

30 grams marble cheese = 3 points

1 pepperoni pizza pop = 6 points

1 cup 1% milk = 2 points

1 nectarine = 1 point

1 cup cherries = 1 point

This is exactly 23 points used. I did the same mistake as yesterday though, I forgot to add in the small things used when making the food. I had 2 tsp margarine on the toast so thats 2 points, and I didn’t add that in so when I was looking at how many points I had left to use I chose the pizza pop because of how high in points it was and figured I’d top that off with two pieces of fruit since I hadn’t had any yet today. If I hadn’t eaten the fruit I would have been even on my points for the day, as it is I am two over, I think though that it’s ok to be two over today because if I hadn’t had the fruit my food eaten would have had nothing fresh.

That means that so far this week I am, what, 3 points in to my flex points? Annoying but dealable.

On  a side note I totally wanted to try on my pants that are my test for it I have lost weight but made myself not do it cause that is a once a week only thing – I tend to get obsessive when trying to lose weight so I made a rule I can only weigh myself and try on those pants once a week (on saturdays), otherwise I’d be checking the numbers and trying those damn pants on multiple times a day and thats just demoralizing. lol

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Eating a cookie is a chore?? That’s so wrong!

30 Jun

I am having trouble using all my Weight Watchers points, who’d of thunk it? lol.

Before I was on Weight Watchers I would eat dinner (most days anyways) and after my huge dinner I would have a cup of tea and about a half hour or so after that a dessert of some kind. Not anything extravagant just some cookies or a package of Pocky maybe…whatever I happened to have around that was a little sweet. It was a little treat I really enjoyed. Well, the past couple days I have dinner, I have my tea, and then I am done…I don’t want anything else. No desire for a little sweet something, no hunger pangs making me want anything…nuthin! I still eat something – I mean, I kinda hafta since I have points left but I don’t really want anything. shrug. Weird. 😛

Last night I got busy with other things and didn’t remember till right before I was going to bed I still had 5 points left…5 Points!! That’s a lot, I can justify not eating 1 point…maybe 2 but not 5! I had to actually force myself to eat my cookies and drink my milk, ugh. If I could have gotten away with eating something a lot lighter I would have but everything lighter (ex. fruit) is too low in points and I’d have to eat way more of it to use up those stupid 5 points. Lame.

I can’t believe I actually had to force myself to eat a cookie…who does that?! Cookies are enjoyable, yummy, full of flavour and just bad enough for you that you automatically want more…and I had to practically choke them down. So so so wrong. *shakes head*

Today I ate a higher in points lunch cause I was going out after work and wasn’t sure when I would get to eat dinner; also, being all proactive an all I ate a yogurt right before I left work and cut up an apple to take with me so if I needed something to snack on while out I had food all ready for eating and wouldn’t be tempted to buy something at the food court. This whole planning ahead thing kinda rocks, not saying I will do it all the time but this time it paid off! The yogurt held me over till I was on my way home and I ate the apple while driving home thereby not stopping at any of the numerous fast food places I passed. Also, when I got home I didn’t dive in to the kitchen and make whatever the first thing I saw was and snack away on things the whole time the food was cooking. I was controlled enough to calculate my remaining points for the day and figure out the best dinner to have that would use my points. Creepy! 😛

I also found the best 1 point weight watchers snacks; they are from Safeway and come in bags with I am not sure how many pieces in it. They are little 1 point, 1 or 2 bite (depending on the size of your mouth, lol) chocolates etc. Basically really miniature chocolate bars. Todays was Coconut covered in Milk Chocolate, like a Bounty Bar…I fully savoured it, lol, made it last 4 whole bites and it was goooood! You can find a site about them at www.russellstover.com , I haven’t really checked out the site all that much but a quick glance shows they have way more variety then I had realized. I will have to keep an eye out for more.

one point per piece

So here is what I ate today:

3/4 cup Almond Special K = 2 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

1 banana = 2 points

3/4 of a cup Brown Sugar and Bacon Baked Beans = 4.5 points

1 piece of toast = 2 points

1 cup cherries = 1 point

1 Activia Yogurt = 2 points

1 apple = 1 point

1/2 serving whole wheat pasta = 2.5 points

mixed veggies = 0 points

1/4 cup alfredo sauce = 2 points

2 triangles Laughing Cow Light Cheese = 1 point

1 peach = 1 point

1 Whitman’s Weight Watchers Chocolate = 1 point

Used all 23 points and ate them early enough I don’t feel full and icky before going to bed. Yah! 🙂 Oh, and in keeping with the proactive thing I made a second batch of dinner and have it in the fridge ready for tomorrows lunch. Awesome! Hmmm, it’s a little sad I get so excited about that…lol

I have also decided to not list my drinks in my food list unless they cost me points; there isn’t really a point to listing my tea and water when they don’t count for anything. Doesn’t mean I am not drinking though!

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