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Carbs and Chocolate

18 Mar

All I have wanted this entire week is carbs and chocolate – and lemme tell ya, it’s been hard to resist the wanting…most of the time I haven’t resisted, I caved…no, not just caved, I jumped off the diving board marked willpower and cannon balled into a pool of liquid chocolate that had bread pieces for dipping. YUM! 😀 lol

I keep dipping a spoon in to my jar of Nutella and not writing it down in my tracker – after all, a little spoonful of Nutella doesn’t count right? HA! Maybe not that first spoonful but the multiple spoonfuls since then sure do add up! 😛

Part of me feels badly about my eating this week, I’ve been eating all kinds of bad-for-me foods and I am definitely scared for weigh in day tomorrow – oh man, that scale is gonna show such a not good number, I can feel it! Even though I feel a bit bad I don’t feel as crappy as one would expect – I think it’s cause it’s been such a shitty week and those various foods I ate are the only things that kept me sane.

What can I say – certain foods are classified “comfort foods” for a reason.

Monday: crap news at work about work – I had a personal sized pizza and dessert bread sticks for dinner.

Thursday: guy at work made a comment that made me feel  like I weigh 1000 lbs, I drank a small milkshake and over the course of the day ate 5 pancakes, 3 of which had nutella spread on them.

I baked cookies last Sunday and ate some everyday until they were completely gone, I believe the last day they were around was Tuesday – so that’s 3 days of eating cookies.

Friday (today): ate over my points deliberately cause I neeeeeded chocolate and couldn’t find a way to not eat it (admittedly, I didn’t try very hard to find a way to not eat it…hormones ya know?)

So, hmm, looking back, bad week? Yes! As bad as I feel it was? Oddly enough, No. Go fig. I thought I overate everyday and it looks like I didn’t, which is good, but the pizza and dessert breadsticks put me so far in to my flex points on Monday that really, I should have been uber careful the rest of the week to ensure I didn’t use all my flex points for the week. But yeah, I didn’t. Instead I was ruled by hormones and emotions and ate my feelings…

I used to do that a lot more often, eat my feelings I mean. If a day was good -celebrate with food. If a day was bad – make myself feel better with food. No matter what happened in a day I could find some “reason” to over eat or eat something that was really bad for me (usually fast food, oh how I miss McD’s lol) I have been trying to stop doing that but some days (weeks) I totally fall back in to the habit.

Also, I find if I have a day where I cave and eat something I shouldn’t (say, a cookie or pancakes with nutella on them) then the next day it’s even harder to not eat something on par with that treat. Like, I did it yesterday and didn’t combust so why can’t I eat it again today? I know in my head why I can’t treat myself like that everyday – long term I’d gain all my weight back, but in the moment it can be really hard to remember that.

So yeah, the week has sucked – on a personal front, a work front and a food front. 😦 Luckily, the week is over and I am fully expecting next week to be better – not cause I have some inside knowledge about next week, I am expecting it to be better because well, cause I say it will be! lol So there! 🙂

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aaaand the self esteem plummets

17 Mar

Guys suck, throw rocks at ’em. Some days that quote is just perfect.

It’s been a crappy week – work stuff, acting stuff, pmsing like crazy – I’m surprised I haven’t beaten someone…or eaten an entire tub of nutella (which let me tell ya, still a possibility!)

Today is St. Patrick’s Day (duh!) so a day of fun and green. 😀

Every year McDonald’s for this one day only makes a Shamrock Shake – a mint green milkshake! YUM! I decided that since the milkshake is only made one day out of the year it would be ok for me to get one (size small of course) so some friends at work and I went at lunch time. So no biggy right? One small milkshake isn’t gonna kill me or anything but when I was standing at a friend’s desk waiting for her to get her coat on one of the guys heard where we were going, looked right at me and in front of the entire frickin office said nice n loud “you’re getting a milkshake? aren’t you supposed to be on a diet?”. That might seem like not so bad of a question but it was the tone he said it in…totally made me feel like I am 1000 lbs and shouldn’t ever even think about getting a milkshake let alone actually drinking it. 😦  And to make it worse the entire office went silent and stared at him then at me with looks on their faces like “wtf??”

My first instinct was to go over and punch him, which would’ve gotten me fired, sigh, so instead I walked off in the other direction. I ended up kicking a wall and thank goodness my boot protected my foot!

If it hadn’t been for my friends telling me to ignore him and to still go to McD’s I so would have just gone and sat down and eaten my soup. I hate that something stupid someone said could make me feel so down about my weight. The whole rest of the day I just kept thinking all kinds of negative things about my weight. grr. No one should have that kind of power over someone else and yet…obviously heartless stupid comments do have a strong impact on me, as evidenced by today.

So it’s yet one more crappy day – this week blows. I can’t wait for it to be over, although, I am terrified for weigh in day. eek. This week I have eaten pizza, dessert breadsticks and a milkshake…not good! Too many cheats in one week. I’ve gotta tighten up the reins and be more careful or I’ll lose ground – and that would suck even more then mean comments from stupid guys at work!

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From Sadness to Fear to Anger to Self Medication

14 Mar

Have you ever noticed how fear makes us do weird things? We all react to it differently and a situation that intellectually isn’t that big of a deal grows so huge in our heads we freak out.

There’s legit fear; like what those in Japan have been feeling for days – earthquake, tsunami and now failing power plants, they are probably wondering what is going to happen next, I know I am.

But there is another fear, fear on a personal level about all kinds of things. Fear of embarassment, fear caused by your pride, fear of illness, pain, poverty…

The type I felt today was fear of change.

Normally I spout on about the greatness that is change – change your hairstyle, wardrobe, food, always try something new when you have the chance, always choose the thing you haven’t done yet because change makes you grow…and growth is all kinds of good! 😀

Sometimes though something changes that throws you, something you never really thought about changing and therefore didn’t prepare for.

All my talk about loving change and today I was knocked back a step, reminded how replaceable I am, how in this large company I am no more important then a background person on a movie set – I am a breathing prop.

Nobody wants to be that; nobody wants to think their manager will just trade them to a different section of the company without any advance notice, a question about if you want to go…hell, a hint?!

Today I got pulled aside and told I am being switched to a different department, my work load is being redistributed to those I have to leave behind and the contents of my desk will be moved to a new section.

Now sure, it could be worse. At least I know on a friendly lunch room sociable level those I’ll be working with but I don’t even know what they do let alone what I will be doing.

A person I trained who recently got traded over to this same departmant will now be training me – ah, see how pride can rear it’s ugly head?

So, let’s recap my emotions of the day since my being told of my shift at work:

(1) shock, surprise (2) sadness at not getting to sit near my friend, at being booted out of the department I have been in for so long, at having to move where I sit (3) bit more shock when I fully realized how replaceable I am (4) fear about my new job, new area I will be sitting in, people I will be sitting with, what will be expected of me, fear of the unknown (5) anger at myself for being so weak and whiny I would be scared over a change as insignificant as this

So how does all this connect to my weight loss? Cause we all know I have to link everything back to that at some point…lol

Simple, my overly emotional day (mostly, well, ok, all negative emotions) put me on a roller coaster I am not good at riding. Some people self medicate with alcohol, cigarettes, drugs of some sort…I use food. *rolls eyes* So that is what I did today for dinner…I stopped at Panago Pizza on the way home and ordered a personal sized beef taco pizza with jalapeno ranch dipping sauce and I also got the dessert bread sticks…cause the pizza isn’t bad enough apparently.

Hey, sure, it’s not a good way to deal with what happened but it could’ve been worse! I could have followed through with my original plan to hit up a liquor store, so there! 😛 Least the calories I took in were food related and there were some food groups in there (I get my pizza loaded with lettuce and tomato) instead of just inhaling empty calories on beer…lemme at least pretend there is a silver lining here ok?

The day started off well, I read up on the amount of servings expected per day for all the food groups and was well on my way of hitting the 6-8 fruit veggie servings we are supposed to get per day but yeah, I so failed that plan. sigh. Ah well, that’s what tomorrow is for…stupid emotions…see if I let you kick my butt next time! Grr!

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Celebrate! woohoo!

12 Mar

30.8! thirty decimal eight! trente virgule huit! This is how much weight I have lost in total as of today!! I made it to the thirties! 😀 😀 😀

I lost exactly 1 pound this week, yah! 😀

Soooo yeah, today has totally rocked. lol. How could it not?

My mini treat to myself was a new pair of work pants if I hit 30lbs lost but shopping costs money and I don’t have that right now so instead I am going to treat myself with a perogy dinner lol. Not as exciting as a new pair of pants but hey, it’s something! And next week I will buy the pants. 🙂

Not much has happened today, besides my crazed happy dance after I saw the number on the scale, lol, I have been totally up in self esteem today which is always nice. And yeah, I know! I shouldn’t base my self esteem on my looks but uh, hello? Do you live in this society?

I may act all confident an stuff but a huge part of my self esteem is based on my looks and feeling confident in how others see me. The more weight I lose the better I am feeling about myself and the image I project to others. I wonder what I will feel about myself when I have reached my final weight loss goal…I’ll probably have to find some new way to keep my self esteem high once that happens cause even I can’t maintain high self esteem solely based on my looks…I’m shallow but not that shallow lol. 😛

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More Fruit and Water!

9 Mar

Lately I have not been drinking as much water (or any fluids really) as I should be and I also cut down on my fruit intake. There are many reasons for both of these situations, none of the reasons are really good ones but, shrug, they are what I have. lol.

Winter hit which means fresh fruit prices shot up and my weight went down which means so did my daily allotment of points so I stopped eating fruit snacks at work cause I wanted to make sure I had enough points left at the end of the day for a good dinner. So, money and less points are what got me in to this predicament…well, for the fruit anyways. lol.

The water? Yeah, I don’t know what happened there…actually, maybe I do. It’s been cold, I don’t want to drink water when it is cold. And yes, I know that it’s not just 8 glasses of water we are supposed to drink a day but 8 glasses of fluid but even with my increased tea drinking that didn’t make up for the water I had stopped drinking. sigh. When the weather was nice and it was still daylight when I got home after work I would go hiking on a trail near my place, I was averaging that hike 3 times a week before winter hit so that’s not bad. On those days I sooooo got all my fluids for the day cause when I got home from the hike I’d drink a huge bottle of water and then shower and then drink another huge bottle of water throughout the evening. Combine that with all the water I was drinking at work during the day and, shrug, I was good to go. 🙂 

But yeah, winter, no exercise, expensive fruit, fewer points – all of this combined to where all of a sudden I realized I had drastically decreased my fluid intake and fruit intake – Not good! In fact…BAD!

Yesterday I started pushing the fluid intake and today I started increasing my fruit…so far, I like it. 🙂

I used to eat a piece of fruit mid morning and mid afternoon at work but I stopped cause I didn’t want to use the points up during the day – I became worried I’d not have enough points for dinner so I cut the fruit. Well, I generally have enough points for dinner plus a good chunk left over for a snack so I figure, cut down on the evening snack and replace it with a mid afternoon snack. I still don’t eat fruit mid morning but that’s cause I am not hungry for it so I have started eating that piece of fruit with my lunch. shrug. It worked today so hopefully it’ll keep working…

Today I ate:

1 package instant Quaker oatmeal = 3 points

1 cup carrot soup = 2 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

1 orange = 1 point

1 pear = 1 point

1 bagel = 3 points

2 pieces deli turkey = 0 points

15 grams shredded cheese = 1 point

baby spinach, mustard = 0 points

1 mini red velvet cupcake = 2 points

57 grams Just Bunches cereal = 4 points

1/2 cup 1% milk = 1 point

2 digestive cookies = 2 points

Total Points Eaten = 20 😀

I feel like this is the first day in ages where I have eaten all my points and there wasn’t any guessing involved – everything I ate today is countable and I got 2 servings of fruit and 1 serving of veggies, not perfect but better then yesterday! lol

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Off The Rails

7 Mar

What. The. Hell.

Food today was, well, I don’t even have words, I went soooo off the rails it’s ri-donk-u-lous!

Day started off nice n normal, I had some Quaker Instant Oatmeal for brekkie, yum. 🙂 There was a work-meeting-lunch-thingy (don’t I sound professional? lol) today that we all HAD to go to…I think they provide food at these things cause the upper management knows we will find excuses to not go if there wasn’t the bribe of free food. lol. 😛

So, way limited options for what to eat, I had: one piece of chicken breast (skinless, boneless), 2 spears of asparagus, salad, 4 potato wedges, 2 slices of tomato (that added together equals almost 1 entire tomato), 1 serving tomato and red pepper soup with 2 accompanying pieces of toasted buttered baquette. Now, sure, some of that I should have just not touched (like the bread) but overall it doesn’t sound so bad, right?

Well, I think I got screwed.

When I was done eating want to know what was left on my plate? Oil. Yup, that’s right, lots and lots of oil. Ick. It looked so gross it made me regret everything I ate cause sure, the food was good, but it wasn’t amazing and wasn’t sooooooo good it was worth tonnes of points (aka calories). Also, every item had oil or sauce or something on it! Like the asparagus, it wasn’t just plain, it was sitting in a serving platter that soaked it in some kind of sauce – I tried to get two pieces that were on the top of the pile so as to reduce the amount of sauce but the sauce was still there. Every item was like that. 😦 I think I have become too used to healthy home cooked food cause I just kept thinking “is that really necessary?” when looking at the dressings and sauces. Weird. I never used to think like that. If I had eaten this meal pre-weight watchers I wouldn’t have had second thoughts about all the hidden calories but even with trying to select healthy options I am sure I ended up eating way more points then I ever would have knowingly chosen. Oy!

Oh, wait, I had a cookie there too, sigh, and just to totally confess I ate two mini cupcakes – Not store bought though! I baked Red Velvet Cupcakes with Cream Cheese frosting last night to take to work and I totally caved and ate 2 today! Ack! I never eat my own baking so you know if I cave and eat some of it then it’s a damn good baked product, lol. 😉 They really are quite yummy but I can’t calculate the points exactly. The original recipe is 3 points per cupcake (that’s with NO frosting) but the original recipe also says it makes 20 mini cupcakes, so I used my mini cupcake trays and uh yeah, totally made more then 20, I’m not sure how many in total it would have made cause I ran out of mini cupcake papers and had to switch to the larger size and make some large sized cupcakes. shrug. How am I supposed to calculate the points when I made 2 different sizes? *confused face* Ah well, I’ve decided to not worry about it, I will bake them again and make sure that time they are all one size and figure the points out then. 🙂

So did I have a uber healthy dinner to make up for the un-countable lunch I ate? Nope. Not even close! lol

I had real oatmeal (not the instant kind) – and yeah, I know, stupid to eat oatmeal twice in one day but I really wanted it! So, I cut up half a banana and put it in the oatmeal (check in the good column) but then I made 2 pieces of toast and put light peanut butter on one piece then sliced the rest of the banana on top (check in the stupid column). The second piece of toast I put a small amount of margarine (check in the not great not stupid column). Oh yeah, the truly awesome part, I then ate a spoonful of light peanut butter, a small spoonful of cream cheese icing and two digestive cookies with cream cheese icing spread on top…really great huh? (lots of checks in the omg you are the dumbest homo sapien on the planet column)

So there we have it, somehome, I went way way way off the rails and couldn’t even bring myself to care when I was picking up the food and stuffing it in my face. *rolls eyes* I care now of course, when it is too late to not ingest the calories. sigh.

I want to say tomorrow is gonna be way better and breakfast and lunch probably will be but I am going out to a play after work and am not sure when/what I will be eating for dinner – I am hoping to get Subway – yummy, healthy, cheap and something I am able to calculate points for. Gotta love the good ‘ol standby of Subway. lol. 🙂

Oh!Oh!Oh! On a different note! My weight loss for last week was 0.4lbs – which kinda lame right? What makes it even lamer is I was 0.6lbs from reaching 30lbs lost so instead of reaching 30lbs lost I am now 0.2lbs away from the 30lbs lost. 0.2 Pounds!!!!! Sooooooooo close! sigh. I have to get there eventually, right?

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Delish Frozen Entree

3 Mar

So after my horror of an experience with the SmartOnes soup I was a tad worried to try my newest SmartOnes frozen entree. Even though all the frozen entrees I have tried from them have been good it’s that whole “once bitten twice shy” syndrome – if they can screw up something as simple as soup who knows what they can do to a chicken and cheese quesadilla?

Which, there you go, that was my dinner last night. 🙂 Normally I don’t eat the frozen entrees for dinner, I mean come on, I am home, I can cook something better then what I can heat up from a box in my freezer…although a lot of my cooking is taking things out of the freezer and putting them in the stove, which is just a large microwave…huh…something to ponder there…

Anyways, I made the quesadillas at home cause when I bought them I thought it was 4 points for the contents of the box but it was 4 points per quesadilla and there are 2 in the box. Now sure, you might be thinking “hey there shrinking woman, why didn’t you just eat one and put the other back in the freezer, duh!” well, my response to that is “dear reader, both quesadillas are wrapped in one piece of plastic so if I put one back in the freezer it will get freezer burn because it is no longer properly protected” See how polite I am though? No “duh!” from me to you. 😉 lol

When I realized this I decided they’d have to be eaten at home so that was my dinner yesterday. I worried they’d be stupid small and not very filling so I made a nice big serving of cooked mixed veggies and after the quesadillas were heated up I opened them and filled them with salsa. lol. Salsa is zero points (score!) and would make the meal more filling, pretty smart huh? Ok sure, a frickin monkey could have thought of it but gimme a break! lol.

Turned out the quesadillas were really yummy and a decent size! Chicken, cheese and salsa all in a tortilla…oh I think there were peppers in there too. I highly recommend them! 😀 If you really just wanted to eat one I say pair it with a salad or some veggies but if you eat both at one time, a definite meal all by themselves. 🙂

On another note, I emailed SmartOnes about the soup fiasco and got an email from them saying they “apologized for any concern and disappointment caused”. They also said they’d follow up with me about compensation for the product in question but I haven’t heard anything about that yet…I know some companies if you email or write to complain about a product they will send you a coupon or something and I think that is great. I mean, if you buy a product and there is something wrong with it you should be able to get compensated for the money you spent, right?

Or maybe it’s just that we live in a society that promotes our feeling like we are entitled to compensation when something doesn’t go our way?

Either way, I kinda hope I get a coupon…lol

So today I ate:

1 Quaker Maple and Brown Sugar Oatmeal pckg = 3 points

1/2 cup tomato sauce baked beans = 3 points

1 piece toast = 1 point

1 orange = 1 point

85 grams whole wheat pasta = 5 points

1/4 cup alfredo sauce = 1 point

cooked mixed veggies = 0 points

1 pancake = 1 point

1 Jaffa Bar = 2 points

2 digestive cookies = 2 points

1/2 tbls Nutella = 1 point

Total Points Eaten = 20 😀

Perfect!

I want another nibble of something but am refraining because I am not actually hungry just nibbly and I am going out for sushi dinner tomorrow evening and meeting a friend saturday for lunch so that’s gonna be a lot of food I can’t control in a short amount of time. I know refraining from eating one or two extra points tonight probably isn’t gonna make that big of a difference but at least I am trying…I am controlling tonight what I eat because I have that ability…tomorrow and saturday? Not so much 😛

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Worst Soup Ever!

1 Mar

Today was a bad food day; not bad like I screwed up on my points or something but bad like my lunch was gross and dinner had problems too. Sadness. 😦

Lunch was a can of Weight Watchers SmartOnes soup, Homestyle Vegetable and Noodle flavour. Sounds yummy, right? Well, I thought it did. 🙂 It was my first time trying this flavour and I will never buy it again, yuck! The first thing I didn’t like was the seasoning in the broth – now, that is a purely personal taste bud thing so don’t judge the soup based on that! lol.

The second thing that was gross was the noodles; they were slimy. Actually slimy! I have had canned soup that had noodles in it and those noodles weren’t slimy so I don’t know what the hell happened to these noodles to make them that way. *shudder*

The third and worst thing? There are corn kernels in the soup; well, I bit down and crunch! No, not even crunch…what’s the descriptive word for when you bite on something hard as a friggin rock that not even your teeth can break? Well, whatever that noise is…hear that! lol. I know it was corn cause I took it out of my mouth to have a look. Yuck.

So that was my lunch experience – could have gone better…

Dinner was a salmon steak, some sweet potato fries and veggies. Not so shabby huh? Well, the fries got burned while still somehow being soft instead of crunchy and the salmon tasted…not bad…just, not quite the way it normally does. I think cause more of the sauce then usual seemed to slip off the salmon and burn on the tin foil the fish was sitting on.

It’s like my food day was cursed or something!

I made up for it by eating half a Purdy’s chocolate bar, yum! I split it with the roomie because I knew if I opened it and cut it in half I’d end up eating it all but if I gave half away, well, can’t eat it then! lol. It was Purdy’s version of a Bounty bar, so chocolate wrapped around coconut, holy crap way good! 😀 The entire bar is 5 points but 2.5 points for half a bar isn’t so bad. The half bar I had was perfect though, eating the whole thing would have been too much, the half was the perfect amount of sweet and full of awesome taste. I totally recommend that chocolate bar – but only eat half at a time! lol 😀

Today I ate:

1 package Quaker Maple & Brown Sugar oatmeal = 3 points

1 can SmartOnes Homestyle Veg & Noodle soup = 4 points

1 orange = 1 point

2 leftover pancakes = 2 points

1/2 tbls Nutella = 1 point

1/2 tbls light peanut butter = 1 point

1 teriyaki salmon steak = 3 points

cooked mixed veggies = 0 points

85 grams Alexia sweet potato fries = 3 points

2 digestive cookies = 2 points

1/2 Purdy’s chocolate bar = 2.5 points

Total Points Eaten = 22.5

So, yeah, I should have not eaten the chocolate bar, I had reached my points for the day and didn’t neeeeed the chocolate bar but for some reason I ate it…I hate when I don’t have a reason for why I ate something. Even if the reason is pms or emotional eating or whatever least there is a reason, but days like today…no reason, not even a glimmer of a reason in my eye. lol. shrug. Ah well, it’s just the way I am I guess – and really, who wants to have a reason for everything they do? Where’s the fun in that? 😛

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20 Points Is A Lot Today

28 Feb

Some days my 20 daily points just don’t seem like enough – I get hungry, want more food, crave something that won’t easily fit in to my food plan but other days, like today, 20 points is a lot of food. I am sitting here overly stuffed from dinner, something I really didn’t think would happen considering my lunch, but oh my, I soooo ate a big dinner, still have 3 points left and can’t imagine eating anything else the rest of the day – score! 😀

KB at work owed me a 6″ sub from Subway and today was the day we went. Total bonus since I took soup to work for lunch but really wasn’t feelin it, ya know? I had planned to get my standard 6″ on 9 grain whole wheat turkey sub with white cheese, toasted, loaded with veggies, mustard and a small amount of light mayo – this is a 6 point sub (5 points if I don’t get the cheese, but why would I not get the cheese? lol). While in line though I saw an advertisement for an Orchard Chicken Salad sub – they had this sub back in the summer and I wanted to try it then and just didn’t get around to it so I was torn, try it now even though I was already in line and had no way of knowing what the points would be or wait and probably not get back there until after it was once again gone…oh the dilemnas! lol.

I (on impulse) decided to get the Orchard Chicken Salad sub – I’ve really got to work on controlling my impulses cause lately I seem to be giving in to them a lot, sigh. I still got it on the 9 grain whole wheat – that is the healthiest bread they have and I still got the 6″ size so not like I made the sub double as bad as it could be…see how I justify? 😉

The nutrition information isn’t on the Subway website, probably because it’s not one of their regular subs shrug, but hey, that’s what google is for! lol. I googled the sub and found other people who had gotten the info from Subway so my 6″ Orchard Chicken Salad sub cost me 8 points (it would have been 7 if I didn’t get white cheese on it)…huh, just redid my math in my head and I realized I have 2 points left today, not 3…stupid impulses. 😛 So, ok, not as good as the 6 points the turkey sub would have been but it was only 2 points more and it was nice to try something new, and yummy! That sub is way tasty! 😀 There was a sweet and tangy flavour combo and I have no idea what was in it to create that, lol, I emailed Subway asking for the nutritional information (just to make sure what I found online was correct) and I asked them what is in it, cause really, it’s good to know what is in the food you are eating…and hey! maybe I’ll be able to recreate it! 😀

Because of having such a high pointed lunch I thought I was gonna be screwed for dinner but not so! 🙂 For one thing, I wasn’t crazed hungry cause the sub kept me nice an full and even with lunch being 8 points I still had almost half my daily points left. Yah! I had a stuffed chicken breast, wild rice and mixed veggies for dinner, it was delish, easy to make and oh man did it fill me up! I feel almost gross cause of how full I am lol. That was a definite unexpected bonus!

Today I ate:

1 Quaker maple and brown sugar oatmeal package = 3 points

1 Orchard Chicken Salad sub w/cheese = 8 points

1 stuffed chicken breast = 3 points

1 cup Minute Rice – long grain and wild rice = 4 points

mixed cooked veggies = 0 points

Total Points Eaten = 18

I fully intend to use my last 2 points to eat 2 digestive cookies (yum!) they are 1 point each (duh) and will be a perfect end to my day…course I won’t be eating them for at least another hour cause dude, no room in the tummy! I think I am really likin the day where the 20 points feels like a lot, doesn’t happen all that often…maybe this means I am getting used to this level of food? *hopeful face*

OH! Forgot to say! My weigh in on Saturday, I lost 0.8 lbs which puts me at a total loss of 29.4 pounds! Yah! Sooooooo close to the 30 lbs mark! 😀

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Fish + Microwave = Messy Microwave!

25 Feb

For some reason today I kept feeling like cheating – I kept thinking “oh, I’ll treat myself with this or that” when really, there is no reason to have a treat today…I’m fine with having a treat if it’s an occasion (ya know, a birthday or something) heck, even if it’s just cause I am going for dinner with a friend I don’t hang with as often as I would like that is fine but today? There is nothing happening today. If anything I should be more strict today cause of what I ate yesterday…dun dun dun…

Ok, it’s not as bad as my cliffhanger of a paragraph made it seem lol. I was doing really well yesterday, better then I expected considering I had Tim Horton’s donuts staring at me ALL day! It was the really good flavours too! The boston cream, cruillers, raspberry flower, caramel, maple, chocolate, sour cream glazed…man, I shoulda taken a picture lol. So, these donuts are staring at me and I somehow mustered up the willpower to not touch them, amazing! Everyone around me was eating multiple donuts (yeah, you read that right! some of the guys ate 3 each!) and I didn’t even touch a crumb – I just stared a lot. 😛

So after work I rushed home to eat, put some laundry in, change and then rush back out to meet a friend to go to a movie, during all that I kinda killed my fish…er, as in the salmon steak dinner not glub glub little goldfish turning circles in a bowl. I didn’t think I had time to put the salmon steak in the oven so I microwaved it (in my defence, the cooking instructions say this is ok!), well, the sauce started splattering everywhere (it’s teriyaki flavour) so it looked like a bloody war occurred when I opened the microwave door lol. When I ate it the edges were hard and the middle was not as soft and tender or as flavourful as it would be if I cooked it in the oven. sigh. But whatever! I ate it and left.

I took snacks with me to have during the movie, a pre popped package of Jolly Time popcorn (1 point) and a Thinsations yogurt covered pretzels package (2 points), well, somehow my good intentions went out the window and I ended up getting a small swirl frozen yogurt with crushed skor pieces sprinkled on top, yeah yeah, I know, what was I thinking?! I had healthy snacks with me so why’d I buy something? Well, first off, I didn’t actually buy it, KL owed me $3 and that was the cost of the yogurt and secondly, um, I dunno, I don’t have a second, I don’t know why I ate it. shrug. I did it on a whim *rolls eyes* Oh! To compound the error, I also ate the popcorn! lol . 😛

So today, along with the feeling of wanting to treat myself (ie cheat on my diet lol) I also kept feeling like I had screwed my points up and was way over. I don’t know why I felt like that cause I haven’t, but hey, our minds mess with us sometimes. shrug. I couldn’t find exact nutritional information for the frozen yogurt so I have emailed the company asking them for the info I need…hopefully I hear something back from them! But yeah, so this evening, I got home and had really random things for, well, I can’t even call it dinner cause it wasn’t a meal, it was random things cooked at varying times and eaten here and there…and all the while I kept thinking “well, this is all I can have cause I have eaten too much today” – when I hadn’t! Annoying!

I think part of the sensation (this evening anyways) was cause I had a huuuuuge portion of soup for lunch; it was way yummy soup, it’s Campbell’s Healthy Request Fiesta Vegetable and Black Bean Soup – it has lentils and beans (duh!) and tonnes of veggies; slightly spicy but not too much. Thing is, sometimes when I eat too many veggies in one meal it makes my tummy feel icky, not sick exactly but achy and unsettled. I don’t really know if this is normal or not but it’s the way it’s always been so whatev. lol. Anyways, when this happens I instinctively go for carbs, it’s always been this way, usually I will eat some pasta or bread or something and it helps the tummy to feel better so for “dinner” I had two crumpets with cheese and hashbrowns, then later (like hours later) I had one piece of toast with a tiny bit of honey and a stuffed potato with a tiny bit of sour cream. Not the best choices for my evening eats but oh well; it’s eaten now! lol.

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am really super hoping I lose 1.4lbs cause then I will be at 30lbs lost. I don’t actually expect to lose that much, I usually top off at losing 1lb a week which ok, kinda sucky at times but least I am losing consistently! The way I feel right now I don’t think my number on the scale tomorrow will be any smaller then it was last week but I am sure that is just cause my tummy feels kinda off; once I have slept and the bod is all rested I’m sure I will feel different…I hope! 🙂

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