Archive | December, 2013

Random Roundup

13 Dec

I am right this very minute watching Celtic Woman Home For Christmas and loooooving it! This particular concert was filmed in the Helix Theatre in Dublin, *wistful sigh* one of the items on my “List Of Things To Do In Life” is see a Celtic Woman concert in Ireland because the concerts are always so beautiful looking. I saw one here, a couple years ago, and while the beauty of the singers voices brought tears to my eyes the venue left much to be desired. The concert was held where the hockey games are played and that big cube thing that hangs from the ceiling with screens on every side wasn’t sucked up in to the ceiling (nor were the screens used to show a close up view of the stage!) so a lot of people had blocked views. Lame! The concerts that are shown in Ireland though, wow! This one has the main floor of the theatre set up with tables and groups of 4 people are at each table, and one year they performed outside, on a stage in front of a castle! A freakin castle! I think the atmosphere created by such amazing venues would take the show up to that next level, and considering how high of a level they were at when they played here in the hockey arena that’s pretty impressive lol

This first video is all instrumental but the violinist is spectacular! This is one of her tame performances, normally she is leaping all over the stage!

This next video is one of the original ladies of the ensemble. I’m not a religious person but that doesn’t stop this song from being one of my favourite Christmas songs. Most songs are performed by 3-4 women, depending on the season, this just happened to be done solo.

But yeah, so having some trouble concentrating on my writing because I keep looking up at the tv lol

I have some happy happy news! πŸ˜€ I was searching for something to wear to work today, all my normal work pants were still damp (I hang my clothes to dry and they hadn’t quite finished drying, the slow pokes! lol) and while digging in my closet I found a pair of pants I put in there months and months ago cause they had gotten too snug. They were doing that thing where they were uncomfie cause (1) I knew they didn’t look good because they no longer fit properly and (2) they were actually physically uncomfie because they didn’t fit. I had half convinced myself I had shrunk them in the wash but instead of getting rid of them I tucked them away cause ya never know right? Well, out of sheer desperation I tried them on today and holy hannah! They fit! They not only fit they fit comfortably, and a little loosely. Not so loose they were falling down or anything but it wasn’t like they “just fit”. They were comfie, and not tight, and just…well…just perfect! πŸ˜€ Which meeeeeans I must have lost weight! Awesomeness! Now I kinda wish I had weighed myself at the beginning of this challenge, or measured myself or something so I could say “I lost X amount of pounds/inches” but oh well, I’m just happy to know I lost something lol. I have slightly less worries about being able to fit in to the goal pants which fyi, still hanging on my wall waiting for December 22nd. I’m kind of worried though, what if what I’ve been doing isn’t enough? What if I should be pushing more or eating less? What if? What if? What if?…sigh, I’ve gotta stop stressing about this, I’m doing what I can and have to trust the process buuuuuuut it’s hard! lol πŸ˜›

On a sucky note a friend at work was hit by a car this evening while running across the street to catch her bus. 😦 And because I am self-involved and apparently turn everything in to me-me-me I would really like to ask the Universe to stop having bad shit happen on my shifts at work! If I was keeping score, which I may or may not be doing, in the past month I have had 3 falls, 1 death and now a friend hit by a car. *insert scream of frustration here* Luckily I got a phone call from the hospital before my shift ended and it looks like she is going to be fine, she’s still in the process of getting tests but the signs were all good. Phew!

Last night was supposed to be the second part of the German Christmas Market but weather was crap and the three of us decided we’d rather stay in and have a girls night then go to the market and freeze/drown. We all agreed on getting take out and meeting at KS’s place. Luckily I have very UN-judgmental friends and they didn’t make fun of me when my “take out” was a salad and piece of tilapia that I made at home and brought with me lol I figured if I made my own dinner and took it with me I’d know exactly what I was eating nutrition wise aaaaand I’d save money. Win-win! πŸ˜€ I might as well confess that I had an itty bitty piece of cake, it was KS’s birthday recently and she had left over cake, it was chocolate orange flavour, Mmm!

I think I have found, well, almost found, a decent balance of following the eating plan and allowing myself to have little treats here and there. I didn’t feel guilty about eating a tiny bit of cake because I’d been eating really well all week and have my food tracker to prove it! I think I’ll use the Lose It! app for the forseeable future, it prevents me from tricking myself in to thinking I ate healthier than I really had which is important because I find when it comes to weight loss the easiest person to lie to is yourself.

Since I am writing about all kinds of things I will share with you a picture of the boots I am currently lusting over, man oh man do I want these boots buuuut not gonna buy em! Why? Well, cause even on sale I can’t afford them (boo!) but that doesn’t stop me from looking at the picture of them and wishing lol

Aren't they so pretty? And warm looking!

Aren’t they so pretty? And warm looking!

Seems like my brain is all over the place today lol hence a sort of “round up” of all kinds of different things I wanted to share with you.

The cat and I wish you all a great evening! πŸ™‚

Nighty night!

Nighty night!

German Christmas Market Part 1

11 Dec

Any outing that involves hot apple cider is a good outing. Crap! I just remembered I didn’t put that in my food tracker, gimme a sec…

Ok, added, all is well lol πŸ˜›

So back to the German Christmas Market…

Don’t go thinking I flew to Germany lol it is an annual thing that is held in the downtown core. This is my third year going and I love it. It is a simple little market but something about it makes me smile. There is a carousel (which I may have kinda forgot to take a picture of, oops!), booths filled with various foods and drinks and even more booths filled with all kinds of things to buy. Almost all the items for sale (food and non food) are imported from Germany or made here but German inspired. Well…except for the booth with the maple foods, which omg yum! I love love love maple flavoured anything! πŸ˜€ They have maple toffee that is delish! I bought it last year and fully anticipated buying it again this year but alas, it does not fit in to my eating plan (plus I have no idea how to get nutritional information for it, yeah I know I can google but not like I can weigh out the toffee so I know how much I ate, sigh).

I can’t show you, or tell you, what I bought at the market cause most of the items are Christmas presents and the people receiving them may read this blog so hush! lol One thing I bought for myself was tea, yeah I know, I’m so exciting right? But remember how I am trying to expand my tea collection?

I bought Silent Night Tea which is a “winterly selection of our finest tea blends”, there are four flavours in the box, Winter Delight which is a green tea, Stars which is a black tea, Sun Of The Spirit which is a white tea and Bright Light which is a lemon balm – whatever that means! lol The only tea that doesn’t contain caffeine is the Bright Light (the lemon balm flavour) so I am still failing at expanding my non-caffeinated tea collection – I didn’t even think to read the box or ask the guy working the booth if the tea contained caffeine, arg, I suck at shopping for non-caffeinated tea! lol Later, at a tea store I found loose leaf maple tea which seems like the best idea ever! But I didn’t buy it cause it is loose leaf and I don’t have one of those metal ball thingies to put loose leaf tea in, all my tea is in tea bags lol

My Silent Night Tea

My Silent Night Tea

I wore a ridiculous amount of layers to go to the market, I get cold super duper easy and was mildly terrified of being so cold I wouldn’t be having fun soooooo I wore a tank top, then a long sleeved shirt, then a plaid button up shirt, then a hoodie, then a jacket…count that, minus the coat that is 4 layers! FOUR! All that effort to stay warm, which fyi I so did, but my feet froze, sigh. I have the worst luck when it comes to keeping my feet warm, probably because I don’t own warm shoes lol I own boots, leather and man made but none of them are designed for warmth, they are designed for looks so they are useless at keeping my feet warm. I decided to wear a pair of Keds (sneakers) thinking maybe the canvas fabric would be better at retaining heat in the foot area and also because those particular shoes fit loosley enough I can wear thicker socks with them lol. I was horrifically wrong and my toes were in that pain/numb/frozen state for quite a while, you know, that stage where it hurts to walk because you can’t put pressure on your toes, that stage. Ugh. I’ve been mildly lusting after a pair of Uggs (or a fake pair cause really? that much money on boots? lame!) for those rare times when I need warm boots. I have an old pair that are kind of like fake Uggs but nicer lol thing is they are so old they are way unattractive and the only time I wear them is when I am going to work on my early morning days and want my feet to stay cozy while I am en route to work. Obviously once I get there I switch to cute but completely not designed for winter shoes lol. In case you haven’t figured it out I am not always practical *rolls eyes*

I am actually really tempted to go shopping tomorrow during the day and buy a pair of warm boots because I am going back to the market tomorrow night with a couple friends. The market. The outdoor market. At night. In winter. On a day we are predicted to get snow. With feet in shoes not designed for warmth. I am gonna cry like a little girl. sigh. I can almost justify them because I could wear them when I go home for Christmas, back to Alberta, the land of deep snow and cold weather. My feet may not survive lol

Oh! I finally got some software so I can black out my face in pics which means I can finally post a pic of myself when I am out doing something, yay for remembering to get the software! lol So here ya go, me with a nutcracker, finally a guy taller than me! πŸ˜‰

 

The oh so handsome Nutcracker and I

The oh so handsome Nutcracker and I

Aaaaaand here is a pic of downtown from across the water, isn’t it so purdy?

the guay

My picture doesn't do the view justice

My picture doesn’t do the view justice

Part 2 of the German Market post will come tomorrow night after I have gone for the second time this year with my friends. I figure I’ll have better pics cause everything will be all lit up and pretty and my hands won’t be filled with bags because I did my shopping today lol. πŸ™‚ …although I am gonna get another apple cider, Mmm!

Best. Day. Ever.

10 Dec

ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod!

Did I say ohmygod! enough times? No, I think I need one more…

Oh. My. Gaaaaawd!Β 

BEST. DAY. EVER! πŸ˜€

Remember how yesterday I mentioned I had an appointment to go to today at 1pm? I purposefully didn’t say what the appointment was for because I am superstitious and didn’t want to jinx anything but it has happened, epic things came of it, and now I get to bring you up to date! *girly squeal*

I had an interview with an agent, an agent at a really good Talent Agency, to see about signing to his roster and have him represent me.

When I initially contacted the agency D responded and said they were only looking to expand their commercial roster right now and if I was interested then yes I could send my info to him. What this means is I would be put in for auditions for commercials but not for tv shows or movies. Well, I want to go for tv and film roles but am aware I have to earn my way up the ladder so I said yes I’d be open to commercial representation. I figured get my foot in the door, after I’ve proven myself talk to them about also repping me for tv shows and film. Sounds good, right? Right!

Well, while we were talking he said that even though they are expanding their commercial roster he can tell that I am “meant for tv and film” and he is going to start me with commercials but push to get me out there for tv and film auditions quickly because it is obvious that is what I am meant to be doing! Oh. My. God! Yesssss! πŸ˜€

What would normally be a one hour interview became a bit over two hours and he offered me a spot on his roster right then and there, no having to wait and let him think about it or meet with the others on his team, he wanted me. Just as I am. Amazing. Just…wow…

We had such an instant and solid connection that I already knew I wanted to sign with him and am so thrilled he feels the same! πŸ˜€

Normally I would never try to get an agent in December, it is such a bad month for that. Agents are already thinking vacation, filming has shut down for the holidays, the only people really working are doing prep things for January (like costume fittings etc), it is traditionally a horrible month to try to find representation. A friend of mine who is also signed with this agency recommended them to me and when I took a look at them I had this feeling…I know, sounds hokey, but that really is what happened, I just had a feeling I should apply. Forget that it is a bad month for it, forget that I am not at my “perfect weight” yet, forget all the logical reasons for not applying, just apply! It is what my gut was saying and I decided to listen. Man am I glad I listened!

The lull in the industry for the next couple weeks is perfect too. D said he will use the next two weeks to get all my online profiles etc looking the way they should, everything can get shifted to show I am signed with D, my brand can be re-worked a bit so when January gets here everything will be good to go and he can start submitting me asap for auditions. Who’d of thought a lull in filming would be a good thing? lol

We talked about getting me in front of casting directors, workshops, my headshots, all kinds of things. He is so pro-active about getting me seen and getting me in the audition room that I feel really confident about what we can accomplish. πŸ™‚

Oh, and get this! He never once said I have to lose weight! He believes in diversification, he knows the trends are changing, people want to see a wider variety of looks on screen and instead of trying to force me to look like everyone else he is going to promote me the way I am, because I have my own look, I am unique, there is no one else that looks like me and the industry is changing and seeing they need that different look. I love this man. I have had agents say they won’t put me out for work until I get 15 pounds underweight! Not “lose a bit of weight” but “get 15 pounds underweight”! that is so unhealthy! Not just for the body but the psyche. Being told you are worthless as an actor until you are underweight by a noticeable amount, not cool. It really messes with a girl, boo! But D, he loves how I look. He loves how I can pull of different “types” (badass, down to earth, quirky etc) and what is great is he noticed while we talked all those different parts of my personality (and more) which means he is observant and will be better able to sell me to casting directors because he really does know I can be all those different things, he isn’t just making it up.

Can ya tell I’m still over the moon about today? lol

This morning I was an unrepresented actor with not a lot of hope for landing a well paying roll. Tonight I go to bed a represented actor whose chances just got a whole hell of a lot better.

I can’t wait for 2014 to get here, I am going to make it my year!

Maijah Lewk Logo

A Winter Wonderland

9 Dec

I live in the one part of Canada that gets almost no snow. When I first moved here I loved and hated that. I’m still pretty torn on it to be honest. I think if I had to shovel it I’d flat out hate it again but since I never live in places that require me to shovel, the snow never gets deep or lasts beyond 4 days and it is more a dusting than a snowfall I can safely say I generally look forward to the snow. πŸ™‚

Today I was at work when the snow started and I was so happy and cheerful about it you’d think I was a child on Christmas morning looking at a huge pile of presents lol. But hey, if you can’t find joy in the little things how will you ever find happiness? I was told if I kept referring to it as pretty I’d be the one who had to go outside and shovel it from the work driveway lol I promptly stopped cause, uh hello? Me? Shovel? Pfft! So not happening! I didn’t bring a jacket to work! πŸ˜›

It is supposed to keep snowing, although really it is flurries at best, until sometime tomorrow which means we might actually have snow that stays! πŸ˜€ Better yet, it might fully cover the grass! Ooooooh exciting! I’m not looking forward to the driving tomorrow, people here suck at driving once our little amount of snow arrives. It’s embarrassing on behalf of all Canadians from other provinces *rolls eyes* I have to be somewhere at 1pm which would normally take maybe 20 minutes to get to, I will be leaving an hour in advance just in case traffic is that slow. Sounds overly paranoid I know but last year I had to drive somewhere that normally took about 30 minutes and it ended up taking more than 2 hours. Told ya people here don’t know how to drive in snow! lol

I had other stuff I was gonna blog about today but the snow has taken over my thoughts lol It is the perfect evening to sit inside with a cup of hot chocolate a book and a view of the snow…if only I had windows that gave me a view of the snow! lol

I highly enjoyed making footprints in the snow!

Proof I walked through the snow lol

 

Still a lot of grass but I have hope the grass'll be covered by tomorrow!

Still a lot of grass but I have hope the grass’ll be covered by tomorrow!

 

How Much Is Your Hair Worth?

8 Dec

The cost of getting a hair cut is mildly ridiculous…well, if you’re someone with long hair. I know many guys who go every three weeks to get their hair cut and they spend less over the course of a year then I do and I get my hair done hmm, maybe 4 times a year max? Somehow that just doesn’t seem fair to me. But maybe that is just me?

I have a thing I am going to Tuesday and I wanted to get a quick trim so my hair looks tidy. Just a simple half inch to an inch off the ends and my fringe tidied up a bit. Not a big deal, right? Well ha! To get that done at the salon I normally go to would have cost me minimum $50 and that is if I am lucky! It never costs that little!

There is a salon across the street from where I work that I thought I’d try but they are closed Sundays, lame. However, when I was on the mall’s website checking out the salon I noticed there was one of those basic hair cut places, this one is called Great Clips. I never go to those places because I’m a firm believer of “you get what you pay for” and how good can a hair cut under $20 really be? But this was such a simple little trim it seemed safe.

It was not all that safe. Poor hair.

Because I have a lot of hair whenever it gets cut every hairdresser does the same thing, they pin most of it up, trim the bottom part, then gradually release the layers of hair and trim each layer separately, making sure each new layer matches the layers already trimmed. Makes sense, right? This lady swished some of my hair over my shoulder, cut a bit that still hung down my back, then pulled all my hair behind my shoulders so it hung down my back and started cutting. Ack! Who does that?! She didn’t even put the chair higher so she could easily get to my ends or have me stand up (my hair is that long that I am always asked to stand so the ends can be easily worked on). By this point I was starting to hope she’d forget about my fringe because while errors can be easily hidden with the long parts of my hair if she screws up the fringe (fyi that means my bangs) that is easily visible for the whoooole world to see. Well, she didn’t forget, damn.

I showed her very clearly where I wanted the shortest part of the fringe to be, they are side sweeping so they gradually get longer, and what does she do? Make em shorter, sigh. Not crazy horrible I-am-scary-to-look-at-short but noticeably shorter then what I said I wanted. Why do hairdressers do that? *rolls eyes*

Ah well, not like hair is that important in the grand scheme of life, and when I got home and fiddled with it I learned the hair is style-able which means I won’t look like a weirdo on Tuesday, or any day come to think of it lol

This is the lesson I re-learned though…You Get What You Pay For!

This trim cost me a little under $20, I left the hairdressers with still damp hair, shorter then I wanted hair and minor worries about just how even the back of my hair might be considering how she cut it. Maybe those places are ok for short hair, or kids hair but for my hair? Nope! Never again! Guess I’ll hafta keep coughing up the money to keep the hair looking purdy.

ohpleaseohpleaseohplease don't look like that! pleeeeease!

ohpleaseohpleaseohplease don’t look like that! pleeeeease!

Forgotten Food Prep

7 Dec

I thought I was doing oh so well, I cooked chicken in advance so I would have meals for Friday and Saturday at work, I have all my stuff to make salads in my fridge, lots of frozen veggies in my freezer and yet…sigh, I forgot about Sunday and Monday! Ack! lol

Which means this evening when I got home from work I immediately went to the kitchen and started cooking, not how I generally like to spend my nights when I get off work! I didn’t have too too much to do, mostly cause I cheated lol but I still wish I’d remembered earlier in the day and gotten it taken care of before I went to work.

I hard boiled some eggs and cooked some turkey bacon and should have cooked some chicken or fish but that is where the cheating came in πŸ˜‰

I was too busy to eat dinner at work this evening so I opted for leaving my chicken and vegg in the fridge at work and use it for lunch tomorrow. I will take a salad to put the chicken and vegg on top of and have a super tasty lunch. Is it sad that I like home made salads so much? I feel it might be…

Anyways!

The eggs are sitting in cold water, the turkey bacon is cooling so I can put it in Tupperware and soon it will all be in the fridge, placed beside the containers with my salad and dressing and I will be hightailing it to bed, somewhere I should have been a while ago but I’ve been dealing with computer stuff (upgrades an stuff, boring but necessary, shrug)

There were Girl Guides visiting at work today, caroling and visiting with the residents, they brought cookies to share and man were they tempting! They left extra boxes that anyone could take and I was thisssssss-close to plucking a box from the bag and bringing it home. I could practically envision myself sitting and mindlessly eating cookies while watching tv or doing stuff on the computer or whatever. I don’t even particularly like Girl Guide cookies, but they were still super tempting. I’m not gonna lie, I don’t really know how I managed to avoid taking a box and gorging on them…except that even while I could envision myself eating them I also couldn’t envision myself eating them…I know that doesn’t make sense but that’s the only way I can think of to say it…

I have my goal, and I so want to reach it! I couldn’t envision myself eating the cookies because then I’d feel horrible about myself for days for taking three steps back when I’d been doing so well going forward. Which means if I brought them home I’d have put them in my pantry, not eaten them and ended up throwing them out in a month when I wanted to clear the space and if I did that I’d just be annoyed with myself. Seemed easier to save myself the trouble. πŸ˜›

Mmm! Cookie! I like the vanilla ones best!

Mmm! Cookie! I like the vanilla ones best!

Nowhere Near Wordless Wednesday

4 Dec

Alrighty, so we all know I suck at Wordless Wednesdays, I never get enough pictures, I never remember to post on the Wednesday so I can use what pictures I managed to take, it’s just not my strong suit lol But I’m going to give it another go…

Breakfast and Lunch from Starbucks

Breakfast and Lunch from Starbucks

Nutritional info from the Protein Bistro Box from Starbucks

Nutritional info from the Protein Bistro Box from Starbucks

Breakfast and lunch today were from Starbucks, I don’t recommend this lol. I grabbed the Protein Bistro Box, along with a Grande Soy Chai Latte and while the drink is tasty, and the food alright, it wasn’t as good a breakfast as my normal egg, two slices of turkey bacon, apple and cup of tea, shrug.

In my Bistro Box I had: 1 hard boiled egg, 3 slices of apple, 9 seedless grapes, 1 slice of white cheddar cheese, 1 piece of bread with fruit in it (raisins) and 1 packet of peanut butter. I did not eat the bread or the peanut butter (even though I desperately wanted the peanut butter because I miss peanut butter!) I shouldn’t have eaten the cheese either, what with it being dairy and I’m supposed to be non-dairy right now buuuuut I kinda forgot, lol, I’m not even lying, I was eating, knew I wasn’t going to eat the bread or peanut butter but didn’t even clue in about the cheese, oops! And yes, sometimes I am just that dumb πŸ˜›

Knitting and I...oh dear...

Knitting and I…oh dear…

 

A little farther along....

A little farther along….

 

 

Ok, granted my attempt at knitting looks pathetic so far but hey! I’m just learning (my little sister is teaching me πŸ™‚ ) and she is uber patient with me which is good as I kinda suck lol I’m actually farther along then that second pic shows I just didn’t take another picture of it yet

Ahhhhh, steeped tea, Mmm!

Ahhhhh, steeped tea, Mmm!

My Timmy’s steeped tea – this is what got me through the knitting lesson! πŸ˜›

What I ordered for dinner, it says right there it is "very healthy"!

What I ordered for dinner, it says right there it is “very healthy”!

 

What my dinner actually looked like

What my dinner looked like

 

I had a dragon boat team meeting that was held at a Japanese Restaurant. We go there often and usually I order sushi but it is cold out tonight and I wanted something warm. I was also trying to find something I’d be able to calculate the nutritional information for afterwards lol According to the sign the Chicken Mizutaki is “very healthy foods” and the list of ingredients sure sounds healthy so I figured why not? Lemme tell ya, healthy? Maybe. Tasty? Nope! Most bland meal ever! It was a clear, tasteless broth, with noodles, tofu, chicken, one slice of carrot and a bunch of cabbage in it. Oh, and one shitaki mushroom, that’s the dark spot in the pic in the left side of the bowl. I was planning on avoiding as much of the noodles as possible but I was super hungry, the meal was super not filling and I ended up eating noodles because the alternate was eating a pathetic amount of vegg, some tofu and some chicken. sigh. I checked nutritional information for this dish once I got home, I found information for a version of it that actually had more variety of vegg in the dish so I know the info isn’t quite accurate but it is the best I’ve got. All in all, not horrible calorie wise but I wouldn’t order it again. Just because something is healthy doesn’t mean it has to be tasteless! I’d rather something with flavour next time thank-you-very-much. πŸ™‚

A new tea for my "collection"

A new tea for my “collection”

 

I am venturing in to the world of flavoured tea. My outlook on tea is this, flavoured tea is not tea, it is a flavoured hot drink, but not tea. Tea is tea. The end. However, I am trying to branch out and this is what I bought. I chose this because I already know I like chai and, well, that’s pretty much the only reason. lol I’m fairly certain there is no caffeine in this tea but I could be wrong, maybe I should google before I go any further…

…alright, so I just googled and I am wrong, crap. My chai tea does have caffeine, sigh. The whole reason I am trying flavoured teas is due to my inability to go to sleep like a normal person. I drink Tetley tea like it is going out of style! I love my cuppa Tetley. πŸ™‚ I have it as my first drink of the day to wake me up, my last drink of the day to calm me down and multiple times throughout the day just because. My theory was swap out my last cup of the day with a non-caffeinated tea and maybe that would help me get to sleep easier…it’s worth a shot at least! I’ve already had a cup of the chai tea this evening and it tasted good, not as good as Teltey, and not as good as a Chai Latte (massive weakness of mine!) but good. Even though it turns out it does have caffeine so it won’t work as part of my new found plan it won’t go to waste, I like it enough I’ll keep drinking it, though I miiiiight not replace it once it is gone, we shall see!

Well, that is the end of my pictures so I guess that means it is the end of my post! lol πŸ™‚

I Made A Boo-Boo

3 Dec

It is totally NOT what you think! πŸ˜› lol

I’m doing my “Lose A Pant Size By Dec 22/13” challenge, clickΒ HereΒ to read about it, or just scroll to the top of the page and hit the Page named Nov 12/13-Dec 22/13 Challenge if you don’t know what I am yapping about.

In a nutshell, I am following a super strict eating plan (and exercising, duh lol) in an attempt to lose a pant size by Dec 22/13. I won’t go in to all the details about why etc cause I’d just be repeating what is written on the actual challenge page…just know that it is for vanity’s sake lol and it is reeeeally strict! Worth it, but strict.

Well, today I made plans to go see a movie with a friend. I was so proud, I purposefully suggested the later movie time so I would have no excuse to not exercise. No way I could run out of time in my day if I wasn’t meeting him until 8:45pm right? Right! πŸ™‚

Thing is, I kiiiinda ran out of time, not to exercise! I went to Zumba! But to eat…oops? *cringe face* Don’t judge! It wasn’t on purpose!

I bet Cookie Monster never forgot to eat...

I bet Cookie Monster never forgot to eat…

I had a late brekkie (cause I slept in lol) then did stuff around the apartment for a while, went to Zumba, came home, made a protein shake, showered, groomed and went out. Somewhere in there I swear I intended to eat dinner, ya know, after Zumba but before going out buuuuuut it didn’t happen…

The boo-boo, if you hadn’t guessed, was that I was ridiculously under my calories for the day, especially when you factor in how many I burned while exercising. I’m already eating a small-ish amount of calories daily (1010 to be exact) but I dropped down to a number distressingly smaller than that, sigh.

So now I’m sitting here, typing away at 3 am, though the time stamp on the post won’t show that cause I always alter them before I publish a post lol, hungry, though not as hungry as I expected to be, but knowing I am not going to eat anything because I am about to go to bed. Poor tummy, it must think I hate it…

Oh, in case you were wondering, what did I do that filled in the time I should have spent cooking then eating my dinner, it was my nails. That’s right! I was doing my nails, lost track of time, then realized I didn’t have time to cook anything anymore. Some days I am such a girl lol πŸ˜›

I’m going to tell you my calories for the day, are you sitting down? Take a deep breath and try not to think too badly of me ok? I ate 506 calories, I burned 361 calories, which leaves me with a net calorie amount of…144…*braces for accusing glares and lectures*

I didn’t mean to! Honest! If I wan gonna purposefully starve myself do you think I’d be admitting it on here?! *rolls eyes*

I just know I’m gonna wake up hungry tomorrow, sigh, which will suck. Plus, all day tomorrow I will have a thought in my head that goes something like this “sure, I shouldn’t eat that, but I ate so little yesterday surely today I can splurge a little?” Horrible! It will be a horrible tempting thought that I will have to resist so as not to screw up but in the opposite direction of the way I screwed up today. Oy! lol

On that note I am going to go to bed since I have to be up early-ish, I will probably dream about food since right now, that’s pretty much all I am thinking about lol Pancakes to be specific, I am really wanting pancakes right now, which is ridiculous cause I couldn’t eat those even if I was going to eat something…maybe I’ll have them for my birthday breakfast…hmm, something to think about and possibly look forward to! lol

 

I Nyquil’d!

2 Dec

Yes I created a word. Or maybe this is already a thing? If it isn’t it should be. I mean I know people do it, but does it have a term yet? Cause if not, how is “I Nyquil’d” not the best term for it?

Ok, for those of you who I have already lost lemme back up a bit lol

I don’t sleep well. Actually, that’s not right, I don’t sleep well at night. Weird, right? I sleep great once I am actually asleep but getting asleep? Holy crap that is hard! How do people do that with any kind of speed?? I will go to bed at say 1am, kinda tired but not really, but knowing I should be going to bed otherwise I’ll sleep half the next day away. Well yeah, just cause I am in bed doesn’t mean I pass out now does it? Nope. Nope it doesn’t. I quite easily will stay awake until 3,4,5am. It sucks. Doesn’t matter if I am tired and want to sleep or awake and just trying to force myself to sleep, getting to sleep just isn’t something my body likes to do.

Like I said though, once I am asleep I am fine, usually. There are obviously nights where I don’t get a deep sleep so I’m constantly waking up, rolling over and falling back asleep buuuut the nights I sleep well? Heaven! They make me wish I could get a job sleeping cause I am just that good at it!

Nothing wakes me! Not even exagerating here. Wanna text me? Go for it! I don’t care that my phone is right beside my head, I won’t hear it! Wanna knock on my door? I won’t even twitch! Are you a roomie and you make a shit tonne of noise in the mornings? I don’t care, I don’t hear you! bwahahaha! I thwart all your attempts to wake me! πŸ˜›

I get my best sleep when everyone else is getting up and going about their day. When the city around me is sleeping I am all “let’s clean, let’s read, let’s watch a movie, let’s work out, let’s do anything and everything because I am wide awake” but once the sun starts setting I am all “ok, bed time, zzzzzzzzzz” It’s like my internal clock is reversed.

Most days/nights I don’t really care, I make it work for me and all is well. If I have some days where I have to be up earlier then what I would naturally wake at so I spend the day yawning, well, shrug, it’s ok, I’m used to it.

Thing is, sinceΒ this nightΒ my ability to fall asleep has gotten even worse. Hard to believe, I didn’t really think it could get worse… Where as before I’d usually be able to fall asleep by about 3am or so now it is pushed to 4 then 5am and well, this is just no good!Β I mean come on! Two days a week I have to be up at 5:20am, I can’t fall asleep at 5am just to wake up at 5:20am, even I can’t function well on that little sleep! Arg!

I was getting concerned leading up to Saturday night (Sunday morning is the first of my two work days where I have to be up at 5:20am). How was I going to get to sleep? What was I going to do when I was unable to function at work on Sunday? How do other people dooooooo this?!?! When I panic my questions don’t become super deep lol.

Then I had a brainstorm! When I was sick a couple weeks ago I used, for the first time, Nyquil cough syrup for night time. It helped me sleep by calming my cough down and making me drowsy, it is a miracle liquid! Don’t mind me, I don’t take over the counter medications often so to me this nasty tasting liquid was crazy awesome. πŸ™‚

Nyquil, my new best friend!

Nyquil, my new best friend!

I decided to Nyquil myself. Yup, that’s right, when I got home after work I took a half dose of the cough syrup and let it help me drift off to la-la land. It sooooo worked! Not only did I get 5 full hours of deep sleep but when my alarm went off I woke up easily and had no problem getting up and ready for the day. Yes! Success! πŸ™‚

I of course, not being a dummy, did a repeat Sunday night since I had to be up at 5:20am Monday morning. Guess what? Same superb results! Got a great 5 hours of sleep, woke up easily, woke up alert, had a day that ended with me having enough energy to go work out instead of go home and have a nap. πŸ™‚ Is this what normal people feel like?

Now obviously I am not going to do this every night (much as I may want to lol) because I can’t rely on Nyquil to get me to sleep every night but I am definitely going to keep it as a back up plan for my Saturday and Sunday nights!

I’m also kind of seriously wondering if how I felt both mornings is how other people feel every morning? Cause that’s just weeeeird, and something that kinda makes me jealous lol πŸ˜›